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die ärzte stuff from my sketchbook 2/?
I wanted to keep these separate from the previous sketchbook post because this is all about hair "studies".
I know how to draw realistic hair, and I know how to draw comic book hair. But to draw something from between those? That was a huge challenge. So I tried out things and eventually watched some video tutorials too, and tried to use those freshly learn tips and tricks.
This was my second attempt with that one Richy Guitar scene I'm (still) trying to draw, but Bela's face was too difficult to draw once again, so I abandoned this one. And that failure is under the censored one because it really looked awful. I ended up making an edit of the scene in photoshop so that I can draw Bela's face from a more easier angle. Or the angle itself was not difficult, it just made him look quite weird to begin with and that was not fun nor easy to draw because it was impossible to get to look similar but also like Bela - when he doesn't even look like himself enough in that original screenshot.
But yeah, to the hairs now. The Farin/Richy on the left was my first try of these, and the second one was by using something I saw in video tutorials. I think all those Bela hairs I drew before these and really had a hard time figuring out how to draw black hair! I tried the brush pen and I tried fineliners but nothing seemed to work.
Then I went to watch some tutorials.
And this is what I came up with. It definitely was getting better and better, but this time Farin's hairstyle was causing me problems. It was really difficult to find even any tutorials because every "spiky hair" tutorial was about manga or anime, and most "hair colouring" tutorials were for digital art or real hair and that was not what I was looking for.
What comes to the texts... you see, I tend to become bilingual or even trilingual when I make notes. I switch between Finnish and English all the time and don't even notice it myself. The texts under Farin hairs go: "Meh...", "Could work." and "That is lacking something."
But otherwise I'm really proud of those Rod hairs! Finally managed to nail the black hair shading and highlighting :D And holy shit Rod's hair is actually so much fun to draw! Bela's 13 hair also turned out pretty nicely, and the last 80s Farin hair is already a step to the right direction.
This is the last scan so far and with this I decided to look for Farin photos just to figure out how to exactly draw this hair. It was not an easy task but I think the right top one is the best one of these.
The middle one has too round head so it looks more like Rod than Farin, but it tried to be one of the 80s Farin photos, the same one as the middle one on the left. I can see already things to fix and practice next time - some of the "spikes" at the back in the one on the bottom are too small, and it doesn't look like pointy hair between that and the front part - unlike it does with the top right one. There's still some stuff to do and practice, but this is already a LOT better than e.g. the first sheet in this post!
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FARIN URLAUB (14/06/20)
#art#my art#my art journal#artists on tumblr#sketch#drawing faces#pencil#sketch book#drawing#sketches#farin urlaub#die ärzte#dä#orange#pen#pencil sketch#80s icons#80s#sketchbook#punk
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die ärzte stuff from my sketchbook, pt ?/?
Idk if you noticed me blogging a lot about my "die ärzte drawing studies" a few weeks ago, but I did fill lots of pages on both my sketchbook and also just drawing paper sheets. I also studied their faces, like actually studied, in photoshop by drawing circles and lines on their faces and comparing them to each other to see how different heads and faces can have different measures. I was using the Loomis Method, and wanted to kinda do it backwards - instead of just drawing the circles and lines and a face from there, I started to draw them on faces to see them better in real life. Easily I used hours on just this alone!
So, I thought I could show you some stuff from my sketchbook. But not all of them because there's lots of really terrible looking stuff that I am not so comfortable showing :D Mainly just attempts of drawing the faces but failing miserably because I'm still just learning here. Anyway, here's one of the first pages:
^This is one of the first ones + my own notes. You can see that when I'm writing only to myself, I write very fast and don't care much about my handwriting so it looks much messier and might be more difficult to read (even for myself) than what my handwriting normally is like.
This was then my first try of drawing Farin. I used a reference image for this and I think it's pretty okay.
This I scanned badly but this was yet another attempt of drawing Bela. I had trouble with his nose and sometimes when I can't figure out how to draw something, I switch to my left (non-dominant) hand as it can draw more freely and sometimes will be more successful than the right hand which easily tries too much because it knows what it's doing, but can't let go of old habits. I don't remember if I colored the hair with left on the left-hand drawing too or not, I just added the color to make it have the illusion of it looking even a little bit more like Bela.
This is the eye one I already posted here before but here it's again. I figured I should practice individual facial features first, just go through everything one by one and take my time, but I really REALLY like drawing eyes and that's when this happened.
Here I tried to draw a whole face but it didn't work out so I gave up :D That's why there's the "LÖL" text. I also tried to draw mouths a little but it was more difficult than I expected. I know how to draw mouths with pencil, but it's much more difficult to get that same 3-dimensional effect with just fineliners! I used reference images with all these, just tried to figure out how the shadows etc. go and how to draw the shape.
This upper one I posted here earlier as well, I was practicing drawing noses and eyes again, and Farin's mainly, as you can see. And again some notes for myself because I could see what was wrong, but I just kept making the same mistake over and over again :D At this point I felt like I was getting somewhere with the individual features, but now I sucked at "connecting the dots". Like, how to draw all the features so that they match and also look like the person I'm trying to draw?
This page had some more nose studies. And then it got out of hand because Imagination. (The text underneath is a story idea for a comic, pretty much for a self-comic. I was too lazy to censor it, plus it isn't even that important.)
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Lol I fucked up my sleeping schedule again. Took just 4 days to do that. I woke up around 15:30 again, after going to sleep around 5:30 because I just couldn’t give a fuck about sleeping again :D
And now it’s Bela’s birthday and I just really feel like I want to draw something because of that but I have no ideas of what I should draw. I had just a very random inspiration on Farin’s bday and I drew that but now I have NO ideas. This is my biggest problem with being creative tbh: I crave for being creative and drawing/writing but I just don’t have ideas for what to do. That’s why I draw so rarely and why I often have years long pauses because I get like 1 idea every 10 years. Well, maybe more like 1-2 ideas/year and then it takes ages to get myself to actually start doing something, too. Basically I still have an idea for a comic, I have had that idea in my head for like almost a year now and I have written it down and I don’t know if I have done a (stick figure) storyboard yet or not but the comic itself and its graphics are starting to come together in my head, tho. But: it has absolutely nothing to do with Bela’s birthday :D
#mcrmadness' random stuff#(die ärzte)#but if anyone wants to see something or has any suggestions for a comic-sketch like drawing just let me know!!!#and I mean suggestions with DÄ themes because that's what I mainly draw nowadays when I draw :D and it's sometimes fun to draw something#that was suggested by other people when I can't find any ideas from my own head.#or maybe I just should post my very old Bela portrait that I drew years ago and what is still even today my favorite drawing I've ever made
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Heyyyyy I’ve got a new comic for you all!
