#me looking at all the lore i have ab my character but not knowing how to put it in words or pictures

[rogdona]

#that expression looks SO out of place for him but like. he fucks up a spell real bad ok #me looking at all the lore i have ab my character but not knowing how to put it in words or pictures #art #my art #oc tag #oc mago

[ohmtoff]

you made me think ab nerd nick too damn much its concerning. imagine jerking him off while he yaps ab his geeky stuff, stuttering and his words slurring when you squeeze around his tip

ANON…. youre actually my soulmate how did we think of the same thing (nsfw)

nerdy nick who’s far sighted so he regularly wears his glasses that make his eyes look bigger and just adorable. his wardrobe consists of graphic tees and hoodies that fit him awkwardly and his hair is most of the time disheveled.

nerdy nick whose budget goes to cosplay and comic con because those things are expensiveee and his brothers try their hardest to support him by helping him make the costumes (imagine nick unironically doing the anime hands thing around chris and matt and they try not to cringe LMFAOOOOO).

nerdy nick who yaps soooo much about his interests, from lord of the rings lore to his fav doctor from doctor who. i can just IMAGINE him making video essays complaining ab the new live action avatar series and how it doesnt hold up to the original series.

nerdy nick who’s the same sassy and witty guy as we know but he also puts that energy to defend his fav characters on the internet. best believe he has a stan account. many of his tattoos are dedicated to his comfort characters as well.

nerdy nick whose interests look innocent to others but behind closed doors he regularly reads and writes the most sheet gripping, back arching, toe curling smut about his fav fictional men. erwin from aot, thorin from the hobbit, ALL of jujutsu kaisen. he furiously stroked his dick to the thought of getting fucked dumb by nanami.

nerdy nick who acted normal and talks about regular stuff when he first met you but when he gets comfortable with you he immediately starts yapping. you think he’s just the most adorable thing when his eyes light up when talking about all his interests. you don’t even know what he’s talking about but your attention is hooked. nick, however, was used to people pretending to care about what he’s talking about so he stops himself.

“i’m sorry. ugh, i always talk too much, that was weird and boring”

“no, no, it’s fine. so… uruk-hais are bred between orcs and humans?”

nick wanted to suck your dick right then and there.

having sex with anime playing in the background was not rare between you two. one time, you both were watching an episode when you got distracted by how his tongue was peeking out with concentration. you noticed how fat his tongue was and how red his lips were. those same lips were wrapped around your cock not long after that. nick was gagging and moaning around it, his eyes bubbling up with tears streaming down his flushed cheeks as he jerked you off from the base. saliva would drip from his mouth, running down his chin as he struggled to take everything down. he was still wearing those same glasses, sliding down his nose from the sweat. he looks up at you with those big puppy eyes, tears running down his face. the sight makes you groan and shove your dick further into his throat. you thought he looked absolutely beautiful with cum streaks on his glasses.

nerdy nick who sometimes rambles too much and in these times you love teasing him. “come on, baby, tell me more,” you whispered to the back of his ear as he writhed and thrashed on your chest, pants gone and his swollen cock red and dripping as you squeezed the base. “time- time lords have two hearts, so,” he lets out a pathetic whine, “so the doctor never dies, he—mmnghh—they instead regenerate into a new body-AH-“ you squeeze and dug your thumb into his leaking tip. his chest heaves and he pants like a dog. “fu—uck, please, please, please. i wann- i wanna cum, oh please.” you think he deserves it so you quicken your strokes and let him cum. his mouth releasing unintelligible noises while those beautiful blue eyes go cross eyed.

nerdy nick who becomes your person and who you will go to endless comic cons with, watch a new series with, and who eventually will turn you into an even bigger nerd than he is😩🤞🏼

a/n: i wrote this without pause wtf

#nick sturniolo #nick sturniolo imagine #nick sturniolo smut #nick sturniolo x male reader #nick sturniolo x reader #nick sturniolo fanfic

[the-s1lly-corner]

OOO what about a Dark Fey reader like Maleficent? that was being hunted down by a dangerous group of cryptid hunters, and had a broken wing n wounded by iron bullets but kept running.

And the Creeps found them took em in. and since ferfolk cannot lie,.. caught them off guard with a question on how they felt about that creep 😉

I expect to see Slenderman!👁👁 and another ig👍plz

idk I rarely see Supernatural like readers, it's a little disappointing imo. I love powerful self-inserts ok?

Slenderman with a Fey!S/o

UWAAAA I'm sorry for taking so long to get to this !! I've kinda been sucked up in a bunch of irl stuff !! (Nothing serious, just me working on things)!!

Admittedly I have never watched maleficent; so I'll solely be going off the info given in this ask I hope that's alright ☝️😔 and I apologize in advance if it's no good 😭💔

As you specifically brought up slenderman, he's gonna be our star today!! I was originally going to do the full list of characters but my brain js

A raisin

Also also!! I totally get what you mean ab the shortage of supernatural readers!!! Not just in the creepypasta fandom; but really any fandom! Let the insert have powers, let them be super strong, ect ect !!

You'd stumble into him after trying to hide and take shelter in his woods

Normally, he'd take down any trespassers after stalking them for a bit; but he was just too curious about you to make that the case

I dont know, I always think of slenderman to carry that kind of curiosity about the world and other creatures; I feel like that makes him more interesting than the fandoms standard "stern and oddly fatherly" take... also I just live the idea of curious cryptids!!

Moving on

He'd help patch you up with the resources in the forest; I've seen mixed opinions on whether or not slenderman has weird healing powers but personally; I think he has regen abilities that can only be applied to himself! Unrelated to the ask I know, but a quick little fun aside and little bonding point for him and s/o if they have the same deal going on

As for shelter? I'm personally still on the fence on if I wanna make the manor thing a part of my personal universe and hc that I write for these silly lads; but rn I've settled for a version of it! Not as grand or tidy as the old fandom hyped it up to be; it's a lil smaller and kinda... run down

Still livable, though, and you're more than welcome inside if you need somewhere to stay

Granted, I'm not entirely sure how the topic of romance would be brought up with him, but let's say he picks up on some behavior from you that makes him start putting together a picture

Bro has zero rizz I'm sorry

Regardless, he eventually asks the question; and as the rules go, you're kinda forced to tell him how you feel

I think regardless of if he reciprocates or expected your answer, he'd be surprised

I mean how many people are out here flirting with a forest monster, to their face

I think it could work, honestly! The relationship I mean!! I wish i had more hcs since this is such a fun idea, but I genuinely dont know much about fairy stuff and all the lore regarding them

But onto some more side hcs/little ideas to make up for the lack of stuff !!

If you need comfort, about the whole being hunted thing, slenderman is a good listener; and he understands what it's like, bro probably has to deal with people trying to get a look at him all the time. He gets it

Want revenge on them? Well if the hunters followed you into the woods they probably wont last long anyways; despite the whole curiosity thing he can be... rather territorial

Day to day life with slenderman is interesting as is, but with a fellow non-human companion? Shenanigans will likely ensue

What kind? Cant say, due to my lack of knowledge 😔☝️

Too injured to move around on your own? If you need to go somewhere slenderman will either fetch it for you, or just carry you to where you gotta go

Also he totally wont make it habit; even before the romantic relationship is fully formed

It just activates his neurons 😔

#creepypasta headcanon #creepypasta #creepypasta x reader #creepypasta x you #slenderman x reader #slenderman imagine #slenderman headcanons #creepypasta slenderman #slenderman

[alliebirb]

Hi there, so all your art is amazing but I especially am enamored with your Ring!Anzu/eye!shizuka au!

