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(This is just an apology I owe someone I will probably never see again. Please ignore, I just needed to get it off my chest 16 years later. I'm not a good person, and I was very cruel as a teen.)
Hi. I'm sorry I wronged you. I treated you terribly when you gave me that letter. It was my fault, obviously. You were such a kind person to me, and we could have been great friends. You shot your shot, and that was totally normal and fair. I just want to explain why I reacted that way, because it was completely uncalled for.
I was living as a girl then, and had no idea that I had this trans man living inside me all along. I didn't know it, but my friendships with men felt so important and validating to me. I felt like I could be one of the bros without realizing that there was an actual personal reason why I needed that validation and mirroring. I guess, at the time, I would have chalked it up to 'daddy issues' from having a continually absent father figure,' which is incredibly reductive and dismissive, and was never genuinely my issue. I felt safe when it was me hanging out with some guys, especially when we often had more interests align which was rare to find in female friends. It's not easy being a kid into metal, alt fashion, art, and nerdy things, when you live in a rural small town where sports is considered the 'ideal' for teens. But you already know that. You lived it, too. You just didn't have the societal pressure to perform femininity, when you're not a girl, on top of it. ((But who knows, you could be a trans woman right now and struggling with your own issues from the other side, I really don't know you.))
But boy, did I PERFORM femininity. The metal scene wasn't the best inspiration for women. You had to be a hot sexy metal babe or you wouldn't get dick. No love for the androgynous women (except lesbians. Go lesbians, I love you.) At least that's what it felt like to 14-year-old me. I had to struggle with the fact that I wanted to look like the band members, not the women they were pictured with. I showed my hairstylist pictures of band men and short-haired Rihanna so I had at least one girl on there. I don't know where I'm going with this. I tried to do both perform the femininity, and doing small things to look more like the band guys I idolized, finding excuses to portray men in acting/roleplay/costumes. 'Because I had a crush on them, right?' No, because I wanted to BE them. Iwanted to be wanted as a man. Not as some metal babe. Being desired as a woman felt horribly invalidating, and I couldn't have ever explained why until now.
It's not a valid excuse, but I reacted that way because I felt safe around you. So safe. You were a dude, my bro, and I could be myself without feeling like I'm being 'tested' for performing human femininity like I did around girls. Like I walk into a room and everyone stops and glares at me. That's what I felt like, that hypervigilance, without knowing what that word meant. You were a good friend, kind, interesting, naturally attractive, and cool. I can't explain it, but it felt like betrayal when you gave me that letter. Suddenly, I was a 'love interest' and not 'fellow bro' and it hurt me so badly to believe that our friendship was built on you viewing me as a girl, not an equal. (That sounds absolutely horrible, I'm not implying that women are 'less," just that it made me feel like I was being unseen, that your feelings were for someone i was not.) I felt like our friendship was built on a lie. I felt disgusted at myself for reasons I didn't understand.
I reacted horribly. I wrote you that shameful e-mail in response. I tried burning that letter because I'm a dramatic hoe, but couldn't get the fireplace open, so I had to blow it out and instead melted and shredded it into the sink disposal. My mom came home and smelled the smoke and thought I was trying a cigarette. (I didn't try a single drug until I had a cigarette in fall of 2017, age 23.) Do we address the situation like an adult with calm words and ponder why we feel all these negative emotions, or do we SINK GO BRRRRRRRR DESTROY THE EVIDENCE?
14-year-old Cori go BRRRRRRRR, apparently.
I mean, I was a KID. Kids are mean as fuck.
It's no excuse, but I can look back on that now and say definitively that it was a result of not understanding my gender identity. I know I'm gay (not to mention, aro), but I did things counter to that, like have a phase of being a lesbian/bi/pan-preferring woman. if being attracted to women made me feel more butch and manly, then 'hey, look at that chick's thighs, bro…' I was gonna play it up.
Anyway, my point, discovering gender was like, literally taking off a suit of armour that never fit right because it was too small for me. I took off that suit of armour at age 19. It felt freeing to have no gender at all. I could do anything I wanted to find what fit me, trying on anything and everything. I finally found that fit in 2015. I'm a dude. This armour fits me perfectly now, and it flexes with my movement. But i still have the chafing and bruises from wearing the wrong armour for so many years.
I should have gently told you that I wanted to stay just friends. Instead, I was spiteful and mean for something that was my own fault. I refused to address my own gender problems, avoiding them entirely and dumping them onto you. I should not have been so immature as to do that and then entirely avoid you forever after.
So, I am deeply and truly sorry. I have regretted it every moment since I clicked 'send.' I hope you've entirely forgotten me by now. I hope you're doing well and still playing music and being your own creative self. I hope you're making mad bucks doing whatever the fuck you love. I'm sorry.
#an apology#reading 'pageboy' has me thinking of my gender again and wondering when my body knew i was trans before my brain?#apologies#gender identity#trans man#aromanic#just tagging so i can find it again on my blog eventually#but if you do read it feel free to judge me harshly im pretty sure my character is inherently evil so its valid to think im an asshole#might delete later tbh idk tho like i feel like i deserve to display my faults publicly to be mildly absolved#OBLIGATORY: 'DISCLAIMER: i'M HI (HIGH)' TAG#bc lmao im not gonna overshare otherwise lol idk why i get so verbose when im hi#Cori.exe#Post.exe#pls do ignore tho like damn i was awful#holy fuck ive eaten a ton of chocolates lmao need some serotopamine in this mf#i think getting hi and writing out pesonal shit like this lately has been very healing like its a safe way to think about life while buzzin#the drawbridge into my mind momentarily lowers#gelato really is the good shit#maybe ill write a book about how to not be a human
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- the principal must be getting so annoyed getting all those calls aha
- Simon has such a beautiful voice 🥺
- the money issue really plays into everything damn
- omg sara wtf that’s so rude???? sorry they couldn’t afford a nicer pair??
- okay wille you don’t have to ignore Simon in PE like you can pass it to him😭
- oooh smarrttt to convince Vincent
- omg wille stop being so passive aggressive just sit there and let Simon have space please😭
- IT IS MALIN FORCING HIM NO😭😭 doing her job but still😭😭
- the symbolism of the snow globe breaking omg:(
- “at least you don’t have to be crown prince”:/
- okay that’s an interesting take to say that they’re okay with it if he keeps it private til an adult and it’s on his own terms. that doesn’t change the way everything else is though, and the thing is, it wasn’t on his terms and it never will be . I think that would’ve been okay if he didn’t already have to deny the video but it’s not a normal coming out situation now
- he should see a therapist though I do agree with that
- Simon went to the principal?? wow I was wondering what he was doing, he has a huge heart
- I’m ngl tho wille would be an annoying ex I’m sorry HAHAH it’s feeling real
- okay pls tell simon the whole truth
- wille you CANT just expect Simon to go back to you like that
- GOOD SIMON. such a mature way to look at it
- don’t tell me sara is going to go try sleep with august
- omg the phone. can she do much with that information tho? like she can tell august but he can’t tell anyone- I guess he’d treat felice like shit though:/
- awe smelling the jumper and looking at the fish🥺 and wearing the jumper omg
- I love that Simon is expressing his feelings through song this season, he’s so lovely to listen to and it also gives him an outlet without someone else constantly sharing their own opinion
- the symbolism of taking the jumper off and feeling freer 🥹 this is what he needs rn
- the way he’s looking around Marcus’s place exactly like wille did to his, calling it cozy and everything 😭
- omg SIMON that was smooth
- okay that’s so sweet but I feel like Simon DID kinda want to fuck lmao. this is why you don’t use people as a rebound, Marcus’s feelings are gonna get hurt 🥴
- SARA WHY IS AUGUST MORE IMPORTANT TO YOU THAN YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH FELICE EVEN
- and now they’re gonna fuck? ugh
- okay that was a WEIRD experience for him lmaoo
- wille please just make the most of the situation . Like even if he never talks about the video he should talk about Erik.
- the anxiety pamphlet!! yes!!! this is what he needs🥺
- awe come onnn not MARCUS at whatever they’re doing to distract wille😭 poor wille
- this does not feel safe having wille shoot things when his ex’s new guy is there asdfgh
- you cant blame Marcus though like he’s just vibing, he didn’t even seem to know who wille was so I feel like he doesn’t even know about the video and Simon
- yesss !!!! august is OUT of prefect positionnn
- the little smile HAHA
- damn I didn’t even think about how felice quitting would affect sara too. too bad , good on felice for quitting!!!
- okay as much as I hate august he was much better at being team captain than Vincent will be💀 that’s so mean to valter what
- cheating?? hmmmmm. For simons sake I’ll accept it but idk
- ITS THE SAME SONG FROM SEASON ONE
- “do you know him?” WILLE you know DAMN well
- hmm we will see what is happening with the Queen and august hmm
- DONT SNOOP
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Wow you all are the best <3 <3 thanks so much!!
so without further ado
STUFF I DIDNT LIKE ABOUT SEASON 3:
• Ok why does this season have SO MUCH FILLER
• Waaay too much in my opinion
• We never actually find out what that fragment Zane has is for I mean Emmalyn did find something but she escaped before Zane could force her to say it soooo :/ and then mcd was discontinued
• I don’t understand Aphmau’s reasoning for not being Irene. When Zane says “you would deny your birth?” she tells Zane that she has no memories of Irene therefore she is not her. Well Aph honey tell that to the 38373 tourists that visit everyday just to see you -_-
• Wow was it really that easy to kidnap someone from Phoenix Drop the home of the new Irene damn Zane has his work cut out for him
• I mean he literally walked IN FRONT OF Dante
• Speaking of Zane, i don’t really like his s3 version. Him having the untouchable status of high priest was a big part of his character and removing it made him even more one-dimensional if it’s even possible. Now on top of being a way too simple character you don’t even have the one thing that made you unique. He wasn’t written to be a side antagonist and as someone who likes his concept I feel that he deserves much better. he shouldve been used in s2 as a main antagonist with ivy as a side maybe and not in s3 because it ruined him :(
• Tho why is he not treated as a big threat. He’s a shadow knight. Note that I pretty much skipped past all scenes with Aph in them so if she does something I’ve mentioned below, ignore it. She should’ve sent a warning letter or something to the lords of the neighboring villages like hey the murderous emo priest is back get yo shit together. No one even knows he’s back. for the record I feel like he grew weaker as a shadow knight?? Aren’t they supposed to have greater strength? I don’t understand why his strength level keeps changing throughout the season. It’s apparently easy to defeat Dante but not Lucinda?? Is it bcuz she’s a witch and has long-range magic? Cant shadow knights teleport and use magic too or am I getting it wrong
• I don’t like the ending to Dante and Gene’s fight. He legit laughs and it sounds like he has asthma I’m sorry he sounds like he’s choking there no hate tho...anyway why tf does he leave? All I remember is that the people somehow got freed from his memory magic (again, how??) and surrounded him. why is that a problem?? Knowing him he would’ve just massacred them. or used them as a hostage to force Dante to cooperate this makes no sense
• SO. MUCH. FILLER.
• I don’t like how in Zane’s Wrath it shows a whole village burning and then Zane says “hmm only about 30 people have been slaughtered.” EXCUSE ME HE MASSACRED A VILLAGE ONCE HE CAN DO IT AGAIN. He’s a shadow Knight now where did the advanced strength go?? AND THEN HE SLEEPS RIGHT AFTER. So THIS part of being a shadow Knight applies but his strength doesn’t??
• I don’t like how Emmalyn interacts with Zane. I get that they needed to make it a bit funny but there’s nothing funny about being kidnapped. they should’ve stuck the comedic relief somewhere in between the large amounts of filler. Zane’s a psychopath and a homicidal maniac and Emmalyn should be more scared. I mean it’s evident Zane wasn’t gentle when kidnapping her just look at her house. why is she talking causally. ok even if you argue that he hadn’t shown his true colors yet she knows of him and has heard of what he does. and for the record WHY DOES SHE SPEAK TO HIM NORMALLY AFTER HE SLAUGHTERS SO MANY PEOPLE. Like after the village rampage she cries for a minute and then she’s back to being a scholar who asks waaay too many questions. and purposely withholding info from someone like Zane doesn’t seem like a good idea to me idk abt the rest of you
• I feel like Lilith was really forgotten in the season bcuz of Alina having Shad’s relic and all that jazz.
• Garroth was REALLY forgotten. im pretty sure he was neglected the first few episodes and then they chucked him with Hyria to have a really long tea party
• BUT at least we got some Ro’meave angst with Garroth and Zane yelling at each other. wish we got more of it tho it will never be enough
• ZANE IS SUPPOSED TO BE SMART. We can see that so many times in his concept. He’s meant to smart and cunning and calculating and manipulative how could he be that way if he was dumb. STOP WRITING DUMB DECISIONS FOR HIM. I hate how they made Emmalyn keep the fragment someone like Zane would never let anyone else keep something of *zane voice* POWER so why does she have it here. Zane wouldve logically kept it with him. I get that he could be overconfident enough to sleep while Emmalyn was free but no way he’s letting her keep the fragment. The script keeps making him do stupid things whyyy
• Aphmau being a shit friend again. When Lucinda arrives back at the Alliance Island and Malachi tells Aph about all the shit Zane did she’s just like BUT I need to find out about Irene. EXCUSE ME those books aren’t going anywhere but your friends sure are. Even Malachi says “you’re going? What about all the stuff that’s going on at home?” or something like that. YA CUZ WHY WOULD YOU LEAVE KENMUR IS DEAD AND DANTE IS GRIEVING.
