#melancholy maybe idk

[capricioussun]

It's been a rough day today so here's some comfort headcanons

Rus tries to distract himself. Preferably with company if it's an option, but he'll also manage on his own. He’ll do puzzles, sort/clean things in his room, customize some clothes, just...anything to take his mind off things for a while. If it's really rough though, he might just crawl into his closet and sit there disassociating for a while. Sometimes, coming out of being so stressed, he'll draw or paint something for a little while. Helps him reorient a little.

For a while, Edge would only distract himself. There's not time for comfort in a world like theirs. This would lend to overworking frequently, or on the rare occasions he pushed himself too hard, a very bad panic attack where he'd do his best to hide (usually in his closet) and make as little noise as possible. Once surfaced though, he takes a lot of comfort in making things with his hands. Either crocheting, cooking or baking, or painting. Though he'd rather be alone when calming down.

Stretch runs hot and cold on company for comfort. Sometimes he needs it, will go anywhere he isn't alone so he can't hear himself think, but sometimes he absolutely doesn't want to be near anyone. Those times, he mostly just distracts himself with video games or wallowing in bed dipping in and out of consciousness. He doesn't have as much available energy as the other two, so if he’s already feeling a bit beat, picking up his hobbies tends to just make him feel worse, so mostly, he just tries to nap and...not think about it.

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Something someone could do to help comfort Rus would be to distract him. Hang out with him, do or talk about things unrelated to what's upset him. Giving him that space to not talk or think about it while still feeling supported would help a lot.

As for Edge, while he generally prefers being alone, if he’s not too worked up, quiet 'parallel play' might help. Just hearing someone nearby, doing their own thing, especially if they'd be willing to play taste tester if he’s cooking or baking, it helps bring him out of his own head sooner, and...well, it's good to be reminded he doesn't have to handle everything on his own anymore.

Honestly, Stretch being mildly bullied into doing something mild, if he’s not too down, could help him a lot. Especially getting him to leave his bedroom, even if he doesn't go much further than just the living room. A movie, snacks, and low energy company could usually do him a world of good (and someone who doesn't make him feel like he should be ashamed for feeling bad).

#I should also think abt specific things like. im sure they all have specific comfort things like movies foods music etc #edge takes a lot of comfort in soft things #and Rus takes a lot of comfort in his action figures #for stretch...i wanna say loz would be a comfort game but idk they can be SO melancholy maybe something milder like. animal crossing #(<- plus it requires less energy. which is good if he’s already feeling gross) #sun spots #ut rus #uf edge #us stretch #undertale papyrus #underfell papyrus #underswap papyrus #I'll be real w/ yall it's been a rough fucking month

[mmmmwaffles94]

Me, an aroace: I want to hug you and give you so many kisses. My love for you is as deep as the ocean's trenches and as vast as the shining void-filled sky. I love you. No romo.

#this is to all my irl friends #my virtual friends #and you #reading this now #i love you #aromantic #aroace #my depression doesn't let me voluntarily see people more than once a month #i am very burnt out but still working #what a horrible hellscape we live in #my heart is still full and i think of my friends every day #fuck anyone who says platonic love is less than or 'not enough' #well maybe not 'fuck' just...idk push them down or something #this was supposed to be a humorous post what happened? #i decided to make this post at 1am i guess #1am is Heartfelt Melancholy TimesTM #i guess

[soldier-poet-king]

Literally went to brush my teeth and was struck by overhwleming anxiety about a hypothetical situation that might not even come to pass (I get that new job that I want and I have to tell my current boss that I'm leaving in the middle of this big project that I partially initiated & am the only person in-office currently competent enough to do it. It's not impossible, I'm writing clear guides, but they'll have to hire someone else who probably won't be as thrilled about the finnicky bits or as patient and accommodating and people pleasing with all the nonsense that goes on)

And THEN I saw/noticed smthn on tumblr that made me feel REALLY bad about myself and it's just. 👉👈 Are you mad at me? What did I do wrong? Is absolutely NOT the appropriate or mature response here so I'm gonna keep my damn mouth shut but also. Consider. I am a desperate void with abandonment issues living with the knowledge that everyone eventually gets tired of me, if I don't manage to push them away with my badness first like

