#not the entire fucking middle bit

[party-gilmore]

[not even through first page of dash on allotted brief lunch time tumblr break]

[absolutely fantastic post about Palestine and Palestinians persevering and living and don’t let your western media propaganda bias dehumanise them to you based on stereotypes about their people during this ongoing genocide perpetuated by the state of israel]

awesome awesome hell yeah cool yes reblo-

“so anyway yeah Death To Israel”

…it would’ve been so fucking easy.

to not immediately miss the entire subtext of your own damn post.

“Dissolve.” “Dismantle.” “Deconstruct.” “Topple.” “Overthrow.” or i don’t know, just fucking…

one of so many other words that explicitly and specifically describe a process of removing the authority and sovereign status of a nation/state and its radical, war criminal government and occupying military forces.

but no instead let’s go with Death just fucking kill them all wipe them out the same way they’re doing to Palestine because as we all know of course there’s no “citizens” in israel actively fighting and protesting and campaigning and being targeted by their own radical government for it. they’re all just exactly the same as the stereotype all the media making it out of israel shows - toxic, racist, inhuman, bullshit viral video/tiktok stars, who are all cheering and making jokes about it, and if you try to humanize israelis right now what are you a fucking zionist how DARE you not support Palestine?

and then these same folks will turn around and say “okay y’all STOP freaking out about retaliatory violence, NO ONE is saying freeing Palestine means theyre are gonna turn around and try to wipe israeli’s* out the same way, that’s making a LOT of incredibly harmful assumptions about them based on barbaric and fearmongering stereotypes ”

…in the same fucking breath they just said “death to israel.”

8 whole minutes in and that’s ALREADY enough social media for the day 🫥

#*’israeli’ in this case often notably used interchangeably with ‘jews’ #given the amount of people on here who still haven’t figured out that those are… two separate circles on the venn diagram #not the entire fucking middle bit #and let’s be clear i also don’t think genuine retaliatory violence is at this point a realistic fear or even if it WAS not a reason #AT ALL to continue this absolute atrocity against Palestine - i’m saying it’s hypocritical as FUCK to dismiss that fear when YOU YOURSELF #are… calling for their death… #and don’t try and be all fucking ‘it’s just hyperbole chill the fuck out’ 1) it’s probably fucking not first all - when people ‘joke’ about #shit like that they’re usually testing the waters to see if they can get away being serious about it. and 2) even if it IS genuinely just #a joking exaggeration 2.a) what the fuck is funny about that and #2.b) that is still going to enflame and embolden everyone around you that ISNT fucking joking #israel #palestine #free palestine #but for fucks sake stop buying into that Every Israeli Is Complicit - Their Deaths Don’t Matter bullshit

[hecksupremechips]

God every day I think about Akane’s breakdown in door 3 because there really is no correct way to interpret that and every possibility makes me crazy. Like she sees this fucked up corpse whom Junpei (and the player, depending on how they play) believes is their friend Snake, but she knows that it’s Guy X. It’s a man she very intentionally put in the game for this very purpose, so that he could die horrifically and be displayed for everyone to see. And she has a full mental breakdown over being trapped in this room with the corpse, being trapped by Junpei, to the point where she rips out her hair and starts bleeding from how much she bangs on the door screaming to get out. And fuck, there’s so many possibilities like

Akane could be feeling genuine terror over the sight of the body, and with that remorse. She made this happen, she wanted this to happen, and now she’s forced to quite literally watch the damage she’s caused unfold. She can detach herself from his murder easily in other timelines where she doesn’t have to look at it, and she can sleep easy knowing that her hands are technically clean because she didn’t do the literal killing. But she can’t do that here, and she has to face the fact that not only did she happily cause this death, she failed her mission. She isn’t going to survive, and now this man is dead for nothing and everything is her fault

On the other hand, her entire breakdown could be completely fabricated in order to keep playing the role of the damsel in distress who is so innocent that the very sight of blood drives her to insanity. The interesting part about this is that if she could fake such a horrific breakdown, just how much of her personality a facade? We know she wants revenge, for everyone from Cradle to feel even an ounce of the pain she and so many others went through, but we don’t get to see the extent of how much she feels this way. We never hear directly from Akane about her feelings on any of the original organizers, just her note about her desire to punish them. She hates them, but does she see their deaths as a necessary evil, or does she feel joy and satisfaction at watching them go? It’s absolutely horrifying not knowing, not being able to see her true feelings, not knowing just how real or fake she is, the extent of her madness. Perhaps she doesn’t even know that herself