• Wow why does Aph sound so surprised when Lucinda suggests making wanted posters you should’ve done it a long time ago
• The way canon mcd was left off was not great in my opinion and in some cases it’s downright awful. Emmalyn is stuck at the werewolf castle and they now know about Aphmau. Zane is powerless and useless, both of which so no favors for his already lacking character so idk what they could’ve done for him anyway. There’s so many inconsistencies throughout mcd regarding the way he was written. Aph wants to go tu Tu’La courtesy of a glowing book. Yay. im pretty sure Garroth is STILL with Hyria. travlyn is just chillin
• Basically pls give characters some better development and opportunities thanks and stop making Zane do dumb things he’s suffering from his lack of character development anyway
#zane ro'meave#mcd garroth#garroth ro'meave#aphmau#katelyn the firefist#aphmau katelyn#mcd emmalyn#mcd dante#aphmau gene#travis valkrum#ya this is another rant post#pls give some better development#we need it#thoughts?#whats your opinion on these points#would love to hear them!!
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Survey answers until now:
This was so fun. There are a lot of answers and that's pretty pog! I'm not gonna include everyone but I assure you I've been reading all of them.
Edit: the resolution was awful. Sorry about that. Updated version now! :)
Now the text answers my beloved <3
Here are some of my favourites!
Mumza. On accident.
How do you cosplay on accident? 👁️👁️
Phil and say it's Urahara
200 IQ play right here
none but i wanted to tell you its not much better. im going as a Supernatural character smh
We really are on Tumblr.com
im doing rivals duo with my friend =]
cc!Ranboo basically. now it just sounds weird. I mean who dresses up as irl celebrities and not the roles they play? man. it just sounds cringe now
I'm gonna throw on a green hoodie, say I'm dream and call it a day B)
Put a plastic plate on it too and it's complete
I have a half-made Ranboo cosplay, but I'm also too old lol
DO IT. I don't care. Even if it's just for you to wear at home. Do it. Nobody it's too old to dress as things they like!
tubbo :D (not 2 self promo but ill be posting pics @starbug.png on insta 👀)
Check them out! :)
There's a bunch of Wilbur/Ghostbur cosplayers. I love you and the Grisn cosplayer very parasocially.
Also the Mumza cosplayers
I got my ex into mcyt a day or so before we broke up because he started to ignore me > - >
Well... That's.
Figured out one of my besties is into it bc I saw a sketch of the Llama Line by L'Targay
One of my irl friends is an OG dsmp fan, she was there the very first stream. It’s just fun to talk to her about stuff.
A group of 17 year old boys called me cringe at the publix selfcheckout bc of my quackity shirt and i laughed so hard that they got confused like. its not bullying if theyre right
This one. This one has to be my favourite. That's the spirit.
There is a girl in my class who I talked to very little. We were supposed to do an assignment based on a hobby we liked, so I chose MINECRFAT. After I presented this, she approached me after class and said she liked my presentation. She showed me some of her dsmp drawings, like the realistic ones based off photos. She fucking amazing at it and they’re incredible
i was having a rlly bad day at school and in maths class(my last hour of the day)my teacher started playing jump in the cadillac and i just started crying
I really don't want to laugh at your suffering but damn that's hilarious from the outside. I hope you're doing better now tho 💜
i showed my mom a ranboo video and accidentally reviled that i stole almost his every one of his speech patterns
In class, a guy compliments my Ranboo hoodie. I look at his hoodie and he’s wearing a Wilbur one. I compliment his as well. A girl nearby stands up and looks at us. She is wearing a Quackity hoodie. Somehow the universe has placed three Dream SMP fans together in the same class. The best part is you would never know we were fans without our merch. We could be anyone. We walk amongst the living
That makes me want to buy merch so bad
last night I wrote penis smp fanfic while sitting right next to my mom who doesn't think I swear. she could have looked at my screen at any time.
Asked “does a historical speech from a minecraft roleplay count?” For a kinetic typography assignment
Wrote a lyrical analysis on the l’manburg theme for a school project
o7
the reason i didn't answer "mumbo jumbo" to the philza's wife question is because mumbo jumbo is too busy being a gay whore in last life. he's gay married but also flirts with every man he comes across
True. Absolutely true.
I literally saw an anti vaxxer on tumblr talking about how it's bad that Tommy and tubbo have to get vaccinated just to see each other irl
!! i have a VERY IMPORTANT FACT: niki nihachu <3 also dsmp women in general,, hannah niki puffy tina collab when pls give it to me its all i want in life,,,,,, also unrelated but im in a musicy mood listen to romance by yoasobi and watch the video trust me its stunning :]
Watched it! Really cool visuals! The music just brings me back to my VOCALOID fandom fase (not that is possible to love the VOCALOID fandom completly though. I definitely haven't.)
I’m making a Wilbur soot animatic based on The Fall by lovejoy and I hope I can get it finished by the 16th !!
Good luck!!! That's awesome!
im in this hellhole more than 1 year how am i still alive akpqpqlajwhoq give money
I have exactly one irl friend who watches dsmp n I'm the one who got her into it >:]
Evil >:]
"Im not gay I just can't read" - Jack Manifold
i just want to know why ranboo was at the red banquet, dressed up and wearing a blindfold . w h y
i can't wait for big lore to come back djfjdkkf
Same
Why must life give its hardest battles to its weakest warriors
Sun Tzu, The Art of War
Please help okay so the problem is "Let P be the set of all people who have ever lived and define a relation R on P as follows: for every r and s that are elements or P, rRs <-> r is an ancestor of s or r =s. Is R a partial order relation? Prove or give a counter example." It's definitely reflexive ince when s=r then s=r which is true. It isn't symmetrical since that would be weird as hell, I mean a grandparent cannot be the grandchild of their own grandchild that would fuck up the family tree even more than the DSMPs but like, how do I prove that mathematically? Like, if rRs and sRr then r = s but "if person A is either a grandparent or the same person as person B and person B is either the grandparent or the same person as person A then person A is person B" just feels like a weird sentence.
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Just did the Komaeda checklist for c!Wilbur...
I don't wanna know. (I kinda do actually)
Catch me dual-wielding Hermitcraft and the Dream SMP… call me Hannah Montana cause I’m the best of both worlds
Same. Same. Call me Ariana Griande because I'm a-grian with you.
i just saw a post. soon, we will have enough tommy father figures for a mamma mia! au.
Months before I got into DSMP I had an internet friend interested in it and I was like "lol, nice, but could never be me" because I had gotten out of my 2016-2018 MCYT phase not that long ago at that point and didn't think I'd go back... Well...
ldshadowlady is a goddess amongst us all and we should recognize her as such.
True
HMMM well i messed up my eyeliner which has made me quite sad
Mumbo Jumbo could steal anyone’s wife
I always talk about wanting to bake bread again but I keep procrastinating. Same goes for writing fanfiction and stuff too. I have countless abandoned fics across all of the platforms I'm on, plus about ten that never made it out of Google docs or pure writer. I think I have a bit of a problem lol
I can assure you're not the only one. 👁️👄👁️
We all suffer from the procrastination problem. Don't put yourself down too much ok? You're doing that for yourself and if you don't feel like doing it then you don't feel like doing it. 💜
Wilbur with wings is unappreciated especially when you consider all the cool headcanons you can have for what they'd be like after his revival like skeleton wings or phantom wings or only wings DreamXD can see. Also ghostbur w/ blue melting/ evaporating wings *longing sigh*
That's pretty cool!
I figured out I was fine with any pronouns by brainstorming self insert dream smp fanfic
I have a huge crush on quackity
This one broke me and I don't know why. Every time I look at it I start laughing my ass off.
I got into it because of Woe to the People of Order
Oh, woe to thee, ye people of order
I hope your homes continue to smolder
And that you never rise again
And woe to those that called me a friend~
That's a badass way to join a fandom
I just miss Ghostbur man
Don't we all? (っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ Have some blue
#mcyt#dream smp#dream smp survey#survey#mcytblr#There have been so many more between compiling all of this...#long post
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Welcome to Live Commentary
I had no one to talk to while watching the movie and I hate being alone with my thoughts so I wrote everything down in my notes app. It's not coherent! Enjoy!
Aw yeah 1.5 seconds of Bular that is all I needed! Might as well stop now I've seen my boy I'm satisfied.
Why is there a nearly 4 minute recap as if I haven't watched the show at least 50 times. I should be the one giving the recap.
The beginning felt a bit forced to me but maybe that's just me? Like they just tried to squeeze too many things into a small timeframe without any buildup, it just didn't really work. Congrats on the engagement! This is my OTP so I'm very happy! But it came out of nowhere.
Nari in Douxies body is so wrong and I love it and hate it at the same time (positive)
Eli is BIG. I knew he was gonna be tall but I was not prepared for that chiseled face. Or the fact that he stepped off the ship without glasses? I wear glasses and I would not choose to step off a spaceship blind.
OkAY who had mpreg on their bingo card?
AAARRRGGHH actually said a full sentence 🥺 there is no heterosexual explanation for this scene and I'm here for it
Arcadia being the center of the universe really does make a lot of sense. I hate how much sense it makes. Despise it.
Strickler in a Christmas sweater is something i didn't know I needed. Jim's jacket too but that's just adorable, Jim's adorable. Oh sweet baby you're about to get fucked over so bad.
Love seeing Barbara actively participating in battle too. Good for her! Power family!!
Where are the kids tho? Is NotEnrique babysitting? Either that or they hired the girl from the Incredibles movie.
Nomura is so talented I love seeing her fighting on the good side. I can't explain it but I love digitigrade legs they're just so pretty?? Aesthetically pleasing??? Fuck yeah, legg! I could watch Nomura run around and be badass all day.
WAIT NO OH SHIT HOW DARE YOU FUCK
STRICKLER DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE NOT YOU TOO THAT'S TOO FUCKING RUDE DON'T DO THIS TO ME
THERE'S NO WAY HE'S DEAD RIGHT WE SAW NO BODY
Barbara does not deserve this I refuse to accept it. He's fine he'll be back they wouldn't kill two Changelings at once. Also Nomura is with Draal now I take no criticism.
So my favorite characters were Bular, Draal, Gunmar and Angor. And before this movie I always half-joked that everyone I love dies, how I still like Strickler and Nomura but apart from them all of my faves were killed in the very order of favoritism. AND NOW LOOK AT THIS. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I LOVE A CHARACTER. MY LOVE IS TOXIC.
OKAY I LOVE GUN RO- WAIT NO I DON'T LOVE HIM FUCK ABORT ABORT
It's great tho omg
I didn't realize it was Gun Robot when I saw it in the trailer this is amazing
Okay but imagine you're chilling in your trollmarket minding your own business when some misfit group of strangers waltzes in, steals your favorite shiny and celebrates your death before running off
"I AM GUN ROBOT" IS THE HORN LMAOOO
Nana better show up at some point to reunite with her boytoy, I'll cancel this entire franchise otherwise
Something bad is going to happen to Toby isn't it. He's getting too much screentime
Jim's hand got DEEP FRIED
ARCHIE NO
We can play Scrabble okay if they don't free them (which they must) I want an after credits scene of them playing scrabble
Douxie and Nari's bond 🥺🥺🥺
Nari pls just say what you fuckin mean the world is ending
Oh god is she going to remember killing Nomura oh nooo
Claire don't make the portal you will die again. Your hair gon be white all over
EVERYONE AVOIDING THE SCHOOL JUST RIGHT THERE LMAO RIP
I love how Darci is just with the school bus. Civilian girlfriend. But also love how the world is ending and Coach is like "fuck that I'm gonna teach these kids"
Does he know his son is pregnant
"Going back to the city where it's safe" buddy have you been to that city
Whatever happens, Nari has the coolest looking titan. Giant four legged gremlin. I'd adopt him.
WAIT SHE CAN FEEL THE PAIN?
Me: oh i love that titan
The titan 5 seconds later:
Did Nari just fucking die what the FUCK
Oh of COURSE the pages are stuck together RIGHT THERE
Seriously tho how do you not notice an entire nougat nummy in a book
Wait so Arcadia has another heartstone? Or OH SO IT'S ALIVE. OKAY GREAT. GUNMAR COULDN'T EVEN DO THAT RIGHT HUH
Love how the Heartstone has been dormant/dead for months and apparently heard Blinky say it's alive and decided to wake up RIGHT THEN
Finally they're evacuating the city. This is like, the third apocalypse there. About time.
Okay so you can't pull Excalibur from the rock, but you CAN carve out the stone. Couldn't you just carve it off the sword as close as possible and like. Use that? Just swing the whole damn rock around?
God i can NOT get over Steve's pants. I mean I read a spoiler he was gonna be pregnant but I thought it was a prank or shitpost. I did not see this coming and I am never going to be over it. I love how he and Aja just roll with it and nobody else even cares. They've seen weirder stuff. So he's pregnant now. Whatever.
Jim's hand is bandaged and his ribs still hurt. I love that they're actually consistent with his injuries. I mean sucks for him but hell yeah for hero that doesn't always win!
Okayyy here comes the heartstone. Why not!
IS HE IN LABOR
So if you kiss an Akiridion 7 times you will have 3-5 babies in a few hours. How are they not overpopulated?? Also Aja couldn't have WARNED STEVE BEFOREHAND?
Eli is so supportive omfg
So uh where are the babies gonna come out of? I'm not into mpreg how does this usually work
OH STEVE THANKS FOR ASKING MY QUESTION
Oh good thing he happens to have 8 friends still alive. Otherwise this would've never worked. Nomura had to die otherwise there would've been 10 of them.
Why is everyone bowing to Jim? Did they rehearse this?
Stuart if you hadn't taken a bathroom break you would've thrown off the math and doomed the world. That was a poop of fate my man
Ahhh the signature quote. Where did Douxie and the Akiridions learn it? Did they rehearse this too? It's really cliché but I do like it tbh
If Strickler were dead we'd see more Barbara right?
