#ok but it was also sort of sad

[mintjeru]

(not ship)

the way i was like “don’t expect much art from me for a while!” and then go and do something like this 😐

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[Image description: A four page comic detailing Kaeya’s Hidden Strife event dialogue with Adelinde and his strained relationship with Diluc.

A box on the first page states, “Hidden Strife event final day”. Adelinde explains with her head bowed politely, “I’m sorry, Captain Kaeya, but the Dawn Winery is having a fire safety inspection today. You’ll have to come back another day.” Kaeya averts his eyes with a concerned expression.

On the second page, Kaeya forces a smile. He starts: “Haha... seriously, shouldn’t you at least ask me to stay for din- -ner?”. He sees something in the distance and his eyes widen in shock.

The third page depicts Aether and Paimon running out of the manor. “Come on!” Paimon exclaims. “Diluc is waiting for us at Falcon Coast!” Kaeya and Adelinde can be seen in the background.

The fourth page starts with a flashback to a scene in Angel’s Share during Diluc’s Noctua: Chapter 1 story quest. Kaeya recalls telling him, “I feel strangely comforted by the fact that you now have an assistant, Diluc.” “I just wish,” he thinks to himself, “it could have been me standing by your side again.” At the bottom of the page, a young Diluc and Kaeya dressed in their Knights of Favonius uniforms laugh together. Kaeya has a hand on Diluc’s shoulder. Diluc has an arm slung over Kaeya’s shoulder and bends over slightly as he laughs.]

#kaeya #diluc #ragbros #aether #paimon #genshin impact #genshin #fanart #myart #comic #the whole time i was making this i was like 'why do i draw stuff that makes me sad' #so now i get to subject all of you to ragbros angst #the parallel between diluc asking the traveler to stay for dinner vs. kaeya not even getting an offer from adelinde #and the fact that kaeya was one step behind in knowing where diluc was whereas we got to meet him and tag along to falcon coast #judging from the letters they do have some sort of working relationship but man. it's very stiff and limited #they make me Really Sad ok #struggled a bit drawing kaeya's expressions #i hope i managed to convey the emotions well enough #also now taking ragbros fic recs bc i read glacial heart a while back and it was so good (cried my eyes out)

[sapphire-drawings]

Sorry to bother you Sapphire but I came upon a song that gave me MAJOR Triumphet Wilson aka Shadow King Wilson vibes! It is called MIRABEL'S VILLAIN SONG - We Don't Talk About Bruno | ANIMATIC | Disneys Encanto by Lydia the Bard. I can just SEE Wilson as Mirabel singing this to the other survivors, Maxwell and Charlie! You should give it a listen! It is pretty good!

It's never too late to reply!! Isn't that right whoever asked this LAST JULY!!!!?

I apologize but also LOOK I DREW TRIUMPHANT WILSON AGAIN! HE'S SO COOL AND I LOVE DRAWING MY DST SHIT AGAIN

And yeah, I can see the T.Wilson vibes with the song

#I've been trying to do convention stuff. ok? Also I sort of burnt out and/or got kinda sad. Pick your poison #dst wilson #triumphant skins #dont starve together #dont starve #chafi replies #one day I'll learn to reply faster but for now I got a lot to doodle lmao #KEEP THEM ASKS FUCKING COMING!! #are the eyes spooky enough??? I'm scared of those type of pictures but I also want to make them myself #Just imagine Charlie showing those big eyes of her~

[deus-ex-mona]