This one was inspired by an anonymous ask I got to my dä blog, it was about one of my earlier Bela/Farin comics called “Empty” (click here to see that comic) and how it reminded the Anon about cats and suitcases. And that ask there sparked a new idea and this is the result!
And no, I don’t know what has gone into them. They have started to live on their own now. Bela seems to be slightly touch-starved but Farin is just a tease :D Or maybe it’s just his way of showing affection, I don’t really know what they are up to nowadays, can’t really control them anymore.
And yeah I know Bela looks freaking creepy in the second last panel. I have never drawn huge pupils like those to them before and I have two pages full of huge eyes in my sketchbook now as I was trying to figure out how to put the white dots, I even had to google such eyes because I couldn’t remember how they usually are done in comics lmao. This is also the first time ever I have drawn a tilted head, it was a bit tricky at first but I think it turned out quite nice. Does it look like Farin’s in the middle of tilting his head?
What comes to the artistic side, I really like it how this came together. It’s relatively simple but I think it‘s nicely balanced? There’s not too much nor too little of anything, and I like how “soft” the whole thing looks like. I don’t know what I did differently but somehow it looks even more cartoony than before. I also realized that I really, really like drawing this style from the side now and now I’m slightly annoyed by how the faces look from the front but I also don’t have any other ways to draw so I guess that will have to do :D
Anyhow, I guess I’m done talking, for once. Let me know what you think, reblogging is allowed and recommended, feedback even more appreciated.
Huge thanks for the Anon for sending me the ask as without it this comic would have never happened! (And btw if any of you ever get any ideas you would like to see me draw, either as a comic book style sketch or even a comic, just message me or send me an ask as I’m currently out of ideas!)
#mcrmadness draws#my fub comics#my dä comics#dä fanart#die ärzte#belafarin#fub#Also they really live on their own even - or especially - in my fanfics.#Farin's always running away from his emotions and then accidentally ruins things for Bela by making everything into a joke lol.#But they have already talked about it in one of the drabbles I have written so they're doing okay.#I mean the drabbles are like... scenarios from different eras all meant to be one 'big' fanfic.#Which I'm never gonna post anywhere but whatever - I'm writing for myself anyway :D It's a form of self-therapy for me.
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Madness draws: DÄ (Bela/Farin) COMICS
HELLLLOOOOOO I just finished my newest dä comic!!! The idea is very old, from 2012 or something but I never drew this comic because I suddenly stopped drawing until I started again a couple of years ago and decided to do this one first.
It took me ages to decide what kind of dialog I want to use, and I rewrote it several times and got new ideas until I knew what I wanted. I started the actual drawing last Saturday and over the past week I have been working on the comic on several days and today I finally finished it. I would say I have used at least... maybe 20 hours on this overall? I am not sure but I often spend 6-8 hours in a row drawing this and that happened at least 3-4 times this week. I did not count in the days when I just kept sketching the storyboards and other things to my sketchbook... anyway, here’s the comic, I hope you like it!
Make sure to click them bigger especially if on desktop, Tumblr tends to make the preview images a bit blurry. (Clicking them again to open in a new tab from there makes them to show up in the real size.)
Artist notes:
I have no idea if they are even in character. I don’t know if this makes any sense to anyone. The idea of the comic comes from my old German books. There literally was some exercise about SMS abbreviations and together with my German teacher we laughed at “widumihei” because seriously, does anyone seriously propose someone else over a text message, with an SMS abbreviation??? In my original idea it was Farin who was meant to send the text message to Bela but because now I know better about how Farin sees marriage, I felt that it’d be more logical if Bela sent the message. And I don’t know, somehow I feel that he could do a prank like that?
Also I don’t know why Farin got so angry. It just happened. They kinda started to live their own lives. Also those front-side faces are something I have drawn only maybe once or twice before + practiced them a little to my sketchbook before this comic so that’s why they look weird. I simply just don’t know how to draw them properly yet.
I own a 72 piece set of Derwent Watercolor colored pencils and it was about time I use more than just a couple of different colors. I’m actually quite happy about how many colors I eventually ended up using, there’s lots of layering and some places have 3-4 colors to them. It was actually so much fun to color this! I haven’t really done backgrounds before, apart from one comic that I don’t think I ever even posted here? But yeah, this one just needed some kind of a place and this is the room I saw in my head. Choosing the colors was also lots of fun because I had no idea of the color scheme but I just picked an object, decided how to color it and that color somehow already gave me an idea of what color I want for another object. I also bought a new ProMarker because the old one started to die before I got the panels done first and this new one somehow bled and did those random splotches here and there but that’s okay. I guess I just need to start storing them in horizontal position instead of the pen cans.
An easter egg: Sadly this is hard to see because I decided to use a different angle for the second panel (didn’t know how to draw the first idea so had to use another) but Farin’s phone stand is a tiny beach chair. Because why the heck not. And a beach chair is maybe the most difficult thing ever to figure out and draw, even with references! And oh boy did I practice. But then I didn’t even need it apart from these tiny tiny versions lmao.
#ok to reblog#mcrmadness draws#my drawings#my comics#dä fanart#die ärzte#belafarin#I'm calling myself artist because Farin called me artist in his email in 2012 and now he finally has also seen my art yaass.#I linked him the HELL drawing I did a couple of months ago.
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Hi! For the fanfic ask, i'd like🏅and ⏱
thank you 🍀
Thanks for sending an ask! ^^ The fandom is at least mostly die ärzte, which maybe doesn't come as a surprise :D But I try to answer the questions so that it doesn't need too much existing knowledge over dä!
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🏅 What is the fic you’re most proud of?
Wow I can't even choose! I'm trying to pick one but then my brain goes "wait but this one also exists!" and I don't know from which perspective I should even look at this question! But I think I'm gonna answer this with two of my recent but short fanfics.
1. I think you might have heard of the movie where die ärzte were in back in the 80s, called Richy Guitar? Well, after a a conversation with a couple of people about one certain scene in the movie, a relatively short fanfic called "Jealousy" was born. That was my first new fanfic with a brand new plot after I got back to writing in 2018. I really like the way I wrote it, and I'm especially proud of the way I ended the fanfic because it simultanously makes absolutely no sense but still does :D
2. Background: This is my newest and extremely short fic that was inspired by the photos die ärzte released before their newest album was released. The photos are in the 20s or 30s American detective/mafia setting and at that point all photos looked more like they'd have been detectives investigating something. So, I got an idea from that, a very mild AU, and wrote "The Unsolved Case". It had no existing plot but it just kinda wrote itself, and I did some choices with it that I had never done before and I was delighted by the feedback I got! It was really an interesting process to write because plot twists are so different to encounter as a writer than as a reader, and I had never done that before so I had NO IDEA how it would turn out and if it would be obvious and lame, or come as a surprise. Fortunately, it seemed to be the latter so it was super fascinating experience. I'm really proud of that small inspiration I got in the middle of the writing process.
