#or that taking breaks isn’t hard

[the-ships-to-rule-them-all]

It’s late so I have no real positive inkling about how coherent this will be.

I’ve been seeing a lot of posts engaging with the concept of “don’t look away, bare witness” and how anyone looking away by not reblogging or engaging is privileged and therefore a bad person. I reject this premise wholeheartedly for one very critical reason: the world will not get better if the only emotions we have are anger, exhaustion and trauma. None of those truly lead to anything productive in the long run.

This is not to say don’t engage with different perspectives, unlearn things or simply sit in the uncomfortable nature that comes from our global society. But learn to take breaks.

There is massive difference between “looking away” and “hitting pause”. It needs to be more acceptable on the internet to hit pause. To seek joy, to sleep and wake up rested. There is also the fact that our brains are not able to process the 24/7 news cycle - if we try, we end up making the nuanced into simple paradigms.

#abby speaks #my thoughts #barely anyone will see this #but I think it’s important #to know that you can and should allow time to NOT engage with the worlds problems or social justice #this isn’t saying don’t work to make the world better #or that taking breaks isn’t hard #hell I was just at a hockey game and the 30 minutes where I truly took a break was the bus ride #every stoppage and intermission I was on my feed or checking for updates #but you need those moments to remind yourself that better days are possible #we owe things to our souls #our bodies our families our friends and our communities before we owe a half empty vessel that is our being to strangers #those are my two cents

[crybaby-bkg]

Arranged marriage AU with Barbarian Bakugou who is so daunting to be around at first. He’s all gruff curses and broad shoulders and scarred cheeks and neck and jaw. He scowls constantly, stares at you while your parents auction you off like some show pig, but doesn’t say much to you besides a grunt of his name. You’re terrified, thinking that he’ll be cruel to you, that you’re being set up for a life full of unhappiness and terror and regret.

But he’s the exact opposite. Bakugou is gentle in ways a man of his size typically wouldn’t be, but he shrinks himself for you. Not in a way that diminishes his status as the newly appointed king, but to respect you, show you that you’re beside him instead of behind him.

He picks you berries on his hunts because he knows the smell of a fresh kill brings nausea to your stomach. You find him along with the other maidens and helpers around his village, sitting beside them, big fingers holding tiny little flowers that he weaves into a crown for you. When he sets it on your head, he purses his lips, mutters something under his breath in his language that you’re still not too familiar with, but sure it means something along the lines of pretty and soft.

And when he finds you bathing in the river only few have access to, he’s sweet the whole time. Doesn’t make a spectacle of you being naked, and is relieved when you don’t instantly cower when he wades his way over to you. You try not to stare at the clawed scars that decorate his pec and jaw when he stands above you, and it helps when he suddenly dumps water all over your head. He shushes you when you splutter, continues on with cupping his hands and letting the water run off of your hair and down your shoulders, scrubbing at your skin until your flesh squeaks. He doesn’t expect you to do the same for him, but he hums in satisfaction when you push him down a little lower so you can wash the crown of his head.

#I don’t think I’ve ever actually written a full blown barbarian bkg fic which should be a crime #bc there are so many good ideas for it #but I’ve been struggling with writing creatively so I will put this idea as a full fic on the back burner for now lol #in the drafts for another 8 months! ☝🏻 #sorry I’m lying I’m about to write it rn aidsjdhdjf #anyway interaction has been so low and that doesn’t help with the low energy level when it comes to writing #I do it for myself but it’s a little sad when it feels like I’m talking to myself since I do that enough already lmfao #it’s the beginning of the semester tho so I GET IT bc I’m struggling to read too #this semester isn’t even all that hard but I’m so mentally checked out from school that everything is so much more complicated than need be #I just need a really long break to find myself #feels like I’ve been on go for a few months straight now #okay bye my stomach started cramping really bad which is a single to take my ass to bed lmfao #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #bakugou treats! 🍬

[artistocrazy]

Roderich: *drunkenly wheels himself into an open manhole in the 1920s right outside of a brothel and HECKIN dies*

Roderich returning to the same brothel two days later completely unharmed in a new chair: “Me? Dead? What, have you switched to drinking absynthe? At least purchase a round for the deceased, if you really believe I’m no longer of this Earth.”

