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#saw a tweet once that said something like “why do you have a louis bag if you have cavities”
financeprincess · 5 months
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don't let your priorities get out of whack. don't go out and buy luxury items or a fancy new car if you have other things to do like make sure your health is right (regular checkups, full panel bloodwork, the dentist, etc.), getting your dream body, paying off high interest debt, working on your career and education, and investing aggressively (especially if you're in your 20s, this is the best decade for compound growth). it's very tempting to buy things for instant gratification (speaking from personal experience!) but the joy you feel doesn't last long. If I could do it again, I would use big ticket items like bags, nice clothes, silk scarves, huge extravagant trips, cars, jewelry, etc. as a reward for when I hit other milestones, such as graduating college, getting a job that skyrockets your income, hitting a certain number in investment accounts or business profits, hitting your goal weight, etc. and trust me, you will value it a lot more when you have put in the work to set yourself up for success.
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anjuschiffer · 4 years
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[Mutuals]
Some more self-indulgent writing! Mainly because of a post @zestyzealot reblogged a while back and inspired this piece. 
(This is the post I’m referring to!)
Enjoy!
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P.Tag: @theatreandcomicfreak @damianette-is-life @toodaloo-kangaroo @elijahcrevan
Tag: @polyvirnl
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Context: There’s no miraculouses. None. Nada. But the Bats still exist. Marinette uses her time to expand her brand MDC
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AO3
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Marinette huffed as she placed the last crystal bead onto the hem of the black skirt in her hands. 
Bringing it to eye level, a wide smile graced her lips, a smile breaking as Marinette giggled to herself as she watched her vision become reality.
Finally! After four long and exhausting days, it was done. When she started on Monday night, Marinette wondered if this project would get in the way of her weekly sleepover with Alya. Thank God it didn’t.
Placing the skirt on her bed, Marinette smiled as she took a picture of her latest piece for her new collection: 12 o’ clock.
That’s when the hatch on her floor opened up with a creak, Marinette watching as her father poked his head into her room. Why was he here?
“Marinette, there’s someone here looking for you.” He said, giving a side glance down below. “Please tell me he’s just a school friend and not another boy you asked to model for you.”
“Dad, I already told you, Luka is Juleka’s older brother, he- wait, he? It’s not Alya?” Marinette asked, wondering where her best friend was at. 
Yes, Alya gave her a heads up that she was running late for their sleepover, but she wasn’t downstairs yet? And her father had said ‘he’ instead of a guy friend’s name, so… who exactly was waiting for her downstairs? 
Because despite only saying the name once, her father tended to commit to memory the names of all of her male friends. “What does he look like?” 
“Well, he’s a bit on the short side,” Tom started, “has green eyes, tanned, wearing a turtleneck with some of those suit pants-”
“Slacks.” Marinette helped.
“Those,” Tom corrected himself, “and he has a dog with him.” Tom ended, watching as Marinette mumbled to herself.
Marinette didn’t know anyone with a dog, nonetheless with that type of fashion, causing Marinette to start pacing around her room, racking up some idea as to who it was that was in the living room. “He called the dog Titus, if memory serves me correctly. Or if I heard correctly for that matter.”
That caused Mari to stop in her tracks.
A turtleneck with slacks, a Great Dane named Titus, tanned skin...emerald eyes.
“No. Way.” Marinette quickly motioned her father to go down the ladder, quickly following him into the living room, her eyes widening upon seeing her theory be true.
There, standing inside the Dupain-Cheng living room was Damian Wayne with his dog, Titus.
“Took you long enough.” Damian said, adjusting the duffel bag on his shoulder. Titus wagged his tail as he saw his boy open the bag and give him his toy. 
Just then, the door swung open, Alya panting as she dropped to the floor as soon as she walked in.
“Girl, you wouldn’t believe who I just saw! There, as soon as I turned the corner of where I lived, I saw the Damian Wayne with his dog, and- why is he in your living room?” 
“Seeing as you finally caught up,” Damian said, walking over to Alya, handing her a heavy plastic bag. “Take care of Titus while we’re out.”
“We?” “We?” “We?!”  Alya, Tom and Marinette spoke at the same time, although Marinette’s came out as a squeak.
“Did you forget what you told me?” Damian waved his phone that was in his hand. Marinette watched as he showed her a tweet...her tweet in particular, Marinette now going into a state of panic. “You invited me to egg-” Marinette screamed, her cheeks flushed in embarrassment as she lowered his phone and dragged him out the apartment, leaving behind a confused Tom and a giddy Alya. 
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“You actually read that?” Marinette asked once more, covering her cheeks as they walked towards the park square. 
“I did.” Damian hummed as he adjusted the egg cartoons under his arm, a dangerous twinkle in his emerald eyes. 
Marinette let out a silent screech, confusing Damian. “Did you think I wouldn’t read it?” When he saw her nod, he sighed. “I read every comment left under any post I write. Sure, I don’t respond to any of them, but your comment… seemed… interesting.”
Marinette wanted to disappear into a black hole. Damian actually read that stupid comment she had left under his post. 
It was a post from earlier that week - a picture Damian had uploaded from the recent animal shelter he was volunteering at (as well as funding). 
Another post about an animal up for adoption, this time, a hamster named Louis. 
Marinette was scrolling through the comments under the post after retweeting it, when a particular one caught her attention.
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<3 ACNH is Life <3 @eliza_beth 
Replying to @Real_BloodSon I have a pet chicken and just wanted to ask if the candle method is a good method to check for egg development.  If so, then are they safe to eat? If not, what’s a better method?
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Everyone knew Damian loved to offer help when it came to animals -as it was no secret- but something stupid inside of Marinette thought she should do the only logical thing in her mind.
She commented on it.
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Deadlines Are Approaching @a_mari_not_bug
Replying to @eliza_beth and @Real_BloodSon If it turns out that it is a good method, can I have some eggs? I’ve been wanting to egg someone's house as of late. @Real_BloodSon care to join?
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Marinette didn’t think he would actually read it, let alone actually come. Wait…
Damian lives in the US, not France, unlike her. 
So how did he know where she lived, let alone reside?
“How did you know where I live?” Marinette asked, realizing they were finally at the park, right across from the targeted house, not even realizing that she had brought him over to the house in question.
Damian blinked, setting the cartons down onto the bench.
“Tsurugi told me.”
“You know Tsurugi. As in Kagami Tsurugi?” Marinette asked, wondering where he had met her friend. 
Damian nodded.
“We met during the semifinals for the international fencing competition.” 
Oh. So that’s how they knew each other. 
Damian let a smirk grace his lips. “Obviously, I won.” 
Marinette simply looked at him in awe, causing Damian’s ego to soar more. Of course, that didn’t overcome the other feeling he had inside his chest.
After all, there was no way he was going to tell her that he has been following her account for quite a while. 
So using the amounts of aesthetic pictures, selfies, bakery promos and mini photo shoots, it didn’t take long for Damian to pinpoint where she lived. 
That’s not following Damian. It’s called stalking. 
Okay Drake, but in his defense:
1- it was his side account that he uses for his own personal interests.
Damian didn’t exactly like having thousands of people following him because he was a Wayne. He wanted to be followed for being Damian. 
2- he had been following her for quite a while.
Two solid years to be exact. 
After exchanging social media accounts with Kagami, Marinette was one of the few people Twitter recommended to follow.
Marinette peaked his curiosity when Kagami mentioned Marinette being the person behind her “lucky” fencing bag. (Although, she didn’t want to admit that she used it as a luck charm.) It was an all black duffel bag, enchanting golden embroidery that collected to a single dragon. 
Marinette Dupain-Cheng, Kagami had provided. A girl in her grade from her school in France, who designed the most intricate designs Damian had seen. (Yes, he has seen all of her sketches and final products of the things she had designed…yes it did involve scrolling through her photos and accidentally liking all of them as he went…)
3- it was too late to press that “follow” button when he already kinda didn’t do it as soon as she followed his own account. 
When he finally noticed that she did already follow him, he didn’t know what to do. Should he follow her back? 
“Not yet.” Dick had told him. But just how long did he have to wait? He was stupid for listening to Dick’s advice and he definitely wasn’t going to follow her back now. Or should he?
“So,” Marinette started again, looking around the area, scanning to see that no one saw them. “Have you ever done this before?”
“As in egging a house?” Damian watched as Marinette nodded, wondering if this was her first time doing this. “No, but it shouldn’t be any different than throwing snowballs.” Damian compared, remembering last year’s winter. 
Jon had managed to convince the Wayne’s and the Kent’s to do a snowball fight. 
The Wayne’s obviously won. 
“Guess you have a point.” Marinette replied, attempting to vision Damian’s analogy. She picked up an egg and looked at it and then at the window of the person who had been causing her turmoil these past few days. “Are you… are you sure you want to go with this?”
“Aren’t you?” Damian asked, awaiting Marinette’s signal. He had perfectly balanced a dozen eggs into the nook of his arm, one being juggled in his other hand. 
He was ready and from the twinkle in his eyes, eager to throw. 
Marinette found herself smiling, letting out a laugh as she grabbed a few eggs herself and balanced them in her hand. 
“Between you and I, I've been dreaming of doing this for the longest.” Marinette said with the biggest grin Damian had seen her with that night. “Ready?”
“Always.” Damian replied, mirroring her grin as the two looked at the target, Marinette throwing the first attack.
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Bonus: 
Marinette hummed as she doodled in her sketchbook, her mind wandering to last night’s events. 
She hadn’t known how much stress she had built up thanks to Lila and her constant need to be the attention of everything. 
The messes Marinette had to clean up due to Lila causing disorder during class and after class, all because of Lila and her gazillion and one ‘medical’ problems.
Marinette didn’t realize how emerged she was towards throwing eggs -with great accuracy- towards Lila’s bedroom window until she threw her last egg.
She remembered how satisfying it was to have thrown all of those eggs at the window, that glee when Damian smiled at her. 
How happy she was when Damian complimented her for her graceful and precise throws despite the low lightning of the park lights. 
Marinette placed her pencil down as she finished adding some last minute touches to the coat she had finished designing when Alya slammed her hands in front of her. Marinette quickly looked up at her friend, tilting her head when she was met with twinkling eyes.
“Did you hear what happened to Lila last night?” Alya whispered, causing Marinette to quickly tense. 
“N-no? What happened?” Marinette asked, closing her sketchbook. 
“Her house got egged. Well, her bedroom window did.” Alya corrected herself, watching as Marinette let out a gasp.
“No way! Poor Lila.” Marinette looked over to Lila, watching as she was surrounded by their classmates to gather to listen to her woeful story. “Who would ever do such a thing?”
“Beats me.” Alya said, looking at Marinette, a faint smile on her lips. “You and Damian wouldn’t happen to have been involved-”
“Us?” Marinette instigated, causing Alya to lean forward. “You think Damian and I would do something that stupid and not think of the consequences that awaited us? No way.” Marinette denied, causing Alya to sigh.
“Should’ve known you wouldn’t be up to it. Only you would step down after overthinking about the consequences.” Alya said as she patted her head before taking a few steps from Marinette. “Not like anyone would know who it was since the security cameras of the area seemed to have gone off at that time, strangely enough. Maybe if I hear what Lila has to say about the event, I’ll get some hints as to who it was.”