WOOO BLINKY DRIVING
Ah Jim just used she/her for Bellroc! Finally we're learning some pronouns. I've been wondering this whole time.
MY VIRGIN EYES. WHAT IS GOING O N
How are they not dying with all this lava?
She really just yeeted Varvatos
Did Claire just tell AAARRRGGHH to jump off the titan and he did it without question
I want to say I like Stuart and want him to have more screentime, but I won't say it because I don't want him to die
Jim's poor ribs
Toby can drive yoooo
Tobyyy you're scaring meeeee
So did they really need the different stone or was the amulet just waiting for Jim to choose death over giving up
I saw the armor before but it looks VERY COOL
Also I didn't mention this before but I love that they cut Merlin's name from the incantation. Good for them.
Toby you lost your helmet noooo
For real tho I'm terrified for Toby rn. I saw a comment somewhere earlier that just said "Toby no" with no context and I am AFRAID
So do Bellroc's eyes work after all? I thought she was blinded back in Wizards in the past.
DID SHE JUST FUCKING STAB MY BOY
TOBY YOU SHOULD NOT BE THERE GET OUT THE TRUCK
Bellroc maybe screaming "i'm powerless" in front of your enemy isn't the best idea
She sploosh
DID JIM SURVIVE THAT FALL AND ALSO IS THE TACO TRUCK OKAY
How is he lifting Claire like that buddy you have bruised ribs and just got stabbed
ELI HI CAN WE SEE THE KIDS
SEVEN KIDS! AND ELI JR I LOVE IT
This show really loves to give people more than the recommended amount of babies with no warning huh
She immediately knows which one is Eli Jr 🥺 okay listen I'm not the biggest fan of comic relief sideplot surprise babies, but I have to admit they're cute. Cute couple. Throuple. Eli is in on this. He even has a Junior.
I TOLD YOU WHERE'S THE DAMN TACO TRUCK NANA WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU AND NEITHER WILL I
Oh yea he better fuckin be alive I will commit murder
HE BETTER FUCKIN BE ALIVE BITCH
FUCK YOU
THAT'S A WHOLE ASS CHILD HE ISN'T ALLOWED TO DIE IT'S ILLEGAL
JIM IS GONNA LOOK DOWN AT THE GREEN GLOWING BITCH AAARRRGGHH CONVENIENTLY THREW THERE AND SEE HIM ALIVE OR SOMETHING
YEAH USE THE SWORD TO UNDEAD HIM! THAT'S HOW YOU USE SWORDS!
Unbecoming Part 2
So is Jim just gonna Groundhog Day it until everyone is fine? There's only 13 minutes left we're gonna need a bigger movie
Also I screamed so much about everyone's death and now everyone reading this after they already saw the whole thing is gonna shame me for clowning huh
The scene where Blinky is giving his goodbye speech, there are no babies and Steve has a round belly? Did he reabsorb them?? I mean I know Jim is about to un-birth them but he hasn't started yet
JUST HOW FAR BACK IS HE PLANNING TO GO
WAIT HOLD UP EXCUSE ME WHAT
Oh they did NOT just do that. I though he was just gonna go back to like, the start of the movie maybe. Not all the way
Imagine being in your early twenties with as much trauma as this kid has and having to pretend you're 16 again
Somewhere Unkar is complaining because "oh sure NOW it's a good idea"
I know Jim is wondering where Toby is because he was there before. But before, he made an entire meatloaf AND did his homework before leaving the house, so honey maybe wait a minute
For a second I thought Toby wasn't gonna be there and Jim would return to the right time. But there he is!
Alright so they're in school now, did they take the canal and just didn't mention the amulet on screen or did they pass it as if the Unbecoming episode hadn't been that traumatizing? Jim you know what happens when you ignore it
Jim maybe you're being too obvious here lmao
Soooo. Anyway. These whole past years I've rewatched this show over and over and over again are cancelled now?
OKAY AT LEAST WE SAW NANA FOR A SPLIT SECOND THAT'S IRONIC TIMING
So we get the quote again. And Trollhunter Tobias is nice. Cool. Cool AU I mean, but I don't know. I don't knowwww. I've been way too invested in everything to just accept that it never happened?? So uh. Hm. How about this.
Strickler survived because fuck you, and Toby also survived and just has scars now. Maybe a wheelchair but he's fine, also he can use the Warhammer for super speed and make it awesome once he's used to it. Archie and Charlie get freed once they rebuild the bridge (and they were playing scrabble to pass the time). Nomura is still dead because she died on screen and I can't really deny that but she's with Draal so it's okay. Everyone is traumatized but they'll be fine. NotEnrique is still babysitting 500 babies and Steve is about to bring 7 more.
In summary, I reject Groundhog Day ending but everything else was great, as long as it actually happened. It was a good movie. But you can't just cancel years of passion. Having the prospect of a million "canon AUs" sounds great for writing but at the same time nooo you can't do that he didn't have to go back THAT far HHHHH
I liked the movie. It was a great watch and a satisfying end to a franchise, but I gotta say I do not fancy the ending of it so I will from now on be in denial. I honestly feel kind of betrayed that this show was my whole life for so long, I learned every smallest fact, and they basically deleted it from existence. I know what they were going for, I think, but no thank you I will be going with my own opinion. Still gonna rewatch it a few dozen times though ✌🏻
And that concludes my live commentary that was supposed to be a small handful of notes. Feel free to shame me for my opinions. See ya!
#rott spoilers#trollhunters#tales of arcadia#this got a LOT longer than expected#i'd be surprised if anyone actually read the whole thing but oh well#i just. have a LOT of opinions#i started out so optimistic too#mpreg mention#can't believe i have to use that tag on a post about canon
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Chapter 287 - Aw flashback time 🥺 Urokai baby,,, also Roctis. You're cool too dad ig.
- "Your visits are becoming more frequent" and how do you feel about that Raizel? I ask him this while having him lay down on a couch because I am now his therapist. Every time he speaks I gently ask him to explain how he feels and at the end I give him a sign to wear saying "please ask me how i feel whenever i say something so i don't cause misunderstandings".
- Rayga being told to fight better like "huh I've never needed to because us nobles are op"
- Aww Urokai's being bigoted again <3 But yeah on a serious note pls stop,,, Also it's basically confirmed in this scene that it's a mixture of Frankenstein being a modified human + Raizel giving him attention that has Urokai so mad. Which, the modified part is fair if you consider that aside from Frankenstein all other modified humans have been the result of major pain and suffering. Ofc he should still actually try to get to know Frankenstein and learn the truth instead of just being an ass but nobody's immediately gonna believe that Frankenstein got this strong just because he tested on himself just like that.
- Anyway I'm pretty sure Rayga saying Urokai isn't usually so agitated making him flinch is actually showing how he's not allowed to be himself and instead must keep a calm elegant facade. Like he'd be looked down on if he was himself even if he didn't hate Frankenstein. Meanwhile Roctis just chill as Urokai throws his tantrums. Dragon clan solidarity 😔
- I love mvp lord so much I- "damn i thought you'd be seduced by my blood. should I just have done it the old fashioned way and seduced you with my body? hmm you're not really my type though-" and so on and so forth. I want to be there to help him make fun of his clan leaders and Frankenstein and Raizel.
Chapter 288 - Let Ashoka talk! He has to work all day and sit on that throne 24/7/365 and nobody talks to him but you can't be bothered to let him go on a tangent? If it was me I'd be steering the conversation to the topic of his favourite clan leader to cause drama smh.
- "Why is he cooped up inside all the time? How does he cope? Isn't it suffocating? Isn't he lonely?" I think the lord might be showing his own feelings about his own life here,,,
- Ashoka's right though, if I was a vampire I wouldn't want to bite random ppl. That's why you gotta seduce them into taking a shower first.
- Zarga who was just heading to visit Raizel normally but ended up having Roctis and Urokai tag along and stayed silent the entire time... i think he was probably going "i just wanted to have a staring contest with ser raizel in peace why did yall have to make it dramatic" inwardly
Chapter 289 - No seriously Zarga's first word in this flashback is "Urokai" because he's keeping him from murdering Frankenstein...
- I mean it's not that Raizel doesn't like visitors, he's just terrified of having to kill ppl he cares about. So it's less dislike and more of an existential dread I feel considering that he does actually love the traitors. Get it right Frankenstein.
- Zarga's just 🧍♂️always. He's the true statue representation among nobles.
Chapter 290 - You know something's wrong when even Roctis and Zarga are all "why Frankenstein got you so mad bro". They just don't get how much he cares about Raizel... They hang with Raizel for the staring contests, Urokai does it as paparazzi, y'all aren't the same. But Zarga's second speech bubble so far is telling Urokai he gets weirdly angry when it comes to Frankenstein.
- Lagus looks like a stick. I know that all those lines are supposed to show how old and shrivelled he is but yeah to me his skin is just actual bark. Anyway ignoring canon lagus for young pretty boy propaganda <3 tho tbf I do still have him as he is in canon and he only shifts back to being pretty when asked to by someone who knows hes just faking.
- Lagus straight up saying that Urokai is more emotional,,, yeah. All I can see Urokai thinking is "shut up old man" tho lmao
- Zarga's third speech bubble "Frankenstein annoying us is hilarious <3"
- Fourth "Frankenstein figured out we're evil because we visit ser Raizel" but like tbh anyone who looks at the expressions Urokai makes would have figured it out imo. Like guys he's your pet dog surely you've noticed what he does with his face.
- All of Zarga's talking is repeating info or commenting on what's happening/giving insight when it's not about Urokai. The things that actually give him personality aside from that is the third speech bubble and him just always... standing there doing nothing. My lazy king who babysits Urokai and loves him... ily
- No but if Urokai used a shred of critical thinking he'd probably go "huh. why do the humans have something belonging to a person Frankenstein cared for deeply... huh why do the assholes working with us hate Frankenstein? Huh." Like all the other traitors i think def figured it out. Urokai's just gone stupid from hatred. Zarga might not know but not because he's stupid. It's cos he's zoned out head empty no thoughts always.
- I'm just saying
- I think Gejutel and Lagus are friends because Lagus is just friends with everyone while Gejutel is too but when Lagus became an old stick man Gejutel's farm brain came out and went "stick important. can make farm tools. Is best friend now"
- How tf is a lance similar to a glaive Gejutel? Also you know Urokai wants to murder Frankenstein why are you allowing this spar to happen? And why tf are you spectating when you have duties that prevented you from sparring in the first place? Lies. All you spout are lies grandpa.
Chapter 291 - I've mentioned this b4 but it really took them several hours to find a sparring spot, huh? Like it was just bright daylight but now it's night. Or did they like arrange a time and place and reconvene in which case why couldn't you just be the one he sparred grandpa? Going insane.
- Lagus "The totally not evil humans I work with say Frankenstein is evil" and because Zarga doesn't want to make the mood weird with Gejutel around he goes "theyre probably full of shit though"
- And then Rayga also came to spectate out of fucking nowhere. Mr gargoyle with his entertainment sensor. Between Rayga and Zarga I think they're the airheaded pretty boys of the clan leaders. Their looks appeal to different types of ppl.
- HOW IS A LANCE LIKE A GLORIFIED SPEAR
Chapter 292 - Lagus and Roctis comment on how Urokai being angry is bad but Zarga just goes "Urokai" like??? Urokai what? Please add an emoji after so I can understand. Is it "Urokai <3" or "Urokai 😥" or do you just like saying his name or? What does it mean? WHAT DOES IT MEAN?
- They only do a close up of Zarga when Urokai loses his eye like okay more fodder for me misinterpreting things. Thank you <3
- Also like maybe it's just me but if someone lost their eye in a spar I would immediately be interfering instead of continuing talking with the other spectators and then going "hey you should stop now guys" while still standing on a cliff way overhead. Like put your body between them guys.
- Look obviously Urokai is at fault for being an asshole and having ulterior motives but it was also super fucked up of Frankenstein to be planning to severely harm Urokai too??? Like Gejutel, Rayga, you two mention yourselves that Frankenstein was aiming for worse damage and losing an eye was less damage than planned. Hell even Frankenstein says that. Do you guys not realise that in such a case, Frankenstein is the one at fault? Even with the capacity of healing that nobles have, aiming to incapacitate them intentionally in what is meant to be a friendly spar is horrifying. Imo we should give both Frankenstein and Urokai the Rael treatment. Throw them in jail for a decade. If this had been a neutral or friendly clan leader who didn't have ulterior motives but was similarly impulsive and easily manipulated and tricked... I think losing a fucking eye in a spar would be good reason to hate Frankenstein forever afterwards.
If Frankenstein truly suspected something was extremely off about the spar, he should have just refused the offer. Just. Wtf is wrong with this entire spar... Both participants go in planning to incapacitate the other from the get go, the spectators are inclusive of idiots who are on victim blaming territory, even the spectators on Urokai's side don't particularly care about the injury aside from maybe Zarga, how do you live with these fools lord? Like what if Frankenstein had completely succeeded with his attack? Nobles may be able to heal greatly but I don't think Urokai would survive getting part or all of his head blown off guys. Would you all still be so chill then? "Actually it was Urokai's fault for underestimating Frankenstein so the murder is okay <3" fuck off. Like none of these idiots are thinking anything through at all. Maybe just getting an eye destroyed is commonplace for nobles not that that's true either from all the training we've seen the nobles do but i think dying isn't which is the logical conclusion to what would have occurred if Urokai hadn't been lucky. Nobody cares about Urokai except me and mayhaps Zarga apparently and I really want to scream at everyone present in the screen right now. Including Urokai for the shit he's doing too.
Chapter 293 - Oh Tesamu flashback within a flashback chapter,,, please heal my anger with the inherent cuteness of a child.
