#lmj.rambles

[lovely-maryj]

warnings: spoilers for xavier, zayne and maybe rafayel's anecdotes and just spoilers for love and deepspace in general; cursing like usual lol

so i finally unlocked xavier'a 2nd anecdote, and it's so sad??? like so fucking sorrowful and the angst???

i mean, i was already spoiled about it cuz my sister saw a tiktok about it and she told me but the writing??? that, i did not expect omg

so xavier is definitely really old lmao. i didn't expect it to be told in mc's pov so i was expecting it to be jeremiah or some other person xavier knows but i'm definitely not complaining.

i expected that the 'mc dying in xavier's arms' moment to be in his 3rd anecdote so i was surprised

[edit (10 Feb 2024): the anecdotes apparently switch places when one gets unlocked lmao. so this is actually his 3rd anecdote and it just became the 2nd one because i unlocked it first. sorry for the confusion TT]

can anyone explain to me what kind of being xavier is cuz like it was implied that he isn't human??? he (and jeremiah) is giving long-life species from the xianzhou loufu. or is it only mc that "doesn't have a hundred years" because of her protocore syndrome?? so if it weren't for that, she'd live as long as the others or??

someone pls explain TT

i tried reading the deepspace message thingies but maybe i was really sleep-deprived when i read about philos so i didn't absrob and comprehend a single thing

while we're talking about anecdotes, what the hell is up with zayne's second???

like is it an au or is it further down the timeline (i.e., the future)???

(i actually unlocked zayne's still in dark anecdote first and i'm just only talking about this now lol)

but how is he getting dreams of our present timeline?? and how did he break the 4th wall during that one dream?? all he did was reach for mc's cheek and she was suddenly like "you're not zayne". and can we talk about how people are turning into wanderers?? and zayne is a wanted serial killer. i mean, not for the reasons one would think without any context but he is definitely wanted by the law. also he's so sad?? his apartment is so bare he only has a bed and a dresser in his room?? he wants to be a doctor because in his dreams, he is one?? and even in this universe/lifetime, he is still an orphan. he was orphaned twice??? in the same life??? damn

anyways, ppl, pls explain what the hell is up w/ these anecdotes. spoil me all you like cuz i really wanna know

i haven't unlocked rafayel's yet, sadly. idk how lmao. i mean, it says i should have at least 10 4*/5* cards so that would means it's the same criterion for the others right?? but i don't have 10 4*/5* of zayne nor do i have that many of xaviers?? like i don't get it TT

but i did hear (from my sister ofc) that he became an art teacher in mc's high school??? to like see how she's been?? and he hired a p.i to like watch her from afar?? and he told said p.i to stay away from her when p.i sent him a pic of mc??

does that mean rafayel is older than mc? cuz there is no fucking way he became an art teacher if he's younger than her. and it says on his profile that he's 24?? if he was way older than he looked, then his age would be listed as "???" like xavier's but it isn't. so he's actually 24? that make mc at least 21 i think?? cuz if mc was like 18 (senior year) in rafayel's 2nd anecdote, he's be 21 and that's believable for an art teacher rt?? i actually dk how old mc is in his anecdote but my sister said she was a student.

[edit (10 Feb 2024): he actually became a lecturer at mc's university, not high school lmao]

what i'm sure of is that means he definitely recognized her when they first met (again in his pov) with the goldfish in the main story. why the hell did he walk away so fast tho?? he didn't even let mc finish speaking :( (i will forever hold this over his head)

[edit (10 Feb 2024): so there's a reason for this and i'm thinking it has to do with how mc "betrayed" him in their past lives or smth. that makes me sad]

i know he's a merman from lemuria cuz i finished all available chapters. but why the fuck did i gasp so loud lmao cuz i also already knew he was a merman both from spoilers and the "nightly stroll" chapter in his "falling for you" thingy

i also just wanna know how exactly they met the actual first time?? and how did mc forget?? if i met a merman or someone equally as magical when i was a kid, i'd never let anyone forget it.

anyways, i guess i'll keep pulling for more cards 'til i unlock his anecdote so i can finally (hopefully) piece things together

(i hope none of this was confusing to read. if so, i'm so fucking sorry TT)

#love and deepspace #xavier #zayne #rafayel #lmj.rambles

[lovely-maryj]

huh now that i think about it, i don't think any of the boys know each other?? like, i'm at chapter 6 rn and we're with xavier and that's it. last chapter, we were with zayne and i heard that chapter 7, we'll be with rafayel

so each chapter, we have a a specific companion/love interest for the most part??

but the real question is do any them know each other?? or will they ever get to know the others exist?? cuz like i'm waiting here for interactions between them like i think it'll be so funny

and i know it's not good to compare but i can't help it cuz one of my fave things from tears of themis is when the boys interact with each other. will we ever get smth like that in love and deepspace??

if not, it'll be a bummer but i'll learn to live with it. eventually.

