#manda rants

[amandaoftherosemire]

Chris Evans, Mask Off

I was scrolling earlier when I came upon a post by someone who is feeling very betrayed by Chris Evans right now. The post was about how stupid they felt that Chris Evans was not the man he had pretended to be, that recent events had proven he was a PR fabrication and they felt like a fool for falling for it. I went looking for the source of this pain, trying to figure out what Evans had done to be denounced as a fraud and a liar. I admit, I was surprised when I figured out it was his recent marriage.

Now, I'm not linking back to the post or reblogging it because I'm not interested in calling anyone out or making them feel bad for feeling bad. If you're feeling betrayed by the news that Chris Evans married someone much younger than himself, I'm not going to assume it's simply because you're mad it wasn't you. I believe that plenty of people feel that the age gap between Chris Evans and Alba Baptista is problematic and indicative that he is not the woke king he purported to be. But I would like to offer a different perspective.

My parents had a twenty-two year age gap. When they met, my father was 48 and my mother was 26. Plenty of people looked askance at the age gap between them, wondered why in the hell either of them would want to be with the other. But they were madly in love and happily married until he died twenty years later. And she never remarried, said until the day she died that she just couldn't find anyone who could follow my dad. So age gaps don't weird me out unless one of the people in the relationship is clearly being exploited. For example, hanging around a teenager until she's legally old enough to date. Two adults meeting, falling in love, and getting married doesn't set me off even if there's what others think of as a problematic age gap. I've seen firsthand that it depends on the people in the relationship.

None of us in this fandom know him, or his new wife. None of us know what their dynamic is and we cannot infer that she is being exploited based solely on the fact that she is sixteen years his junior. (I promise you, despite the 22 year difference, my dad was not in charge of my mom.) We only know his public persona, the carefully polished version of himself that he shows to the world for marketing purposes. Chris Evans' persona is very appealing, but it is curated, as is everyone's, really. We all put the good stuff on social media and hope no one puts our bad stuff on theirs.

My point, I suppose, is that having any real opinion on Chris Evans' personal life is evidence of a parasocial relationship that you might want to reevaluate. There is no good to be found in valorizing celebrities; they're just screwed up humans like the rest of us and will always ultimately disappoint you. Also, just because we may find the actions and behaviors of others uncomfortable or problematic, doesn't mean they've actually done anything wrong. He's not a paragon and never has been. He's a celebrity living his life and unless he's hurting anyone, what he does is really none of our business.

#manda rants #chris evans #fandom #different perspectives #different biases #our values are not absolute #not everyone holds the same things sacred #try not to get so invested #they all disappoint you in the end #because the standards are for paragons #humans can't be paragons forever

[mandareeboo]

🔥 Louie Duck's character arch?

Send Me a 🔥+ a Topic, and I’ll Tell You My Honest Opinion About It

It coulda been so much better. It was shaky at best a lot of the time.

We've all heard me yell about the grounding. How it was badly enforced, how the circumstances were fucky, etc. You can look back on the ducktales analysis tag and hear me caterwaul, so I'll avoid that part of the topic.

The point of Louie's arc is that he's supposed to learn that family is more important than money. But Louie?? Fucking knew that??? One of his core, key season 1 lines is "You kept a secret about mom. That is not okay." He sobs when his brothers fight. He got Gavin out of his house for free, and did it in a way that kept Huey and Dewey happy. Louie cares about his family. He's never once put money before his family. He usually puts them side by side, before giving up the gold to get away.

They give no reason for Louie's greediness and that makes it feel more difficult to work around. Is it a casual, playful want bc he likes toys? Is it a deep, consuming need because he grew up in a household that didn't always have the lights on and food was hotdogs thrice a week? It's never stated. We can't be sure of how deep the problem lies and where the boundaries should start. He's just supposed to know it's Bad and Give it Up and Move On. Louie's ten. Ten year olds don't want monetary safety for no reason. The kid needs therapy, and comfort, and to be weaned off that stuff. Going cold turkey is a great way to give him anxiety.

