#not tlt

[none-house-left-grief]

can i say that as a butch lesbian seeing so many people turning a butch character into a trans man or giving her top surgery feels very invalidating its like people connect being a masculine woman with being a man and it's not a good feeling. i know its not done to hurt me or women like me but y'know. why aren't as many people turning non butch characters into trans men? y'know what im saying? we're not the same thing

Hey, fellow butch here. I personally like to see and draw Gideon with top scars because I myself have chest dysphoria and it feels good to see something I want for myself in a character I already feel really connected with. I understand the feeling of frustration when people characterize or see characters in a different way that just doesn't resonate with you, but personally, I haven't seen a single instance of people making Gideon a trans man specifically. Trans man is not the same as transmasculine, which a lot of butches identify as/with.

I don't understand the purpose of sending me an ask like this. Are asking me not to draw or reblog art of Gideon as transmasc? Are you just venting out a frustration you have? In either case, just go touch grass. I'm not your dad, I'm just some guy with a blog and like 2000 followers. I don't want to come off as mean but you are responsible for curating your online space and for regulating your own thoughts and emotions. I won't tell you not to be upset but I will say this: I have never seen a character in popular media that has top scars and is also butch. I like seeing people do this because it is a representation I simply just don't get. It's okay not to like it or agree but you need to understand that people do it for a reason. It's not to invalidate you and your identity, but to make themselves feel seen.

Btw, cis women can get top surgery too. It's not specifically about making butches into men (which feels a little TERF-adjacent to say ngl), it's that many butches (who are by nature gender non-conforming) do irl get top surgery (and HRT, bottom surgery, etc). A lot of us use masculine names, pronouns, etc, but that doesn't mean we're trans men. That also doesn't mean if you do feel connected to womanhood, feel at home in your own body, or are in general the more normative cis butch that you're not a real butch. Groups aren't monoliths and butches are very diverse and unique. Nobody can tell you who you are or what to do with your own body, so it feels unrealistic to tell others what to do in a similar regard (not to mention Gideon is not real so it literally doesn't matter)

#not tlt #asks #anon #transmasc gideon nav #gideon nav

[cow-friends]

They're afraid because we exist. There's nothing we did to provoke their fear other than exist. There's nothing we can do to earn their approval except stop existing, so we can either die like they want, or laugh at their cowardice and go on with our lives.

A reminder for when assimilation tempts, by NK Jemisim in The Stone Sky.

#the stone sky #the fifth season #nk jemisin #assimilation #not tlt

[chekhovs-tantrum]

So lot of us really strive to be the kind of person who honors everyone (even people we haven’t met, even people who aren’t like us) with the decency and respect that humans deserve. 

And statistically, it's really unlikely that those billionaires in the capsule strive to see us the same way. When you're that privileged, you lose touch. It literally has to happen in order to stay that privileged. The CEO at least has demonstrated his “money over humans” values in uncountable ways, and the rest of them are of a social class that often enforces and justifies inequity in the name of staying at the top of the pyramid. I really struggle to regard people with that empathy if they’ve demonstrated a callousness towards others’ humanity, because giving the benefit of the doubt and pouring empathy into adults who won't return it just results in them taking advantage of that empathy.

(and I don’t want to treat all members of a class as homogenous either! I will gladly eat my words if it comes out that someone onboard is like, secretly paying off queer disabled folks’ eviction GoFundMes or something. Maybe their response to children in border camps is "how horrifying" and not "what a great deterrent to immigration." I do expect a bland posthumous PR campaign but that’s a post for another day).

Yes, it’s an awful way to die. And so are the hundreds of ways that you and I are going to die, because of the inequity that these guys likely uphold. I really genuinely want to be kind and to give people the benefit of the doubt — but it seems like that kindness and patience are never reciprocated, and only benefit the already-powerful.

At the end of the day there are no Wrong Feelings, so I’m here with one foot on either side of the fence having lots of cringing at the horror, and a lot of schadenfreude, and then guilt at the schadenfreude, and then resentment at the guilt, rinse and repeat.

