#middle/high school was an Experience

[cluster-b-culture-is]

aspd culture is having such a bad resting bitch face that you’ve accidentally made 15 people hate you

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#cluster b culture is #aspd culture is #cluster b #aspd #Mod Reef #anonymous #i used to make the popular kids in school think i was intimidating to the point they were actually scared to talk to me #meanwhile i was getting regularly harassed & recorded w/o consent for stimming & being otherwise visibly ND in a way people disliked #middle/high school was an Experience #''people think i'm intimidating and angry all the time so they don't usually fuck with me directly! cool!'' #''people also harass me and record me without me knowing because i'm stereotypically 'weird' and visibly non-neurotypical! not cool!''

[icewindandboringhorror]

reminders of the passage of time moodeboard

#my blog is in his last year of middle school. he'll be off to high school next year (at least I think so..? 13 yrs old is usually 8th grade #at least from my experience. 9th graders are usually 14. 10th are 15. etc. etc. and then you're in 12th grade #and graduate high school usually 17yrs old.) ANYWAY.. wow he is so ancient.. #maybe he's still in a preteeny early teen emo phase or something.. I hope he gets some black and white striped armwarmers and black eyeline #r for his birthday. Maybe an MP3 player of course. Though because I don't really like most alternative music and he is my son he's actually #not allowed to listen to metal or pop punk or emo rock whatever stuff. I open the mp3 player and pre-stock it with only #disco and funk and classical music. he can have a little chiptune or techno stuff as a treat (sometimes emo adjacent maybe more #scene. I think a lot of scene kids were into that more.. emo's weird eccentric brother)) #Also he starts taking iron pills his 13th birthday because he's probably incredibly anemic just like me #so on and so forth and et cetera (I'm just being silly.. I am not pro-controlling your children down to whatmusic they #listen to or etc.etc. lol) #THOUGH I love that it's in january... january is one of my favorite months if not my favorite. yeeaaay #just such a nice cool month. I like that it's the start of the year mostly and that it's sometimes snowy here. Like where I live nov - dec #isnt really actually snowy?? You always associate those winter Months with snow but I think snow happens later on this coast #so it's more like Jan - March or even april sometimes. Though that may just be climate change lol.. But it's cool that Jan is winter AND #ACTUALLY snowy. plus the Beginning Of Year vibes and energy.. hrm... nice nice.. ANYWAY #AND this is not even my first tumblr blog. I had a different one before it I think.. #evviilll to be on one website for so long lol.. Very thankful that most websites I used to use as a 10 year old or whatever #are now defunct. There's something weird about how humans are just creating endless streams of words and pictures and all of this stuff #and it just goes out into the void and stays there long after the person themselves has forgotten it. not even like 'oh no what if i said #something bad!!' but more just the general sense of.. people create so much more ideas than they can actually hold in their heads. nobody #remembers exactly word for word every post they've ever made or etc. It's like parts of yourself that you've externalized and then fade awa #from you but they're still you but they're not so you just have little snapshots of yourself in time floating around entirely unbenknownst #to you. like making clones of yourself and then forgetting you did so but every once in a while going 'shit... there's clones out there.. #of me and I don't even have track or awareness of them anymore.. what an odd concept..' etc. not EXACTLY like that ghbj..you know what I me #n.. or maybe you dont.. hrmm... ANYWAY #I am just now slightly recovering from my most recent mysterious illness spell and etc. so I would like to post more again and mAYBE even #do a costume if I'm being ambitious.. but after so many times of being randomly stricken by problems I'm now fearful of ever being too #hopeful lol.. always like 'I would like to go to the grocery store tomorrow! .... MAYBE.. if i CAN.. possibly... NOT getting my hopes up'. #etc. etc. etc. every statement has a caveat and a backup plan and so on and so forth and such is life.. anyway. happy birthday evil tumblr

[im-still-watching-anime]

sakura: sorry i’m not in love with you anymore i’m gay now

sasuke: i’m also gay now

sakura:

sasuke:

both at the exact same time: good for you

#naruto #naruto shippuden #naruto incorrect quotes #sasunaru #sns #inosaku #haruno sakura #uchiha sasuke #me at the random kid i told my sisters was my crush in middle school :/ #i hated your bug collection but you did so much for me godbless #also shoutout to my sisters for believing that for years even when we got to high school and i never spoke to him again #the gay experience #anyway running into people from high school is ONLY good when you have a gay self recognition through the other moment

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

Do you have a tag where we can check out your art?