starting the year ✨wrong✨

#(this is about work ok. long rant in the tags bc auauauauauauauuauauauauauauauaaaaaaaa) #i’ve worked for just t h r e e (3!!!!) days this year and i think im already all burned out lmao #first i was stuck doing 2 workstations bc this freakin’ b o z o of a coworker decided to take the week off without prior notice #and *t h e n* the internal components of one of said workstations kicked the bucket and was only replaced today. sads. #rip to our wasted time and futile fixing efforts though. flashtag wetried #that’s not all t h o u g h i was told that i have to jump to the other work shift bc one of my coworkers is resigning #b u t the thing is. all of the other dudes in that shift are from [insert bordering country] and always speak in their nation’s language #so i won’t be able to communicate well with them for the most part ​esp s o bs #and if [insert country here] has a national holiday and a l l of them decide to take the day off.. #well. um. ahahahaha. im ✨screwed✨ #(but speaking of taking the day off… one of said guys on that shift has an approved leave for cny. which is funny bc he’s not even chinese) #(rips if the actual other chinese dude on that team has his leave request rejected bc of that guy lol. happy cny to him ig) #a n d also i was made to (sorta) teach these two new coworkers (of sorts) the workstation i’m at for the week #b u t the thing is. i do everything here by left (didn’t receive formal training either lmao sadge) #and i also couldn’t explain anything well in general bc it seems like my flow of thoughts can’t streamline itself ig #so i think i confused the poor guys more than anything. but like. why me??????? aaaauauaaaaaaaaaa #idk why one of them came back for more ‘education’ from me thoughhhhh #i’ve tried teaching ‘em stuff at another workstation before this and my feedback was ‘wait slow down you talk too fast’ s o o o o . #ig i’ll have to guide them though again in the morning though. sighs. this wasnt in my job description :( #speaking of job descriptions though… this h e l l a annoying guy no one likes who resigned a few months ago (to much rejoicing)… #is!!!!! coming!!!! back!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #w h y. like. w h y. why is he so attached to this company he l l o? why is our manager so attached to him helloooooooo????? why him??????? #our workloads literally t r i p l e when he’s around bc he’s just the way he is. auauauauauauauauaaaaaaaaaaaa #aaaaaaaaaaa i dont wanna work aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #science industry (derogatory) questionable laboratory conditions (derogatory) #felt cute; thought about retiring early idk

[alukaforyou]

do we like the backlight or

#i finally finished this sort of : | #i only had to paint the clothes but idk y it was so hard lol also i used ref for it but #it looks kinda weird the folds : | ok.. maybe i shouldve winged it like i always do LOL #and the way i harvested the bg from an older pic i made for a zine rip lol cuz i dont have time to draw a bg rn 😵‍💫 #honestly im fine w white bgs but i put Something there so thats a win #i looked at this too long it looks weird to me :( idk how to fix the face :( sad #noah fence but i cant even tag this as.. u kno 🤣 #cuz i feel like i draw him sooo far removed from canon 😬 so im like low key embarassed 😳 #idk hes a prince to ME ✊😔 im gonna try to finish up the #halloween mads from. so long ago. theres not much left to be done there #and the bgs gonna be white sorry LOL #alulu art

[kimjiwoong]

so

#i was so apologetic for cancelling and he was so understanding but i must have looked so disappointed lmai #lmao* #because he got to my house and went why do u look so sad and laughed and he sort of looked at me and he just went #hope this makes u feel better and not worse #and he just kissed me #it was yeah #anyways dkdjdjdjdjdj we can't make it work this week and i think he can't make it work on the weekend because he's not going to be #in the city but #it's ok #im happy anyways #rose.txt #im glad i cancelled anyways because i had a full on migraine w aura so like what's the point #had to step out of the classroom at one point #also by it was yeah i mean i died and came back to life and lost it

[13eyond13]

.

#idk what it is about working at a medical office but it's making me like tumblr less? #maybe because you see all sorts of issues all day long and then #you log onto tumblr and see myriad complaints often ranging from reasonable to absurd or whiny af #idk I think it just gives me a broader sense of what people are dealing with on average to be fielding so many health issues daily and #so a different perspective on stuff and also it shows me #how incredibly common stuff like struggling with anxiety and depression is like #Sososo common especially amongst the younger crowd #which is both sad and kinda reassuring somehow because it's like #Ok so you're not weird if you ever feel like that and you're not alone in it either #But also idk I just feel less like spending time on here in my spare time now maybe because it can sometimes feel like a place to be angry #?? Idk if that makes sense but the less time I spend on here the more the angry vibes hit me as jarring when I log back on #And idk if that is actually all that beneficial for my mental health rn either sometimes I think it makes it worse instead #p

