#maybe every few months? for a year or so

[thearoaceshark]

#With all the aphobia that have come out with this whole Alastor thing #I just want someone to hug me and tell me that everything is going to be okay #He is just a fictional character. but I feel very invalidated every time they do whatever they want with his orientation #and they are so insensitive about it #maybe Rosie will hug me and tell me everythin is going to be alrigth #I'm sorry for sounding so depressed all of a sudden. but I had that inside me for a few days #Fortunately in a few months the love for Hazbin Hotel will calm down. and I could now scroll through tiktok without fear of finding them #hopefully in a few years aphobia will be less and HH fandom(or THOSE shippers at least) will be remembered as one of those very toxic fandom #aroace alastor #hazbin alastor #alastor the radio demon #alastor hazbin hotel #aromantic alastor #asexual alastor

[icewindandboringhorror]

sneeping with his legs up over his head for some reason... weird boye

#cats #love the second picture... skrungly sleepy well rested boye face... #since he's an elderly boy now sometimes when he wakes up from a nap he looks a bit scruffy and squinty eyed #Hard to beleive he's like 15 though.. he still looks like a kitten to me.. due to his giant round creature eyes and childlike demeanor #I think it's interesting that like... baby cats are babies. kittens are kittens. and you can tell a cat is like 'young adult' phase #looking from like a few months to maybe 1yr or 2yrs.. but after that they just always look the same to me #a 5 yr old cat is a 10 yr old cat is a 15 year old cat. unless the cat in question is particulalry aged or youthful #I still have so so little energy... it's been icy here this week. like not even FUN but just scary icy even thoguh i lOOOVE the cold #and its my favorite weather. I think it'd be okay actually if I had a woodburning stove/fireplace/hearth thing. literally thats my only #concern with the power going out. I genuinely don't mind stuff like having to go to the bathroom in buckets or cook over a fire or do other #less conveninet things. Its just that if eveyrhtng is electric then you have no way to cook and all of that. well.. and I literally need #background noise to go to sleep lest my ocd sprials become so loud I am slowly driven into maddness.. but a few battery packs or something #and a phone with one downloaded video I could play on repeat is fine for that. I dont need internet. ANYWAY.. so so sad that my fav #orite season ever (winter) is here. and the first cold of the winter is like... just an ice storm that you cant even walk in. I #love like 4 feet of snow where you can play in it and stuff. But just a thin flat sheet of a few inches of ice over every imaginable surfac #is not really playable. the wind speeds are so high and so many trees fall it's actually not that safe to go hang out outside anyway unless #you were in a totally clear open field. which is SAD also because i love ice and high winds. i love to stand out there and get whipped in t #he face with ice crystals and feel like I'm in some dramatic movie or something. but alas.. the threat of being attacked by a falling tree. #I did go out some but again it's like. literallyyou cant walk on it. so I just squatted and dragged myself along the ground lol #One of my stories has a whole section where the main characters are trapped in a deadly cold environment for a week and have to use magic #to survive and etc. etc. so I'm always like.. ouuu.. I should go in the ice.. it's Writing Research actually.. *foolishly gets frostbite* #THOUGH yesterday I went on a harrowing evil journey down a bunch of icy hilly roads to go check on some person's cat because the cat #had been left in the house for like 5 days at that point with nobody to check on them and nobody else seemed to want to do anything #about it (like call all of the neighbors or try to get someone out there) so I just went myself with a roommate who agreed to drive me. #It seemed acting totally normal and I gave it more food and water but.. I am still worried about it.. Apparently the person will be able #to get back to their house tomorrow but.. I dont trust them. But I couldnt take the cat with me because it's like.. a stranger's cat #basically and also no carrier + very skittish.. so I feared if I just tried to carry them bare handed they'd definitely leap from my grasp #and then it'd be like.. sliding on a sheet of ice chasing a cat and so on.. I still think they need to be watched for health issues tho >:| #ANYWAY.... many cat adventures lately... and strange weather... I wish for a normal week without always so many Things Happening.. augh

[kafkaguy]

character wrapped 2023 💥

tagged by @davidtennantpussytulpa ^-^ i didn't know how many to do so i copied tara and did top 10. i know the severance guys are Four Of Them but i can't separate them theyre all equally important to me

will graham (hannibal), em haywood (nope), aziraphale (good omens), mark & dylan & helly & irving (severance), hawkeye pierce (mash), martha jones (doctor who), ivan karamazov (the brothers karamazov), kim kitsuragi (disco elysium), stewy hosseini (succession), ruescott melshi (andor/rogue one)

i will tag... @fagician @britomart @libraryfag @roadwhores @majorbaby @globuspolski @hadleyfraserfaggot @tenderscience if u want to ^-^