They also inspire some questions in me.

1 - Does Ring!Anzu recruit ladies like Mai, Isis or others too?

2 - Does she win or lose and regardless can you tell us what that looks like?

3 - I am curious, have you ever consider doing something similar for Asuka Tenjoin, or have n idea what that might look like?

Apologies if any of these questions seem out of sorts, and thanks for sharing your art!

Hello!!! Tysm, Im so happy you like the ring!anzu au!! It’s been way too long since i’ve drawn her tbh i gotta rectify that when i have a spare second ( ˊᵕˋ ; )

- in the au, my full suport of women’s wrongs come out and it’s my hc that at some point, all the ygo girls have an item that possesses them and amplifies their negative traits - anzu’s rlly the only one who has a full possession that traps her fully in her mind, her bond with the gang hinders the ring’s progress too much otherwise -

shizuka using the eye to torment yamima for what he did to jono, ishizu using the and necklace rod to bring people to her family’s mission willingly or not, mai using the key to read souls to better manipulate others, etc etc. could also see mai without an item helping the remaining yuugang band together to try to help/stop anzu/zorc/the ring spirit/tkb??/who knows how many souls are in that thing

- For the second question, i’m assuming you mean anzu?? If so all my art of her is under the ring!anzu au tag!! Other charas show up there as well, but mostly anzu. Overall, ring!anzu has darker, messier hair, more light grayish blue eyes (think tkb), and is paler than regular anzu. This can change with the primary possessor as well

- i havent watched gx and dont plan to in the near future! (tho i have heard many good things) so including asuka or any character from another series isnt in the cards rn. Plus, I feel like each series has it’s own mechanisms and lore that wouldnt really fit with the millennium items. Once atem passes, the items are destroyed and eventually in the au, that comes to pass regardless, perhaps with more strain and violence, but the girls regain themselves by the end.

I have drawn asuka and aki with anzu before tho a while back, LOVEE both of their designs. Thanks for your questions!!! :D always happy to blab ab this au

#ring!anzu au #ramblings #asks

[m1d-45]

ok so, im reading the updates on one of my favorite manhwas rn (its called 'a way to protect the lovable you' if you were curious) and its giving me a sagau idea. (apologies if the background stuff is incomprehensible.)

background: the saintess/mc has these people called 'wings' and in the manhwa, the wings' souls are bound to the saintess. meaning their pain is the saintess' pain and vice versa, also they have an overwhelming protective nature and desire to obey the saintess. however, there is a period of time where their soul feels incomplete and its only when they meet or see the saintess that they know that's the owner of their soul.

so, with all of that out of the way, in sagau, what if the creator had that same level of ownership to their acolyte's souls?

alhaitham knows his soul is incomplete without the creator but with the imposter running amok causing all sorts of chaos and disrupt, he sighs; he has more work to be done. as the (reluctant) acting grand sage and a vision wielder, his duty lies in participating in such a hunt, even though he'd much rather be alone reading in the akademiya library.

alhaitham is a man of many thing but irrational and impulsive are something he's definitely not, so why when he sees just a glimpse of you that his mind freezes? he's not one for fitness or athletics but his only instinct in his frozen mind is to run after your visage; his mind plagued with only the presence of his god.

he calls out for you in a fit of desperation, looking for you in every direction. a part of him thinks his actions are irrational but the louder part of him is screaming out for you. when he turns around again, you're there, standing in front of him; his legs feel weak and tries to resist the urge to kneel. his name falls softly from your lips. at that moment, he knows that you're no imposter for its you that his soul belongs to.

- curse anon

first off. i’m legally obligated to address: he may claim to be a “””feeble scholar””” and “isn’t one for fitness or athletics” but come on. he does a flip in his normal attack animation. mihoyo has put more effort into his abs in marketing than nilou’s entire character. let’s be honest w ourselves here

two. holy shit.

a that’s an incredibly concept for a story to begin with b to put it with alhaitham??? curse anon here 🤲 it’s my blog you deserve it

GOD his pain and yours and vice versa dude, the second he seee you stumble and he feels a sting in his palm where you catch yourself on a sharp stone he has to pause and remember to breathe, the harsh morality of what he done setting in as quickly as possible.

he’s hunting his god. everyone is. your trust in him is likely gutted and dead, but he has to try.

i imagine for the sake of plot and angst that the “wings” in this scenario are all the vision wielders that you have. don’t know how that works in the source lore (i. e. whether wings can be added after the initial ritual) but it is the simplest solution, at least in my mind. i want to say something about the added authority that comes with being a wing of the creator, how having your soul tied to theirs is infinitely more intimate than simply wishing on some Stars, but i do not have the words to make it pretty. just… god i’m imagining they’re too late and you die and across teyvat all at once the wings cry out, collapsing, as everybody panicks because is it them or the creator? OH or they’re SOMEHOW responsible, who see you fall as they do the same, realizing with horror that they could die right now and they’d deserve it.

#m1d : [chats] #m1d : [secrets] #blood curse anon #wrote this to take my mind off ayato and kaeya and also thoma #i am. unwell and very gay rn.

[haemosexuality]

FNAF MOVIE SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT DONT READ IF YOU HAVENT SEEN IT YET I MEAN IT!!!!!!!

my thoughts on the movie UwU

ok first of i LOVED what they did with mike's character???? its different from the games canon (or different from the most popular theories??? i can never remember what is actually canon and whats accepted fanon) but its sooooo interesting. making him the brother of one of the victims was SO unexpected but it worked really really well. tho going into the movie with preconceived notions ab the story fucked me up somewhat bc i took so long to accept he wasnt michael afton 😣 tho i feel the movie mightve been setting fans up that way lol

on that note his brother confused me somewhat? cuz he was one of the missing children but he wasnt one of the 5 spirits was he??? maybe he was and i just didnt notice KSBSKDBSKD ill look out for it on my second watch

WILLIAM. MOTHER FUCKING AFTON. OH MY GODDDDDDD THAT WAS FUCKING INSANE and honestly seeing everyones reaction to it was SO cool. when springtrap appeared everyone screamed and clapped. when he started dying everyone screamed and clapped even louder. and when he said "I ALWAYS COME BACK" everyone LOST THEIR FUCKING MIND SCREAMING CRYING YELLING CLAPPING WHOOPING IT WAS SO FUCKING GOOD

AND THE VANESSA REVEAL????? i think thats completely different from game vanessa lore mostly bc william aftons daughter in the game was elizabeth/baby and shes fucking dead but idk vanessa lore so who knows. all i know is that it WORKED MAN i did NOT see that coming but i HONESTLY REALLY LIKED IT AND AGAIN EVERYONE IN THE THEATER LOST THEIR MINDS WE WERE ALL LIKE "WHAT?????" (edit: i saw an youtuber point out that this cant be the same vanessa from sb bc this is set in like the 90s and sb's in the future. maybe this is something like, they put two vanessas so we know that sometimes different characters just have the same name and dont get too hang up on mike smith vs michael afton lol)

i also like how they did williams character. i usually dont like purely evil 2d villains but i feel that fits afton way more than "sad scientist goes insane cuz he lost his kid oh no :(". like it just fits fnaf!!!!!!!