And move on to what, exactly? No one tries to give him any outlets to work on. He doesn't like adventures like the rest of his family. Dewey gets Launchpad and flying and Huey gets Boyd and helping Gizmoduck. Louie gets Goldie and Louie Inc, which is then closed. He gets Goldie, but Goldie is transient and isn't around often. His only friend is literally an old lady who steals from him. His only time working is Louie Inc, which is taken from him.

The closest thing to working outside a con he's allowed is when he calls Della out. So... what? His job is to keep his family honest? Why not give him a job, a place to start, a goal to work for? Instead it's No, Bad Louie, you should know better somehow. He has no options, he has no friends, and he has no outlet for his need for financial gain.

#Ask #Anon #Question Mandar #Ask Prompts #Ducktales 2017 #Louie Duck #Ducktales Analysis #I feel like ya'll just wanna hear me rant #Which I don't mind I just think it's silly #Like yeah it's time for Louie again manda #Yes anons

[silvernyxchariot]

Weather Report and Risotto Nero aren't being included in the 51 known characters playable in the new JJBA All StarBattle R and my initial response was, "I don't want to waste money on a game if all/majority of my bois aren't there 😭." But then, again... "That's a cash grab. 😂 CyberConnect and Bandai know what they doing. There are plenty of thirsty mf out there willing to pay for these dilfs in a dlc."

Don't look me like that. 😤 As soon as my ass saw Ghiaccio, I went to "Pre-order now."

Honestly, I hope all of LS becomes playable. Even if Melone is just some side character-support that only gets one function after pressing one button. His Stand ain't ready for combat; he'd be lucky not to get throttled into Steel Ball Run.

#anime #JJBA #all star battle #all star battle r #jojo's bizarre adventure #video games #La Squadra #just some Manda ranting again

[betweenbooksandmoths]

Getting emotional over a spanish "comedy" movie wasn't on my bingo card for today but I guess the universe works strangely

#my stuff #Como dios manda #That's the title of the movie idk if there's an english translation #Like it hit hard with the trans son part of the movie #Filled me with a yearning(? #I didn't even know I had #ok rant over

[gothneighbor]

If I have to send this proof one more goddamn time I’m going to lose my shit

#rush order that needed to be approved YESTERDAY but we’re so focused on changing the fucking logo we can’t send it #’oh no that’s not the right one’ ‘oh no it needs this THIN ASS LINE underneath it’ ‘oh we need the one with the SMALLER THIN ASS LINE’ #BITCH DO YOU WANT THIS NEXT WEEK OR NOT #work rant #manda talks #I’m pretty sure that line won’t print/engrave either so. there’s that. but nobody listens to the artist #and when it comes back with the ‘this line won’t print’ everyone will be angry shocked pikachu at me #I love my job but I don’t love this client anymore

[artiststarme]

Ignorance is Bliss

Steve liked to pretend the Upside Down never happened, that he was a regular teen boy with regular teen issues. He didn’t like to focus on the new scars marring his skin, the ones with the questionable origins that he’d never be able to explain. The way he saw it, his nightmares and anxiety during the day focused on the past enough. So, he moved on as much as possible. He bottled everything up and acted like he was fine. He acted as a listening board for his friends to vent and kept his own problems under lock and key. It worked as much as one would expect and he was fine.  

But moving on caused its own problems. His friends started getting more distant with him and leaning on each other because how would Steve understand what they were going through if he moved on so quickly? Things only got worse on his own. His nightmares bled into the day, his fears kept him locked away, and his insecurities started to overwhelm him in the Party’s absence. 

That’s where Eddie and Robin came in. They forced Steve to accept the past, to talk about his feelings, and to drop the armored facade that held him captive. It took many tears, several hugs, and more than a few of Robin’s rants to get through to him. But eventually, Steve opened himself up to vulnerabilities and couldn’t fathom how he’d survived in the past without doing so. 

Things were so much better with open communication. Gone were the lonesome days of concealing his emotions and existing as a broken shell of trauma. He could feel what he went through without being weak and he’d never felt so… content. Happy. He had Robin by his side as his best friend and platonic soulmate. He had Eddie as his boyfriend once he found the guts to make a move. And once the Party spent some time with the new and improved communicative Steve Harrington, he had his friends back too. He wasn’t as collected as they thought he was and as soon as they saw how it had affected him, they crawled back with sorries on their lips and understanding in the air. 