#I hear the “oh but they're humans” from the left re: billonaires; and I NEVER hear it from relatives on the Christian right about POC #oceangate #current events #titanic submarine #titan submersible #tourism #billionaires #capitalism #titanic #not tlt

[wifegideonnav]

so a couple weeks ago I got one of those anatomically dubious skeletons from target. this one was in the shape of a bird and had movable wings and it looked dope as hell sitting in the hall outside my apartment with my other decorations.

alas, a few days ago, someone STOLE my bone bird. i live in student housing, everyone’s drunk all the time (or that’s what it seems like anyway) and I presume someone was walking down the hall and thought it would be hilarious to snatch it. i put up a sign asking people to bring it back :( without much hope

HOWEVER. the heartbreak I feel is honestly outweighed by my delight at peoples reactions as they walk by my sign. like I’m in here just chilling and people are outside my door yelling in outrage about my missing bird. it’s happened at least 4 times now.

#op #not tlt

[valancietrinit]

i wrote blue eye samurai (mizu/taigen) fic whoops

#val og posts #val writes fic #link #blue eye samurai #bes #not tlt

[armofianthe]

Transcript of Samantha Shannon in conversation with Saara El-Arifi, A Day of Fallen Night post audiobook interview (Major spoilers for ADOFN)

I finally managed to finish the transcript, it was a lot of effort lol. I highly recommended reading it if you have read ADOFN, but not listened to audiobook. Samantha goes over most of the significant characters' endings, the choices she made, and the inspiration behind them.

She also goes over world building, themes, amd etymology, as well as hints for future books, and much more.

#not tlt #the roots of chaos #roots of chaos #adofn #a day of fallen night #the priory of the orange tree #tpotot #samantha shannon #saara el arifi #bookblr

[frontlinebicepsoftheninth]

I saw you tagged killing eve in the 'worst series finale' poll - how *does* it end? I watched the first two seasons and then lost interest. (also I hope you're having a good day!)

first of all thank you i am and i hope you are too!!

but alright here we go ⚠️⚠️ MAJOR SPOILER WARNING MAJOR SPOILER WARNING ⚠️⚠️ for anyone who does want to watch for themselves bc tbh the first few seasons are excellent but i honestly don't know if i can recommend them anymore in good faith after knowing where it all ends up

so okay. you know how the whole crux of the show is this intense psychosexual relationship between eve and villanelle. and how there's an obvious romantic tension between them. well from what i remember (cause it's been a while) they started actually working together in season 3, but then because they realized they make each other worse they had this whole dramatic moment where they walked away from each other on a bridge and weren't supposed to look back but of course they both did turn around at the last second and then the season ends.

flash forward to season 4 and you can tell time has passed and they aren't working together and it's implied there was some big falling out and we have no idea what it is. eve is just annoyed and done with villanelle and villanelle is like trying to prove she's not a bad person and goes to church and stuff and actually that plot was extremely hilarious and she imagined up a drag jesus version of herself for advice and they were acting like exes and it was playing into the whole comedic surrealism aspect of the show really well. but after the first few episodes it just kinda fell apart like i just remember feeling lost all season and not understanding where we were going and this is definitely due to the changing showrunners (they should have just kept pwb for the whole thing!!!!) but they kept adding new characters out of nowhere, some of which were really well done but then we were following plots that were thrown in randomly and it was just a bit of a mess.

