#my partner went with me and was very helpful

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA for seeking out my ex to apologise to them?

For context, I had a long term (over 6 years) relationship with someone when I was younger (i was 21 and they were 20 at the time of our breakup, both nonbinary). They asked me out when we were both barely even teenagers, and in a way we grew up together. They were a great partner, and we were both very dedicated to each other. However I went through a lot of mental health struggles while we were together including a lot of suicidal ideation and some attempts, and eventually they asked to break up as they felt our relationship was becoming stressful for them and that I was relying on them too much/being too codependent.

At the time I was a little confused and upset, but I had always clearly made it a condition of our relationship that either of us could leave if we wanted to and had no obligation to stay. So in the end our breakup was pretty amiable, just sad, and we went our separate ways. In hindsight, our relationship was definitely unhealthy for both of us, and my mental health has ironically improved a huge amount since we broke up. So they were 100% right about it not being healthy, and I have nothing but respect for them.

In the years since, I have often felt guilty about how I treated them and wished I could make up for it/take back how I behaved. I never tried to hurt them on purpose but I would vent to them constantly without considering how they felt, and in general I think I took them for granted and would treat them more like a therapist than a partner, when they had their own issues too and I should have never made them feel responsible for mine like that. Neither of us were perfect, but I feel I definitely hold a lot of the blame for how things ended up. I don't think I had the emotional maturity at the time to realise how unhealthy our dynamic had become, whereas they did, and I think both of our lives have become better as a result of us breaking up.

It's been a couple of years since we broke up. They haven't changed any of their social media usernames or blocked me etc, so I could still reach out to them if I wanted to without having to block evade or anything weird like that. Part of me really wants to send them some kind of apology or something, so that they know they're a good person who did the right thing and that I'm sorry for my past behaviour.

However, part of me also recognises that I probably represent a dark period in their life, and that they likely just want to move on and forget about me. For this reason, I worry that apologising would be a selfish move on my part to just assuage my own feelings of guilt, but would only serve to stress/creep them out or hurt them further, which is the last thing I would want to do.

So, would I be the asshole for reaching out to them to apologise? Is it better to leave things alone, or would it be helpful for them/give them closure to hear an apology from me? It would be really helpful to hear people's perspectives on this, especially people who have been on the "other side" of a situation like this.

#aita #am i the asshole #suicide cw

[satancopilotsmytardis]

Oki now Im curious, what hit you to change from writing dabihawks to shigadabihawks to shigadabi?

I thought that there was chemistry between Shigadabi, and I always struggled to make up a reason why Shigaraki would be into Hawks, as I started writing more and more and transitioning to writing primarily from Dabi's POV I also kept feeling like either him or Hawks putting their personal feelings about Endeavor on the backburner so they could date was a misrepresentation of who they both were as characters. When I started to think how their relationship could work outside of that, it fell apart and I lost interest in Hawks.

Shigadabi, on the other hand, just started to work more and more for me. Shigaraki has no fear of cringe and is extremely emotionally available. He trusts Dabi and readily shows that he believes he's capable by giving him more responsibilities. Shigaraki is also the only person Dabi really listens to and he puts in a lot of effort to try to make the League work when they're at their lowest point even though he bitches about the others not doing enough. Their similarities and the fact they are already on equal footing with them both being villains (and thus removing the hurdle of Dabi or Hawks always feeling like they have to prove themselves to the other) means that Dabi may be more willing to be emotionally vulnerable with Shigaraki which is what I think he needs in a relationship. This is also something that was showing even in my primarily Dabihawks days in Bonded, as Dabi struggled for a while to accept his mark for Hawks, but sought out Shigaraki and understood him (and vice versa) when he was feeling worn-down from spending time with Hawks. This theme also was very apparent in Out of My Head (Bring Me Back) where Dabi went to Shig not just for sex but for the emotional support/stability he felt being with Shig offered him while things were constantly out of control with Hawks. At the time having Dabihawks be turbulent just felt like a part of the enemies-to-lovers trope, and it can be, but specifically in my writing, it started to feel more and more like that relationship was being forced to work when it didn't benefit Dabi in any way and was just a tool to facilitate Hawks' growth as a character.

