#my heart beats only for you!

[waywardgothauthor]

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#my heart beats only for you! #Thinking bout that time I had a long distance friend whom spoke to me every day and we were v affectionate w each other #and nerded out over stuff together and yes I developed a big ol gay crush until one day they just stopped replying. #When I asked them what was up said they were sorry they were just busy so I'd continue to back off #but send thinking of ya and just hoping your ok texts now and again #that they never responded to so i just stopped trying #and how we still follow each other on snap but they still never make an effort to reach out and i just realized its been like. 4 years #and thinkin bout how they clearly never thought to check in even after my tumblr was abandoned bc my abusive ex found it #so they literally just never think abt me and im still here hurt bc sure i lost a crush but i also lost a dear friend #and like. i know ehat ur thinking! maybe she realised i had a crush was uncomfy and just disconnected #but like. i was only ever as affectionate as she was. usually less so #this is the person who said to me and then proceeded to ghost me #and yes this is a lame thing to still be upset about 4 years later #but they jusr came up on my snap and i got sad again #rant tw #rant tag #delete later

[starflungwaddledee]

Bandee and Starstruck 🎀💖

starting off my february starstruck dee ship-a-ganza with the big one. they do seem like... the obvious answer, huh...?

they have far and away the most development together and the strongest personal relationship, both in what i've posted, and in her story overall! would kill or die for each other in a heartbeat. i would be absolutely lying if i said i'd never thought about it, but i'm not 100% convinced my thoughts lead me to romance specifically...

they're already pretty insane about each other! starstruck in particular is madly in love with bandee in every way it's possible to be. loves him the way he loves kirby, i think (pretty sure he does not know this. might be shocked to learn it.)

however she's daft as bricks, so he'd have to initiate, and i can't really imagine anything in their relationship would change.... so he'd have to mostly want The Title or the Performance one way or another, and i'm not super sure he would!

#so... this comic is canon to her storyline and is meant to be read as platonic friendship for now! #but i'd be v interested to hear anyone else's thoughts on this pairing in particular!! COULD it be romo??? like.. sure! but how? #i think it would be super cute. but HOW?? i'm just kinda stuck. they're already nuts about each other. what else is there? qpp maybe. #loves him the way he loves kirby. devoutly. viscerally. #the spot carved out of your heart that's just the right size. pulse beating someone else's tune. it's not your palm you know best. #do you get what i'm saying. someone please read these tags and respond i gotta know i'm not the only one #'starflung is all your prose like /that/' yeah sorry. and this is why i don't share my writing lmao. pretentious loser #starstruck dee #bandana waddle dee #my art #my comics #🎀💖

[svtskneecaps]

also in terms of the bolas playlist it's fascinating to me that the songs added by each person have a slight tendency to represent a consistent aspect of bolas

like

the songs added by slime are their chaos

the songs added by philza are their rebellion

the songs added by cellbit are their rage

the songs added by baghera are their anguish

it's so fucking FASCINATING TO ME but i don't know enough music theory to elaborate lmfao this is Vibes Only

(mouse's songs i can't boil down to an easy noun which is why they aren't mentioned lmao anyway they go hard asf)

(also i went on the longest fucking unhinged elaboration in the tags lmfao i almost didn't have enough tags left to tag "long tags" at the end

(i could have even gone on longer in terms of where their characters were at entering purgatory [philza: cage for a cage; cellbit: fed worker murders; baghera: her past as a federation experiment; slime: turning into a code because of the code pretending to be his daughter] but i ran out of space and also time it's 4AM AAAAA)