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I'll put the second question under the cut!
⏱ What’s the fic you spent the most time on? (Was it worth it lol)
On the other ask I mentioned my current (dä) WIP that is already quite long and I have been working on it for years now, and have never posted anything of it anywhere, so I'm not gonna give the same answer to this ask.
Instead, I think I'm going to mention something I wrote as a (late) teenager for another fandom. Those all I wrote in Finnish, and I don't feel like mentioning much else than those were about My Chemical Romance which was my favorite band at the time. (And still a very important band to me.) Back then I used to write quite long fics and the last one got REALLY long but I also never finished it. I had planned all of them beforehand, I knew exactly what I was doing but had to just follow the plot ideas in my head.
I don't remember anymore on which one I used the most time on because I was 16-18 around the time I wrote those and it's been over 10 years since that. But it was probably the second one I ever wrote, which was a very eye-opening experience for me cos I wrote about things I knew nothing about, for example I wrote about suicidal thoughts and self-harm, which I myself had (and have) never had. I remember still thinking badly of people who physically harm themselves, but then I wrote that fanfic and included a scene about the topic, and suddenly it opened my eyes and I understood why people might do so, and it just changed my entire attitude towards the whole thing.
Once I was done with that fanfic, I was still playing with an idea of a continuum and I ended up writing a sequel to it. It was yet another longfic, because of course it was :D That's what I wrote back in the day!
All of these also included me drawing sketches of e.g. houses or floor plans. Sometimes I created OC's for the fics and made them in The Sims 2 because I wanted to see how the people would look like. Sometimes I created even the houses in my imagination to TS2. I did this especially with the last, unfinished one. I think I still have somewhere some digital drawings I tried to make of the house I imagined in my head :D Altho, I was really bad at digital art.
And I guess it was worth it because, well, like I said: sometimes writing can be a very eye-opening experience. It's pretty interesting that you don't even need to talk with anyone but just simply imagining the life through someone else's eyes can help you understand the world and other people better. It's cool.
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Lmao a theme song of an old tv series was used in an IG story and NOW I have dä’s Serienklassiker version of the same song (along with the other songs) playing in my head.
And I've watched that video so many times that my brain automatically continues with their lines from the "Die Biene Maja" sketch. I don't even know words, I just hear their voices. Thanks, brain.
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Converting photos into my comic book art style is fun actually. This is a sneak peak of one panel from one of my upcoming dä comics. It's still in the first (or actually the second) sketch phase before I'll add all the details so the final version will still look slightly different, and the final details are added in the last aka second (or third) round with the fineliners.
Let me know if you're interested in seeing any of these comics whenever I get them finished (one I already did a few days ago). At least two of them will contain heavily implied Bela/Farin and since people on this website often hate real person ships as well as people who ship real people, I don't know if there's any point anymore to post them here unless I know for sure that people do want to see them too. People often seem to avoid my Bela/Farin comics and drawings here but unfortunately I can't come up with other content so no can do.
#mcrmadness draws#die ärzte#dä fanart#reply or comment or sen an ask or something idk - just something concretic that you do want to see the comics#I'm not sure if likes will do because they always make me wonder if people are serious or just click the heart without reading#or without paying that much attention to what is in the post itself#I just always imagine people scrolling their dashes with glassy eyes and clicking heart on every post no matter what it is#I don't know what is the reality so let me know if that's now what people are doing.
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Who is your favorite dä member to draw?
Hello and sorry for a late answer! I have been thinking about my answer despite not answering earlier :D
So, I think I have to answer: Bela. Mainly because I have drawn him more often than what I have drawn the other two, and his face just is... easier to draw? Like, his face is naturally very asymmetrical so when drawing him, the bigger challenge is to not draw everything too symmetrically! Usually it's extremely difficult to draw e.g. two exactly the same looking and same sized eyes, but his eyes are not the exact same shape or position even IRL so it's kinda easier to draw both eyes the same way they are in the photo. Cos you're, like, drawing two different things instead of a mirrored copy of something you already drew.
I know I don't know how to stop repeating things but I am bad with words so I usually say everything 3-4 times before I feel I have written everything so that it can be understood correctly.
So yeah, Bela's face is already quite unique the way it's easy to pick up certain features that will make the drawing immediately look like him. Whereas Farin has very... almost basic looking face? Like, he does't look like he came from a factory that produces German men but his face is still symmetric and "normal" enough to make it REALLY difficult to draw! There aren't any very strong features with his face that you could use with a drawing.
Think it this way: when drawing a caricature of someone, it's so much easier to draw a caricature of Bela or Rod than of Farin, because a caricature of Farin could be basically anyone unless you give him some charasteristic emotion like a really wide teeth-grin, or the eyebrow thing he often does. But with Bela and Rod you can just draw them with a poker face and it will still look like them because of the tiny characteristics of their faces. Those are the things that are missing from Farin's face and that's why drawing him is very difficult because the drawings always simultaneously look and don't look like him. A drawing of Bela or Rod could still look different but you would still be able to tell who it is.
When I'm drawing my comics, I usually have lots of fun drawing Bela because there is always a new different hairstyle that I can try to learn to draw :D For Farin it's always the exact same hairstyle, just a bit longer sometimes. And Rod is still bit difficult for me to draw and I actually should practice drawing him into my sketchbook at some point to really find the things I need to focus on to make the character look like Rod. Right now I don't feel like that looks much like Rod, you can mainly tell it only because Bela and Farin are there as well, and he's definitely not how I would draw Sahnie. (In fact, I don't think I have ever even drawn Sahnie?)
But I also have to say that I haven't really drawn Rod that many times in general. I haven't done a single photorealism drawing of him? But I have done several portraits of Bela, as well as of Bela and Farin together. This year I did draw one in my new semi-realistic style which I think turned out pretty nicely! Especially for it being the first time I have drawn Rod for something else than just for my comics. Also, I did some eye sketches with fineliners this year and I was surprised how Rod's eyes were actually the easiest to draw and it was the first time I had tried drawing even something slightly realistic of Rod. But the man also has some facial features that are great for caricature type drawing! Which is why he might be the easiest of them to draw, probably have to try doing a pencil portrait at some point, just out of curiosity!