IN OTHER WORDS, it’s fucked

#zero escape #akane kurashiki #the truth lies somewhere in the middle im sure #but god both possibilities are so tasty #personally i think her reaction is fake to an extent like i think she does feel at least some joy over the murders #shes doing a good deed and ridding the world of evil #but i think that this is a rare moment where she actually thinks for a minute about what shes done and how its fucked #like shes never truly present in the moment she can never fully grasp the severity of the trauma #and i kinda want to believe that this route is a bit unexpected for her #like she had to have known it was a possibility but its entire existence relies on junpei betraying the others #and i think that she was ready to write it off as a rare possibility so she didnt worry about it too much #because the only thing holding junpei back from choosing door 3 is aoi saying that picking it would require leaving people to die #and akane has nothing but her trust that junpei is good and wouldnt do something so horrible to rely on #but then it happens and she cant handle the uncertainty she wasnt ready for ANY of this to happen #not only did junpei betray the others he betrayed HER in so many ways he doesnt realize #he did what he thought was good for june but its exactly the opposite hes not only damned her #but he trapped her in a room with the disgusting corpse that she put there and everything throws her off #and she has to confront that even junpei is unpredictable and is capable of evil and that she herself has fucked up so much #she cant escape this without literally STEPPING INTO the entrails of someone she killed #and its all just too much and she completely loses it #so yeah for me its less a mental breakdown cuz she feels bad for murder #but more a breakdown because shes been betrayed and caught off guard and has a brief realization of how terrifying her actions are #those may sound the same but they arent please guys please :( #as you can see im very normal about this and good god 999 is so fucking good

[crimsongrimoire]

RAHHH UR RECENT WRIO AND NEUV WRITING WAS SO GOOD I BEG THEE FOR MORE….. im thinking about dragon mating cycles and neuv coming to wrio sopping wet in the rain ( cuz hes sad of course ) and asking him for help,,,,

WAAAH TYSM ;_; theyve given me Disease

i see your That and raise you neuvi locking himself away insisting everyone Especially Wriothesley leaves him alone for a week with zero explanation. and of course that doesn't work but it's fine in the end (wrio broke in more or less bc he was worried) (neuvillette just never had these Issues before because he wasn't attached to anyone in that way and is a little scared of himself in this state on the off chance he'd hurt wrio)

#cawing #genshin #crow.txt #snippets #wriolette #neuvithesley #not sfw #suggestive #whichever #cause it sure Will be #at age 6 i was born without a face #ive posted assorted bits of this i think. ive been pondering for entirely too long ok #its been raining for like 3 days straight conveniently the same time neuvillette submitted a request for time off #for the first time in like 100 million fucking years and wrio hears of this and is like hm. disobedience is my middle name fuck it #(he was crying bc he missed wrio. of course) #monsterfucking #forgot that one. it sure is. #sad wet kitten neuvillette is very good but so is you will have to pry the truth out of me with an oyster knife neuvillette ok. #you cant tell me he wouldnt just struggle through something mildly annoying vs inconvenience anyone else in what he sees as a major way #if its not strictly necessary. the epitome of 'ill live who cares ill be so fine. Eventually. its just an entire month of inconvenience'

[catastrxblues]

