#once again i am filled with love

[spacedlexi]

crying thinking about the ericson kids being like.. overly protective of clem post-amputation not because they think any less of her but because they just want to protect her the same way she protected them 😭

#im writing a short comic and its making me emotional #clem getting frustrated because she misses her independence and is desperately trying to get it back #the kids knowing shes capable but also they almost lost her once and they wont let it happen again #the kids would Never think less of her for her injury they know how terrifyingly capable she is..they just love her so much #WAAAAHHH #this is only for like the first few months At Most as she heals then all the baby-ing stops as things go back to normal #but the first weeks of her recovery are definitely filled with lots of 'oh dont worry clem i got that for you!' and its Pissing her Off #like she gets it and she loves them but also its driving her up the wall #it speaks #twdg #god i wish my friends were as brain fried about twdg as i am

[allylikethecat]

January OTP Prompts

Day six lets go! I very much considered not completing this one because I was tired and wanted to read my book but I'm very happy I forced myself to power through!

Warnings: References made to drug addiction / rehab, and declining mental health

6. Lonely

George didn’t know what day it was. He didn’t know what time it was or how much  time had passed. The sun had risen and set at least twice, sunlight streaming through the gap in the curtains, stinging his eyes. It  caused him to curl further in on himself, burying his face under the blankets as if he could bury the bone crushing loneliness he felt alone in a bed bought for two. He knew that Matty was sick, he knew that Matty was getting the help that he so desperately needed. But that didn’t mean that George wasn’t hurting too, an ache deep in his chest. The fear that somehow this was his fault, that Matty would come back, healed and whole and see just how broken, just how toxic, George himself was.

George should have been better. He should have noticed that Matty was sick, that he was getting worse, and succumbed to the thrall of addiction. But he liked it when Matty smiled, and Matty had started smiling more, things that would have sent him spiraling now rolling off his back like water off a leaf. He knew Matty had lost weight, he would have been blind not to see it, but Matty brushed him off citing the stress of tour and smiled assurances that I’m fine George, really.

George wondered if he just hadn’t wanted to see it, hadn’t wanted to disrupt the carefully balanced equilibrium that they had reached. He wondered if he was selfish, too worried about disrupting his own fragile mental health that he allowed Matty to put his life at risk. He felt like he had put Matty’s life at risk. And now here he was, making things about himself. Matty was gone, shipped off to rehab for the next who knew how many weeks were left, screaming and sobbing as Jamie herded him onto the chartered plane, begging George not to make him go, not to send him away. And now here George was, alone, laying in the bed they had picked out together, swaddled in the sheets he desperately needed to change but couldn’t bring himself to, the cotton still smelt like Matty. 

George had never done well on his own. Everyone saw Matty and assumed he was the extrovert, that he was the one that thrived off of human companionship. They didn’t see that Matty was just as content alone with a cigarette, they didn’t see that George was the one that felt as if the loneliness would kill him. He felt pathetic even thinking it, not daring to even breathe the words aloud. But he was, he was lonely. He was lonely without Matty’s slender form tucked against his side in their bed. He was lonely without Matty moving throughout their home, bumping into things, knocking things over, causing a general ruckus as he hummed to himself, always making noise, always bringing life into the now dismal space. Matty wasn’t just George’s other half, he was the one thing that kept him from feeling broken and alone. 

Day: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5

#allylikethecat #fanfiction #keep it kind #matty fic #gatty #fanfic #January OTP Prompts #Prompt Fills #Prompt fill #i dont love this one #and once again as always feel free to ignore #but im also really happy i managed to write it #because today is the first day i have truly lacked any and all creative motivation #and im really happy i pushed through #it was cold and dreary today #and i had to work and i just idk wasn't feeling it #but i wrote it anyway and i am proud of myself for that

[munamania]

don’t wanna be mean but esp now that casual is going through her tiktok renaissance (smash that like if u were there the first time) i see people being like tch… i guess THIS was just so casual to this person.. and it’s like well the thing is babe friends can just do those affectionate things i’m afraid you’ll have to communicate or respect yourself enough to not go thru that if you know it’s not for u and if you can’t do either then well yeah ig it is time for u to start crying on the internet publicly idfk what the point of this post was gonna be. basically pussy up a little..