#and now i will explain them all in detail #cos i started watching hannibal back in like. january or february and will immediately set up camp in my head and started to settle there #*I* pay rent to *HIM*. he lives there permanently. sweating and monologuing constantly #em was not only the character of 2022 but also of 2023 and of 2024 and the rest of the decade and all decades to come #she had such an impact on me keke palmer's performance will live with me forever and i love nope so fucking much #i almost didnt include her because nope was more of a last year obsession. but she lives on #aziraphale.........no comment #severance.......i love them all so much and at first i wanted just irving and then just helly and then i realise i cried over mark this week #and then i realised i couldnt possibly leave out dylan when hes probably my favourite character. so then i settled for all of them #hawkeye is my fucking wife. enough said #martha... well i knew i had to have a doctor who character. i thought maybe the doctor but then i thought their companions mean more to me #sometimes at least. i did have a fourteen icon for a while but then i was like but Donna..... and then i thought. well #these past few months at least martha jones has been eating away at my heart. i go batshit insane when i think about her #her impact. her grace. her power. so she had to go on the list.it was a toss up between her and donna for sure though #then i figured i had to include a karamazov since reading that book took up half of my year. and ivan was my favourite of the 3. so <3 #kim goes without saying. literally nothing to be said hes the character Of All Time. to me #stewy also goes without saying ive had so many Stewy Save Me moments since the beginning of season 4 all the way to the end of the year #i miss him every day. he is the moment. i wish there was more of him all the time #and the last one is a bit of a wildcard cos all my insanity abt melshi has been on my andor sideblog. #but rest assured ive been thoroughly Not Normal about him. he literally side appears in 4 episodes and has 11 total minutes onscreen #but i love him. so much. and hes occupied most of my thoughts since september. once again his impact his power his grace. his homosexuality #enough said. that's all. thanks for reading. this was a great year for autism and madness #tag game #🍪

[ko-odi]

i have terrible, awful, horrendous news.

i went from being hyperfixated on a story about a group of young people on the run from the government in search of a magical library and undead family member to... being hyperfixated on a story about a group of young people on the run from the government in search of a magical library and undead family member .

#yeah so there seems to be a pattern here #the haunted has been a special interest for half of my current lifespan tho so this rly isnt surprising #it routinely takes over my entire being a few months outta every year #this is a doodle but it is only the introduction to my descent into 2012 minecraft roleplay series madness dont you worry #there are actually way more similarities between thm and vat7k but maybe ill talk abt that later #the haunted #the haunting #the haunted minecraft #the haunting minecraft #armen the haunted #drake the haunted #grayson the haunted #mia the haunted #luke the haunted #YEAH LUKE IS THERE TOO everyone say hiiii luuuuke #herobrine #i cannot believe an important character to one of my spinterests is HEROBRINE #sorry collin isnt rly there unless u count drake or hero </3 ill draw him soon dw #rejectedshotgun #my art #this is a LOTTA tags for such a small doodle #but i want to extend my tendrils to any possible haunted liker out there the fandom is TOO SMALL #IM TOO LONELY #SOMEONE OLEASE #ANYONE #SAVE ME FROM THE NICHE FANDOM CURSE #I CANT KEEP DOING THISJ

[sableeira]

confession time: soukoku give me the worst case of secondhand embarrassment ever. they are so cringe. you can’t take them anywhere.

#this is /pos for anyone that doesn’t know about my chronic skk brain #I have been obsessed with them for about a year now and it’s not getting better at all #the most mortifying thing that’s happened this past year is slowly getting my friend into bsd #and watching any skk scene with them had me embarrassed af #the dead apple lap scene was worse than introducing them to the concept of a manga where characters are named after authors #and revealing the fact that the story heavily focuses on mafia business even though I’m a self proclaimed mafia genre hater #I literally called it the author fanfic manga in the first few months of my obsession #no ship has made me feel this way ever. and I’m super sensitive to secondhand embarrassment but I’m making it work for them <3 #maybe that makes me the weakest link of the soukoku shippers but I’m living my truth #this post is brought to you by “I saw a tweet of someone randomly discovering skk fanart” #and my first thought was: I can’t take them anywhere #<- probably what everyone in the pm thought pre dark era #there are so many victims of their dynamic. everyone in the pm and ada. every fan whether they like skk or not. we are all their victims #sina’s rambling