#hetalia #tw alcohol #tw alcoholism #tw death #hws austria #the bartender: ‘but I saw you roll right into that manhole and disappear in the steam!’ #Rod taking a drink and looking him into the eye without blinking: ‘You’re crazy’ #OR Rod: ‘Isn’t that the story of my life - chasing manholes and womanholes and whatnot. An old habit is so hard to break.’ #Man only took the extra day to find a new chair 💀

[filibusterphil]

Okay not to defend the hot irredeemable murderer but it is real funny Juliette is out here thinking that Elinor killed Theo to ruin her relationship. I’m sorry babe not everything is about your doomed Shakespearean love. Sometimes your sister wants to hook up with a hot hunter too and then his brother shows up and she thinks she’s been set up so she pisses off both of them and they try and kill her and so she moves out of the way and lets one brother kill the other then wipes his memory so she won’t get blamed or be roped into the mess that will inevitably come from getting a hunter killed.

#first kill #elinor fairmont #look I know she is irredeemably evil or whatever #and a full trophy taking serial killer #but I just think that maybe hot fictional people can have that as a treat #as much as I loved the lesbians #Elinor and Talia were real standouts for me #anyway #this situation really truly got out of hand but I don’t think it’s Elinor’s fault #a lack of intent all around #Theo was struggling with his visions and needed answers and pushed too hard #Apollo was struggling with constantly being told he was not measuring up #so being called stupid by the girl he had just almost successfully seduced and schmoozed for info #pushed him over the edge #and ya girl is a psychopath so as soon as something isn’t going her way #she kinda seems to go for max pain and casualties #and well she’s very good at what she does #but she didn’t walk into that bar thinking wow I hope my sister’s girlfriend’s brothers show up so I can kill one #and break up my sister’s relationship #not even she is that ridiculously manipulative

[crowesfood]

I don’t pay much attention to the fandom anymore, just kinda wanna post my queue from last year-earlier this year and take a break but sometimes it’s like. Idc whatever discussion’s happening but I think it would be funny to poke Nightheart with a stick because I like him and he’s so vehemently like the brat I acted like as a teenager. They write angry teenagers pretty okay.

#That isn’t to say he isn’t justified in being fucking PISSED at his family #there’s nuance in everything #In media and in life you gotta examine all the stuff that comes up and sometimes in the AITA everyone’s the asshole #I do genuinely feel like everyone aside from Frost in this arc is kinda weak as a protag tho and Sunbeam especially got snubbed #And even then they had Frost revolve around a man for a solid minute :/ #Anyways. #I also think it would be funny if they killed Squirrel but ik it prolly won’t happen #These books aren’t written to be GOOD though. They’re soap operas. Guilty pleasures. #And whether I like it or not a hyperfixation of mine so it’s hard to pack up and take a break

[ibroughtyoumybullets]

somebody linked to this under the tweet about that tree and i keep coming back to it

#like man. shit is hard enough #the world is terrifying and often miserable and there’s only so much we can individually do to abate that #why would you add to it. why would you take it out on a tree? #it’s old and beautiful and innocent. trees are our friends. #idk this obviously isn’t and shouldn’t be at the top of our concerns list given the everything of everywhere #but it’s a bummer. you know? #this is the only world we have. it breaks my heart how often we hurt it.

[pepprs]

my depression is getting really really bad. like it’s been bad before but this is like… consistently really bad. like a long unending stretch for several weeks (and tbh months) now. to the point where no inoculation actually sticks (and im isolating myself from most of my inoculations anyway and feel unable to stop doing it even though i know it’s self destructive). im either helplessly unbearably miserable or numbing out on video games. i just don’t feel like it’s going to get better for me and i KNOW that is factually untrue but the feeling is louder than the knowledge and it’s just utterly immobilizing. ive been sinking in quicksand for 2 years.