But the question was not about whose face is the easiest to draw, but whom I like to draw the most. And like I already said there - I think I have to say: Bela. The amount of times I have drawn him tells something already :D And I really like drawing light colored eyes! I also used to like drawing hair and it was always the easiest for me to do when it's black, but last and this year I also learnt some new tricks and now I actually find the light colored hair easier to draw than dark or black hair :D It's because with these new methods, black or dark hair it's actually difficult to make it look like it was 3-dimensional instead of a just... a black blob of void. Whereas with blonde hair I can just add graphite, blend it and then "draw" on it with a pencil eraser and I get a nice, realistic looking blonde hair.
But enough of that. Each of them has pros and cons when drawing and some are easier for comics than others, but I usually have most fun when drawing Bela, and usually it talks half or third the time than what I use for drawing Farin.
Almost forgot: thanks for the ask! I hope you got your answer XD
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A Masterpost: ALL MY OLD die ärzte (aka Bela&Farin) COMICS (from 2010-2011)
I’ve lately been talking about my art, especially comics, here a lot but I have never posted my OLD old dä comics here! That’s about to change now. The old ones happened in 2010-2011 when I was 19-20 years old, so they are a bit cringy now :D The scans are my old ones so don’t mind about cat hair or something like that in some of the scans. And I know: my hand writing hasn’t really changed in the past 10-15 years at all :DD
And a slash warning (do I really need that with this fandom tho..?) because I used to draw just very fluffy Bela/Farin comics and they barely have any good plots even. There’s just 4 overall in this post and they all are quite short. But at least for me it’s fun to see how far I have come and how I’ve gotten better at drawing!
Anyway, without further ado, this is where it all started:
Bela&Farin - “Du willst mich küssen”
Simply the idea came from the fact I noticed that on the “Du willst mich küssen” single there’s only one additional song: “Die Antwort bist du”, and that one out of all the potential other songs from the studio album. (Now I’m wondering if I should try to redraw this some day to see my progress? :DD)
The rest under the cut because they get very cringy but if you want to read B/F fluff comics and facepalm at my idiotic humour, go ahead and click the read more link.
Bela&Farin - Bela will ein Baby
(eng. Bela wants to have a baby)
This one was the first I did in German and I traumatized myself. I had just started learning German and totally failed everything and an (old) online friend, native German, wrote something that indicated laughing and I felt so insecure about my German after that that even today I have a fear of saying/writing even simple German words in front of native Germans. She anyway “beta read” the plot and corrected every faulty phrase (aka every phrase) and this is what she suggested that I’d write, and that’s what I did.
The plot shortly: Bela just wants to have a baby but he wants it with Farin obviously, so Farin says they’re both men and can’t reproduce together but Bela found a solution: he found them a surrogate mother. Problem solved.
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Bela&Farin - “Beer Belly”
Prepare yourself for a cringe overload :)) I’m so sorry that you have to suffer through this.
With this the idea came from the live videos I was watching back then - lots of live videos from 2007-2009 and I noticed that Bela just kept growing and losing his belly all the time. (OMG HELP I’m crying because “SQUEAK SQUEAK” XDDDDDD)
Also the ending is... I don’t know what is it. I guess I just wanted Rod ot make an appearance and didn’t come up anything better than this ::D My peak of humour is right there btw: anything that happens at the background. That shit just never gets old for me. So I find that still funny in this comic but I have no clue how a bass can be pregnant.
Also hey, I have started drawing shadows :DD
And yes, Bela actually did have a cow t-shirt like that in some of the videos and I just had to draw it! And btw, the reason for the fluff is probably because the concerts where those videos were from? It was extremely slashy, Bela and Farin barely could keep their hands off of each other so you really can’t blame me for all this. The ship just sails itself.
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Bela&Farin - “Zucker”
(eng. “Sugar” - this one was again in German because it wouldn’t work in English. This time I think I did all the language stuff myself but I can’t remember for sure so maybe I got help, maybe I didn’t... This is the last one of these old comics and my personal favorite. You can see that my style somehow went through some major changes but I don’t know what even happened there. I can’t remember.)
I can’t get over Farin’s hair in the last panel, I drew it so perfectly and I still don’t know how to recreate that lol. And now I’m losing it at that tiny “XD” in the grin panel because I found it so stupid looking - the first time I had even drawn a grin for him lmao. Also ignore Farin’s arm that has suddenly lost all its color. (Aka: someone forgot to color it.)
THE IDEA for this comic is simply in the name of brown sugar. At least in Finnish that is called as “fariinisokeri”, which always amuses me still after 12 years because I am a bit simple sometimes, and I figured that it can also be called “Farinzucker” in German so of course I needed to make a Bela/Farin comic about it.
The dialog for those who don’t speak German (too well) yet - Bela just goes to Farin to ask for “Farin sugar” and Farin first is like “nope” but then “jk” and they lived happily ever after. Or something.
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BONUS:
Something I drew with a ballpoint pen once when I was visiting my aunt and cousin and was bored and doodled this. I like drawing repeated patterns like brick walls or apparently also flowers.
And I have no idea where did I draw this - maybe it was something to do with one course through the employment agency as I tend to doodle when in any kind of class. I feel like I had been watching “Die band, die sie Pferd nannten” prior to this, based on Bela’s looks.
And it was back in 2010, I didn’t have a smart phone yet so no internet to use for reference photos :D
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So, back to the comics - I only made these 4 back then but before this I did draw other stuff and comics too. I drew several of them as horses when I still didn’t know how to draw humans, and I also have one of them as rats too. The rat one might work as a redrawn human comic, tho... Anyway, at some point I got annoyed because I didn’t like drawing them as horses or rats and wanted to invent a “human style” so then one night, this happened:
The texts are mainly just me chanting how I’m dying from laughter etc. That is actually what I do when I am very insecure of what I do and then I just start openly laughing at everything and myself, that way things don’t feel as bad failures than what they actually are :D (And yeah I know the article is wrong at some point, let’s just say I hadn’t memorized all the article stuff from German yet :D I don’t know if I had even started learning German yet at that point.)
But yeah, then I did find the style and these are the next sketches from my sketchbook:
The bottom left says “facial experessions” - and oh my god I was so damn cringe whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy---
but anyway, those were what I ended up with eventually and the rest is history. I think I’m still gonna make one post with stuff I drew in 2018 and that I haven’t posted here yet as there’s still a few of those, too.
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I can't believe it's not even 3am yet but I'm still going to sleep already. Who is this person? What have I done to me??? Anyway, good night.