Nope, but I suppose I can try to remember to tag it when I add it. key word is try.

If you want to see more mostly very old art that is nothing like what I post on here:

Tumblr

Instagram <- this one has 1 (one) gabe pic on it lol

#sorry its just birds and beasts #and almost all of it is from high school or middle school lol #long story short i was forced into AP art and it broke me in such a way i never really recovered from. damn that was 7 years ago #anyway i barely drew after that... wonderful experience....... hah............. #and nowadays i barely draw cause i dont have the time to + still kind of ruined by that experience #tho the dumb pics i make for this account give me a reason to at least try to draw #ask #asks #non voice post

[herbaklava]

The “Gen Zs/Millennials are like this” posts are so funny to me because 99% of the time they lack the nuance of the fact that there’s a disconnect between older and younger people within every generation. Younger teens in Gen Z who only ever knew 2010s tech and TikTok aren’t gonna have the same technological experiences as early 20 somethings in Gen Z who had the chance to be children without TikTok and with 2000s/early 2010s tech.

#there was this post about Gen Z not being able to use computers and I’m like what I took technology classes all through- #elementary / middle and high school! #we learned internet safety from an early age as well! #like they must be talking about younger Gen Z and Gen Alpha lmao #this is just my personal experience tho!

[starstruckodysseys]

the shared experience between me and six fictional characters of firmly believing someone Fucks and being absolutely crushed upon finding out they don’t

#aka an actual experience i had in middle school #like it was a whole thing with me and my friend #dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high #fantasy high freshman year #fhfy #the bad kids #johnny spells #yknow what i think this counts as #reese’s pieces

[nero-neptune]

idk, i just think that (to a point) Everyone's a product of the media they consume. that's why certain media is called 'formative', esp if you watched it young. one thing you watched/read could’ve lead to an interest which could’ve gotten you to learn/participate in/avoid something you wouldn’t have otherwise. take away all the books you’ve read, movies you’ve watched, music you've listened to, etc etc- you’re likely a totally different person. which is neither good nor bad, that's just called being a person who lives on planet earth.

#if i went back in time to middle school and made it so twilight wasn't on hold and i finally read at the age of 11 #pretty sure i could've become a twilight fan (opening a whole new branch of who i could turn out to be) #or how i was This Close to becoming a directioner (and i probably would've been a whole new person due to that) #or how i only got into doctor who because i was recommended hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy (my first real intro to scifi books) #and without that i probably wouldn't have stayed on tumblr (which i only made bc of my interest in animation (more media consumption lol)) #bc it's the who in superwholock that cemented my desire to make an account #or if i hadn't thought the violin looked cool bc i saw it in a movie then i wouldn'tve joined orchestra in 6th grade #(and then discovered i hated orchestra so then i joined band. and then i was offered the choice of baritone or sax and i chose baritone) #and marching band (which i later joined) defined all 4 years of my high school #something that straight up would not have happened if i hadn't thought a violin player looked cool in a movie i saw as a kid #boom! butterfly effect! #so who am i without all these experiences bc of the media i consumed? idk. if they exist in an alternate timeline #without any of the things that make me Me #that's a stranger for all intents and purposes #rambles

[rosesradio]

so i finished an application to my local library, please be manifesting for me to get this job, it’s notoriously hard to get library jobs (which is why i went into this field, obviously :’) )

#not to sound arrogant or anything but like…i imagine i’m one of the only people my age that has library assistant experience for this— #because i was a library assistant in middle and high school. which is not much but i’m only 20 so idk what else i’d have atp #anyways…I know i already technically have two jobs but i only do one and i’m a full time student #but gahhh i really want this job it’s exactly the kind of experience i need because even with a master’s employers want that experience #regardless of what i think of that i gotta deal #anyways oh god i’m going to bed at midnight i gotta be up at 5:30 for work—gn! #rose.txt

[iero]

HELP Sabrina Carpenter looks like my frenemy from middle school I’m the same 💀

Oh no... I'm so sorry, anon. 😭

Like, she's very pretty, don't get me wrong, but unfortunately, I can't separate the two in my head, even though we're now 12 years out of high school over here...

#answered #Anonymous #Me @ me in my head when I think of anything from high school (or before) at my current age: GROW UP! #Alas middle AND high school was a traumatic experience for me... That's when it started going downhill.