Once I decided I was more interested in Dabi specifically having a relationship that worked for him and that he wouldn't have to be the one trying to constantly facilitate his partner's growth, I started to lean towards Shigadabi because I felt like they could actually support each other. Duster has turbulent emotions that he puts on full display, but as we see from Kamino through PLF (Not caught up, no spoilers past that) he also will let people yell at him and not blink, just move forward pretty logically and try to do right by his people, which is something Dabi desperately needs after a childhood of being told he wasn't enough and getting thrown aside. Dabi, on the other hand, can help lend context for the abuse that Shigaraki suffered all throughout his life and help him actualize who he is and wants to be moving forward without the expectations of his father figure. This is a similar role to what he did for Hawks in my Dabihawks stories, but the crucial difference is that once he opens Shig's eyes even a bit to this, Duster puts in the work himself to figure out who he wants to be and how he needs to grow without needing constant oversight, reassurance, and support from others because he is ready and willing to learn and adapt to every new experience he has.

That's the long explanation, but the short one is that I think Shigadabi, based on my interpretation of the characters, is a more emotionally fulfilling relationship than Dabihawks, and Shigadabihawks was just a stepping stone to get to that point!

#tanco speaks #ask #asks #i was literally looking at my ild syories yesterday and just was like oh damn #this was a Theme all along!! #like so many of them show Dabi always going to Shig for emotional support instead of being vulnerable eith Hawks #and hawks needing dabi for enotional support buy using Shig for sex or just for his general loyalty #and Shig only taking Hawks into the relationship because he doesnt think he can have Dabi without that #it's genuinely wild to look back on and see how that subtext was in those pieces

[staticintone]

Time to show my age! Here are all of the wonderful people I've had the pleasure of interacting with, both in and out of character!

Starting with the Hellspawn && real life friends who brought me here in the first place:

@voxxisms / condemnedsouls — One of my major reasons for writing as much as I do, as well as an incredible inspiration and just a great person. I never thought I'd have a partner like Lee who is as willing as I am to try anything and everything. From the 16 hour playlist to the probably 30 threads we have currently running, I am never bored && am always so pumped to plot and write. @huskker / valientiino / aracniss — I have had the pleasure of almost thirteen years of not just knowing Han but writing together. A constant joy to even just plot with, creative && smart && kind. One of the best writers I have ever known. I would not be half the writer or even person I am without them in my life.

The new friends I've made && written with:

@voxuli / aceofintuition — I was blown away by Ace almost immediately. It only took one look at their blog to see how funny and creative they are, && a handful of messages before I was hooked. Definitely one of the cool kids who just lets me sit at their lunch table. @velvetwarfare — Dove is a vivacious and vibrant person. There is so much energy in every interaction, whether it's in character or out of character. Original characters get certain reputations sometimes, but it's very clear that a lot of care and thought went into theirs. I enjoy the vibes so much. @ad-nai — I had the pleasure of being introduced to xem through my friends, and could tell that this is someone who world builds like a professional. Every character choice is creative && fresh && just a little intimidating. Someone I definitely enjoy seeing from afar as much as actually interacting.

The people I've had less out of character interactions with but still write with me pretty regularly!

@siempreminta — One of the first people I ever had the pleasure of interacting with! I'm in awe of how quick I get replies, and all of the patience this admin has afforded me. I adore how things are playing out with our characters, and look forward to how things progress! @televisionrotsyourbrain — I was immediately obsessed once I took a look at this blog itself. And speaking with Alex a little out of character, they were helpful && kind as I navigated an AU I was only partially familiar with. I love the dynamics at play between our characters, and am so so so excited to do more.

The dear ones who adopted me without saying a single word out of character!

@poisonedspider @cannibalxroses

The lovelies, especially the other Alastors, who immediately talked to me out of character but I haven't had the pleasure of really writing with yet!

@outofradios @radiiosugars @top-shelf-tender @mirrorlyshadow / alastrophe @statiicstag @radiostarsz

And the newest additions who jumped right into plotting && writing right away!