[widevibratobitch]

took a bunch of clothes to my mom's to wash them since my washing machine is still down and she said 'ill do it dw about it' and threw my favourite white top in with the colours. i no longer have a favourite white top :)

#and i cant even be mad at her because her husband is dead #lol and lmao #anyway the top is now the ugliest greyish minty colour and it looks horrible #normally i wouldnt mind. like there were two white tops and the other also got dyed and idc #but this one had a more unique idc shape? whatever you call that. and it was one of the very few crop tops #that really made me feel good about my body. like not even 'ok i guess i dont look like something that crawled out of a garbage bin' #but genuinely 'good' #and it feels so stupid to be this upset over such a small thing but i feel like ive been at the very limit for the last few days #with everyone fucking crying around me #that this genuinely feels like a tragedy to me rn lol #anyway im being nice and i keep saying its no big deal and nvm but ig you can see that im upset #so now SHE'S mad that I'M mad even tho im not even being a bitch about it im just Sad lol #kms #anyway i feel like shit and it all feels so overwhelming and to think that ill have to spend the long weekend in may here too #my dad and his gf will be at my place in wrocław going to concerts cause there's some sort of festival #all my friends will be chilling and having fun #and i cant even go to prague or vice versa because ill have to be here. having the time of my life with my mother and my grandpa #losing my mind and getting panick attacks in the bathroom lol

[thebirdandhersong]

:')

#y'all it NEARLY WORKED OUT the very beautiful boy DID have some interest #except he heard that i was religious and was sort of like ok peace out #SIGH #DANG NABBITY NAB #but also 😂😂😂 the long string of disappointments is also kind of funny #i mean between mr knight the firefly boy and this one (whom i will dub gabriel oak jr #simply because of the Vibes) things have been going great #sad but also hilarious to contemplate #alas

[emodennis]

starting a podcast "funniest moments" compilation like i am about to climb mount everest... i might not make it out alive

#i am being so dramatic but only the ppl who have made podcast compilations get it #unless its not a painstaking time sucking process for yall #then im just a baby #but hollly shit #u dont realize how slowly people talk/ tell stories until you have to listen to them over and over again #and its so hard to know the content of each clip?? like im gonna have to start putting some kind of label on them to sort them #bc it was fuckin rough with that first one #after the first one i made i was like im never doing this again #but i am COMPELLED #also this partly lil's fault #but its ok its my decision #to suffer #for like the 100 people that are gonna watch it #because my youtube videos no longer do numbers. SAD. #this is probably annoying and im probably gonna delete this #phoenix talks #also im not just “starting” ive watched to like 2/3 of all the video episodes in the last week. for like the fourth time. #i am so sick of rcg at this point #hearing their shit takes #all i want are jokes and bits and info and trivia #mainly jokes and bits bc i love to laugh <3 #which is why ive seen them all so many times #i cant help it theyre SO FUNNY #thats why im doing this #ok ill stop now

[bl00dw1tch]