Who out here living with the foundational belief that they are a fundamentally un-likeable/unlovable person, a fundamentally bad person, and beneath it all not even really A Real Person but just a gross void and that's why you can't keep any friends & will always be lonely

I can't even blame the internet bc being offline is equally lonely given the limitations of my day to day life, and it's all just different flavours of the same isolation

#the duality of fran #this is just self pity ignore me im going to go curl up in bed and cry i think #at least my sheets are clean #idk. it's just. this unending grief #and i had been having a good time playing bg3 with rose and j #and then just??? #it feels like life is kinda just an endless cycle of this #and maybe its normal and happens to everyone and im just too sensitive to it #idk how to not feel it so deeply or personally. idk that i want to #i just. give up #went to mass tonight so tmrws goals. meal plan and grocery run. read atfots all day probably. maybe bake #but mostly just curl up woth atfots and hide. it isnt hitting the same as hote #but kips personal desires. his hidden want in it. the endlessness of it #its the same melancholy as Tolkien's elves. the sea longing and cry of the gulls #and i am full up of that empty longing #how can you be full of emptiness? which is by definition absence? idk. but thats what it is #also my skin is itchy

[orcelito]

Done with the funeral 👍

It was rough at first, & there were a few Strange moments (like seeing my ex step family for the first time in like 8 years), but... in the end, it was actually kind of nice? I cried 3 times total, two during the service, but Thankfully not during when I spoke.

Which. That was actually not that bad. I ended up just reading what I wrote last night/this morning, which is usually not my presentation style, but I didn't have time to practice it lol.

I made people cry, though. Several people shared that with me. One person told me that I should be a writer, and I was like "Well, Good News about That!" I hadn't thought about the fact that my experience with writing would make a good eulogy, but apparently it did!

We played Linkin Park's Shadow of the Day at the end, since Linkin Park is something we grew up listening to because of him. And I'm just always gonna have that memory of it, now.

Yeah.

#speculation nation #there was a Lot of people. so much of my dad's work union showed up. like some 75 people or so. idk #i wasnt entirely sure bc i was just Not looking up lol. but the 100 person room was pretty full #i have never hugged so many random strangers in my life. #it was sweet though. my father was well loved. #it was a rough time starting out but. it was a good experience in the end #understanding why people do this now. it doesnt fix the fact that he's dead. but it feels... healing i guess #like a step in the right direction. a step towards healing. #need to text my ex step sis. she said she wants to get back in contact. #they... *were* family for 7 very formative years of my life. so maybe. maybe. i could talk to them again. #my family definitely has been dwindling. i need to cling to what i have. #anyways. yeah. things are mostly just melancholy now. and i can finally rest tonight.

[hotelbitches]

i miss my friends tails

#* ooc: let's go lesbians! #negative cw #i'm going to bed bc the hashtag depression is getting to me today #but i miss all the people who i talked to for like a week straight all day and then never heard from again bc they moved on from hazbin #makes every new attempt at meeting someone and bonding with them feel. idk. feeble maybe? #and meanwhile i feel like i'm the one that's lacking bc i can't reply to threads as fast as i want to #and my drafts are just holding me down with guilt that i haven't answered them #mb i should go through and just get rid of all the answered asks i wanted to continue as threads but idk if it'll even make a difference #aaaaaaaaaaaaaa someone give me a lobotomy brain doing too much #not Really negative just. a bit sad. melancholy maybe. idk im going to bed irguejithk

[dailybaizhu]

baizhu eating chocolate,,, if he can

151: can and should are two different things

#baizhu #genshin impact #baizhu genshin impact #okay i was not paying much attention to the ask box details the past couple of days and this seems....suspiciously targeted 👁🤔 #i Suspect i know who sent this based on the timing and the 'if he can' #and i Suspect that this is about my Moste Tragic And Melancholiful Discovereigh. #in which i discovered that chocolate is too caffeinated for me APPARENTLY #maybe pretentious dairy free hot chocolate powder has more caffeine. idk :( #but Fine i can do a projection 😤😤😤 #anyway this is all to say chocolate is good and you should eat it as long as like. it doesnt make u all nausea and heart poundy #i know without tag context it could look like something else is being implied but no i am implying that baizhus organs are mean to him #bc mine are mean to me so its like a power fantasy kind of. the power of a doctor saying oh yeah problems arent good #(as opposed to problems dont exist have u considered youre making things up?)