The Upside Down came with a lot of bad but it brought some good with it too. It bulldozed into their lives with trauma and pain and public persecution. It tore the Party apart and they had to fight to stay together. But it gave Steve a best friend, a boyfriend, and a family. It brought the Party together and made them a family, dysfunctional as it was.

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#Steve would absolutely bottle everything up which would only cause problems in the long run #Luckily for him he has Robin and Eddie to help him out. #stranger things #steddie #ish #ficlet #steve harrington #eddie munson #robin buckley

[finalfrontierpublishing]

Ulysses by @girlbookwrm

Ok so my next chaparral_crown bind is pending bookboard for a cutout design, so that's on the back burner till bookboard arrives! Did this in the interim, since I've leapt onto the 00q train pretty hard! They're my new favourite ship and I love the fic dynamics!

Statistics:

89,065 words || 294 pages

Chapter titling: Brigmore Thin

Body text: Liberation Serif

Accents: Petrona

My initial plans for this bind was to do a ship-shaped cutout from chiyogami paper - to which my cricut blade said f-no and proceeded to shred my very precious paper. So back to the drawing board and to the tried and tested method of HTV I went.

Boy, did I have trouble with colour for this bind - I am ridiculously bad at colour, my friends, I am one of those people who can maybe match 2 colours but ask me to pick a contrasting one to match and I'll go fjrbdidsmfbejsnbxks how does one do such sorcery. Again, Manda my sounding board who is excellent at colour matching contrasting colours had to listen to 3 different separate colour rants/panic attacks, not that I actually listened to them because I am an absolute wuss when it comes to colour.

Ugh I had so much fun with the typesetting. I actually found this font - Brigmore Thin, which the background decor for the font was London Bridge and I went yup, that's the font I want. As per the fic, I included parts of the Ulysses poem by Tennyson, which corresponded to chapter titles.

The main cover title page is less striking then I had wanted - curse my lack of colour printing and inability to colour the middle of the target sight red.

Also did my best to include a black and white spread of that image of the meet infront of The Fighting Temeraire. Absolutely iconic. My printer wasn't very up to it, but it tried.

Anyway, so- endbands!!! I had a good time making them, this is my first attempt that isn't a trial book, and I have fallen in love with capricious capricious silk. It just looks so good, even though it's slippery as hell.

I took two tries at this textblock because I overtrimmed the first one. Still thinking of what to do with it- it's actually fine, and readable, the page numbers still exist but it's just got such a thin margin I went eugh no and had to make a second copy.

Despite my general anxiety regarding this bind, it didn't turn out too badly.

I'm starting to prep for binderary so I'm overwhelmingly excited about that. My goal is officially 3-4 in February but I've planned for 6-7. Unsure if it will happen but I'm hopeful as I do have some leave then.

#bookbinding #fanbinding #renegade bindery #ficbinding #my books #00q #james bond #fanfic binding #fanfic bookbinding

[serendipnpipity]

Hello!! I was busy yesterday but if you're volunteering I will absolutely scream about phanfic with you! So, MAJOR SPOILER WARNING for the fic I wake up to your dream report by The_Blonde!! For whoever reads this lol. Anyway! I loved this fic so much but i have to say the ending threw me for a loop!! I'm specifically talking about how phil choses to save the 1920s dream. I really feel conficted about that decision, but ESPECIALLY SO after phil tells dan that he smashed all the mirrors, which we later find was a lie :00 it feels wierd that he would keep that from dan, and almost a little shady lmao?? i feel like it's strange that phil chose to keep the dream, bc wasn't it kind of established that the dream versions of dan are different than the real dan? So, if phil loves the real dan, why the need to keep the 1920s version too? Yk what I mean? Idek what I mean tbh lol but!! Thank you for hearing out my rant :)))

Hi, Manda!! Yessssssss omg this fic. You brought it up and then I kinda spiraled and no joke started writing a fic last night on the fly inspired by the concept (TTPD and this fic possessed me and now I have yet another project for a fandom that isn’t even *the phandom* that won’t let me rest. Help.)