[kethabali]

i seriously can't comprehend not having a summer or winter break when u get a job. what do u mean i have to work all year around

#no i need my three month reset #ideally i dont need a vacation to recover from daily life #but thats capitalism <3 #at least school is fun #what if work is just stress and no fun #thats why i wanna work at the nonprofit i am a member of i like going there and i like the staff and i already do that work #as a volunteer and in internships so i could enjoy it maybe how i enjoy school #as long as the job is mentally and emotionally stimulating and not physically strenous #i can work for like 8 months of a year #same as how i go to school #ideally i only work 6 months of the year and 6 months i do something else #but once again <3 capitalism #actually audhd #actually autistic #actually adhd #🧃 #see the reason im thinking ab this is bc i realized working means regular paychecks so less financial paranoia #and stability.. which i like and am always desiring with school i get a big sum of money every few months and then pennies rest of theyear #except last semester when i got my work study and now i realize i like being paid more regularly it helps with my financial trauma #so now i am thinking i wouldnt mind working (if i wasnt in school bc two at once is too much for me) #i could work 10 hours without being burnt out i think 15 max but that is pushing it. this is why i need my diagnosis lmao #at least i have affordable housing and benefits for food and utilities so i actually could work 10 hours and have enough to pay for things #but like adult jobs are usually full time idk like to be a staff member at a nonprofit like i want to be #idk im sure theres a way to do it how i want #or i could get a semi boring remote job thats early hours and i have the rest of the day to myself like summer 2022 #i barely remember work from that summer bc early hours and i did what i wanted for the rest of the day that was a very good summer.. mMM #i want my whole life to be like that summer thats my picture board #but not broke ahah

[waspgrave]

My fantasy of not living in california (overpriced and lacking seasons) demolished with the knowledge there is no better state for my profession

#we’re so unionized over here #anyways NorCal besties I’ll be that way in a few years #maybe we can live together to afford a house you never know #like gather up 4-5 of us and that 2 bedroom house will almost be affordable! #there are multiple reasons to stay in California actually but it’s still soooooo expensive #it was $6/gallon for gas last month where I am #also thank u xannerz my bestie for the image #I look like this all the time I’m gonna overuse it with every situation #prawn posts

[probayern]

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#ok havent done this in a while but there are so many thoughts in my head i need to write them down #i feel like im on the precipice of like. things could actually go really well. ? #which feels bizarre. #the past year has been so very much everything going wrong at every turn #but suddenly i have hope that. like yeah maybe i could get this job and maybe i could get into the grad school i want to #and maybe this one other thing that shall not be spoken might finally happen #and like im trying not to have expectations about any of it but #idk. idk. it feels like things might finally go right #and maybe not ?!?!? it could also all not work out #but for the first time in a while i feel optimistic. not doomed to fail. #i dont know. maybe im just realizing how very much ive started expecting everything to not go my way #but eventually bad luck has to end right?? #and i'm just like... excited about the next few months #a lot of things about them are going to be hard! but... idk #maybe the tide is turning #bella things

[wren-of-the-woods]

Hey, just curious, what's the state of titles for the love run as ao3 titles?

Thank you so much for asking, anon! Both King and Not Yet / Love Run are very close to having a fic on AO3 for every part of the song -- only two lines each! The remaining lines that cannot be written in AO3 titles are below:

King

And your veins are empty of dust

The old fishers tackles

Not Yet / Love Run

Hold the bar at Hurley's hurly burly's (I've got a WIP for this one)

Let foul men band and heed your hum

If anyone is interested in writing fics with these lines as titles, please do so! I would love to start putting together a lyric video once all the lines are used.

Here is the original post, for anyone who's wondering :)

#the amazing devil #love run #joey batey #madeleine hyland #i checked a few weeks ago and the song ruin is also quite close to having a fic for every line #if anyone's interested i can make a post for that #maybe we could do a new years thing? for joey's birthday?? #wren talks #anon #asks #loverun2022 #(months late but whatever) #i would try to write these myself but i gotta focus on my main wip #hopefully hold the bar at hurley's will be up soonish though! #and i cannot believe that there are no fics entitled let foul men band and heed your hum!! #it's SUCH a good line #anyway if anyone's interested please please use these as titles!! #it would be so great :D

[hibiscuslynx]

i'd like to think nevada knows puck actually, and is getting wasted on the strip tonight