[become-a-robot]

What is your favorite album with the worst album cover and why is it BOOK They Might Be Giants

#i know it's been almost 3 years but it still baffles me #i dont have anything against Brian Karlssons photography at all #in fact i quite like his other stuff. its just they happened to pick the most boring of his imaginable #it sticks out like a sore thumb compared to every single other cover #this photo should have been in the liner notes AT MOST #like maybe they MEANT to fo something innocuous and melancholy? but i feel like theres better ways they could have done it IDK.

[lavender-femme]

someday i won’t have to cry myself to sleep. someday i’ll feel warm and loved and wanted and i’ll be wrapped up safely in my beloved’s arms and there won’t be anything worth worrying over. someday i’ll be loved. someday i’ll be seen.

#just not today I guess #god I’m tired and I’m sad and annoyed and idk I just wish holidays didn’t give me this awful melancholy mood #i miss magic… any level of it #but most of all I miss connection and having people to spend the day with #I’m working (in 5.5 hours 🙄) because it’s giving me something to do #otherwise what is there? #i’m no longer welcome at the place I used to spend the holidays #thanks to a former best friend who fucking ruined that four years ago now #this year I thought I’d be building my own new traditions with [redacted] in New Jersey #but here I am #working because I can’t stand to not do SOMETHING #guess I’ll take myself to a movie or something #maybe just embrace it all and sleep until evening when I get to finally see my friends #(sibling of that former best friend… bc again. not welcome there so we have to wait) #idk y’all #I’m just feeling incredibly unloved today #unloved unwanted etc etc #and I fucking hate it #also if you’ve gotten this far please just send love #and know I appreciate you so much #I’m talking #broken petals

[pebblezone]

this Tylenol ain’t shit w

#talkingcore #emotions. man. #there’s so much music that I just haven’t listened to in a bit and it’s making me feel things it’s not even like sad things I’m like damn #how long has it been since I’ve listened to beautiful stranger by Madonna as featured in Austin powers international man of mystery #but also something in my brain feels like it needs to cry like I don’t feel like I physically can but something needs to be released #so do I go pet sounds? smile? falsettos? I feel like I need to be in a sleeping bag and Contemplate #fun fact! Kendra Morris has an absolutely stunning cover of don’t talk (put your head on my shoulders) #I’m pretty neutral on beach boys covers tbh I’m never crazy about them since like they really never measure up #how many mid covers of god only knows can I take? not many. but like she & him have their little Brian Wilson tribute I like that. #the covers are a lot better when they don’t try to perfectly replicate whatever the fuck Brian Wilson was doing they aren’t him #brain wants to go melancholy mode but I’ve no clue over what. girl just tell me what I’m supposed to be sad over I’ll commit to the bit #need to keep listening to new stuff but also need old stuff Maybe that’s it maybe I just need old stuff again? like routine?? shit idk #also like at 5 am I woke up and remembered how in choir people kept comparing me to the director they had the year before me #and the thing is she had the same name as someone else in choir that was student teaching my first semester so I kept thinking they were #referring to her Id be in my choir fit my silly suit my proud butch uniform and they’d be like oh this is so ‘insert name’! #and it kept throwing me off because the student teacher was like. not like me at all so I was like fuck #what kind of girl core energies am I accidentally emitting this is Bad. so anyway 5 am I’m like fuck it I need to research this person #I search. find her. she’s butch. I’m blessed. they weren’t lying like man we do such a good job at being generic! yay! #butch And in choir! love to see it! keep thinking how I am destined to be like in my 40s doing mundane tasks #I’m gonna be soooooo good at watering plants and putting salt on the sidewalk before it snows and cleaning drains #need to be a dad mom so fucking bad you don’t get it I need to drive carpool and take off work for dentist trips and watch hgtv #AHHHH i think that got rid of some of the sad lfg💥💥💥💥this must be super long god damn sorry

[dapperenby13]

Listening to folk/country and feeling emotions I didn’t know I had.