#qsmp #qsmp purgatory #this is a sweeping generalization btw esp for baghera's she added a WIDE variety of music #qsmp bolas #sorry i forgot that tag existed lmao #i will elaborate slightly: #slime added: find your flame; gas gas gas extended; waltz of the meatball man; foghorn sound effect #philza added: b.y.o.b.; throne; the melting point of wax #cellbit added: hayloft II; brazilian dança phonk (which roier literally played during purg while beating the shit out of bbh lmao) #baghera added: can you feel my heart; still waiting; and coincidentally she added 'it's been so long' (the fnaf song lol) #TO BE CLEAR THESE ARE GENERALIZATIONS #baghera also added the government knows [REBELLION] and oops [CHAOS] #philza added given up [ANGUISH] #cellbit added zombie [ANGUISH] and tokyo drift [CHAOS] #slime added as above so below [ANGUISH] #it's not a perfect category; ESPECIALLY for baghera's songs i want to make that so clear in these tags #HOWEVER. it is interesting. #anyway i went after lyrics for these examples but just generally when going through the playlist the first time #i kind of learned that like. #music to murder to was probably cellbit; punk millenial music was probably philza #the wackiest shit was probably slime (was shocked to find out tokyo drift was a cellbit song for this reason lmao) #baghera's i usually could only pin down bc it didn't sound like anyone else's #and mouse's added songs i could not describe the vibe if you threatened me for it but it has one #i guess the closest vibe is 'a college radio station run by anime fans' and even then it's not that close #it kinda excludes songs like the b//ad bun//ny songs #unless college anime fans are also fans of them in which case great! #IDK IT'S 4 AM I WAS JUST MAKING MYSELF SAD ABOUT TILIN I NEED TO GO TO SLEEP #shut up vic #block game brainrot #long tags

[xielianlover2]

The reason we never see Hua Cheng's POV. It's just this:

#tgcf #hua cheng: hnghhhhhhhh he looked my way #om(xl) om(xl) om(xl) he's right next to me #dianxia #gege #I think I died again #he touched me #hc.exe stopped working #tian guan ci fu #heavens official blessing #manhua #novels #donghua #this is even better than the time I culpted a sky tall statue of him #can my heart explode if im a ghost? #I think my dead heart is beating again #dianxia is so gorgeous... as always #gege gege gege gege gege #I am forever your most devoted believer #If your dream is to save the common people #then my dream is only you #heaven official's blessing

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

One of my favorite things that happened during my last mage Hawke playthrough was during the final battle against Meredith. Everything's going well. We're kicking her ass, she's got just this much health left, we're so close... but then everyone gets stunned dizzy.

Hawke is stumbling around all confused, seeing stars. The rest of his companions are stunned. I'm annoyed because I just want to end this fight. Don't know how or who did it, probably Meredith, but the situation's dire.

Meredith's standing by herself at the center of the Gallows, shouting nonsense and smugly believing the Maker's going to come down and make her his new bride after she murdered a bunch of innocent people.

Truly, this is the part of the story where Varric says they all thought hope was lost, that in the end, Meredith would pull a fast one on us and claim victory...

Until the REAL hero of dragon age 2 comes storming at her. I don't know why Carver was the only one to not be affected, but he literally jumped out of no where and just started bashing Meredith with his sword while everyone else was too dizzy to do anything until she was dead and the cutscene played.

"Hawke defeated Meredith-" LIES, VARRIC. I know the truth! I was there! Hawke didn't do shit! Carver Hawke was the main character all along! He got shit done and Varric gave Hawke all the credit!

I bring this up because last night I finished my warrior Hawke run and when we got to the fight with Meredith, I kind of hoped the same thing would happen where Bethany dashed in all heroic and got the killing blow on Meredith.

She did not.

She got squished by a statue.

But it's fine, Bethany Hawke was the true main character in my heart.