- I always did wonder why Frankenstein didn't just... take Tesamu with him. Like he's implied to be an orphan and considering he's a Noblesse character I don't think he has anyone aside from Frankenstein so... as Mevek would say, it's free children!
- So like once again, I'm guessing all nobles noticed that Frankenstein was consumed and not just Ashoka and Raizel.
- I know Raizel says he never goes out but like... he very obvious practices poses with Ashoka fairly often.
- Wow Urokai, your gaping wound hurts after the lord and noblesse appear to interfere? I wonder why. Couldn't possibly be the vibrations and power from Frankenstein's attack and the overwhelming power of the two strongest nobles being detrimental to an already horrific injury. Nope, not at all. But like he does look cute here lol. Baby.
- Okay yeah Urokai is at fault for being bloodthirsty but he isn't at fault for losing an eye Ashoka. Please read my two paragraphs complaining about it above. I'm gonna go scream in the local well as one does now.
Chapter 294 - Oh, a noblesse using their own blood when they need more power is straight up canon lol. Pretend I never said that was a hc of mine 😣
Chaoter 295 - The angry face Urokai makes after talking to Frankenstein 😶 He has such a sweet smile while he's lying too like goddamn.
- No but you should have told Raizel straight up that you put your blood in his tea... Consent bro. You're just lucky Raizel doesn't even hold a grudge against ppl who try to fucking murder him.
- Aaaaand end flashback
Sidenotes - I think nobles who have rituals forcing people into death and a toxic culture that condones heavy bodily harm should sit down in a circle and share their happy childhood stories. Oh wait their parents abandon them and they're traumatised and they are put in charge and the cycle repeats so there aren't any. Sorry let's start again. I'll share some happy stories and you guys have to tell me what the moral is. If you're wrong you dont get a sticker that says you're a good girl/boy and because i know you nobles all crave validation it'll torture you all if you dont get any so this plan will work. So let's start :)
- Ashoka is so pretty. If only he was a woman,,, same goes for Urokai and Ludis and all the other men mistaken for women by some fans. Wish that was me.
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i’m watching London now and
Gwyn’s reacting to meeting Mojo for the first time and i’m. so upset. he sounds proper terrified. :’(
he either just said “wow...wolf...” or “warmth”
LONDON MOJO HAS A TAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIILLLLLLLLLL
MOJO BARKED
that howl sounds like me whenever i see new tgm content
URSUS CROUCHES DOWN TO THE KIDS’ LEVEL
I’M COMPROMISED
oh sh he immediately follows it up with “you can’t stay here” damn ursus
WHY IS IT DANGEROUS URSUS. WHAT DOES THAT MEAN.
Mojo sounds like he’s about to end Ursus’ life fr
the NOISES in this version. We’ve got dizzy!Gwyn and i am getting serotonin. which is a little weird but i’ll take it
the baby noises are super real but nothing beats Ms. Brisson’s baby noises i’ll tell u that
“Who is this? Your sister?” “No.” ashfajfhaj
there’s both More and Way Less going on in this scene like Gwyn’s just kinda standing there like “okay”
he’s walking around now
just dropped like a sack of potatoes when Dirry-Moir goes “HIS FACE DID IT”
ooh Ursus sounds even more Done
why does she have a necklace that says Dea. does Ursus not know his wife had that. why does she have necklace
is “loved by the father she would never see” part of the inscription?
Did Ursus Get A Necklace For His Unborn Kid And Try To Send His Family AWAEY?
Mr. Maskell’s just yanking that puppet’s head all over the place
this poor kid sounds like he’s straight up dying i feel so bad
he’s like sobbing and Ursus thinks it’s a laugh
side note that the cowl is Stunning and An Excellent Look as always
*harsh whisper* “and it was then that i saw! that the boy could do nothing but! . . grin.”
“gaAAaaah” oh Gwyn
“I watched you, boy, I saw your poor mother drown” AND YOU JUST LET HIM WANDER OFF INTO THE SNOW???
Ursus no disrespect but he’s kinda having a moment and you’re just
Ursus i swear if you do not get that child a tylenol
god he went after that like a magnetized kitten holy heck Gwyn
points awarded for sounding delirious
you are like super coherent and goal-oriented laddie
i don’t know what this voice is Mr. Maskell is doing but i kind of love it but it also Does Not Fit
he’s like simultaneously delirious as hell but also more lucid than Bristol!Gwyn couldve ever dreamed of being
AHSFJAGHA THIS VERSION OF BROKEN AND ALONE I’M
WHAT
IT’S HIGH IT’S HIGH HE’S HIGH IT’S HIGH
Oh god the sobbing
i’ve held out this long but i’m finally forced to say it. think i might kinda love Mr. Maskell a little bit.
nvm i hate the way he just stood up i take it back
oml the voice on “father?” hsjhsj
kinda abrupt transition to stars in the sky
it sounds different but ooh smooth ooh i kinda like it
“am I dreaming” BABEYYYY
Ursus just like “Lemme go ahead and Not Answer That Question.”
idk why but this song always feels like Ursus half expects Gwyn to die in his sleep or something
dang Ursus doesn’t even wait for him to fall asleep he just jumps right on back like “sink or swim kidlet my hand in this is DONE”
i just realized it’s Just Him puppeteering this kid. somehow looks Stranger than multiple ppl workin the puppet but it might be the angle
on my life i swear it looked like Ursus just either punched the wall or threw a dart at a board
aw Ursus has a lil lie down in this one. about 672000 feet away from the Mojo + Kids pile but still
Mr Maskell just levitated the puppet
what on earth kinda rotational maneuver w
i think they just did actual magic of some sort. i am. bewildered. what.
“Dea!” awwwwwww
“mMOJO!” good gracious.
SHE’S ON THE WOLF
man they cut out “I DON’T WANT STORRIES”
Gwyn’s tone on “no, Beauty and the Beast” here XD
“The Goblin and the Fishmonger?” “No”
“The Bride Who Loved Salt?” “Noooo”
Gwyn’s got a favorite word in this edition and it’s “no”
awwwwwwwwwwweee the “YES!” reactions that’s too cute actually
the Beast voice in this one X’D
“I’m...dying. I’m. . .bleh.” *slaps puppet down on table” i am in tears
wait a second they cut out the whole “You’re the wicked witch” thing. DISAPPOINTED
“WHOoOoOAH” GWYNLIT STOP
abrupt swerve into super smooth “never did I dream” i’m so
i have mixed feelings about the “I’d like to be a Lord” but oof “and wake up in a real palace” hits different after “Am I dreaming?”
why are they reacting to the floaty bit or are we just supposed to imagine that the kids are still dancing and are just going all spinny or
OHHHHHHH HOLY NIIIIIGHT THE SPINNING THE SPINNING THE HAND HOLDING THE SPINNING THEY’RE SPINNING WHAT WHAT I
IS THIS REAL
I HAVE ASCENDED
im cry
i like how he just yeets her across the room and he starts up with “never did I dream” like “pls ignore the fact that I totally just threw you across the room”
she just flung out a hand and drew him to her like the gosh darn force and that’s on
his outfit has colors this time
she kissed him so good he lost his right elbow for a second
ngl i do love the way London!Gwyn does the “has given me LIFE” like that little upward hitch on the ‘i’ i just like the sound okay
the choreo is a little odd tho
Gwyn fully looks like he’s two seconds away from doing a little dance number but he keeps stopping just short of getting to it
what is this headbob he’s doing good grief
go off with your little dramatic hand wiggle and holding Dea’s hand up like it’s simba! i see you! yeah Gwynplaine! strike that pose!
London!Gwyn uses crimson lethe instead of milk in his cereal, that’s the only possible explanation
the man is LIT UP
he is drunk on love and homebrew painkillers
what does Dirry-Moir swear was real? the puppets? He just pointed out everything going black so he’s either breaking the fourth wall or Clarence’s death literally triggered an eclipse
QUAKE?
they just hop in the cart and Ursus locks it up X’D “Get in the car, kids!”
he let Dirry-Moir come in their HOUSE oh no
and this post is way too long so i’ll cut it here but! Bristol owns my heart but i will not deny having a good time so far.
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Reaction umbrella academy. Ep 10, s1:
- looks like reggie is a time traveler. But with his wife was he in the past or future???????
- GLAD LUTHER TRIED TO APOLOGIZE TO POGO. AS YOU SHOULD.
- I understand possessed vanya destroying the rooms she felt excluded from, but tell me a memory of luke and allison doing unplatonic things trigger you??? Girl who wants to cockblock. If anything the usual reaction is to go “shit sorry” and then leave😭 i just feel like that’s an odd memory to trigger her. Felt more like a reminder of allison and luther’s feelings going on since they were young, than something that upset vanya.
- god I understand she was possessed sort of and not in control but how she murdered pogo? Even if i can like her and all she can never be my fave. That was horrible. Him and Grace were the only love she got as a child. To murder him like that and watch him as he struggles with his last breaths?? Awful. Im glad his death was emotional and luther was hurt. An emotional scene is what pogo deserved :(
- mom’s moment is heartbreaking too.
- uhm.... can we just take a moment to realize this is all happening because five left for like 30 minutes?? Sjfjdjf literally nothing would have happened if he had stayed. I just KNOW he would have called them dumb for locking vanya and talked to her himself bc her demons talked to her.
- WHY DO THEY ALWAYS ASSUME KLAUS IS LYING HIS POWER IS LITERALLY THE DEAD HOW DOES THAT NO MAKE SENSE U STUPID FUCKS. HE DIDNT LIE ABOUTUR DAD EITHER WHH WOULD HE LIE ABOUT THIS
- damn fuck you got me. I started the show bc i saw a fun edit of s2. Ik allison finds a husband and loves him very much, but fuck im rooting for her and luther to end up together a little?????? They just have a bond sjdjdjd i hate the writers for this they really should have just had a strong sibling bond but here we are :/
- respect to hazel for that cha-cha has me tired. Has anyone had the conversation that from the only black women in the show the dark skin one is the insufferable one?? No?? We still waitong on that!? Would have literally made more sense to have her be in the position of hazel and hazel be the sort of power hungry one. I dont even blame the show, Netflix just had such bad reputation with dark skin female characters. Still glad cha-cha got fucked tho sjdjdjf
- why is diego on luther’s ass about a plan and being a leader as if he wasn’t just as bad lmaoooo. Y’all don’t function unless is under five or allison’s instructions sir pls sit tf down you BOTH useless.
- IS THAT THE COMMISSION?? GOD I HATE THEM
- PLS AGNES MUST BE SO CONFUSED SEEING THE LITTLE BOY HAVE THIS MUCH AUTHORITY WITH THIS OLD ASS DANGEROUS WOMAM SHDJD
- five is literally the only one that ever makes sense. However the one thing he lacks is communication. He keeps wanting to save everyone on his own and keeps leaving them in the dark. Had he told them earlier of apocalypse with vanya there this wouldn’t happen. Had he told them more about everything he wouldn’t be pulled away so easily. He gotta work on not thinking himself as the one carrying everyone and rely on them more. Altho i agree with him that he is the smartest. The others getting angry at that is dumb. He is 58 anyways and all he had to do for decades was read books. So that’s a given.
- i was gonna say thank you luther but never mind. WHY ARE MAN SO DUMB LET ALLISON DO IT DAMN IT.
- damn it agnes she really is an angel “everyone has a past” god i love her
- also i wanted five to kill the handler im a little :/
- men ruined it. Couldn’t let vanya have this. After all the shit, i like vanya more than luther and diego. I don’t dislike them BUT THEY NEVER FUCKINF LISTEN.
- OKAY HOLD UP THE FINALE WAS A LOT OKAY.
- im soso glad hazel and agnes made it and escaped. Agnes deserves the world thank u for coming to my ted talk
- i can see why allison in s2, being separated and not knowing if luther is alive AND having him constantly ignore her bc “he knows better” caused her to marry someone else later and offer him to go with her. I honestly do like luther and allison and they prob will be endgame, but he has to learn to listen to her and know they can protect each other and is not always him protecting her. He has to get the “but im the leader” bs out of his head to make it work with her. Which im guessing will happen in s3 later on anyways.
- if only they listened to FUCKING ALLISON
- i wonder if allison had just like,,,, hugged vanya instead of scaring her with the gunshot the apocalypse wouldn’t happen????
- i see they aren’t escaping but rather five has a plan to run away and just start again in order to solve it. Makes sense.
- YES KLAUS U GO BABY AND BEN!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THEY DESERVE!!!!!
- glad cha-cha died goodness gracious
- i liked that the children appear on the last shot of the circle. If only andy mustard ugly ass would have taken notes for It Chapter 2 BUT I DIGRESS
Overall good season good show. I liked it. I like all characters but top 3 are def allison, five, and klaus. And ben. So top 4 bc ben is a puppy who i will always love a treasure. Hope we keep seeing klaus’ powers grow too.
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Review Response, June 28 - July 4, 2020
Another week!
Destiny #020
1) You say “imagine how happy they’d be!” But knowing you I’m pretty sure that’s not that direction you’re going in T_T
Anyways, a stray thought came across my mind while reading this chapter. I’m around these some of these kids age right? With some definitely younger than me yet, if I were in their position, I would most likely have died on the first day... They’re truly the best of their world, huh? Imagine being that powerful. Beyond even their experiences, because even when they all first started their journey they were surely inexperienced and still faced many hardships without losing hope (or dying lmao). But they are after all, protagonists, and people don’t write stories about others who can’t survive something dangerous in the first place.