With that, Alya left to go and listen to Lila, leaving Marinette by herself.
Finally alone, Marinette let out a sigh, feeling her back relax. She felt as a smile rose to her face. 
Giddily, she took out her phone to send Damian a text when a Twitter notification caught her attention. 
She quickly checked it, her smile growing even more. She went back to sending Damian a text.
You bugged the cameras last night?
Damian: A necessary precaution. 
Marinette giggled at his response.
Also, I saw you started following me. Now we’re mutuals! 
Damian liked your message.
Damian: It was only a matter of time, seeing as we egged your enemy’s home.
More like someone I dislike.
Damian: Same thing. 
Damian: Query. Would you like to join Titus and I for a walk at the park? 
Sure! Class ends at 3. Meet you then?
Damian: Titus and I would await you then.
Marinette grinned as she placed her phone away as the school bell rang, signaling the beginning of class. 
She couldn’t wait to spend time with her newfound friend! Who knows what mischief awaited the two!
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peeterparkr · 4 years
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perfidy;tom holland|14
chapter 14: the side-stories
enemies to lovers au/enemies with benefits
chapter summary: harry, tim, the oh shit moments and the ice cream. 
pairing: tom holland x y/n
warnings:  swearing, alcohol mention, smut mention, angsty (?) 
word count: 8k
here’s a playlist
and here’s another one
and here’s another one inspired by 1D
social media before you read (IMPORTANT FOR THE CHAPTER) :
before boarding: Haz wants free breakfast, Tim reaches out, and James gets protective
On flight : Tom joins a club, y/n tweets from the sky and Emma reaches out 
previous chapter next chapter series masterlist wanna be tagged?
So, the chapter came earlier because I had time and inspo and because I really wanted to get to this chapter already. Anyway, huge thanks to @hxpeysuenxs​ for helping me out to get my ideas straight and also... PLEASE! 
Go read ‘the moment’ by @jambrosemc​ it’s a spinoff which I consider canon for Tim and y/n’s relationship. 
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In movies they always manage a “meet-cute” moment, you know the guy who's walking his dog and the dog runs off to the girl of his dreams, or the clumsy— why is she always clumsy?—The clumsy girl who accidentally spills coffee on the guy and then he immediately falls in love with her. Stupid and cliché but they never fail. The repetitive script that we all know and adore. 
The guy who ends up with the girl, the girl who’s always so different from the rest. The girl who gives up her dream for a guy. You know, those incredible moments at airports when she runs to him and he declares his love, or he stops traffic or… any kind of cute crap we all know and adore. Those breathtaking moments. 
The movies, however, never show the “oh shit” moments, the moments when you realize that you’re way deep in love with them. The moment when you know that there’s no going back. The moment when you feel like you’re screwed.
Harry knew of those. Especially of the ‘oh shit’ moment, he’d had it with Y/N, when she’d turned 16. He remembered it, she had only started dating that idiot, Louis. Complete idiot, but y/n didn’t realize it until he dumped her hours before prom, but we already know that story. 
But when she turned 16, Louis had thrown her a party, under the … stars and the sea? It didn’t make any sense, not for y/n’s style. But Harry had taken her out after the party, to this café. And after hours and hours of talking and laughing. He remembered seeing y/n look outside, at the cars, and then chuckle to herself. And Harry thought she was the most beautiful girl he would ever see, with the most melodic laugh the most perfect smile. 
And that’s when Harry thought: “Oh, shit.” 
Harry also knew of the typical “meet-cute”, he’d heard of one and he’d lived one. Which wasn’t exactly how they’d met but… how one of them had realized of the existence of the other. 
Timmy and y/n had had one, long before they officially met. Harry had heard from Tim how he’d “met her” long before they’d met, the meet cute turned into the ‘oh shit’. 
Tim had already seen her, they had a class together, and the way Timmy described it, Harry knew it. Tim was perfect for y/n. 
“She’d walked in, 16 minutes late to the lecture, she didn’t even have to explain what had happened. Her head was soaking from the rain, she was carrying like twenty bags and she was holding her car keys, to the convertible, now I know exactly what happened….and she’d bit her lip and tried to quietly make her way to the back, and she failed because she dropped everything, and I remember seeing her, stare at her stuff, scoff and then she cursed under her breath, pulled out her soaking notebook and glared at me because I laughed. And I thought she hated me, but I just—I saw a main character, you know? She literally just—God, she looked so pretty. And I thought oh, shit, I don’t even know her and I’m already in love with her.” 
They were probably each other’s endgame, and Harry knew that.  How difficult it had been for him to finally accept it when they had initially started dating. 
But Harry wasn’t bitter about it, because Harry had seen y/n’s light turn off before Timmy. And slowly Timmy had brought y/n back from the death, if that made any sense at all. Y/N smiled again with Timmy, and she would laugh again and she would be herself, and that’s all Harry cared about. 
Harry knew that y/n’s sudden downfall had all to do with Tom, even though his brother never addressed that matter. Harry was completely sure that Tom and Y/N would always have unresolved issues because even if Harry didn’t like to admit it to himself, Tom and Y/N made sense, in the most stupid way they could. Even if they didn’t. Such a complicated relationship that Harry knew was only a redundant way to cover up for the fact that they probably both loved each other. Yes, Harry was not dumb and he knew Tom probably had always reciprocated y/n’s feelings. In his own particular way. 
It’s easy, when you’re in love with someone you see who else is, because you’re observant, because you know how it feels. Harry wasn’t observant but he knew his brother too well not to notice that Tom practically drooled every time y/n would walk into the room. 
No, Harry wasn’t stupid. But Harry had probably been the only one who knew. Or he thought so. 
He was very conflicted about Tom, because sometimes it genuinely seemed like y/n was his biggest enemy and that Tom was actually trying to destroy her. But there were other times when Tom wasn’t as good to hide up the fact that y/n made him blush. 
Our bodies never help us to hide up our feelings, no matter how good we think we are at hiding it and no matter how good of an actor he was. We all get weak. Specially when we are in love, it seems to be the best way to tumble down our walls. 
The eyes, Chico, they never lie.  And Tom’s eyes didn’t lie. Whether he said he hated y/n or not, Tom’s gaze was only for y/n. 
“Y/N only likes me because I’m a movie star,” Tom said once. 
But Harry didn’t stomach why Tom had never understood how y/n had loved him way long before he even considered being an actor. She’d said to Harry after Tom had gone to prom with her, how she also quite could figure it out. 
Harry remembered how Tom had broken her heart back then, he’d just been cast as Spiderman. 
“Congratulations, you now get to say Spiderman took you to prom.” 
Harry knew Tom and Y/N had kissed back then. 
“I think it’s funny how Tom always forgets I loved him before he turned into whatever he is today.” 
Tom often did forget that. Tom often forgot that y/n had loved him for a long while now. And he couldn’t really understand why his brother would continuously rip y/n’s heart apart. And why did she choose Tom over the course of the years? Harry had been right beside her, always. But he never said anything. 
Harry had almost told her how he felt before she left for Rome. He hadn’t, but he thought that she knew it. 
And it had almost happened. 
Y/N was almost finished packing, she was roaming around the room. 
“I mean it’s the whole summer,” she explained. 
“But you’re gonna wash your clothes, y/n,” Harry laughed. “Hey, what if we—take a break? You know, let’s order a pizza or something and then we will come back and finish with all this mess.” 
Y/N didn’t hesitate twice. 
Harry barely remembered how it happened, they’d ended up on the couch. Like any other night, it wasn’t special, it was just another rainy night in London. The lights went out after a lightning stroke, and y/n only jumped to his arms. 
Harry held her close, and she only hugged him back. This wasn’t weird, y/n was affectionate but of course, Harry somehow felt it was his last chance. 
He only stared deep into her eyes, and she sensed it. His eyes travelled down to her lips, and they stayed quiet, for a bit. Harry hesitated on whether he should make a move or not. He only leaned in slightly, and her gaze was scared, but she was leaning over, too. But maybe they had been tired, or maybe it had been the moment. But both of them knew it was wrong, and both of them pulled away before they could even get closer. She stood up quickly, out of his grasp. 
“Uh, I’ll… I’ll continue packing, sorry, I uh…” She didn’t say anything. “No…” 
“I’m sorry… I yeah, let’s get to packing--” 
And they had, so vigorously ignoring what just had happened. 
“Y/N about what happened-” Harry had said before he left her apartment. 
“We will talk when I come back.” 
But they hadn’t. 
Harry had noticed about three years ago just after she’d come back from Rome, how y/n’s eyes would brighten up even more each time Tom smiled, and how Tom would stop to listen whenever y/n spoke. Harry didn’t mind if they were dating. 
Not really. 
Though it was a burden to bear, the reminiscent smiles were only a hint for it. 
Of course he’d be heartbroken, we can’t control our emotions and feelings. But he’d be happy because if anything, Harry cared too much for his brother. And he genuinely loved y/n too much to impede her from being happy. 
And Harry himself had always been skeptical about his own feelings towards y/n. Had it been only a whim caused by a stupid childhood crush? No, it was love. 
It was love. There is nothing more painful than to love and know you’ll never be loved back. 
But he had accepted y/n and Tom were secretly dating back then, or whatever they were doing. Big was his surprise when they’d seen each other at the club. 
Which brings us to our meet-cute, going back to y/n and Timothee. 
Harry perfectly remembered how that night had gone, and he knew y/n, and he knew Tom. And Harry wanted an answer, if there was anything that Harry hated was the fact that Tom never admitted it. Why didn’t he? 
Or was Harry too dumb and too jealous and blaming the fact that y/n didn’t love him back that he had made himself think that Tom loved her too? 
Maybe Tom had never loved her. 
But he’d seen y/n fade away that night, he had seen how happiness had left her body. Harry could swear he had heard y/n’s heart shatter on that nightclub when Tom was kissing that pink shirt. 
And it wasn’t like this was the first time Tom broke her heart. He’d seen it again, and again, and again. And he’d seen how y/n would only take a deep breath, look away, and ignore the usual cold tear shedding. Harry would always silently offer his shoulder. 
But that night, he hadn’t. And he wondered what could’ve happened if he had. Timmy had made her smile even at that precise moment when y/n’s heart had broken into pieces. That’s how incredible Timmy was. Even in the darkest time, Timmy had made y/n smile. 
And Harry remembered wanting to fight Tom the very next day, without addressing what was really going on. He only wanted to kick his brother's ass and tell him off for breaking y/n’s heart again, but he hadn’t. Because Harry himself didn’t understand it, if they had been dating why had Tom so deliberately crushed her heart? 
That’s what Harry never understood, why would anyone do that? Make them fall in love with you only so you could hurt them? And Harry had seen Tom do it again, and again. Gaining y/n’s trust only so he could break her, betray her in any possible way. 
However, nobody had seen what had happened. Tom hadn’t gone home with that pink skirt, after y/n had left with Sam, Tom had drifted away from her, and then had left with Haz and Tuwaine. 
Tom had only pulled an act to mess with y/n. 
Harry had stayed with the other group, the one with Timmy and Emma. Emma… that was another story. 
