#shhhh don't look at me

[baldursgate3tempobsessed]

You wanna know what I'm surprised I haven't seen more of? Bard Tavs serenading Astarion, or singing him to sleep with a lullaby composed just for him. I'm sure Astarion would eat up all that affection.

This is so cute omg. And also managed to be an actual drabble instead of a novel! As always cw for spoilers!

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Astarion woke with a start, his heart pounding in his chest as he frantically looked around. But he wasn't in Cazador's torture room. No, instead he was at the Elfsong, safe and sound in a private room. It had been another nightmare, a typical occurrence as of late.

Atarion had assumed that those would stop after the monster was dead, but they seemed to be more frequent than ever. It felt unfair. He had won. Cazador was dead, by his own hand. There was nothing left to fear. Well... that wasn't including the tadpole still trapped in his lover's skull, not to mention his own. And the Elder Brain. And the cult of Bhaal. But in all honesty, all of that felt so small now with his slave master disintegrated. If he could do what had felt impossible, what had been impossible, for centuries, why couldn't he accomplish the rest?

Astarion groaned as he sat up, realizing for the first time that he was alone in bed. But luckily enough you hadn't gone far. He turned to find you sitting on the window sill, illuminated by the moonlight as you scribbled away in your journal.

You glanced over at the sound of his shuffling, your brow furrowed, "Star? Why are you still awake?"

"I could ask you the same thing," Astarion sighed, the coldness of your side of the bed coming into full perspective. He would like that fixed sooner than later, "Now come back to me, it's cold."

You smiled, slipping down from your perch to join him in bed. Astarion wasn't quite sure when such simple actions would stop making him melt like an infatuated teenager. He was starting to think that it would never come to an end.

You laughed softly as he immediately wrapped his arms around you, cradling you against his chest, "You know how I love to sleep in fits and starts. But you don't exactly have the same excuse, do you? You look so tired lately."

Astarion frowned, loathing the fact that his lack of sleep had become so obvious. But then again, if anyone was going to be familiar with his night terrors, it would be you. He sighed, "Just nightmares. Nothing you haven't heard before."

You frowned, "That doesn't make them pleasant."

"No," Astarion laughed softly, "It doesn't. But now it's your turn. What were you up to in the middle of the night?"

"Just some writing. I've been working on a few things."

"Like what?" Astarion asked, sincerely curious. You were quite the talent as a bard, a fact that he was aware of before he fell in love with you.

"A new ballad mostly, with a lullaby on the side."

That sounded well within your wheel house, though this was the first time he'd heard of you writing a lullaby, "What inspired that?"

"You," You said simply, "But I know how you get when I'm all mushy, so I kept it to myself for now."

Astarion hadn't expected that, but that massive smile that broke out on his face at the news wasn't a surprise. He kissed the top of your head, still smiling to himself, "I don't recall ever saying I disliked you being a sickening romantic. Can I hear it?"

You looked up at him, surprised for some reason. Which was frankly silly. Who wouldn't want to hear a song written about them from the person they loved most? For once in his life Astarion was being the normal one here.

"You want me to sing to you?" You asked, sitting up in bed to smile down at him.

Astarion grinned back, "I wouldn't object to it."

"Well in that case..."

And then you started to sing. Astarion adored the sound of your voice, and apparently he loved it even more when you were singing about him.

Little star, so bright and fierce,

Beautiful with eyes that pierce,

But that's not all there is,

He's strong and swift with perfect lips to kiss, a humor that is only his,

Charming and witty, a wish come true,

If only the rest of the world knew.

Astarion wasn't quite sure when he fell asleep that night, but it was to the sound of your sweet, melodious voice and with a smile plastered to his face.

And for the first time in days, he didn't have a single nightmare.

#astarion #astarion x reader #astarion x tav #baldur's gate 3 #asks #lyric writing is not my strong suit yall #short and sweet for once #shocking #I got seven more asks to go from this last batch so stay on the look out if you sent one #i am not #a lyric writer or poet #if you could not tell #shhhh don't look at me #bard tav

[merrigel]

I want it back = I drag its dead weight forward

#artists on tumblr #animation #in stars and time #isat #illustration #in stars and time spoilers #isat spoilers #like for real #anyway I'm still thinking about Siffrin Instarsandtime #shoutout to tumblr user jb-blunk for the words from the caption which inspired this whole deal #literally finished the game and had those words looping (haHA) in my head like 'how do I use this what can I do to match this feeling' LMAO #if you haven't played ISAT well. first of all stop looking don't glean anything from this shhhh- but also GO PLAY IT IT'S EXCELLENT #heavily based off the astronomical clock in Prague! I love that thing so it was really fun to try and make it more ISAT-like #bc the themes are already there yanno!! Stars n' whatnot! And then of course the craft types instead of the astrological signs! #Loop and the King for the sun and the moon!! #can you tell I thought about and planned this one for like. A while. Longer than I usually spend LMAO #so yeah go play it immediately come be absolutely ILL and SICK and PLAGUED about the secret boss with me #fanart #pic

[friedno]

to be fair i warned y'all earlier that I was drawing these guys again LMAO expect more later!! i hope for a big dump of a bunch of cleaned up doodles I've done up till now but. we'll see how it goes!!!!