another thing that was completely different from the game was the animatronics. like in the game theyre "like animals" but in the movie they all seemed very, aware??? msking decisions? they def had a mind and it was cheesy sure but i also liked it. i just loved this movie. and everything about it. i went into it knowing it was absolutely not going to be 1:1 with the game so i dont mind im just so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT IMMEDIATELY STARTING WITH A JOKE ON DREAM THEORY LMFAOOOOOOOO. "SOME PEOPLE BELIEVE IT"

MATPAT? MOTHERFUCKING MATPAT ARE YOU KIDDING ME

THE EASTER EGGS!!! THE REFERENCES!!!!!! THERE WERE SO MANY AND THEY MADE ME WANT TO SCREAM AND CRY EVERY TIME OH MY GOD

im not gonna remember all of them but I WANT THE MIDNIGHT MOTORIST HOODIE

max did NOT deserve to die that upset me. she was fine!!!!!!!

also the violence wasnt anything super crazy but it was def more than i expected. also they swore

THE ANIMATRONICS ARE SO FUCKING COOL DUDE OH MY GOD I CANT BELIEVE THEYRE REAL

also golden freddy wasnt a girl in the movie. F cassidy

i like mikes character sooooo much ive said so before and im saying it again. vanessa too

THE SONG THE FUCKING SONG THE LIVING TOMBSTONE PLAYING IN THE FUCKINF CREDITS OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I CANT BELIEVE IT OH MY GOD DUDE DUDE DUDE DUDE DUDE

this one is only for the brazilians in here but i actually liked the dub? this sentiment might change after i watch the og version but it wasnt terrible. williams voice was 10/10

balloon boy was funny every single time. fuck this bitch. also the cupcake

THE ITS MEEEEEEEEEEE i wish they did more its mes BUT I SAW THAT!!!

the scene were mike calls abby to the kitchen so they could 'talk' and the aunt was there.... actually broke my heart how dare you

i missed phone guy 😭

OH IM PRETTY SURE I SAW THE FAKE DOG ANIMATRONIC PEOPLE THOUGHT EXISTED YEARS AGO???? I DONT REMEMBER HIS NAME BUT I THINK HE WAS THERE IN THE LIKE STORAGE PLACE i might be crazy tho dont quote me

i thought i wouldnt like it but i love how expressive freddy is its so funny. chica bonnie n foxy too but him especially

ok i those were all my immediate thoughts!!! i wrote this a few hours ago when id JUST gotten back from the theater and now im gonna go watch it again so bye <3

#autism was actually uncontrollable today i was going fucking insane #it was so hard to try to. not be annoying to everyone else in the room bc i was on OVERDRIVE #five nights at freddy's #fnaf movie #fnaf movie spoilers #im gonna write more thoughts in another post as i rewatch it

[smallidarityfan]

hiii i pinky promise i voted for smallidarity in the ship things both against bdubs and cleo (i had already done that) and against scarian (while looking through your blog just now) but i want to be anon so i cant prove it. anyways if it is okay instead of art i would like u to make a ship chart of whatever your favorite ships and relationship status headcanons are among the hermitcraft/empires/life series gang, like otp and divorced and qpr and whatever. no pressure to do this though i know its not exactly something you offered but given that you like smallidarity and scar/pearl i am very curious what else you like

Thank you for asking!!! i shouldve done this with or without need to rig the trafficshipping polls, so thanks for insigating me to make it anyways!!! :D

I'll try summarize the preferences I have that I feel dont make much sense?

shipping rant belooww....

👇👇👇

Firstly I can't really describe well why I like Pearl x Scar, but I'll try:

Life series

Scar POV about Pearl: 'Caring motherly and honest person who's smile lights up the room is just the person who I need in my life full of people I can't trust. Oh, she's traumatized? for losing all the people she loves and as a result developed abandonment issues? .... oh..... oh she just like me fr.'

Pearl POV about Scar: 'this guy is kinda wacko tbh but... now I know what he goes through, and I want to be there for him. We're in this together or some shi i guess. and his abs are kinda hot. wait who said that'

(to quote the part in Secret Life where Scar talks about not trusting alliances and Pearl saying "you're growing on me, Scar.")

Hermitcraft

Scar POV about Pearl: 'This lady creates the most gorgeous landscapes..... ohh now she wants to fix my unhealthy chest monster habits.... and she also helps me out when I need it even if i give her minimum wage..... and she also has a cute smile. wait who said that'

Pearl POV about Scar: 'Silly goof :3 also why doesn't he take care of himself well? Anyways, cleaning lady time'

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I could talk about Zedango and XBralis but basically they call each other pet names and roleplay gay people just like Smallidarity but with no instance of the "doomed narrative" or "slow-burn in denial" that they have. Otherwise, Ethubs is self-explanatory.

Speaking of doomed narrative, i dont think ive heard much talk about how doomed scott x pearl is..... They were in a trio group in last-life with Cleo, fought in an honourable 4-way battle with treebark, Scott won, they're now soulmates through unpleasant means, Scott leaves with Cleo, leaving Pearl alone and hurt, they had to work with each other despite the saltiness and eventually resulted in Scott sacrificing himself in honour, for her to win. The bitterness lasted in Lim!Life with the enchanting table shtick, then in Secret Life with the whole "We have unfinished business from Double Life, Scott!!!" from Pearl. (you could also count the doggy alliance with Cleo ig)

Do you see it?!! Do you see it?!?!?!?!?!?!

I could also write about Scottyn but it's relatively the same concept of how Scott prioritizes honour against the watchers' encouragement of chaos, and Martyn listener lore ykyk. (also in Lim!Life with Martyn betraying honour, opposite of Scott yk?!)

Now to Scarian........ I love desert duo a lot. They are in fact my favourite duo overall, I just— can't picture them in a relationship? Like yeah, they tick all the marks of a great narrative pairing and they also love each other, but I personally don't think they two are the type to whisper softly 'i love you' in bed to each other with eyes of passion and romance, nor the types to get flustered over romantic gestures by the other. They are, however, each other's comfort character and would hug and cheek-kiss each other just to be a little silly. I do see the appeal of Scarian though! just not with the version of the two that's in my head...!

Joe x Cleo are cute. They just give me the QPR vibes yk. (even though i might not fully get what a QPR means)

Now to disliking Mumdoc.... I only know of their dynamic through HC8 and 9.... and I really only ever got sour vibes from their dynamic....... they then kissing just irks me ig...... (but yk ive only watched a summative 50 episodes from each of them so i dont know the full idea of who they are to each other)

Honorable mention to Stresskall who doesn't receive the attention they deserve... they're so cute.........

Otherwise, yeah that's it !!! the others I mostly dont get, but are all valid nonetheless👍👍

#traffic shipping #hermit shipping #also i only fully watched empires solely from Joel's POV and half of Jimmy's S2 POV so i dont know my stance on any of the ships #other than of course ... yk #also the person who made this tier list didnt add smallidarity originally 😔........ #ship talk #<— for long rants like these #adding this to the tags because i dont want to make a post for this #but i just realized my shipping interests match that of the not safe for work side of mcyt 😭😭 #a bunch of accounts are getting recommended to me............... i think i turned 18 too slowly #this is a sign i think. #i do not feel very comfortable

[selfindulgentsillinessbracket]

Why Each Character(s) Were Chosen, or, Why These Sillies Are Special To Me - CHAPTER 1 of ??

This is a series of posts documenting why each silly in this bracket is in this bracket & why they're each special to me.

These will be getting fairly personal & I may ramble on too long but I want to be sincere so I won't hold back my overly silly manner of typing if need be.

These will be covered in order of appearance on the brackets from first to last contestant(s).