#no i’m not for people who take advantage of esp young women. i’m refusing to automatically associate these vids #with ppl dating men i just don’t think u should use chappell for that. but anyway i digress. regardless #i just love being a contrarian. some of you could do with loosening up and not relying entirely on someone else’s attention to define ur #self worth. and maybe stop listening to little bitch baby high school music when some gives u a hug and u get too in ur head abt it #GIRL WHO HURT U CALM DOWN. #ok sorry. #i’m one to talk sure. but you know. i realize some of these ppl are even younger than me at my ripe age of 21 #but i once again feel trapped in a generation where all over the spectrum of dating people are just stupid and immature and annoying #<3 #abby talks #someone* #** i am not saying that about chappells music btw fill it in as u will

[rosicheeks]

😢

#genuinely terrified that once I’m actually comfortable dating again all the good guys will be taken and gone #I am 25 and not getting any younger #and I know I know a lot of you will be like ‘25 is still so young tho’ #and I know I keep telling myself that #but 25 isn’t the same as 18 or 20 ya know #I was watching a TikTok of this very very loving couple and it filled my heart until it broke in two #I’m so happy for them and for anyone else who has found true love #I’m just so scared I’m on a timeframe #the couple I was watching was a little older than me but still in their 20s #24 and got married and then 27 and having a kid #that’s what I thought my life would be #but nah #I’m still dealing with crippling mental issues #my hopeless romantic heart always told me that the love of my life is out there somewhere and they will wait for me #but how long are they willing to wait? #will they just give up eventually and settle on someone else? #really wish I didn’t waste years of my life in a dead end relationship 👌👌👌👌 #shut up rosie

[iiguess]

HEADCANON. Thinking about Sam getting ( or heck, even making ) people stuffed animals, especially of animals that remind her of them. But before she gives it away, she holds each one in her hands and speaks of all the hopes and dreams she has for the person—-things that she can't ever bring herself to say to their face. Especially so if the person she's gifting it to doesn't quite have a 'happy end'.

She knows it's pointless. She knows filling a plushie with wishes won't actually do anything to stop fate, much less make all those wishes come true.

But knowing how powerless she is to do anything, how little she can actually do?

Let her pretend her actions mean something, won't you?

#;; 🇹🇭🇮🇸 🇮🇸 🇼🇭🇴 🇮 🇦🇲 ( headcanon. ) #;; ᴀᴍᴏɴɢ ᴜs ( ooc. ) #;; world hopper ( main verse. ) #o|< #once again #I am filled with Sorrow(tm) over my girl #knowledge isn't always power!! #sometimes knowledge is a curse!!! #she knows so much and yet can do so /little/ #and it haunts her that she can't do more for the people she loves #I like to think she keeps a miniature version of each stuffed animal with her #(or vice versa since gifting a whole hecking plushie might be a bit much) #and whenever she gets sad about what she knows she'd fill her own version of the plushie with those same dreams and wishes #as if... refueling the one she gave them?? I guess???? #anyways it is early and I hope I'm making some sort of sense akhdlsahkahd

[kitsunegdx]

Pretty people

Thinking bout… pretty people. Just pretty, you know?

Pretty people I’ve dated and their scars and little quirks.

Pretty people I’m friends with who got smiles and voices that brighten my day.

Pretty people who got big friends groups to form a functional human being and look out for each other.

Pretty people who live in my head rent free metaphorically and literally.

I am also thinking of pretty people who just know how to appreciate small things in life to help make the world a lil happier for themselves. I don’t think they know that makes them extra pretty.

Pretty people who got eyes and don’t have eyes. Any color even it brings them all together

Pretty people who’s minds are perceiving the horrors while they act like it’s normal. Those pretty people are more common than you think.

Pretty people who got little features that culminate to make them whole be it stuff they can control like how they style their hair, to stuff they can’t, like having an extra finger.

Pretty people who aren’t people at all. Those are in my head too.

Pretty people can come in many different forms be it size, shape, voices, from a stranger on a subway to even text on a screen.

Pretty people are all around us, it’s a matter of taking in the small stuff that makes them whole.

Why are people so pretty?

Why are you so pretty?