Also I watched some human head drawing tutorials and practiced with them into my sketchbook and I think I made a breakthrough. I'm gonna test that with actual dä sketches tomorrow.
#also it's still die ärzte that's making sure I have a decent sleeping schedule#I've been automatically waking up in the morning just to check their website so I am so sleep deprived that I just need to sleep asap#altho I'm also getting hungry again (ffs why??? I have been eating enough!!! Is it because I'm almost out of milk - again?)#but I need to go to bed rn so maybe I can fall asleep before I get too hungry or I won't fall asleep cos my body wants to get some food#and then anxiety will keep me from sleeping.#mcrmadness' random stuff
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Madness draws: Behind the Scenes of the Bela/Farin: “Widumihei” comic.
A few months ago I posted here this comic:
CLICK HERE for the original post about that comic where you can see it in better and bigger size, and also reblog it ;)
And this post is just a deep dive into how I plan, do and draw my comics.
Let’s start with sketchbook things...
So every comic needs a story, right? My comics usually are born from either some dialogue I imagine in my head or by an impulsive inspiration that happens when I see something or talk with people and a random idea is triggered. I’m very good at coming up with new ideas solely based on just one word or so which is why I often ask people if they have anything they would want to see/read because I suck at coming up ideas on my own. Or I do get ideas, but not as often as I’d want to.
This particular idea was very old and I have tried but I cannot find the piece that was my inspiration but it was in some of my old German books because I remember laughing at it with either my brother or even with the German teacher in 2011 or 2012. I was only able to find my first “sketch” of the story:
This is in the notebook I used for writing down some comic ideas and even had one comic in it, plus it’s also my fanfiction writing notebook. It has no date but I know for sure it was either 2011 or 2012 because that’s when I did my last Bela/Farin comic and pretty much started my (unintentional) 6 year pause from drawing altogether.
I have always been trilingual when I do these plans for my comics, often writing the “narration” in Finnish and the dialog either in English or German because I just cannot imagine them to speaking Finnish. The translation of that text goes as:
COMIC (sarjis = sarjakuva = comic book in Finnish)
1. The phone is ringing.
2. F: “Widumihei?!” B: ?
3. B: “Farin wtf?”
4. Farin walks from another room.
5. B: “Widumihei?”
6. F: “It means, “will you marry me?”“
7. B: *wtf*
REPLAY:
1. Bela is sitting/laying somewhere.
2. The phone is ringing. Reached with his hand?
3. Looks at the phone, “wtf?”, a thought: “von Jan: Widumihei?!”
4. Bela: “Farin?” / “Jan?”
5. F comes from another room, looks in from behind the door frame or something. B: “Widumihei?”
6. F: “Widumihei: “WIllst DU MIch HEiraten”“
7. B: “WTF”
So when I then started to draw these comics again in 2018, I kept thinking about this one too and still wanted to draw it one day. If you have read the finished comic, you may notice something different in the old plot versus new: I switched Bela’s and Farin’s roles. Back then I didn’t know too much yet but over the years I have learnt much much more about them and I just figured that asking to marry him even as a joke would be too much for Farin and that it would fit Bela’s persona much much better.
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I had a bit of problems with getting started with this one, mainly because the last times I drew a dä comic was in June 2020, in April 2020 and before those in October 2019. Because of so long time between the comics, I just always forgot about my methods and in which order I do things and what works for me the best. So every time I started to work on a comic, I had to start completely over because all I had was blank paper and I somehow needed to get my thoughts in order and out of my head, into a physical form aka as text and images on the paper, and it’s easier said than done.
So pardon me but from this on the text is going to get a little bit confusing for a little while from now on - but it’s also a very good look over how the life with my suspected ADHD be like sometimes...
I started working on the plot once again to my sketchbook... I think it was somewhere in the beginning of 2020. Because the next idea there is from the summer. This is what the plot looked like at that point - here I had already switched their roles:
Shortly, the texts go: 1. Farin is reading a book. 2. A phone makes a noise. 3. (Farin) looks at it/read the message. / 6. B appears into the doorway. / 11. F spits out the tea.
And underneath it you can see one of the stick figure storyboards I often do in order to kinda see the text in pictures better, and I will write down or draw important aspects like expressions (Farin’s eyebrows) or things like *facepalm’* or *eyeroll* so that I remember to add them.
Next I was struggling with the era. It needed to be an era with the old mobile phones with SMS options but still not too early because I feel that Farin would have not been the first in line to buy a brand new technology object, especially not when it’s a phone. I was even googling when did Germany get their first mobile phone - I remember I got my first phone aka Nokia 5510 in 2000 or 2001 after my mom got a new one and gave her old one to me, so the story shouldn’t happen too many years before the Millenium.
Originally I planned 1997 for that - I needed to think about that based on their styles because shorter hair is harder to draw. Here’s me trying out some hairs and how they’re to draw and which era would suit my needs the best. I actually find the text hilarious altho it’s mine but this is what it’s in English:
Time period -> 1996-1997?
1998 I’ve never drawn
1999 is not that much fun to draw
2000 is already a bit too late? Bela not that much fun to draw.
-2001 moustaches are not fun to draw?
I think I was struggling with my thoughts because the next thing in that sketchbook is yet another storyboard:
Or actually I think this was just to see how many sheets I’d need and how many panels I could fit on one sheet.
Anyhow, I then did other things for some time before I got back to this project this year. Including finishing with the sketchbook I had been using since 2010 (and the half of it since 2018!) and I had to get myself a new one. So when I started to think about this comic again, one night I was just thinking about some Bela/Farin scenarios as usual and suddenly I just felt that I NEED to do the comic in the 1998 style!!! So suddenly we jump from the original 1997 idea to the new era, only because of the colors.
So asap I grabbed my sketchbook and started to look for the proper colors for the hairs:
This one I posted here before too as I was struggling a lot and just felt that I didn’t know how to draw, again. Sometimes when I feel like that, I start drawing with my non-dominant aka left hand because it doesn’t have all that in muscle memory so drawing and writing with it feels more free and it feels almost like pressing a refresh button in my brain. Suddenly the right one know again how to draw because left isn’t too well in control. The below part of the image is done completely with the left hand, including the coloring.
And because I had now a new sketchbook, I somehow couldn’t... deal with the plot and plans being in a different sketchbook than everything else so I had write the plot/dialog AGAIN, into this new sketchbook, along with the storyboards and everything:
Translations: kirja = book, puhelin = phone, oviaukossa = in the doorway, teet suusta = tea(s) out of a/the mouth. “Puhelin zoom” just means “close up to the phone screen” in Madness.