#1. Wario & Waluigi

Wario is straight up my favorite mario character. No cap. He's number 1. His character, his games (Wario Land is peak 2D platformer with the only series beating it in existence being Donkey Kong Country), his moveset. He's a king if you ask me. Waluigi is by all accounts my other fav. I'm so mad they refuse to use him in the Wario land games. The one series he SHOULD be in. I demand they treat him better. Anyways love these two goofballs & they've always struck a chord with me. I'm all about the goofy rivals. Wario & Waluigi are just pure fun. Love em. Also play Wario Land 4 because it's literally peak. I promise you it's worth your time.

#2 Calvin & Hobbes

Back when I was a wee lad, the thing that made me wanna do art in the first place? That was comic strips. In particular, Calvin & Hobbes, & Garfield. These two series are why I'm an artist. I owe it all to these two along with that fat orange cat. But we'll get to Garfield later, for now, let's focus on Calvin & Hobbes. They were the first ones I was introduced too. I didn't read Garfield til a few years after I met Calvin & Hobbes. I loved these two. And their comics are timeless. The writing is just out of this world with how smart & hilarious it is. It doesn't matter that it's from the 80s or 90s, they still ring true now. They're still God damn hilarious. These guys made me wanna make my own comics. Which led to me making my own characters. Which led to me becoming an artist. Thank you Calvin & Hobbes. Thanks for shaping who I am today.

#3 Squeek

Ok so there's not much to cover here. Squeek here is from a game called Oddworld: Squeek's Oddysee. Never heard of it? Yeah of course not, it was canceled. Like many Oddworld games sadly are. See the teason I have SO MANY oddworld reps on this bracket is 1. Yeah oddworld is extremely special to me. But 2. I'm hoping it'll cause more people to give the oddworld games a shot. They're so underrated. Legit my favorite story, world, lore & narratives in all of gaming. Squeek is a character who from what little we know, he's got so much potential. His lore is tragic and depressing but that makes you want to see him beat the odds like how Abe & Munch did. Squeek was meant to be our third protagonist. And maybe someday he'll get that chance again. Anyways please I implore you guys to give this series a shot. They're not perfect, but there's so much to love.

#4 Zoey

Ok Zoey is a character who I need to get personal to explain why she was a special enough OC to be in this bracket. So this is gonna be a long one. Zoey has been around for a while now. I mean like a while. She was created back in March of 2016. Yes I actually remember the exact time she was made. So yeah, that's her origin. The very first artwork of Zoey ever made has the original time saved on the upload date. Lucky us, bc we know her time of creation.

Zoey was officially created on March 3rd, 2016. Here was the first drawing of her. Comparison to her current look included :)

Now I know what you're thinking, yes this does look awful. I was not nearly as good at art back then. 2016 was a terrible time. But after that Zoey was just left forgotten, never had a real idea what to do with her. Until this past year, I uncovered her. And with a new design and finally having a solid personality to give her, she was given life. My life. Because the personality she ultimately found was just mine. She is quite literally the definition of a self insert. When I write Zoey I am literally just writing myself. Or to be more accurate, I'm writing a very cartoonishly exaggerated version of myself.

The fact people vote for her at all, it genuinely got me to cry more than once. It means so much to me. Bc Zoey means so much to me. So, thank you. And Zoey thanks you all too, she's humbled & would hug all of you if she could (and if we both were more open to physical contact but autism yknow yeah)

Next Chapter of this coming idk anyways Polls are still open so voting is still here for group 1 & 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#mod toasty #mod talks #autism #adhd #zoey #zoey toasty #zoey the bee #zoey thornsborough #thornsboroughcomic #thornsborough #self indulgent silly propaganda #self indulgent silly summit #self indulgent silly bracket #self indulgent silly #bracket #character bracket #tumblr bracket #swag summit #voting poll #tournament #thattoastygeckoart #thattoastygecko #tmnt 2018 #crash bandicoot #wario #wario land #warioware #waluigi #calvin and hobbes #squeek

[pinkpruneclodwolf]

Sorry to bother you.

What do you think about this theory?

https://the-hetchia-universe.tumblr.com/post/663097967298985984/twisted-wonderland-director-crowley-this-is-the 

Your posts and analyses are simply an amazing literary masterpiece for my heart!!

There were many thoughts that Crowley is the main "villain" of the story, and not Malleus as most assume.

 Thanks!! Have a good day!

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UWWAAAA!!!

THIS THEORY IS BLOWING ME OUT OF THE WATER OMGGG??!!?!??!

Bother me anytime bc this is amazing!!

No no, bc it really nails some things on the head for me. While I'm not well versed in all things Disney, finding out that there is a character named Phantom Blot two combination terms that center around Overblot and the theory that Crowley may he behind it as well as the novel sussing Crowley out times 10???

GOOD FOOD!

And the thing is, Phantom Blot fits Croeley so well!

"The Phantom prefers to pull the strings, rather than take direct part."

"The Phantom Blob/The spot even ordered Mickey himself to act like a criminal to frame him"

"The Phantom's ways of persuading others to follow him include using their own greed, promising them the means of revenge, or blackmailing them."

"He likes to seduce citizens who have no criminal record, to act as his agents."

"He's an escape master."

JUST LOOK AT THE EVIDENCE!!!

I also want to point out frame as well! I have a theory that Crowley may have something to do with why Mickey is in the Mirror in the first place and Mickey, who employed Chief O'Hara, is basically employing Yuu to investigate.

However, Crowley already has the control here considering Yuu is chalking up the dreams as just that, Dreams!

We actually don't see much of Dire except for when things are ab to go down. In Heartslabyul he suggested that Ace and Deuce duel Riddle, subsequently leading to Riddle Overblotting. Dire was the one to suggest that Malleus get inducted into the Hall of Fame leading to Leona accumulating more Blot. Dire employed Yuu to talk to Azul leading to Leona coming into the fray and disintegrating all of Azul's work and so on! And even when Dire isn't directly interacting (4, 5 iirc, 6) the characters still act as proxies.

He is pulling the thread without having to take direct part! Which ties into my Chapter 7 theory that fae and weaving are intrinsically tied together, the Port Fest event practically proves that when Malleus outright tells Yuu that weaving is a huge part of their culture, not to mention Sleeping Beauty is practically based around that lore!

Now let's talk about NRC:

As we know, based on the novel, 10% of humans only have a basic affinity for magic, those who have a high affinity for magic still aren't guaranteed to be accepted into prestigious mage schools meaning that each and every student in Night Raven has a high sense of pride and ego.

As well as greed.

Riddle ran rampant beheading people. Leona couldn't fathom the idea of Malleus taking what he believed was his. Azul hoarded the golden contracts and enslaved 225. Jamil literally lusts for power and even revenge at a point. His Fairy Gala line states out right: "This is what it feels like to have power". Vil ran Ramshackle like it was his own, policing what Ace and Deuce could eat, Vil reins over Epel to the point that he cant even speak his own dialect!! Idia wanted to rewrite the world. Greed and power is such an intrinsic part of Night Raven students it's a wonder they bottle their emotions up like that.

Thing is, Crowley does seduce Grim (and Yuu by proxy) many times in fact, remember in the prologue? When he offered Grim an opportunity to stay on campus only to find out they'd become janitors? Or in Savanaclaw when he offered that Grim could possibly partake in Magift Tournament? Not to mention how easily swayed Grim is when it comes to tuna?

Yuu goes along with the ride bc they have no one to turn to and they are stuck in a different world, Dire knows as much and so by using Grim he's using Yuu.