but eventually by the LITERAL SERIES FINALE eve and villanelle have both given in to the fact that they enjoy being in each other's company as the worst versions of themselves (which is honestly such a fun direction to go that i really enjoyed especially for a sapphic pairing). and after they've been apart for a vast majority of the season finally they have this good banter going and it's all domestic and then there's a scene where they're walking down an empty road together and this romantic music comes in. and they finally literally actually have The Moment. like they had kissed before in the previous season but not in an explicitly romantic way, they were physically fighting each other on a public bus and eve kissed villanelle to throw her off before headbutting her (SO GRIDDLEHARK OF THEM THAT SCENE IS ACTUALLY SO GOOD) anyways. villanelle kisses eve on the cheek and then eve stares at her and grabs her and they make out for a solid FORTY-FIVE SECONDS. it was so intense and they're kissing as they're stumbling down the road and they run back to the camper van they were travelling in and it's for sure implied that they have sex in there. so everyone was like oh my fucking god they actually did it. like this is where the show was always going, it's a whole I Can Make You Worse thing where both people were like "fuck it i'll be worse then" and gave in to the tension that had been building for years not just within the plot but FOR VIEWERS SINCE 2018.

so i don't exactly remember what happens next but the whole season they've been trying to kill The Twelve which was the assassin group in charge of villanelle, and we find out carolyn was a founding member actually, and i will be honest that plot was always confusing to me but iirc she wasn't with them anymore. so eve and villanelle infiltrate this wedding party boat that's a cover for a meeting of The Twelve (this is like the last 10 minutes of the show now) and they kiss again and there's a scene where it's like they're indirectly talking to each other through the wedding speech that eve somehow ends up giving and that's so romantic too and then villanelle slinks off, finds the meeting, and murders everyone. so yay the protagonists are together finally and villanelle killed her abusers and they are finally in happy gay love. then out of fucking nowhere as they're standing outside on the boat villanelle starts to get shot at. (this is literally the last five minutes of the entire show now) and she falls into the river or maybe jumps in to get away i don't remember and she's still getting shot and eve is swimming to try to catch her. and it's all this dramatic slow-mo beautifully shot stuff that's like horrible in context cause the blood is blooming in the water and eve can't reach villanelle and they do a whole creation of adam hand reach before villanelle slips into the depths.

so literally eve had just thrown away any chance at a normal life to embrace the side of her that loves violence and loves villanelle so they could spend the rest of their life together and that was such a slay. and then she loses villanelle which like, if they wanted a tragic ending it would have been kinder to kill them both, it's so much fucking worse to leave eve spending the rest of her life mourning the one person who understood her and let her give in to her carnal desires. and it is directly after letting the two queer characters finally achieve happiness that one of them is killed off which is the DEFINITION of the bury your gays/dead lesbian syndrome tropes, there have been literal academic papers written on how the phenomenon is like a punishment for queer joy etc etc. this shit has been in the discourse for decades and they fell dead center into the trope which is just so disappointing because at the start ke was such a unique story and one of the first mainstream shows that embraced morally gray queer characters in a way that wasn't homophobic.

oh! and guess who shot villanelle? carolyn!!!! and it was still NEVER CLEAR WHY! she worked for MI6 now so it being in revenge of The Twelve didn't really add up, some people thought she wanted to kill villanelle as like a prize for MI6, it was kind of implied that konstantin told her in this note he spent his last breaths writing (yeah he also died which was the saddest tbh) that villanelle had killed carolyn's son kenny (this was a major plot point of season 3 and carolyn was trying to get revenge, he fell off a building under mysterious circumstances) but that made no sense because it was implied to be konstantin since he was on the roof with kenny and also villanelle was literally in fucking spain or something the episode when it happened.

like i get it. this is a tragic show. people die every episode. but from a writing standpoint it makes absolutely zero fucking sense to kill off one of the two main characters of your show, in the last five minutes of the show, after finally cashing in on your flagship queer romance between them, and leaving the motivation for killing her completely ambiguous.

anyways i'm so sorry that ended up this long jesus christ but tldr: killing eve ends in the worst bury your gays i have ever seen after a season that didn't even have good plot or pacing

#i. really did not think i was going to write an essay here but apparently a year later i still have lingering feelings over this lol #thank you so much for the ask though i love a chance to rant and this was so fun haha #killing eve spoilers #killing eve #ke #ke spoilers #not tlt #ask #OH AND I DON'T THINK WE EVER FOUND OUT EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED WITH THEM BETWEEN THE SEASONS EITHER?? maybe i just forgot though

[harrowfuckinghark]

y’all I’m suffering rn. I’ve got a head cold, I got laid off from my job I literally moved across the country to do (right after I qualified for benefits too) the day before my bday, I have mice in my apartment, and getting healthcare in a new state is a fucking nightmare (I’ve literally been without healthcare for over six months which means I’ve been off my meds for ages), and I can’t even apply for unemployment because I make “too much” to qualify. thank you for listening to my rant.