One of these dangerous things being sacrifices! I swear to god, no one can every say chivalry is dead with these people. Constantly making sacrifices. I don’t consider myself all that selfish, but all they’re selflessness makes me think otherwise. What with Diamond putting himself in harm’s way for Platinum (although him, I can understand, he does love her and it *is* sort of his duty?) and Blue sacrificing her somewhat artificial happiness in the last chapter, and just so much more. Let me tell you, if I had seen zombies, I would have said fuck this and high tailed my way outta there. You’re on your own lady, I’m not turning into a cannibal by eating brains even when there’s legendaries band in order to escape someone would need to hold them back. Although what could one person do anyhow. The odds are just too high against them.
Going back to stray thoughts, when you mentioned the ice shard near the end of the chapter the only thing that came across my mind was, “that fucking weavile again”. And lo behold! That fucking weavile again. For a guy having over 200 Pokémon with many different kinds of attacks, he sure does love using that one ice shard attack to ambush people. (Might I dare say that he’s... a simpleton at heart?!). Peter can go suck it tbh.
Well, I think that’s common in most anime/manga, right? The protagonists tend to survive things that they have no chance in surviving. And because of that, I try to ignore some of the realistic damages that would be done to them. If I try to keep things too realistic, everyone would die very quickly. Hehe.
Haha. Everyone for themselves in a zombie attack? Well, maybe if you had someone you’re devoted to, that might change. I think I would do what Diamond did, personally.
Ah, yes. The freaking Weavile. The Mega Hunter is based on a real life friend who may or may not still be in Pokemon Special Discord, so the Pokemon he uses in Destiny are pretty much what he has in his game files, using combos that he uses in the games. Like that Eruption all-in. Motherf*cking Eruption all-in... Anyways. The Weavile is his anti-sweep guy. It’s his contingency Pokemon in case his opponent used Dragon Dance or Quiver Dance one too many times and is in danger of sweeping the entire team. Fake Out for free damage. Then Ice Punch or Knock Off on the turn it takes a hit and survives with Focus Sash, and if that’s not enough, Ice Shard afterwards. And usually the Ice Shard does enough, especially if the boosted Pokemon is not resistant to Ice. And because of that, if he’s not using a dedicated all-in team, the Weavile is ALWAYS THERE. So... freaking Weavile, indeed.
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1) I mean, damn. I can hardly blame her for her decision, it’s actually a little genius. Betraying trust for either side would be awful for Blue (even though Peter was *technically* the one to kill Silver, but FINE Blue whatever) and so... why not just give up the chance of both? Until she comes to the realization that stepping out would actually be betraying both sides, which would probably make her feel worse. I wonder what it will be that makes Blue join the Dexholder’s side? It’s gotta be in just a little while. I can’t see her changing her mind too quickly, but at at least in the next 15 chapters, I think? That’s a large gap. And maybe it’ll be Green who finds her and finally manages to convince her to fight. Well, we’ll just have to see.
But regarding Silver... I had no idea he would die. It makes a bit of sense now, since he did not have a lot of screen time (? Fic time? Or maybe just focus..). And this actually kind of surprises me because I would have imagined that you’d take the opportunity to hit it where it hurts (no judgement it’s a writer thing to do), which then makes me realize you probably will... but who? My bets are on Diamond. That would hurt admittedly. And you said three deaths, right? Then either Black or White (not just because they’re from a different generation, but because one of them would die right after finding each other again). But then I also remember you seeing “no more than”, so it might just be two.
No joke tho, when Platinum stepped into the graveyard I’d been ready to bet 500 in cold hard cash that Diamond was brainwashed. Had there been anyone to bet with me I could have boughten a PlayStation 4 for myself.
Ah, poor Blue. Declaring neutrality after losing all hope in life... but she’s not truly allowed to be neutral... ... 15 chapters? Heh. That’s FAR too long. If she’s left to herself and so she has to rely on her mood steadily improving, then yes, it would probably take 15 chapters or something. But if she was to be... shocked out of her state...
And if memory serves... this was the chapter I wrote while I was in the hospital after getting stabbed. And I had to type with one hand because I couldn’t move my left after that incident. That was... almost 5 years ago. Damn.
Hehe. Silver used up his screen time to increase someone else’s screen time. Hitting where it hurts? ... Well, I do that at times. But I also hit where it doesn’t hurt at times. In short, I just hit. ... Sounds awful in and out of context. Hmm... Three deaths, huh? Well, I remember saying that in early Destiny. But I also remember saying that I retract that statement later on, upping the max death count from 3 to unspecified. “It might just be two”. Ohohoho!
Hehe. Oh, you are right before the chapter that has the critical scene which helped create Destiny in the first place. And I eagerly await your reaction. Huhuhu...
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DE #031
1) This is extremely cute. Moar of this pairing pls
... You know, I almost forgot that I wrote that pairing.
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Still at 3, huh? 7500 words. It never ceases to amaze me how disappointed I can get with every story update.
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i just love reality tv.
recently terrace house, the twitch therapy sessions by dr. k, and just all the constant twitter drama. it’s so insightful and i learn so much from people’s experiences & perspectives.
recently there’s been league of legends t_s_m drama. pretty spicy stuff, tsm president leena was heard in the background of doublelift’s stream how nobody wanted to pick up dardoch.
very terrible pr nightmare. a lot of people made statements, big yikes :/ leena was like “oops yea the volume was too high”
nonono. u gotta do what jane said pr teams recommend — which is to just shut up!!!! think really hard about how you want to frame it & come off. show an understanding of the situation & show how you are going to change.
it’s kind of a dumpster fire. it’s because though the ROOT of the problem has not been dealt with. it’s just a fact that it IS a controversal conflict of interest that DL & Leena are dating and he’s on TSM now.
just shows the immaturity? of the esports scene. nobody knows what to do because this is all new stuff. and i’m not surprised that it’s not very professional. unless outright established, the professional boundaries between work and friends is completely blurred.
also i can feel the conversation of sexism & e-girls coming to a head. i’m very tired with the current status quo of women (what’s new). it’s just that a new dimension of media opens up and it ends up being kind of a similar thing where women are just hot. now they’re also funny. and sometimes good at video games. but they’re all e-girls. because they’re hot. and now i’m going to dehumanize them depending on what kind of stigmas i hold against e-girls and women.
the ceo of h2k, rich (known to be an asshole) straight up commented on how leena was an e-girl and basically, a hoe
it is just eye-opening to realize how the esports scene and so many people — even big famous ceos, even pillars of the community — are responding to this issue.
poor leena i feel for her though. i’m sure she’s in a lot of trouble & feels terrible.
the real issue is that blurred line between friendship and professionalism. in the esports scene it’s okay and normal to flirt with your coworkers, talk about private team info with people who it’s “chill” with, etc. the culture is causing problems.
i think the only way to make everyone shut up is by kicking doublelift off. but there is no way that is happening. i think tsm will continue what they want to do, handling each pr nightmare at a time lolol.
also makes me realize though... it all reminds me of when i wrote for la voz and i was the professional face of the newspaper. and damn sometimes people took that shit real seriously! there was real politics, dramas, harsh criticism lobbed at us, at the student senate, at faculty whatever. we always had to be actively responding to this community that took what we said seriously. sometimes in the office we were unprofessional but that could get us in trouble.
at the same time with this context i wish people would just relax. like the h2k ceo guy is obviously crossing the fucking line and should settle down. he’s just being an asshole & getting attention&validation from other assholes.
that’s what it is when you’re a public figure. everybody has their own fucking opinion. but you have to moderate your fans and community. help them grow to be good people. but sometimes it’s out of your hands. (the league community is insanely toxic, since the beginning.)
i genuinely believe these public figures are trying to be good people, and do good things. mistakes are, a lot of the time, just out of ignorance. not knowing any better. like you shouldn’t just yell at a noob in a game imo. especially if you knew them or they were your friend, you wouldn’t treat them like that.
i guess it’s just empathy. people haven’t been on the receiving side of gossip, mean comments, straight up hate. they don’t realize that the people they’re lobbing comments at are just sitting at their computer screen, feelin pretty terrible about all this shit.
yeahhhh so make sure you have a good local support system. don’t be afraid to seek therapy & help get all the really complicated issues figured out.
in the pokimane video where she was receiving therapy, the dr said “humans have two rights. to suffering and to death.” that’s so true. and a lot of the times when we are privileged and have so much in our life, we feel awful for ever feeling bad. and we feel awful if we’re not doing anything. we feel like we need to live up to these moral expectations, especially if a lot of people are watching us. i havent finished that video yet tho. man, people got so many opinions. didn’t ask for the feedback bro ! keep it to yourself.
in the cherdleys “making friends at a rave” video he was literally looking for a single friend the whole tiem. cringe, he was judt running around being like “will u be my friend pls” and finally at the end of the night , finally, a homie stopped by and said of course. and embraced him and was there for him. cherdleys was like “will you be my friend til we die,” and the dude said “bro we are friends even past death” and that gmfu. i just started crying at the video LOL. people are so cold to each other. which is totally fine Lol you don’t have to go embrace every weird stranger.
but when people do make an effort to step out, make a connection, and be there for you, not expecting anything in return. i really love that. that’s everything to me. i wanna be there for people too. sometimes being on the internet makes me really cold, and definitely influences me to be more judgemental and hateful. i’ve realized this before though, so i try to stay warm & doing what i want. but to forget about shit like appearances and being cool and normal, and just being human together. that’s what i love.
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watching the 1963 LOTF movie for the first time: my reactions
lets go me!! i wanna watch but i cannot focus on JUST watching a movie and the minecraft server i usually play on is down, so i decided to write my reactions bc ive seen people do it for other movies and why not. also i wanna look back in the furture when i watch again bc why not. pls dont judge me. lets go team
-yo wtf is the choir so creepy when they sing like okay
- piggy is adorable and i’d kill for him
- music when they first arrive on shore: creepy, but that could just be cause i know its boutta go from 0-100 real quick
- we got our first suCKS TO YOUR ASSMAR
- PIGGY’S LAUGH IS SO CUTE IM LEGIT GONNA SOB WHEN HE DIES WTF
- Percival? so cute
- did jack fuckin make em sing as they approached? legend. icon. love the flex.
- i love how sad the choir kids all look. theyre all so fuckin done.
- god pls forgive me for laughing when Simon just fuckin collpased
- god simon is adorable
- imma cRY stop making fun of piggy
- jack just fuckng casually scratching his nose with his knife like okay flex again
- holY SHIT MAN HOW MEAN CAN U BE SIMON WAS LOOKING AT THAT
- stop attacking pigman i stg
- i, myself, as a hermit crab owner, am kinda sad :( leave them alone they are trying to be in sand
- im gonna cry simon is so cute with his lizard friend i love him sm
- could the plane not see the kids running on the island? maybe im wrong. idk
- i rly wanna hug ralph :( hes so upset about the fire
- yo the whole cult pig chant thing was creepy but when u hear actual kids say it? terrifying. no thanks.
- a+ acting piggy but alos i fuckin love u so its ok
- k fuck u jack. fuck u. also, simon’s voice is so sweet when hes like “here have ur specs” and he hands them over so nicely like God simon ur the best ur so valid sweetie
- jack that was a fake ass apology.
- u better bring em back ralph. he makes his tone a lot nicer with piggy than he does with jack which i appreciate
- ur slurping is fckin nasty. poor piggy. also thank god for simon which i have saud before many times, and will say again many times.
- get em ralph. call that assembly. they suck.
- god, percival is bby. imma pretend that hunter is maurice like in the book and thank the lord for him as well. finally, a hunter does something valid. way to go.
- is that my dumbass squid boy? i love him
- jack shut tf up and stop being mean to piggy challenge
- simon is so precious and whomever said “no” like that does it again imma beat ur ass wtf hes telling the truth. insert that jesus meme here, which applies in many ways.
- jack and ralph argue. again. wow whom the fuck knew. thats all they do jesus they just bicker forever. also, have i said fuck jack rights? because fuck jack rights. piggy has the funmkckin conch
- wow ralph sim n piggy are so valid. love em. cherish em.
- love samneric too, theyre adorable
- ralph is putting jack in his place again and again, whcih is very appreicated and thsank u ralph.
- simon i love u.
- ralph’s smile is orecious af
- no clue why they put the camberly thing in but glad they did bc more piggy content
- oh simon, i love u sm but honey u got a big storm comin
- cue more jack and ralph bickering. also, if i was ralph i would not fumckin climb a mountain with the verified psychopaths but i mean maybe thats just me
- ahhhh.... the corpse
- “boys armed with sticks” THERE WE GO RALPH THATS MY BOI
- i like how dramatic the scene is where jack dips
- siMON
- okay ummmmm lotf is creepy as shit thanks
- choir trying to be tight and kill pigs n shit then go back to singing practice? yeah right losers ur fuckin nerds
- simon pls just go back to ur lizard and ignore the pig pls
- i am not ready
- love how theres like a grand total of 6 people in ralphs tribe lmao
- go ralph!!! ur so valid sweetie
- ralph i stg... go home... ur vibes are rancid rn
- SIMON FUCJDJIN RUN NOW
- his screaming is so awful... it hurts my heart
- simons body drfiting out while the creepy choir song plays is so sad wtf especially with the glimmer or the creatures or whatever like its just sad
- piggy i love u but we BOTH know that was murder.
- as much as raph sucked for killing simon i wanna give hm a big hug
- mkkay accident? maybe, MAYBE i can get behind. but he was FUCKIN INNOCENT PIGGy
- okay fuck jack rights
- awe pigGY
- SIMON BUILT THAT SHELTER
- oh wow rock throwing
- lemme just say: respect ralph rights. hate him for killing simon but u can tell he respects piggy cause when hes yellin at the choir hes all mean but he is nice and tells piggy to wait cause he knows hes worried
- he even gives him the conch to make him feel better!