I honestly have to go back and read it to formulate a real opinion about the 1920s detail!! Hard agree that it’s kinda shady to keep that a secret from real Dan bc if you think about it, that’s the one that should matter most? But the development of each and every one of the dreams was so well-crafted it astounded me back then and now that I’ve recently read it in full.

On the topic of fics, do you have any others that you’ve read lately that you’d rec? This lil rant was so fun, thanks for sharing 🥰

#ser’s answers #fic stuff #phan #dan and phil #dnp

[munsonsreputation]

✰ 500 CELEBRATION ✰

NAVIGATION

five hundred followers...FIVE HUNDRED?!?!?! YOU GUYS THIS IS SO FREAKING COOL!!! the comments, replies, reblogs...EVERYTHING has been so SWEET to see and read. i want to thank you guys for caring about what i write and taking the time to give me feedback and send me cute little reaction pics to the stories which make me day ALL THE TIME!!!! 🥺💘

to celebrate this spectacular milestone, i'm opening my requests!!!! I'll be taking requests for all of the older stranger things characters (steve, eddie, robin, nancy, and jonathan). however im totally cool with adding the other characters into the writing ex: writing about steve and reader taking the kids to the fair, ect.

this is open to everyone and i hope all of you get to send me your requests!!! also multiple request are more than ok!!! don't be shy--im more than willing to write fluff, angst, and smut

#1 song fic 🎸 - send me any song or specific lyric you would like me to base an imagine off of with your character of choice.

#2 prompt 📄 - send me a sentence or phrase with your character of choice and i will write you a short imagine. here are a few prompts i've reblogged if you guys need some inspo

#3 wips 📎 - interested in knowing what i have in the works? send me a character and whether you would like to have a sentence or moodboard based on whatever wips i have coming soon!

#4 taylor x stranger things 🧣 - send me your character of choice and a taylor song and ill write a short imagine based on it!!!! (yes queen taylor gets her own prompt alright!!!! HAHAHAAH)

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i really can't wait to go through all your requests but just please be patient with me as i don't want to rush any of your wonderful requests because you all deserve a nice written imagine ✨🫀🌙

once again, thank you so much for the love and support...everything and all of you mean the absolute world to me and i wouldn't be able to do this without you all...I FUCKING LOVE Y'ALL...my dear lovers MUAH!💘

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[trashquisitor-shirozora]

💥 I feel like this is a loaded question considering canon right now lmao

💥 What is one canon thing that you wish you could change?

Oh it is loaded as fuck but I already know the answer and it's the one thing that I think could've changed the entire trajectory of The Mandalorian:

Don't reunite Din and Grogu in Boba Fett's fucking show.

The decision to do so because Disney was such chickenshits and Favs didn't want to ruin the successful formula of the first two seasons did, in my not so humble opinion, so much damage to both Din and Grogu as well as the future of the show.

Boba Fett lost the spotlight to them. We spent 1.5 episodes on them and where the fuck was Boba the entire time? Standing in the background in silence for like 10 seconds in one of those episodes. Personally, if you decide your season/show has less than 12 episodes, you have to make them count. And while I appreciate all the Manda-lore in the 5th episode, it should've been slotted into Season 3 of The Mandalorian where that lore actually fucking mattered.

(don't even get me started on how they handled Cobb Vanth and Cad Bane omigod he truly was the precursor to how they wrote Gideon in Season 3 jfc)

Back when I thought The Mandalorian was Din Djarin, I wanted to see him develop as a character without Grogu. What is he like now that his quest is over and he's lost everything except for this stupid Darksaber? How does he cope without Grogu? How does he grow, or does he devolve without Grogu at his side? Episodes 5 and 6 baffled me but the decision to reunite with Grogu in episode 7 felt so fucking wrong. Can you not trust your characters and your audience, Favreau?

Hearing about Grogu's "arc" in Season 3, he really should not have come back in Boba Fett's fucking show. I think he should've spent more time off-screen or in short scenes with Luke and Artoo on Ossus. It's probably the Dinluker in me but I'd have loved to see Luke try to reach out to Din about Grogu, either about his progress or his desire to return to his father.