@hazbinned @themosthatedbeingg

It's been an honor to get to know each of you and your characters, even from a distance!

I would tag those who I do enjoy just reading, but that feels a little voyeuristic and I would feel awkward doing it. So just know that if I like your posts/interact with you on some level and you are not listed here, it's because you intimidate me in the best way.

This is one of the most welcoming and loving fandoms I have had the pleasure of being in, especially as active as it is. The only comparison would be the Phantom of the Opera fandom, and that was significantly smaller.

I'll fully admit that I was hesitant to rejoin the tumblr roleplay scene, but this has been entirely worth it.

Thank all of you for making this such a wonderful experience for me.

#《 𐰢 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚛𝚒𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚛𝚞𝚗𝚜 𝚌𝚘𝚕𝚍 ;; 𝚘𝚘𝚌 》 #《 𐰢 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚖 𝚊𝚗 𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚊𝚌𝚑𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 ;; 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚘 》 #[ if i have tagged you & you would like to be removed please shoot me a message ]

[the-pen-pot]

TL:DR: I thought my main work computer/gaming rig had died with an abrupt, inexplicable frankly STRANGE fault. Turned out it just couldn't cope with my Bose earbuds being plugged in to the USB port on my monitor during startup.

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Guys, I thought I was going to have a really, very bad day. Went to turn on my computer to do some editing and it just, would not start. The fans lit up, but it wasn't even getting to the Bios, let alone loading Windows.

No Bios beeps to go "YO something's fucked". In fact, nothing diagnostically helpful at all. Peripherals, such as the keyboard, were incredibly sluggish/non-responsive. It was just weird.

Now and then it would get to the "To load Bios screen press DEL" but then it wouldn't react to anything. I tried turning it off and on again, repeatedly. Even my techy partner was scowling at it in confusion.

Both of us hesitantly figured maybe the motherboard had died, because most other things going tits up would at least let you get to the Bios, if not into Windows itself before some kind of screen of death incident. So motherboard seemed like a likely culprit.

I misjudged. I owe it an apology. It was not the motherboard.

So other than "Have you tried turning it off and on again?" a piece of advice that people think is bullshit is "unplug all the peripherals and try turning it on and see if it works."

Never again will I scoff at this advice.

I unplugged the peripherals (keyboard, mouse etc), including my Bose headphones, which were charging in the USB port hub that's built into my monitor.

My PC started just fine! (Insert shocked Pikachu face). Maybe it was a fluke? It was probably a fluke. Yet I was able to restart my PC multiple times with no weird fault.

Okay. Reconnected keyboard and mouse, no problem. So it's probably the USB hub inside my monitor that's busted. Tried a different device plugged into said hub during start up. Nope. Still worked fine.

Plugged in my Bose earbuds, then started up my machine. My PC went unresponsive again. It was on the road to nowhere. All because of these bastards.

On the one hand, I'm relieved, because this fix cost me nothing but a little bit of time. On hte other, I'm stunned, because WTF were the Bose headphones doing to stop my poor PC in its tracks like that?

#Personal #PC Problems

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #got through my bone marrow biopsy 👍 #I have a very high pain tolerance but I still needed a break partway through #my partner went with me and was very helpful #(my wife just started her job a month ago so it's harder for her to get the time off) #I should get results in 2 weeks #I hope it's the 'worse' option tbh #because treatment would be much more accessible and straightforward

[possamble]