#purrs #longer than that too ofc but i think ever since i moved to campus in 2021 and shit started hitting the fan my life just started snowballing #and picked up speed majorly when i moved back home and ive been stuck in this horrible limbo ever since. like im scaring myself with how #deeply profoundly unhappy and unwell i am. i am just detached and scattered and bewildered by everything. and the only way to break free is #to fight it but i don’t even have the strength. like in order to fight it i have to have the strength and it s exactly the thing that is #being stolen from me. and i work really really hard to suppress it when im around people so no one can tell but on the inside im being eaten #alive and every day that goes on the pain gets harder to bear except im numb most of the time so i can’t tell except for when i can #one of the things that makes me saddest is ive pushed everyone away either by ghosting them or scaring them. when what i want and need the #most is love and comfort. but then when i get it it isn’t enough. idk. im not explaining it well i just feel like. horrible. unbearably #i think i need to go on meds like i truly cannot go on like this not even in a s*i cidal way it’s like i just can’t take living like this #delete later #i know im causing the people who love me pain by being unable to accept that they do love me and that’s the worst fucking part. is hurting #people by being like this. scaring people by being like this. and being so disconnected from myself #and feeling completely and utterly beyond help like nothing ive tried has fixed it but also there are a lot of things i haven’t tried but i #feel so terrible or my freedom is limited so i can’t. idk. #also the crushing knowledge / sense that i have lost the most precious important years of my life both bc of the lockdown and bc of mental #illness lol. except that’s not true bc of all the stuff abt how your best years are always ahead of you and you can make them. but it doesnt #feel like it for me and then i beat myself up bc my job is literally to exude that belief and help other ppl feel it and i increasingly cant #i remember in high school having the thought that one day i could be depressed and being conscious that i wasn’t and now i look back on that #and am like… how. and will i ever not be. i don’t think so. it just feels unending

[peapod20001]

I’m the type that can and will cry if think too hard <3

#random post #me tag ∠( ᐛ 」 ) |/ #I’m not an overly emotional person in the stereotypical way. but I do get in my feels when thinking about life and the experience of living #I’m like. constantly explaining things to myself cus there’s never really a time or place to talk about it #also my method of explaining things is very not coherent sometimes. so it takes me a bit to really get my point across in a comprehensible #way. I’m a big thinker. I have many thoughts and ideas a views. a daily thing of mine is noticing problems #and then fixing them in my head with thought out explanations and motives and outcomes #it’s like I’m talking to someone else. much like how I format my text posts. that’s how my inner monologue is #me talking to myself is actually me talking to someone else. someone that isn’t real #anyways it’s a daily occurrence. every day of my life is spent with thoughts similar to those breaking down a movie #lots of thoughts from adhd. compulsive thoughts from ocd. overwhelming thoughts from autism. distressing thoughts from bpd #ya. this isn’t a vent I just need to like. see the thoughts in writing so I can do smth else. like eat this muffin ive been staring at for #over an hour now <3 mmmbfbg yea muffins are hard to eat now cus I had some with mold and food mold especially is a big nono for me #spend like. five minutes examining the damn thing before I even consider taking a bite. I’m very hungry an thirsty </3 #when your mouth is so dry you can taste your own mouth 👍 I’m experiencing #nothing in particular. just experiencing. I wouldn’t have it any other way. I like having an experience and living #drank my tea and I had like. hallucinations of like an alcohol prep pad. I’ve been using those in my ear cus. tmi. had a pimple that’s #causing problems so mom suggested that. it burned! which means it worked so word. I’ve noticed lately that both me AND my family have been #using ‘word’ a lot. dad says we’ve been saying it but no we haven’t. if we had I’d have BEEN saying it. maybe we’ve used it before for a bit #but now it’s back. idk. I’ve said it in class on more than one occasion lmao I don’t look like the type to say smth like that but whatever #it’s like when I used to say bro after every sentence like 10 years ago lol. we’re a family of parrots we repeat eachother a lot #I started saying I love you out of no where and they started doing it too. we whistle at eachother from across the house. sing ear worms #together. quote funny things at every opportunity and drive the joke into the ground. everyone in this house is a different kind of mentally #I’ll and it’s the most beautiful clash of personalities because we’re all so annoying and we love eachother so much and also our #communication is shit because some ppl have hearing loss and another is a short fused child and some are quick to interrupt and some dont #get a word in and some just can’t explain and some can’t understand. we get there eventually at some point. we don’t get the full grasp of #how much we love eachother yet. but we’re gettin there. anyways this went into several different directions but they’re all good ones #I think. if you read all this good on you! this is my brain 24/7/365 haha ok love you