[meatsouuuuup]

it is yearning for tap hours

#when i was in middle school my school did mary poppins for the musical and as an ensemble girlie i got to be a tap dancing chimney sweep #and it was so fun and the teacher said i picked it up really fast and was doing pretty good for someone with no prior experience #and there were like 5 of us who got to go up onto elevated surfaces and guess which tiny eleven year old got to do that #during one of the shows the stage crew forgot to lock the set piece i was on and i nearly fell but i somehow managed to avoid a crisis??? #to this day i’m not sure how #but anyways #after that the teacher in charge always put a tiny tap section in one song of each show #one year it was like 8 people and the next it was 4 #different people each year except for me #and after i graduated middle school she stopped doing that #i still haven’t ever had any tap lessons and i haven’t done it since then at all but it was so much fun and i really miss it #would love to get lessons one day #also that teacher was so cool she was my english teacher in eighth grade and we read romeo and juliet and she taught us to stage sword fight #i also did stage crew for the middle school musical when i was in high school and she let me have cameos

[gibbearish]

am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes

#that being said. pressurized cabins drive me insane a little bit #and also it gives you pretty intense sea legs for a While #like. the ones from the first trip hadnt gone away by the return one. so. might be stuck with that for a few days #we shall see #also ajr live fucks severely #the albums were already incredible but that was a goddamn religious experience #like. idk the way i think abt it is theyre more djs than a regular band esp w their performance showing the making of way less sad #like their music is very electronic‚ theyre making mixes of their own sound effects more than singing in one go #so like. the vocals were a teeensy bit rough at times #notably times it has taken me Literally Hundreds Of Hours Practice to be able to consistently sing along with #and times ive found its literally physically impossible to like. no matter what #idc how big your lungs are‚ there is no human on earth who can do that final run of karma in one breath #much less to An Entire Stadium After An Hour Of Jumping And Dancing And Singing Loud As Fuck #so like i dont blame them for that‚ you dont go to live shows expecting it to be 100% perfect anyways jwbdjsbfksb #the trumpet however. well she was certainly playing sometimes. and was very enthusiastic about her flares. #however. in most of their songs they use midi trumpets to my ear at least #meaning she was likely an addition specifically for live performances and in my personal band kid opinion #prooobably was not in any of the like. higher tier bands? idk just. a lot of the mistakes she was making were hitting as stuff that got #taught out of us the instant we joined any band beyond regular concert #so i would guess she was probably just like. a friend who happened to play trumpet in high school or maybe even just middle school #and they knew that the trumpet parts in their pieces were big and distinct enough that like they /had/ to get a live player #and just kinda. didnt anticipate the audition -> performance gap #like. her tone was really fried the whole time like she was playing as hard as possible #which. she was mic'd. have the sound guy turn her up. #the way they did it made it sound like she was using a mute but not. like she only got the bad parts of a mute from it yknow #her tempo and timing were. bad. theres no nice way to put that one it just Was Bad‚ like the trumpet runs in ajr songs arent. complicated #like. quite literally if you handed me the sheet music right now i would have it down perfect in a week at absolute most #and better than that player on sightread. like. we did so many sightreading drills. #like ill share my band kid creds if anyone cares but i need to emphasize this isnt me being braggy like. they genuinely just arent hard #fuck im out of tags. w/e i think only like one of yall also listens to them anyways so i can leave it there

[aroacehanzawa]

lore drop

#that poll just now reminded me of my Toxic Homoerotic Codependent Female Friendship in high school #there was something obsessive going on between us because 1) i wasn't even in her friend group 2) everything she said or did was annoying #there was some stockholm syndrome situation going on. also a very succession tomgreg dynamic #you know how you invite a friend somewhere and they're like 'we're on our way' and you're like who's 'we' #and it's because they're a package deal with their partner apparently. yeah that was us but platonically. if you could even call it that #anyway her sense of humour was like that of a mean girl ie backhanded compliments and jokes at other people's expenses #always saying something that would subtly put others down. i got fed up with that at the beginning of our final year #and called her out on everything that Wasn't Good. which ultimately culminated in the Divorce #well there's more to it too but i could be here the whole day #i was so obsessed with her i misstook it for romantic feelings too and confessed to her in the middle of an argument LMAO #and then proceeded to ignore all her follow up questions. but in hindsight it clearly wasn't romantic anyway #except about a year after the Divorce she retrospectively confessed to me AND THEN REFUSED TO ELABORATE WHEN. as revenge i guess #actually the downfall started when we went to another city for an event and on the last day before the train back we were supposed to go #explore the city in what was essentially a (platonic) date except she ditched me for Some Guy she just met and claimed she had to go back #home early for a family situation and that he was giving her a ride because the train would arrive too late #that wasn't the only time she would just. abandon me like that. but it was the final straw for me #anyway. defining high school experience 👍 #the only good thing to come out of it was that she thoroughly insulted a classmate of ours that i stood up for and so i gained a new friend #who is still my best friend to this day

