#literally so beautiful sobs

[nightvale-thoughts]

i got to watch the total solar eclipse yesterday and all i could think of was the dark planet of awesome size, lit by no sun, an invisible titan, all thick black forests and jagged mountains and deep, turbulent oceans…

#welcome to night vale #wtnv #on a serious note did anyone else who got to catch full totality cry #it literally looked like a hole had opened up in the sky. the stars came out and i couldn’t stop crying #i was weeping full audible sobs by the time it was over #i cried on the bus ride home #so beautiful holy shit #egypt 2027 anyone? #solar eclipse

[indiangp]

Happy 31st birthday Marc Márquez! (17.02.1993) [insp.]

#girl learns how to do gradient text and cant stop #anyways i literally just stopped sobbing thinking about him #happy birthday beautiful i miss you so much #marc marquez #motogp #myedit #mygifs #marcmarquezedit

[absurdumsid]

If you still taking requests can I have some error x nightmare?

ABSOLUTELY !! errormare cant kiss ? errormare cant hold hands ? NO, I. WILL ! MAKE !! IT !!! WORK !!!!

Error! Sans belongs to CrayonQueen/LoverofPiggies

Corrupted! Nightmare belongs to jokublog

#when theres a WILL theres a WAY #error will make nightmare a doll of him to keep in his office <- he has one of nightmare #also haphephobia ? rendering them unable to hold hands ? WRONG error intertwines their pinky fingers with his string <- no need to touch + #somehow it stretches when they get apart (they can find each other) + its cute + nightmare can feel what error is feeling better <- it is a #+ direct link to error i WILL. KILL. I WILL MAIN #MAIM ** #errormare #IN YOU FACE !!!!!!! #error sans #corrupted nightmare #nightmare sans #sanscest #sans au #GOD i love errormare #<- the fact that theyre both ? falling apart ? physically and mentally ? but thats literally theyre thing so its actually completely ok ?? #<- i fucking. i need that. i need that in my life #ERROR IS LITERALLY CRUMBLING PIECES AND NIGHTMARE IS SOME HUGE BUNDLE OF GOO #IM SOBBING THEY ARE SUCH FRAGILE BROKEN VESSELS FOR SUCH BEAUTIFUL PEOPLW #also like. whiteboard decided to make me redo this twice (i was trying to move down but it fuckigng REFRESHED and it WASNT SAVING) #anyway teehee i love errormare #sid answers #sid art

[hamartia-grander]

YOU CAN ACTUALLY ADOPT A DAUGHTER WITH WYLL???????????????? FOR REAL????????????????????????????

#AND HER NAME IS *ACTUALLY* LILY AURORA?????????? THAT'S NOT SOME WYLLSTARION HC THAT'S *REAL*?????????????? #This is the best fucking thing I've learned all year #I knew my type was girl dads but holy shit #I'm gonna sob this is incredible #such a cute name too of course he'd come up w something like that #Wyll my beautiful wife I love you so #bg3 #Wyll Ravengard #sorry I've played hundreds of hours so far and literally only just figured this out

[localcapricosimp]

HAJAEGEIWGEISVDUDGEWISBSWIEBEDU IT'S HERE!!!! TAPIS ROGUE VIL SSR GROOVY IS HERE

MOM. MOTHER. I AM SOBBING. VIL WHAT THE HELL YOU CAN'T FUCKING DO THIS I AM CLUTCHING THE WALL SVSSGVTJBGSAWKJ

#twisted wonderland #vil schoenheit #i saw a man so beautiful i started crying #THE GROOVY #twisted wonderland vil #vil twisted wonderland #VIL OMG #HE'S STUNNING #OOOHHHHH MY GOD #I'M GONNA SCREAM #i'm literally sobbing and you will not stop me

[pwurrz]

HELLOOOOOOO MY PRETTY PRETTY PRINCESS!!!!!!!!!