#da2 #dragon age 2 #carver hawke #bethany hawke #da2 hawke #varric tethras #da2 meredith #listen i have so much love for the hawke twins they are the main characters in my heart like yes fine hawke you're there too #but THE TWINS aaaaaaaauughghghghhhhhh #seriously though i'll never forget being annoyed that ed was bumbling around and then watching carver be the only one unaffected #and he's the only one beating meredith and tbh i was cheering him on yes baby brother get her show her how you do it back in fereldan #honestly doesn't it figure though? carver would be the one to deliver the final blow and then be completely overshadowed #because varric has such a hard on for hawke BUT I KNOW THE TRUTH #and it's the same with bethany like this entire run i was so invested in her and i wanted her to set meredith on fire #though this time the fight was actually super easy because i was way more prepared and at a higher level so hawke never got stunned? #i dunno but i wasn't keeping track of bethany during the battle and somehow she did die once... but it's fine she got better #siiiiiigh.... do you know how much i want a playthrough with just the twins? so badly like listen hawke you're neat #but maybe this time you could let the ogre eat you instead? just this once? i love both of my hawkes but the twins?? #hawke twins hawke twins haWKE TWINS HAWKE TWINS #i guess i have to settle for au crafting and fanfic...

[uncanny-tranny]

It's really freeing when you learn that rationality isn't going to be feasible in the long run, not because rationality is this thing that only Truly Enlightened people get the privilege to experience, but because humans are just irrational.

You can know when you're being irrational, and sometimes, it is in big ways. But pretending like that irrationality doesn't exist or can only exist if you're "stupid" only sets you back from growing. Irrationality is part of the human condition - it is impossible to actually be this enlightened person people like to project themselves onto.

#positivity #gentle reminders #inspired because i started feeling disgusted about my HEART BEATING #but irrationality sets us apart from many other species of animals. the contradiction of the human condition is woven into us #what you do about that is recognize it and then seek to expand your world #like... it is irrational as hell to be disgusted about your own damn body and the way it functions without your dorect input but here we ar #i used to feel this pressure to never be contradictory in Any Way and to Always Be Intelligent... #...but that intelligence didn't come from a genuine understanding of the world. it came from what was just a façade... #...what did i have if not Intelligence (but not true intelligence; just the bullshit people THINK is intelligence) #in my quest to be a Better Person i ended up only dehumanizing myself and partitioning myself off into tiny little boxes #it's weird to experience that - to experience your own self being dehumanized BY YOU because you buy into what is essentially propaganda #if this doesn't make sense consider that it's Way Too Late right now and i should have been asleep over seven hours ago

[devilicious-v]

“You think I’m yours, huh?”

“Think? No, I know. I knew then and I know now, you’re mine in the same way I’m yours. I don’t own you, but you’re my perfect fit, the puzzle piece I didn’t know I was missing.” ♥️

#hers #love her smile #her smile #only her #she is so pretty #she is my baby #she is mine #I am hers #she is everything #she is lovely #she drives me crazy #she is so real #she is a queen #she is the beat of my heart #i love her #i love you

[paintpanic]

oh yeah did i ever tell you guys i 100%'ed triple deluxe

#kirby series #in all seriousness i'm simply too bad at drum dash to ever actually 100% the game #in my heart though i've done it. i beat the fucking true arena legit no save states or nothing. “96% complete” my ass. #*beams you with my mind* oughhhh you wanna go download citra and play the 3ds titles ohh you wanna do that sooo bad #it's really cool to be able to play them in higher resolution. only problem is emulating the motion controls. #i spent sixty dollars on a dualshock 4 so i could ✨enhance my gameplay✨ w/ motion controls lol #.. some day i wanna try remapping air ride so i can play with tilt controls.