You can also see that I found out that I don’t need to do the stick figure storyboards to imitate a sheet when I can just draw this rectangle and smaller rectangles inside of it and write there numbers to match the things in the dialog to make it much easier for me to plan the pages. And here’s also a small easter egg: there’s 13 panels overall in this comic :D I almost did 12 but then felt that no, I really need to do 13 because, you know, the hairs, the era, the album title. And also because I like the number so much lmao.
So from there we get to the second storyboard which is not just stick figures anymore but just me planning how I want the panels to look like. To get the imagery of the rooms and facial expressions etc. out onto the paper so that I can see them in real life instead of my shady imagination that sometimes isn’t as vivid as what I could be.
Also have you ever tried to draw a beach chair? It’s more difficult than you’d think:
I tried to draw the same thing from the same reference photos so many times and still I always felt like I was trying to draw that impossible triangle or some other illusion image. And it just went on and on here:
Originally I also had planned the second panel to be a close up of the phone so that Farin’s face would be left at the background from the frog perspective. That’s what I was trying to with that weird-ass face on the left but turned out that I have never drawn these characters from such angle and I just... couldn’t see it in my head clearly enough to be able to draw it. So I dismissed that idea and that’s why the angle changed from a phone close-up to a side view to the room and at Farin.
As I was in the middle of planning the second page, I suddenly wasn’t happy with my original plot anymore. I wasn’t sure if it would work and needed to think about it one more time. So I wrote two other dialogs here, along with a storyboards for them both. I ended up choosing B from those two options eventually.
I don’t remember anymore if I had already done the first sketch of the comics or not but at some point I just felt that I no longer knew how to draw in my style. Sometimes you just draw and learn wrong things and wrong methods that you get used to and then you have to take a break and actually do a little bit of studying over your own style to find again the way how you want to draw, and get rid of the bad habits and find the good ones again. In my case it was to draw the eyes way way too big when they originally never were THAT big, so I had to learn how to draw them small and normal again. That’s why I did these, as I really needed to pay attention to the faces and remember how to draw them again:
The front-side views were another big readong for this “study” because I have drawn that perspective only once or twice before and I needed to figure out how I want to draw that. Also, I don’t know if it’s just me but for some reason the front-side Farin reminds me of one of the parent characters from this cartoon called The Rugrats which I watched as a kid. It was totally unintentional, but you can google The Rugrats if you don’t know how the charatcers looked like in the cartoon.
The things below are just me testing something. The red Farins were just to test how the colored pencils work on each other and how the fineliners work with the colored pencils, and which way is the better way to do the shading. And the red colored pencil was the only one available at the time so that had to do.
A little bit about the heads btw: You might notice some difference between the left and right faces. It’s because I have always, always struggled with drawing anything that is looking at right. Most of the animal portraits and all I have drawn so that they look at left because I just find it so much easier to draw. I think with comics it’s because I always start with the eye (and the eyebrows if I don’t forget it) and then do the forehead, nose, mouth and chin, and after that I either continue from the hair (from the front) or do the ear first. But when I am drawing them to look at right, I have to basically draw the mirror image and starting from the hair is not the key because it can easily mess up with the perspectives. I still usually draw everything in the same order but it really is difficult because I’m doing a mirror image and my own hand is on the way, too. Basically I’m drawing from right to left instead of left to right! (I think I should try drawing those with my left hand, then...)
And from here we get to the first sketch of the comic. From here on the images are from my phone’s camera so they are sometimes illegally bad but no can do, I again didn’t think I’d post these to anywhere:
Here you can see I was mainly just focusing on the shapes and the space inside those panels. Just trying to see the perspective and how everything is. The only thing that I drew more precisely was the third panel, with the hand and phone. I had quite a nice memory of old phones in my head but I still googled for some reference photos of Nokia 5110 phones as that was my first phone (as I mentioned earlier), and I also happened to have some of my other old phones on the table nearby so I took my own hand reference photos too:
They always say there’s a little bit of the artist in their art and this one literally has that - “Farin’s” hand is actually my hand! :D And I think the size is kinda on point too because this phone was like 2-3 times smaller than Nokia 5110 and I have small hands, and I believe Farin must have much bigger hands, so the 5110 probably would have looked about the same size in his hand.
After the first sketch, the next step was then - the second sketch:
I also wanted to add more action to the panels so that it’s interesting to look at and not just basically the same panel over and over again with just different speech bubbles, so I came up with the idea of Farin spitting out his tea not being as cartoony as it could be and that he would have to actually clean it up instead of just leaving it there just because in cartoons/comics everything is possible. That way I got more depth into the panels and it was also interesting for me to draw because I drew lots of new postures I have never drawn before, and I’m surprised how well it went despite me not even looking for any kind of reference photos! The only things I used reference photos for were the beach chair, and the phone in a hand. (I have actually always been quite good at drawing 3D objects and spaces, especially if they are rectangular.)
So yeah, this is the phase where everything is then finished with pencil and what follows next is drawing the lines with fineliners - I use Sakura Pigma Micron fineliners for everything else, and black Promarker for doing the lines for the panels (and also if I need bigger pitch black areas done).
Here are the panel lines done but I only had a photo of this first sheet.
And here are both sheets with the finelining done and all pencil marks etc. erased. I really like this part because it looks so clean when all those sketch marks are gone. It’s also crazy to think I literally spend hours drawing something in pencil only to erase it all away later :D
And here’s one photo of the coloring process, the first one has only the base colors done but none of the shadows yet (apart from the shirts), and the second one has some of the shadows done but not everything yet.
Usually after coloring, I will then go through everything with the fineliners one more time to make sure all the lines are dark enough as it just gives everything the finished yet a bit “sketchy” look that what I really like with my comics. The actual last detail is always adding my signature along with the date or year.
And here’s the finished comic one more time for comparison:
Don’t forget to check and reblog the actual post about this comic if you read this post all the way here. I’d appreaciate that a lot since art and artist on Tumblr are not really that much appreciated.
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Madness draws: Behind the Scenes of the “Alleine in der Nacht” die ärzte fan comic.
A few weeks ago I posted this comic:
This post is yet again just another drawing behind-the-scenes post but You can go and reblog the original post here.
And as always, all my ramblings are under the cut!
This one was relatively easy to do because I just woke up one morning and internally died from laughter because this idea just happened like a random pop up window in my brain. I wrote it down to my phone notes and later on also into my sketchbook:
I was laughing out loud when I was drawing those images, Bela’s face still is cracking me up :D And because I’m yet again trilingual with my comics, there’s only one word in my mother tongue and it’s: Bela laulaa = Bela sings.