—

#okay i actually want to rant a bit 😭 - not advised to read this because then you might get brain damage #because oh my god??????? weird #(was going to write an entire diary but nvm here’s the gist of it) #basically i was coming home from this chem thing right #i used the train as i always do when it comes to this. and because the new station just got a shiny renovation it is now connected to the #new mall in front of it (we have two now it’s an addition to the first one). and guess what 😭 #i had to go in and get to the first mall because my dad said he’d just pick me up at the lobby instead of the bus stop in front of #the station entrance right. #and when i was on the elevator going up on a call with my mom about food orders 😭 #the guy i used to have a very very VERY heavy crush on in middle grade got to the elevator leading down just as i was on the landing 😭😭 #and i had to make sure i wasn’t hallucinating so as he was descending and his back turned to me i examined the back of his head and i’m #pretty sure it was him. curiosity killed the cat i should’ve remembered that shit because you know what my stupid ass did?? #i was already walking away on my way to cross to the first mall but then that curiosity got the better off me and i steppedonto the elevato #leading down 😭 and followed him out into (apparently) the fucking bus stop #oh my goddd I JUST REALIZED this is my the one moment help #except i don’t think he recognized me because i was never even friends with him lmao. wrote tons of poetry about him ✅ #actually had one proper conversation with him ❌ #i was delusional and kept alone with my thoughts living in my head do not judge me #but seriously even though i don’t really care about him anymore this would’ve been (unfortunately) SUPER important to middle grade me #she would’ve taken it as a sign or something and write like five pages about it #and i just keep thinking about that #funny how things change because IF YOU KNEW how many credits and exaggerated compliments i gave him in my old journal #oh you would’ve laugheddd #like i used to SPEND SO MUCH TIME pondering over him it’s so 😭 #i used to have an oc and i think i based it on my idea of him and then i think that idea of him was even the reason i started to TRY to #write poetically. and i used to relate every taylor swift love songs to him (esp the ones in debut lover and rep and fearless) IT WAS SO #FUNNY LOOKING BACK AT IT NOW #i think he did see me though. i put on this act as if i was searching for someone confused and then (my go to) pretended someone called me #and then i whisked off as if to find that someone #i’d like to think i look pretty cool though. not because of anything (def not my looks because i was SO TIRED from that extra chem lessons

[welcometoteyvat]

society moved on too quickly from furina's demo

#i think about the fontaine brawl that she imagined in her head sometimes like i feel like society needs more characters like that #ramblings! #also when she changes into pneuma form............ i've never seen something so fucking crisp in my life #the lights???? the music syncing?? it's like biting into a juicy apple cannot be topped #also the symbolism................... i was like 'hm. i actually dont really agree with that bilibili analysis video' after thinking it thr #through. <- also known as dumb behavior they almost predicted the entire 4.2 quest #tbh i feel like people also moved on too quickly from neuvis demo because that yellow field of grass is peak #i love when rando characters are dropped in the middle of nowhere contemplating existence #we also moved on too fast from ly.ney's story quest why do i keep seeing him in love with traveler #like his subtle threats to that woman... guys he's killed people dont make him just a flirt #dont mind me im just. replaying fontaine but in my head and via youtube trailers #actually something else is that while i still think most of the sumeru chars look a bit too much like they used skin bleach #the sequence right before nah.ida's burst where she's traveling through her own dreamscape is like. soo good im soooo.... #references her character story... full of whimsy and elegance.. visiting children while asleep etc.. knowledge spreading something somethin #i also always liked how the 2 children floating in front of that window looked like they were guarding the gates of wisdom or smth #like sentries in front of a library. but theyre kids so its less somber and more like. idk joyful. house of learning open to all etc. #in a character trailer appreciation mood rn ig

[yourlocaldisneyvillain]

i wish there was a space for actual adults within this fandom. i guess i will have to create it, even if it's just me and other five people and a shoelace. i wonder how this whole thing is gonna develop!

#personal #the entire internet but also this fandom specifically is infested with ppl whose reading comprehension is lower than a 6th grader's #can't a gal enjoy a middle-aged actress without being pestered by toddlers with pitchforks #and i know i'm the pettiest bitch but i am ANNOYED esp when i see how old these ppl are. if you're over 25 you have no excuse daskjfhg #like i have cut my audience in half at least! if not more with this fic #but i'm happy bc i'm producing content i wanna produce #i wonder how my new fics are gonna be received #after i finish “particular” i have another thing coming up that ppl probs won't like lol #but i think it's important i post it #and then we have murder mysteries and gothic horror and wooooo you know #it's gonna be fun! and a bit disturbing! #wonder if imma be dragged on twitter again lol #but i sincerely hope no one will care lol #honestly i never expected ppl to care THAT much but i guess they did #it also annoys me that a concerningly small amount seems to care abt the actual quality of writing #and i'm over here agonising about Stylistic Choices(TM) lol #i feel like it flies over ppl's heads and they just wanna read abt larissa weems fucking them with a shapeshifted dick #which okay i guess but also what abt Literature #you could do smth creative with a shapeshifting character just saying. and include your magic cocks or whatever tf you're into #ah i am fuming in vain i will just write my lil fics and hope i don't get a new influx of kys messages lol