[urgeforgoing]

ugHHhh i feel sick, I went on this date with this man last week and it went really well. I don’t have any specific rules for sleeping with people but I don’t necessarily like hooking up. he seemed really interested (planning lots of different date ideas, mentioning the future, helping me out with things) and I ended up sleeping with him on the second date. things were still going well all week (he asked me to hang out every day) and then we had plans friday and he ghosted me. I texted him this morning and just said “hey, I was surprised you didn’t answer the other night since everything seemed to be going well. just wondering what caused the change up?” (I can never let anything die without an explanation) and he ignored that too. so now I just feel gross and for a lack of a better word….. slutty because I hate sleeping with people for it to go nowhere. It makes me feel used

#slutty isn’t the right word but you know what I mean #and I hate when guys know someone is taking something seriously and they do this #I was only thinking it was going somewhere because you said it was :( #I think I need to take a break from dating because it’s so HARD

[francy-sketches]

Why do people who enjoy spam liking always act so high and mighty about it ‘well I like it when someone likes all 200 of my posts bc it means they love and cherish my creations, I’m sorry you’re a cold hearted grinch and don’t have any appreciation for the common people who love your work, maybe if you stopped being such a snob 🙄’ ok bitch good for you?? I just like reading people’s comments/tags on my art and having a lot of individual like notifications clogs it up so it gets a little annoying that’s all. If spam liking makes you feel good that’s great I’m happy for you but it’s just a matter of personal preference it doesn’t make either of us morally superior lol get off your high horse

#.txt #I’m sorry I’m really not trying to be mean but 100 likes on individual posts don’t really do anything for me #like. thanks I guess? idk it’s just one more number #also usually it’s like. 100 likes in 1 minute. like you’re doing it just because not even taking a second to look at the actual post #this is one thing twitter does better bc it’ll just say [person] liked x amount of your posts #I’m not mad at anyone who spam likes my posts btw it’s just mild annoyance at most #like keep doing it if you want idc #I just hate people who try to make you feel bad for not crying and throwing up with joy when someone likes 50 of your posts #or people get mad when someone asks to not spam like?? ‘well then it’s a loss for both of us 😤’ #hate to break it to you but you’re not that special lol that person isn’t gonna care that they lost a potential like from you #I’m not saying this to be mean you’re just a stranger on the internet they don’t know you don’t be weird #is it so hard to respect people’s boundaries without pissing your pants goddamn

[countess-of-edessa]

baked a cake from scratch, fed the dogs and the father, cleaned the kitchen, wrapped christmas presents. wearing a beige sweaterdress and black ballet flats, hair in bun. reading a profile on hilaria baldwin…the cottagecore tradwife in me is winning i fear

#im being sarcastic but honestly though i keep having the creeping and uncharitable thought of like. i don’t think this is quite as hard as #my mother has always made it seem. and my father is literally zero help and she works really hard but also there was always the not-always- #unspoken implication that the reason the house was always kind of messy and disorganized and everything was kind of chaotic and accompanied #by a distinct sense of overwhelm was because of my sister and I #either our stuff or our actions or the fact that taking care of us took up too much time she could devote to other stuff #but neither my sister nor i live at home full time anymore and when we do at least i am objectively more helpful than anything else #so im like okay well that wasn’t it then #and like i also get that everyone thinks they could do better until THEY get married and have kids and then you see #but the backlash against the pressure for everything to be picture perfect has turned into (imo) a general “relatable” idea that #adulthood and especially marriage and parenthood is nothing but a slide into complacency and chaos forever and like. i just don’t agree wit #that. obviously you cannot live as you did as a single person or a non parent but the prevailing image of parenthood i see advertised as #“realistic” is one where everyone is constantly exhausted unhappy and living in filth #i See a question from a woman asking how to SURVIVE nine whole days of winter break with her children. SURVIVE? wtf? #i do think parents of today spend too much time with their children and that’s part of the issue but also like. i cannot believe that #everything is as thoroughly and completely awful as it is pretty much always portrayed nowadays #and how i see it reflected at me. and this isn’t like a housewives don’t work aaaa thing because no. #but like. when i see people being like you can’t expect your sahm to get the laundry done OR dinner made OR the house clean on a consistent #basis EVER i am kind of like…..but literally what are you doing then if none of those things?? #cause unless you homeschool or have literal infants (whole different ballgame) then like…what are you doing #maybe an unpopular opinion but I think a lot of women are bad at being housewives. because it is a skill that women used to study and learn #and now it’s not but it’s still the most important job in society #so we took away all the instruction manuals for the backbone of society and now who comes the closest to approximating an educational resou #? influencers. which is horrible because any person you are taking advice from on Instagram is someone with a public Instagram account #which automatically makes them odd and untrustworthy and not someone at least I would want to emulate. #my mother doesn’t apply to this she is a great homemaker her issues are (1) time management (2) fatigue (3) starts too many projects #but i digress #i suppose i shouldn’t say that I reject the idea children turn your life to chaos because I don’t. but I do reject the idea that #the chaos of parenthood sentences everyone to a perpetual state of overwhelm and reactivity #that simply has never been the case for people in any time period before now even when raising children and the daily business of living wa #far more labor intensive