DUDE HITTING THE NAIL ON THE COFFIN WITH THE "HE'S AN ESCAPE ARTIST"

Because in game, Crowley flies in and out of lessens when you gain enough stars!! Crowley drops crucial information and fucking dips each and everytime! Chapter 6 had Dire getting investigated off screen like what???

I genuinely believe that while Dire Crowley has many more ties to who he was twisted from, Alesteir Crowley dubbed the "wickedest man in the world" he has so many more bases and its a crying shame that he isn't getting investigated more! Because those seven keys, the mirror paraphernalia, the top hat he and the Ghosts share???

Food for thought I'm telling you.

#twst #twisted wonderland #twst theory #scream into the void and i'll answer #@emyluwinter #thank you so much!!!!! #these submissions give me life I'm telling you! #thing is Dire needs to be investigated more bc a lot of things arent adding up ab him #when he gives Yuu the ghost camera he states how old it is but when ace calls him old he deflects #i wonder what Crowley has seen #and his relationship with Lilia bc i noticed that Dire is partial to Malleus #partial enough to put him in the hall of fame partial enough to talk to him personally ab putting him in the hall of fame #food for thought srsly

[swashbucklery]

OK I’ve slept and had some coffee and now here you go internet my Sunday afternoon Critical Role feelings. Spoilers up to the end of ep 29 which is where I’m at today:

1) I want to start a Laudna Book Club where we just talk about Laudna for like. . .two hours a week. I’m fascinated by all of the choices but also by the character design and I just like. In some ways am excited to get to the Death Arc bc i think it confirms a lot of the thoughts I currently have but in other ways I wish it wasn’t happening because I really like just like. Turning characters over and over to see the different facets and theorizing on how they tick and I do think that a literal magical mystery tour of Laudna’s Trauma Stuff is going to suck some of the fun out of it BUT ALAS.

2) Also I have a lot of quiet Orym feelings I don’t know why he’s getting me so good but I love a good gay soldier with a dead gay husband in this universe apparently and this is doing it for me.

(Actually this is a lie I know exactly what it is because Gay Revenge Quest always hits me so much harder, like the concept that he’s just quietly oh yes I just wish to help the Ashari I’m just curious about the secrets of the moon who can say why with this quiet exterior? But then deep down he’s like fuckin. I’ll do a million pushups a day because all three feet of me is going to find the person who murdered my husband and BEAT THEM TO DEATH WITH MY SHREDDED ABS. Catnip. Delicious. Yes please. This does nothing for me when the wife is in the fridge but make it queer and I’m all over it.) 

3) ALSO I keep thinking about Imogen and Laudna and what I really keep thinking about is Imogen and Laudna separately but also Dusk there and like. The layers of love but also the layers of selfishness and like. I don’t want to write a coffee shop AU I want to write fic about just how messy they both are I know the internet is frothing over this as a slowburn where they love each other but they’re dumb but I’d argue that like. It’s not about them realizing their love it’s about each of them needing to grow because they’re both, right now, too messy and too raw to really love each other in the way that either of them needs. And so they can love each other but they can’t be in love, you know, and it’s - that’s where the stories are and it’s DELICIOUS.

4) Look I know I haven’t finished watching the full Ruidus Lore Drop bc there’s more in ep30 but also like. This isn’t not Calamity 2, yes? Calamity 2? Yes?

(Like, my vision for Calamity 2 was somehow related to Betrayer Gods + Opal bc I am still pining for a batshit bonkers EXU/C3 crossover arc but WHATEVER MATTHEW)

Bc like. The characters don’t know this but we the viewers know that Calamity was basically: attempt to move the leylines to travel between planes + attempt to breach the barrier between Betrayers and Prime Material Plains + apogee solstice = Oops Gods Everywhere.

And IF there are secret gods on the moon and the moon is secret and the moon is maybe already traveling between planes and we know that the Feywild is full of pre-Calamity tech because they Fey went there to wait out the Calamity like. Who’s to say that the Unseelie aren’t building a version of an Astral Leywright and who’s to say that it won’t a) melt together the Feywild and Prime Material Plane and/or b) release the Secret Moon Gods.

(Who’s to say that the Secret Moon Gods haven’t already been released and are being worshipped in the Feywild bc we know that being believed in is what gives gods their power)

(I WANT TO SHAKE THIS UNTIL THE PUZZLE SOLUTION FALLS OUT UGH.)

#you know that thing where we watch a show and then talk about it? #let's do that internet! #laudna mcdeadgirl dungeons and dragons my other beloved #imogen campaign 3 anime x men horse girl #orym campaign 3 loves his dead gay husband #imodnacorp my beloved my nemesis #calamity 2: electric boogaloo #the matthew mercer dungeons and dragons twitch cinematic universe #campaign 3 spoilers

[jesuisici33]

Hi from @911-on-abc!!!! 6, 20, 23 for the writing meta asks?

6. What character do you have the most fun writing?

i've been in a very Eddie headspace lately, so i'll have to go with him! a lot of my fics end up with his pov or solely in his pov.

20. Tell us the meta in your writing that you really want to ramble to people about (symbolism you've included, character or relationship development that you love, hidden references, callbacks or clues for future scenes?)

okay, so i'm gonna do yes i know that he's my ex real quick cause i got yelled at for this bit and i found that so satisfying that i got such a strong reaction from everyone who read this fic lololol

so originally, carlos had tk in his phone as "tk" and then i remembered that couples change their partner's names to things like "baby", "babe", "love", etc and tbh i can TOTALLY see carlos doing this for tk with how far gone he was for him since episode 2 as soon as their relationship is defined. and then i knew once he realized that there was nothing saving their relationship (remember when marjan talked to him, he seemed so tired, and cut off from the convo sorta?) i can then see him changing it to something entirely impersonal. and i'm SO GLAD people picked up on all that just from a simple name change! that made me so proud as a writer.

on another note, for my vampire!buck au, i only looked up blood types super quick, but i have eddie as o positive, and that's the most common blood type, meanwhile taylor is ab negative, the most rare blood type....and if you go back to my little snippets when buck tastes both their blood, you'll see the direction i'm working towards with that. buck tasting eddie's blood and having this familiar taste, yet it's not cause it's eddie, and then when he's tasting taylor, that becomes a key factor why he's with her because it's like tasting a rare delicacy and he doesn't want to give it up yet. (and tagging @hippolotamus for this bit)

23. What's a story idea that you've had in your head the longest?

in terms of 911/Lonestar fanfic-my fae!carlos fic. basically lonestar except carlos is a faerie with all the lore that comes with it.

with original fic, i have an idea of an actors story that deals with them playing characters that their fandom ships but is not together in the show their filming and how they feel about that personally. gee i wonder where that came from

writers asks

[crazy56u]

Computer's finally up and running again, so now I get to spend half an hour translating my notes into what might wind up being two text posts due to Tumblr's character limit that I only just now learned was a thing!

In case you forgot, last week, Ziggy got outed as the antagonist, and Ben got knifed.

And already, we're on the Plane Ride from Hell.

Bold move talking about Evil Ziggy while inside the fucking Project.

The leap is going to rely on Google. Ben is fucked.

Not liking that ominous shot of Ian...

Fuck this Grenadine Fucker.

Ben, slap this child already.

Calling it now: Grandma Zelda dies on this flight.

I've never been in an upper floor plane before, but this First Class cabin checks out.

Hey, Ben, maybe don't remind Addison how you almost died last week?

If the handlink is on a "separate system", then Ziggy ain't offline...