[calypsolemon]

can't wait until the rgu cast reaches the outside world and learns about public transport

#relatedly #i think anthy would be the greatest troll pedestrian #she would absolutely take every precious second of crosswalk light time to cross the street #maybe purposefully fuck with the light a little bit to make it longer #she walks in the middle of the parking lot the entire way so cars have to wait for her #she might actually have to get USED to public transport tho bc that shit can be very crowded! #but i think she'd do it cuz she would dislike cars more #anyways #rgu

[willowcrowned]

the thing about qui gon and rael is that like. rael thinks qui gon is the version of him who didn't fail, right? qui gon was the one who didn't have to kill his padawan in the end. qui gon was the one who didn't fuck up in a way that unmade him. and qui gon knows that. qui gon believes that. qui gon thinks that all that's standing between him and the utter destruction of what's left of rael is the bare fact that he wasn't the one to physically kill his padawan. rael for qui gon is a version of himself that he hates. and that's something he can't ever acknowledge

#something something golden child complex #at least the fuck up gets to admit there's something wrong with the system and they got screwed up because of it #you don't because the only thing keeping you together is the system #your entire identity is invested in it. and if you lose that then you're unmade #like. the daddy issues of it all #because the ways they construct the ways they relate to the world are purely through rules #rael in how he bucks them and qui gon in how he obeys them (not necessarily jedi rules. but HIS version of jedi rules) #and dooku being... dooku. #dooku being strict and unforgiving and doing it because he cares about his padawans! that's how he knows how to love! #he loves by pushing and pushing and pushing until the thing he loves is how he thinks it should be #you grow up with that and you start to have a voice in your head that's always telling you how you messed up again #and it starts out sounding like your master and then it just sounds like you #and suddenly you're middle aged and the man in front of you is everything the voice inside your head hates (and you know you ARE the man in #of you. you know the only thing separating you two is luck) so what can you do but despise him a little bit. almost as much as you envy him #what can you do but try to convince yourself it wasn't luck you escaped his fate. what can you do but try to convince yourself that you got #out because you're better #quirael #star wars #rael averross #qui gon jinn

[bluest-planet]

Throughout Light and Dark

Throughout their journey between worlds Yoru and Vani tend to talk about the similarities and differences, between them as creatures made from darkness. Especially one from the ancient past, and the current present. This is just one of em.

Or

"The kinda smell... That smells... Smelly."

As promised! Some levity after the last few angsty snippets seen here and here.

Scent,

"I can tell you're making faces over there. If you have something to say, say it." Yoruhua says, not looking up from behind their delicious paste.

"...You smell different." Comes Vanitas' voice across from them.

Yoruhua stops mid bite, putting down their treat on oily crumpled paper. Chewing thoughtfully before responding,

"... I suppose I do, yes."

Suddenly aware of it, their thick smoky copal replaces the tasty scent of meaty, buttery puff pastries. Slightly disappointing her. But its Vanitas' own growing burnt palm sugar and rancid iron almost fully kills their appetite.

Vanitas glares at her for a second, still refusing to eat his own meal. The uneaten fluffy white rice in sharp contrast with the black beans and minced meat.

'His food is going to get cold.' Yoruhua muses.

Still, he doesn't mind, if he doesn't want to eat, then he doesn't have to.

"You're supposed to tell me why," he gruffs.

She smirks, "and you're supposed to use your words, and actually ask."

Vanitas looks likes he's about to snap, but carefully takes a deep breath and gives in. The iron fades out leaving only the bitter aftertaste of charcoal in the back of her throat, "Fine. Why do you smell like the Heartless do, but differently? It's weird."

"Well, I'm not just some Heartless, so jot that down. And, you smell too,"

He flushes and snarls, "I-I know that."

She huffs, "sure you did, but regardless- you probably just can't tell since you're not used to actively using it, so it's weakened." She says, "But, I guess it's because I kept my physical form. Unlike the rest of the Homunculi- eh, that's the other original Darknesses- I'm still me, well, not me exactly. But this... Body, you see, still remains from when I was a singular being."