#HE’S SO HANDSOME?? SCREAMING CRYING SOBBING????? #THE SUIT??? THE OPEN CHEST??? THE GLOVES???? THE DELICATE SNAKE DETAILS???? HIS HAIR??? HIS CHEST?????? #HE’S LITERALLY SO BEAUTIFUL WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK #EATS MY HAND!!!! SWALLOWS HIM ENTIRE ARM!!!!!!! #nu carnival #yakumo ♡

[ef-1]

girlhood

#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day #like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year. #when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍 #not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again #and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :) #like everything i do is informed by her #I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her #and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢 #and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again #“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her #growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain #and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when #people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it #but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up- #when people mention it 😍 #last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her) #and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook” #and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one #and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?” #im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her #lol!!!!!!!!!

[wowifinallywatched]

Saw: The Final Chapter

Me: A room and the lighting of it won't make me emotional

The Room: *The OG saw bathroom*

Me: SOBBING IN THE CORNER BESIDE MY BABY BOY ADAMS BODY

#still haven't recovered from Adam's death #THAT ENDING WAS SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL I LITERALLY GOT TEARY EYED #MOTHERFUCKING KARMA BIIIIIIITCH #SUCK ON DEEZ DEAD ASS DRY BONES NUTS #I'm so sorry I should not be excited about a man led to his eternal doom #YOU TOUCHED THE ONE THING YOU SHOULDN'T OF #AND YOU KNOW THAT MOTHERFUCKIN JIGGY SAWWY MAN ALWAYS HAS A PLAN #I cannot believe the OG Dr was apart of this all along this is absolutely psycho #so fucking beautiful but psycho #BUT JUSTICE FOR MY BOY ADAM IS DESERVED HE SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN LEFT TO DIE #I UNDERSTAND THE GAME BUT SOBS #saw #saw 7 #saw 3d #saw the final chapter #adam stanheight #saw adam #mark hoffman #detective hoffman #saw franchise #just saw thoughts #saw memes #sawposting #saw 1 #saw i #saw spoilers

[squishosaur]

why did it get so cold all of the sudden. literally what is with that 💀

#SOBBING I FORGOT HOW TO DRAW HIM & WENT THROUGH SO MANY HAIRSTYLES UM #guys i'm literally. i'm gonna do a study on textured hair and come back to you okay? okay #twisted wonderland #twst fanart #twst #leona kingscholar #my art :> #digital art #i like it. but i do not also. #IK I HAVE A GIRLYPOPIFICATION TO MY ART BUT I FEEL LIKE... something is off??? perhaps i did bad #its bc my pinterest refs are all beautiful women ok. that's it #tumblr user idiaphobic this ia for you but i saw that you said you were deleting tumblr sooo 😭😭😭

[rings-of-power-realm]

Where did we first meet? 

Seaside. When I was first orphaned. I was alone. A young, half-elven boy, without friend or kin.  

#the rings of power #rop spoilers #ringsofpowersource #ropedit #galadriel #elrond #alloyed #Y'ALL Y'ALLLLL #IM SOBBING UNTIL THE END OF TIME #also sidenote I thought the dedication at the end credits was beautiful #far green country under a swift sunrise <3 #always one of my very fave Gandalf lines/book quotes #literally all my fave characters in all my fave media have done the forehead touch #DO NOT TOUCH ME I AM UNWELL #THIS WASSO BEAUTIFUL #GOD I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

[breadeads]

Alien Stage | R O U N D 6

To quiet my fears, I will drown in you

#alien stage #My shirt is literally soaked from my tears #I'm sobbing so hard #Man i just wanted them to be happy #Wtf artist-nim #This is so beautiful I can not #It kinda fucks me up that Ivan never lets his gaze stray away from Till #He loves Till and watches him love someone else who's inlove with another #Ivan only looks at Till #But till never looks back