Plot Twist: DB Cooper caused the plane crash somehow...

The fucking elevator music...

"Ben, stop being fucking snippy with my, we got a plane crash to stop."

"I hope you choke." If Addison just jinxed the pilot...

Yeah, fuck you, pilot, Ben has Future Google!

Plot twist: Ben has to land the plane.

"What do I do?" "Get back to work! (leaves)"

Oh God, not him again.

I hope Cory dies.

Yeah, I get the Surgeon General exists in the 1970s, but unfortunately, Joe Camel still has his stranglehold on America.

"Why didn't you ask [Leslie] for help?" "Well, I got knifed."

Who the fuck names their kid "Jim Gently"?

Reddit as a plot point, dear God.

AND HE'S CHOKING, GOOD ONE ADDISON

Double murder? Definitely DB Cooper.

Like I always say: Coffee is poison.

I love how Addison is getting pissed over Ben refusing to make friends.

I will laugh if it turns out Holly is innocent.

Calling it: Cory is the hijacker.

Pills and burbon, he knows how to party.

Ian is going to go rogue at this rate.

"It's not just about Ziggy-" Correct, it's about averting a plane crash, chop chop.

Ben, punch Cory already.

Ah, Cory has no friends, and he finally has a purpose!

...okay, that made me laugh. Get fucked, everyone, Ben was in the right for not trusting Leslie!

Well, things has turned slightly...

So, Cory technically caused this.

Maybe they crashed the plane to kill Cory?

Ben has to "Air Force One" this shit.

Holly, now's not the time to be mad at Ben.

How is this working?

"I hope for the best for your granddaughter, ma'am. (stands) SHE HAS HEALTH ISSUES!"

SPLASH!

"Here, have a gun."

"It's all because of me, isn't it?" Yes.

Oh, fuck, Cory was meant to be the Ben analogue this week.

And Bootleg Abe Vigoda to the rescue!

RIOT!

How did Abe Vigoda's clone not die from that?

Ben is becoming Walter White.

"Ben, fucking make friends already!"

You can tell Addison will never live down her misjuding Leslie as being a friend...

Ben's phoning this in, I see. (ba dum tish)

Night night!

"Cory, you can land this, right?" They are fucked.

"We got five minutes until this plane crashes!" Bet.

Cory, tick tock, choke down that fear of fucking up for once in your fucking life!

BTW, two minutes passed by my estimate.

And Ian finally gets to talk to Ben in the Imaging Chamber!

Ah, Ian patched the Imaging Chamber software, quick and easy handwave.

"Look, I know we have to land this plane, but let's rant about lore!"

DO YOU GET THE MORAL YET?!

My guess is that we aren't being shown Cory fix shit because he's violently crying all the while.

About as clean of a land as when the Foo Fighters did. 5/5

And right on cue, Sleepy Joe wakes up.

And Ben dips once more into the blue.

Lois gets to meet Nixon, oh dear God...

Way to kill the mood, Addison.

Oh, goody, we once again are flying blind.

And Ben is in... the future?

...wait, why is-

"Snowing in LA." ""Nuclear winter..."

...

...did Ziggy fucking nuke the Project?!

[Alrighty then, Addison got shot, that was my theory about why Ben had to save her, so, well, check that box off...]

Okay, next week is going to go hog-fucking-wild it seems. NBC, I know you already renewed the show, but announce Season 3 already.

#quantum leap #the friendly skies #spoilers #d.b. cooper #breaking bad #air force one #foo fighters #learn to fly #joe camel

[famderfries]

here it is: my full page of ‘who killed markiplier’ notes !! i am going to watch the explaination stream eventually but for now ill just reference the wiki

AHHH OK OK I KNOW YOU SAID U CHECKED THE WIKI BUT IM GONNA SAY IT HERE ANYWAY.

1. Damien and Celine are twins, Celine is older.

2. The detective really said "Each of my partners have died, each one more tragic than the last. some in hilarious ways. youre my partner now lol" like u were GOING TO DIE

3. Celine throws you under the bus at the end of WKM. Damien is not aware you will be left behind, only that he trusts celine. you are not darkiplier. celine and damien are darkiplier (but celine is asleep. not dead. asleep)

3.5. In the split second in WKM where you reach for Damien's cane and you see the hand change from yours to dark's, THAT is when "Damien" takes place. When Dark looks up, the mirror shatters, and you are stuck in the mirror. and the mirror is your device's screen.

4. Abe is very gay. i love him. no lore here just homos

5. The Actor (Evil guy in the red robe) grew up with Will, Damien, and probably Celine. Celine had an affair with Will who had worked and lived with Actor at some point. Also the house is alive

6. the house is not like the rest of the world. The house, somehow, put in The Actor's mind that Celine leaving was her fault. Will's fault. Damien's fault, he should have stopped them. Anything that happened was Celines fault. Wills fault. At some point after Celine left him, he tried to take his own life by stabbing. and he woke up, presumably in the same place you wake up to find damien and celine. and because "Death does not mean the same thing (in the house)", he is still alive. he tries again. and again. and experiments. and he lives

So he meets with Will late at night, loads a gun, and gets him drunk. he shoots at him, and misses on purpose, telling will to do the same. Will shoots and hits him (the wine bottle also breaks at this point). The Actor dies, and waits in the "Upside Down" (what Mark calls the death area where damien and celine are), until Celine pushes too far, gets possessed, and somehow, She and Damien both end up in the Upside Down. The actor takes damiens body and leaves the house.

7. the scene with the Party foreshadows the entire thing. i dont remember exactly, but Damien does a keg stand and is stuck upside down, Everyone starts pointing fingers and no one is correct, the detective has a gun i think? and also damien is the only person who tries to help.

8. The house is just Marks Mind. Characters are only allowed to be what they have been writen. hence why Abe is such a stereotypical detective, with all the clichés, but as soon as hes pressed on details, he blanks. Wilford has had this realisation a long time ago, when he asks abe for the answers, hes not teasing him, hes trying to figure out where Abes mind is at. Wilford has known for a long time that the universe they live in doesn't make sense because hes lived in the house before. When time freezes and the frame changes colour and youre able to move around??? THAT how Will has been appearing out of no where.

9. At the end of "Damien", there is a sweeping shot of all the trees he's cut down. He cuts down 1 tree a day.

10. the explanation stream IS 11 hours long, but the actual explanation is like 4, theres time stamps in the comments somewhere.