#personal #not tlt #vent post #do not reblog #i may delete this later #send good vibes my way plz

[mercymornpropaganda]

Dropping this again because we really need help <3

https://gofund.me/0d50051e

If y’all are able to donate to my gofundme that would be incredible, we have officially lost our place. We were able to get a hotel for Friday and Saturday thanks to a wonderful friend who got us an employee rate for two nights. Thank goodness the air quality has improved. We have a friend who is letting us crash on their couch when they can, but it’s a non-permanent and a “sometimes” solution.  We currently have $213 left of our GoFundMe budget, after paying for the hotel and a few necessities like garbage bags, paper plates, the occasional food, but we’ve mostly been spending our own money on food. From this point forward we aren’t touching our GoFundMe budget. Between what we are putting into savings and what we have from GoFundMe, we have been able to save $500 this month. That is... kinda scary. We have so many places with leases that start in August lined up, and $500 is not enough to pay for first months rent/security deposit anywhere. 

I’m just trying to meet this goal by August so I can go to a landlord with the bare minimum, y’all. Anything helps <3 Please share!

Thank You ^_^

Max

#homeless #mutual aid #queer mutual aid #trans mutual aid #not tlt #nottlt #maxolotlpersonal #please donate #please reblog #please share

[ekp0133f]

Svetlana's right. We all could be choosing no choices whatsoever. And I will! Or won't. Who knows, really.

#chess the musical #svetlana sergievskaya #Not fallen London #not tlt #Someone Else's Story

[none-house-left-grief]

Glad to see everyone is in agreement about this post lmao

#also gideon would be messi because Ronaldo is (‘allegedly’) a disgusting piece of shit #afaik messi has only done like. tax evasion or whatever so like slay #he is argentinian tho so :/ #nobody’s perfect #not tlt #kinda

[nav-ix]

listening to mabel podcast when anna was narrating was like dang these messages are getting kinda personal for a girl you've never met... and then u get to mabel's part and it's like OH. oh okay so you're both so unhinged and ur made for each other ok

#mabelpod #mabel #not tlt

[datashade]

Augustine and Mercymorn

#tlt shitposting #tlt shitpost #not tlt

[wifegideonnav]

playing skyrim the normal way and becoming the head of every organization is already funny but it becomes hilarious when you’re ignoring the main quest and no one knows you’re dragonborn. like you have to imagine eventually the npcs are like oh goddamnit the random guy who’s already taken over three guilds wants to join up. do we make her our leader now or? also. why does the arch-mage of the college of winterhold want to become a thief. seems like they’re already pretty set up just like, within society

#op #not tlt #tes #Skyrim

[valancietrinit]

i really will just see a fucked up couple in media & say "anybody gonna write a fic where they have weird emotional sex & dont talk abt it?" & then not wait for an answer

#val og posts #wip posting #not tlt

[armofianthe]

Damsels Undistressed- An Essay by Samantha Shannon

My attempt at archiving the essay as the original entry in Boundless Magazine no longer exists. A very interesting read, Samantha goes deep into the history of Saint George and the Dragon, her feelings towards it and retellings, and her inspirations for Priory.

Would highly recommend reading if you like The Priory of the Orange Tree.

#not tlt #the priory of the orange tree #tpotot #the roots of chaos #roots of chaos #a day of fallen night #adofn #saint george and the dragon #mythology retellings #fantasy