[meteorblazes]

funeral? more like funer-L hahaa. i apolocheese

#my art #meteorblaze art #evere #dnd art #dnd character #cnd #oh funeral session…. my babygirl #also eveys outfit fucking slayed #idgaf #like yeah they experiencedthe horrors but also she looked beautiful so really she won #loke come on babygirl it’s literally fine #stop sobbing crying shitting yourself youre literally besutiful #like yeah you just learned everything you did to fix yourself was worthless #bc there is no miraculous cure for this #but you were still fucking SLAYINGGGGGGGGG #so 🤷‍♀️ #swag ever bbg dont even worry about it

[loveydive]

thinking about that ocean vuong quote ‘Because that’s what mothers do. They wait. They stand still until their children belong to someone else’ and the rest of the paragraph is little dog telling his mother that he hates her and that she is a monster only to take it back when she isnt there anymore, that he didnt mean it. mothers, especially immigrant mothers, belong to their children first. they dedicate their whole lives to them, quashing their own potential and personhood at times to do so.

and i was just thinking about how the ending of everything everywhere all at once was the complete opposite of that. how at first when joy asks evelyn to let her go, she does what she wants - she lets her go. ‘because that’s what mothers do’ and it feels like she’s doing the right thing, by letting her daughter go to get rid of the pain that she’s feeling. but it is an passive act of love - one that immigrant mothers are too familiar with. to raise and love your children through sacrifice (so much sacrifice) while neglecting what they themselves want.

joy tells evelyn to let go, not because she actually wanted her to let go but because it was a challenge, almost a test, for her mother. like when little dog tells his mother that he hates her and that she is a monster, they both dont mean it. its a test. they want to see to what extent their mothers can love them. would you love me even if you thought i hated you? if i called you a monster? would you love me if i asked you to let me go? even if i told you that being with you hurts us both? and joy gets her answer. evelyn refuses to let her go because she loves her. without a doubt.

she holds onto joy and doesn’t let go. she tells her that she ‘will always always want to be here with’ her. even when there are other universes where she doesnt make all those sacrifices and is more successful - she chooses joy (metaphorically and literally). and its just. i keep thinking about that other tumblr post where they talk about how evelyn wanted to feel that she was worth loving and not letting go of with her dad. and she does that with joy!! she doesn’t let her go because she loves her. evelyn in the movie shatters the mother’s instinct of ‘standing still until their children belong to someone else’. she is no longer a bystander in her own daughter’s life but someone who actively chooses to be with her. love doesn’t just sit there, it is made!! and i just love it so much.

#eeaao #everything everywhere all at once #cin.txt #literally rewatched the scene of this post an i ended up sobbing even harder than when i watched it the first time #genuinely love this movie so much you dont understand #on earth we're briefly gorgeous #such a beautiful book btw #i feel like i need to read it again #even tho i just read it a few months ago LOL #edit: also just want to say that bc evelyn chooses to love joy. she exhibits her own agency in doing so. #when she does it she isnt just doing it bc shes her mother. shes doing it as a person who loves joy.

[hamartia-grander]

Oh I'm looking.

#Sobbing he's literally the most beautiful man in the world #He looks so fucking good in that dress it's literally unreal #I need him #Wyll Ravengard #Bg3 #Baldur's gate 3 #“just look at me!” babygirl I can't do anything else #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 memes #bg3 wyll

[roboraindrop]

I have a real, legitimate wedding dress 😭😭😭

#bro when I tell you. we literally didnt plan on buying anything. #we were going so that i could try on poofy dresses i could never dream of affording. #but this one. hoo man. it was on SALE. it was BEAUTIFUL. #SPARKLES and TULLE. FLOWERS. LACE. #i stared at myself in the mirror and I cried #my fiance's mom bought the dress for me on the spot 😭😭😭😭 #I'm so grateful. still sobbing gffjkghjhf #irl gushing #rain rambles

[iwoulddieforienzo]

Something that makes reading TOA so devastating is how fucking much Apollo feels about Everything. There’s so MUCH. Like I don’t even know how to describe it to you if you haven’t read the books yourself. He has so many complicated thoughts and emotions about just about everything and he cares about everything so much and there is just SO MUCH going on in his head. And yet none of it ever reaches his mouth!!