#Socialstuck #Socialstuck cloutchase #Tumblr cloutchase #Twitter cloutchase #i NEED to draw more ao3tube. im insane crazy about them. their strife arc dynamic entranced me and i never got over it😭😭 #Also if you know me irl... Shhhh Look Away It's Okay. Please Don't Mention This At Lunch Tomorrow<33 #OH RIGHT also. #twitblr #Kinda. Technically doesn't have to be but I 100% had <3< in mind LMAO

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

sunset

#art #illustration #my art #utmv #ink sans #ink!sans #ink #fem!ink #i may have a problem with drawing backgrounds that don't involve clouds but SHHHH the sky is too pretty not to drawww<3 #i missed drawing ink :'((( he was my very first introduction to the utmv fandom AND the first human and fem version i ever drew #idk his colors make me wanna scratch walls they're so warm and brown....i had to draw her at least ONCE this month as a small nod #cause i never once participated in an inktober sobbing crying ghghg october is SUCH a busy month for me :'D #if you think it looks similar to the cross painting i did a while ago it's actually kinda intentional!! this was the first sketch version #decided to remold it into something usable hhh i'm pretty proud of it ngl!!! #thank you all so much for your patience muah muah have an amazing day<3333

[meloncity]

Merry Christmas all!! ^-^

#naruto #hinata hyuga #don't mind me I just wanted to make something quick #don't look at her hands either shhhh they're fine they're fine

[tastymarbar]

oh my god I was watching a let's play of P3 reload and one of them called odagiri "onigiri" and now i'm picturing femc calling him onigiri and rraaaghh my heart

(bonus: keisuke catches on and also starts calling him onigiri and odagiri wants to say something but at the same time he can't bc omg his cute smiley brunette friends are calling him onigiri and his brain decided this was a great time to be bisexual)

#mar talks #persona 3 #hidetoshi odagiri #kotone shiomi #minako arisato #hamtoshi #? is the ship name I believe? #ik the japanese fans who ship them call it odaham #ahh the pains of a rare pair #(god everyday I wish he was romanceable) #odagiri is totally bi I will take that to my grave #i mean have you seen femc and keisuke??? he likes smiley brunettes ig #(i mean technically femc is a red head in some of her artwork but shhhh) #(p3-kun is also his type dw. he totally is. he smiled once near odagiri and it was like he saw the sun for the first time in years) #ok ok wait here me out here #keisuke/femc/odagiri poly ship #kinda like. #femc: this is my boyfriend odagiri-kun and this odagiri-kun's boyfriend hiraga-sempai #keisuke and femc don't rlly interact iirc but they would so get along #they team up to affectionately bully odagiri #odagiri has the ''looks like he could kill you but is actually a cinnamon roll'' vibes to me #whoops I rambled in the tags again lmao hi if you read all this I hope you have a very nice day :D

[non-un-topo]

Spending hours trying to figure out why I feel so irritable and sensitive today and I’m only realizing now it might have something to do w being invited to a birthday party full of an entire family I’ve never met and like seven very small children and the person inviting me assuming I would love that. I want to support her bc I like her and she’s family now, but I cannot---I will not---go to another family event and be pushed into the kitchen doing dishes with the women or cooing over someone’s baby who just stares at me and whines when I try to mask and say hello.

#my period ended so it ain't that. #maybe i'm a horrible person. i just want to be left alone for seven solid days. and i certainly do not want to be forced- #-to interact with children. they scare me. real bad. #maybe this also has something to do with my readings for this week and the fact that we're going to be discussing 'womanhood'. #like the subject is 'what IS a woman to you?' and i am not really looking forward to listening to 15 cis girls tell me- #-how awful it is and how much pain they themselves endured while entirely not acknowledging the existence of trans women #or gnc women. #why am i so irritable jfc. #every time i talk like this to my partner they give me that look lol. the look that's like 'uh huh. i know a trans person when i see one.' #and i'm like shhhhhhh. no. don't say that. shhhh. i don't want to be. i hate myself okay and my family scared me out of it. #wish i could fucking shapeshift. wish i was just fucking born with a dick and a flat chest. actually i wish i was two people. #so i could decide from day-to-day and not have to worry about irreversible changes. #how much of my alleged transness is just internalized misogyny? <- this is a question i ask very very quietly to myself #because i think it's what my mother thinks. and most of the world. #how do i learn to be comfortable AS a masculine woman? i have no one to look up to who can teach me or show me it's okay. #i have transmasc friends who are elated to go on T. i'm scared that they will make me want to do it again. why tf am i scared of that... #irreversible changes. society. literally everything. fucking hell............ #no one talks about this particular experience of gender. no one talks about the in-between and the immense fear. at least no one to me. #why am i even taking gender studies in university if every class is full of cis women who don't even know the terminology of transness #or of gender-expansiveness... #i think i've become a very sour person in the last few years. #need to vent through writing or something. like through fanfiction.