realizing im kind of a weirdo about laios and marcille

#possramble #ignore this im just babbling but #the thing is that like. i don't ship laios and marcille together. their relationship is so so important to me in that laios comphets himsel #and THINKS that he might be in love with her but he isn't and that's my insane obsession #platonic soulmates for real but they're so sweet together that i fully expect them to be shipped together #like i get it. that's almost the appeal for me. if dungeon meshi were any other series there'd be an epilogue where they get married #convention dictates that they're meant to be together as the male protagonist and his beloved female deuteragonist #but dungeon meshi DOESNT do that and i love it so fucking much they're the comphet besties ever for my strange little brain #like if i ever did an arranged marriage au it would absolutely be laios and marcille having a platonic political marriage and then just #the most insane mutual pining with marcille and falin while laios and marcille struggle their way into becoming best friends #the imagery of the king and his beautiful court mage being tender to each other and everyone thinking they're in love is like catnip to me #like yeah they'd be like that and have no idea people think they should be together and the subversion makes me so obsessed #the more people ship them romantically. the more i enjoy their platonic dynamic it's like some sort of weird comphet fetishism idk #people think they're in love and im outside the window like YES... YES!!! #but also the second i see stuff of them kissing on the mouth or fucking im like oh god no i went too deep in here i gotta get out #don't wanna see that. i'll go feral over the idea of laios and marcille being arm-in-arm like king and queen but they would not fuck. #i want marcille to be his default comphet beard and dance partner/plus one at official royal events but they're not kissing. #she's there on his arm because he's scared of the other noble women tryna get him and being a baby about it #and people see them muttering to each other and laughing and generally being very sweet and think that they're dating but they're not. #she's actually covered in hickies from falin underneath her dress and is gonna get dragon dicked right after the party is over #like she's in her bedroom and falin's helping her take her ridiculous dress off while listening to her complain about politics #and falin is the person she goes home to the person she falls asleep to and wakes up with #they're a triad of utter devotion to each other but only farcille's side of the triangle is romantic #it's almost like an open secret because they're not trying to hide it at all but people assume and are surprised to find out #like people are so right about her relationship with the toudens but with the siblings' roles switched #love of her life & irreplaceable life companion. does anyone get it #anyway. i don't know what's wrong with me #it bothers me that they're not the undisputed most popular het ship for marcille on ao3 #it's unnatural. marcille being paired with any other man should be a fringe case.

[sqlmn]

OC RNG stuff.

-Lucinda is engaged to the oldest prince in a family of nine where there are 8 brothers and then the youngest is the only girl. She adores her future husband. -Ink Blot is a really dumb mage who acts as a street performer using fake magic despite being an actual mage. He just wants to be the center of attention. -Ruby and Luce are from the same plot (thank you RNG I love the dream wardens). They're part of different pairs and basically just patrol to keep dreams in check. Ruby and Luce also don't really meet each other in canon. Their routes don't overlap but they both interact with the main duo which is Colette and Marcus. (Ruby wants to beat Marcus up while Luce wants to kiss Marcus for what it matters.)

#i really love luce hes just so calm and collected in front of marcus and colette to try and look reliable #but hes actually one of the younger wardens who is made to replace his partner's old partner #so hes with sil and sil is just watching him for the first decade like why is he so awkward #when will he warm up to me or the other wardens he meets why is he always so tense #and then something happens and luce is sent into a panic because he learns that marcus used to laugh with sil and the retired warden #hes like ???? WHY DOES HE HATE ME ? WHAT DID I DO? and sil is like the guy is older than me and doesnt do change well #thats all there is to it he got used to my old partner and youre a wrench in the comfort zone hell get over it tho #and when marcus laughs for the first time in front of luce it is SO over for luce he would do anything for marcus #but then you get marcus who is telling colette i have to say things took an unexpected turn with sils partner #i went from fine with robert to being abandoned by robert to do you think luce is cute cause i think hes cute #and marcus is very much IM SO GAY which is fair cause colette is like MM YEAH SAME #and then you guys gotta realize i love my silly lil prince group where the oldest bro has a really cool future wife #and then the second oldest is like hey bro im stealing your wife for the afternoon and lucinda is like i see i see #and then the second oldest and lucinda just spend the entire afternoon dancing and shes happy to indulge him #then the third oldest is the original main one where he and the castle witch are on a mission to help another kingdom #but like the fact the oldest has an arranged marriage with a woman he loves #and the second youngest is in love with the son of two castle aids #who happens to be 40 and very worn out with stress from having to turn the second oldest down all the time #then the third oldest has a crush on a prince from the kingdom hes trying to help but the crush is on like an 18 year old #so the 2nd and 3rd oldest are constantly bickering over what the other sees in their crushes #anyway hi i love my ocs (gestures to them) #and ink was a really minor character in the plot bc it was mostly me paying attention to a dumbass vampire #and this thief who had to help the dumb vampire get home bc he has no sense of direction and had been abducted