And the very next day, Harry had seen Tom with tears in his eyes in the kitchen, looking up and asking questions to the ceiling. Swearing to himself. 
Harry didn’t talk to him initially, until he saw him coming back with yellow flowers. He seemed nervous. 
“Tom, were you and y/n on a date?” Harry had asked him. 
Tom watched him. “No.” 
“Did she know that?” Asked Harry with venom. 
“Yes.” 
“Are you fucking sure?” Harry snapped. “You are very aware that she’s got feelings for you.” 
Tom looked away. “Well she’s dumb,” Tom said. “She should clearly be in love with you instead.” 
“That’s not what we are talking about,” Harry sassed. “Did she or did she not know that it wasn’t a date?” 
“No.” 
“What was it, then?” Harry asked. “And why did you buy her flowers?” 
“How did—“
“Yellow flowers? She loves them.” 
“I will go and apologize for making her believe that I could—I dunno.” 
“Why do you insist on breaking her heart?” Harry wondered, “she’s—She’s the most amazing girl and you’re so fucking lucky that she loves you. Why would you insist on hurting her? She’s done nothing wrong to you, and her fucking biggest sin is that she loves you, and you did that? You think I didn’t see you? Strolling around giving her hope and making her fall in love with you? Go and tell her you don’t love her, because deep down she thinks you do, and she’s so stupid for believing that. But I swear Tom if you dare to keep that door open for her it’ll only get worse, let her be, and stop playing with her heart. Close that door forever.” 
And he saw him leave and then come back, with a bag full of dirt. He saw him, kicking the couch, he heard him yelling and then he saw him, downing beer after beer. 
Tom hadn’t spoken to anyone for a few days. 
And then y/n hadn’t spoken to any of them for months, she barely answered his texts. She would cancel on their lunch, and she would blame it on school. He’d seen her on campus, without her smile and the usual sunshine that followed her. He’d try to reach out to her but she would back away.
But Harry saw someone there… Tim. Little by little he saw the green eyed fella walking with y/n more and more. And little by little, y/n’s sunshine was coming back. 
He had seen her in the halls, walking with him. How Timmy would always make her smile, and blush. And Harry loved seeing that again. 
Harry knew that they were probably made for each other. Initially, when Timothee had appeared he wasn’t as fond. You can never be too fond of someone who is also in love with the girl you’re in love with. But for Harry it was different. 
For each and every rom-com he’d watched, for research purposes, he claimed, he had seen the perfect meet cute and the guy whom the girl is supposed to end with. And when Harry had once again heard y/n’s melodic laugh back, he knew Tim was her endgame. 
And he decided that it was time to move on. And he had, exactly with his “meet cute”, Emma. 
Emma had accidentally spilled her drink on Harry. And Harry would be lying if he ever said there wasn’t a strike of electricity when he’d looked into her eyes, like in movies, when the guy meets the girl. 
Emma. 
Who initially wasn’t fond of y/n, because of course, the girl didn’t even look at her best friend, and there was Timmy, all smitten with her. But Emma had become the perfect friend y/n could ask for. 
And the perfect girl Harry could never imagine. 
Emma had told him a lot about Timothee. 
“It's amazing we bumped into you guys that night, Timmy here had always had a crush on the girl with the cute jeans and dirty sneakers.” 
And he fell in love with Emma as an accident. He hadn’t planned it, and neither did Emma. Because it all started as two people hanging out because their respective best friends were in a relationship. Not because they had to, because they had wanted to. And they started to hang out, and Harry knew it, it had been one night under the stars, when Harry knew he was finally over y/n. 
And it was great. Until… y/n broke up with Timmy. Old feelings resurfaced. But when it occurred, Harry remembered how she had walked in, around New Years. 
He remembered how conflicted he’d been, trying to hold her hand, and how he had briefly opened his heart to her, but it hadn’t felt right. He knew it, he was over her. And though it hurt seeing her like this, he didn’t… feel the same. All he could think about when y/n was crying on her shoulder was Emma. And y/n had become a bittersweet song, an undermining memory. 
Emma was an accident, and she’d changed all of Harry’s plans. Initially, she had become a distraction, from whatever Harry was doing at the time, but slowly she dug her way into his heart. Emma was someone Harry would’ve never thought he’d fall in love with, but she was someone who now he never wanted to lose. That’s why he had proposed. 
But he had been… conflicted. When Emma told him she’d ask y/n to be her maid of honor...it felt weird. 
Why did he feel weird? It was normal, right?
Maybe it was weird because he had a feeling that Y/N probably was again falling into Tom’s spell. 
Of course, he had asked Haz and Sam. And they’d denied it. He had asked James, though. He hadn’t denied it, he didn’t confirm it..
“I don’t know.”
Simple answer. 
And Harry didn’t, either. 
Because maybe it hurt him. But it didn’t hurt him in the way one would think, it would hurt. It hurt in the way that he knew where Tom would go. Again breaking her heart. 
So he wondered why y/n was so stupid. How was she going there again? And was she? 
Did he have to reach out for her? And why did she keep ignoring him? 
He knew he couldn’t be for her this time. Or did he have to? 
Why did she keep ignoring him? Why did it bother him so much? 
Harry knew. Because y/n was his own first love. And it hurt to think of it that way, but he looked back at it. Like an old memory. An old song. 
And he found it funny, how y/n was someone who planned ahead and stuck to real thoughts, and yet she was always finding herself at the crazy curveballs. Which made her stay out of her lane. Out of Harry’s path. 
But maybe they were meant to stay that way, with their paths never touching, and their words never colliding. Only for a friendship. 
Maybe Harry had to let go off the plan, because he had a new one. With Emma. 
That didn’t stop Harry from reaching out to her. 
“Hello? Harry! Hello!” Y/N answered facetime. She was in the lobby, and she seemed tired, but her smile brightened up as soon as she saw her best friend. 
 “Hey!  How is it going?” Harry grinned as soon as he had seen her. 
“Good, good, uh, Tom and I just checked in on the hotel,” she explained, her voice was muffled then. “Wanna say hi to your brother?” She moved the phone and Tom gulped but waved. 
“Hey!” Was all he said. 
“Uh—y/n, I actually had to talk to you, I’ll talk to Tom later so maybe—“
Y/N stayed quiet. “I’ll—give me a sec.” She had turned off the camera. 
Harry was sweating, he didn’t understand why he’d taken up the courage to call her. It was late for him, but he couldn’t sleep unless he reached out to her. Because he knew all of this would go wrong and he couldn’t be right beside her. 
A muffled Tom could be heard, barely, but he was there. “Yeah, yeah, see you in a bit.” 
Which had Harry wondering, were they in separate rooms at the hotel? And why the fuck did it matter? 
“Harry!” A cheerful y/n said after she’d turned it back on, she still seemed to be somwehere in the lobby which only made Harry’s suspicion higher.  “Hola.” 
“Y/N,” Harry grinned. “Salut.” 
It was a very stupid tradition they had. They had taken Spanish and French lessons together, yes y/n had learned french even before Timmy and it had stuck, they would randomly say words in either language. 
“How’s New York?” Harry asked. “Finally you get to go to your dream place.” 
“Well, the airport was nice,” she laughed as she plugged in her earphones. “And so far I’m… in love with the city, Tom said he’ll give me a tour because he…” She laughed. “Knows it so well because he’s Spider-Man,” she mocked 
“Oh, don’t trust him, he’ll get you lost in five minutes,” Harry chuckled. 
“Wait, it’s like 1 am over there isn’t it?” Y/N chuckled. “Why are you awake? Long day filming?” 
“Yeah, a bit,” Harry admitted. “Gosh, it’s been crazy.” 
“I bet, but you’re having fun aren’t you?” She wondered.
“A lot,” Harry admitted. “But uh-- I wanted to talk to you about something.” 
Y/N cleared her throat. “Uhm… Is it about Emma’s… request?” 
Harry didn’t answer. Had she not accepted it yet? 
She smiled. “Because I haven’t had the time to answer her, but I’m going to say yes, don’t worry! I just wanted to sit down and write down a whole ass--” 
“No, no, it’s not about that--But great!” Harry gulped. “No, no, it’s…” 
“Yup?” 
“It’s about Tom.” 
The end of the line stayed dangerously quiet. She licked her lips and looked away. She didn’t move. 
“Y/N?” 
“Yeah, I’m here,” she sighed. “I… What about Tom?” 
Harry licked his lips. “I know you, y/n, I just… Don’t let him fool you again.” 
“He’s not fooling me, I--where are you even coming from?” She coughed, she’d turned stiff. “I.. We’ve become friends and that’s it. We’re getting along.” 
“I don’t have to be there to know you’re crushing on him again,” Harry explained. The tweets, the pictures, Tom and y/n constantly bickering on the group chat. James’ answer,  the way Harrison had denied it so intensely and...The way that Tom had been ignoring Harry. Harry knew something was going on. 
“I’m not,” she answered, but she had bit her inner cheek. 
“Look, y/n,” he clicked his tongue. “I’m only worried because I don’t know if I’ll be able to be there with you, and--Tom sooner or later will hurt you.” 
“Then you should call him up and tell him not to, don’t call me, I’m not… doing anything,” she snapped then squeezed her eyes shut. “Look, Harry, I can take care of myself, I’ve done it before and…” 
“And how did that work out for you?” Harry frowned. “I’m just saying this because I’m your best friend.” 
“But are you really saying it because of that, Harry?” 
“What?” Harry frowned. 
“No… Nothing, I’m just… I know where you’re coming from, but this time I won’t let him hurt me, and I.. I am not crushing on him.” 
“Fine, I’m just… worried, okay? And I know it’s hard already...Having Timmy there and-” 
She pinched the bridge of her nose. “I--Harry, I’m tired from my flight, okay? I need to go and take a shower and just…You know? I’ll call you tomorrow, okay?” 
“Y/N I didn’t mean to-” 
“Love you, bye!” 
He shouldn’t have mentioned Timmy. 
And Timmy truly  didn’t know where he was standing. Timothee didn’t want to be too intrusive, but he couldn’t help it. He was jealous, that was unequivocally an understatement, Tom drove him insane. And Tim was getting prepared exactly just for that. Could anyone be prepared to see the love of their life happy with someone else?
Timmy had learned where they were staying. He had debated to himself whether or not he should bring her flowers, but over the course of the years he’d learned that y/n loved flowers, so it might give him a little… advantage. 
There was possibly no way that he’d be able to bump into them. He didn’t even know when she’d arrive, and was it creepy? He probably was being creepy. He was standing in front of a hotel with little to no information of whether y/n would be there. He held the peonies as he headed to the entrance, he had to leave this was… no. He was being crazy right? 
But he walked in, and he saw her, sitting down, bummed. Her hair resting against her hand, her hair falling down. She looked tired, but radiant at the same time, she looked like a summer song. And he wondered if this was the perfect movie moment, when the guy cheers up the girl and they fall back in love. He could easily run up to her and ask her to love him, and somehow, she’d do it. 
But he couldn’t. He just watched her from afar, and if he knew her well enough, he knew she was about to shed a tear. She took a deep breath and tapped her foot anxiously. 
