#so i guess i cant play anymore

[reel-fear]

Hey if anyone wants to check out Moving Pictures Redrawn [a fan-made remake of the first chapter of BATIM that Mike n Meatly may have ordered to be taken down? It's unsure at the moment] Guess who downloaded a copy before they did that~

#batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #honestly if they did order the take down um lmao tbh #I guess Id do the same it must be embarrassing for a fan to make a better game than you did literally improved your damn #flagship title bc it fucking sucks #but yeah in the name of preserving this piece of art this person mustve spent forever making hmu if u wanna download it <3<3 #its genuinely so cool I hope it turns out someone was posing as the bendy devs bc like this is so awesome #to have it taken down just feels so shitty #idc if its just a better batim if I could fucking sue Meatly n Mike for selling me a piece of shit of a game #thats not fun to play buggy as hell and has some of the worst storytelling ive ever seen #then took this down bc actually we cant let ppl play chapter 1 for free anymore ugh its just salt in the wound of how shitty they r #this remake is so cool I cant believe I got it to run on my computer #the way they redesigned the general areas is so damn cool too this is genuinely such an improvement and meatly n mike should be fucking #begging on their knees for the fans to forgive them if they did take this down fuck them so so much #mike literally has flaunted his fucking wealth in the past do we really think he needs the extra 20 bucks from some poor soul #buying his elaborate scam of a game that has a broken save system really? Does he need that money? No the fuck he doesnt #ramblez

[diaryofamadsunwukongfan]

Sun Wukong

Race: Faunus

Nationality: Vacuo

Ethnicity: Mixed Vacun & Mistrali

Weapon: Ruyi Bang & Jingu Bang

Gender: Man

Sexuality: Bisexual

Starting Age: 18

Birthday: Summer 1st

Aura Color: Yellow

Handedness: Ambidexterous

Complexion: Tan

Eye Color: Blue Im so sorry

Faunus Trait: Monkey Tail

Occupation: Haven student, Junior Detective, Boy band lead singer

Previous Occuppation: Thief (wanted for arrest in 5 places)

Long ago in a distant land, there once was a clan of nomads that traveled the desert. On one of their travels, they found a crying rock. Wondering how a simple rock could make such a sound, the strongest of their number took his weapon and struck the rock with all his might! The rock was split in two, and inside was a baby monkey faunus that had been crying all along. Not knowing where the baby had came from, the nomads decided to keep the boy and raise him as one of their own. This is the legend of Sun Wukong.

The boy was the most free spirited and reckless child the nomads had ever raised. While the nomads had taught all of their children that theft was okay as long as it was done out of nessacity, such as stealing food when you are hungry, Sun would steal at every city the nomads visited for the thrill of the heist. Even more infuriating, Sun was never arrested no matter how many times he was chased by authorities, which seemed endless to the nomads.

However, Sun's nature would help the nomads. Whenever they needed food or money, Sun would be the first to provide for them. But in Vacuo, it is every person for themself. That is why, when the nomads are lured into a trap and made to choose between Sun or the whole clan, they make the only choice a Vacun could make in that situation. Sun isn't even angry at them, even if it's not what he would do in that situation. A learning expierence, really.

For three days, Sun rampaged in Vacuo city. He couldn't find a way to escape, so he would make it the problem of everyone person there. It was only when Yù yin, the oldest and most beloved Huntress in Vacuo, appeared was Sun finally stopped. Using her semblance, Yù yin "pacified" Sun, and he allowed himself to be arrested. Using Quake Dust, Yù yin sealed Sun inside a cage made of solid rock, to be cut off from the rest of the world forever... if Starr Sanzang, a member of Sun's clan, hadn't become a guard at the prison he was being kept in. Without telling anyone, even Sun, she made tiny cracks inside his stone jail.

After a year of captivity, Starr smuggled in a Dust necklace and gave it to Sun so he could escape. And he did. Away from jail, away from the clan that gave him up, and away from Vacuo.

At 17, Sun traveled west of Vacuo, past the dark lands, and into Anima. With no one knowing who he is, and owning nothing but the clothes on his back, Sun wondered if he could start over here. He could turn a new leaf, go to school like always wanted to, renounce his wild ways... on his 18th birthday, Sun broke into Vasilias Enterpises and stole the experimental weapon, Ruyi Bang Jingu Bang. Unfortunately, Sun was out of practice and got caught.