[pyrriax]

hi tumblr im pyrr pyrriax and im in my trimonthly artist arc, lord help me and all the projects that are currently sitting in my drafts while i am lured in by the siren song of drawing

#haunted ecosystem #this is not helping with how much my hands hurt on a daily basis this is why i type and dont handwrite/draw very much. #im lured in regardless and i really need to find an artform that doesnt Hurt but for now. digital art <3 #like theres a difference between my dumb doodles (quick easy not much different from regular computer usage) and actual art #but im an artist at heart i spent sooooo long being an artist and thinking i was shit at writing. that is wrong! im actually kinda good #im rambling in tags today because i have been not social (my partner is in genshin hell and my beloved is. somewhere.) #okay but on another note i reread the first. couple chapters of wtds this morning? the pacing is a little weird and the tense is fucked #but its actually a lot better than i thought it was? you can tell i was fleshing everybody out in my head and i totally forgot about how #i described the watcher [who i am STILL redacting the name of until we get there] and just. ough. pandora being very logical #and then jumping to the latest chapter and fucking sobbing because i forgot about how it went and just. pandora and his. #whatever the fuck is wrong with him. #i have gotta start recommending people read that again. its surprisingly friendly without context because of how i approached it #that fic has taught me so many things its actually a little comical. it also made me relearn how to make and write ocs so thats fun #once i finish that main fic (and i WILL i am actually planning to sign up for a thing. im finishing it i swear.) i finally get to show off #more of the world and characters ive crafted. showing backstories and what-ifs and all these oneshots ive been keeping close to my chest #for like absolutely ages because i dont want any spoilers on my tumblr #and. im finishing that fic in pseudo-memoriam of somebody who deleted their accounts everywhere. still miss you dane! #ok this has completely gone off topic ily tumblr im going back to drawing and i might make a new pfp #it'll still be lavius but it'll be fray lavius since i think about him a lot and i like his color palette.

[echoofawind]

Goodness I did not appreciate the former management at my apartment complex. The manager and nearly all the staff left and now we have people who aren't taking care and aren't being kind. I have lived here for years. My partner and I pay nearly $2000 USD a month to live here. It's our home. It's literally management's job to help care for our home.

Post brought to you by the memo of pending eviction notice we got because the apartment complex's system cancelled our rent auto pay. Previously, management worked hard with reminders and emails and calls to make sure no one in the complex got a late fee, let alone to this stage. When my partner went to talk to management, there was no compassion, simply, and I quote 'It's the law." And "I didn't know our system worked that way." (ITS LITERALLY YOUR JOB TO KNOW! THATS WHAT WE ARE PAYING YOU TO KNOW.) He was still courteous and even toned in his speech. I had to walk away because I was livid.

#while this all happened the manager didn't try to help the assistant manager at all #instead she let her grandkids say hi to my dog without my knowledge #i was standing by the doorway to the assistant managers office and the kids were behind me #im very fortunate that my dog is veru well behaved and good with kids #still hes a big dog and if he turns around quickly or wags his tail hard. he can hurt someone. #ive had parents get upset with me because my dog did a dog thing (wag his tail which is unfortunately at small kid face height) and #their kid got startled or hit (by said tail) #they didn't ask if they could pet the dog. they just went for it #ive never met these kids before. we are strangers. #even after I tried to reposition my dog away from the kids. the kids kept coming back up and I didn't have the bandwidth to parent them #my partner knows im ready to move out. moving sucks but i don't care. this management has rubbed me the wrong way too many times #we are house hunting so we will hopefully be out soon and it wouldn't be ideal to split our attention with moving temporarily #i still want to get away from these shitheads #e is for echo #rant

[magentagalaxies]

happy one year anniversary of my friendship with paul bellini!!!!! so wild to think that this all started with me being a nerd in some youtube comments sections and evolved into such a lifechanging meaningful friendship (not to mention some amazing career opportunities!) i'm so honored to be able to call paul bellini my "uncle" and it's so sweet to look back on journal entries from around that time, when i thought "getting noticed in the youtube comments once" was as far as my kids in the hall connection would ever get

