#plus I’m normal about her

[garaks-padded-bra]

winner of the clonefucking debate

#ds9 #star trek #kira nerys #mirror kira #kissa kissa #i love her #she did nothing wrong #Dukat but camp and slay #heavy are the hips that wield the strap #stupid tinfoil crown #she is my everything #plus I’m normal about her #star trek deep space nine

[evilmacdennisevil]

dee is 100% the most psychotic member of the gang but y’all aren’t ready for that conversation

#case in point: rickety cricket #i’m just saying if anyone’s gonna be a serial killer it’s not gonna be dennis it’s gonna be dee #i mean she literally set her college roommate on FIRE #and was then institutionalised #and when she is confronted about this she is overcome with rage #plus she understands the implication IMMEDIATELY before dennis even explains it to her #and even has her own version of ‘the implication’ involving threatening to falsely accuse men if they don’t sleep with her #what makes her worse too is that she doesn’t even REALISE she’s unstable #she’s under the impression she’s the most normal member of the gang #in fact she’s convinced ben the solider is trying to D.E.N.N.I.S. her when in actuality she’s unconsciously D.E.N.N.I.S.-ing him #he’s so dependent on her that he’s willing to wait in a hot car for hours on end while she hangs out with the gang #i love her though and personally think she’s simply a silly billy #dee reynolds #iasip #it’s always sunny in philadelphia

[the-worms-in-your-bones]

I am once again going down the rabbit hole of trying to figure out the ages of the Gallifrey characters

#idk why my brain gets so caught up on this but it does #I’m also talking like start of gallifrey because I’m not getting into all that for them now #what bothers me the most is that we’ve got basically nothing on Narvin #I can’t remember for sure but I don’t even think we know what regeneration he’s on #I don’t think it would be hard to assume his first but also it could not be #like for brax we know he’s older than the doctor so that puts him at at least 1000 #and romana is around 600 years younger than the doctor so she’d be around 400 #and then I’m going with 50 ish for leela because we don’t know her actual age so I’m using Louise jamesons age plus the time she spent #married to andred #also with romana that’s assuming that her and the doctor experienced the same amount of time in between them traveling together and the #start of gallifrey #I guess that could also count for brax too but whatever #for narvin what we’ve got is that he was above the rank of a junior agent under vansell during the time of the fourth doctor #(at least probably) #so we can make the assumption that he wasn’t fresh out of the academy/cia training #which makes me inclined to say that he’s older than romana #but that’s really all I’ve got on him #doctor who #gallifrey #romana #irving braxiatel #narvin #leela #clearly this is a subject I am normal about #if anyone else makes it this far in my rant and has any insights I’d love to hear them

[flowryluv]

Lisa’s birthday countdown (15/15)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Thank you for enjoying my stuff!!

#lisa genshin #lisa minci #genshin lisa #jean gunnhildr #genshin jean #jeanlisa #genshin #genshin impact #even though I like Lisa aside from romantic relationships and when I do put her in one #I’m not stuck with just one #it’s pride month #like #how could I NOT #plus like I have so many thoughts about them they are literally like everything ever and yet so soft and normal and loving at the same time #they are everything to me #they are literally utananthy (not really but there are connections and I am MAKING THEM AUUGHHHHHH) #<- sound of brain exploding

[muchcelebrated]

No because it’s the way Fagin tells him to run and he does but not to save himself. The thought doesn’t even cross his mind he immediately runs to the hospital. To Belle. Because “I had to see if she was alive.”

#he’s fagins number one #but she’s HIS number one #he loves her and I’m so normal about it #the artful dodger #dodgerfox #jack dawkins #lady belle fox #lady belle #belle fox #jack x belle #the artful dodger hulu #my post #commentary #episode 8 #untapped potential #the artful dodger disney plus #norbert fagin #artful dodger

[crpingdeath]

my mom has a scan tomorrow to evaluate where she’s at with her cancer so i’m praying and begging that she’s still in remission and i’m trying to be hopeful and positive but like my chest hurts my stomach hurts my head hurts

#she’s doing really good and she just finished radiation 2 months ago so i feel optimistic #plus her doctor said her blood work is back to normal the last time we saw him. but i feel like we have such bad luck. #and the fact that she’s finally doing well and i’m starting school next week and we’ve been able to do some normal stuff again makes me #think it’s all about to be taken away again.

[victory-cookies]

welcome to: was that a really good deal or a scam?