And other fans might recognize the lyrics of the song, I needed to write them down in order to decide which ones would fit the comic the best.
This one is then again me trying to see how it will fit on a A4 paper. Originally I saw it in my head more like a short, regular comic strip with 3 panels but somehow I couldn’t get it to fit into 3 panels. And 4 panels was too many in a row so I decided to go for a full page then. That caused bits of trouble to me because I normally don’t draw the comic book faces THAT big and it’s surprisingly hard to draw them in bigger scale. (With pencil drawings it’s the opposite, the bigger the better. It’s much easier to draw an eye the size of a finger instead of a size of a tip of a needle.)
Here’s the first sketch! Just the shapes to see how and what I need to draw. Sorry for the awful photo quality again, my phone’s camera has really gotten really bad after these 3 years of use...
Anyhow, the third panel caused me some troubles because I knew how I wanted Bela’s arms and hands to be but I didn’t see them that good in my head so what I did next was to try different postures into my sketchbook:
I also tried this foreshortening technique I saw in a video of after a Tumblr post, even tho I don’t find that too hard to do myself anymore but it was still interesting and can really help making the eye and brain to see the image in 3D. So here I finally figured that I wanted Bela to have is arms like he was singing something very theatrically. I think it turned out pretty good.
Next I struggled with the bedsheets and I figured that I am a bit too good at blocking out information when I draw because I tried to draw unmade beds from reference photos and I’m able to follow a line but also able to completely not see any other lines around the line I’m following. Like I’d often follow a line to somewhere and suddenly notice that wtf there’s SO MUCH MORE lines all over the place in the photo but I just did not see them.
^Here’s two pages in my other sketchbook that I got for the comic stuff especially because the paper is actually white. The bigger sketchbook has light yellow tint to the paper so it can mess up with the colors when I need to try out and look for perfect colors from the colored pencils. (This sketchbook is also smaller aka A5 because Derwent sketchbooks are expensive but this was the only A5 one with a bit grainy paper in white. The A4 one is cheaper and from Mont Marte.)
After a while I was done with the besheet and the rest of the second sketch. I don’t have a photo of the comic with just the lineart, only a photo where the first panel is already colored and now I actually need to talk about the coloring.
That caused me lots of trouble because I really love playing with lights and shadows in everything (drawing, photographing... everything) and I do know how to do the night effect in black and white, but I have only once before done that with colors and it’s never that easy. Plus that one was my first comic when I started drawing again in 2018 and it was not that good to begin with.
I run some tests with the pencils, as well as some shading tests:
Käsi = hand, iho = skin. I use Derwent Flesh Pink (I have a 72 set of Derwent Watercolour pencils) for the skin color and was then trying out other colors to see which one would look the best for shading. It was actually really difficult to do and my sister suggested that I’d use only cold colors but like... how do you use cold colors on a skin without making the character look dead? :D
I imagined that there’s a moon shining in from a window that would be behind the “camera”. I almost ruined the first panel because I wasn’t exactly sure what was I even doing and what did I want from the colors:
Here’s the lineart and almost finished first panel in colors. I really liked the lineart and this would have looked so nice in black and white too, maybe even better. But I just saw that blue background so strongly in my mind that I just had to go for it.
The first panel was really difficult to do like I said and I almost ruined it at some point. But it also taught me something because with the rest of the panels I knew to start with the skincolors and end with the black (I started the first panel with black, I think... kids, never do that, always start with the light colors! :D) and I think the last panel is the best what comes to the colors in the final comic. I also added light blue here and there to make it look more like the colors of a moon at night:
I’m actually very happy with all of the other colors in this panel! It also reminds me of a book I had and used to read as a child. It was about this girl that went to an appendix surgery and all the images were drawn with either colored pencils, pastels or crayons and it looked grainy the exact same way as this one too. It also had lots of red and orange and brown colors in it. (I wonder if I still have the book here...)
Then there’s also the title and “Das Ende”. Originally I was going to do the late 80s logo they have e.g. on the 80s live vhs/dvd but then I just saw another post in my dä blog’s queue and I just needed to do this logo instead!
I had just a couple of weeks prior ordered a pack of white Sakura Gelly Roll pens and needed to test what would make the best compination and with which black!
I also had bought a white paint pen but it’s useless. As you see, it just looks grey after it dries and it just... doesn’t look nice. Plus it takes so much time to dry AND it’s extremely messy and I have paint more in my hands and a puddle on the paper but barely none where it should be. So my choice for the logo was to use either Pigma Microns or Promarkers (I think I chose the latter) and the thickest Gelly Roll aka 10. This was the result:
And I’m actually super happy about how it came out! Couldn’t do that good looking spots on the letters because can’t make splashes with a gel pen so I did a few bigger ones here and there and then just poked everywhere with the pen to make it look more random. You can actually see how it’s slightly whiter than the paper if you look closely, but it’s not too strongly whiter so it looks pretty nice like this.
So, this was less work than the “Widumihei” one but it was also an interesting piece to draw. And I think I have now this comic drawing more freshly in mind so that drawing the next ones (there’s three waiting for sketching already) will be much easier as well :)
#here take the last behind the scenes post then#I mean next ones are going to be actual new drawings because now I'm done with these I had in mind#mcrmadness draws#mcrmadness draws: behind the scenes#my comics#dä fanart#die ärzte
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Madness draws: my dä fanart from when I had my (arts) comeback in 2018
For years I didn’t draw anything because of a personal (art crisis) and because I simply was studying and working so much I just had no energy left for arts.
In 2018 I was done with schools and studying and dropped out of the school I was in at that moment, and also the horse stable I was working at (school related stuff) was sold and closed its doors so also my work ended. For the first time in almost 5 years I was actually free. The longest holidays I had has was 3 weeks summer holiday in 2016, I think. I had another in 2017 but of that I actually was having health issues (nothing serious) for 2 weeks and then had to be in school for the 3rd one, after which I even got the flu.
So I was SO excited when I finally was free the first day of November in 2018. After I had got enough sleep and rest, I started to find my creativity again. And I started to “daydream” before falling asleep every night, I started to write fanfictions in my head and I started to draw, too. Partially it was also because for the first time in years I had an online friend I enjoyed talking with and we had similar interests, aka dä and Bela/Farin, and that inspired me a lot to draw even more - but unfortunately that friendship did not work out in the end and we’re no longer friends.
Anyway, most of these drawings are very much Bela/Farin related again because I talked about that a lot with this person and I often asked what they’d want to see and then drew it if the idea was something I could carry out.