When Sun was finally arrested, he was greeted by Leonardo Lionheart. The academy headmaster gave him a choice, face execution, or enroll in Haven Academy as a reform program student. Sun made the only choice he could make in that situation, and he has been happy ever since.

#growing up is adopting your blorbos and turning them into the characters they should be #rwde #rwby fix it fic #rwby rewrite #rwby redesign #finnaly #i can sunpost #sunposting #a little sad I cant shoehorn in a mystery person to make snarky comments about the characters anymore #i guess ill just do it myself #BUT NOT TO SUN #HE IS MY BOY #rwby sun wukong #sun wukong #anyway #thinking about the reason why Sun is so quick to run away #other than racism against nomadic people #was pretty fun #also giving him an instant conflict starter with Neptune just like with Ice flower & Arkos #Neptune: I wonder who my teammate will be? #Neptune: *runs into the guy that broke into his parent's building a few weeks ago* #Neptune: REEEEEEE #Sun: Hi new boyfriend>:) #seamonkeys #also also #team sssn #is now a boy band #their only song that plays on radio is Like Morning Follows Night

[nosfelixculpa]

You’ll be...my living legacy. FINAL FANTASY VII CRISIS CORE: REUNION

#creations #gifs #games #ff #square enix #ffvii #ffvii crisis core #ffvii crisis core reunion #cloud strife #zack fair #guess who got covid and has been playing this game for the first time #guess who finished this game maybe an hour ago and has still not Fully stopped being VERY UPSET #i was already lost by this scene but the entire end stretch oh my fucking god man #like sometimes characters die nd their death is just underwhelming u kno like u dont care That Much #but the way this one happens i am not okay i am Not fine #pls pretend u do not see my poor attempts at blurring the game subs #but i didnt want to crop them out bc theyre so high up #also that last gif looks a bit ugly but pretend u cant see if ur Crying they should look good they should look fine #im not fixing them i cant look at these scene anymore it is too FRESH in my MIND

[sirompp]

#me tag🍭 #ive only made the heads so far #i cant decide on the colours #it looks so much more saturated on my phone than my computer but i dont play on my phone anymore so i guess that doesnt really matter

[the-kipsabian]

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#i had a hangman/swerve fic started that i actually didnt hate but im not gonna finish it for tonight and posting it after makes no sense so #sweeping all that under a rug i guess #cause fuck me trying to do anything anymore #i was pretty happy with the progress too but. its just not happening #i just cant make anything. i cant and trying is not worth it #and i hate fucking saying that cause i know in like two days im gonna go back on that word and start making something again #cause making anything is the only way i feel alive anymore. but then the loop starts all over again and i cant ultimately break it #i dont know what im supposed to do about this. or what i can do. probably fucking nothing cause lbr i just fucking suck and its hopeless #whatever. sorry im just being a bitch once again. im resisting so hard of just deleting everything right now #instead im gonna go be fucking useless and waste time playing video games. cause thats a better use of my time i guess #i fucking guess #night is an absolute mess on main

[todayisafridaynight]

tumblr stop trying to copy twitter and for the love of god please improve your tagging system i just want to find A Post using keywords i know should work

#snap chats #stop making me comb through hundreds of asks of people calling my faves mid or assholes and me being cringe in responses #absolutely doing tremendous amounts of mental damage to me #anyway no i was trying to find that post of me comparing aoki's face to sawashiro and ikumi's #since i forgot i wanted to link that in my Face Studies Ask response #but alas. I Cannot Find It so i guess i shouldnt be TOO mad i posted that ask early ??? #or. 'early'. whatever we know what i mean #ive already revised it like five times since posting it LMAO I JUST KEPT CATCHING THINGS #im not touching it anymore though i promise whatever i wrote we're just gonna have to deal sorry everyone #back on topic though i tried looking through every reasonable tag and keyword that shouldve worked and Yeah No Dice #if anyone finds that post. i cant promise any reward but i will say thank you with a lot of exclamation points #cause i do like that post i made...... as it does tackle one of my fave topics.... #ok im sleepy and i am Probably streaming tomorrow so bye bye #guaranteed sneaking in a few routes of shadow the hedgehog in the morn.. #dont worry i have a lil rgg drawing planned :] nothing major or. spectacular. just drawing daigo for the first time in a thousand years #was given a vision while laying on the couch watching my bro play shantae... #ok bye fr now jesus fucking christ i always dO THIS--