the way i have absolutely no business being the way i am

#horse.txt #vent // #sort of. too high to be sad abt it im in anthropology mode and listening to music that makes me feel sexy so its fine yk #anyway i typed a whole bunch of other tags talking abt how and why i feel this way by going through a few of the events i can remember #from my childhood that Might explain why im so emotionally guarded and struggle to open up anymore. #bc i Wanted to say they all felt dumb and juvenile esp since ive actually like #made peace with most of the ppl who were involved with them #but the Anthropology mode was just tearing it all down as i typed it bc that Is just a ridiculous way to look at it no matter how you cut it #doesn't matter that nobody involved really Meant to deal that kind of harm and i dont need to hate or blame anyone in order to acknowledge #that it still just Happened. like thats a Memory already babe no do overs. #which is kind of just accidental therapy so sick. love that fir me genuinely! #but also yes theres the bitch part of me that still wants to discredit it bc acknowledging that it happened =/= Fixing My Issues #so im still at square one technically. ive just been pacing in circles on it for a while ig #EVEN WORSE that the Scale of my issues is so incredibly mundane compared to so many of the people i seem to meet. #sitting in bed crying abt not having friends for a few days in elementary school when other ppl have jojos bizarre adventure levels of Lore #i know im not technically invalid for feeling the way i do or anything but god. if it doesn't feel fucking Embarrassing to open up about😭 #its impossible NOT to feel stupid and sensitive for having these first world ass problems. And letting them hold me back #bc ppl not liking me for any reason makes me sooooooooo fucking scared So fucking scared its not even funny 😝 #at least. ppl in my Circles. im pretty ok about being assertive with randos #still some work to be done on it but its better than whatevers going on with my personal relationships rn #sincerely to my mutuals and loved ones who see this i swear to GOD i love you so so so fucking much and im so. im trying to figure out this #the stuff thats got me so distant and bad at keeping in touch. its a whole slew of feelings about how i see Myself--not yall #i double pinky promise cross my heart im extremely serious #thank you for being patient with me you mean more to me than im capable of putting into words right now #alright theres a shot of tears in the hollow of my collar bone time to wrap up this post #daily reminder that i love body hair. there's some honesty. #😎😎😎💪💪💪 #the Quaritch under the cut is just to make me feel better bc i love him and i think hes so pretty. hes like a security blanket

[variousqueerthings]

Your thoughts about kinky ace Hawkeye are GENIUS YES YES YES

look, I have an endlessly long post on ace and aromantic Hawkeye that I may eventually finish, but for now shortly:

the idea of not knowing what it is you want to ask for, and even approaching the ideas of it from the fringes is taboo (YES ALAN ALDA I WILL RUN WITH YOUR "HAWKEYE HASN'T BEEN TOPPED BY A WOMAN DESPITE ALL EVIDENCE TO WANTING SOMETHING ALONG THOSE LINES" AND DO WITH IT WHAT I LIKE)

I say "topped" and not "dommed" on purpose, because that's what I mean about not knowing what to ask for and even the fringes of the idea of it being taboo

and heck, the idea of sex without love is taboo as well -- thinking eternally about Erika shooting Hawkeye down on the marriage front as an awakening of some kind (but likewise one that doesn't have words to go along with it)

and will also run with later-seasons Hawkeye having less sex, but also less touch, and think about how touch-and-sex-and-sex-and-love-and-love-and-monogamy are so intertwined even today, so sex isn't the worst thing in the world, but the attraction is somewhat to the left of what has always been described as something innate

there's a drive for... something, but it's getting out of his head, getting rid of stress, getting into his body, and what other ways are there than sex?

and also the feelings Hawkeye has for his friends are far deeper than any feelings he might have for a respective sexual partner, but there are rules about how close you're allowed to get to your friends -- especially the married ones -- even in a place outside of Society, like the 4077th

something about touch and who is allowed to get close to him and who he wants to have close to him and the general air of "this is good enough -- it's not right, but it's not the most wrong" which imbues a lot of the story in many ways

and also something about sex as a convenient joke to shock people -- in this case taking the "when is a joke a joke" and running with it (versus "when is a joke real," which is also a continuous question with this show....)

I just think he'd enjoy subspace. I think it would be a nice place for him to be. and I think he'd like being cuddled afterwards by the right person, whom he could trust.

#hawkeye pierce #MASH #im writing MASH #MASH meta #ok so also I keep hc'ing him as really sad post-show but my OTHER place I'd see for him #is accessing ye olde queer community and discovering Things about himself #beyond where he thought he was which was comfortably bisexual-but-closeted-by-not-being-closeted #now he's having to ask questions like *oh but what do I actually like DOING with other people* #*and what other people are those people?* #which is what aroace philosophies and culture really are about (simplistic but you get me) #what sort of connections are you really looking for? and for hawkeye (and for margaret as well tbh) #fitting into neat checkboxes of monogamous romantic sex doesn't really work #unedited #rambleramble #long post #❤ anon #❤ alan alda #aromantic hawkeye #asexual hawkeye #aroace hawkeye

[daeva-agas]

I kind of like the idea of Dousuru costuming Nobukatsu with an outfit that looks like the Meme Fodder Nobunaga painting, but I just reaaaaally don't like that Mitokomon sleeveless haori (chanchanko) that they used.