#uh oh kit’s in love with all her friends at once again #I’m just- *sigh* it’s hard thinking about the homies and wondering if they appreciate themselves the way I see them #I have vagued a few but… man why are people so pretty? #I want to just hold them and wonder about it… #might pin this #so all my friends and mutuals can see #to ramble a bit I have friends with burn scars on their body that I find pretty- ex lovers now friends who feel not enough #in the bodies they have but it’s like- bro I just think you are so pretty I want to accent that natural beauty you have #man I wanna help my friends feel pretty in their body but alas I’m a college student #don’t tell one of them but I’m hoping that when I get my career that I can put money to the side to help her get the presentation of gender #that she wants like- I just wanna help them so much bro to see that I am out here with a heart full of love and pockets I’m working on fill- #ing to help them figure out how pretty they are #*sigh* this probably doesn’t make sense but I just think they are so pretty like- all of them #even my mutuals be pretty too with words n just hanging around like- I fucking see you bro #i’m in my feels #I’m feelin this bro #I want to like- so badly hold and hug them all like- even if you don’t like hugs I will stand to the side and give you the most approving #thumbs up I can because I fuckin love them bro they are my homies they have been with me through #thicc and thin and thick again like- AAAA #I just really love them they are my besties and like I wanna sob maybe cry a little over how much I love the #them they are just so much good people and I care for them a lot #this post doesn’t make a lot of sense but they are so good #Also pretty is the only word I can use to describe people and it means so much when I use it #it isn’t just that they are pretty they bring me joy beyond belief and I wanna cry

[merakiui]

scara smut when. - :) anon

Hopefully soon! >:D Currently, these are the fics you can expect to see in the near future:

✧ azul thought four - scheduled for 21 december. nine months of hard work can finally be posted!!! i'm very excited. i think this is the longest smut piece i've ever written.

✧ yandere!scaramouche - no posting date for this one as it's still a wip. but i've written half of it, so it could very well be posted shortly after azul thought four! since i wrote a story in which scaramouche receives therapy and gets better, i decided to write a story in which he gets progressively worse. it's set in a modern au and is written from scara's pov!

✧ chills & thrills stories - i hope to finish and post both dottore's and scaramouche's stories in the upcoming future!

✧ scara smut. there are plenty of ideas in my head. i will have to sift through all of them and decide which is best, so until then i hope the other fics can be enjoyed! :D

#genshin chit chat #:) anon #to fill the void you can expect scara thirsts will be posted #i am so in love with him <3 #and there are so many concepts i want to write with him #like scara who you online date and he is quite literally crazy for you #or a story in which you worked under scara when he was a harbinger #and when he leaves you (by some miracle) attain a harbinger position #and when you encounter scara again and he looks different and seems less hostile than usual #his feelings for you are unearthed once more hehe #or more alpha scara in omegaverse (or thoughts of the other characters in omegaverse)!! #also stalker scara!!!! #stalker scara who stalks you enough to know which love hotels you go to for your one night stands #so when he acts like your match and you don't question anything he can finally have a few hours alone with you #aaaaa i'm rambling... orz #at this point i think i should write a catalogue of scara thoughts to compile everything in one coherent post

[born-to-lose]

Missing people and regretting shit o'clock

#why did i even let it come this far. 7 fucking months and i didn't realize what was going wrong so i could have saved it #i want him back fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck #was thinking of this notebook i filled for him with memories and poetry and quotes and general mushy things and goddamn #why am i crying i just looked at my desk and i don't have the heart to put everything in a box so i don't see it every day when i wake up #i know i can't change it and it's probably over for good now after i fucked some things up extra hard but fuck do i miss him #i wish i could have done something in time before even the thought of breaking up came up #just when i thought for once things are working out for me and it was really fucking good and happy until a week before it ended #guess i just can't be happy. i never could #i was really really willing to talk things out and fix whatever needs to be fixed while staying together #not go separate ways and maybe not so maybe definitely not possibly maybe see if we can try again in the future #which we (spoiler) apparently won't and i kinda came to terms with that but i still wish there was a possibility #or at least i would have liked to know from the beginning and not spend weeks hoping for a reunion and working towards that specifically #while i seem to be the only one with that goal #idk i just wish it had been more thought through and talked about properly so there wouldn't be the misunderstandings we deal with now #and like boundaries for the first two months or so after that but it takes two i guess #disclaimer i'm not bitter or mad at anyone just sad and nostalgic. if the person in question reads this i love you ok that won't change #deleting later but now i need to go back to sleep before i kill myself on a whim #mel talks #depressed bitch posting #i know i know i know i did some shit too that wasn't great and i'm not saying i'm innocent here i'm just so depressed about the situation #it's been seven goddamn weeks it never took me this long to get over anything before

[travelbystarlight]

...