[pinkfey]

i don’t think i’m built to work with teachers in the school district 😔

#i’m autisming too hard today #like i cannot be librarian again after this job bc this one teacher can’t stand me and i don’t know what i’m doing wrong #she told the principal that i cut their library time short because i didn’t want to do story time?? when that isn’t what happened at all #the cutoff point is six minutes until the next class. if it takes her class that long to pick out books then there isnt time to read a story #because we’ll go overtime and the next class will have to wait!! #so i told her i don’t think we have time for a story today so if you’d like for them to keep reading that’s fine #and u can leave whenever you’d like !! #like hello ?? what am i missing !! what did i do wrong !! #the principal confronted me about it and i said i could tell the teacher was upset when i told her #and the principal said she gets upset about a lot of things 😟 so #idk i just. i can handle mean parents but i can’t deal with a mean coworker i just can’t #everyone else is nice to me but when i see her talking to them in the break room it reminds me of like. #the socializing i struggled with in school. i just can’t do it #like this on top of the abortion is just demolishing me today #anyways.txt

[idontlikeem]

I need help dealing with this. How do you deal when fans from your own division are laughing at your team that's in a major slump at Game 39 of the season? I'm trying to enjoy the Pens still but it's hard when teams around the Metro are mocking us like we're the only ones with issues while they keep on winning. Some of our own fans have even wondered (including me honestly) if any of the Metro teams will ever lose again because almost all are peaking this early, like how is that possible for many teams to do this well with TDL still 2 months away, while we are begging for a major change to potentially save the season

stop watching.

i’m not being flippant here. if you’re going through a fandom trying to get other fans to be responsible for your emotional regulation over each and every loss, stop watching, either until you feel better or permanently. it’s not fair to ask everyone else to help you deal with your feelings over a loss, because we all also have our own.

at the end of the day, this is just sports! it doesn’t matter, and more importantly, there’s nothing any single fan can do. so you either learn to enjoy watching a team that goes through rough patches, or you stop watching. simple as. but it’s not up to everyone else to read long messages about how bad it’s making you feel that we didn’t say we’re ok receiving and dealing with.

also, why are you reading what other teams’ fans think? who cares? are they SUPPOSED to be nice about a team they don’t like?

#sorry if this sounds mean but I really thought I addressed this last season and asked for it to stop #people: you cannot dump all your negative feelings about a team into someone’s askbox after every game like this #it isn’t fair especially if people have asked you not to do that #your favorite team losing is hard—trust me I know—but you CANNOT make everyone else responsible for your reactions to it #either figure it out or take a break from paying attention #also: you cannot be sincerely wondering if all the teams in the metro besides us will win all of their 40-odd remaining games? #that’s not possible lol #also I know I’m not the only one on pens tumblr to feel this way so… #please just stop doing this. I can’t believe I’m having to ask again.

[foxgloveinspace]

Hulloooo! I just restarted my island last week! It's my personal nightmare currently but it'll get there. How have you been?