At Vanitas' annoyed look and re-worsening scent, Yoruhua grimaces and tries to elaborate,

"Ah... So, the others all... Blended into one another, without a body to keep them separated. Souls and hearts grossly mixing without care just for power..."

"They aren't like you or me anymore- back then, in the Realm of Darkness, sometimes it would be so dark, that we couldn't even see one another. So we developed scents to detect, identify, and understand each other to prevent fights. Though, mine's changed a bit due to sharing a heart with Orichalchemi," she finishes.

Vanitas huffs, unsatisfied with the answer, "okay first of all; you suck at explaining stuff. Second; so what? You're saying you didn't always smell like a someone was burning s'mores with incense sticks in a graveyard?"

They quirk an eyebrow and ignore his insult, "you seem oddly fixated on the subject. Why do you care what I smell like?"

The boy frowns, looking down at his food and avoiding her own stare, "I... how do you control it...?"

A deep sigh, but a fond one. That's the most direct he's been about asking for their help. Well, their meal can wait.

Slowly, they place an extra of their pastes de tinga on his still full plate, responding cooly, "well, for starters, you can take better care of yourself. The more energy you have- the better. So eat before it gets too cold. A healthy body produces a stronger scent and makes it easier to focus."

Wordlessly he does as she says without a fight.

It's a small win.

Yoruhua smiles to himself, finishing off their own food. And watches over him fondly.

It's moments like this, where he's simply living instead of anticipating the next attack, that she enjoys most. Through she'll never get over how horrible it felt to be trapped within Void Gear, her one window into the real world was always the one silver lining.

Watching him sleep peacefully on those rare nights, or try a new skill and smile where no one else could see him when he got it right...

"What are you looking at?" Vanitas asks wearily, looking up at her.

Yoruhua shakes her head, "nothing, I..."

She looks at him, truly, and decides to just say it, "seeing how far you've come since we've started this journey... Well, I'm proud of you, I've always been."

Vanitas blushes, and glares down at his nearly finished plate, "I don't get how you can just say things like that. Putting your emotions on display like that, like one of those weak sappy Lights."

Yoruhua laughs, "hah, honestly, you call it a weakness, but it's a lot harder to admit than it looks."

"While being genuine puts your weaknesses on full display, it also makes you fully aware of them and easier to defend. You can't protect what you don't understand. Ori showed me that."

They add, "I find it... Impressive, that the Light feels so confident in such emotion, that they leave it out in the open for all to enjoy, because they know they can trust those others with it- and in their abilities to protect it when the time comes."

At that he stays silent but eventually the tension in his shoulders dissipate, "so you... Trust me? Even after all I did to you as Void Gear?"

Yoruhua nods, "of course I do, besides, you didn't hurt me- I was only trapped inside. I got to see tons of interesting things with you. You even freed me." A mischievous smirk creeps on his face as he reaches over to ruffle his hair.

"H-Hey! Knock it off!" He whines.

They laugh, "sorry, I couldn't help myself. You're sweet, even if you are a punk most of the time."

He light heartedly pushes her hand away, "yeah whatever, you deserve it for dragging me behind you everywhere, it's only fair."

"dragging you? We're bonding! This is like... Those family roadtrip Lights take all the time! I'm building your character!"

"You kidnapped me!"

"Same thing!"

While the two bickered, neither of them noticed the sweeter scent shift in the air, incense mixing with palm oil to create a more neutral, delicate sandalwood.