[image ID: a journal entry dated july twenty-fourth 2022. the text reads "Paul Bellini replied to my comment on a video of his band Mouth Congress this morning! I know this may not sound like much since the video had 2 views but it was so cool!!! /END ID]

#i should send him an email about this bc it's an important day!! #i keep thinking about the first time i met his partner (georges) and i introduced myself to him one-on-one backstage after a show #and i was like ''hi georges! i don't believe i've introduced myself yet. my name's jessamine!'' #and georges's eyes went wide and he excitedly went ''YOU'RE jessamine?! oh my god - thank you!!'' #and he went on to say that paul has a tendency to be very pessimistic and self deprecating about his work #like saying ''well no one really cares'' about the things he creates. but since paul and i became friends his partner noticed #paul doesn't talk down about himself as much anymore!! like as ''cringy'' as my fandom-ness can seem to me‚ it really helps his confidence! #and apparently even when i'm not around paul still loves to hype me up to his friends lmao #and when one of my toronto friends met paul for the first time while i wasn't in town‚ she opened with ''i'm a friend of jessamine'' #and paul immediately was like ok this must be a great person if she's friends with jess #(side note if any of my tumblr mutuals meet paul bellini when i'm not there‚ you better be opening with ''i'm a friend of jessamine''!!)

[sesamie]

i'm so so so happy (<- had the best last day of school i could have ever hoped for)

#*of junior year #it was AMAZING i only had to be at school for third period (we have exemplary attendance days) #so me and my best friend went and picked up my partner and i got to wake her up all sweet and everything #and we just basically hung out all day #i played my clarinet a little to practice for graduation - got to see my freshman clarinets whom i love #went to ap lang and helped some people do a crossword #ate lunch w my friend & partner and we talked about some drama that was happening and cleared things up between us all #hung out at both people's houses for quite some time #my partner drove!!! and i'm so proud of him <3<3 #went to work for like two hours basically and that was very chill and pleasant #went home and ate dinner then went out with my friends Again to go play horror games at one of their houses #but i was basically sleeping the whole time i was there shsjfhdj #then went home again and passed out #but not before talking to my partner some more and having a very sweet affectionate time #it was absolutely lovely it was so free of all the sturm und drang that my larger friend group has been having lately #duckspeak

[the-trans-dragon]

Could a person with mental illness do THIS?

*spends 20 minutes trying to respond to a text, too anxious to commit to a first word such as "Hey" versus "Hi!" versus maybe a unique catchphrase I should incorporate into my personality like "Banjo bonjour!" or, if it would be more logical, "Bonjour banjo!"*

#🙃 #its a specific person who i never really decided what kind of relationship we have #maybe she was technically one of my bosses? but we started on the same day and bonded over #trying to adjust super quickly and not make mistakes (or to learn from them very quickly) and then we #had some really nice chats about our lives and families and partners #so its like. we are casual coworker acquaintances and we are Girls Who Are Friends (im not sure if she #knew i was trans and nonbinary. i think she assumed i was a woman. but the way she perceived and interacted with my gender was comfy in a #very specific way that makes me feel Okay Being Seen As A Girl. it still doesnt feel like ME. but i can fit inside it without #contorting and hiding parts of myself. kinda like the pants i bought at goodwill that definitely didnt quite fit but #my wife hemmed them a bit and i could squeeze my butt into them if i held my breath and they were a great pair of work pants for $7 #anyways lol she was like a peer/mentor/cool aunt's even cooler best friend/woman you sat next to at the ER one time and she felt like you'd #known her forever but it was probably just because it was 2:30AM and neither of you had slept and were both lowkey curious if you were gonna #die before getting medical help/drunk woman who accidentally says something you've needed to hear for the past decade. lol #so idk if its a “hello” situation or a “hiya” or a “hey sup” or what. :3 well there went another ten minutes while i #rambled in the tags. okay byyyyyye. #sorenhoots