[digirainebow]

just sent riley into the portal for the first time and i feel hysterical

#digi discusses #oxenfree II spoilers #i was not anticipating being able to play out that last part and seeing her and rex running next to eachother. thats my baby boy oh my god #the horse ending up right back where she started. him saying i love you too im actually unwell #i got. the friends with Charlie and violet but not olivia variation also and this is the worst possible ending for them right like. fuck #what olivia says in therapy. jesus h christ #the things i have just heard i cant i cant #i was fully expecting this ending to be my favorite but. i feel. So upset. maybe with friending olivia i will feel different but ow ow ow o #gotta do. jacob next i guess haha! hahaha! hahahahaha #now i understand why it saves in the harbor before the end. reloading the save is truly just checking in on riley in the loop. i am sad #also What Do You Mean 'i dont think hes around anymore' riley what do you mean is he. not home on the day she chose or. idek im scared

[yelloworangesoda]

gotta get off the internet and only interact irl with people who were 30 before they got their shit together i cant keep doing it like this

#like this being. feeling like i have no future and nobody likes me #‘youre only 19’ only goes so far when i dont know any other fail 19 year olds #im not gonna be a damn dentist for sure but like. and ive said this a thousand times. what am i gonna do. i cant live a worthless nothing #life where i work a shitty job i hate. i have to like something #i hate my art. i hate my lack of creativity. my art is so bland i just dont think its in me anymore #i finished. and i hate it #i have other hobbies. i like to cross stitch. i like to sew. i like to paint. i like to make dolls. do you see the common theme here #i have a few more than that i technically could do but i cant create anymore and it kills me. i want to. i constantly want to but i cant #it doesnt help that even if i havw ideas i dont even want to do them #i was gonna draw some characters from a game i played when i was little but i just #didnt want to. at no point did it not feel like a chore #ill try to go to new mediums! its fun to mess around and then itll feel boring again and going back doesnt feel any better #idk. googling it is useless. ive tried all the things. for years. ive been TRYING to draw consistently and like. doodles are fine theyre fu #but theyre not what i want to do i want to make something im proud of. i drew almost every single day for like 2 years #and its not burnout bc its been like. 2 more years! and ive barely wanted to at all!!! #i want to be creative and i also want people to recognize it. different complaint but it sucks so bad #i feel like nobody likes me. still. nobody cares about what i do. nobody would care if i stopped #like except me but i can only support myself so far!!!! im so tired of it!!!! someone PLEASE be here for me and just say ‘hey i love this #drawing :)’ like you have no idea what that would do for me #not always. but yknow especially if its been a while. if you like it. if you dont like it :( idk. you should tell me that too i guess #yknow so i can have some confirmation so i dont feel like im crazy. idk. dont actually id never go online again. i would probably. well. #i dont like to say the words #simons spouting #vent :(

[fallenrain40]

sometimes i envy people who are in the MCYT fandom, the fact im not really in the MCYT fandom anymore just feels so strange at times. (i just noticed that #badboyhalo was trending and it made me remember how much i used to watch him)

#like #he was always so wholesome hgfhgv <3 #idk why i just cant get interested in it anymore #i love minecraft but i'd rather play it myself than watch others do it i guess #random posting

[weenie-kun]

so shining live is shutting down after all. the biggest reason this sucks is because next to the anime it was the only other thing international fans could easily access content wise (+ in eng) so thats a bummer. on the other hand the writing or art wasnt much to write home about and it got kind of samey so its ran its course i suppose. rip

thus continues my wait for the utapri games to be localised before i die (which is likely never but i can dream)

#i gotta scour all the syo UR stories before theyre nuked #txt #i sometimes mourn my attachment to utapri #because i know if every drama cd or merch or stage plays etc were subbed or easy to find i wouldve eaten all of it by now #it truly brought new life into me and fixed a bad art block i was in a few years back when i got into it #i mean the same year i also fucked up my hand due to a bad desk setup and realized too late so i couldnt draw much anymore anyway #but still #i had watched the like short of them going on a trip because it was available subbed and i was reminded of how much joy it brought me #i dont have the energy to deep dig into forums or sites and compile cds or chronologically ordered stuff that came out so ill just sit here #i cant probably fly to another country to watch the new utapri movie this time so ill have to squidward behind the blinds it lol #id like it if they put out more scenes of the guys living their lives and interacting like in the short because that was great #anyway uh. yeah. i miss utapri i guess #also miss having an arm that doesnt hurt #im aware theres a fan translation being put work into these days as well so theres some hope?? so kudos to those guys