[sugajimin]

alexa play angel baby by troye sivan, please.

bonus:

#choi seungcheol #scoups #seventeen #seungcheol #mygifs #myedit #i wont comment he just has my heart #his smile i swear my heart skips many beats #i will tag this as #not bts #for any who just wants only bts in their blog ans stuff #ALSO CHEOL MADE ME GIF AFTER SO DAMN LONG #HE MADE ME GIF #SAY THANK YOU CHEOL #ANNAAA LOOK AT ME #I DID IT

[recurring-polynya]

i want the boots rukia is wearing in this color spread more than anything

#rukia kuchiki #it is a truth universally acknowledged that Kubo sure can design an outfit but the shoes he comes up with #are in some entirely separate dimension of coolness #there are different color versions of this floating around online where they are brown instead of black which i think i like better #but those were cropped so you could only see one of her feet #if *i* had colored them i would have made them a little more colorful #and thanks to the magic of art being available to all humans i can and PERHAPS I WILL #not me trying to figure out if this is the same outfit she had in the ska ending #it is similar but it IS NOT she had a cardigan there instead of this wicked leather jacket and no cute scarf and most importantly NO BOOTS #btw there is some sort of poem floating between chad and tatsuki you can't read it but in one of the hi res versions i found you can #it says: beatnix 5506 humble-rumble on the road o the middle earth in my heart crush beat #the rest is cut off but says something like 'the man of the [something] colored' #what in the southern fried tom bombadil is that supposed to be??? #also ichigo has TWO wallet chains and cargo pants to nowhere. why. why kubo.

[milimeters-morales]

Miles clings onto Ganke so often bc he loves him so much and Ganke eventually gets used to it and expects it, but is NOT ready for when Hobie starts clinging onto him and climbing on him. He just wants to be included but he’s 6 foot too many so Ganke has to fight for his life the first time that happens lol. and when the two of them try to cling onto Ganke at the same time, he starts wearing peppermint cologne so it’s too annoying for them to climb on him

#hobie: pleaseeee I can’t keep you next to my beating heart I MUST meld to you like a wart in any way possible PLEASE PELASE PLE #and miles is watching in fascination as Ganke manages to be the only person capable of glaring at hobie enough to make him back down #melds. melds #hobie brown #ganke lee #spiderpunk #spider punk #miles morales #spiderman #spider man #m&m posts

[ashleyleyley]

infinite love in my heart for freaks & weirdos

#im paosting #only applicable if you are too much of a freak and filter out your “friends” #community is literally everything and you are not unworthy of it because you're problematic #my heart beats only for people with surreptitious desires #ESPECIALLY the ones you think are “too far”

[xx-sketchy-xx]

I’m gonna rip out your

(x^2 + y^2 -1)^3=x^2*y^3

OH NO MY (x^2 + y^2 -1)^3=x^2*y^3, that’s vital for my EXISTENCE

ope never mind, (x^2 + y^2 -1)^3=x^2*y^4 is the vital one, I’m good, don’t worry guys

(literally figured out it meant heart like three seconds ago and laughed so hard, that’s fantastic dude)

#lol asks #I remember you #you punched me before #In the face #with brass knuckles #My guy? You ok? #That’s what beat the buddy is for #OH OH #ITS MY HEART #HAHAHA #dude that’s actually so funny #Sadly I don’t have one of those xD #Only for you guys/gals UwU

[grimcatician]

Yoooo Happy Birthday to Kingdom Hearts and to the sweetest silliest goodest boy 🥺💖

Still a WIP but I really wanted to get something out for him! He deserves the world!!!

I only recently began playing KH. It was always on the list of “Things I Know I’ll LOVE to Bits Because It’s Got Everything I Love But I Am Putting Off Until I’m Ready To Commit™️” but thanks to needing to clean my room and some certain YouTube videos a couple weeks ago I finally started playing and I have noooooot stoped thinking about it!