#my friend posted on her close friends story about getting a cool perfume for like. absurdly cheap. #and not in like an mlmposting hun bot sorta way! In a like ‘look at my purchase is that not nuts’ kinda way #and I was looking at it and she had the discount code in frame #so I looked it up (it’s like. a legit perfume company and it was their website) and tried the code and it gave the discount #so I messaged her like ‘??? is anyone allowed to use this?’ bc the perfume is like a vanilla gourmand really tasty shit it sounds like #and she was like ‘far as I know yeah’ #so I ended up buying it and *with shipping* it was like. fourty bucks? for a perfume that is normally like over a hundred plus shipping #so I’m like. that’s such a good deal there’s no way they could just be doing something that good #but also it was legit it wasn’t like my friend was hacked or hun botting #I went to the website myself and used the code from her blurry ass computer picture and it worked didn’t click no shady links #like everything about it seemed legit! it’s just the price was so good! #so I’m trying to not look a gift horse in the mouth but I’m also worried that maybe the gift horse has soldiers inside it #that want to steal my credit card info #oh well. everything seemed to work so we’ll see how it pans out. I hopefully just have a really nice perfume on the way #god knows if I’ve been scammed you’ll hear about it

[elliebartlets]

so much shit is going on with all sides of my family and I’m feeling very overwhelmed

#my grandfather is probably going to die within the year #and I walked in on my mom crying the other day about it #which made me sad and made it more real #cause it feels like it was a long time coming but also feels like it happened too fast #my great aunt has really bad problems with her hip and can’t get it replaced because she’s so old and had a stroke #so there’s a risk of putting her under anesthesia #and not only is she in so much pain and can barely move to eat or go to the bathroom #but she lives alone and her daughters who live near her won’t visit her!!! #she has a granddaughter who visits her the most but she’s also busy with work and her kid and stuff #I truly don’t know all the details but they’ve always been weird like the one daughter always accused her husband (her stepdad) of #“playing favorites” with the other daughter. and it’s like? get over yourself #I’d understand if my great aunt was a horrible mother or something but she doesn’t seem to be #plus she raised her granddaughter (one of her daughters kids) so the least that daughter could do is fucking visit her #idk I just feel so bad for her and hope she’s ok #plus there’s stuff going on with my brother which I’m not getting into on here #it’s just like all of this was slowly building up and it all crashed down at once #oh and my uncles mom died (not my grandmother or blood related to me at all) and my aunt will not go to the funeral cause my one uncles #sister is a total c u next Tuesday #like I met my uncles 2 sisters once 20+ years ago when I was in my aunts wedding #so I don’t remember them but everything I hear about them reminds me of the sopranos family #stereotypical new jersey Italian family that hates each other #like down to the siblings too. one sister who is insane and starts fights (Janice) and the other who is more “normal” who I don’t #hear about as much (baraba) #then you have my uncle who is very hot and cold like Tony soprano. plus possibly involved in the mafia or mob or something #I’m not overwhelmed by my uncles family/mom dying btw #it’s just some family drama that’s adding fuel to the fire of stuff happening #ANYWAY #breakdown/vent over! back to my assignments! #personal

[pineapple-lover-boy]

I swear Bryce is just so incredibly beautiful. Often times I don’t have crushes on characters played by real people but she is it.

And I’m not saying this cause she’s played by a man and I have shown a love for feminine men on this blog.

Brandon plays his characters so well that I legitimately see her, Cathy, and Helen as women. All his characters share the same type of comedy and sometimes do or say similar things (first thing that comes to mind is a lot of his characters say “Well… shit” and runs when bested in some kind of way) but all of his characters have different personalities.

And now that he’s doing backstories for his characters, it only adds more to each of them.

What he does is a work of art and my favorite piece is the badass former CEO, Madame Ex-President, Bryce Tankthrust.