#hello i am lost in the jedi sauce #jedi survivor that is #so sorry for my quiet absence filled with just succession posting #I swear I will be normal again once I finish this game #or feral either works really #ive mostly been staying off social media as to not spoil me lol #ok cool anyway love you all

[dirt-str1der]

I literally had a dream about reading the worst fan fiction like fucking ever kiryu was just randomly a yandere and nishiki was trying his best to survive also kiryu turned into a dragon (deez nuts) halfway and let nishiki kill him for being a bad boy but he was so upset about having to kill his bro that he just lay in the corpse for a bit and thats when i decided to stop reading and i literally opened tumblr in my dream to complain about how bad it was like the writing went back and forth from being terrible to incredible and i found myself enjoying some parts and despising others. I skipped the first few chapters so i had to tab back out and read the summary like why are they in a beach resort and the summary didnt just tell me nothing but it was also double spaced between each line and very fucking irritating and while reading it i kept thinking this is extremely ooc and boring like they would not fucking say that

#Listen to my problems #i cant stress enough that i dont even ship them why did i read a sex fic about kiryu and nishikiyamer #like i believe they are the bestest of friends forever and ever and like as hotblooded young men growing up together they must have tried a #few sex moves on each other at least once but i dont think they see each other as romantic prospects. like unlike majima and saejima #(seajima) who are literally together all the time and will never travel anywhere without the other unless its to prison. kiryu and nishiki #have this understanding that eventually theyll have to part ways and find their own path. while they would always remain in each others #hearts and thoughts they knew that they couldnt be holding hands forever and besides they have to focus on getting kazama to the top not #each other !! so nishiki was very happy that kiryu was getting his own family soon even if it meant that kiryu was getting ‘ahead’ of him #and kiryu who can accept consequences for himself but no one else was just like um ... well nishiki please give me the gun and take yumi #your sister needs you or whatever <3 i am definitely expendble and prison life is for me yayy yayyyy i love going to jail so nobody can talk #to me ever again. i keep asking myself how difficult it would have been for kiryu to just pop in by the hospital every now and then to check #in on nishikis sister. its not like he cant take care of her. its not like he doesnt know how to earn money. he just straight up thinks that #nishiki is better than him so he should be the one to get locked up ... because nishiki can take care of yumi and i straigh up forgot his si #sisters name and reina and kazama without him. and nishikis like damn i wish kiryu was here so bad (looks at his wwkd bracelet) hm think ill #go insane. i literally forgot what my original point was but that fic was so bad guys im so glad it doesnt exist #in it kiryu was trying his best to keep nishiki in one place and he kept being very. well kiryu was just kiryu but he kept apologising #saying things like you cant leave yet ... and looking at him with his big sad eyes and nishiki would always be like f-fine ... (he doesnt #like it here) also nishiki was one hell of a princess type and had a nurse costume on at some point which means the yakuza server nishiki #propoganda is working on me. very weird. love the part when kiryu was randomly a big dragon because he utterly filled the hallways of their #little beach shack and his scales were nice and soft and he was lovely. little guy

[purplejan]

still thinking about the moment in the reunion where heidi started crying and nicky got up to wipe her tears away

#the reunion was so touching and heartfelt and i just aaaa #i love that cast so much with my entire heart it's insane #like i cried multiple times?? and just seeing the love and support and care all of them have aaaa #also?? still filled with rage jaida couldn't be there cause omg?? can you imagine how eve more amazing it would have been?? #also i am once again simping for jackie cause who the fuck allowed her to look that good?? huh?? #s12 girlies my beloved <3

[septembersghost]

🎵 🎸🌠💖 don't fly away my beautiful bird 💖🌠🎸🎵

(aka pretend EP is actually in this because i was crying too much to get his face at the end, but look!!! my beloveds)

#i have....so so many things to say but am emotionally overwrought at the moment #so instead i'll share my mom and i were almost in here alone? #an older couple came in just after it started and apparently had somewhere to go and left twenty minutes before it was over...?! #i'm literally sitting in my seat like 😭💔🥺😭💔🥺 and a vibration goes off and they leave #i guess you could say they *could* walk out #so anyway i got to be annoying and clap at the end solo like the unhinged woman that i am #then dance around to the final credits then cry at his voice coming in for the end of if i can dream. truly an experience #and i do not foresee going to a movie again anytime soon since we haven't in so many years #so i was soaking up every bit of it #we had heated recliners i'm so so thankful because my spine didn't even hurt 😊 #anyway this movie does NOT feel as long as it is #and it is so beautiful it's just such an incredible piece of filmmaking as a whole #i've loved it more each time i've seen it and the music in the theatre...my entire heart... #austin is so captivating on the big screen but EVERY element is phenomenal on the big screen it's just gorgeous and such a love letter #it makes my heart ache and fills it up all at once...the love of my life and soul being music too it's so embedded in this as its center #i'm just...really grateful it's something i got to see and experience #and i'm really glad he lingered through time and in and out of years of my life and waited around for me 💗 #jess.mess #bubble wrap around my heart #elvis

[wambs]

i just remembered that during season 3 i was feeling so productive i started writing ideas and fics down in my notes app, so i decided to take a look.

i did not expect to find 40 tomgreg wips. why am i like this.

