good morning, I was going through some chapters of light me a lantern for undisclosed reasons. for context, when I write first drafts, I will often make little notes to myself in paranthesis that I intend to resolve and delete later.
I found this
THAT WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE IN THE FINAL CHAPTER. IT'S BEEN THREE YEARS.
my mom was reaaally trying to make me feel guilty about having chronic migraines (don't ask, long story) and i got fucking mad at her and my migraine suddenly became more bearable. since it's been established that a lot of my physical and mental health issues are related to the history of emotional abuse in my family, my therapist is gonna be SO proud i stood up for myself and actually felt better
random first time thoughts on super lesbian animal RPG
Ok so I bought super lesbian animal rpg because I saw a bunch of people on tumblr talk about it and I wanted to play more niche rpg maker games as Ive been trying out rpg maker myself so im playing the game to get inspiration for my own projects.
So far the game is super cute and wholesome but there is a bit of interesting stuff in this game ive found. (Im only about 30 minutes into the game)
first I find it funny that melody just has a tumblr account like the game doesnt use a name similar to tumblr to reference it ,she just straight up has a tumblr which is cool but unexpected:
next I looked in the settings menu and at the bottom there were 3 interesting options those being whether or not the game was art or not (of course I picked yes) then there was a stat that stated how much politics were in the game it was initially set to about 69% but I set it to 100% just to see what happens. There was also a stat for ludonarrative dissonance (I have litteraly no idea what these words mean) but I also set it too 100.
I have no Idea whether these stats actually do anything or If I should change them but I thought it was super interesting anyway.
Also on the save menu theres a stat for kisses which is just awwwww:
Anyway I realise I haven't talked much about the actual game itself but its really good the writing is super cute and charming.
The combat is generic rpg combat and not really my thing but Im not playing a game called SUPER LESBIAN ANIMAL RPG for the combat lmal.
Also Melody is trans and thats awesome.
also the steam page mentioned the game mentions transphobia and now all I can think of is that the main villian is gonna be furry jk rowling.
anyway yeah game very good and very gay thats all I have to say.
i think the physical violence started over a year ago. it got gradually worse ofc. started before we lived together. sometimes wed be out in public get into a fight and sometimes ppl would stop by and ask if im ok and hed get really upset and be like these ppl dont get it and they just think im abusive bc im a man and bc ur not saying anything so ur trying to look innocent or like ur some victim. ive had ppl stop and ask if im ok bc hed be berating me or being excessivelyl ike? idk the word. in public and idk. hed just get angry. and then itd start w him throwing my stuff or throwing me onto the bed. i think once he did it a bunch every time id try to get up hed push me down. hed start fights over stupod shit and i wasnt allowed to disagree. hed break my stuff. hed grab me. hed get on top of me. hed shake me. lol. he would cover my mouth if i was screaming bc hed throw me over the edge sm when id feel in danger around him w his abuse and sometimes id yell for help and he or i convinced myself i was just having bpd delusions or smth but i think i was just so traumatized i believed i was in danger constantly aroujd him. and hed get mad saying i want ppl to hear or want to get him arrested. lmal
How does it feel to know that most people in the InuKag fandom perceive LMAL to be the true Inuyasha sequel as opposed to the trainwreck that shall-not-be-named?
Definitely surreal.
When I started writing Light Me A Lantern, it was because I loved Inuyasha. That was pretty much it. I had a lot of nostalgia for the series, and a lot of new ideas, and just things I generally wanted to explore. I wrote it out of passion, and I guess that's why fans of the fic have clung to it after the HNY Fiasco. You can always tell when something's written out of love versus out of a company order to make money - or at least that's what folks have told me about LMAL.
And honestly, that just means the world to me, because when I started writing it in 2014 (and yes, that fact that it's been eight years does make me want to throw up lol) there was no sequel. HNY wasn't even a thought yet.
So I think there was an element of serendipitous timing, with me finishing LMAL last summer, as HNY was going down the tube. I never planned it like that, I couldn't possibly have, but I think it just highlighted the difference between a loving fan made project and a cash grab. If people can find some kind of comfort in substituting LMAL as a sequel, then that brings me unspeakable joy, because it's the sequel I imagined.
Also if you couldn't guess, since I postponed Sewerhell Sunday yesterday, it's now Sewerhell Sonday today. Feel free to ask about any Plex history or Sewerhell things cause today's their day again! This includes the horsies!
And yeah I know people wanted me to post my favourite Chica design I made but apparently the second half isn't done and I have actual stuff to do today so it's unlikely to get done today. Next time maybe. Sorry to keep saying I'm posting her and then not posting her I swear I thought it was done and postable today once I'd written the image IDs but nope. The second page isn't done apparently! I can't post Chica without her beloved cupcake that would be wrong! And I've had some new ideas to doodle out anyway so I can add those to it when I next have the chance.
She'll be here eventually I promise but in the meantime it's Sewerhell Sonday what do we wanna talk about today?
EDIT: Hi <3 if any eb people interact I'm killing them. Piss off tyyy this isn't for you I want you dead :D
on one hand i can see why people go "oh dont call c!tubbo gay/mlm/queer we dont know if the cc is okay with that!" because of how much c!tubbo really is just cc!tubbo being himself
but also could you imagine if someone from the outside were to look into it and see that c!beeduo are referred to as husbands and have a son and a mansion that they plan to move into together with them consistently flirting with each other and having petnames and even possibly finding the clip of ranboo saying "it happens sometimes" when tommy thought the two were making out with neither showing any negative reaction to the idea anyways, as well as saying they fell in love and the ccs often calling it romantic like. even if you take into account the times theyve said its platonic and the fact that ranboo said he would talk to tubbo about the ambiguity (which btw was before the making out thing, before they said they fell in love, etc etc)
you guys must know how it looks when you say that no, the two masculine characters that are married, have a son, want to move in together, flirt with each other and call each other petnames, likely kiss off screen, say they fell in love with each other, can not Possibly be gay or queer or mlm. even if they played completely into the non-romantic aspect, what do you think it looks like to aro mlm when you imply that the marriage would need to be romantic to be queer?
its okay to hesitate, i get it, but also if tubbo was uncomfortable with his character being seen as gay i think he like. wouldnt have his character be married to another dude and say his character fell in love with him. i know in a fandom with mostly nd people its hard to do so but its good to exercise your ability to read in between the lines- this is a moment where a creator shouldnt have to say whether or not a character is mlm because the content literally has the character be a man attracted to other men.
its okay to say a fictional teenager is gay i promise you that teenagers have relationships and can be queer. as long as you dont read into it sexually youre fine (and even then, its okay to acknowledge that the characters make sex jokes towards and with each other, teens can experience sexual attraction, just dont be a fuckin creep about it), i promise. even if word comes out that the characters arent married romantically, i think the aspec people (cough i am one so really i know this cough) of the community can safely say you dont need romantic or sexual attraction to be queer. c!tubbo has only expressed attraction to c!ranboo, who, as far as c!tubbo knows, is a dude like he is. its okay to say thats gay, because it literally is
aka sometime yall read as the ones giving c!beeduo friendship flowers while c!ranboo says he wonders if this is how the ancient greeks felt