#I don’t know why #maybe it’s just me being southern #idk #just feeling lonely #and melancholy #and needing a hug from a friend #v says things

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

one of my friends and i were talking about life and where we would be in a few years and it made me a lil bit sad

#we were driving somewhere and i said something about how she was going to move away one day #(she doesn't wanna live in texas forever esp cause she's lived here most of her life) #and we talked about how one day we'd both probably just be fond memories to each other #like just people to look back on when thinking about your early 20s or whatever #SHE said this not me. i think it's so fucking morbid #but like she's not wrong and i keep thinking about it #how everyone you ever love will leave u some day?? isn't that just so absolutely fucked #but like. we're probably gonna part ways someday #and then we'll just start talking less and less and less and one day not at all #cause that's how life is isn't it #someone can mean the absolute WORLD to you one day #and a few years later you might not even think about them unless something prompts it #and i DO Try to talk to my besties as often as i can #but maybe i should get on real social media or something idk #it's literally impossible to talk to every single person who has meant something to you on a regular basis #and i think that's what social media is for??? idkkkkk #i'm being melancholy and CRINGE today ig #idk it's weird how u can go from 'we're going to be at each other's weddings' to 'eh we probably won't see each other much if ever #in another five years' #she's said both of those things. one of them is more realistic than the other. #delete later #you just gotta leave before u get left ig #sorry for quoting taylor swift

[torchickentacos]

So, I'm working on listing all of my wips, and I realized something. A bunch of what I consider 'wips' are actually finished but I just want to rework them because I know I can do better but I'm starting to wonder if the reason I never finish anything is because my standards for my work are higher than I (or most people) can feasibly reach. huh. anyways

#like if I could chill maybe I'd get stuff done #but idk. I don't like publishing stuff if I haven't pushed myself with it #which is why I have so few things published and tbh the only one I'm happy with is morning after melancholy #and even then I kind of want to rework it #idk. hopefully I get more done soon

[thinkingnot]

graduation ceremony tmr D:

#still taking summer classes so im not officially leaving the school #but idk i feel like i should be feeling more #switching between yay! and oh no im sad and sentimental and now #(​?) blank #i wanna be excited but its like trapped and empty and weird #melancholy #ye it feels like that like i expected more #and i’ve physically not feel too well so maybe its that too ough #ough #vent #personal

[ernaux]

#this makes me want to really get into iconology again #the first time a prof taught us something different in our major was our medieval art prof #I guess it was didi huberman she was referencing or maybe directly warburg talking about precisely this in durero and others #she also talked about how it was kind of like a performance how they reenacted (?) reading it outloud and such the judgment day in front of #a judgment day relief #idk it was just such a different perspective on art history. im grateful i was in her class #I wanna re read some papers i think the judgment day theme one was specifically talking about el Pórtico de la gloria in Santiago #and going back to melancholy. the hand in the cheek... yeah affects and the body and how it metamorphs over time. new summer obsession mayb #jugando al pentiment

[socialc1imb]

I have a general Train Whistles thought but the song "Walking in the Air" from The Snowman has twawb vibes but like i can't put a finger on why exactly

#maybe its the melancholy yet beautiful tone? #the way the song perfectly encapsulates a sort of hopeful sound??? despite sounding mysterious?? #idk yall maybe im just insane

[moomoomooing]

oh oof i drew my 300 follower request thing and i already dislike it,,,,

if i have time or energy to redraw it i will but im literally 1 follower away at this point-

then again god knows when ill get the last one www

#it rained today and now im weirdly melancholy #ik i apologize too much on here butjust having a place to ramble is nice #idk maybe ill start using my main blog to ramble so i dont bother yall here?-