He almost never says what he’s feeling. What little comes out of his mouth about his thoughts barely even scratches the surface of what he actually means. Like he’ll be having a long ass monologue about how incredible someone is, showing a deep understanding of them as a person and empathizing with them so hard you’d almost think it’s projection but it’s not he’s legitimately just mind melding with this random person he met like a week ago and he’s thinking the softest, kindest thoughts about them like he knows they’re fucking incredible - and what comes out of his mouth is just like, “you’re a wonderful friend :)” AND ITS LIKE. THERES SO MUCH MORE UNDER THE SURFACE. the sheer admiration and adoration he has for everyone around him……… UGHHH!!! But he never VOICES ANY OF IT!!!!!! He never tells anyone about what Zeus did to him……. He never tells anyone except the reader about his realization that Zeus is abusive…. He never even tells commodus about how much he adored him, not then and not now… he refuses to tell anyone when he’s in pain or tries to justify the things he does when he actually had Decent Reasons for why he did something… I’m. I’M. AUGH. AHHHHH

HE DOESN’T EVEN TELL US ALL OF HIS THOUGHTS IS THE THING. THERES EVEN MORE THAT HE IS NOT TELLING US!!!!! THE FUCKING OCEAN OF FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS HE HAS ABOUT EVERYTHING IS THE CLIFF NOTES VERSION. I AM IN DISTRESS.

And YET…. Even what slips out of his mouth is so fucking devastating it is SO devastating. He’s so fucking kind and gentle with Harley and Meg and and other younger Demis and his kids… he’ll act like an obstinate idiot and then turn around say something that drags the core of the person he’s talking to into the light like nail on the fucking HEAD like he reached into their soul and gave them the words to express something that they were struggling to say aloud or that they didn’t even realize about themself. Around the 2nd book he starts putting voice to some of his feelings and thoughts about others and even that tiny fucking sliver is overwhelming to the people he’s talking to bc he’s SO. AUGHHHH

#this is why ‘reading the TOA books’ fics fucking slap btw. because as embarrassing as his thoughts can be #so many of them are just incoherent screaming about how he loves everyone around him. devastating #like imagine helping out ur loser deadbeat dad who you don’t really know much about bc he’s flighty and hard to read #and finding out ‘wow he cares about us a lot more than I thought’ #bc he literally almost dies to save you/your siblings and keeps following you all around everywhere #but he’s still like. your weirdo absentee dad. u don’t know hardly anything new about him other than an apparent suicidal streak #and then u find out that the whole time he was whining about chicken nuggets or whatever he was internally sobbing abt how much he loves u #and every time u were nearby he was going ‘MY BEAUTIFUL PERFECT BABY… JUST AS INCREDIBLE AS THEIR MORTAL PARENT!!!! BEAUTIFUL LIKE THE SUN! #HOW DID I EVEN MAKE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PERFECT BABY. UNREAL. THEY CANT BE MINE!? BUT THEY ARE!!! LOOK AT THEMMM!!?!!! IM SO PROUD…… #my beautiful perfect angels… all of their parents best traits and none of our worst…. I am Barely restraining myself from sobbing #i would give u the WORLD if my father wouldn’t kill me for it :(‘ #and it’s like. wow. okay dad. um. would have been nice to know that when we were all dying in The War #Please Hug Me Though. #imagine being a Random Ass Demigod who didn’t go on a big special quest or something like you are literally just Some Guy #and finding out that this weirdo loser god u gave a sandwhich to or something thinks you are so fucking cool #your own parent doesn’t know ur name but Apollo knows u on sight and read ur soul within the 2 seconds yall talked and he thinks you rock #how are you supposed to respond to that. #snack time #toa #longpost