[saspitite]

everyone always has such pleasant memories about elementary school but i think its just because i'm too fucked that i couldn't relate. which is sad because i wish i could have stories about teachers encouraging me to express myself and making friends and having wholesome adventures outside at recess but literally most of the memories i had were either 1: getting yelled at for yawning while the teachers talked (they saw it as me being deliberately rude when i was just fucking tired??) 2: other kids calling me r*tarded and/or fat, or 3: feeling like an alien for not understanding social cues and jokes

#sas says #autism #r slur mention #r slur tw #actually autistic #this isnt meant to sound bitter or anything im really happy that most people have wholesome memories of school growing up. #im just a bit sad that i can't feel the same way #and wondering if anyone else had the same experience #like ive heard about horrible things happing to people from middle or high school #but never elementary #maybe because most peoples memory on elementary school isnt that good #i just have weirdly good long term memory #serious stuff

[theheadlessgroom]

@beatingheart-bride

"If you need to eat, Emily, you should eat."

It felt wrong for Randall to be the only one eating, especially now that he knew the truth about her diet-he could understand why she wouldn't want to eat (drink?) around him, of course, but nevertheless, it just felt wrong for him to have breakfast while she didn't. If he hadn't known about her vampirism, if he was still in the dark about it last night and this morning, he may have been able to play off her lack of eating as simply nerves or something like that, but now that he knew, he couldn't help but feel a twinge of concern for her.

Gratefully accepting the eggs and bacon and coffee, he took a seat at the kitchen table, his tone gentle, and yet firm, as he continued, "You told me last night that, despite everything that's happened...you're still you. And I believe that, and I don't think there's anything on this Earth that could change that, or the way that I feel about you, Emily. So, if you need to eat, please do. It doesn't frighten me."

He gave her a gentle smile as he said this, before taking a little sip of coffee-it would still be a touch jarring, to think of his beautiful, sweet, gentle angel drinking blood, he was sure, but he knew that was what she needed to do to live, and accepted that. She did what she had to do, and he didn't want her to hunger on his account, least of all when he himself got to eat. It would mean he'd have to leave sooner than later if she was going to eat-and he didn't want to leave, not so soon.

#((big agree on both accounts! i look back at my awkward pre-teen/teenage self in middle school)) #((and feel a wave of secondhand embarrassment from myself; and i am endlessly baffled when i think back)) #((to how long i've been out of high school period-it just doesn't feel real!)) #((i wouldn't want to go back and redo either of them but middle school is the one i'd LEAST rather revisit)) #((simply because of the sheer embarrassment-i was the classic geek: gangly; awkward; acne and braces)) #((who loved video games and 'lord of the rings' and sucked at gym class and math)) #((and so i'd rather not revisit those halcyon days of yesteryear; so as not to experience those embarrassments again!)) #((high school wasn't a picnic either but if you forced me to choice one to relive; i'd pick high school every time!)) #outofhatboxes #beatingheart-bride #V:Dark Shadows

[videolover]

oh my god if the thing to do is like. join random online dnd campaigns. i'll just die. i don't wanna play with people i don't know... that seems like such a bad way to do it..

#i did that in HIGH SCHOOL and i did not like those people. i hung out with them because nobody else wanted to play dnd #and also that's where the weird freak friend group was and i was outed as gay in. middle schooooool? so i ddid not have a lot of friend #options. you know. i heard that high school's less bad about that stuff now... which is good... but my experience was not...

[vamptastic]

Might proctor some SATs at the HS my mom teaches at 👍

#It's really weird being trans and knowing so many teachers lmao #I keep getting offered jobs by people who've known me since I was a kid and then being like... Idk if they'd actually hire me #Smth like this is fine... But I was gonna do aftercare because they pay like $30/hr #And then I asked the woman who reccomended it and she said don't do it for middle or high school #Cause they're gonna ask if you're a lesbian and if you answer the wrong way you'll get in trouble #It wouldn't have worked out for other reasons but that was definitely one of them #Same for no longer camp counseling. Could probably find a good job and I have experience #But idk if any camp would actually hire me except the one I worked at as a teen. And the woman who ran it retired last year #So even with her recommendation they might reject me. Shit sucjs #Just. All my work experience is working with children. Plus my internship. So all of my connection are childcare and education