[non-un-topo]

See I would try to socially transition for a few years first, except no one refers to me as he/they

#ignore me i'm journaling in another tab lol #when you look like me and say you go by all pronouns it's always “she” lol. sometimes the rare “they” #and the one that always makes me laugh: 'her pronouns are they/them'. like thanks mate very helpful #and i do go by all pronouns so it's all good! i just wonder if i should try these two out exclusively for a while #i say this as if i didn't do this a few years ago. ......shut up. #i'll say that the last time i went out with pals and my partner i asked them to refer to me as he/him for the night and it didn't feel weir #but idk. i think it only sometimes feels weird because 1) it's so binary and 2) i clearly do not look like a cis guy so it's hard to pictur #i.................... think i HAVE been socially transitioning for three years. damn it. #i wish pronouns just didn't exist lol. it's too hard to decide #and every time i get excited about transition and ALMOST decide to do it i suddenly remember aaaaaall my partner's family members exist. #mostly their SIL's family. very very big and traditional. that wedding this summer was dysphoria HELL. absolute hell. #i understand why people start hrt without telling anyone. my god it's so much easier and no one can try to convince you not to do it.

[invinciblerodent]

Character 1.: destiny determined in the moment of his birth, set upon the path of duty and righteousness by callous hands and the roll of dice, but where's the line between ordinance and morality

Character 2.: the fire raging beneath her skin was quelled far too long, the last heir of an ancient bloodine- the long-dormant Dragon awakens to demand it's due, and, if denied, burns her alive

Character 3.: sent to live in the woods because he's such a bitch. atoning for his bitch-crimes.

#squirrel plays bg3 #worked a lot on Arvid's backstory and timeline yesterday #Iona's is all set basically; hers like came to me in a fkin dream #but I was having trouble with Petyr #my partner helped me come up with his and tbh I'm very excited about it #I'm normally in the usiness of making tragic figures #but petyr is more my partner's speed #he's not tragic he's just... literally so not fun to be around that he became a bounty hunter woodsman #because he's just kind of a dick that nobody can stand for long periods of time #only instead of going “oh the problem is my shit personality; I'll change that” #he went “screw you all. forest time” #I'm very interested in how he'll work with Shadowheart #i think he'll be very much my favorite kind of “how dare you INFECT me with morals” kinda guy #uuuugh I can't wait to make themmmmm #(also the dark urge I have planned?) #(imagine finding out that you used to be involved with the man who condemned your by-then girlfriend) #(dra_fkin_ma)

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #swearing #(in tags) #guess what I got fucking woken up by today? #a call from my wife who walked from work to the er to check herself in yaaaaaaay #you know what I love? #when Things Continue To Fucking Happen. #(she is very stable and at home) #(but she needs to establish longitudinal care which we've already failed to do like twice since moving) #(although this is important enough that she can miss work for an in-person appointment without issue.) #(and our other partner is going to be here in less than 36 hours cuz they were already planning a visit) #(so it won't all be on me if she needs ongoing help this week) #(and we got a check in the mail today we thought had went missing! so that's nice.) #(but it's just ugh. ugh. I said no more things.)

[queen-beefcake-sqx]

me, knocking back THC drinks and xanax: I’m going to commune with a parrot again.

#say more sadie #In 2021 I went to my life partner’s parents for Thanksgiving #that morning involved a series of personal explosions in the lives of people around me because of course #and I was stressed and overwhelmed from work and a recovering relationship after a very stressful year #so I knocked back two glasses of wine and three weed gummies #BEFORE ever arriving for the dinner #on top of my medications (don’t do this kids esp not without knowing your personal limits on all of them and how they interact) #(which I did for the record and felt confident I wouldn’t drink myself into the hospital) #and wound up having a spiritual out of body experience with a cranky African Grey who hated most of the actual family #but decided I was friend shaped #(It helped that I had flaming red hair with a grey dress so I think he thinks I was another African Grey) #Anyway it turned a day that could have been very exhausting and traumatic into one of my favorite memories #so we’re shooting for that today #drug mention #sadie has mental illness