[sporadictimetravelgarden]

jet’s type is people with daddy issues and older sibling energy that can kick his ass

#jetara #jetko #jetru #jetka #jetkka #atla #look into my eyes and tell me that all of these people don't have daddy issues #look into my eyes and lie to me #even though hakoda and harus dad were cool. they were gone for a while #and technically zuko didnt start showing older sibling energy until he joined the gaang but shhhh

[essektheylyss]

I AM attempting to read at least four books this weekend and that IS ridiculous but alas, here we are.

#no one look at my other fucking post I am NOT attempting proust okay #these are books of reasonable length. #here's my thing with proust. yeah yeah 'perfect novel' fuck you. that is not a novel. that is a series. #I don't care if it's one entity. so the fuck was lord of the rings and we have deemed that three books at this point. #just because a story is sustained does NOT make it a singular novel. I'll kill. #to be clear this is a joke. as mentioned I know literally nothing about proust and I have already forgotten the novel's title. #as per fucking usual. #honestly I'm gonna read it someday solely so maybe I understand what the fuck people are talking about. #anyway the books for the weekend are: authority (vandermeer). the gift of knowledge/ttnúwit átawish nch'inch'imani (beavert). #acceptance (also vandermeer). waterlog (deakin). #YES I once again saw robert macfarlane's name and blacked out and purchase a book. do not @ me. #(I did want to read waterlog after having read landmarks and then saw the new paperback edition on a stand at the bookstore so shhhh) #megs is reading #in my defense I'm going to be spending a lot of time waiting this weekend considering my spouse is in a race not designed for spectating #(it's a massive seven-part relay. and he's in a part where you can't even get in to spectate so.) #I'm mostly tagging along with my sister and her bf's friends so. books are necessary. #I've always been that dweeb with the book in social settings and I'm not about to stop now.

[mvndrvke]

new carrd is live ayyyyyyyyy

#ooc post ! #yes it looks exactly the same as the old one but shhhh #a couple muses don't have bios/verses yet but that's because i'm Lazy #anyway y'all should come love me while i update my pinned post and do starters

[asleepinawell]

last night's bizarre dream was about ffxiv again. I looked up how to get some rare collectible on youtube and the guide told me I'd need "ultimate fishing" unlocked and through that I could get all these specialty baits, including cupcakes(?), which would allow me to fish for it. the guide did not elaborate on how to unlock ultimate fishing. fine. whatever.

I must have found another guide for that though my brain mercifully skimmed over that part to go directly to trying to unlock it. I had to go unlock something back in 2.0 and then another quest chain in every single expansion. none of the people I needed to talk to had quest markers and they were all out in the woods in some place that looked vaguely like the shroud. I needed to get a bunch of stuff to do the first part. no one told me where it was or how to find it. fishing was not involved at all. I had to kill a bear

I woke up angry from what was probably the most realistic dream I've had about the game

#fishing is actually the only crafting/gathering thing I leveled and I did the bare minimum #I assume this is based on my experience with weaver #where I got to the level 60 quest and it was like you need to know this ability to do this #and I had to get some book to learn it #but no one would tell me where #and when I looked it up the vendor who supposedly had it did not #and I would need to do a bunch of deliveries or something #which no one in game had told me how to do #and I didn't know where to start #this is why I have rage quit crafting every single time I've started it #please don't tell me how to do the weaver thing I don't care anymore and it will just make me mad again #I did actually figure out how to open the fishing quests for ew but I had to look it up and ask someone #why is this so complicated #it really doesn't have to be #I just wanted to fish #and do the fun little quests at the studium #the collectible was the hades minion #'but you have a hyth minion on both your characters and would never take the hades one out' shhhh #I'm assuming the additional cause of this dream was doing so many maps and never landing on silver #ffxivmp #mp #why can't I just have sex dreams like a normal person

[rubys-domain]

... they seriously had to make the only 4 star hp sword in the game a gacha weapon