#kh #kingdom hearts #kh oc #kh vanitas #kh fanfic #starry stories #they came from outer space! #Yoruhua inside: man u just wanna eat my paste but im SO good at this big sister job #meanwhile Vanitas is just like: fuck wait how do i change how i smell i can't believe ive been smelling RANK this entire time-- #also Yoru: i refuse to tell you i also smelled rank before avoiding the question! #she smells like cacao and copal for the most part btw. i hc that is smells worse or more intense depending on the emotions #but it doesn't outright change without outside influence or mixing witb another person's scent #ig it could be considered a pheromone? but i dont want references to a b o..... #meanwhile Vanitas smells like burnt palm treas/charcoal and blood. and usual darkness usually smells rotten #its kinda based on personality and origin #but all darkness smells smokey burnt or cooked in some way. imo. with a few exceptions #which is ironic considering they're also usually cold to the touch (Vanitas not included bc hes technically human not a true homunculus) #like Yoru #had a whole other bit about shapeshifting but it got sad so i cut it out #but let if be known there are big differences between Humans and Homunculi and Vanitas is like. in the middle or human with Homunculi trait #he just missed out on the bigger size and complete shapeshifting/mimicry side still debating #if he should get a monster form like Yoru tho #he probably can shapeshift into his unverse tho! Yoruhua can't. #debating over whether or not they can also summon unversed to some degree since Homunculi are very emotion based. but we'll see #anyways #ill be back w cute flood vanitas and monster Yoru at a later date #hopefully

[vitamin-zeeth]

Finn. Finn. Fuck you Finn. Idgaf what she said to you that was uncalled for and out of fucking line. Yeah she's mean yeah she's a bitch but wow you can't fucking do that.

#for context santanas been kinda harassing finn for a bit cause theyre on rival glee clubs now and she went to try and apologise #and failed miserably and ended up just being really mean and roasting him to hell again #and she goes to walk away. gets like 3 metres down the hall. and he goes hey santana why dont you just come out of the closet #finn. what the fuck. im going to kill you. #not even just cause im a santana stan. that's fucking despicable dont do that idk if he actually knows or not #but she is so fucking insecure about that and its an entirely off limits thing to say LOUDLY IN THE MIDDLE #OF A CROWDED #HALLWAY #WHAT THE SHITTTTT #thats what you missed on zeeth

[gibbearish]

am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes

#that being said. pressurized cabins drive me insane a little bit #and also it gives you pretty intense sea legs for a While #like. the ones from the first trip hadnt gone away by the return one. so. might be stuck with that for a few days #we shall see #also ajr live fucks severely #the albums were already incredible but that was a goddamn religious experience #like. idk the way i think abt it is theyre more djs than a regular band esp w their performance showing the making of way less sad #like their music is very electronic‚ theyre making mixes of their own sound effects more than singing in one go #so like. the vocals were a teeensy bit rough at times #notably times it has taken me Literally Hundreds Of Hours Practice to be able to consistently sing along with #and times ive found its literally physically impossible to like. no matter what #idc how big your lungs are‚ there is no human on earth who can do that final run of karma in one breath #much less to An Entire Stadium After An Hour Of Jumping And Dancing And Singing Loud As Fuck #so like i dont blame them for that‚ you dont go to live shows expecting it to be 100% perfect anyways jwbdjsbfksb #the trumpet however. well she was certainly playing sometimes. and was very enthusiastic about her flares. #however. in most of their songs they use midi trumpets to my ear at least #meaning she was likely an addition specifically for live performances and in my personal band kid opinion #prooobably was not in any of the like. higher tier bands? idk just. a lot of the mistakes she was making were hitting as stuff that got #taught out of us the instant we joined any band beyond regular concert #so i would guess she was probably just like. a friend who happened to play trumpet in high school or maybe even just middle school #and they knew that the trumpet parts in their pieces were big and distinct enough that like they /had/ to get a live player #and just kinda. didnt anticipate the audition -> performance gap #like. her tone was really fried the whole time like she was playing as hard as possible #which. she was mic'd. have the sound guy turn her up. #the way they did it made it sound like she was using a mute but not. like she only got the bad parts of a mute from it yknow #her tempo and timing were. bad. theres no nice way to put that one it just Was Bad‚ like the trumpet runs in ajr songs arent. complicated #like. quite literally if you handed me the sheet music right now i would have it down perfect in a week at absolute most #and better than that player on sightread. like. we did so many sightreading drills. #like ill share my band kid creds if anyone cares but i need to emphasize this isnt me being braggy like. they genuinely just arent hard #fuck im out of tags. w/e i think only like one of yall also listens to them anyways so i can leave it there

[milo-is-rambling]

Today is good I think. My brain isn’t fully happy my body isn’t fully happy but I’m treating myself kindly anyways