#as much as I love her side stories in all of the series #I really want her to get her own with Bobby #she usually takes the spotlight and so having her as a mc could be a bit much if not handled well #but I doubt Brandon would mess up #we got depth in Sam & Stuff #we already got her backstory in Blame: The Hero #we’re seeing how far her feelings can go when she truly loves someone in Normal British Series #pulling a ‘bad guy turns good’ for a series ending wouldn’t work for her #it would go against everything she does and is for plus we already know she has a heart (pun intended) #seeing how low she is willing to go for Bobby is making me wonder if I’m a series of her own #she’ll get torn so down that she’s basically the everyday person but with a terror!st for a boyfriend #and she fully realizes that while she’s still bad being poor or even middle class isn’t the end of the world #idk if you’ve gotten this far what do you think? #I’m absolutely in love with that horrible bloodlusting powerful woman and I will never stop talking about her #brandon rogers #bryce tankthrust #bobby worst

[etdraconis]

( can my brain just stop, please? Like if I get one more intrusive thought telling me I’m annoying everyone and should never bother anyone ever again, while at the same time getting slammed with thoughts of my OC’s that I just want to talk about, I might actually scream )

#[chaos mode]&ooc #my dragon age OC’s are taking over my brain again #but I feel like I’m bothering anyone I talk to #and so I’m not talking about them #even to people i normally talk about them with #and im pretty sure my one friend is just completely sick of me anyway #and part of me knows that’s just the intrusive thoughts talking #bc she told me I could talk to her #but she also has barely talked to me in weeks so it kind of feels like she doesn’t want to #so im just over here #crying #wanting to scream #and wanting to write but not being able to keep my thoughts calm enough to write #plus imposter syndrome #ahhhh

[the-travelling-witch]

i think i‘m cursed to never have ayaka ㅠㅠ

#┊glimpse into the crystal ball ೃ༄ #i’m so sad rn #normally i’d be happy about the character i got #but i wanted both ayaka and shenhe actually #plus i already missed her for about 5 pulls last year #actually devastating #and i actually don’t have the time to farm primos in the next weeks #ahhhh hoyo why #just give me ayaka #i even have her skin you big meanies #at least i went from c-1 sucrose to c4 ㅠㅠ

[zootopiathingz]

“I ship Connor with Markus” “but Connor and Kara are cuter” you FOOLS you can ship all three of them

#I’m probably the only one who likes this ship #but fuck me I enjoy it #I don’t normally ship three people together but like #I think they’d be good for each other #Connor and Markus make a great team #add Kara to the mix and they’d be unstoppable #and I just imagine the kinda chemistry they’d all have #plus Alice would get two dads!! #three if we still count Luther #so that’s four whole loving parents lol #and i mean #I just imagine connor and Markus being gentle and caring for Kara #since she was treated so poorly by men before #but they don’t treat her like she’s helpless either #and I imagine Markus and Kara helping Connor learn more about emotions once he’s deviant #and he becomes more vulnerable around them like he does with Hank later #and I just imagine badass stoic leader Markus having a huge soft spot for his partners #ughhh I love them sm #detroit become human #kara ax400 #connor rk800 #markus rk200 #connor x markus x kara

[mrs-kelly]

Ouch ouch owie :(

#the end of volume 2 is still making me sad :( #no spoilers don’t worry!! #but I had such a hard time sleeping last night #I just felt so so so upset #and I woke up so :( #plus I was telling one of my sisters in law yesterday about my bad dream #and I was telling her that it happened cuz I have this ‘burden meter’ in my head like #every time I do something wrong it’s filling up that burden meter until that person decides they’re done with me #and my other sister in law was like ‘you don’t need to worry about that! the things you ask for are normal and your mistakes are human’ #and the other was like ‘well actually… you might want to be careful about becoming a burden’ #and it was like 😶 #mostly cuz. I just wanted reassurance like. because I always feel like I’m a burden on everyone #and I know she meant well and her thought was that she would tell me her family’s experience with that so that I could be careful #but all it did was make my anxiety shoot through the roof #and now I’m trying to fight off my brain’s desire to lock myself back up in my head so I don’t do or say anything wrong again #like it’s not her fault; she couldn’t have known and she meant well #but I just feel awful now :( #I just feel scared of that burden meter again #ah anyways I’ll feel better after some food and iced coffee but #right now I’m just :((((( #ren speaks #vent tw

[hobisexually]

long winded rant in the tags coming that’s partly about weight but in a very unfiltered sad way so if that triggers you do Not read on