What was troubling her? Maybe it had only taken a flight for Tom to break her heart. But… that wasn’t her ‘Tom screwed me over’ face. She seemed angry. 
Tim was frozen, he wanted to approach her and be there to comfort whatever Tom had pulled this time but just as Timmy had finally managed to move, he saw Tom getting out of the elevator. Strutting with arrogance. 
He stopped to watch the scene, he expected yelling. He thought y/n would turn around to Tom like she always did and yell at him. And Tim wanted to see the bickering, the usual fighting. But there… wasn’t any. Instead, Tom had come to wrap his arms around her from behind and placed a sweet kiss to her cheek. A smile came back to her face as she turned to face him, and they didn’t kiss this time, but the smile she dedicated him was all it took to break Tim. The glance y/n directed at Tom was the gaze Tim had fought so hard to get. 
And it only took Tom a stupid kiss on her cheek. 
Tim felt it again, the knife all across his chest as he watched them leave for the elevator, her hand clinging to his arm as he would lean over and whisper to her. And time stopped. And Timmy wished he hadn’t walked in to see that, he wished he hadn’t had the incredible idea to give her flowers. He wouldn’t have seen that, he shouldn’t have bought the stupid peonies. 
Honestly, he would never get used to seeing that. He felt like someone had cut off a piece of his heart and crushed it right in front of him. Timmy never really understood why she loved Tom. However, he knew y/n didn’t know it either. She’d deny it, she’d avoid the subject. She’d never speak of Tom, unless it was to assure him she despised him. And yet, as the elevator door closed, he saw her, slowly placing a kiss on his lips. 
That image had kept Timmy awake all night long, he’d blame it on the jet lag but it was unbearable. Because he wondered where had it all gone wrong? When had he stopped reading y/n? 
But had he really? 
The next day on set it got even worse, he saw them arrive, fingers locked and that smile Tim had gotten familiar with. The usual tender chuckle. But… was she happy? 
She seemed to be, but… Maybe Timmy hadn’t completely forgotten how to read her. She seemed confused, was she? 
Tim had brought the flowers again, though he probably shouldn’t have. He should’ve thrown away the peonies. But he couldn’t, y/n loved peonies.
Of course, he couldn’t… give them to her, so he just arranged someone to leave one at Tom’s trailer. Even when he knew that y/n could think they could come from Tom. 
But maybe y/n hadn’t forgotten that Tim’s signature flowers were peonies. Hopefully she really hadn’t. But Tom did take the credit for, he’d seen y/n kiss Tom’s cheek. 
And it hurt Timmy, but then she saw him… when she saw him, it felt like she knew. She just gave him a sad smile. 
Filming for the next few days had been…painful. Y/N and him hadn’t talked, not really. Tom didn’t let her be around, not that he had forbidden it but anytime Tim would get close, Tom would rush in, and pull her close to him. 
However, Timmy hadn’t stopped with the flowers, not big arrangement every day, a single peony every now and then, and he’d seen y/n with one, outside the trailer, confused...but she was too busy with Tom. And Tim had gotten to the idea, even if they hadn’t really talked about it. It was obvious. But Timmy faked blindness, even when it was too much to handle.  
Like that day when Tom and Mad had slipped while dancing, and y/n let out a loud laugh as she rushed to see him...to see Tom. 
“Did you just laugh?” Tom asked, chuckling. 
“No,” but y/n couldn’t stop laughing. “Well—I—I… its cause you—“She let out a loud cackle that could even be confused with a snore.
Tim smiled to himself, he missed that laugh. The messy one, the one that told Tim she didn’t care anymore. 
“You are still laughing,” Tom now started to laugh with her, as they threw their head back. 
Timmy saw it, and he felt it. The way Tom has probably felt throughout their whole relationship. Because what hurt Timmy the most wasn’t that he couldn’t kiss her, what hurt Timmy the most was he wasn’t the reason for her smile anymore. 
“Stop laughing!” Tom said. 
And then y/n kissed Tom, repeatedly. Her hands cupping his face as she only smiled against his lips. 
Well, maybe it did bother Tim. 
Because there was just so… much kissing. It seemed like Tom never missed an opportunity to get his lips on y/n. It was so annoying, especially when Tim was around, he seemed to have a magnet to her lips, and his hands always on her waist. 
They were disgusting. Other people called them adorable, but Tim called them disgusting. 
Because it bothered him, and because he had been right. About all of this. That troubled Timmy enough, let alone the fact that they didn’t care if he was seeing, it was the fact that he had been right all along. 
Never would have Timmy thought he’d end up with a cigarette on his mouth as he listened to a pianist on a New York bar. He had a scotch in his hands, and he could only wonder where y/n was. Probably with Tom, Tom probably was taking off her clothes and kissing that sweet spot on her neck that drove her crazy. Her clothes probably were on some fancy hotel floor, and her lipstick would be tattooing Tom’s body. And she probably was smiling, and Tom would get to hear her laugh, and she’d probably be moaning Tom’s name. 
And Timmy couldn’t believe it. Where had he gone wrong? What in this world did Tom do to have y/n making a fool of herself for him? 
And Timmy cried, even though he wasn’t really a crier, he couldn’t help it. Really, he couldn’t help it. But he soon forgot it, he started drinking with some random girl he’d met at that bar, with pretty eyes and a southern accent, she told him she was there looking for her dreams. And they had gone dancing instead because the piano had bored him, for the first time he was bored of a conversation, and he told her: I just want to dance, and the blue lights had barely helped him to forget y/n, as the girl kept grinding against him, and wrapping his arms around Timmy, but he could only think of y/n and how they were always dancing. But he kept drinking and smoking, and dancing. But y/n stayed on his mind, in his imagination. No matter how loud the music was going, and no matter how good looking the girl was, he couldn’t see anyone but the image of y/n. Because she was everywhere, in the music he was dancing to, in the shirt he was wearing, everywhere.
And Timmy wasn’t the guy to have a one night stand, and yet... He found himself walking out of a random wannabe New Yorker small studio to go back to his hotel. He wasn’t pleased with himself. That wasn’t him. But he had felt lonely, and he wasn’t over her, so he really only wanted to get his mind off of it. It hadn’t helped. 
If anything, this was y/n’s fault, because he couldn’t help but think about it. He’d slept with a stranger, but that wasn’t what was bothering him… It was the fact he had danced with a stranger. And dancing, dancing was their thing. 
Timothée was crying on the subway. 
“I fucked up,” he texted Emma. “I miss her so much and I can’t stand this.” 
Emma had called him immediately. 
“Talk to me, Tim.” 
“Did I wake you up?” 
“No, I was… already awake, tell me,” Emma said. 
“It’s just hard, Em,” he explained. “I don’t even know what to tell you, now, I feel like I’ve lost her and now, I just I know I fucked up by proposing but I--” 
“Timmy, don’t say that.” 
“But that was it, she faded away when I proposed, and that’s on me,” Tim sighed. “I should’ve known she wasn’t ready and that we--fuck, I don’t even know, I just want to win her back and be how we used to be, I miss her and her smile and her laugh and-” 
“Aren’t you guys talking? I thought you told me you were on talking terms,” Emma answered. 
“Not here, not in New York, and fuck, it makes it harder, New York makes it harder,” he explained. “Just before the proposal, we were planning on coming, you know? We had our whole trip planned, and in my head, I would have been walking down this city already engaged, and here I am, walking down to my fucking hotel after hooking up with some-”
“You hooked up with someone?” Emma questioned. “You?” 
“Yes.” 
“Oh, then it must be bad.” 
“I… just, I can’t stand seeing her with Tom,” Tim said. “I just… out of everyone.” 
“Hold on-Tom?” Emma asked. 
Tim bit his lip, did they not know about this? 
“Yes, Tom… I thought you would know,” Timmy frowned. “Didn’t Harry tell you?” 
“I don’t think Harry knows this,” Emma explained. “Which… is technically better for me, I guess.” 
Timmy didn’t answer. 
“I asked her… to be my maid of honour,” Emma explained. “Which I know, I’m sorry I would’ve asked you but…” 
Timothée kept quiet. 
“We both know she’s got history with the Hollands,” Emma sighed with sadness. “And although these are bad news for you, it…” 
“I know.” 
“Is it wrong?” Emma asked. “I know you love her Tim but… Is it wrong I still fear how she’ll act around Harry?” 
“It’s not her who you’re worried about,” Tim sounded convinced.
“You’re right, but… You know what they say, keep your friends close and your enemies closer,” she explained. “And though she is not my enemy per se, I just can’t help but be anxious around her, after all she was Harry’s first love, and you’ve heard her say it.” 
“True love might only be the first one,” Tim answered. “I know, but… I really think you shouldn’t worry.” 
“And I really think you shouldn’t worry about Tom,” Emma insisted. “After all, he’s her enemy, and she might just be doing the same thing I’m doing, keeping her enemies close, and we both know Tom will eventually fuck up.” 
“You’re right.” 
Tim had texted y/n afterwards begging to go out for dinner, and y/n had eventually agreed, but it wasn’t really dinner she’d agreed on. Still, Tim was thinking about it. How  he’d been right all along. 
Tom did have feelings for y/n, and even if y/n had never admitted it. She had feelings for Tom. 
And Timmy knew this, but it’s easier said than done. He couldn’t stomach and map out any emotions, how could he? He had been right, this whole time. But he also knew y/n, and he knew that y/n was someone who always had her mind busy. Thoughts, creativity, lists… many lists. And guilt, y/n would often have to settle down her mind at night if something was bothering her. Even with simple stuff, like if she hadn’t tried an ice cream flavor even when Tim would assure her she wouldn’t  like it , she’d have to go the next day to try it. Or whenever a new movie came out and y/n would read the reviews and know she’d hate it, but went and watched it anyway just to be disappointed by it. 
So maybe that was what was going on. Tom was the coconut-pistachio cheesecake ice cream y/n so wanted to try, but wouldn’t like in the end. Y/N was dating the terrible reviewed movie right now. 
However, the ice cream bumped into Tim, anyway the same day he’d go out for dinner with y/n, holding a peony that Tim had given her that day.
“What are you doing?” Tom frowned. 
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” Tim said, looking down at the schedule he had to follow, he spoke then through the radio and walked past Tom. 
“You really think I don’t know these are yours?” Tom frowned. 
“Well, I’m helping you out, man, take the credit, for all I know you already are taking it,” Timmy rolled his eyes. 
“Why are you doing this?” 
Tim watched him. “I just gave her flowers man.” And really that’s all he’d done. He hadn’t even tried to talk to y/n. He didn’t want to intrude. One flower a day didn’t hurt anyone. 
“No, no, no, why are you trying to-” 
“I’m not trying anything,” Timmy answered calmly. 
Tom clenched his jaw. “You lost your chance.” 
“It’s funny you out of everyone say that,” Tim snaked. “Seems like chances are given for free.” 
“What’s that supposed to mean?” 
“Why are you angry?” Timmy shrugged. “She is your girlfriend, you don’t have to worry about me--” 
Tom didn’t answer. 
“Ah, she’s not your girlfriend, yet.” 
“Well but she might be.” 
“Then why are you worrying?” Tim cackled dryly. “If she is in love with you then she won’t even look at my flowers. And as I said, take the credit man.” 