#kingdom hearts #kh sora #sora #I’m still on kh1 right at the last save point bc I want to beat the scary ghost and I’ve titan but I am #Bad at Video Games so it’s taking a bit! #also work!! is keeping me from the fun things in life #I put on that 3hr long recap video of all the games while cleaning my room and I was only half paying attention #but right after it was the 6hr Riku is Gay and idc about spoiler tbh and I know it was a pretty fruity franchise like I had hs friends into #it back in the day so ya know #but HOO boy let me tell you it really was the final nail on the coffin for me and I finally but the bullet and bought it #I knew I’d love the damn Mickey Mouse ff game bc it always seemed so silly but so EARNEST and heartfelt which is my absolute SHIT #the lil “my friends r my power shit? #my absolute favorite trope ohh I knew the moment I saw the scene in hs but no means to play etc so #ANYWAYS! #I will eventually finish this but coloring hard 😣 #grim art

[sysig]

It started with a whisper ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Crackship #Xigbar #Of all the crackships that I didn't expect I probably wouldn't have expected these two the most lol #I super wasn't expecting to feel So strongly about them this is like multi-tier Big Feelings in varying directions #One - ZEX - obvious (lol) | Two - Xigbar (hehe II hehehe) - I think I mentioned it like maaaybe once over here but I was Huge into KH #Specifically Org XIII specifically-specifically 358/2 it is the only game in the Kingdom Hearts line that I've beaten and probably ever will #Oh no wait that's not true I did play through all of the DS release of Re:Coded but like......does that count lol I think no #I played the intro of Kingdom Hearts II and shut it off after the bit with Roxas and Sora like - the egg scene how do I non-spoilers this #I own it and I will never beat it I am too sad I want only my Nobodies lol <3 #Kingdom Hearts had a big influence on me - that and Magic Knight Rayearth are a big explanation as to Why I'm Like This lol #Cough cough casting away the dark parts of your heart only for it to come back and bite you later and also The Gay™ lol #But AnyWay lol - Xigbar! #He wasn't my favourite-favourite - aside from Main Characters that'd probably go to Marluxia - but I still hold him very fondly!! #Definitely doodled him a good bit he's very handsome ♪ #And just - ah ♥ An old fave and a new(er) fave interacting and making each other happy and feel nice and play well I just fsalkfdf #As well as that being Max's body! There's something heightening about all these different aspects that was just overwhelming to me haha <3 #If it's not already obvious - yes this was the happy cries lol this is the only explanation I have haha #I feel very strongly about Them and Interactions and Feeling Nice and fjdslafsdf #Anyway! This isn't Just them! Just a lot haha ♪ #I have started a playlist lol - so far it's just this song - Everybody Talks - but some of the others from SCII playlist fit well too :) #The rest is just ZEX being cute hehe <3 ZEX not understanding what crying is is very interesting to me :3c No VUX equivalent? #Seems like they don't have the same kinds of chemicals like adrenaline et al so I guess a flushing system isn't as necessary! Interesting :D #ZEX fumbliness leading to him being a bit on the back foot is so cute hehe <3 He wants so loudly and openly but actually accomplishing it- #I also really like how he holds himself - all the tension through him to fight against new muscles and bone everything too alien! #I imagine his hands as being very rigid and all the fingers pulled together straight but that could just be how he describes bones hehe #Alien in there <3 Plenty to read into :3c

[crabussy]

everyone in my school loves to scream as louyd as they can on purpose to hurt me just because they can

#I'm lying if it isn't clear #but god fuck does it feel like this sometimes #my heart is beating so fast and I feel so sick some girl decided to just start screaming as loud as possible for some reason #it was. excited screams but it was so loud it was so so loud and I immediately flinched and grabbed my head and started breathing hard #its so Painful its like someone is scratching me or scaring me withreally frightening stuff #I fucking hate being autistic sometimes man #OKAY TO REBLOG BY THE WAY. if you have felt like this #listen to my gibberish boy #they all turned to look at me too I saw out of the corner of my eye #its so upsetting here they changed the rules so that the only quiet classroom is now the designated eating spot #for 25+ people #its a small classroom #its really really bad and the school isn't fixing it or doing anything about it and every day is hell because #lunch and break are the only times I can recover from class #and now I Don't Have That #I am on the edge of breaking the fuck down I hate this #my brain is WEVIL #<- meant to say evil but wevil is funnier. my brain is WEEVIL you guys. bug