- FIUCK GET EM RALPH GOD I LOVE U UR SO VALID HUN
- DAMN RIGHT HE IS U TELL EM RALLPH
- u tell em piggy
- okay that was so uncool. who the fuck said that was ok
- OKAY THAT SHOT OF THE BODY BEING TAKEN AWAY WHILE RALPH WATCHES IS SO RUDE
- im sorry for laughing but ralph just seeing what happened and just dipping is so fucjncj funny
- sam and eric are such real ones and i appreciate them as well
- mmkay that cutfrom the coast guard to the island in flames is so funny
- poor percival
- ralph looks so upset. imma cry. like hes legit shking. not ok
aleight i did it. it wa sso sad. i think imma watch the 1990 movie another night cause ibe heard its funny af
ummmm tl;dr, i love simon, i love piggy except for after simons death, jacks a bitch and so i roger, and ralph is valid af. i didnt really see the characters that way in the book, like i imagined ralph was blonde and simon was nothing like that kid, no matter how cute he was. good movie tho!!!!
thats about it. if u read this idk why u did but thank u. if u wanna know where i watched just look up google drive lord of the flies and its there for free! ;000
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Squid’s IT 2019 Experience
Ok. So. IT 2019 happened September 14th, at 7:15, with @captain-the-foxx and @shadowydarklight, after watching the first movie together. And OH BOY, my FEELINGS. (Also I’m going to try to stay chronological but my memory is SHIT and I’ve only seen this once, so pls forgive me)
I knew the Adrian and Don scene was coming. And it was still rough. I thought people were playing it up a bit, but nope. Our theater had this atmosphere during the whole scene, and it was uncomfortable (also there were no vocal homophobes, which I’m thankful for)
The CGI when Pennywise bites Adrian is... not great.
I love Bill being a dick in his intro scene 👏 I mean, it’s awful, but I love the book continuity. I wish we could’ve gotten more Audra ://
Eddie crashing his car, proving gays can’t drive. And calling his wife mommy. Poetic cinema
I can relate HELLA to Richie being a nervous puker. Me fuckin too, man. Me fuckin too.
Kid Ben from the miniseries is working with Ben!! I love!!
Our theater cheered when Bev left Tom. It was amazing, and I stan
We knew Stan was going to die. And it still hurted. Him seeing Bill before he dies? HURTED.
Also the transitions at the beginning here? Beautiful. Stunning. Flawless.
The entire Jade of the Orient scene was great. I love the CGI and “monsters”, the chemistry was so much like the kids, all the Reddie, Richie doing a Voice, the eye. Perfect
Eddie and Richie trying to elope leave Derry at the same time
That scene with Vicky(?) under the bleachers was beautiful. Give Skarsgård all the awards. Idc. I’ll be Pennywise’s friend.
Zombie Patrick helping Henry break out. I just. Damn. That scared quite a few people
Mike drugging Bill? Damn man. I loved that whole segment with the tribe, it looked so cool. More nods to birds, which I will always love
Ok so I heard some VERY mixed reactions to the CGI on the kids and their voices. It wasn’t bad at all, I think. I noticed it the most on Finn (Richie) and Jeremy (Ben), but it was also very easy to ignore. Their voices were fine
hdjshdiesjdhsjehe kid!Eddie became so chaotic what happened it’s like him and Richie switched roles
Everyone going into and leaving the townhouse feels like a sitcom tbh and I’m not sure if it was tiring or funny
We got the walking tours, kind of, and I’m so happy!!!! King’s cameo, we still got a “kiss me, fat boy!” the ENTIRETY of Richie’s scene, the leper French Kissing Eddie’s mom (and Eddie strangling IT), and, of course, Kersh. So good.
Stan got his bar mitzvah scene I can’t 😭
Eddie 👏 stabbing 👏 Bowers 👏 and 👏 roasting 👏 him 👏 And I STARTED AN APPLAUSE FOR IT!! Go me, Reddie Rights 😂 (btw Eddie is amazing in this we stan a gay who will throw hands)
Give Mike a break 2k19 feat. Bowers coming to shank him
I, again, relate to Richie vomiting when he gets stressed
YO THEY FUCKIN KILLED DEAN WHAT THE FU—
Ok so I been knew they’d see Stan but like. I wasn’t prepared for them to stab it.
Jay Ryan’s abs. That is all.
Eddie freezing and apologizing hurts ;;-;;
“You’re braver than you think” just. Stabbed me in the chest. I turned to @captain-the-foxx and said “Eddie’s going to be brave, save Richie, then get killed” and it fuckin happened.
ok so like. the cgi on all the monsters just. ain’t it chief. am sorry. I like the designs in theory, but like. Oof.
THEY MADE THE SPIDER COOL THEY FUCKIN MADE THE SPIDER LOOK AMAZING
“That’s not gunna burn” fuckin tell them Eddie
Bill as Pennywise, kinda? Poetic cinema
Benverly 👏
Richie and Eddie leave Derry together and get a Pomeranian that’s canon
“You’re a sloppy bitch!” will be my last sentence
I been knew Eddie was going to die but like. The way Richie and Eddie look at each other and say each other’s names as it happens just. It hurts man
I love that you can just bully Pennywise to death. Also that heterochromia tho
Give Bill Hader all the awards for that scene. Now.
Richie being the only person to not be joking hurt my soul in such a deep way guys
That ending speech just. My fuckin heart, Andy. Stop.
#it 2019#it 2019 spoilers#I loved this movie#I’m planning on seeing it again#long post#squid talks#reddie#guys the REDDIE#so good ;-;
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7.09🎄🌟
Comments on the Call The Midwife Christmas special! *proceed with caution*
Here we gooo
aw Lucille hey
That’s a cute baby 😭
You right Jenny Lee, if only I had a damn map of life lmao
SPACE ELVES LMAO
Reggie!!! My harrrt
That paint probably is pure lead sjskks
Vi’s hair is rough
LMAO who is this old woman she is annoying already
go home shelgah is the new go home roger (if you know you know!! Lol from the show Sister, Sister)
ROCKIN AROUNDDDD THE CHRISTMAS TREEE
new car in this bitchhh
shealgh’s yellow scarf and coat is cute af
AW TEDDY
TRIXIE MY QUEEN!! SHSJKS SHE HAS RETURNED THE SHOW CAN GO ON
!!! THAT WILL BE ME IN 12 DAYS ARRIVING IN LONDON !!!!
the babs pic :(
their tree tho😍
Sister MJ annoyed to have to walk is a big mood
“our work is here” wow this is sad already
Phyllis already knows there’s something sus going on
“They gonna see everything you got” LMFAO LUCILLE
THE QUEEN OF POPLAR IS HOME
wow just kidding 😂😂
omg the Asian babies are so adorable
but what is up grandma from Balto
NOTHING TO DECLARE BUT MY ANNOYANCE LMFAO OK ME AGAIN AT THE UK CUSTOMS
mama bear phyllis😭😭
sister MJ is like listen I’m the sweets and candy queen here back up
HERE SHE IS
BEATRIX IS HOME💖💖
PUCCI?! HONEY GOT SHMONEYYY
omfg my heart MAMA PHYLLIS BATHING THEM
babs sweater omg 😢 I’m crying already
Phyllis omg stop Fuck my heart
PATSY AND DELIA IN SCOTLAND
GARBO OMG LIKE GRETA GARBO she was famous and famously gay I see what they did there najsksk amazing
SISTER MJ FAKING AGAIN LMAOO??
oh shit morphine maybe not faking then lol that can f*ck u up 😂
Fred our pure ridiculous angel
Omg stop sister MJ 😭😭 when she dies it’s over man
Didn’t think the mother house would be by the beach/sea
My mom just made a funny ass remark but it’s kinda mean I shant say
OH SHIT SHES GONNA CRASH
who is that woman tho?
LMAO sister Mildred is like sister E I’m kinda vibing with it 😂 but if she comes for Phyllis then I will have a problem
Sister J just SNAPPED 💀 she is not leaving poplar and that’s that !!
Omg this kid looks like my little cousin
My gal is already back at work!! grinding all day let’s get this bread
Ok I feel their annoyance but it’s true hospitals have a lot of upsides
like number one there are doctors there lmao
oh no😭😭 why is the kid left alone? that’s not fair 😭
YOU’D GO UP LIKE A BOMB FIRE SJSKKS VI IS RIGHT
Aw the little angels (lowkey reminds me of the best Christmas pageant ever LMAO again if u know, u know)
Trix’s coat!! A damn look
A damn BELL?? holy sh*t this convent is like a prison
sorry @ God but I would never
Fred wants to gather the orphans gifts omfg he is SOFT <3
Aw Mother Jesu (but also I don’t know what I imagined her as but this lady isn’t it)
Sister J will not go bc we would riot
*throws to ground* I felt that
APPALLING MUSIC LMAO SHELAGH IT’S CALLED HAVING TASTE
it’s prob the stones I bet
Lucille looks so CUTE love the fit
Lucille and sister MJ together is always a sweet moment
The Turner’s new car is fire I love the color
Shelagh’s pink scarf is cute too, she got the whole rainbow. She has to make up for all the lost years of not being able to dress lol
ok but I have to say the three shades of pink is bothering me, looking like a Scottish pepto bottle (or peppa pig😂)
AW FETUS SHELAGH/SISTER B
📢📢📢 just bc she wants it doesn’t mean it’s right 📢📢📢
Another Mavis wow can they stop recycling names already Lmaoo sheesh it’s not that hard
throw a Gabby in the mix, or matter of fact cast me (imagine LMAO)
This is so sad omg, the little girl watching the others be adopted I can’t 😭😭
Ok sister winnie we see u with some vocals!
Oh shit TB yikess
“Sometimes love is not enough” ouch that shit ‘hurted’ :(
Oo k trixie 😍 we see u
sweetie was in Paris Yass as she should (but lol love how they ignore the fact she left bc she relapsed)
PHOTOGRAPHIC NEGATIVE LMFAO VALERIE STOP
trixie running in her dress and stockings I can’t lmaoo but we love a fashionable midwife but imagine how gross her feet will be through those sheer nylons
not at all relevant but I remember tipsy-ly walking around the Brooklyn bridge barefoot after my hs prom and my feet looked like charcoal after 💀💀😂
SHE’S PUSHING STANDING UP???
My sister in law is cringing bc she’s currently 7 months pregnant and is imagining giving birth outside on the street
the Beverly sisters with rubber gloves 😂
Well that dress is ruined trixie 😂
How do they make those umbilical cords look so real?
the Barbara name tag😭
“It’s only a dress...” character growth ok, Beatrix has grown up 😢
I keep saying but I really can’t if shelagh adopts May
What is up with this pregnant lady who spooks like a dear?? (My sister in law said that lol)
no way she remembers something from 2 years old
SHELAGH IN BLUE SLACKS?? YES A LOOK OK
Glad she finally is in pants tho lol, serving Laura Petrie looks
📢📢Everyone has a story.. 📢📢
My mom just said she wants those vintage tree icicles 😂
It’s been real sister W but bye bye
LMAO WAIT SHE SNAPPED
I remember reading that she was leaving so I’m not surprised
“I feel called to stay here and I don’t care who’s calling me” OK SIS !!! 📢 TELL EM
“Is your knocked elastic gone?”LMFAO aka don’t get your panties in a twistttt
A donkey I’m weakkkk
Patrick gave him Tim’s tree aww
LMAO Tim is pissed
This damn donkey lmaoo this is funny
ofc he likes candy😂
Shelagh and Sister J delivering a baby! This is pure
They said clever girl so take a shot
Another boy today!
LMFAO FRED AND REGGIE SCHEMING
It’ll be crazy fr if shelagh takes this little girl home, she’s already got two kids she doesn’t watch 😂
I’m triggered when I watch elections, takes me back to that horrible day in 2016..
Shelagh and sister J on the beach <3
BURGUNDY SLACKS YAS SHELAGH shawty got 2 pairssss
SECRET CIGS LMFAO OMG I LOVE THISSSS
Patrick can mind his damn business ok
They’re bonding over smoking and I love IT
THE INTENSE ASS MUSIC
IM NERVOUS WTF
SISTER JULIENNE CRYING OMG MY HEARR
SISTER MILDRED TAKING ONE FOR THE TEAM THANK U LORDT
BEATRIX SERVING 60s DREAM LOOKS 😍 why doesn’t my hair look like that?
I’m also lowkey sad at the lack of Phyllis in this ep
ANGELA SPOKE HOLY SHIT IT’S A CHRISTMAS MIRACLE
THEY FOUND BILLY OMFG ANOTHER CHRISTMAS MIRACLE
“You come home with me” BYE MY EYES ARE SWEATING
Trixie looks so damn good & her hug with sister Winnie was cute
the Turner’s are now that family in “in takes two” who they say collected kids 😂😂
This is so cute but I can’t believe it!! And then their were 5 Turner’s!
Neal as one of the 3 kings I am a mess
Vanessa Redgrave PLS chill I can’t I’m shedding caucasian tears 😭😭
LUCILLE HAS A BOYFRIEND??
OMG NO SHE BROUGHT THE CHURCH 🥰🥰🥰
Val is also serving a look!
STOP NOW IM CRYING FR FR
HARK THE HERALD ANGELS SINGGGGGG
I LOVE THE CHOIR UGHH
EVEN PHYLLIS SINGING <3
“we share the shift from darkness into light..” 😭😭❤️❤️ UGH MY HEART
That was so good I can’t wait to be able to watch season 8 in real time next month in LONDON!!