#on holiday I was like oHHHHH this is what living in the moment is! What listening to your body is! what not worrying about how you look is #but doing what makes you happy #and then …… I came home and got sent the pictures #+ my friend being. unintentionally fatphobic as fuck #while hurtful as fuck too #and it’s all just been piling up too since I got home because I’ve been having a lot of conversations and seeing a lot of people that #confront me with who I used to be and who I am now and how I’m really not happy with that #and it feels like it’s not gonna get better #like I’m destined to be in a job I like but isn’t what I want because I’m not capable enough and I’ll never know what romantic requited love #feels like. I’ll never cure my vaginismus I’ll never be able to let someone in or they won’t want me this is just it for me #and SOMEHOW the way I look has become the ultimate culmination of all those things? #my face is suddenly a woman in her thirties face #I keep gaining weight despite not even eating all that much because FUCKING PCOS makes it impossible #my hair in my face grew back. my stomach is hairy and that plus the added beer belly just makes it look like I’m a 50 year old man #I am soooooooo tired of the dysphoria #and the way pcos ruins fucking everything because I can restrict calories all I want and move all I want but will it help ? No ! #and of the fact that it impacts the way I feel about myself so much because I’m convinced now I’ll never find anyone #should have tried harder when I was 21 because that was the only time in my life I reasonably fit society’s standards like That was my shot #I’ve been taking supplements everyone says will help but I’m not sure I noticed anything in the past six months and I can’t take berberine #because it fucks with my heart medication. which. That too. I have that too #and I’m in pain! All the time now! ALL THE TIME so I can’t even work out to keep the weight stable because guess what ? #just after a normal day at the office I come home and have to lie down because everhthing hurts so much ! #today I got an impromptu massage in an attempt to feel better but it didn’t fix shit and I had to buy clothes for kings day after #and I didn’t try them on just quickly grabbed some orange shit to try on at home and at what I saw in the mirror I genuinely got nauseous #I just don’t know who that is in the mirror but it’s not me and I can’t accept it. I’ve been trying so hard but I can’t #it genuinely makes me so sad and I keep telling myself that a reduction will help in feeling more like myself and it will help with the pain #but what if it doesn’t? what if my pain doesn’t go away after af all and my stomach just juts out and I feel like a gremlin all the time #what then. what the fuck do we do then. also I’m so fucking scared of that surgery anyway that I don’t fucking want to do it anymore #I want so many things and all of them feel out of reach and I know my own brain is my worst enemy and it’s not rooted in anything real but. #Isn’t it? really — isn’t it???????

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Damn YT can sure take you down an evangelical conspiracy theorist rabbit hole huh

#I went from a video about handmade singing bowls to energy healing videos to “10 dreams you should not ignore” #to “10 signs you are a seer” to “SIGNS YOU ARE BEING MONITORED BY A DEMONIC ENTITY” #to some dude claiming Billie Eilish having a flexible spine (due to being in gymnastics as a kid) means she is possessed by the devil #and that’s WITH my history of watching… very normal videos about intelligent real-world topics #On the plus side that last video had a part about Doja Cat and now I’m obsessed with the production of her music videos #and also her song “Demons” #For the record I just kept clicking on interesting sounding shit to see how long it would take for me to get to the bad stuff #It did not take long at all

[willowfey]

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#i cannot even say how eager i am to live somewhere that is not right down the street from the hospital #i already have so much anxiety every time i pass that place but hearing the sirens constantly every single day. #it takes me like an hour to feel normal after i hear them #an hour after every unexpected phone call #an hour after my mom hears a siren and it gives her flashbacks which trigger mine #not to mention the road behind my house is this road where motorcyclists and cars decide they can go as fast as humanly possibly #so every night i hear them speeding by so fast and i have woken up to car accidents right behind my house #waking up to the sound of screeching metal and sirens the first week u live in a house rly sets u up for living there #not to mention the neighbour’s girlfriend’s ex stalks her sometimes and he’ll just Be Here Outside being weird #and i don’t trust the neighbour in general. since the day we moved in i haven’t trusted him #and then there’s the boys around the corner that always bring out their lawn chairs and shout things at me when i ride my bike past #plus the ppl in my neighbourhood have money and so a lot of them have sports cars that they drive too fast around corners #i just. i love my house i do. the inside of my house has gotten me through the hardest times of my life #but i do not feel safe or comfortable in this neighbourhood #why do the power lines buzz so loud every night #what is that godawful ringing that only me and my sister can hear on the other side of the street #idk there’s just smth Off about it here i need to leave but i’m so scared to leave my safe space behind too #this is the longest i’ve lived in a house in a Long time and we’ve changed it so much it feels like mine #i’m holding onto it but i’m so eager to go at the same time it feels so odd #anyway. could we start with no more sirens bc i’ve been sitting on the floor recuperating for the last twenty minutes #my anxiety is a million times worse than it was a few years ago and i’m so tired of being this person #i wanna feel safe in the world again