11. no lore only homos part 2 but the homo is me. Damien <3

Uhhh not sure if thats it but i might add more later!! i am taking questions 😍😍

#god this is longer thsn i would have liked it to be. #tw suicide mention #tw suicude #apollo answers shit #chex tag #wkm update #long post #tw long post

[tsui-no-sora]

hey hey, i draw cdream in taffyfied tank tops and pajamas. you reblog full frontal abs /neg we are not the same. okay but jokes aside there Is some seriously cute cdream art on your blog

i think we as a fandom are entitled to an entire stream where cdream just throws insane ideas on how to best infiltrate las nevadas at cpunz and punz has a mental breakdown because all he wanted to know was whether dream wanted to cook chicken or order mcpuffy's (again) (dream's only had caffeine powder for the past three days)

actually those shots aren't even metaphor or meme reference. cdream just Does That

yeah when i say that a wedding is nigh impossible i don't mean that it couldn't be pulled off even against the monumental odds. like. ccquackity has done some masterful storytelling over the past year and karl and sapnap were brilliant in the november lnv stream. like ccsapnap Is very good at making emotional beats Hit but yeah he's not the type i'd see writing reddit meta for his character anytime soon.

sapnap has to care for dream having been tortured. if not for the sake of minimal character consistency (he cares about dream. the guy. best friend. Family) for the sake of the story because. dude would it be narratively unsatisfying if it didn't cause any tensions between him and quackity. i could see the situation to be similar to the situation shortly after wilbur was revived where he was angry at dream (quackity) and yet didn't linger on it Because of his affliction with dream (quackity). but i've get to see csapnap make any threats to disembowel one of his fiances.

and yeah that's exaclty what i meant when i said that im conflicted about but totally respect people who use the terms interchangeably, there are definitely parts of for example exile that would fit the technical definition of torture and sam and quackity's pictures are literally printed next to the text book definition of abuse of power. also "I just automatically think I'm gonna get stones thrown at me whenever I mention c!DiskDuo" pov you are literally every dsmp blog who has ever engaged in the disk-horse. ever

inconsolable was certainly one of the most media experiences i have had in my life. wait did i actually not catch that? that would imply that he either Did visit cdream in prison or had some train chitchat on his way back into the living world. i really need to rewatch the vod

dude i want do see cdream Flaunt to quackity that he managed to turn csam onto his side as his little bread-fetching guy (irony on csam starving him in the prison much :))

oh my god. look im all for canon deaths and city's draped in billowing smoke. but cdream additionally playing some good ol psychological warfare ala watch out you don't end up like him *points at csam* would have me cheering in the front rows.

i see what you mean, the fall of las nevadas is going to be more fun as a team effort than just a soloplay from dream, but like, i really think that's what everything is developing towards, everyone slowly leaving with- or without cdream's help, why else would we have gotten the scene with foolish or why else would ccdream made it so clear to show that csam was beneath him now. i mean, we haven't had any indication that he cares less about quackity than before the prison but their relationship is certainly strained to hell and back from the whole partners in geneva convention violation thing and from sam lying to quackity about dream's escape, to be honest if next to fiances and cdream conflict we could also get a confrontation between sam and quackity that would be great.

it's been too long since foolish was last involved in Big Lore, i cannot wait. dude i just wish we had a date for the lore already. please Mr quackity. we need this

Can't believe I'm getting publicly called out for c!Dream is hot crimes in 2022 has the world not evolved at all

The image of c!Dream operating fully on spite plans and caffeine while c!Punz just wants to chill out two seconds and get them something to eat is sending me into hysterics at the end Punz just gives up and goes buy more McPuffys and has a slight breakdown because half the establishment is completely griefed and the burgers are sold out

Also c!Dream would totally be that type to have his food right in front of him and not eat it until it's way too cold and it's been like three hours because he was reading a book with pictures or something and c!Punz has to re heat the food because if it was for him c!Dream would just eat it raw and uncooked

Basically there's possibilities but there are one in 7.5 trillion oh also did you see that the new Las Nevadas code is "Quackity Ghost" and also the c!Tommy tribute video that's being made and the c!Wilbur final streams and cc!Ranboo straight up saying he doesn't really care to play in Minecraft servers anymore whatever the mess with cc!Bee.Duo is + the World Altering Event yeah I don't think this paints very well for all the doomposters in the fandom (Which is like 75% of the fandom)

Oh yeah I think he needs to care too I guess I was just expecting him to show that care a little more like he for sure can show when certain things matter to him that's why his emotionals bits hit so hard but in the streams he barely even mentioned it at all tho I guess it can be pretty similar to just not mentioning it because it's too much to accept all at once really hope for the sake of the story that it comes up and you know it's important because otherwise it's just going to be so anti climatic

I have so many posts written and confined to my drafts about c!DiskDuo because I just look at it and now that it's going to be such a hassle if it breaks containment which has already happened so many times in the past and like no it's not worth it

Everybody who I have seen talk about that bit seems to interpret it as they did meet up post jail break and I did see that theory that related the "I got him too :)" sign to c!Wilbur instead of c!Phil like it was automatically assumed at the time I'm a big sucker for pre-prison and even during revival c!MADDuo scheming tho so whichever option would be nice for me so as long as it actually gets acknowledged some day please

If somehow c!Sam was there because well he's a Las Nevadas resident as well technically speaking and he saw it falling apart together with c!Quackity and c!Dream I would die happily just the image of c!Dream demanding food out of him again and not just any food okay he's not desperate anymore he's got options now he's a free man now look at him at how strong he is he's not gonna get something like rotting raw potatoes no he's gonna get some stake and matter of fact c!Sam is gonna give it to him he's in no position to deny him anything anymore

Just the idea of c!Dream going matter of fact hey Quackity don't you wanna know where your socio here got his matching scar I got it for him like Techno got yours for you like I could get you another one just now I got the pickaxe now don't fuck with me ever again

It would be such a huge power move (Tho poor c!Quackity when will my boy catch a break from all the direct consequences to his own concious actions uh)

I think the reason c!Dream is so adamant on showing off to anybody he can that he's no longer the victim in his own life is exactly because he's been abused so constantly that he needs to show the world he's too strong to be broken by this and that they all would do better than to mess with him that you really really don't want to know what happens to you if you try to break his will

I believe this shows of power were a thing for sure before the prison but that they got completely augmented after it

For why cc!Dream would want to show that beyond consistency in his character I wouldn't know I don't really like to assume everything is done with a written and planified motive behind it tbh because most often than not that's just not the case

Confrontation between just c!Quackity and c!Sam would keep me fed for weeks I guess he doesn't care less for him in the same vein that c!Dream Team still cares a lot all for each other but it's still become this tangled mess of trauma

c!Foolish in lore give us c!Foolish in lore Las Nevadas Finale please (I would also do anything for c!Fundy c!Charlie and c!Purpled to have a role on it but tryna keep the expectativs low here) I'm fairly certain is going to happen pretty soon actually from everything else that's been happening so far but the expectative is eating me alive swear to God

#hi nice to see ya #ghost tag #beloved's asks #my responses to everything are always so long aaaaa

[kawa-kir]

It currently a little over 1:40 AM right now, wrote my thoughts about yesterday. Mostly my anxieties.

I've had a spur of productivity and made a few drawings and some new projects.

Polished a whole minute and a half of animationi that was meant to be just 8 frames.

I still dont know how these "5 minute adventure" projects end up becoming week long polishing-and-revising-and-polishing-again things.

I see animations that are, like, maybe 4 pictures if you count the one with a hastly edited cut out stock image hand, and then i try to make something similar, but it becomes this behemoth of a project every time. Smoothing out every movement, always animating on ones, that single pixel that appears for less than 0.1 seconds looks wack, better restart the whole 20 seconds.

I have so many of them too.

Gyros animation i've been working since june of last year, Maya, Otto, Charles, Abe, Bell and Polū drawings, fanart that i never finished, stories that i never ended, animations without frames, songs without melodies, tunes without purpose and its just...

Too much.

The anxieties of not making something good enough to show the world gnaw at my core while i repeat to myself in vain that it doesnt matter how good it is.

My attention keeps jumping from one topic the other, making maybe a frame or two before stopping completelly to switch a song from my playlist but oh wait there is a message about a youtube video on why some ants start walking in circles and that reminds me of a lemon demon song called Spiral of Ants and then i go to listen to his album only to see a meme and then i scroll down for half and hour and... what was i doing again?

Still.

Progress was being made.

Frame by frame.

Block by block.

At least im glad i finished one, i am still smiling about it now, even made a bit tune to go with it.