“Exes don’t give out flowers,” Tom frowned.  
“Well, I do, I love giving her flowers, and at least I know for a fact she doesn’t cry whenever I give her flowers,” Tim shrugged. “Now, if you’ll excuse me-”
“You don’t have the right to mention that,” Tom frowned. 
“Seems like I already did,” Timmy rolled his eyes. “Look, I don’t want to argue with you, you go be happy with her.” 
Tom watched him. “You don’t even know what we’ve gone through, and we are very happy.” 
Timmy stared at Tom. He truly didn’t understand why Tom was being so bitchy about this, yes, probably it wasn’t fair play giving her flowers. But honestly, Tom had been worse while y/n and Tim were dating, always big gestures, that of course would be erased by any kind of mean words Tom directed as y/n. Always hurting y/n. Yes, Tom had never been a fan of Tom, because he always managed to turn y/n’s light off, only with a glance and y/n would be on the verge of tears. Tom was a monster to y/n. Why the hell was y/n now sprinting with him? Why the hell did y/n kiss Tom the way she was kissing him? 
“I don’t have to know much to understand you’ve broken her so many times,” Tim argued back. 
“I’ve changed.”
“Have you really, Tom? And does she know that?” Tim had started to walk away.
Tom stayed quiet for a bit, “She does.” 
Tim turned around. “I think you’re scared because even if you know her from your whole life, you don’t actually know her.” 
Tom frowned. “I know her perfectly.” 
“But for your own conveniences, you know how to make her cry, you know how to break her, but that’s it,” Tim raised his arms, shrugging. 
Tom clenched his jaw. “You’re just angry that she’s screaming my name now,” Tom snapped. 
Timothée had to look away. “That’s the issue with you, Tom. You don’t know the magic of y/n,” he told him, shaking his head as he stared down at the floor. “Maybe you managed to get her in bed, but you won’t get to have her completely and you know that, because it’s the little moments that count for y/n, and you don’t get that, you always have to put up a show for her.” 
Tom rolled his eyes. “You dated her for only two years, what makes you think you know her more than I do? I’ve known her my whole life.” 
Tim chuckled. “I didn’t buy a Polaroid, for instance, I don’t have to fake around her,” Tim explained. “I made her smile with a single peony, because I know she doesn’t need whatever big flower arrangement I know you’re already planning to give her. I know her.” 
Tom scoffed. “I don’t need to give you any explanation, and I don’t even know why I’m bothering to argue with you, y/n doesn’t even love you, if she did she would’ve accepted your proposal,” Tom snapped with venom. “Now please stop sending her flowers, and don’t dare to bring her flowers tonight.” 
With that, the bad-reviewed movie had walked away. Tim looked away, he was hurt. But not because he’d said that. But because y/n had told him. It just… Didn’t make any sense. 
They’d meet at her hotel’s bar. A less formal thing, and Timmy understood.
He had seen her walk out of the elevator, and… Tom had, too. They seemed to be tense, but Tom kissed her cheek anyway before leaving for the entrance.
Timmy really didn’t like elevators anymore.
Y/N walked over to Tim, she didn’t seem… excited. 
“Hi,” he greeted her. He hadn't brought her flowers this time. Not because Tom had asked him to, but because he knew it wasn’t the place for it. 
“Hey,” she gulped as she watched him. “Let’s… go for a drink, shall we?” 
And it was awkward at first. They’d never been awkward but she had been this time, quiet, and she looked sad. They were sitting on the tallest stools in the bar, where y/n was swinging her legs, trying to get a hold of the film canister she’d pulled out at the beginning of their conversation. She had Toyed with it, long enough for Timmy to wonder which of the many film canisters was it. He’d given her thousands of them, with notes, with films… and one with a ring. The canister seemed more interesting than Tim himself. But she looked beautiful, and Tim only wished and longed to go back in time, and have her smile at him like she used to. 
Instead they were barely even looking at each other.
“So, have you been exploring the city?” Tim asked her. 
Y/N shrugged and smiled. “Not...really,” she admitted. “We—“she cleared her throat. “I’ve barely had the time, you know? Always filming and then I am tired but—Tomorrow I might,” she told him. “Tom has a free day so—“
“Yeah,” Tim watched her. “Anywhere special you want to go? New York has always been your dream.” 
“Dunno yet, Tom probably has something planned, something big,” she smiled to herself. “He only keeps surprising me…” 
“So uh, you and Tom huh?” Tim had asked as smoothly as he could’ve. 
“I… well,” she shifted on her sit. “I guess.” 
“It’s okay, I knew it was coming,” he smiled. “I’m happy-“
“Timmy I’m sorry I—“ she looked at him, finally looked at him. 
“No, no, I’m happy, as long as he makes you happy,” Tim lied with the most convincing smile he could pull. 
“I’m very sorry Tim,” she sighed. 
He reached over for her arm, “Y/N, no, I don’t want you to be, really,” he squeezed her arm and then pulled back his hand. 
“Are you okay?” She looked at him. 
“I feel like I am, but I mean, you can’t really—I mean, I’m as fine as I can be,” he chuckled to himself. 
“Tim,” she gave him a sad smile. 
“I’m being honest, y/n, one can only be as cheerful as they can while they see the love of their life taken away,” he had said and he’d felt his heart become smaller as he said it. 
Y/N watched him. “You really think I’m the love of your life?” 
Tim looked at her, she timidly smiled. “I know it.” 
Y/N bit her lip. “How do you know that? Who the love of your life is?” 
Timmy watched her. Somehow that question felt like an old conversation, of the ones they used to have. He didn’t know why she’d asked it. But maybe his answer would get her back to her senses.
“Well, you feel it. You know?” Tim chuckled. “It’s that breathtaking moment y/n,” he explained as he looked at her. “I guess it’s the person that makes you feel like you’re watching your favorite movie, the one you know you’d never get tired of,”he looked at her lips and then at her sight, she seemed conflicted but she was listening. “The person you feel calm with, the one you only need a smile from and everything turns better,” he grinned. “It’s walking under the rain and feeling warm. It’s… you.” 
She looked at him, and then stared at the film canister again. 
“What’ve you got there?” He looked at it. 
“Ah, nothing,” she gulped. “It’s—Nothing,” she smiled at him. “But uhm, have you had time to explore New York?” 
“A little bit, yeah,” he chuckled. More than he wanted to, if he was honest. “I actually got lost in the subway, you know how distracted I am—“
“You’re kidding,” she smiled again. 
“No, no, but—“And he started telling her stories, like he used to do. And she listened, and she laughed and she smiled. 
And eventually, she put the film canister back in her purse, making Tim wonder what the hell was in it. But it didn’t matter, because she was finally smiling again, and with every single story and with every single sentence, he felt like he was falling back in love all over again. And hours went by, and they didn’t even notice how time had passed. And it felt like old times. Older...times. 
But eventually she kissed his cheek goodbye, because she of course had to go back to Tom. Who had walked back into the hotel. But maybe had imagined it, the whole conversation maybe hadn’t gone as espectacular. And this wasn’t a movie, the girl and the guy probably wouldn’t fall back in love just after a conversation at the bar, and maybe it wasn’t breathtaking.  And he saw her walking back up to Tom, and kissed his lips. Not his cheek, his lips. 
But Tim did have an oh shit moment, it was different from that moment when y/n had walked into the lecture, 16 minutes late. It was the oh shit moment when Tim realized it, the repetitive script we’ve all learned and adored from movies wouldn’t replicate in Tim’s life. Not for now, at least. Because y/n, for once, had liked the ice cream.
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horansqueen · 4 years
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AM Conversations : chapter 42
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A Niall Horan fanfiction ; rated MA
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CHAPTER 1 || CHAPTER 2 || CHAPTER 3 || CHAPTER 4 || CHAPTER 5 || CHAPTER 6 || CHAPTER 7 || CHAPTER 8 || CHAPTER 9 || CHAPTER 10 || CHAPTER 11 || CHAPTER 12 || CHAPTER 13 || CHAPTER 14 || CHAPTER 15 || CHAPTER 16 || CHAPTER 17 || CHAPTER 18 || CHAPTER 19 || CHAPTER 20 || CHAPTER 21 || CHAPTER 22 || CHAPTER 23 || CHAPTER 24 || CHAPTER 25 || CHAPTER 26 || CHAPTER 27 || CHAPTER 28 || CHAPTER 29 || CHAPTER 30 || CHAPTER 31 || CHAPTER 32 || CHAPTER 33 || CHAPTER 34 || CHAPTER 35 || CHAPTER 36 || CHAPTER 37 || CHAPTER 38 || CHAPTER 39 || CHAPTER 40 || CHAPTER 41
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-one chapter is her pov, the next is his. -4k -im sorry, i never proofread, i hate it. -there WILL be smut. but not only smut. -this is a romance, comedy, smut story. -for the summary, check my MASTERLIST.
- if you want to be notified when this is updated, please message me or leave a comment!
- you can send me questions and theories and comments. tbh they all make me SO SO SO SOOOO HAPPY! and make me want to write more! you can also tell me if there are things you WANT to happen. you never know, i may add it :P
- note for this chapter: not that many things happened but i hope you enjoy it anyway. yes, i did use the ‘tank’ tweet without any shame lmao! also, i know Louis and Eleanor broke up wayyy before that time, but it worked for the story so thats why i wrote it there.
 i want to add as many requests as i can in the next few chapters so expect a lot of fluff and smut. my goal is to post chapter 43 on sunday night sooo i hope i have enough time to finish it!
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Chapter 42 : His chapter
NIALL
No matter how hard I tried to fall asleep on the flight back home, it wouldn't work. The seat felt uncomfortable and for some reason I couldn't understand, I felt slightly nervous. I was scared to see her, scared that she changed, scared that she thought I had changed... and at the same time, i couldn't wait to hold her, smell her, kiss her... It was early and I knew she was probably still going to be asleep when I’d come back home and all I wanted was to slither under the covers and cuddle her naked body. I missed home and I missed her and somehow, I felt like both were connected... or just synonyms.
I didn't say a word from the whole flight and when we landed, I suddenly felt extremely tired. I grabbed my backpack and walked slowly out but when I noticed her, all the tiredness inside my body suddenly left.
"Liv?" I whispered to myself with a frown.
She was not supposed to be there, she was supposed to wait for me home, but our eyes met and I realized I wanted her to be there, I needed her to be there, and she was. I dropped my backpack on the floor with a loud thud and walked quickly to her as she did the same. My heart twisted in my chest and I bent down slightly to wrap my arms on her waist and picked her up, twirling us once before putting her back down. She laughed and shook her head when our eyes met again, licking her lips. She was smiling and I was pretty sure her grin was as big as mine.
"You shouldn't pick me up." she murmured so only I could hear.
"Why?"
I frowned again but with a smile on my lips, this time.
"I'm too heavy for you."
My smile fell and I stared at her for a few seconds, raising my eyebrows and letting my hands slide from her shoulders to her arms.
"First off, you're not heavy." I pointed out, my eyes roaming on her face as I squeezed her hands gently. "And also..." I shrugged and scoffed jokingly, closing my eyes for a second before looking back at her. "I'm a strong man. An absolute tank."