#I hate you chemical imbalance in my brain everything is going so incredible and I’m still not happy I’m only content #I picked up weed went for a drive hung out with my mom swam in the pool sat in the sun took a warm shower got high #I think I might journal or read for a bit maybe do a face mask while I read and smoke #watching Rick and morty also counts as self care I think. season three specifically is self care. I know pretty much all the words I’m just #mouthing along the entire epsidoe it’s heavenly #I think I might paint my nails too hmm am I feeling masculine enough to present fem recently. thank you buzzcut I love you buzzcut #I also did my eyeliner today and wore my cute earrings #did I post pocket joe on my dash. I think I forgot him there and he’s gonna be in the car all weekend in an airport parking lot lmao whoops #sorry pocket joe. I’m watching pickle rick epsidoe it’s so good. it’s beautiful out today even tho it’s sunny and I don’t think I’m burnt so #that’s incredible and then also when I took my warm shower I used my body scrub I haven’t used in like months and now my arms and legs feel #super soft it’s fantastic I am in a good mood today I just have to think really hard to actually feel it bc I have a headache and cramps #(still. not. fucking. bleeding. ANGRY.) #and I’m still sad about my middle school teacher dieing but I’m trying not to think about it so it’s fine

[abyssal-luka]

that reminds me, have you ever seen how weird they got about stimboards on tiktok? fucking wild

#luka 🦐 #bf who cares (more than me) aboutt this topic take it away: #first of all stimboards don't make sense in a video format #which is why many people started complaining that stimboards don't even follow their theme #tumblr stimboards are really just gifsets of whatever visual stims a person want to see often linked to a specific aesthetic character etc #this works on tumblr bc you can put it in a 3x3 grid the very middle being a picture of your theme to tie it all together #or just another gif if you didn't have a theme #ofc it doesn't 'fit the theme' you're consuming it in an inferior way #second - people started making ''unsafe'' stimboards (with jumpscares and possibly paranoia-inducing statements) #(or something I've never seen any) #this was only really a problem because people were being disingenuous about it and labeling them as 'safe /srs' #side note: do not fucking misuse tone tags on purpose that defeats the entire point you asshole #which actually did spawn a debate about whether it was okay to misuse tone tags as part of the joke/whatever #it's not. ty for coming to my ted talk #so then for a bit we had people posting 'unsafe' stimboards and labeling them safe and deleting any comments correcting that #it got to the point where people came up with heart colour emoji codes to sneakily say whether it was actually safe or not #even now there's a lot of stimboards on tiktok with a 'not babying' disclaimer #bc I guess someone decided stimboards are babying autistic people (and decided that for every autistic person ever ofc [sarcastic]) #anyway the whole thing is bonkers #moral or the story stay away from tiktok #: thank you for that #any typos are *not* being fixed because we are *not* typing all that again

[blujayonthewing]

you know what, another good reason to have a folding/ camping kitchen knife is that I could bring it with me when I'm going to someone else's house where I might want to help in the kitchen and would otherwise have to use their terrible knives

#casually starts post in the middle of a thought I haven't verbalized yet to literally anyone #I'm not actually a Knife Weirdo but I am not entirely normal about them either it must be said #but also over the course of many years I have discovered in my adult life that my mom is Afraid of sharp knives #I was cutting limes for gin and tonics at her husband's birthday party this summer and fighting for my FUCKING LIFE. #I don't remember why I didn't have a pocket knife on me at least?? very unlike me? but they're a bit annoying for kitchen prep anyway #so like. I would probably not buy a folding santoku FOR this. but if I owned one. I would also use it for this #like 'oh no I'm helping in my friend's kitchen and apparently I'm the kind of adult with Opinions about knives I like using' is one thing #'I am definitely definitely definitely going to slice my hand open trying to use this shitty knife' is another :') #about me

[rizardofether]

Saw my friends doing this FR lair census thing and of course I had to do one too cause I love statistics and graphs.

Total of 200 of my dragons. Long post of graphics and my ramblings below:

Iridescent and shimmer sound about right for favourites figured ghost would be up there too but didn't think it would be number one.

For primaries: iridescent is on 40 of my dragons. Second place goes to poison with just 15 dragons with third place being starmap at 12.