The decision to have them reunite in Boba Fett's fucking show so that they'd be together at the start of Season 3 just tells me that Favloni wants to play it super safe by not letting Din and Grogu grow as characters separately and then together as a family unit, and it tells me Disney/Lucasfilm is buckling down on "we want to MCU-fy the 'Mandoverse'" and "money, money, money". I get that they're trying to recoup the cost of buying the franchise and trying to make up for their losses with D+, but like, haven't you already done enough fucking damage with the Sequel Trilogy? Are we really doing this again?

Then again, I got fooled twice so I guess I'm the fool. Thank god that Dinluke remains such an insanely compelling ship. This ship is just so good for my soul, Anon.

Oh god I'm so sorry for the rant. I'm sticking a few extra tags on this post so that people can filter this post out if they want to.

Play ask games, win ask prizes!

#shirozora awkwardly responds to asks #the mandalorian critical #mando critical #mandalorian season 3 #mando spoilers #aw fuck i did it again

[shiroselia]

I’m gonna wait an hour to send SSE an email about the survey because you will Not catch me slipping and being rude to their customer service

But take this from someone who is Literally the exact target audience for this game/survey in every way but age (nowadays atleast, but I sure as hell was the actual target audience for a good 5 or so years for a long time) (As in: Manda rants about the one big gripe I have about the horse game company)

I was bullied for my interests, I was bullied for liking horses, I was made fun of for playing SSO, I was a pretty by the book definition of a horse girl, and I am absolutely fucking furious about this survey and it in Every Way Shape and Form SUCKS (read: it’s genuinely unscientific and I don’t know a single teacher of mine that I have had in my 13 years of school that would consider this a proper survey ready for people taking it), but this is not a one-time-thing for SSE to handle these topics terribly, and is actually something I’m starting to be genuinely pissed about, because holy shit it’s just Frequent As Fuck

SSE Needs to be better about their handling of real life topics, especially feminism, they are incredibly bad about handling it and have a very outdated view on both the gaming industry itself, and women in gaming

SSE acting like their game is the reason why girls even know what gaming is, and acting as if women have never touched games before SSO provided a “safe space” for them it absolutely ridiculous and just Not How It Is

Real life girls and women did Not spend years (still are even) trying to make themselves heard and seen in gaming spaces for SSE to go “Yeah that’s thanks to us”, when they are a niece barely multiplayer MMORPG that barely fits its genre in more than one way that no one with name recognition used to play without a sponsorship, and for them to act like we are still stuck in the early 2010s, it’s 2022, and while there’s still a long way to go, from someone who’s genuinely straight up been told by my male friends “Hey Amanda remember to not mention that you’re a girl in text-chats” while playing certain multiplayers, it has gotten better, but it’s Not thanks to SSE, that’s for fucking sure

I don’t mind that SSE wants to talk about these topics, there’s still a long way to go, and gaming as an industry especially is still not an equal opportunity field (the hobby however I’d argue is, and gaming has Never been as gender-neutral as it is today, frankly), but SSE is just one Swedish game company creating a niece horse game that people enjoy absolutely, but SSO has not revolutionized the gaming industry, and is, at best, a nice game with a primarily-female playerbase, but it’s not a beacon of gaming feminism, and it’s about time that  SSE starts being a little bit more realistic about their game, because it was created as a passion project made on a potato and a dream, not a grand scale feminist operation (as that anniversary video sure seemed to want to claim)

#Today I woke up at 13:30 went on Twitter and chose violence on my little hellsite blog #Ironically I can literally point out ways the horse game as Contributed to female gaming stigma in more ways than one #But that's neither here nor there #Because it Kinda isn't the fault of the game as much as already existing stereotypes #But it proves my point further

[amandaoftherosemire]

I saw that asshole walking in the door with a sink and I said to myself, "I will not patronize the business of a man that bad at fucking puns." I deleted all of my accounts that day.

I have not yet regretted that decision. As a matter of fact, every decision that shitty-pun-making apartheid beneficiary has made has only served to make me feel good about my ability to spot and avoid a shitshow.

