#maybe it gets bad halfway through?

[llycaons]

I don’t know why I never bookmarked this fic, it’s actually really good. the writing for both the relationships and the characters are excellent, the dialogue is natural and doesn’t sound out of place, the worldbuilding is appropriate and expands the cast, and there’s a real effort to incorporate and expand on the themes from the show. wwx and lwj’s dynamic from the show is almost perfectly replicated, just becoming slowly more intimate over time, and it’s clear they both know how they feel about each other. it’s making me feel like a soft-boiled egg...it’s so sweet it’s so natural it’s perfect. the only reason they haven’t actually gotten together is because they’re technically solving a case and there’s a ton of kids around so it’s hard to get a private moment...which I don’t even mind because this is almost like they’ve already gotten together anyway. I just read a scene where lwj gave wwx some food from his plate at an inn and he became so overwhelmed he almost started crying 🥺

#I can see that happening! a scene very like it did happen in the show! #also I like that wwx is holding off because the mood isn't right and he wants their first kiss to be A Big Deal #very much in line with my hc for him as a big romantic sap #this author wrote some other stuff I liked idk why I wrote this one off #iirc there's a nonbinary shapeshifter towards the end #maybe it gets bad halfway through? #either way I like it a lot now #ficblogging

[melhekhelmurkun]

Watching Netflix’s Damsel rn. It’s alright - not bad, but it definitely could have been a hell of a lot better. The beginning seems sort of rushed (I get that they have limited time to get to the real ‘fun’ parts but come on)

I will say tho, the scene where the flock of birds comes flying through the cavern is fire as fuck. Such an incredible introduction for the dragon.

#‘Fire as fuck’ pun FULLY intended btw #I’m trying not to spoil anything in case someone who wants to watch it sees this #it’s not a bad movie at all #the trailer just had a ton of potential that seems to be going to waste #but I’m less than halfway through so idk maybe it’ll get better from here #damsel #Netflix #millie bobby brown

[da-proti-toku-grem]

venting in the tags again bc i'm literally shaking right now wtf

#god i hate it so much #my exams start on monday and i'm not even halfway through everything i need to know for my first exam #i've had all the holidays to study but i just can't concentrate on anything #i've been in my room all day every day (except the days i spent w family like christmas and new year ofc) #and seemingly i'm studying all day #my family thinks i spend all day studying #but the only thing i'm capable of doing most of the time is stare at the things i have to do w/o having any idea of wtf i'm doing #my brain won't shut tf up and telling me stuff that i know are not true #but i just can't #i feel like i've been having an anxiety attack non stop since this monday #not very bad most of the time but it doesn't really stop yk? #and i feel like i have a weight on my chest that i can't really take off #i've been going to therapy and we've come to the conclusion that the cause of my anxiety overall are my studies #(not counting my social anxiety that's been getting worse every day to the point that i don't even want to go out with my best friends) #which doesn't really surprise me but it's just Too Much #i just want to drop everything but since idk what i'd do if i quit this career i chose to do my exams #bc maybe they are useful if i do change my path #but i just can't find it in me to focus and study because my mind is racing all the time #i just want to lie down and cry but i don't even have the strength to do that #i just feel so weak and miserable ever since i started uni and every day it gets worse and worse #my mind just screams at me saying #'stop complaining all the time. no one cares. everyone goes through stuff like that. you're no different. stfu and study like everyone does' #and i know i could do it if i tried but i just can't #why tf is it so difficult to be normal and do what i'm supposed to do for once ffs.... #venting #maca speaks