She started laughing and it made me smile. I didn't realize how much I missed her laugh, her face, the warmth of her body. Why did I leave again? I couldn't seem to find a good reason.
"Oh yea, you definitely are." she replied low, nodding a bit.
"I fucking missed you, Olivia." I just admitted, ignoring her last comment. "You talked about locking ourselves home for a few days? Let's do it."
She chuckled this time but didn't answer, shaking her head but still staring at me. I let go of her wrists and brought both my hands on her cheeks to cup her face. Her eyes moved quickly on mine and dropped to my mouth before looking up again. Her lips parted and I bent down but just as I was about to kiss her, I heard her whisper.
"No PDA remember?"
My hands pressed more on her cheeks and she remained totally motionless until I shook my head too.
"Fuck that."
When my lips crushed on hers, I shut my eyes tight as something seemed to stir in my stomach. We remained motionless for a while, our mouths pressed together, and I finally deepened the kiss gently, trying to feel everything possible and impossible to feel in the moment.
"I love you so much, Nee." she whispered, making my lips curl a bit. "I'm sorry if pictures of this appear online tomorrow."
She took a step closer and grabbed my shirt with both hands, making the kiss grow intensely. My heartbeats accelerated when she whimpered in my mouth and my hands slid a bit further behind her head to finally grip her hair.
"I really don't give a fuck right now." I whispered back, allowing my lips to leave hers briefly. "I'll worry about that tomorrow."
She chuckled in my mouth and after a while, I opened my eyes again and brought her closer, wrapping my arms around her head and leaning my cheek on the top of it. I knew we should leave but I just wanted to keep her in my arms, close to me. We had been separated for six weeks and I was ready to hold her against me for as long as I had been gone. It's only when I felt a hand on my shoulder that I remembered where we were. The sounds and voices around me became suddenly clearer and I blinked a few times, loosening my embrace around my girlfriend.
"I'll text you." Willie said in a low before i nodded and smiled at Deo.
I watched them leave and sighed low, moving slightly away and looking down at Liv, just noticing she was still wearing my sweater. It made me smile and I chuckled low.
"Come on, let's go home and put this hoodie in the washing machine." I proposed, reaching for her hand and intertwining our fingers before pulling her with me. "You don't need it anymore, i'm back. And i'm not leaving again."
I watched her drive and was surprised that she didn't put her music on. She normally makes it play so loud that we can't have a discussion but instead, we were surrounded by a light and comfortable silent. We were almost home when she pulled on the side of the road, making me frown but I didn't say anything. I was surprised to see her completely break down when she parked and my heart jumped in my chest at the sight of my girlfriend, her head and arms leaning on the wheel while she sobbed so hard her shoulders were moving.
"Hey... hey, what's wrong?"
I quickly undid my seat belt and moved closer to her, pulling her against me as I tried to undo her seat belt too to get her as close as I could to me. She buried her face in my shirt and this time, I leaned my chin on her head.
"I'm here, don't worry, everything will be okay." I breathed out, squeezing her tighter. "You're okay."
I was not sure why she was crying but being reunited again seemed to affect both of us. I knew we hadn't been separated for a long time, and I also knew it was not the first time we were apart, but now that we were dating, we seemed to see things a bit differently and being so far from each other was something harder to accept.
"I'm not leaving again, okay?" I just added, kissing the top of her head. "Not without you."
She chuckled between two sobs and pulled away from me. I searched for her eyes and felt my heart twist when I saw the tears on her cheeks.
"I'm sorry, I don't know what's gotten into me." she apologized, shaking her head and avoiding my gaze.
She was about to wipe her tears but I reached for her face and ran my thumbs under her eyes to do it myself. Her cheeks were red and it made me think she probably didn't sleep much the night before.
"Do you want me to drive?"
She nodded slowly and I got out of the car, walking around it quickly just as she got out of it and once again, I took her in my arms. I felt her arms slither around me and her hands grip the back of my shirt. I didn't say anything, I just waited until she let go of me and when were both ready, I started the car again and drove in silence, reaching for her hand as often as I could and squeezing her fingers gently.
I left my bag in the lobby when I walked in and followed her to our room. I was surprised to see her take her hoodie off only to notice she was not wearing anything under it and when she pulled her sweatpants down, I also realized she went commando. I wanted to point it out to her and joke about it but instead, I swallowed hard and watched her get under the covers. Quickly, I took my clothes off too and joined her in bed, pulling her close to me. I felt her relax in my arms and when her lips brushed on my neck, I closed my eyes.
"I'm sorry." I whispered. "I didn't think it would be so tough on you. I don't want to make you cry, I don't want to make you sad. I'm sorry, petal."
I waited a few minutes to hear her answer but surprisingly, she didn't say anything. I pulled away and searched for her eyes, frowning when we made eye contact. I could read sadness on her face and I pressed my lips together. She brought one of her hands on my cheek and my first thought was that I really needed to shave. I knew she wanted to say something and she normally doesn't stop herself from talking but this time, I felt her hesitate and it stressed me.
"Talk to me." I proposed in a whisper. "You know you can tell me anything."
She blinked a few times and closed her eyes for a while before sighing and looking back at me. Her hand slid from my face to my chest and she licked her lips, swallowing hard. I knew it was tough for her and the longer it took, the more nervous I was becoming.
"We didn't talk about it yet and.. I didn't want to ruin your trip or make this about me, but I have to know, Niall." Her facial expression changed and it was painful to see. "Who's the girl your cousin was talking about, did you... did you cheat on me?"
My eyes roamed on her face as my heart broke and I could clearly see she was holding back her tears again. Did she spend three weeks thinking about that? Did she keep that inside just for me? Just to make sure I'd live my trip plenty, disregarding her own feelings?
"I didn't cheat on you." I replied seriously, staring in her eyes. "I met a bunch of incredible people and yea, I met a few girls but..." Her face changed again and I let my fingers sink in the skin of her waist. "Hey, I didn't do anything, we just... talked."
Once again, we stared at each other and she didn't talk. I tried to decipher her expressions without much success. I desperately wanted to know what she thought and how she felt but I ended up just shaking my head slightly.
"Are you mad?"
"No." she replied after licking her lips. "That would be hypocrite of me."
I frowned a bit and pulled her a bit closer.
"What do you mean?"
"Oh nothing, just that you asked Louis to check on me and apparently we get along good and... i've spent most of my time with him and we talked a lot." she explained, shrugging a shoulder. "I can't really be mad at you for talking with other girls, I guess."
I wanted to reassure her again and tell her that she was the only one for me but instead, I frowned.
"Only Louis? He didn't bring Eleanor?"
Her traits softened and she sent me a sad smile.
"They broke up."
The surprise was so strong I felt slightly dizzy.
"What? When?"
"A few days before you left." she told me with an other shrug. "He didn't want to bother you with that, but we talked a lot and even if he's clearly not over her, he feels better."
I didn't want to be jealous and if I wanted to be honest with myself, I couldn't remember the last time I was really jealous when it came to a girl and assumed it. I normally didn't focus or bother with things like that but at this exact moment, I was a bit mad at one of my best mates for the time he got to spend with my girlfriend even if it was my fault for leaving and even if i had asked him to check on her. I wanted to ask her if something happened between them but I just swallowed my question and nodded slowly.
"Is there anything else you want to ask me?"
Her lips curled into a fond smile and she shook her head.
Are we okay?"
"I trust you." she whispered, her hand brushing on my skin, stopping in the middle of my back. "We're fine."
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I felt her nervous next to me as we waited for our friends to come over. We had spent a few days only us, locked in the house, sharing our time between sleeping, making love, watching tv and eating, but we both knew it was time to go back to reality.
Julie and Liam were the first ones to arrive, bringing a bottle of wine that we immediately started. For some weird reason, we were both stressed to interact with Harry again, and I was not sure why. I never really found out how and why Liv and him broke up and I knew I never apologized for throwing a tantrum on that day Olivia admitted her feelings to me. I should have known back then that my anger to see them together proved that I had romantic feelings for her but I was blind and Harry hadn't deserved to pay the price for that.
I finished my glass as soon as the doorbell rang again and was surprised to see both Louis and Harry waiting behind it. I sent them a small smile and moved away to let them in but I stopped Harry as he was going to the living room.
"Look, mate." I said with a sigh, putting both my hands in my pockets. "I never got to apologize for yelling at you back at Liv's a few weeks ago. It was wrong of me. She never told me why you two broke up and when I saw you guys together again... i don't know, but i'm sorry."
He listened carefully, nodding gently, and when I was done, I saw a small smile spread on his lips.
"She never told you?" he asked, his smile growing. "We broke up because I knew she loved you and I told her. I've always known, I just tried to ignore it for a while but it was getting harder with time and around the end, it was just impossible. It's okay, i'm alright, I'm seeing someone right now, and i'm happy for both of you."
I stared at him, a bit shocked by his words even though I knew it made perfect sense. I didn't want to lose my friend, and knowing he wasn't mad at us was a relief, even if it felt a bit selfish of me.
"Thanks, i'm happy for you too."
I took my hands out of my pockets to hug him just as I noticed Olivia coming out of the kitchen from the corner of my eyes. She squealed and threw herself in Louis' arms and I pulled away from Harry to look at them interact. I knew I was not going to be fond of their friendship but I didn't know just how tough it would be. I watched as they hugged and when he brought his hand on one of her cheeks to bring her to him and kiss her other cheek, I held my breath. This horrible feeling started spreading inside me like poison in my veins and I hated myself for letting it get to me.
"They got closer in the past weeks." Harry explained as I kept staring at my girlfriend. "Poor Louis, it sucks for him and El, she really was the love of his life."
"Apparently, he found comfort in the love of my life." I let out with a groan, pushing my hands back in my pockets.
"Wow."
I turned to Harry before glancing back at Louis and Liv.
"What?"
"Are you fuckin' jealous?" Harry chuckled, his lips parted and his eyebrows raised in surprise. "Never thought i'd see that in my life."
"I'm not jealous, I mean," I shrugged. "They're just friends."
"Yea your head knows that but your heart's fighting that conclusion, isn't it?" Harry added, making me grimace. "And you tell yourself that you and Liv were only friends at first, too."
My face twisted in a bigger grimace and I closed my eyes.
"Thanks, Harry, hadn't thought about that."
"Look, she's not doing anything wrong. You left for almost two months and she trusted you. You're constantly surrounded by attractive women, so now you know how hard it must be for her."
I turned to him and frowned a bit, my lips forming a smile.
"Did you become the little angel on my shoulder or something?" I asked, making him chuckle.
"All I'm saying is, you may want to think about that next time a girl flirts with you." he pointed out, taking a step closer to me. "But i'm gonna tell you one thing I know... Olivia would never cheat on you, she's totally in love with you. The first time we had sex, I woke up in the middle of the night and she was whispering your name."
I turned my head his way so fast that I thought I had broken something. His confession made my heart skip a bit and I frowned again.
"She didn't tell you about that either?" he wondered as I shook my head. "Yea, I told her about it but I can understand why she didn't mention it. I just said that to make you realize that it's always been you. And that?" he pointed to Louis and Liv with his chin. "That is not gonna change the feelings she has for you."
