i know im just going through a rough patch and i won't feel like this forever but oh my god i feel like its gonna last forever. i feel like im never gonna experience joy again or feel normal or make a close friend or find someone i like who likes me or fall in love or enjoy myself or be happy. i feel like im gonna feel this weird strange loneliness for the rest of my life and im never gonna find reasons to be happy and im never gonna find motivation or meet people or have experiences and im gonna be bored and feel stupid and be tired forever and never get better. i know its just february and gloomy and i need to adjust my meds and get over a boy but oh my god i feel like its never gonna get better
when I was a little kid at some point I got upset with my parents because I didn't have a crucifix in my bedroom and they did- I was like why do YOU get to be safe from vampires??? you're okay with me getting my blood sucked???? so we took a little trip to the catholic store but the one closest to us was run by a group of nuns that had been moved here from romania. I got a little baby pink cross and this sweet old nun was like 'aww, is this a baptism gift?' and I was like no. I need to be protected from vampires. and she immediately got SO serious and was like 'this is the best one we've got, you'll definitely be safe' and since she was literally from vampire land I was convinced she was like, van helsing. like the whole time my parents had been laughing about how cute my fear was but she literally Knew dracula and was taking my concerns seriously I held this over my parents for so long lmfao