#wttt hockeyposting #lynx rambles #he had the best seats in the house #he's been vgk's ride or die since day 1 #believed in em from the start #went to every away game #look he literally fucking works on the strip how is he NOT going to know about his team getting to playoffs #and the whole storyline of misfits and stuff #he got one of those scarves he's wearing it loud and proud everywhere he fucking goes #HIS TEAM WON!!! #there was some map about most of the states/provinces rooting for florida #this is his stanley cup (literally) #the worst part abt this all is that florida doesnt know and may never really know about the stanley cup #so he cant brag as much as he'd like #but he can brag to the NE and gov (gov doesnt know puck either) AND THATS WHAT COUNTS #LONG LIVE SUN BELT HOCKEY!!!! #anyway patiently awaiting ben bringing this up in an ep and thatll be the first ep ive watched in a few months and maybe the only ep #florida having his teams make the final four fucking years in a row is criminal i hate it sm #yes i inherited my grudge against the lightning (and by extension the panthers) from wttt what r u gonna do abt it

[drysauce]

the big-eared dendro boy

#manifesting him coming home in the first 10-pull #every day i change my mind 19376 times about whether should i pull on his banner or wait until he spooks one of my 50/50s #so best case scenario is that he will drop after only a few pulls #he has to. or else i'll have a problem nshxhsh #anyways now i kinda want to draw collei #since he's her teacher and all #and also she's so pretty and awesome :] #i guess I'll see #and off topic but i messed up the arm AGAIN #i hate it i should've draw him only until shoulders #but his outfit is so fun to draw and color that i had to draw a bit more of it hahhah #maybe i should try to draw at least one drawing a month and maybe i'll somehow learn how to draw arms #though it would be really hard with my motivation that makes me unable to draw more than 10 artworks a year lmao #genshin impact #genshin #tighnari #my art #doodlen

[bmpmp3]

I NEEED to go back to making art that makes it ABUNDANTLY clear that theres something wrong with my brain BUT NOT in a cool or stylishly interesting way. i need to do it in a way that makes people say "hm." and walk away

#sowwy ive been kinda going through it in my fine arts major rn can u tell HJKSDHKFd #ive been feeling like. scared. and paralyzed by marketability and branding. #i cant stop thinking about how other people will see my art. but not like in a good way #when i was younger i thought about it in a good way. like hee hee hoo hoo the act of looking connected us hee hee #but rn i keep thinking about it in like this wretched like consumer product mindset? ouhhghhhhh el problema es el capitalismo #and like maybe this works for some people. to think like this. to make art like this. its what my professors push me towards #not intentionally. they dont say it out loud at least. im not sure if they know or not some of the irony #my professors are nice and pretty smart and talented and i like em. but sometimes i wonder like. the push for us as students to make like #marketable 'avant garde'? stuff thats safe but pretending to be weird and out there #i dont mean to sound pretentious. in general i play it too safe myself (spent too much time as an edgy 10 year old with my #parents freaking out over my shoulder because they think the fact that i drew an anime character frowning means something serious LOL) #but i dunno man. my least interesting art with the least amount of care thought or effort always gets so much more attention in school #nowhere else oddly. online? people like my more passionate but seemingly frivolous art (oc art etc. not frivolous to me but yknow how it is #same with irl artists and other industry people outside my school. whats going on in my school LOL #i know from experience i cant push myself into a supposedly marketable brand. if i try to make something sell it will not. #i dont know why. maybe theres an invisible essence buyers can tell when i didnt care jkfsldjdfrds #but my teachers LOOOOVE the stuff i put no passion in its so bizarre orz but i gotta relearn how to ignore half of their advice #i used to be better at it. but i also only used to ignore like a quarter of their advice. maybe i need to amp up how much im ignoring #that sounds mean. they have plenty of good advice. but also plenty of advice thats clouded by their own biases #and i gotta relearn how to sort out this stuff again. i forget every few months for some reason #you know i always think ouuhhhhh i act so neurotypical ouhhhhhhhhh im outgoing i talk to strangers all the time i seem confident #im so masked IM SO MASKED but then i go a couple weeks where every conversation i have has people looking at me like #i have two heads and neither of them are speaking their language. and then i descend into madness like this HJKLDSHJDS #i'll be fine i'll figure it out. i need to stop trying to get a good grade in being a 'cutting edge' conventional artist <3 #i need to just. draw my cartoon characters in peace 😔😔😔

[icewindandboringhorror]

Baby boy brother birthday photos from last year that I just realized I never uploaded!