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Can we get selfdoubt Peter who gets accepted into his dream college and Tony throws a little celebration party with the Avengers. The whole time tho, Peter is not really in the mood to celebrate bc he's convinced himself that he's actually not smart and that the school felt bad for him and accepted him- even snapping at Tony bc he thinks his lover paid them to take Peter in but he didn't and he's gotta remind his baby how smart he actually is!! (Also I'll pay u for this just hmu💖)
((pls don’t feel pressured to pay me anything!! Also I’m not sure if you want like a full-length fic? Please tell me if that’s what u want instead))Okay but Peter would have so much self-doubt, he went through and suffered so much and his self esteem is down the shithole, and despite being an incredibly bright student he can get really ignorant about his own capabilities. Of course he passes the entrance exam with flying colours, Peter worked really hard for it and revised every night (even during his patrols), and it didn’t come as much of a surprise to anyone. Then Peter receives a letter of acceptance from MIT, which is his dream college ever since he was a little kid– and at first he was really happy, but as time grew on he started to have all sorts of negative thoughts. That maybe the college made a mistake, maybe they wanted someone else… or the whole thing could even be a huge practical joke. Even when May and Tony got together and threw this big celebratory party for him, and all of his friends came over, Peter can’t help but not be in the mood. As everyone is outside having fun and partying he hides away in a storage room in the Stark Tower, which is where Tony finds him an hour later. He’s so shocked and confused because Peter should be so happy, wasn’t MIT the college he wanted to go to? But the boy just huddles there on the corner, eyes wet with tears and trembling slightly as he whispers “they don’t really want me. Why would they accept me?” and Tony immediately rushes to reassure him that of course the college wants him, but before he can say anything Peter just looks up at him with awful teary eyes, face flushed as he accuses “Did you do anything? Like, bribe them or something?” Tony is all “of course not” but Peter’s screaming now, his hands balled to fists at his side as he gets hysterical, remembering the time Tony had mentioned off-handedly that he has connections in MIT, that he knew some higher ups there and of course, the man did graduate from that same college after all. And all the little pieces fall together in Peter’s mind, he’s so horrified and so damn sure that it’s all because of Tony pulling some strings there that he got accepted, that MIT never truly wanted him– Tony can’t help but feel hurt by all the accusations but he also understands Peter’s doubt of his self-worth, he’s felt the same all his life after all, having to live up to the expectations and legacy of Howard Stark; so he waits for Peter to calm down and starts comforting him. He pulls him close, wipes away his tears, assuring him in soft, hushed tones “Trust me love, being accepted into MIT is all you. You’re so brilliant, you’re special and so bright Peter, of course they would want you. They’d be stupid to turn you down” and he says that yes, he has connections but he would never use that to his advantage, that it’s Peter’s own hard work that brought him this success and he should be really proud of himself for it. Peter’s still slightly tentative, but Tony continues showering him in praises, joking “you’re my protégé after all, ‘course you’re a genius”, and he says that he has every confidence in Peter that he’ll do well in college, that he’d achieve great things, and that if he ever needs help Tony would always be by his side. And it ends with Peter crying happy tears this time, and kissing him silly, murmuring “I love you”
((tony says “I know”, before Peter pouts at him and he concedes with a “I love you too”))
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and the wind sounds like the world’s sigh
persona 4 & 5 | shiho-centric, investigation team
Near the end of May, Shiho transfers to a sleepy town called Inaba for a fresh start. However, Inaba isn’t the sleepy town her parents thought would be best for her— its on edge with unsolved mysteries, and Shiho finds that there’s a bit more behind what meets the eye regarding some of her classmates and a TV screen.
chapter 2 | 3.8k | ao3
Shiho smiles. She tries to force her grip on her phone to loosen up, even just a bit, so her knuckles don't creak against it. In the classroom beside her, Morooka shouts loud enough she's sure the whole school can hear him. It makes her tense up a bit-- he wasn't that pleasant of a teacher first impression wise. He had scoffed when she walked into the teacher's office, and he grumbled the whole way to the classroom.
She just hopes today's an off day for him.
Shiho jerks awake as thunder cracks outside her window.
The shutters rattle outside, and she can feel her bones vibrating with the resonance. Sheets of rain crash against her window, deafening, yet a mere white noise compared to the thunder. Sudden alarm hums in her veins, and she groans, knowing she won't sleep anytime soon.
Her mom told her about this, hadn't she--? The neighbor warned there was going to be a storm tonight. There's been a lot of storms recently, her mom recalled the neighbor's words. She rolls on her side and tries burying her head in blankets and pillows so it could maybe muffle it all, but it's fruitless. The air still cracks with the thunder and her whole room is lit with a flash.
A dread settles in her bones when she looks towards her closet door. The Yasogami uniform hangs on the door handle like a mourning flag. The yellow looks solemn in the dark, occasionally illuminated a sickly glow by the lightning outside. She hadn't tried it on, yet-- it felt like an acceptance of her fate if she did, but-- really? She's already here. Might as well deal with it.
Yet-- and yet--
The buzz of her phone is sudden, even in the noise around her. She feels around for it-- her hand eventually brushes against the plastic case underneath her pillow, and she pulls it out. Clicking it on, the brightness nearly blinds her for a moment, even though it's on its lowest setting.
Ann [1:42 A.M.]
hhhhhhhhhh inui's gonna killl meeeee
i dont care about the ancient olympics >://
can fail this test ,, pls,, i havent slept in days,,,
Shiho snorts despite herself. The sky rumbles outside, and she keys out a response.
Shiho [1:43 A.M.]
idk... if you started earlier you could've had more time to sleep ://
Ann [1:43 A.M.]
what are u doing up young lady u better be going back to sleep
and dont give me that!! u know my heart is dedicated to rewatching sailor moon
Shiho [1:43 A.M.]
says the one who messaged me
sailor moon would want you to forgo watching her show and to study
Ann [1:44 A.M.]
have u even SEEN sailor moon?
shed be in the same boat im in
She's miles away, miles and miles away. It-- god, it's going to be awful, tomorrow-- Ann won't be there. She won't be there, she won't be there waiting at the metro, she won't greet her in the mornings with the smile that lights the days. She doesn't want to go, she can't go, she doesn't know anyone there, she doesn't want to go--
Shiho takes in a steadying breath. Her phone buzzes even though she hadn't responded.
Ann [1:44 A.M.]
ur first day is tomorrow, yeah?
hows the uniform?
Shiho [1:45 A.M.]
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what are your words, oh fashion goddess
Ann [1:45 A.M.]
hm.... it'll look cute on u
definitely one hell of a uniform... doesnt beat shujin plaid, tho ;))
have u gotten any sleep?
Shiho [1:45 A.M.]
I have, worry about yourself !!
I dont wanna go
The uniform looms in the corner of her eyes. She's tired, so tired, her knees ache, she wants to go home. But now this is home-- this house, in the middle of nowhere, Inaba, filled with moving boxes and tense silences and unspoken thoughts. It's been like that since she left the hospital, even at the old apartment back in Tokyo, and-- when has home felt like home?
Ann [1:46 A.M.]
i know
im sorry
ill be here for ya, yeah?
just one year there
you can do it!!
Shiho squeezes her phone. She wishes she could have an ounce of the confidence Ann has for her.
—
Ann [8:14 A.M.]
so?? first impressions??
Shiho [8:14 A.M.]
its,, like any other school? maybe smaller than shujin?
i might just be use to having the school smack dab in the center of the city, tho
Ann [8:14 A.M.]
isnt it just hills and hills out there??
god... its kinda spooky to think about that... no crazy tall buildings within miles...
Shiho [8:15 A.M.]
hey, i think it's pretty quant out here
Shiho smiles. She tries to force her grip on her phone to loosen up, even just a bit, so her knuckles don't creak against it. In the classroom beside her, Morooka shouts loud enough she's sure the whole school can hear him. It makes her tense up a bit-- he wasn't that pleasant of a teacher first impression wise. He had scoffed when she walked into the teacher's office, and he grumbled the whole way to the classroom.
She just hopes today's an off day for him.
Ann [8:15 A.M.]
sure, sure
how does it feel?? being one with nature??
ahh the cool spring breeze, the pollutionless air--!!
Shiho [8:15 A.M.]
i think that pollution is finally messing with your head
Ann [8:15 A.M.]
HEY!!!
The door slides open abruptly beside her, making her jump and nearly launch her phone down the hall. She shoves it quickly into her pocket, swiping at her skirt for dirt that wasn't there.
Morooka sneers, which looks kinda strange with his overbite. "You kids these days and your damn phones..." he spits, and stalks back to the podium without another word. Her hands shake, so she clenches them to keep them still. She takes a deep breath, thinking, please let this be a woke-up-on-the-wrong-side-of-bed morning, and steps in after him.
The first thing she notices is that the class is dead silent. They stare at her owlishly, and briefly, she thinks something's wrong. Is her uniform crooked? Backwards? Inside out--? Her hair weird? The humidity might've made it flick up in weird places-- She spent so long this morning making sure everything was alright, though it was more out of an anxious habit rather than to make a good impression--
Was-- was she walking weird? She straightens her back, eyes focused on her feet, right, left, right, left, one after the other-- she didn't think her limp was bad today--
Her fingernails bite into her palm and stands beside Morooka's podium. It's okay, it'll be okay, she thinks like a mantra, trying hard not to show her nerves. She won't--can't-- let something like being introduced to class let her stumble. They're looking because they're curious, she reasons, which does a significant amount to reducing the tension in her back, they're not looking because they're malicious. They're not looking because you walk weird. They're not. It's okay.
"Lets hurry an' get this over with before I waste any more of my time," Morooka says, scowling in her direction. The tension regrows along her spine from his scrutiny. Just as she opens her mouth to introduce herself, he cuts her off-- "Due to some trashy circumstances, this kid's been tossed to this dump not even a quarter through the stinkin' year. Couldn't even wait till the end of the semester, huh?" He looks towards her, as if actually asking her.
Her limbs suddenly feel like they're locking up under his mocking glare. Her mouth goes dry. Is this for real? she thinks, a bit astounded, because wouldn't the teachers here be warned of--
"I..." she starts, maybe to say something back, because he's looking at her like he wants an answer. But-- what is there to say? What answer can she give? She doesn't want to be here, he doesn't want her to be here, so--
Is this what it was like for Akira? Shiho thinks fleetingly, glancing towards her new classmates yet not at all-- none of them wear an expression, an indication, even a hint of what she should do-- he-- he had it so much worse, didn't he? People thought he was awful before he even stepped foot in the school--
"Well? Hurry an' tell them who ya are." He sounds agitated. He motions back towards the class like it's a dismissal.
Shiho chews on the inside of her cheek and tries to steel her nerves. "I'm. I'm Suzui Shiho," she says, trying not to trip up with all the eyes on her, "It's nice to meet you."
"You shits better not think about tryin' anything funny," Morooka says abruptly, his eyes darting from boy to boy with a nasty glare. "She's comin' straight from Tokyo, and while that place is a shithole and full of assholes, none of you baboons can measure up. I better not see any funny business goin' on later!"
Are— are teachers allowed to curse this much? Shiho blinks, glancing towards him. She doesn't know whether or not to be grateful-- it's hard to tell with the mix of insults in his words. No one in the class looks put-off by his word choice, which doesn't exactly help.
"You, you're gonna sit over there," he says, motioning vaguely in the direction of the second to last row of desks, near the door. She takes this as her leave, trying not to acknowledge the eyes following her as she sits down in her seat. The girl next to her is silent, staring openly, chin propped up in her hand, eyes half-closed. Some people towards the front of the class crane around in their seats, peering at her. She tries to ignore the stares, the whispers that quietly arise, and she twiddles her thumbs. This is awful, awful--
Soon enough, Morooka starts teaching (can she call it that? it's more aggressive than any teacher she's ever seen-- Ushimaru can’t even top it) and focus is shifted off her for a while.
She slips her phone out of her pocket, trying to discreetly hide the fact that she's on it. Honestly-- she doesn't care. Her body's too tense and high strung and she really just wants to see Ann.
Ann [8:16 A.M.]
shiho?
ya still there?
Shiho [8:24 A.M.]
I think my homeroom teacher beats ryuji in terms of how much he swears
Ann [8:24 A.M.]
oh!! did u just get introduced to your class!!
how was it!!
Shiho [8:24 A.M.]
not. the best?
i kinda just want the day to be over
aren't you meant to be focusing on class
Ann [8:25 A.M.]
youre much more important than whatever ushimarus talking about ://
besides!! u say that as if we didnt text each other during class time at all !!
be sure to message me when your break and lunch is!!
ill try to keep messages in those time so i dont get ya in trouble so early on
so!! im gonna go radio silent for now so ya dont get scolded
good luck!! ♥♥
message me if ya need anything!!!
The corners of her mouth lift up ever so slightly.
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Shiho's never been one for being the center of attention. It was just a guarantee, being quiet-natured and friends with a foreign-looking student that everyone seemed to have a vendetta against. Ann's always been the one to dispel unwanted attention previously, too. But she's not here-- so when a couple of students crowd around her desk after class ends, she can feel herself freezing up.
"So, you're from Tokyo, too!" One peppy girl says, her hair pulled into a half pony tail. "What chance! It's so rare to get transfers here in the same year! And for them to be from Tokyo!"
"I wonder if it's gonna be a trend, like more people from the city will come flooding in," the girl with glasses says.
"How's the jump, huh?" The boy who sits in front of her asks, sitting backwards in his seat to face her. She bristles at the question, ice creeping in her veins. He grins innocently, to which she realizes of course they wouldn't know, don't worry, its just weird phrasing, "Seta-san didn't say much about it. What about you? From the city to the middle of nowhere?"
Its quiet for a beat, and Shiho really wished they weren't looking at her. "It's... alright, I mean," Shiho says slowly, trying to choose words that aren't too strong in feeling. She had lived in Tokyo for her whole life, and the countryside is so, so different, but she doesn't know how to explain the feeling to these people. She doesn't think any of them will really understand what it's like to be plunged into silence after being surrounded by noise her whole life. "It's... kinda nice being able to see an actual hillside when I walk around, though?"