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sorry im thinking abt death again #because it's weird to think that ive been in the room. maybe a meter away from someone as they died #that someone being my mom. its just weird. the time in the hospital feels like it happened in some dark little pocket universe detached from #time. a calm room and then the soft blips of a monitor then the nurse rushing in to say she'd passed #i dont kno y ppl use that phrase: passed on. i mean i do. it softens the topic. makes it sound peaceful. ive yet to use it. i just say she #died bc thats what happened. is that insensitive? i dunno. when i was home i realized that i come off as much stranger than i think. the way #my family see me doesnt fit how i see myself. i dont kno what to do with that. i dunno. theyre all together today #for an early easter. and im halfway across the country again. nose so stuffy ive had to mouth breathe for the last 3 days #and again. everything feels the same as it did before but also profoundly different. sometimes i cry in the mornings. or when i think abt #future vacations she wont be there for. bc in the end she quickly slipped away in a way that couldn't be described as peaceful until her #last half a day. and all i can think about in that tiny room is how scary it would be to lose control like that #and how its not fair and she didnt deserve to die only halfway through a lifetime. but its not about fair and its not about deserving. #sometimes bad things just happen. that's life. and now i own a book called motherless daughters. and now im standing with the countless #others who've lost their moms too early. ive already become aware of 3 ppl in my daily life who are in the same club #i keep thinking about this moment that happened between my parents at the hospital. apparently my dad was helping her get cleaned up and her #stomach was so bloated she looked like she had a bby in there. which my dad said. and my mom apparently said: but it's a baby no one want. i #dont kno y that upsets me so much. all the things i heard abt her being in the hospital before i got there upset me. and the rest of my #family was there to see it. so i have the least traumatic version of the story. and i got almost 27 years with her. except my sisters #probably got more time with her bc i spent so much time away. or maybe not. i dunno. #i dunno. im just sad that shes gone and sad that it was drawn out even a little bit. 6 days isnt long but im sure it felt like an eternity. #again not fair. nothings fair. 53 years of unfairness culminating in a tragedy. she would hate me characterizing it like that. she lived a #full life as they say. full with an asterisk on account of length #unrelated

[astriiformes]

Someone put a curse on my family this year for real I am holding my head in my hands I have no idea how to fix any of this anymore

#tiny sister is having a rough time but also lashing out at everyone else about it and making some choices she might regret #and i am in another state and dying #all this on the heels of my dad's very scary surgery stuff #and my. well [gestures] #i am so tired folks i feel like if i don't intervene this is only going to get worse. but i don't know what to do or how #we don't even know where she is right now! apparently!! #and no one thought to tell me until like! yesterday! even though it has been days!! #sometimes being the sibling that moved away sucks so bad!!! #feeling sick and terrible and like i need to cry for a few hours maybe except i don't know if that will like. help #i'm so worried about her #2023 end already challenge #this has been one of the worst years i've (barely) lived through and it's only halfway over. hate that

[sammygender]

if zuko isn’t meant to be gay then why do they write him. like that

#like am i being delusional??!??? he’s literally not written as attracted to women?!?!?!?? why do they make such a point of it #every time he’s w a girl it’s meant to symbolise him hiding smth abt himself or he’s just REALLY bad at it #that scene where he’s w mai and then right after he goes and talks to uncle iroh like I feel like i’m caught between what i’m meant to be #and who i am (or something) #that joke scene before that in ba sing se where some girl likes him and he keeps running away and avoiding her kissing him and finally lets #her and then gets annoyed and runs off halfway through #the whole beach ep where he shows little romantic interest in mai (i believe he cares abt her as a friend but) like the only time he shows #anything romantic is getting obsessed w this other guy and suddenly rly possessive of her. help #it’s slightly less evident now i feel like they’re maybe writing him as into girls #but for a while i was like. I truly don’t understand why he’s written like this if he’s meant to be a straight boy #also i have not finished atla so no spoilers #atla #zuko atla #it was 2005 so like DID they?!?!? but they didn’t want to canonise it?!?! but i’m sure i’d have heard that before and i haven’t #oliver talks

[mashmouths]

they should invent a my brain that can complete assignments

#please for the lovw of god i am halfway through writing a discussion post and i'm trying so hard to be brave about it :( #had a month and a half off from school and i forgot how bad i am corralling myself into school mode. where's the post about i know the bitch #in charge and they're a pushover who lovws hedonism bc that's maybe the realest post ever made #the bars are see through so why would i stay behind them and respect them and believe in them. besides the pressure. gah. #on a happier note i might be meeting with a new gp so i can ask for a referral to maybe get diagnosed so! a girl can dream of medication <3 #a post

[prismatica-the-strange]

