#since no one actually gives a shit

[germposting]

im losing interest in writing my fics bc they dont get any traction. its like. why write if no one reads it yk? i can still just read all my own fics by not publishing them since i write a bunch for myself anyway.

it just bothers me that people dont read or care about my writing so i dont feel like i should share it anymore. sorry

#de l’amour was the only one people cared about but the main comments i was getting on that one was just people being like #hey! write more!! #and it wasnt even like… nice to hear bc it was too demanding #meanwhile i was writing de l’amour while coming to terms about some shit i went through and was using that to process and cope #and then when i was close to finishing it my life went to actual shit and i went through the worst major depressive episode of my life #and nobody even really cared #they were just like #hello??? when are you going to update??? #meanwhile i was on suicide watch #lol #then i wrote some other stuff that was more like… fun to write #and nobody gave a shit #i went back to writing my feelings and trying to process stuff and nobody caredc #about that either??? #so its like. well ok. i guess my writing is going to stay private then #since no one actually gives a shit

[beatcroc]

pest control TWO!!!!! heres the first one

adn heres the obligatory bonus bc i can't help myself :')

#i already threatened that little basard twice in these i may as well make good on it #pizza tower #peppino spaghetti #fake peppino #the noise #fp ''oh god wait that is not a real rat and also tastes awful'' moments. he doesnt actually have any interest in eating that thang ok #even if seeing a small scampering little guy like that WILL activate his prey drive without fail #peppino loves it he thinks it's the funniest shit in the world for fp to go after noise. so he is always encouraging this. #but anyway yeah. fp is *really* not the one noise should be worried about. #arting #pizzaposting #i still have lots of tag room thjis time so im gonna do some tangential nonsense rambling. e #fp gotta be like crazy good at hunting i think. not just for strength and predator instincts but also bc like #he doesn't have much in the way of a scent or body heat or anything that would give him away as an alive thing #not to mention he's uh... not particularly organically-shaped a lot of the time #so esp. to smaller prey that don't like... memorize a landscape; if he holds very still he's like completely undetectable #total ambush king. though i'm sure hes also very good at #persistence and pursuit hunting since he has peppino's speed and no way of getting muscle fatigue. ultimate beast #fortunately he doesnt care that much and doesnt really need to eat so hes not devastating the local ecosystem or anything #except for the rats.

[justmwahstruly]

here’s some art y’all will actually like

#since you never seem to enjoy my usual stuff have a kermie #kermit the frog #kermit fanart #kermit #the muppets #meh the art i make is already dead anyways #EW I SOUND LIKE I WANT PITY EW #im sorry i just get rlly upset about this stuff #i take a minute to do this and it blows up #but i spend hours on an actual drawing and no one gives half a shit #ugh im sorry im just a bit upset over it #so im posting this as a test #anyways on with you #art

[honorthysalad]

Screw the ghost shit, this is the biggest mystery in HGSN. If Chapter 22 doesn’t open with a full telling of Yoshiki’s tragic backstory: the birthday party where he received 11 copies of the same book from 11 different people, then idk if I can continue reading…

#For clarity I am joking #But we do know he has relatives that live close enough nearby to give him a watermelon and have it not be bad by the time it gets there #I’m assuming they’re on his dad’s side since… mom from tokyo #And then I’m also guessing that’s where Yoshiki’s dad stays so it’d explain why Yoshiki never goes and sees them or thinks about them #Every one of my posts is some rambling bullshit and then the real post is in the tags… should I separate some of these into actual posts? #Nah that seems like effort #Also that relatives thing is only in the official translation. Not the one you’ll find online #So idk how we as a fandom have decided to treat the canonness of those translations #the summer hikaru died #hikaru ga shinda natsu #hgsn #My hgsn shit

[liquidstar]

objectively hilarious that vivinos's youtube channel is basically build on yuri horror/angst content (its basically almost always two girls killing or dying in the most fucked up ways possible) but the first time a video centered on guys is made (cherry bitch club) its literally just fanservice. yeah flip those conventions LOL