I’ve been pretty good! This weeks been a bit of a time cause I had cold that just completely zapped all my energy, but other then that, I’ve been doin pretty ok. Nothing to stressful or crazy and nothing too like.. exciting to talk about I guess, lol.

Hmmm, I think the most exciting thing that has happened is that I drove home from ‘the big city’ and I even drove in it, so like…. That was a bit crazy! Slowly getting there on the driving thing lmao.

I’m both really excited about starting over my ac island and like. Nervous lmao. I never really got very far in decorating it tho, so I’m looking forward to a completely fresh slate with it!

How about you? Anything cool, or just acnh (nothing wrong with that if it’s the answer tho 🥰).

#other then that.. my life has been taken over by sleep token (so please just blacklist them if you don’t like them cause I swear it’s all I #even post about anymore😭😭😭😭 I’m still confused about how I got here tbh.) and I’ve been knitting more again. and crocheting way more. #so that’s been my life oof #hihi!!! #kirishiimis #milo🖤 #idk if this is.. like I just wanna be reassuring here but like I want you to know that.. like I still think of you very dearly as a friend #and I know you’ve been very busy with The Baby💛 but like I want you to know no matter the breaks you take I’m still here! #I hope that’s coming across the right way tho #I’m trying very hard to unmask my adhd and anxiety and just tell people things so I’m sorry if what I’m saying isn’t even making since oof #oh!!! idk if I told you this or not (oh well) my mom got a job so now I’m just. #constantly home alone which is cool lol. it’s been pretty good for my mental health tbh #hmmmmm. idk I feel like when people ask me for updates it’s just my hobbies cause nothing happens in my life anymore😂😂😂😂😂😂 #edit: I did absolutely tell you about my mom getting a job… I think…… hmmmmmmm #eh doesn’t matter lol. I told you again🤷🏼🤷🏼🤷🏼

[seveneyesoup]

what are the odds people writing the bats Like That is just bc they haven’t moved out of the house yet

#note this isn’t me bashing on teenagers #it’s just me saying your ideas about family and stuff and how you relate to the family unit change when you leave home #even if it’s just setting up across town; having your own place and some independence changes like; the nature of family relationships #which is something you logically know before you move out but i imagine it’s hard to like; apply that yk #to writing #to test this hypothesis i would have to go on an insane tumblr safari and tbh i’m Not gonna do that #and anyway i’m hardly confident in my own takes on stuff #there’s a lot of comics i haven’t read. and by now i kinda know where to look for answers #but after i go out and gather data then it’s time to break out the soldering iron #and let the real work begin #so it’ll be a while is what i’m saying esp bc i’ll probably go back to dr who for a while soon

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

i think the hardest thing with rehabbing is that sometimes from your point of view there are no success stories some days. we have the birds who are doing well of course but im not really working with them. i did one exam today and the bird had to be euthanised because of the injury severity. the other intakes we were waiting for either didn’t come during my shift or died before they could get to us. the only other bird i worked with was a window strike with severe neurological damage who had to be force fed. sometimes i come home emotionally drained just because rehabbing isn’t always happy endings

#just. drained rn and my pain is acting up #death doesn’t usually bother me and every euthanasia we do is humane and always because the bird won’t heal but that doesn’t always make it #easy. we’ll usually do it as soon as the fatal injury is found so the bird doesn’t have to be in pain anymore or be in more pain because of #the exam and im fine doing those usually #but today it was a soft little mourning dove who was hawk caught and we made sure she’d passed before we did the exam but i took her body #out of the box we do euthanasias in and she was all curled up and instead of being fully stiff her neck just flopped #and it just kinda hit that 30 minutes before hand i had held this animal alive #and she was in excruciating pain i mean her injuries were severe and she had a bone break right on the joint that would have been horribly #painful and she had no grip and her foot was turned out #it’s just. sometimes it’s hard yknow #you always want the success stories and to have hope but sometimes i don’t get that some days #and the window strike isn’t gonna make it either i don’t think. his neurological damage is too severe and he’s not even taking any food he #has to be force fed #it was just a rough day today #bird time #vent tw #death tw #animal death #bird death #euthanasia tw