#twitter is a shitshow #i mean it always was #but it's just untenable at this point #now he wants people to pay for it!!!! #he might as well live on mars #he's so out of touch with planet earth #proof positive that inherited wealth is theft #manda rants

[showcontrols]

hm. rambling about smth personal for a bit bc i need it to be down in words. long post under the readmore

so i know my reactions can come across a little. dramatic sometimes. particularly when reading (angst) fic. but during the reading - and often, writing comments bc i tend to do that while reading - i am experiencing the same amount of emotional response im trying to convey in words. the character having a panic attack makes my own breaths speed up to the point where i have to take a break for bit. grief feels hollow, like a stone on my chest and numbness in legs. joy - fluff - sappy gooey stories makes me flap my hands and pace back and forth for a while bc i need to get rid off the excess energy. one time i read a fic that was considered to be mediocre but nice i guess by the people who recced it to me but the general detachment and melancholy portrayed made me go through the rest of day with a fuzzy head.

is that normal? having a visceral reaction to even small bits of writing? i don’t know. i tend to mouth along with the dialogue of the pov character, gestures and all, and that feels like i put too much of myself into whatever pov im reading from. but i know this whole thing extends to outside of writing, that i can come across as too emotional and sensitive. got a response from someone recently about how i was so overly excitable and ‘could you tone it down, it’s not even that good lmao’ and i will admit that my immediate, instinctive response was to go fuck you?? partly out of anger at how the op was dismissing their own writing and partly bc. im not hurting anyone, i think. (did not actually reply to that btw, i just deleted my comment and then went and laid down on the floor for an hour.)

it put me off commenting and leaving long tags for a while bc i was worried about how it would look. am i being too hyper here and bothering people. is this too repetitive. i mostly interact in mcsrblr so its not really a problem there, i know these people. they know me and have seen the number of dumb stuff i do, over the past year. and yeah i felt and still feel pretty dumb about the tagging thing too bc its tumblr! its the site for being weird and ranting in tags.

idk. it’s not A Problem im just. aaaa. maybe im overreacting to this one too. left a bunch of comments one after the other on manda’s fics recently and she was  really nice and happy about it and that reminded me of why i initially started leaving semi-regular comments i guess.

and to clarify: im not saying people have to accommodate me, or anyone on this. if you dont want to deal with it then obviously you have the tools necessary for you to block people and such or not interact at all.

there’s no real solution to it i think. im not even sure if it’s a problem in the first place but it’s just been bothering me for a while. incredibly embarrassed to post this but i need to get it out before it starts poisoning the rest of me so here we go

#spri.txt #yes im supposed to be asleep. classes start so freaking early tomorrow #needed to get this out of my head first tho. been thinking about this for A While

[silvernyxchariot]

Haha! It's been ceturies, but I've finally made a new one.

Meet the Artist w/ GothicManda15

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Some random interview questions I wanted to answer

⚠️TW: profanity and allusions to emotional manipulation & assault⚠️

"If you were a classic movie monster, what would you be?"

Ghoulia Yelps. . . I mean, a zombie. The old school, "Night of the Living Dead" type. Physically I'm not very adept and have a hard time speaking. It's frustrating conversing with normies, especially about the things that I don't care about (tbh, I wish people would leave me alone) and if someone were to attack me, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't feel a damn thing until ten minutes have passed. Happens a lot actually, where I have a cut or bruises without realising it. Sometimes I forget I'm alive./hj

"Are you 15? Your username says so."

I am, in fact, not fifteen years of age. However, I've had this username since I was a fifteen year old brat. The explanation I use now is what I call the "Ichigo Kurosaki," the 15 is representative of the Japanese kanji 一語 (いちご/ichigo), meaning "one who protects."

"Do you kin anyone? Do you know what shifting is?"

Well, besides Ghoulia mentioned earlier, my anime kins are Obey Me's Satan, Sui-feng/Soi Fon (whatever your local translation spells it), Lisa Yadōmaru, Akasuna no Sasori, Shōta Aizawa, and Risotto Nero. You can totally trust me to hold your drink at a party./ref I have heard of shifting; I do not partake in it.

"What is stressing you out right now and how can you be more calm?"