Nope, I'm still crying

#i wish literally anybody from school remembered me #literally only 2 people i was friends with hace talked to me in the past four years #i had the realization tonight that i was never given the choice to nurture most of my friendships #everytime i tried outside of school hours including trying to join clubs my mom would make me leave halfway through then lecture me #that she didn't have time to drive to town and get me #but as soon as my brother wanted to join junior air force she suddenly had all the time and energy in the world to devote to that #so what I'm getting here is that my friendships and interests weren't important enough or worth her time #i wasn't interested in Junior air force 1 cause it wasn't offered to me and 2 I'm not a boit licker #no #i was interested in the video game and board game clubs cause my friends were in them and they WANTED me to join #but after not getting to stay for more than one full session after a month i left the board game club cause it wasn't fair to the others #and i only went to the video game clu once and i don't remember much of it cause i was too anxious that she was gonna flip on me #i kept waiting for her text but instead she showed up at the classroom and made me leave #so when the same teacher that ran the board game club asked if i wanted to join the chess club cause he knew i liked chess #i told him i couldn't cause i was too busy because i didn't want to deal with begging my mom to let me join #she would have said yes but would have continued not letting me stay and being super passive aggressive #I'm not even in the year book for the year my friends graduated #the one thing she did let me do was drama and i hated every second of it. it was genuinely a bad experience for me #yeah i had friends in drama but it's not the same as hanging with my nerdy guy friends playing a star wars ttrpg #the worst part is she gets so defensive when i bring it up and won't give me a reason outside of 'I guess I'm just the worst parent' #it's in those moments i really remember she's the youngest in her family #OH!! it gets worse! she told me when i was younger that she had to be an honorary cheer leader cause HER MOM absolutely refused to #let her join cheer and she's alsways been bitter about it but then she turns around and did basically the same thing to me ffs #at least she was allowed to hang out with people after-school i wasn't allowed to do that either #no. instead i spent the hours after shcool alone most days and my weekends home alone in my room. and she wonders why my social skills are #maybe if I'd been allowed to work on my relationships outside of a classroom i wouldn't have felt so abandoned when everyone i knew #graduated without me. maybe if i didn't have to start back at square one socially again and had people to text and hang with after class #i wouldn't have dropped out. and i think only atlas knows i dropped out. idk how to text these people without spunding like I'm looking for #sympathy when they ask what I'm up to. like yeah I'm stuck at home with an anxiety disorder and unemployed trying to get on disability #prisma vents

[scarletspider2the2ndpower]

“Kaine,” Web of Spider-Man (Vol. 3/2024), #1.

Writer: Steve Foxe; Penciler: Greg Land; Inker: Jay Leisten; Letterer: Frank D’Armata

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Web of Spider-Man #Web of Spider-Man vol. 3 #Web of Spider-Man 2024 #latest release #Scarlet Spider #Kaine #Kaine Parker #this is one of my /favorite/ things about Kaine #I’m not sure how prevalent this is among other fans but I love how doing the «right thing» is rarely his first instinct #but he always gets there in the end #he maybe halfway through his omelette before he remembers he should help with the fire but he hustles over there as soon as he realizes #it’s just an interesting character facet for a super hero book #(and reminds me of super early Peter Parker who would as soon swing over a robbery as stop it #if he needed to deliver Aunt May’s medication) #but yeah love his begrudging sense of responsibility that dogs him #that he may call Ben a headache and try to dismiss the sewer workers but he also doesn’t want to hurt the thing trying to snap his spine #TOO bad and will inevitably try his best to help everyone he can #gosh I’ve missed him

[things-that-make-sa-happy]

Jeremiah Fisher | tsitp 1.03

#The Summer I Turned Pretty #tsitp #tsitpedit #Jeremiah Fisher #my beautiful boy! #this little rapscallion! #(or as my nephew would say- rapscallywag lol) #(when he was little I tried to teach him other things to call his brother than poophead- #and i tried rapscallion and scallywag and he combined the two) #sa loves tsitp #sa makes gifs #nope- i'm still hating all my gifs so I think I shall stop for the night #i nearly quit halfway through making this one but i powered through to see if they would get better #they did not #maybe I'll benadryl myself tonight... i need sleep so bad and it's not coming to me #i'm such a benadryl lightweight though- just one will knock me out and it'll still be difficult to wake up tomorrow

[maxmayfieldirl]

I still have hope that the byler couch scene can still be a heart to heart

My theory is everyone is all caught up on the Vecna mess and they are getting ready to head into the final battle. Back in Russia the mindflayer was released the Russia crew, perhaps one of them died or something idk, and the flayer does some over dramatic exit, screeches and rushed back to Hawkins and/or the upside down.

Will senses him and tells everyone which fucks with their plan so they have to think of a way to deal with that too. Will is worried and in a very Mike way, he notices and pulls out the Will voice™️. Will tells him his worries, says the quote in the trailer and Mike tells him that "everything will be okay" and "they've done it before they can do it again".

Will mentions his ties to it all and says "maybe it's better for everyone if he sacrifices himself".