I turned again to look at my girlfriend with Louis' arm around her shoulders. He was holding his glass up, making the three others laugh, and Liv leaned her head on his shoulder.
"I hope you're right."
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I tried to ignore the jealousy inside me for the rest of the night and it was getting easier with time, especially when Olivia would come to kiss me, put her hand on my thigh or just randomly cuddle me. I never enjoyed to show affection much in front of people but I was starting to like it with her.
"Okay guys, let's take a selfie!" I shouted after a few drinks.
We all got up and I held Liv closer to me as I tried to get everyone in the picture and finally posted it online with a short caption. We all sat back on the couch or the floor and Louis came back with a few more beers and an other glass of wine for my girlfriend.
"So Neil, how was your trip?"
"Incredible." I let out before relating a few stories.
We all laughed and when the discussion drifted to something else, I started thinking about the girl I had lusted for half a second. I felt a hand squeeze mine and turned around, my eyes meeting Liv's and my heart skipping a beat but I licked my lips and forced a smile. It scared me to think she may have felt the same thing for someone else, even if I knew it wouldn't mean anything. It didn't mean we weren't meant to be, did it? The truth was, I had always thought Louis and Eleanor were the most stable, real and strong couple in the world and now they were over. What did it mean for Olivia and I? Was it something we would inevitably have to go through? Would we both lust other people and end up falling for someone else after a while? Could we even survive the next few years as a couple? After all, we were young and I planned to keep on doing music. I wanted to record albums, go on tour and live my life to the fullest... I didn't even know if she was ready to follow me through all that.
"Niall, hey, are you okay?"
I blinked a few times and grabbed her other hand, moving my upper body closer to hers and pecking her lips.
"Yea, I'm good, just tired."
"Do you want an other beer?"
I sent her a fond smile and nodded slowly. "Thank you petal."
Her hand reached for my cheek and I felt her thumb caress my stubble gently for a few seconds before she got up and left. My eyes followed her until she was out of sight and I sighed a bit too loud, leaning back against the couch. It's only after about 10 minutes that I realized she was not coming back. I got up to see if she was okay and found her sitting on the kitchen's counter, her eyes glued to her cellphone. As I got closer, I realized she was crying and I frowned, walking quickly to her and putting my hands on her thighs.
"Love, why are you crying?"
Her eyes met mine and my heart broke. I loved this girl and i didn't know why but sometimes, it just hit me so bad that I could feel my whole body throb.
"They all hate me." she breathed out, making me frown again.
Slowly, I took her phone from her hand and looked at the screen. She was looking at the picture I had posted a few hours ago on instagram, probably due to the notifications she received, and I scrolled down to read a few comments. They were all talking about her sketchy relationship with Louis and how close they had seemed to be during my absence. The number of insults about her were unbelievable and rude and my lips parted as I read people calling her a 'cheater', 'fame thirsty', and things even more horrible.
I shook my head and put her phone away on the counter, pulling her closer to me and searching for her eyes.
"Hey, Olivia look at me." I asked in a murmur. "Please, honey, look at me."
The love name made her look up and I licked my lips.
"You are none of these things they call you, they don't know shit about you, and I trust you." I expressed slowly, keeping eye contact. "Don't let them make you cry, don't let them ruin your day."
I didn't want to tell her it would always be like that and that it'd be worse now that we were dating. I didn't want to tell how cruel some people had been online to girls around me. I didn't want to risk losing her over it and I wanted to protect her.
"Olivia, i'm so fucking in love with you."
Her face changed but I kept staring at her and although I knew my last words had nothing to do with what she was going through, I felt her body relax a bit and let out a low sigh of relief. Slowly, she got off the counter and I took a step back to give her space. She tilted her head, staring at me with her lips parted, and grabbed my shirt, pulling me closer gently.
"Say it again."
My lips curled with amusement and I chuckled.
"I'm so fucking in love with you." I repeated slightly louder. "You're the love of my life."
"One more time." she asked, this time making me laugh.
"I am so fucking in love with you, petal. And you're the love of my life."
If she wanted to hear it all night, i'd repeat it all night, as long as it would help keep that smile on her face. I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her closer as she moved her chin up to keep looking at me.
"Tell me every day." she whispered more seriously.
I let my eyes roam on her face, my amused smile turning into a fond and loving one.
"I promise."
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Auston Matthews - For the First Time
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The number one thing on my bucket list is to go to a hockey game in every arena. So far I have been to ten. 
Growing up in a state with no hockey sucked for a hockey fan. The only thing Alabama really cares about is college football. My parents moved to Alabama from Buffalo when I was about five. They grow up watching hockey so I grew watching hockey.
None of my friends liked hockey they didn’t know anything about it. So when the game was on I would go on twitter and just tweet about it and then I just talked to talk to other hockey fans on there and that is how I meet my six best friends on twitter.
I first started talking to Rachael, she is a die-hard New York Rangers fan. She was friends with Emily who is a St. Louis Blues fan. I saw Maggie bash on my Sabres so I bashed her Maple Leafs and somehow we kept talking. I congratulated Sam on the Capitals cup win last year and we had a long conversation about both our teams. Elizabeth tweeted me asking how I was a fan of Buffalo when I live in Alabama so that stared a long conversation, she’s a Lightning fan. Last but not least Jessica the Montreal Canadiens fan, I tweeted her about Carey Price because I have a soft spot for that man. So in our group, we have a Rangers, Blues, Sabres, Leafs, Capitals, Lightning, and Canadiens.
We all have started traveling to go to hockey games together. Right now Rachael, Emily, Sam, Elizabeth, Jessica, and I are all on our way to meet up in Toronto. Maggie has been bugging us all to go to a home Leafs game. 
Something that the girls don’t know is that for the past six months I have been talking to Auston Matthews. I know me a Buffalo Sabres fan talking to Toronto's golden boy. Auston messaged me on Twitter after I posted a picture of Maggie and me, her in a Leafs jersey and me in a Sabres one. He thought it was weird that we were friends when we should hate each other. I told him Maggie and I fight about it all the time but we are still really close friends. The next day he messaged me asking how my day went and we have been talking ever since.
Once I stepped off the plane my phone started ringing. I took it out expecting it being one of the girls but instead, it was Auston, a smile appeared on my face and butterflies start flying around in my stomach. 
“Hello?”
“Hey beautiful, are you in Toronto yet?” 
“Just stepped off the plane actually.”
“What are you doing for dinner tonight?” I could never get tired of hearing his voice.
“I don’t know I haven’t spoken to the girls yet. You’re the first one I have talked to.”
“Well, some of the guys and I were going to get something to eat. I really want to see you.” 
“Y/N!” I turn around and see Elizabeth walking fast to me.
“I will have to see what we are doing but they don’t know I have been talking to you yet but I really want to see you too Auston.”
“Okay, I will text you.” And with that, we said goodbye and hung up.
“Elizabeth!” I put my phone in my back pocket and got ready for impacted.
“Even though we saw each other last month it feels like it's been longer.” She wrapped her arms around me and I did the same.
“I know. How was your flight?” She picked up her bag that she dropped before she gave me a hug.
“It was good. There was a cute guy sitting next to me.” She pulled out a napkin with writing on it. “And yes I got his number.” I laughed and made our way to the front doors. 
All our planes are supposed to land around the same time so we didn’t have to make so many trips to the airport.
“Well well well look who we have here.” Elizabeth and I turned around and see Rachael looking at both of us. “A Lightning and Sabres fan in a Toronto’s airport.”
“While you're looking at us have to you seen the Rangers play lately?” 
“My dear Elizabeth it doesn’t matter how bad the Rangers are doing I will still cheer them on no matter what, Y/N should know all about that.” I rolled my eyes and went up to hug her.
“I don’t want to hug you right now but I will.” As I pulled away I felt my phone go off telling me I had a text. I looked at it and saw it was Auston.
Auston
I forgot to ask you if you thought about what we talked about yesterday?
Yesterday Auston had asked me to stay in Toronto for a little longer then just the couple days I was planning. Its all I really thought about on the plane. 
Y/N
I have. We will talk later
“And who are you texting?” I look up at Elizabeth.
“We should go find Jess, Maggie, Sam, and Emily.” I ignored her question. I was laying on telling all of them about Auston I just wanted to tell them all together. 
“We see you ignoring that question?” I knew the was Emily by her voice. “Now tell us who you were texting.”
“Were you eavesdropping?”
“There you go again.” Ignoring all of them I start walking ahead of them.
I start looking around for Maggie. I see her, Sam, and Jessica looking around for us. As soon as they see me they start to walk over.
Y/N
Where you and the guys thinking about eating?
“I’m hungry so I say we get something to eat,” Jess says we get in the car. 
Maggie starts naming places off that we could go to.
Auston
CN Tower, we are about to call to tell them to have a table ready for us how many girls are there again?
Y/N
Seven total 
“What about CN Tower?” I asked
“Oh yeah, I want to go there too,” Sam said looking at Maggie who is driving.
“We are going to have to call to get a table then.” It's now or never.
“There is something I need to tell you guys.”
“After I call the CN Tower,” Emily said looking up the number.
“No, it needs to be before you call.” They all looked at me. “So I probably should have told you all this a while ago but I didn’t know where things were going to go but I have been talking to someone.”
“Not trying to be rude or anything Y/N but why did I have to wait to call till after you told us that?”
“I’m getting there,” I took a deep breath in “We first started talking on twitter. I thought it was just going to be that one conversation but we have talked every day for the past six months.”
“Six months?!” They all said at the same time. Maggie pulled into a random parking lot and turned around to look back at me.
“He lives here in Toronto.” Maggie’s eyes went wide along with everyone else.
“Are you going to tell us who it is or show us what he looks like?” Rachael asked
“Is he going to be at CN Tower? Is that why you suggested we go there?” Sam asked
“Yes he and some of his friends are going to be there and you guys kinda already know who he is.” They looked at me confused. This is a lot harder then I thought it was going to be. “His name is Auston. Auston Matthews.”
“As in Toronto’s first-round pick in 2016 Auston Matthews?”
“As in the guy that had fours goals in his first NHL game?”
“The Auston Matthews that Maggie always says is better than Jack Eichel and you guys always fight about it?”
“That is the Auston Matthews I’ve been talking to.”
“Not going to lie Y/N but I’m kinda jealous,” Elizabeth said.
“Wait are we having dinner with him?” Maggie asked looking at me in panic. I just nodded my head yes. 
After they all freaked out a bit Maggie more then anyone we made our way to the CN Tower. Auston text me saying that they were already there just waiting on us. As a ready that I started to get nervous. I’m about to meet the person I have been talking for six months.
We all go out of the car and I just looked up at the tower and couldn’t move.
“Are you okay?” Jessica looked at me and I didn’t say
“What if I’m not what he is expecting? I mean we have FaceTime but seeing someone on the phone and seeing them in person is a lot different.”
“You have nothing to worry about.” I followed them but I stayed back.
Once we got to the front they asked us the name of our reservation name they all looked at me and I probably looked like I was a deer in headlights. 
“They’re with me.” Everyone’s head snapped at who just spoke.
“So it's true,” Rachael said looking back at me. I tried to say something just nothing came out. 