Let's see, health insurance, my non-existant social life, finding a decent full-time job or a 2nd part-time, crippling student loan debt, affording toiletries or food, looking over my shoulder so I don't get fucked up by some creep just because I'm afab + a POC... you know, just things that deal with burn out and survival. How do I become more calm? I don't.

"Do you have any advice for anyone younger than you?"

Risotto. I keep forgetting I'm not in my late teens/early twenties anymore. I'm supposed to be the senpai now.

If you're coming to me for advice, I would have to say you're desperate. I'm the hermit type that doesn't go out much, so my life has been pretty solitary and unlived. The burn out doesn't help either. If anything, "Live and let live" and trust no one. If they're not bothering me, I'm not going to bother them. Problem now is, I haven't lived.

With that being said, if you're looking for a adventurous and exciting life, whatever that plan you have for your future is, just do it. Go on a cross country road trip. Fly over to Greece, Italy, Japan, Thailand, Peru, wherever. Eat your 2nd/3rd/4th slice of cake without worrying about your blood sugar or weight. Learn how to surf, swim, or just laze around in the pool all day. Buy a venti/trenta at Diabetes in a Cup, I mean Starbucks. No judgement. I also make purchases there. Get out of your abusive household. Go out to ride some dunebuggies in the middle of the night. Try all the different flavors; this isn't about food. Although, I feel like most social media is advocating for this "yolo" type of life, so you probably didn't need to hear it from me.

Trust no one. But love wholeheartedly and be your beautiful self. I'm not saying it's easy. Gods, No. It will hurt, emotionally and maybe physically. But don't be a victim and let the world control you. Wrangle the world by its throat and control the world you live in. You don't have to forgive everyone. Fuck. I inhale that poison called "resentment, spite, and wrath." At this point, I'm fueled by negativity. There are so many people I will never forgive. I feel so ostracized and outcasted by those manipulative swine, but I'm still here. Be polite and civil, but you don't have to have respect for them.

Err, that's all that I really have now. The... spiralling started. My asks (and anon) are open if you want to talk. I guess.

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IT ME!

I have been a lurker here on tumblr for years, but tumblr recently has restricted many functions of the website to people without an account. Originally that made me want to not make an account, then I thought I could make one just to keep lurking, but then I decided this would be a great anonymous place to post righting ideas! I am aware of general tumble culture, and so I'm mainly making this post to show that I am a real person, I won't bee rebloging anything until I have and Icon and posts of my own. I thank @manda-kat for helping me make this decision after sending them some annons.

as opinionated as I am I think I'll have to avoid getting into arguments. I'm bad at words so I think I would just make a fool of myself lol. I'll also try to keep this blog fairly wholesome, so no political rants. if I do make/rebblog political stuff I'll keep it short.

#first post #my posts

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spoilery fallout ramblings under the cut

ok so if the credits sequence of episode 8 is to be believed new vegas and the securitron army has fallen at some point between 2281 and 2296, possibly due to the resurgence of the zealot brotherhood of steel led by elder maxson, i would assume after the prydwen's maiden voyage to the boston area in 2287. that sorta tracks bc the canon endings of the games have always sort of leaned more toward the BoS becoming more and more radicalized. the only reason they let in new recruits is bc elder lyons proved it was the only way they were going to get more troops (especially seeing as apparently they aren't giving the sex talk to their boys now? pretty sure the boys in boston knew how to swing a sword if you know what i mean)

if you know anything about the BoS you know that Arthur Maxson is just a pawn in a greater game, he spouts the right rhetoric to suit the council's concerns. i appreciated that homeboy knew that if he set foot back in the BoS he was toast for now being a mutant, but i do wish they'd done a bit more with that. had him come back to help in the final confrontation or something. but like, the ongoing conflict with the NCR suddenly coming to an end with shady sands going kablooey now makes it make a lot of sense how the BoS are so powerful at this stage. they haven't had the one major hindrance to their expansion since then. they've built at least one more airship, probably more. they're probably terrorizing more of the wasteland these days.

people do seem to forget the brotherhood are a techo-religious cult. why else do you think maximus recognized the cult behavior in vault 4 lmao

anyway. that's me rambling. feel free to pester me on discord if you would like more certified manda rants XD

#nonsims #manda knows way too much about fallout