Mike isn't happy with that suggestion, "no way am I letting you sacrifice yourself! I just got you back! None of this is your fault okay? Promise me you won't do anything dumb--not without me. Crazy together, remember?"

"Yeah crazy together." and the camera pans down and Mike's hand is on top of Will's, gripping it lightly. Both notice this and jump apart, things get awkward but before either can say anything they're called away.

It's not the best theory, but the point of the post is even though it seems to be a discussion on Vecna or perhaps the mindflayer there's still a chance it could be a heart to heart. Obviously it'd be more in depth and whatnot lol.

#everyone pretend I didn't half ass it halfway through lmao #maybe the theory is a little wild but it's just a guess based off the information we have been given with the trailer and past seasons #sorry if it feels ooc or nothing like canon I'm a fan fic writer not a theorist #i tried color coding but uh #im really bad at it lmao whoops #Ill get better eventually #st4 spoilers #stranger things #stranger things 4 #mike wheeler #will byers #byler #st4

[moonstandardtime]

love my digital art class but god it is filling me with rage and hatred for adobe.

#my post #i hope im able to use my tablet in classes when i transfer #bc good lord. this shit is impossible #i would be done with this project already .. but im not even halfway through. #its due on friday too and i cant get adobe illustrator on my laptop and work on it outside class bc adobe wont fucking COOPERATE WITH ME. #its trying to make me pay. girl the school is already paying for it for me what the hell are you talking about. let me in #i should talk to the professor..oogh but theres so much other stuff i havent done for either of the classes i have with this professor #bc of that unnecessarily long quarantine i had to do right at the beginning of the semester putting me behind #and i would feel bad abt asking for an extension for whats basically the only assignment ive actually done for both of their classes #i would feel less bad i think if i had accommodations for this kinda stuff. but i never actually went to get any and now it wouldnt be worth #it bc im not gonna be at this school next semester. and i only have these two classes that i have anything to do for #oh right this post is abt adobe #.. i dont think id be able to fully finish this assignment on time even with an extension #bc adobe illustator. like i said. is filling me with rage #it is so tedious and finicky and unnecessarily complicated and doesnt have the tools i like and i cant find a fill tool or how to make the #eraser smaller and im using a fucking. mouse. a mouse that i cant right click with btw bc we're using apple computers and the mice are lite #rally just one button. #i love this professor and i enjoy the projects but good GOD. i hate the tools so much #maybe ill ask them for an extension and if i could do it. not on adobe

[impossible-rat-babies]

started playing spiritfarer again and I’m just ;—; I’m doing so good ;—;

#every time of bringing a spirit to the everdoor I cry ;—; #Giovanni got me bad ;—; and talking to Astrid after was also very tear inducing #i just got Stanley and boy howdy boy Howdy he’s gonna make me cry #need the mist scrubber for quests but I’m like….halfway through? ish? maybe? #I’ve been playing a little bit each day which is nice #when it gets to be too much I just set it aside #owen talks

[sweet-as-kiwis]

I’ve come to the conclusion no one should dorm with someone whose name ends in ‘ace’

#like okay #my roommate is named ace and they been absolutely Horrific for the past TWO YEARS #they’re getting ghosted the second I move out on Friday (unfortunately they’re staying here all week so I have to Actually deal with them) #but there’s. too much to unpack there for the tags #my bestie is rooming with a Grace and she’s also soft blocking her as soon as she moves out #cause apparently Grace comes back to the dorm at godawful hours of the night WITH OTHERS and ends up waking my friend up every time #additionally she talks shit about my friend like 24/7 for like. her fashion taste? and the fact she tells thing like she sees it? #like one of the things is Grace is pissed that my friend told her ‘hey getting blackout drunk every night ain’t good maybe. stop’ #AND my little sister was rooming with a DIFFERENT Grace #and she was bad enough my little sister had to MOVE OUT HALFWAY THROUGH HER FIRST SEMESTER #Again a little too much to unpack there for tags but. use your imagination ig #and all three of them break almost Every dorm rule but none of us can report them for it #cause like. the rule for if alcohol is found in your dorm is EVERYONE goes down for it #and in my sister and I’d cases our roommates started smoking in the room (Ace was weed Grace was vape) #but my sister and I are both. super sensitive to that stuff? #like for me smoke and the smell of that is a migraine trigger that will end with me in the er #and ace knew this. and still smoked ON MY COUCH. AND THEN LIED TO MY FACE ABOUT IT. AND DID IT REPEATEDLY. #they didn’t even wash anything on the couch to get the smell out but considering they fucked on the blankets on it and then just. left them #for me to deal with I’m not suprised. at all #meanwhile my sister has really bad asthma and can’t have people vape around her or she starts having an asthma attack #but the rules in our dorms for that are the same as alcohol and neither of us wanna risk going down for it #my sister lucked out on having others she could move in with but all of my friends had roommates that weren’t going anywhere #so I’ve been stuck with ace the whole time #but still!! #anyways I’m sure most -ace names are lovely people but it’s an interesting trend I’ve noticed #Friday cannot come soon enough I stg