#love and deepspace #xavier #zayne #rafayel #tears of themis #tot #lmj.rambles #lds

[lovely-maryj]

I DESPERATELY NEED TIME TRAVEL TFOTA FICS pls i'm begging

or like a reading the books fic. there's only 2 on ao3 (we praise our lord and savior wolfieriddleee 'cuz they updated just a little while earlier)

the other 1 them has not been updated for a while. almost a year, i think?

and i've read all the time travel fics on ao3

I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO SEE QUEEN JUDE AND SIMP CARDAN

pls i'm begging what does it take for this wish to be granted

#jude duarte #cardan greenbriar #jurdan #the folk of the air #tfota #holly black #lmj.rambles

[lovely-maryj]

I KEEP SEEING SPOILERS ON TWT WHAT THE HELL IS GOING TO HAPPEN IN CHAPTER 8?? WHY DO RAFAYEL AND XAVIER HAVE BOUNTIES ON THEIR HEADS?? HUH??

#love and deepspace #rafayel #xavier #lmj.rambles #lds

[lovely-maryj]

WHY DO I ALWAYS FORGET THAT PJO EPISODES COME OUT ON WEDNESDAYS???

i'm too used to friday releases TT

i open any app and i get spoiled hgsjgghh

#percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo #lmj.rambles

[lovely-maryj]

i think my luck is going to run out pretty soon 😅 the rng gods are being suspiciously kind to me. i'm not used to it.

just yesterday, rafayel' unforgettable adventure came home in my first 10-pull.

now, two—i repeat, two—5* came home in a single 10-pull.

thanks again to the rng gods but pls don't take away all my good fortune 😭

it's only a bit of bummer 'cuz i already have zayne's gentle twilight card, but at least xavier's fragment of time is new!

(i also wanted myth cards, though 😞 i don't have a single one)

#rafayel #zayne #xavier #love and deepspace #lmj.rambles

[lovely-maryj]

okay, so first of all: happy birthday to rafayel <3

that's it. that's the post.

jk

i just have to say that i haven't struggled to get a rafayel 5* so far. it said i had 53 pulls to guarantee a 5* but his unforgettable adventure card came home in my first 10-pull

(i forgot to tap the share button. shh)

he's not beating the he-loves-me-so-much allegations fr

i would call the game generous but ... they won't give me 5* of xavier and zayne's!!!

i still only have a single 5* of theirs, and now I have four 5* of rafayel's

rafayel's like in love with me. what???

my delulu mind: 😻😻😻

once again, though, happy birthday to the guy who won't leave me alone (lovingly) 🥳🥳🥳

#rafayel #love and deepspace #lmj.rambles

[lovely-maryj]

when i FINALLY made the executive decision to want xavier's card ... like i legitimately took so long deciding whose card i wanted to come home. even made a roulette wheel and everything ...

THIS BITCH WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE

you don't want to hear the loud scream of anguish i let out when rafayel's 5* animation started

I WANTED XAVIER'S CARD BECAUSE HE KISSED MC'S PALM

idk why but that act is so sweet, i would want my irl bf to do that to me (if i had one 💀)

BUT RAFAYEL WON'T LET ME HAVE NICE THINGS

i feel like i have so many rafayel cards TT like i had two of his 5* cards so i've been using him to get through the main story so his affection level is currently at 40 and the others are around 25-29?? I PROMISE I DIDN'T DO THIS ON PURPOSE

... maybe this is a sign that i've been neglecting xavier and zayne

i should probably go build their cards ...

i have one 5* of zayne and xavier. i have three 5* of rafayel

it might not seem like a lot, but i barely do any pulls cuz i'm afraid of going broke lmao

so to me, this IS a lot

well, on the plus side, this gorgeous 4* came home

(i only took a ss. how do you share cards from your owned memories???)

i should also probably maybe most likely go listen to the tender moments.

i've been neglecting them, too, and i KNOW i've been missing out

disclaimer: i actually do love rafayel but i just really wanted xavier's card TT i love all three of them, i just prefer other cards depending on what's shown. i actually still don't have a favorite

#love and deepspace #rafayel #xavier #zayne #lmj.rambles

[lovely-maryj]

how

there are over 45K percy jackson related fics on ao3

and there's only 126 f/m reader inserts.

how???