#cats #also hopefully it's not weird to still post photos of George (the brown cat) even after his death a little while ago. I just have so many #beautiful old pictures of him that I still love but just never had the time to sort through or upload (my cat photos folder on my #computer had like 450 pictures in it or something lol... SO many). I feel like it's kind of just honoring or appreciating him #and not actually strange or anything. like what am I supposed to do. delete them?? I want to share them still because he is beautiful and #perfect ! idk. aNYWAY. Also this is their 2022 birthday when they turned 14 years old. (even though I think when I posted #their 2021 bday I might have said they were 14 then too. I was off by a year lol). 2023 when they turned 15 I unfortunately #was feeling kind of sick at the time and didn't really have the energy to do the decorations like I usually do. So they just got a few #treats and stuff. But I didn't know that would be george's last birthday lol. :/ #They also do not really know or care though. they're cats who cannot process it or know the concept of birthdays so. eh #I still have no idea how these got lost on the computer though. Like I had them fully edited ready to post but just sitting in a folder?? #Since MARCH 2022 lol... ??? the folder was in another folder of pictures so maybe that's how I overlooked it #But it's my 'once every 4 months computer organizing and clean out time' so I was going tghrough looking for pictures #I could drafts posts out of or sort or etc. #They got lots more treats for this birthday because one of my friends actually game me a few gifts for them #elderly boys.!!!! #I used to write in the little caption/image description sections to talk about them all individually but at some point tumblr broke that #feature and for so long they never saved or weren't visible so I stopped doing them and just ramble a bunch in the tags instead #but I kind of miss them. Thinking about old posts of the cats where I commented on each photo individually too lol.. the good ole days

[bigkickguy]

mildly tempted to doodle something for gegcliff again but im not going to be caught up in limbus for A While it seems - so i will have to just hope how i draw them isn't completely dumpstered by the heath chapter

#kickguyreply #sorry they're sitting in my head like rolsod #gonna blast out every few months maybe with like a single doodle the rest stays in containment #i wont lie i checked the tag and there was not a lot of other new ish art so im like picking up my little oar again to row some shit maybe #'i like this pairing' -> 'wait why isn't there any new art' -> 'i will just have to draw some' is grown into my bones by now lol #maybe tumblr is just lying to me or people moved tags perhaps #otherwise back on my bullshit lite (maybe) #i have seen a lot of heath chapter spoilers and it looks so intense lol im excited for when i get there in like 5 years

[winterf4iryy]

i hate feeling so guilty every fathers day

#i shouldn’t #at least i don’t think #idk if i should be talking to my real dad more or not #but at the same time #they split when i was so young #and i only ever saw him during the summers #and he barely called in the months between #and then i moved COUNTRIES #and he called twice a year #and my mom would be on my ass to text him or call him #and i did #maybe i should’ve tried harder #but i was a kid man :/ i was 12 years old and in a completely new country and scared and nervous and crying every night #a kid shouldn’t feel the responsibility / weight of keeping in touch with their literal parent #but now that i’m older i feel so guilty #bc i have step sisters and i feel like i owe them to keep in touch #but at the same time :/ it’s not the same as it was #like what do i do. i haven’t spoken to him in what?? 7 years?? maybe 5 since he called those very few times in the beginning #i mean we text — only for holidays and birthdays #it just makes me so sad bc he’s not a bad person. we’re just so far away from each other and it’s been so long since ive seen him #idek #but then it’s like. Why can’t you call more? why can’t you text me? why not? but i guess it’s not fair if i don’t do the same. idk. #he can’t even call my brother who LIVES IN THE STATES #anyways #W stepdad though #love my stepdad 🤟🏻🫶🏻 #˚｡ ⋆୨୧˚ dear diary… 💌

[zhenghuaz]

It’s nice to heal and make friends again. To laugh at small things, have excitement to speak. I feel comfort once again, instead of a strained, impulsive state of being. I hope everyone I’ve ever met and never met have a great day!

#i had a dream about a past friend #it aches when I think about it. months ago i was so impulsive and erratic in thinking. and it’s weird to compare with how much i healed #wherever you are i hope you’re well. i hope to never see you again #so poetic right?? haha! i just wanted to apologise for how many crazy posts i did last year about loneliness. it was bad! im more than okay #now* #maybe someday I can get back to posting alot. for now I leave you cryptic posts every few months! #stay safe :)