#bc usually the guys get to be the hashtag deep angsty ones (esp in fandom shit) and girls are cutsie yuri fanservice and such #obvs more have come out since though. that are actually serious and fucked up. bc of alien stage #and some horror stuff happens in cherry bitch club too but mostly just hitting the same plotbeats as pink bitch club. but hornier #so. its fanservice. which is not a bad thing #its not for me personally obvs but i do have to give it props for subverting expectations so heavily #but im still the biggest fan of the fucked up tragic yuri <3 beloved is my favorite i think #as far as one off videos go i mean. you all know i have alien stage brainrot

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Generally love how anyone who at least watched a little Horrid Henry agrees on one thing: those parents were beyond shit and Henry will very likely go no contact as soon as he's an adult.

#and maybe peter depends though #cause like i will admit do not like his character much #as gives vibes of the sibling joining in on the abuse #but at the same time its clear the shitty parenting got to him #aka perfect child syndrome who will get anxious if things arent perfect #and does try to divert attention to him #let alone the whole telling on henry thing has only been encouraged by the parents lets be real #since they just yell at henry for anything #plus one episode he actually sees henry gets more attention for his bad behavior #that he actually decides to try and be horrid to get some attention too #and its kinda sad the parents have pushed peter to that point #granted again as said its mainly the mom whose shit #the dad at times does seem to try at least #as he has similiar interests to henry at times #but the mom kinda ruins that at times for the two #plus you got the uh episode of peters birthday where the clown did say for a magic trick he'd make henry disappear #and the mom instantly started cheering and saying bravo #much to ralph and margaret giving her the 'wtf' look #and keep in mind margaret is henrys arch nemesis who hates him #so says alot when even shes giving that look to the mom #and yeah theres too many examples in this show but short: the parenting really does suck #and i get its a kids show and it was like that in the books too #but damn even the books parents wont this bad

[klonoadoortophantomile]

uhhhhbbhhhhh shitty art dump cuz i kinda hate posting art individually 👍

#and by that i mean i just feel worse abt not tagging things when its just one drawing #and also i feel like the rambling is more proportional to the amount of art #<- what the fuck am i even saying #scribbles #ocposting #gif #outfits in the gif r from some outfit memes ive had saved in my photos since like 2020 btw #i think the creators username was like hometownrockstar or some shit i dont really remmeber #the images are super crusty idk why theyre like that but its funny to me so idrc #some of these r ocs some are existing characters But Furries #and also suitcase is there lol #outfit in the fourth image is based on fleetway amy….. #idk what to say abt these sorry #again ive been like weirdly embarrassed abt the shit i draw as of late it sucksssss #especially cuz i know no one actually gives a shit either way. but my brain still wants to give me shit over it -_- #is that smthn ppl say idfk anymore #bright colors #eyestrain #ALMOST FORGOT TO TAG #kinda just in the second to last one i think but yea

[megaweapon]

me saying to myself “oh, harlan guthrie uploaded a seven part horror series all at once. I can surely sit back and wait a while, absorb this later” is the most hilarious lie i’ve told myself in a while. “yeah I won’t binge this immediately” i thought to myself. absolute clown behavior.

#deviser #deviser podcast #ANYWAY IT'S GOOD!! #if you like horror/sci fi give it a go #it's one of those stories that satisfied me by the end but has since occupied a big part of my thoughts and the more i think #the more i really like it #also just from a technical perspective Guthrie knows his shit when it comes to the audio medium #absolutely great at using audio-only in a way that enhances storytelling #i'll right an actual dactual review on spotify later

[rakkuntoast]

i swear if qforever doesnt get a nice and healing reunion with richas and tallulah i am exploding that server myself