This is not the first one I drew but maybe the 4th or so. I’m just putting this here first because it’s the most “innocent” aka not too much shippy stuff rubbed into the faces of my followers who don’t care about that. There’s 5 different drawings + 1 comic behind the read more link. All of these, apart from the comic, where drawn into my old sketchbook.
About the drawing above - I didn’t use pencil for these first ones at all yet, I just drew them with the fineliners as I was still a bit rusty as the last time I REALLY drew anything was in 2013 aka over 5 years ago from 2018, so I had to actually look at my old comics and drawings to even figure out how to draw these characters anymore. And I think the last actual time I drew in this style was in 2011 even. And that is very visible from the first 2018′s drawing I did! ↓↓↓
This is the one - and wait, I have an explanation!
So with this person I mentioned, we just constantly had this playful debate over whether Bela is “bottom” or not - and honestly I couldn’t care less about that because I no longer read any fanfics. I do write fanfics - or a fanfic - but only for myself and as an asexual I have never been interested in writing about certain themes so I never need to think about the whole top/bottom stuff anyway. I used to read smut before until I one day just realized it’s SO BORING and uninteresting to read, started skipping all smut scenes and wanted to read fluff but all the fluff was so quickly and badly written because everyone wanted to write smut only, that I was left with absolutely nothing to read. So it was the old story again: I started writing/drawing the stuff I wanted to read and see.
However, back to the top/bottom topic, I always base my opinions with everything over how things are in real life and with these guys, if you look at how they are in interviews and on stage, the dynamics are not just plain black&white. I’ve never seen there anything that would indicate that just one is “top” or “bottom” whatsoever which is why I kept saying imo they’re more like just switching if you listen to their jokes. Remember: I don’t read any fanfiction and don’t give a fuck about smut (lol at the pun) and honestly, even tho I understand those jokes they do and say on stage, I wish not to have any visuals about any of that “activity” in my head.
So, to support my “they switch!” opinion, I drew this, just for fun. And it is the official first drawing I did in 2018. I just needed to fire back bigger than I could do with simple text messages :D
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Moving on. The person in question was very fascinated by the idea that Farin would be a vampire and not Bela (to support their top/bottom views...) which is why I drew this:
Also a very quick one, without sketching anything before drawing with fineliners. This and the first image of this post both are very small in real life actually, the signature is about the same size in every drawing so you can see from that that they are actually pretty small.
Talking of the signature: The funniest thing to me about this IS the signature. Because I was so rusty I didn’t even know how to write it anymore :DDD You can compare it to the signature in the other drawings because in them it’s better. Why it’s so funny to me is because it should say “Aada” but it looks more like “Hella” which means “stove” in Finnish.
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Next one was something I saw in my head and wanted to draw - I think this one was also done without sketching it at first:
Kinda simple, right? :D I just wanted to draw something with heavy shadows and they’re meant to be watching TV at night. I guess it came out pretty okay.
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The next two I drew based on one of my old fanfics I wrote years and years ago. I’m a bit annoyed that I decied to draw these into my SKETCHBOOK when I could have used just paper I use for drawing but I guess I didn’t know yet where I was going to end up with these and drew them into the sketchbook because of that. I thought I didn’t sketch these at first but I have found photos of these with sketched with pencil so that means I started sketching my drawings at this point.
So, back to the fanfic, it’s one of the longer ones I wrote (but still not that long even) and set to happen in the late 80s. There was some drama in the story because of Bela’s drug use and Farin was very harsh and Bela left altogether. For some time they had no idea where each of them were but then one very rainy night they both were on a walk at the same time and happened to stumble upon each other for the first time in weeks or so. I can still see those scenes so vividly in my head and here’s my artistic view over those scenes:
Yes. I love drawing stuff like BRICKS.
I have used my Promarkers with the second image, the paper was not the best for them which is why the black looks awful.
What comes to the image... it really annoys me to look at that because how the FUCK that is something I have drawn? And it’s legit based on something I have written. ME??? Like wtf. My aroace ass just can’t handle me writing/drawing fluff like this. I have days when I need to see fluff more than anything and then have to produce the content because can’t find it from anywhere else and my brain is simultaneously like “flufffff 8))))” and “boohoo whyyyyy how staaaaaph D:” because I am so afraid of being connected to what I draw. Like. If I draw or write fluff, it doesn’t mean I would be a romantic person nor allosexual nor alloromantic, right? Because I can also draw a comic or write a story about a murderer and it doesn’t make me a psychopath either. It’s the exact same thing.
And in fact: I had a comic book character who was called Micro the Insane Murderer because that’s what he was. Also I once wrote a story about a serial killer but she was also insane. But for whatever reason it’s much harder to show people fluff I have written or drawn than my fictional serial killer stuff... I guess people just easier assume that you’re an allo, thanks to anormativity, but usually don’t think you’re a psychopath just because your OC is :D
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The last one is the comic that has a Halloween theme as it was around Halloween and the person I talked with still wanted to see/read something where Farin is the vampire instead. So here’s something that was my first B/F comic in 7 years. I didn’t remember how to do pretty much anything anymore and the coloring is a bit off, and I was really still just trying to figure out how to do all this again :D
At that point I think my head was still filled with fanfiction stuff so the comic also is full of (hurt/comfort) drama - and a long-ass “backstory”. You can see that from this on I have moved to more humorous stories. Sometimes I draw occassional fluffy comics when I’m really on that weird mood (usually 1-2 days/month thanks to the uterus and hormones), but my main focus is on the humour and I wish to make people laugh.
But that’s about it. I think I have now posted everything here, the newer ones I have posted here after drawing them since 2019 but this post is the “missing link” between those old old comics and the newer stuff :D Then I of course have all the other traditional art like potraits and such I did in 2009-2012 which I have never shown here. Maybe I should post those too?
#mcrmadness draws#my dä comics#my fub comics#my dä drawings#dä fanart#die ärzte#belafarin#my OLD dä fanart
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HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM I'm again getting slightly hungry (*SIGH*) but I did things today. I showered and I visited the pharmacy and I even went to take a couple of photos, even if that was just a very short trip (thanks to my bladder), but still.
So maybe. Just maybe, I could try drawing something again next??? And by something I mean: those dä sketches I want to learn to do. Maybe I should even watch some drawing tutorials about human face. I don't think I've ever had anyone teach me any basics about drawing humans. Or if they did teach that in art school, then I just wasn't paying any attention (I'm not surprised if that's the case, no matter I had that as a hobby for 5-6 years) and therefore can't remember.
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