Maybe i'll start an album of bit tunes for my animations and drawings.

Already thought of a name.

All Planes.

Gonna make the cover art after some sleep.

Think im gonna start making drawings of my characters and just putting some lore in them.

I told myself i was gonna post everyday and stopped at week 2 out of 56.

But the year isnt over yet.

Gonna start making more pixel art stuff too. Not animations, just still images.

My brain works better with motion than with drawings, so i tend to make evem the smallest of projects an animation, even if it wouldnt fit.

Also funguary, said i was gonna do it and i will.

Pulling all the courage to tackle a beast greater than my inability to draw the same design twice: Digital drawings.

Last time i used it for real was i think in halloween 2022.

Rusty is an euphemism, so im gonna start slow.

Mushroom men await my pen and paper.

But first bed.

Thanks for reading.

#adhd problems #its 2am #im tired #but happy #progress is being made #slowly but surely #things are going to be okay

[lostacelonnie]

Hell yeah! Mood every time i go to a beach i always miss her after. I will keep my fingers crossed for your return on another trip. Oh those are all so good. Im especially a fan of churros & empanadas. I should get paella again sometime. That is a very mismatched group but i respect the vibe based friendship. Also reminds me i should get back to finishing mag archives thats a good podcast. Also been meaning to look into goth music to see what thats all about. The peak goal of adhd people. To rember. High luck stat to not be attacked by gulls. I think i got a tad bit there too because ive never been attacked by them but like. You can see the simple minded desire in their eyes. Especially if you have food. Damn best of luck to her. Thats like people tellin me they moved to florida, where the gators climb over fences often. Group chat for geo teacher fans that is amazing. Love that for yall. Oh there's one thing xabi & i share as i too do not know whats goin on so often. Thanks! I only hope i have enough but i think sw is in the back half so i can save even more pulls than i have. Probably will have to pass her light cone up like i did for seele's til next time. Meta can leave i dont care for it i use who i want when i want this is an anti meta zone. Oh? Im not sure. What to ask about them. Like i wanna know more of their role in the story of honkai i guess. What happens to them & all that. Welt seems to have history with otto/luocha. & himeko is my coffee lovin mom character i like her a lot. We love a girl who keeps complex machinery like the express working. Skirk showed up so briefly at the end of the archon quest but damn if it wasnt funny. Yeeting childe out of the abyss & just lore dropping on us all. I think i saw you played the story quest & learned about furina? I think it was uh. Durandal's jp va that she shared with skirk i cant remember cant wait to see if she becomes playable though. Oh damn really? The range is insane indeed what a queen. Oooh congrats! I also got her & had enough for her weapon next is navia but i might only have enough for her & try for her weapon later. Since arlecchino is a few updates out. Im not yet at a world level where relics matter but same. Not the best luck on that yet. 7 am exam? That should be illegal but i wish you luck on your studies. Especially with feelin a bit sick trying to study while sick is awful. Ooooh nice! Such a fun & good series. I just got the fifth volume last week & finally had time to finish it. Quickly became a favorite for me. Now if only i had time to read everything else im behind on.

FOR REAL FOR REAL ive never been much of a sea person but ahh this is such a universal experience... and thankies!!! while i could never Live in spain permanently [hot and everyone tries to talk to you] i did end up becoming quite fond of the country. GOD YEAH CHURROS ARE SOO GOOD generally speaking i like ALL spanish food. banger after banger after banger. need to learn how to cook some because i miss it so bad. but i DID manage to not fuck up scrambled eggs when i made them for the first time ever recently so thats a good sign for my culinary abilities id say. anyway IT IS AJDKKFJF but i vibe with them so its chill. ah nice!! im terrible with podcasts [can never quite concentrate on them.....] but i wanna listen to it Someday since i heard only good things ab it. also good luck luck with that!! i like goth music as in i think its Good and i generally enjoy it if i happen to hear it but its also sth i just Do Not listen to in my free time. i respect it tho. coming back YEAH AJSKDKFK I WAS JUST. observing the gulls the whole time but surprisingly nobody from my class was attacked ajdjfkgjs. and ill pass on the message when i talk to her next time AJKSLJFJG i really Do wonder what even prompted her moving there sometimes. i believe it was her boyfriend but also she changes those as often as clothes so she must Really like this guy, i guess. good for her tho shes my coolest sibling. and thanks SHJDKFKA were really devoted to her. also ive been accused of simping for her by the ice skater which is extremely funny because this is not even the first time ive been accused of being into a 30-40 y/o woman by someone at school [ITS ALL CHILL BTW its just for the shits. still. attacked and slandered!]. and same ajdkfjgj tho in his role its actually Quite Annoying for my class since like. we NEED to get things done sometimes and he just. does not do that. like literally our english teacher [who also looks like shes constantly dead inside and hates her job but we love her] did more to help us with this one thing than he did even tho she did not have to do that in any capacity. shes just epic. AHH GOOD LUCK WITH THAT!! i love ignoring meta sooooo much which might sound weird from someone who spends half his life grinding for stuff in honkai but its true. honkai is literally the only game where i care about meta and thats bc honkai meta is UNFORGIVING. but hey at least the gacha is much better with the 100 pulls guarantee for each char + 50 pull guarantee for gear pieces. IM NOT VERY GOOD WITH OTTO LORE TO BE ENTIRELY HONEST as in i know quite a lot of it but it hasnt quite Clicked in my head BUT IM ALWAYS HAPPY TO ANSWER ANY QUESTIONS AB THEM YOU MAY HAVE [<- GUY WHO IS SOO SO NORMAL]. AND YEAH SKIRK IS SO FUCKIGN FUNNY TO ME like the way she was previously described painted her as just so strong and intimidating but her speech pattern is so funny to me shes so chill. i feel like i could meet her smoking her evening cig and shed tell me where to pirate shit. id do a polish joke here but it is literally untranslatable without a 30 minute long backstory so nevermind. AND OOOOOH EPIC ALSO RIGHT?????? i respect voice actors above anyone else. ahh good luck getting navia!!!!!! i was Planning to pull for her but im much less efficient at grinding rn since i got a screentime limit due to having fucked up eyes [which im Not following btw but i am trying to touch grass a little bit more at least] [this is also the reason why i responded so late im sorry the change kinda threw me out of the loop]. ah understandable i was. well not Very high but enough to have trouble without decent gear so yeah. good luck in the future farming tho!! AND RIGHT I AGREE tho honestly the alternative would be an exam at like FOUR PM which is actually Worse imo. i personally function pretty well during my 7am classes and learned to enjoy them [public transport is very charming early in the morning..... i get to catch the sunrise sometimes] but that is also because i live like maybe 40 minutes away from my school. so i get up at around 6 am to get to school.

[ignore the random paragraph break i hit the character limit JSJFIGKJSWIJF] some of my classmates, however, have to get up at 4 am which. respect i could never. anyway thanks!!! the exam went quite well actually hehehe im doing much better in history than i thought. im becoming a nerd along with my entire friend group. every single day someone has new historical memes to share and theres already some inside jokes as well. fun. AND AHHHHHH THATS SO EPIC!!!!!!! i love this series sososoososooso much even tho i didnt have time to start the 3rd volume yet... however i DID read a translation of the "she's so cheeky for a commoner!" web novels and im about to read the light novel so im quite excited for that. first and only loretta and pipi fan ever.....

#also i love wataoshi for the fact everyone has like 3 different localizations of their name #except for claire who is the only one thats consistent #asks #pen pals