#txt post #cw caps #a shit ton of caps in the tags #HOW HARD IS IT TO WISH THIS CUBITO SOME FUCKING HAPPINESS #EVERY TIME I REMEMBER ABT FOREVER CUBITO I FEEL AWFUL MY LITTLE GUY HASNT HAD A BREAK IN SO LONG #MOSTLY CUZ PEOPLE CONSTANTLY GIVE HIM SHIT AND ISOLATE HIM SINCE HE'S THE FUCKING PRESIDENT NOW AND DONT EVEN TREAT HIM AS MUCH OF A FRIEND #ANYMORE AND JUST HOLD HIM AT ARMS REACH. HE FEELS ALONE AND HOPELESS #LITERALLY THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT STILL TREAT HIM LIKE THEY TREATED HIM BEFORE THE WHOLE PRESIDENT THING BULLSHIT IS HIS DAMN FAMILY AND PHIL #AND MAYBE BAGHS TOO I CANT REMEMBER #man feels like no one trusts him anymore cuz hes “part of the feds” when he's not actually as involved as people make it seem #literally the only official mission he has ever done for the feds was the whole go to the nether get lost lmao L bozo #his position in the federation can literally just be reduced to the one who represents the islanders as a whole in the eyes of the feds #like god every time someone refers to him by his actually name instead of “the president” an angel regains its wings #cuz yeah he has to carry the burden of his position but that doesnt mean im not allowed to complain that everyone is pushing him away for i #like fuck. phil telling him that he trusts him and cares about him before forever went to the nether meant the fucking world to him #“phil nailed it down in the minute what was happening. im glad i can rely on him” <- not verbatim but like. cmon

[queen0fm0nsterz]

I think the way the Lady and the Thin Man became a lot more enjoyable to me as a duo when I stopped believing Six to be the Lady needs to be studied in a lab

#carols.txt #the context is that i always disliked every lady pairing since when i was young #esp because everyone was trying to give her a husband when she frankly never needed one at all #and it seemed detrimental to her character ever to little media illiterate carols #but i've been in fandoms a long time so when ln 2 came out i kinda expected them to be and #i didnt like it but i guess it was... fine for the shits and giggles #then i started doing the digging in the games myself and I was like 《wait. WAIT》 #listen i love when two characters are the sides of a coin. i love when theres complexity that could be explored #《what complexity》 the one i made up in my mind /j #i think that they are VERY interesting if you read them separately but reading them in context together is... ough. OUGHHHHHB #this is how they got the pass from me. like OK ................ ok old people i'll let you out of the asylum just this once #they're both vile in a way that is so different and tied into each other's narrative in a way that is so visceral #i need to actually write out why because you will be looking at my insane tags and not understanding I PROMISE YOU I HAVE MY REASONS #I PROMISE

[pensymbols]

if u believe that jason grace is lame gtfo this is NOT safe space for you

#everytime someone claims hes a boring character and a blank canvas i losd up a gun and #like jason ISNT a boring character hes actually incredibly interesting #but rick riordian fucking hates his guts and refuses to give him anythin #like genuinely #like first of all jason getting his memory wiped but hes never able to regain them??? #so despite people knowing WHO he was and him having the general feeling of knowing who he is he genuienly cannot remember shit #and those memory problems persist all the way up throughout toa #second of all his general past?? #like the grace siblings had such good backstories in the sense they were intriguing and actually defined everything and every choice they #-make #like jason who was proclaimed as heras/junos since he was born stolen from thalia who was raising him and she cant wver find him again and #-so she assumes shes dead and being reluctant to take in annabeth whos supposed to be around her baby brothers age #that shits peak #and then theres jason who was raised by wolves and then eventually found his way to new rome where he was only ever seen as jupiters son or #junos champion and he was only ever going to be the praetor and no one there truly saw jason for who he is #like thats PEAK #AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON THE JASON VS PERCY THING BCS A) I THINK ITS DUMB AND B) ITS STUPID #also rick DOES hate jason grace bcz they killed his character long before toa when thwy tried to make jason more like zeus so the rivalry- #-could make more sense #pjo #percy jackson and the heroes of olympus #jason grace #percy jackon and the olympians #heros of olympus #trials of apollo

[transhitman]

District manager is coming in to the store today and I swear if she says anything bad about how I'm running my department I'm gonna blow a fuse