For secondaries: shimmer is number one with 45 dragons having it. Second place is bee with 24 dragons. Third is spinner at 17.

For tertiaries: ghost is number one with 28 dragons. Second is capsule with 24. Third goes to glimmer with 21 dragons.

For colours obsidian sure is popular, it's popular on the site overall after all. 39 dragons. Second place colour is white at 24. Third one goes to midnight with 21 dragons. Black white and purple also for some reason. Surprised with midnight. Green comes in only at fourth with seafoam being on 13 dragons. There are multiple other dragons tied at fifth at 10 dragons each, several being green shades though.

Next dragon flights in my lair. Wind and nature being the biggest was no surprise, though surprised I have more nature than wind, though I suppose I haven't gotten as many dragons lately than when I was back in nature so I guess that makes sense.

The runner ups of ice, light & lightning having the most after them makes sense as well, given they're the flights I've been in besides the two green ones. Shadow is surprisingly low for my first flight but I suppose I got rid of most of my old dragons from back then.

As for breeds it's about what I expected. My favourite modern breeds: wildclaws, skydancers and coatls being up there, imperials are quite a bit lower than I'd expected I guess I just don't have as many even though I like them.

I have a large amount of pearlcatchers despite not liking them that much due to somehow ending with several breeding pairs consisting of atleast one pearlcatcher and I sometimes keep their hatchlings for myself.

I like aberrations, veilspun and aethers a lot but I just haven't been getting as many dragons as back in the day so I haven't gotten that many of these breeds.

The gender leaning more towards male was no surprise. I definitely prefer male characters over female characters, though with these dragons it doesn't matter that much so they're not completely outnumbered. 121 male dragos and 79 female dragons.

It seems I was most active getting dragons in 2018. That would have been a year after I returned to FR in 2017 after taking a break soon after I started back in 2015. It's leading by such a huge margin though, wow. 91 dragons from 2018 while I got 21 in 2017 and 20 in 2021. Since I didn't play in 2016 I only got 2 dragons from that year, I just happened to buy two several year old dragons within the last couple years. Needed their specific colours for projects and they happened to be the ones that fit.

Other observations:

A pic of some of my front page dragons. The green colours do surface here and there. I was expecting more green, though I suppose it makes sense, as I have taken green in as part of my identity in just the couple last years while I've been playing FR for twice as long.

This is the colours of the dragons I've sealed in my hibernal den. It seems I have a pattern for dragons who I've deemed my least favourites..

Fun look at my clan's leader pair and its hatchlings I kept. I kept one for almost all the flights I had been in, except shadow (since I properly made my clan only after moving to nature), ice (for some reason?) and wind (I had stopped breeding the pair by then)

Looking at the colours of triplets from the same nest. It's wild how their colours settled so perfectly despite the huge colour range difference in their parents. This is why I specifically kept them.

Spotted that 3 of my primal collection dragons were hatched on the same day. Must have been a good day for primals.

And lastly part of what contributed to the amount of obsidian dragons. The brief amount of time when I really wanted a bunch of obsidian primary dragons for some reason.

#fr #flight rising #lair census #i fucking love statistics #so much fun filling this out and looking at it #i cheated a little bit and put in the future stats for one project that's still in the middle of being entirely changed #well it'll end up looking like that so i figured i might as well #also looking at my 1 singular basic gene #found the perfect dragon for my sona at the time in 2015 but the tertiary was a bad colour so i kept it as basic #always gotta gene my dragons no basics otherwise

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

me: i will write today me: did not write today

#just need to get chapter 2 done and then the rest is just fill in the blanks #i just have a fucking GAP where chapter 2 should be #and it should be like #have all the things that make the rest explainanable #bc im in my head #i forget what i havent said out loud yet #it's all my headcanons you know #so im just assuming everyone knows everything that i know about everything thats happening #and they dont if i dont write it down #but i have to write it down at the rigth place or the timeline doesnt make sense #which i think will not make sense anyway but im not smart enough to fix it #i have the entire puzzle laid out except theres one bit in the middle thats just sky #all blue #and i just have to fill that #thats all #but i cant just slam the pieces in with force #bc it will look fine #but it wont be correct #and it will be bad in the rest of the chapters then #which i think it will be anyway bc i have No organisational brain At All #sigh