[loyalhorror]

jesus christ I'm enjoying this book but they really did just throw in "btw I worked for the Nazis and killed 53 people and talk about human lives in terms of efficiency" huh. Pulley I love you but you have GOT to consider some of your choices with more care.

#rat.exe #pulleyblogging #Idk if I would call these BAD or WRONG choices exactly but like #It has the same feeling as when Kite killed a kid #Like you cannot ask me to still be sympathetic to someone who worked for the Nazis even if they were 'only 19' #Maybe it will get better though. I'm only halfway through #I just also REALLY don't like the wary this character's autism is portrayed even though it's not exactly unrealistic or unrelatable or fram #framed in a bad light.

[permanentreverie]

tag 9 people you want to get to know better

tagged by @puddleglumms akdjwjdj I'm so honoured!!

three ships: off the top of my head? Jude and Cardan from The Folk of the Air trilogy, Mr Gu and Yeom Mijeong from My Liberation Notes, and uhhh Anya and Dmitry from Anastasia

last song: Promise by Jimin 🥹🥹🫶🏻🫶🏻 it's been 84 years but we FINALLY have it on Spotify!!!! We won!!!

last movie: just finished watching Chicago (2003) with my sister for the first time and I actually really enjoyed it!!

currently reading: just started Hell Bent by Leigh Bardugo, and I SAY I'm rereading Les Miserables by Victor Hugo but I haven't touched it in like 2 months lol

currently watching: oh boy. Ummm Call It Love, Girl From Nowhere, and W Two Worlds for Asian dramas; Daisy Jones and the Six; and Bungo Stray Dogs, Yuri on Ice, and I guess I need to start the final season of Attack on Titan for Anime

currently consuming: I just finished a glass of chocolate milk and snacking on a bowl of nuts

currently craving: any food tbh. Our dinner is almost ready I'm just ready to eat

tagging @thebirdandhersong @thecoolestfreakyouknow @cordiallyfuturedwight @wellmanneredthief

#tag games #I KNOW my currently watching looks bad #in all honesty girl from nowhere and w I'm just watching an episode here and there #though I would like to get binging a drama soon I miss it. thinking of maybe starting save me? #I mean it's got ok taecyeon and seo yeji and that bodyguard dude from eternal monarch? sign me up #also it's like a culty thriller like I think the plot would be addicting #idk why w is taking me so slow like it's not a bad drama #it just has the tone and humour that the 2016 dramas have #which are all fine and good and classics but I'm not always in the mood for them #and girl from nowhere is. a lot so I can only watch like one episode here and there #I actually need to catch up on daisy jones cause I'm only halfway through episode 2 #but I am liking it! #and technically I'm watching like 10 anime atm #cause I never ended up watching season 2 of spy x family (though I do plan to at some point) #and I started haikyuu a while back but I'll restart it after I'm done bungo stray dogs #and I need to finish Yuri on ice I've only got like 5 episodes left even though I haven't watched for weeks #(also I never talked about call it love. skdjsjdb it's really good so far I love a good melodrama) #(even though the pink filter is highly annoying) #and listen I have SO MANY ships that I like it's just that as soon as I saw that question every single ship I love flew out the window #but like mr gu and yeom mijeong will ALWAYS be that couple. #you just had to be there when mlb was airing. the girlies were going ~feral~ #and with good reason!! nothing ever goes hard as 'worship me' #and jude and cardan my problematic loves 🫶🏻 they do so much damage ugh they just *chefs kiss* #and anya and dmitry cause I just saw anastasia <3 they have my whole heart #promise by jimin being on Spotify 🥹🥹🫶🏻🫶🏻 I've always been giving!!! but now I get to receive!!!! #genuinely that song is <3 <3 #*ahem* now humbly asking for winter bear and my you #could continue talking but yeah! thanks for the tag! (if you've made it this far)