#LIKE. SERIOUSLY FUCK OFFFFFFF. #I've been short-staffed since I started and it has literally only been me since the new year #I'm supposed to have 3 part-timers to help me but the company refuses to pay a living wage so no one wants to work here #I'm literally doing the work of double my hours NO SHIT I'm not doing any of the manager stuff rn #god forbid I prioritize the customers over the company paperwork #only preempting criticism because she was really harsh on me when I first started #and I don't mind criticism but it has become increasingly clear that no one actually knows what happens in my department #they just know what paperwork I'm supposed to be filing they don't actually know what services we provide... #it's insane honestly. at least my store manager is trying to help out but idk if anyone over her head actually gives a fuck about it lol

[boasamishipper]

so is the whole 'sam is a leader on this team and the new highly sought after star footballer of afc richmond' storyline ever going to get brought up again, or are the writers done caring about sam now that he isn't rebecca's love interest anymore

#this season has so many problems #chief among them is that toheeb is credited as a main cast member and he hasn't gotten shit to do in six episodes #even in 3.03 his restaurant was just a plot device in rebecca's love life #like why isn't sam getting special one on one training sessions with roy. that would actually be interesting #their relationship in s1 was so good and we've only gotten crumbs since and it genuinely saddens me #ted lasso #ted lasso spoilers #sam obisanya #i will eat my words if the next six episodes are good and do sam justice #but i doubt it #i really don't think the writers went into this season knowing what to do with anyone but ted and colin #even nate's 'redemption' arc is all over the place #it's been six episodes and we've only seen him in three!! we haven't focused on him enough!! #his eventual redemption is not going to have the emotional catharsis it could have if nate's storyline was given weight in every episode #like who gives a shit about that model and his date at a taste of athens #but that's a rant for another time

[skinnedred]

he's trying to get this hard headed ass little boy to understand he can't body slam people even if they're being bullies (boys got too much strength)

#fanart #goobersart #doodle #brutal legend #eddie riggs #Riggnarok #finally got around to drawing ye ol pops #im have yet to draw a ref of how i want him to look #but for rn this is a good placeholder until i sit down and brainstorm #so i gave Riggnarok a fake name in the age of modern man #his fake name is Casimir bc its easier than people giving him shit for how supposedly weird his real name is #also since we dont know how old he is during the AOM to the AOMM #i did some calculating for both he and Eddie #So far i have Eddies made up birthday #August 28 1987 #yes its 1987 bc in this piece its around i wanna sayyyy hmm 2000??? maybe might be 1999 #by the time 2009 rolls around hes at least in his 20s #and yes he looks far older in the actual game and most likely is #i pretty much chose the easier route with this one bc math is hard and i hate it #im still struggling w/ Riggnarok so i just chose something temp until i can do the math later #but so far i think that by the time Eddie is in his 20s Riggnarok will be in his late 50s #we dont know what caused his death wanna say old age but idk thats too easy of an answer for me #i havent slept yet so my brain is like RAUGHHRARARAR and im trying to figure this shit out but i CANT

[themanwhowouldbefruit]

my doctor was sooooo fucking worthless and unhelpful im going to masturbate and i hope it fucking kills me