#i get how #the ships are divine #if there's a pun #i didn't mean it #percy jackson #pjo #hoo #heroes of olympus #percy jackon and the olympians #lmj.rambles

[lovely-maryj]

BRUH I THOUGHT CALEB WAS OUR BROTHER??? HE'S JUST A CHILDHOOD FRIEND?? IS THAT WHY I THOUGHT SOME OF THE INTERACTIONS WERE KINDA SUS???

well, nothing we can do about it. since he's ... y'know ... [redacted].

he was just starting to grow on me.

#love and deepspace #caleb #lmj.rambles #lds

[lovely-maryj]

so like i have a new obsession. it's an otome/rpg/gacha mobile game

it's called love and deepspace

and it's so great like i am very intrigued by the storyline and it also helps that the three love interests are so attractive hehe

i wouldn't say i have an absolute favorite as of yet but in terms of physical appearance only, it would be zayne but again, i don't have a fave

and i'm so lucky??? i've never been lucky before like ever??

like in hsr, i tried pulling for blade and i lost the 50/50 to himeko. i spent everything too :(

and don't even get me started on genshin impact

maybe i have better luck in otome/gacha games cuz my luck in tears of themis isn't as bad lol

but still, it's great that my luck has finally came in like:

the rafayel: your fragrance came home in my first 10 pull on the standard banner like??? and then the blossoms card also came home in my first 10 pull in the event banner??

i know xavier is the one actually featured in the event banner but shhh

i made my sister jealous because it took her 4 accounts to get the your fragrance card to come home and rafayel came home to me so willingly and twice???

i told her it was because rafayel liked me better than her and she hit me lol

(i have a feeling if i chose rafayel instead of zayne on that one banner with the discount, he would've come home in my first 10 pull too cuz i had to actually hit hard pity for zayne)

i think it's because i said that he seemed like a dick the first time mc met him cuz like he left without hearing what she had to say. rafayel definitely didn't like that so he's been resorting to slowly condition me to like him by being around more lol

it's working but don't let my sister know so again, hushhh she's been trying to gatekeep him from me lmao

i'm not expecting the same luck in the future lol but this has been so nice like i finally know the feeling of having great luck

#love and deepspace #rafayel #lmj.rambles #lds

[lovely-maryj]

mind is blown again

just started watching loki s2ep5 (still have ~37 minutes of the ep left) and you mean to tell me that CASEY IS FRANK MORRIS???

s1, we had loki = d.b. cooper

now, we have casey = frank morris

WTF

#loki #casey #frank morris #alcatraz #loki laufeyson #loki odinson #marvel cinematic universe #mcu #marvel #lmj.rambles

[lovely-maryj]

I CAN'T GET HTTYD'S MASTERPIECE OF A SOUNDTRACK OUT OF MY HEAD AND IDK IF I HATE IT OR NOT

#httyd #how to train your dragon #lmj.rambles

[lovely-maryj]

warning: spoilers for ant-man and the wasp: quantumania

LOKI (and mobius) IN THE POST-CREDIT SCENE WAS SO UNEXPECTED I FUCKING SCREAMED. well, not really. i tried really hard to suppress it, but some of it still came out, so i'm sorry to the people who were near me in the cinema if they were bothered by it. i wasn't the only one who screamed, though ... he was also so pretty i really couldn't help it. he really stole the show for me. i can't stop thinking about him in the post-credit scene. i'm also so ashamed to say that i forgot what loki and mobius were talking about. i just blanked when i saw him.

also, ryan bergara was in the movie and nobody fucking told me???

#loki #loki laufeyson #loki odinson #mobius m. mobius #mobius #ryan bergara #ant man and the wasp: quantumania #amatwq #amatw #marvel #mcu #lmj.rambles

[lovely-maryj]

warning: spoilers for spider-man: across the spider-verse, curse words

IT ENDED ON A FUCKING CLIFFHANGER. A CLIFFHANGER. and right when it was getting to the more interesting bit! but, i gotta say, i did call that the movie was ending. the music got more intense—was that the right word for this?—and gwen was monologuing like she did at the beginning of the movie.

also, just because. i so knew that miles was in the wrong universe. i can't believe how much sharper my eye for details has gotten! i knew something was off when i saw "earth-42". i remembered that miles' earth had more numbers on it, lmao.

#spider-man: across the spider-verse #miles morales #gwen stacy #spider-man #spider-woman #ghost spider #sm: atsv #lmj.rambles

[lovely-maryj]

i'm supposed to be studying for a chem quiz rn... why did my teacher have to do this before christmas break TT

i don't have the motivation!!

#lmj.rambles