#⇢₊˚⊹ 🩷∥ruby∥yo，ide yo !! #i can't believe this #i mean i can #but i don't like it #now i'm gonna have to decide whether to sacrifice some of my venti savings just for that damn sword #on the alt i'm vibing tho. like i don't think i'll need a new 5 star until shenhe's rerun #in the meantime all i want is a new claymore for chong #and i just recently got lyney's sig so there's actually no way i'm getting either of the 5 star weapons from this banner #so i can safely pull for this sword and turn layla into 4 star zhongli cuz he didn't come home this rerun and he probably never will #because i can't be bothered to grind primos for him anymore #actually idk. i might want to pull for furina on the alt actually. it all depends on what support capabilities she has tho #if she's actually gonna be a support like every other archon anyway #now's probably a good time for me to remember to look at leaks of her kit #she's probably broken anyway because archon. but is it the kind of broken that my alt can benefit from is the question #i don't need nahida on my alt because i don't do anything with dendro on that account for example #if she's a broken yoimiya support or smth i'll consider pulling for her #(ignoring the fact that it would make xingqiu kind of useless on the alt but shhhh it's fine dw about it)

[tvrningout-a]

you know what i'm weak for?? one muse being sick and the other taking care of them!! i dunno why, but it's just cute uvu

#chiyo is either such a baby when she's sick or she tries really hard to ignore that she's sick if she's got a deadline approaching #so you either get ' is this what death feels like?? i think it is... will you make me soup ;3; ' #or ' i'm totally fine i don't have a fever shhhh me?? look like i'm about to pass out?? lmao no i--- ' cue the dizziness asdf #i wanna write it... do i write some opens or reblog a meme... genuinely i'm asking :' )) #i'm done with school for the time being so!! time to write a lil hehe #get ready to ramble | ooc

[sleeplessinspace]

Help, my brain is full of soft enemies-to-friends thoughts with Murdock and I don’t know how that happened. What do I do about this

you infected me too, so now we're both gonna suffer :)

what kind of enemies-to-friends are we talking about, hm?

are you enemies in the sense that you're both killers and you're sick of murdock stealing your kills until circumstances force you together and you start to see each other in a new light?

or are you enemies on opposite sides of the law—most of your senior career as a detective has been spent hunting murdock down and in recent months it's been almost playful, with him letting you get just close enough before he's in the wind again?

in the rival killers version, the shift to friends is gradual. so careful and one day it creeps up on you when you look over at him driving the two of you into a fresh state for new targets. he glances at you out of the corner of his eye and smiles slightly, a soft light in his eyes you never expected to see. your memories of your time working alone seem so distant now and having him by your side, you can't imagine working any other way anymore.

as for opposite sides of the law, this one is a bit trickier, but the payoff is so sweet. a mistake is made during one of your investigations, not necessarily by you but suddenly you've been framed for a crime you didn't commit. it's clear that your department wants you out and is willing to do anything to get you gone, and left with no other choices, you end up on the run with only one person willing to help you. murdock aids in your escape and in the beginning he doesn't let you live it down. he seems to get a sick sense of amusement out of the fact that he's the only one who can help you, but all those years spent playing cat and mouse have endeared you to each other in a weird way. he calls you a fungus at one point, having grown on him when he wasn't looking and you quietly agree.

#ask.txt #cereal killer ☆ #i got really carried away lmao 😅 #yes i know this is long shhhh don't look at me

[tiredassmage]

no, no, I totally didn’t start a new smuggler run just bc of asks-related hcs today, never, why are you looking at me like that >.> @captainderyn blaming you (affectionate xD). and lbr also my poor decision making skills past 10pm lol, who’s self-control, don’t know her

SIS Agent Oliver Daxton // Tyr Deckard, Ex-Cipher

#swtor #gifs #ch: tyr #swtor smuggler #what can i say i grew really attached over the afternoon to the idea lmao #also bc my first fuck around nd find out went so well YEET #i'm still squinting about lighting but its. so late don't look at me posting at 12 am shhhh #new cover dropped who this #dotgifs #vs: king and lionheart [smuggler!tyr]

[somethingwittythiswaycomes]

The latest Parent(tm) thing that I am doing at my daughter: insisting that one of her new stuffed animals is not named Sir Fluffy, but is instead called "Sir Beginald Huffington Malorkey the Eighth" which sends her shouting at me and pointing like that Jamie Lee Curtis meme lol

#it's actually mutated to where i've said i'm gonna get an identical one and call it Sir Beginald #but i still look pointedly at Sir Fluffy and then at her until she groans at me and starts declaring his name is Sir Fluffy #i don't even have to say it anymore #it's only been a week lol #and for anyone concerned #no i'm not doing it past the point she finds it funny #and she knows she can tell me to stop and i will #we worked hard on 'please stop' from a very young age and she knows it works both ways #theana shhhh #evelyn shhhh #Sir Beginald Huffington Malorkey the Eighth #it's pronounced like Reginald with a B