#“no need for follow up” #“yeah you did have several cysts we scrapped off your remaining ovary but. dw about it. idk why they were there. dw about it. oh also your #ovary on that side was freakishly huge but. dw about it. it might go away. dw about it #*doctor shrug emoji* “ #“go see a gyno next year maybe. but not me im too important for that. go find and onboard a gyno to your situation. next year maybe idk lol” #he barely even looked at my incision like #this fucking appointment could have been an email. or a phone call. or they just could have let me start driving again. also i forgot to ask #if i can stop drinking ensure now or after the 6 weeks? cause that shit cost $$$$. but he probably would have been super unhelpful if i had #fr fr this guy only wanted to give me the time of day when he thought i might have fun cancer inside and now he's like gtfo!!!! get your #fugly cancerless ass out of here!!!! recover from a major surgery on your own you swagless cancerless loser 🤣 we arent helping your #swagless ass!!! #anyway it seems weird and fucked up that im was never offered to see a physical therapist and i guess am going to have to blindly trust my #abs they sliced thru are healing or whatever and to rawdog my own physical recovery of my muscles? even just dumb shit like. my center of #gravity has drastically changed since the mass removal and my back hurts like shit all the time because all my posture muscles were built up #for when i had an extra 30 pounds of cyst hanging in the front and my posture and walking reflected that. and i lowkey don't know how #hard i am able to be with my healing incision because its really tight and makes me hunch forwards still. like i would really like to know #how much i can safely or maybe should be forcing my skin and incision to stretch. without damage? is that crazy #am i crazy??? #this shit is why i didnt see a doctor for 2 years until my problems had snowballed into a 30 pounds ovarian cyst that was crushing my other #organs and had one of my kidneys all backed up with piss. and even getting emergency treatment for it everyone was like. how did you like it #get this bad?? how could you not know you needed to seek medical treatment???? like. bro. seeking medical treatment isnt even a guarantee to #get medical treatment. #anyway he said my “remaining ovary seemed low key polycystic but dw about it. don't quote me on that im not dealing with it.” #bro i dont want to doctor google it i wanted an actual doctor to deal with it. fuck you. #like. maybe even a doctor who knows my situation so i dont have to struggle with getting someone to believe me and take me seriously. #but whatever. back to trying to figure out the daily protein and extra calories my body needs for recovery via doctor google i guess. #its fine 🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬

[the-acid-pear]

The thing about the painter analog that people don't get and makes them hate it is that at heart this isn't a serious horror story. This is pure gore not only for the sake of gore but for the sake of camp. Once I was talking of to my dad laughing at the guy who had his face sanded off and he was like yeah not new they did that in Jason already 🙄 which was later reinforced by UrbanSpook admitting this is inspired by those old 80s slasher which should tell you everything.

I'm saying this bc i saw a video pairing it with Playground and the incest game and while I don't know the second I watched a video on playground once and the difference is that that book is trying to tell a story and say something on top of the gore but the later makes it hard to care. Which is kind of the issue another "gone too far" piece of media my beloved A Serbian Film runs into where you cannot take yourself too seriously if you also want to show over the top violence or you'll lose the audience.

OF COURSE there are exceptions like Hostel, Saw and 😏 the human centipede ☺️ (cocksucker for that movie and it's more serious points, though it barely counts bc the gore is very tame save for in 2) and I couldn't exactly tell you what's the difference between what makes them work and what doesn't but still.

But I'm getting off topic I'm not here to say which media is good or not I'm here to point out the painter is not a serious story that asks you to care for the characters it's a over the top schlocky gore that asks you to go GROOOOSS or laugh at the over the top brutality it presents. Which is very standard in horror.

#luly talks #urbanspook #the painter analog horror #also yes actually I'll mention THC again bc that movie is deemed to go ''too far'' which is joked about often in its sequels #in 3 after the inmates at the prison watch the movie they echo the opinions of the public (calling the director sick saying he'd be jailed #etc except for my best friend who GETS IT and is laughing ILY BESTIE) and 2 is a direct response to the reaction of 1 #while 1 is an extremely fucking tame horror movie BY ALL FUCKING MEANS (1 surgery scene and its so clean. after that just a tad bit of blood #and some minor infection) they made a movie that ACTUALLY went too far #and i ironically enough hate it despite appreciating this bc it just isn't fun for me. because it's trying a bit too hard. #but in case you don't know. one of the links of the centipede is a pregnant woman. she escapes and gives birth in the car. baby falls on the #brakes. she steps on its head. #pointing it out since children seem to be the point ppl go THIS IS TOO FAR #i personally found the baby squishing the highlight of the movie. second to that is. the barbed wire rape #which i didn't like because i don't enjoy seeing women be raped in my movies but its like #so funny man. literally bro put barbed wire on his cock. like that's just iconic #what shit like this and the painter are trying to achieve is simple shock. and that's FUN. #if you dont find it fun that's literally okay it simply isn't your piece of cake but that doesn't mean its bad or it shouldn't exist. #like i still see ppl insult it like GROW UP... THIS KIND OF HORROR HAS EXISTED FOREVER STOP BEING SUCH A BABY MAN