#i read them all and now i am once again filled to the brim with love for tom #but also angry at myself bcs some of them are ideas that i have not yet seen executed #so i really should finish and publish #but i'm 100% sure they will all stay in my notes app forever #tbh i only remembered that i had a sudden tomshivnate idea and had to write it down immediately #my stuff

[forabeatofadrum]

@thelegendofjenna replied to your post “me, poking kurt and blaine with a stick: do...”:

if you want someone to bounce ideas off/vent frustration to, you can always message me!

​I have my plot points mapped out. Jen @1908jmd actually figured some out in an ask that she sent (*wink wink nudge nudge*) (although, Jen, you're still in for a surprise, but some were close) (I'm not publishing the ask to avoid spoilers, but what you said about [REDACTED] hit the nail!). I just need to fill in those plot points and it is quite annoying to see a clear direction for where the story is heading. I've been seeing that direction for months, but ya know *gestures around* writing.

I did poke Kurt and Blaine hard enough to have them watch RENT, because why not? I'm currently stuck in a part of the next chapter where I just... need them to do something for the middle. Welp, RENT it is. I almost went for Legally Blonde but ssssssh that is Quinn's favourite movie. So yes, Kurt, Blaine, watch RENT and do something!!

#OKAY LOOK #the RENT thing... i am a bitch for RENT and unapologetically so #but i also love putting daltonfic references in my fic because i can and at this point klaine loving RENT is a meme #once again thank u daltonfic for giving me some crumbs #myosotis is filled with them #ANYWAY #replies #thelegendofjenna

[fictional-worlds-are-exquisite]

i finished loveless this morning and read i wish you all the best finishing it just before midnight and you know,,, i love queer literature. that’s all

#anyway #now it's past midnight #i'm gonna sleep #but i am happy <3 #also hello nb friends ily <3 #and queer friends #and #all my friends ever actually #i love #a lot #<3 #when i was i think 5 years old i stood on a wineglass and got glass in my foot #and my best friend at primary school helped me walk into the class each day while it was healing #and i might be about to cry over them 17 years later because yes! them too! i love everyone i've ever befriended ever in my life #a lot! #i am happy.and very filled with love. for people i haven't spoken with in years. that i'll probably never see again. #because you were there once and the warmth i have for you is never gonna cool #i think i am overly tired and being way too emotional #i am normally a brick wall #hm #WELL. BED TIME

[keeps-ache]

~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~

#just me hi #emotionally i am full of lemonade rn #which is incredibly good!! i love lemonade #STRAWBERRY lemonade- AHG #i could get kidnapped over some pink lemonade ngl #wistfully sighing rn but it's internal and it's me just thinking about good stuff #in reality head is very empty but heart is very full #unburdened. filled to the brim with a lightening substance #!! <3 !! #:))) #okay i want to talk about my OCs now. :))))))))) #it's 2 a.m. dude so sorry if you thought i'd go off on juice again </3 #(apple juice SUCKS- i'm sorry) #okay so i'm kind of grabbing these OCs really tight and rolling them down a hill repeatedly in my brain (what's the guy.... you know him... #-the boulder guy........................ prometheus??? i don't think so?? no idea. anyway-) #anyway it's like that and i can't access my google shmoogle drive rn so i went through the art tag i have for them #and i think i mentioned once that i use tumblr and post on it so that it's very useful to remember whatever's going on in my life lol #like little things. like a silly joke or something nice someone said #and i was going through the tag for these OCs and HEY i forgot about that cool idea!!!!! good thing i wrote it down!! #no idea if it still works but by jove i'll Make It #there's not much i've made with these OCs so i scrolled to the bottom p quick #the first picture. in the tags two people captioned it about romance or something #and i dunno i love that #it's great! they're holding hands. and you can't tell who or what they are. but some people see that and say 'oh! they love each other!' #and they are RIGHT #but i'm not quite sure if romantically? unclear atm #something in the clarity #the confidence #i don't know what i'm writing and i can really only see typos so that's all i'm fixing lol #but i just wanted to ramble as i usually do :)