“Can you show these women where our table is, please?” Auston asked the guy at the desk he nodded his head. The girls followed behind him and I stay put and looked at Auston walking over to me.
“Y/N”
“Auston” I smiled up at him and walked a little closer to him and hug him. He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me a little tighter then I did. 
Dinner was very interesting, to say the least. Maggie freaked out a bit because not only did she meet Auston she always meat Mitch Marner, Patrick Marleau, William Nylander, Frederik Andersen, and Kasperi Kapanen. A lot of the time while sitting down at the table Auston and I was in our own conversation not paying any attention to the others at the table. 
“So yesterday at dinner you and Auston didn’t really talk to anyone except each other,” Maggie said while she was getting ready. 
Maggie had decided to get stay with us at the hotel instead of going back home last night. 
“I know and I’m sorry about that-“
“No don’t be sorry Y/N, I just never seen you like that before.” I went to grab my jersey for tonight. “I really hope you aren’t playing on where that Buffalo jersey of yours.”
“In fact, I am planning on it. Is that a problem?”
“Your dating Auston though,”
“We aren’t dating,”
“It looked like you were yesterday,” I didn’t say anything and looked at my Sabres jersey. Since the girls and I started going to game together we would always wear our team's jersey it didn’t matter who the teams were that were playing. Today is the only day I thought about wearing a different jersey. 
“I thought about this while packing my jersey you know. What I would wear to the game. I thought about buying a Leafs jersey but I would be a Sabres fan getting a Leafs jersey. I also thought about I’m Sabres fan talking to a Maple Leafs player who I’m also started to have feelings for.”
“I have a Leafs sweatshirt I can wear tonight you can wear my Matthews jersey.” Maggie handed me her jersey. I looked down at it. “And when we all go to a game in Buffalo I will wear a Sabres jersey to make up for this.” I laughed at her and took the jersey.
Maggie and I made our way down to the lobby of the hotel where the others were waiting for us. As the doors of the elevator opened we saw the girls standing there they looked at us and their eyes went wide. I smiled at them I did a little spin to show them what I was wearing.
“My skin is burning just so all of you know.” They all laughed and we made our way to the arena. 
Auston
Meet me at the locker room?
I looked down at my phone and smiled.
“Loverboy texting you?” Emily asked walking next to me.
“He wants me to meet him at the locker room.”
“Are you going to go?” 
“Yeah, I think I am.”
Auston told me how to get down there. It was weird walking these halls see Maple Leafs pictures all around. Some of them were of Auston which I stopped and looked at and just smiled at the man in the picture. 
Once I got where he told me to meet him I waited till he came out. Once I heard a door open I looked at the direction the open door and see Auston walk out with Mitch right behind him. Auston looked up at me and down at the jersey I was wearing.
“I’m going to tell you hat I told the girls, this jersey is burning my skin and it-“ Before I was able to say anything else Auston walked over to me and kissed me. I have thought about kissing him so many times. I just didn’t think about kissing him in a Maple Leafs jersey. 
“I’m surprised you didn’t kiss her last night.” We pulled away when we heard Mitch joke.
“Will you get out of here” Auston turned to Mitch and he just nodded and walked back in the locker room. 
“So didn’t you just telling me to come here so you can kiss me?” I asked the man standing in front of me.
“No I wasn’t planning on kissing you right now but seeing you in my jersey I couldn’t help myself.” I smiled up at him. “I actually wanted to ask you something. So we have been talking for about six months and we just officially meet in person yesterday but I wanted to ask you if you would do me the honor and being my girlfriend and before you answer I know it might be hard at times but we can make it work I promise.”
“It is going to be hard I know that. It was hard talking to you for the past six months but here we are. My answer is yes.” I stood on my toes and kissed him. “I also have an answer to what we talked about the other day about me staying here a little longer and I would love to see Toronto a little bit longer maybe someone could take me around.”
“I think I know someone who could do that.”
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Someone lightly shook me awake.
"What?" I groaned.
There was a small laugh. "Can you help out a soul friend?"
I cracked my eyes open and eyed her suspiciously. "Depends... With what?"
"You and kumquat help me with the shop? I'm short handed. Me being stupid, I let two girls off thinking it was different Saturdays that they needed off."
"What will we be doing?" I asked.
"Just help serve and clean up if needed. Please?" She gave me big puppy dog eyes. I let out a little huff, "I suppose so."
She smiled. "Thanks. We gotta get going."
I settled on a white crew neck tee, dark denim overall shorts, a creme colored knitted cardigan, cupcake converse, and putting my curls up into a loose bun. I noted Katie was wearing overall shorts as well, but a lighter color and hers were distressed. Also, she was wearing a long sleeve black crop top, blue plaid shirt tied around her waist, and black knock off Doc Martens.
I tried not to snicker at the sight of them. Katie refused to get the real thing because they were so expensive, even though we both knew they'd be a worth while purchase. Her knock offs looked legit, so I had to give her props for that.
I hooked my arm with Katie's as we walked to the shop. Katie snapped her fingers and pointed at me. "Are you still gonna help me with tip-dying my hair?"
I pondered it, sticking my tongue out. "Only if I can get some free tea out of all this."
"Of course." She laughed. "You can have as much as you want. I just got your favorite in stock."
I did a little giddy dance. "I'm having some before I start."
The doorbell sounded above as we entered.
Katie gestured toward back behind the counter. "Go ahead and make some. We have fifteen minutes until opening." I noted Katie looking around, her eyebrows slowly furrowing.
"Where the Hell is Geneva? I know she's working."
I shrugged and as I was going to respond, the pixie cut, black-haired girl came rushing in. "Sorry, Katie. I missed the first metro, so I had to wait for the second. I am very, sincerely, sorry."
Her light British accent reminded me of Louis and my heart ached a little. It was still a couple more days till I saw him next.
Katie shook her head and pointed at her. "Cover up the belly. You know the rules."
Geneva rolled her eyes. But she took off the maroon plaid shirt she wore with the black short sleeve crop top, black faded skinnies, and black combats and tied it around her waist.
I decided to go behind the counter to start a kettle of water. Then I grabbed a mug and a bag of Earl Grey with lavender. It wasn't long until the whistle sounded and I turned off the stove, then poured water into the mug with the tea bag. A smile spread on my lips as I could smell the herbs and I took a sip as I watched Katie turn the 'Open and Close' sign.
I was able to leisurely finish my cup of tea before I really needed to help. Which, I ended up cashiering, then helping with the drinks and dispersing them among the people who stayed in. Most people did stay. It's one of the topics Katie's cafe was known for.
Time swiftly went by as I greeted familiar faces and those I didn't recognize. I was questioned about the pregnancy by a few, mostly teenage girls who follow the One Direction fandom, and I kindly told them it's going okay, but I would not tell them anything further. I wasn't sure how much Louis wanted the fandom to know and whatever Louis wanted was what I'd do.
When there was a break in crowds, I made another Earl Grey with lavender tea. Katie gave me an amused smirk as she came behind the counter. "How you doing?"
"Alright." I sighed lightly.
"Go sit down." She laughed. "I'll bring you a swiss and turkey on rye."
I raised a brow. "Are you sure?"
"Yes." She pecked my cheek and pushed me out into the main floor. I found a seat by the fireplace, which Katie had going even though it's sixty degrees out. But, I was happy she had it going. I pawed my hands into the sleeves of my cardigan and wrapped my arms lightly around my ten week belly.
I found myself spacing off a bit and thinking about the near future. It was going to be amazing to have Louis home, and the rest of the other boys when they were around. Niall would probably be around most of the time, after he went to Bali and Thailand for a couple months. He wouldn't be back right away and I knew it hurt Katie, but she wouldn't talk about. I wish she would though.
Someone snapped fingers in front of my face and I jolted a bit. "Huh?"
"Here's your sandwich. And tea, you left it on the counter. I rewarmed it."
I rolled my eyes. "I didn't have much choice there."
Katie snickered and moved to stand up, but I grabbed her wrist. "I think you can sit down for a bit and rest. Geneva's covered the customers."
She looked around first before sitting down with a heavy sigh.
"I know what you were spacing off about and I know the real reason why you want me to sit with you." Katie crossed her arms, leaning back in the chair.
You'd think she's a mind reader. But ne, she's just a really good Maddy reader.
I looked down at the sandwich, making sure the tomato and lettuce slices were suffice, and picked up half a slice to take a bite of it.
"I don't know what you're talking about." It came out muffled, though I knew she could understand. Dang, this was a good sandwich. I opened the bag of regular kettle chips Katie gave me as well and munched on them.
When I was finished, Katie leaned in. "We're not talking about it." She grabbed my empty plate and bag and walked back to the counter. I huffed in defeat. We could talk about anything, but she wouldn't talk about the whole Niall situation. I had to just let her deal with her emotions the way she's going to.
***
As we neared the apartment, Katie slowed down. The hairs on the back of my neck stood up as I felt her tense. Suddenly, she yanked me into the alleyway.
"Ahh!" I cried, stumbling on my footing.
"Sorry," she replied sheepishly. "We're gonna have to take the second way in. I sense bad fans."
I didn't have the knack for the fan sense. Katie's was never wrong.
She made me go up the ladder first and up the the two flights of stairs. She knocked on the window. "Roger!... Roger!"
The scrawny brunette came to open the window and he smirked. "Again?"
"Yeah," Katie replied, climbing in first then helped me. "Thanks."
From there, we went up to the third floor where our apartment was. I huffed as I walked in and plopped down on the futon.
"I feel like there should be a way to prevent this."
Katie shrugged and shook her head. "Modest! would've done something by now if they actually cared. I can try tweeting again."
"No." I shrugged. We both knew it wouldn't do any good for her.
Katie popped the cap off a beer. "What should we do for supper?"
"Pizza?" I offered, figuring we both didn't want to cook.
"Pizza sounds amazing, my love."
My heart stopped as my eyes went wide. Slowly, I turned my head in the direction of the voice and I couldn't stop myself from gasping.
Louis chuckled as he walked over and engrossed me in a warm hug. He was here. What? When? Huh?
"Tour?" was all I could muster out at the moment.
"Ended it short. I've missed you too much." He stepped back and overlooked me. "And look at you! Little chicken nugget is really growing. I don't want to miss anymore."
I smiled, beaming, and hugged him once more.
"Pizza is ordered," Katie announced, sitting down on the futon.
I felt bad being with Louis when Niall wasn't here.
Louis turned to look at her and he smiled. "Hi, Katie-Kat. Niall wanted me to inform you that your flight for Bali leaves in a month."
I felt my heart stop for her in excitement.
Her eyes were wide. "What?"
Louis snickered. "You're going to Bali in a month. Niall wanted to surprise you with an early anniversary gift. But, for now, he's staying low for your's and his sakes."
Her smile faded, but she nodded. "Right... That's still kick ass. Maddy, you mind watching the shop then?"
I shrugged. "I'm sure I could. Just would have to get a sub for my classes. How long?"
Both of us looked at Louis for an answer and he huffed lightly with a roll of eye. "He said two weeks worth."
Whoa. Two weeks off from teaching? It wasn't very ideal this time of year, but Katie deserved this.
"Mads? Can you still do it?"
I nodded. "Yeah. Of course."  
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