The girl with glasses giggles at her response. "Nature over industry, right? Seta-san adjusted pretty quickly, so I don't think it should be a problem for you!"
Well, sure. But that's also Seta-san. Seta-san probably wasn't booted from his home, his friends, his life, all because of the decisions that were outside of his reach, and then dumped off in a place so different, so far away from all he's known. She isn't Seta-san, and she doesn't want to be here.
Shiho smiles instead and pinches the back of her hand. "Hopefully."
"Have you had the chance to wonder around Inaba yet?" the boy in front of her asks idly. Shiho briefly wonders how long break is, so she doesn't have to sit through much longer of this. She wishes this could just end. She wishes the day would end.
"I have," she says, trying to ward off the strain in her spine. "Um, I didn't get to see much, though. We only went to a noodle place, really, which wasn't far..."
"Oh! You mean Shishio's Noodle Bar?" One of the girl chimes. Shiho can only nod yes, because she doesn't really know what place it was and it seemed like the proper thing to say. "I love that place! They just put the right amount of sauce on, and the perfect amount of meat in!" the girl gushes, "There's tons of independent restaurants around here, and all of them are incredible!! You really need to try them all, Suzui-san!"
Shiho tries to say something back, maybe like the noodles were great or what are your favorite places or just ok, because that seems like the things to say, she can't just give up having an okay school year here just because she doesn't want to be here, right? Even if her skin is crawling at the prospect of conversation with strangers. Ann would want her to try, wouldn't she? And besides, these people-- they're trying to make the effort to talk to her, she has to at least respond. Maybe they want to be friends?
But— she finds herself drowned out the second she opens her mouth. "Oh, have you been to the Steak House recently?" the glasses girl asks, unknowingly right over Shiho's quiet words, "they added a new flavor and a kebob option! It's super tasty!"
"No way! I gotta try some now! You wanna come with me after school?"
"Definitely! You wanna come, Asahi?"
"Oh, hell yeah! I'd never pass up going to that place!"
"We can go if it's not raining after school. I swear, all it's been doing is raining! Some spring it is..."
"It's karma! We didn't get much snow, so now we have tons of rain."
Ah. Suddenly, it's like a void has grown around her and the people lounging on the desks around her. She knows these people are trying, maybe, trying to welcome her here, to make her not feel lonely, maybe to be friends, but-- she doesn't feel there, not physically, with people talking all around her, and--
She squeezes her phone. It'd be rude to pull it out and text Ann, wouldn't it? These people seem nosey, they might ask her who--
"Ah, isn't the Steak House near where the police are hanging out, though?" The boy asks solemnly, arms crossed over the back of his chair. "The street might be blocked off, since they're investigating every corner of Inaba."
The glasses girl grumbles aloud. "What a pain! I swear, they're just everywhere now-a-days, especially since Tatsumi went missing..."
Tatsumi. Shiho remembers that name. She remembers the police officer asking her and her father, in the dark of night, if they knew where the kid was. Wasn't he a student at Yasogami? These-- these people don't seem particularly alarmed that he's missing.
"I, uh--" Shiho starts, curiosity bubbling out of her. Should she even ask-- well-- it's a little late to recoil, with the curious expression on the boy's face and the two girls peering at her. She swallows, and starts again. "I-- who... who is Tatsumi Kanji?"
The reaction... isn't what she expected, if she's being truthful. The boy's mouth twists into a brief sneer, the girls scowling. It's like she spoke words of taboo, and not someone's name.
"Tatsumi? He's just a punk." The boy waves it off, like he isn't someone missing. "All he knows how to do is pick a fight. Some first year asshole-- thought he was on top of the school..."
"Don't worry about him, Suzui-san," one girl says politely, yet it's the furthest thing from it, "he's probably off with a gang doing who knows what-- drugs, getting drunk, whatever. He's total a creep."
And. And it hits her like how it was with Akira. She remembers dimly, words of warning, pointing fingers, averted gazes, all regarding a transfer student with curly hair and dorky glasses, don't speak to him, he's a criminal, you know? Akira only wanted to live quietly, and yet-- his whole life in Tokyo, shattered, from day one.
Yet-- yet he was nothing like what people said, he wasn't a bad person. Ann trusts him, trusts him wholeheartedly. She told Shiho that he's exactly the dork that he looks like, he loves Big Bang burger challenges, he loves cats, he's a prankster, he-- he didn't deserve to have everyone scorn him-- And she remembers the quiet confession of Mishima to her, his hands shaking violently, eyes glassed over, he told me to. He told me to ruin Kurusu's life, to share the criminal records. All because of Kamoshida--
Shiho doesn't know Tatsumi Kanji, doesn't know if he's actually a creep or a punk or an asshole, but he's still missing. Shouldn't-- shouldn't they in the least care--?
"Hey, lay off."
They all turn— there's a group of kids sitting in the middle section of the classroom, two of them glaring. The two glaring are both brunettes, and there's a black-haired girl trying to divert their attention, with quiet 'don't start a fight, you guys--' yet with a hard look in her eyes, and a gray-haired boy sitting down, a mix of a scowl and a simple frown on his face. His eyes are sharp, but he's not stand-offish as the other two.
A girl scowls in front of her. "What are you talking about, Hanamura?"
"Tatsumi isn't some creep or asshole. All of you just are judging him without knowing who he really is," the brunette girl says, fists clenched by her sides.
"I don't know about that," the boy in front of her says languidly, "Don't you know the kind of deals he's been making with those biker gangs? He's a delinquent, through-and-through."
The brunette boy looks ready to retaliate, but the bell cuts him off before he can start.
The people around her disperse, her seat mate returns, and class starts. Shiho fiddles with her phone, and wants to leave.
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Shiho resorts to fleeing from the classroom when lunch begins, hoping to avoid any curious classmates and to maybe figure her way around the building. She opted out for lunch, anyways-- she left the box on the counter, knowing that she might not be able to eat with her stomach roiling with nervous energy from being in this school.
The halls are sparse with students. Some talking, some wandering, some staring. She bristles, knowing she’s like a sore thumb in this school-- in Inaba, really, which is apparently so countryside that a new family moving in was about the most intriguing thing around. That can’t possibly be true-- sure, Inaba wasn’t big, the high school even smaller, but there’s no way that this community was so tightly knit that everyone knew everyone so anyone outside of the goddamn place was the most interesting person around, with stories of places so far away. There’s a train station here, it can’t be like there’s no outsiders around. She just wishes Ann was responding so she could keep her attention off the lingering looks and curious glances.
She heads up a flight of stairs, trying to scope a library she might be able to stake out lunch in for the rest of the school year. It’s always quiet in the library, and hopefully it’ll keep any students from trying to talk to her. Especially with just being there, in the classroom, surrounded but alone, included but only because of proximity-- she doesn’t think she has the guts to really talk with anyone today, anyways. She might not have the guts to talk in the next few weeks-- she’s never been the new kid, never been in a different house, never not been surrounded by busy streets, she’s only known her home in Tokyo.
She can’t find the library or any club rooms, which is kinda strange. Maybe they’re on the first floor? There’s another set of stairs ahead of her; it’s either the rooftop, or another floor that might have them. She doesn’t see anyone else heading up, so it must be the roof? Ah. Well, she’s still got time to explore. The roof might be a place of solitude if the library isn’t.
Kinda ironic, she thinks fleetingly, footsteps quiet as she goes up. The hallway is bright with light from a set of doors-- it’s the roof. There’s no signs or anything to keep students out, so Yasogami must be one of those schools where the roofs are open. Shujin wasn’t, but it’s not like anyone really cared. She briefly wonders how things would be if they did.
She opens the door, and the wind immediately seems to pick up the second she does, sending her hair whipping around behind in her pony tail. The air’s weighty with rain soon to come, but it’s only fairly cloudy out. Ah, wow-- the roof is clean, free of abandoned desks and instead has an applaudable amount of solar panels set up. There’s a couple of students up here already, talking amongst themselves and picking at bento boxes resting on their laps.
It’s a big, open space. It’s nearly strange not to see tall buildings blotting out the sky, or casting long shadows over the rooftop. It sets the roof as a whole different entity in her mind-- her knees ache, but not in the same crippling way they did on Shujin’s, when she stood up there with Ann and Akira and tried to keep face while looking down. It’s bright, clean, and she can see the sky.
So. Maybe it is a kind of fresh start. She still hates Inaba and wants to be back in Tokyo, but hey, it’s something.
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hey kids! it’s me, trice, bringing in holiday han. as u might have read from the description on my blog, holiday’s not only an ex-member of bee, but also an ex-bitch who’s honestly doing the most and just trying her damn hardest every single day. catch me on discord @ trice#1884 or like this post for me to slide into your ims c: without further ado, here’s a little read-more about her!
condensed bio
born han ji-ae on december 25, 1993. her dad owns a massive five-star hotel chain across jeju, her mom is........ not very fond of him
was never close with her parents, honestly kinda?? disliked them?? they sorta let her do whatever she wanted since they had the money to blow, but didn’t really want her to be around them at all
her mother arranged a marriage for her with the son of a man that holiday’s mom was in love with, always made holi Salty to the Max
holi was a god awful child.......... she would always hit and smack nannies and most of them had to quit bc of the toll she took on them, until holi’s parents hired this woman named boyeon who was old, cranky, really was not afraid of holiday
earned holi’s respect that way
anyway so eventually holi starts growing up and the attention that she gets from boyeon and all the girls who were friends with her only for the money,,, ,, , their attention becomes not enough
and then one day when she’s thirteen a girl group comes to her hotel and everyone’s suddenly ignoring her and fawning over that gg and holi’s not even jealous, she decides she wants that same kind of attention. so she goes and auditions for bc and makes it in
(honestly to this point her debut is the only thing she’s ever worked for so nowadays if you try to tell her otherwise she’ll hate you forever)
anyway so she begins training, at the same time she meets the man she’s supposed to marry and falls head over heels for him
but turns out, he’s fallen in love with some ~commoner~ and holi is absolutely D E V A S T A T E D when she finds out at sixteen
she nearly gave up a debut with bee but she found out just in time
she lets him go, tho, and it’s p much the only unselfish thing she does till then
so anyway holi goes on ahead and debuts with bee as holiday han, heiress extraordinaire; she’s funny and confident and outgoing and loves to laugh and loves her group members, right??!!!!
wrong!!!! holiday’s only nice to her group members, or really anyone when it’s on-camera. she’s a total bitch and an attention hog and was honestly a playground bully during her time at bc ;;; even jaekyung hated her
anyway,, ,, when she’s 18, boyeon dies, and boyeon’s last words were literally that she hated holiday
lemme take this moment to remind u that boyeon is the only person holiday cared about
that reeeeeeeaaaaaalllyyyyyy fucks her up and she goes ahead and leaves bee to do some soul-searching
she goes to an oceanside home in busan and picks up a whole bunch of hobbies but most importantly, she realizes just how fckn terrible she was to everybody around her and she’s super super ashamed
all she really wants now is to sing, and so she tries to quietly sign on w dimensions and does a solo career and she’s trying her very best to be as Not Herself as possible
she tries not to let the lack of solo fame bother her; old holiday would have thrown a massive fit, but this holiday’s trying to become a better person
so yes that’s abt it!! i’m trying out a new intro style so u can keep reading for fun facts abt holiday or come hmu to plot TT
fun facts! :D
holiday’s like....... highkey a sweetheart nowadays
very softspoken n gentle, very analytical n observant to the world around her bc she’s trying to make a good mark on the world instead of a bad one
even tho she debuted in 2010 with bee and is t e c h n i c a l l y a senior, she’ll still act like a hoobae w/dimensions artists bc she really wants to pretend she never debuted with bee
her biggest fear is herself; she really wants to be loved but she wants it to be for the good reasons and she’s long since realized being a bitch isn’t the way to do it
she’s so scared that she’ll revert to the person she was once and hurt the ppl around her, so she kinda has a tendency to keep to herself
netizens have probably noticed her at awards shows w other dimensions artists where she’s just standing in the back, just taking in the atmosphere
she absolutely loves to garden. her house is like a greenhouse honestly,, she learned to garden when she was living in isolation in busan and loves it
also learned to run an online gardening business where she’ll ship u succulents and plants so that’s fun!! she’s a businesswoman as well since she realized how badly she wants to earn things instead of just having them given to her c:
is also wrapping up online school with double majors in history and botany and a minor in business
a v good cook. her food is so good your mouth will water and u might actually burst into tears eating her food; she had nothing else to do all day during her self-imposed social quarantine so she spent her time perfecting recipes (also she grows her own vegetables so i mean her food is #fresh)
loves the ocean!! esp. the sunrise over the ocean. her dad bought her a private beach right after she left bee and she realized how much she loved the ocean. the sunrise over the ocean has a soft spot in her heart bc that was the first thing she woke up early for that was solely for pleasure (i should write a long headcanon abt this fsjklfjd)
loves cats. wants to adopt a cat, is currently doing her research about properly caring for them and different breeds and such
when it comes to bc artists, holiday is like ;;; really sorry. if you trained or debuted anytime from 2007-2012, you probably knew her and she’s really repentant of her behavior and likely hasn’t kept in contact with a single bc artist bc she’s too ashamed to show her face, feels like she has to repent to make up for all the pain she caused everyone during her time at bc. she’s honestly seriously humbled herself now and while she’s proud of the progress she’s been making, she tries her best to hide her eyes and face whenever she sees a bc artist. as a result ppl at bc probably think she’s still a bitch, and honestly she believes she deserves it
i love holiday han i treasure her pls come plot
#♡ ┊ 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦 & (𝘭)𝘰𝘯(𝘦)𝘭𝘺 ┊ 𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐡𝐚𝐧#♡ ┊ 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘥 ┊ 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫#♡ ┊ 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘥 ┊ 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨
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