So if someone told me to redesign that costume to my own preference, these are my (very biased) offerings:

A) Very Strictly Historical: Just a standard daimon hitatare, but keeping the same colour scheme. Nothing special here.

B) Going Ham With Fancy: A Noh costume style kataginu and hakama, but cut to the wearer's size instead of big and bulky. The kataginu and hakama are embroidered with fancier designs, and a patterned kosode is worn underneath.

C) Ahistorical, but Relatively Simple: Based on a suou, a samurai formal wear, with the sleeves removed to be reminiscent of a kataginu. The sleeve slits are placed on the kosode, revealing the red innermost kimono/juban (may give the impression of slash wounds, can be used for dramatic flair/symbolism). This kind of design risks inviting protests from history-conscious viewers for being "weird", although maybe creative framing and camera cuts can distract the viewers from noticing.

D) Just Messing Around Now: Based on a suikan, a nobleman's attire that's also a Noh costume staple. Tied in the kind of casual tarikubi manner, to also make it more reminiscent of kataginu. It's a combination of the B and C concepts (Noh costume + formal wear), basically. Least likely to be acceptable for a Taiga drama, is probably more suitable for a fantasy/anime type of story.

(Designed for the role of Nobukatsu, despite the colour scheme, not Nobunaga)

(I also don't really like the actor cast in the role in Dousuru TBH, and the way the character is written, but that's another story)

#my doodles #agas rambles #dousuru ieyasu #not really but sort of #kimono #costume design #my lord #I'm just frustrated at all the dramas portraying nobukatsu as dumb #Dousuru went out of their way to make Ujizane Sad and Katsuyori Heroic and shit #Casted handsome actors too #to further the uwu factor #but nobukatsu is just a pathetic bumbling fool #and this drives me mad #I was happy about katsuyori and ujizane ok #I was like ok maybe despite its flaws I could love this #but nope #This drama kind of went with this thing where the Oda folks are kinda shitty #except maybe Oichi IDK #Nobunaga was also kinda shitty towards Yasu

[yuridovewing]

I'm not sure if people on tumblr were giving them shit but it's insane how the deviantart audience for The Exile was SO rude to the author for. killing off a character and writing tragedy. And apparently insisting they were overly negative and edgy and they could rewrite it to be more wholesome and whatnot. In their Warrior Cats fancomic.

#like ok. gonna say something that makes me look like a jackass and ik that #but why are you even READING wc if you hate character death and think tragedy and sadness is shitty to include in a story #thats like. one of the features of the series. people die in this series #and about a death thats FAR more tasteful than a lot of canon deaths too like??? #also tbh people who are like ''this story is bad bc bad things happen a lot'' are exhausting #like if you dont like that sort of story personally then fine. dont read them. you dont have to do that #but talking about how stories are objectively bad if there isnt a happy ending or a cap on how many bad things are allowed to happen #to a certain character or even in the story at all? thats just obnoxious #yes some stories are escapism but thats not all they can be. sometimes theyre cathartic. sometimes theyre informative

[intergalacticaquarium]

I need ppl to follow like or rb this if u blog abt Eddie and think he's a little grubby gremlin who doesn't drink water or brush his hair I only wanna see that energy

#eddie munson #stranger things #idk eddie blogs i like are super hard to find bc i just wanna see him as a little court jester birthdy boy whos wet and sad #but then everybody keepe trying to tell me he fucks and i cannot abide by that sorry #also steddie is kinda boring imo? and so is eddie and dustin? im saying i want to follow myself again ok #also i think i mightve invented eddie and max friendship so if u have that lmk #uhhhhh #yeah idk im just very particular with him and theres just a lotta junk sorry to sort thru