[silenthillbunni]

actually i hate my sisters so much for making me feel like im not allowed to exist in my own home

#if they wanna play that game; i was born first. by their logic i have more right to our mom than they do #this was my home first. i was here first. i havemore right to be here than them #but for real; my mom is the only one who can decide if i can live here or not #my sisters dont have any right to freezeme out and tell me i shouldnt live here anymore #only my mom can kick me out or have opinions on that #imjust very hurt by my mom and that she doesnt say anything #and when i try to to talk abt how i feel she just always tells me that they have feelings too and that it isnt all abt me??? #well im the one being iced out by my own family and spend all my days isolated in my room but yeah i guess im the bad one #maybe i am a bad person i can honestly not trust myself. why else would everyone treat me like this lik #lol*** damn fkn makes me so mad that i cant type on anything without typos #anyway.... i fucking hate my sisters so much and my mom being cold abt it makes me so sad #when i tell her that im so lonely i feel like i could die and that i need interaction #she just tells me that i need to get outside more #anyway i dont fucking know what im supposed to do #i am stuck and i have never gotten any help from theme talhealth care system either so #wtf am i supposed to do all alone in this!?!?! #wish i was fkn normal

[munamania]

something that makes me feel guilty is the fact that seeing that persons face rn literally makes me angry. they walked into class and i nearly winced. and in all fairness they were quite kind to me. outside of the several kind of odd red flags. girl whatever. to be quite frank i am a horny bastard and vocal proud etc but few people interest me enough to actually want to hang out with and get to know And i have deep seated intimacy issues so it's like. we really dont have a shot unless the circumstances r exactly right on a full moon perfect thursday of a month etc like. well and tbh i probably would have fucked around with this person but i dont... care... about some big relationship w them.. and i know i could be a relationship girl like eventually i have it in me to have a muse that's what im built for i think idc but not rn... rn i need to hang out with my friends and do my film stuff and have people that maybe wanna make out sometimes is that so much to ask for. for a lesbian at a bar to want to make out perhaps. ** for there to be lesbians at the bars to potentially make out with.

#and i am quite lonely yes thank u for asking. yeah someday id love to get to know someone again in the context of falling in love #what about it. so what now. i dont think im meant for our understanding of romantic love but boy do i crave it #why am i having this moment rn. well ok consider im on my period all i could think about this morning was [redacted] and both parties #of my dyke drama were back in class today. and the one gay person that i think has a crush on me but we dont see each other super often #so im just. guessing based on the way awkward lesbians communicate. idk #and i feel really just mean but i quite literally dont have it in me to pretend to be nice to this person anymore #i wasnt like. some villain for realizing we were acting really coupley and being like oh shit because i didnt want to hurt them #. and trying to communicate and put some distance between us when i thought they were probably in too deep. it's unfortch it took me a sec #but jesus christ yk i cant walk around and feel awkward about it forever. and im frustrated by the fact that we're just acting so odd #but again frankly i think it's largely bc they have an unhealthy relationship with dating. THROWING HORIZONTAL PUNCHES HERE. #OK. STONES FROM A GLASS HOUSE. IM AWARE. REAL RECOGNIZES REAL. #and YET. despite my past insanity. ive been kind. i can understand disappointment and a little awkwardness #but jesus would you rather i pretend to be in love with you for months and then really break your heart. #this is where i get mean and make a joke like well hey if we couldve had weird really mediocre sad angry dyke sex abt it #that would have been cool with me. but alas. we're here instead and it's fucking with my friendships too #and like we were kind of ok friends too. what now. its just u me and this brick wall u built between us bitch #now was EYE not answering texts for a minute. we dont need to get into it. #because the thing IS if i dont play things exactly right. and im not good at that without prior planning. i will accidentally say or do #something that i know. again. from being insane myself. would be just enough for them to hold onto hope #and im not trying to do that to them you know. i was trying to help with the detachment. shitty as it may be. i dont fucking know dude #this post is going to make me look kind of. well. whatever u guys have seen me at my worst. mostly. and post #ok one last thing sorry if this makes me sound like i have a giant ego. like wow heres this person who really liked me and im just shitting #all over them. not what im meaning to do but whatever

[edsbev]

ngl i was surprised to come online after watching s4 to find steve/eddie as such a big ship (but i shouldve expected it bc white mlm ship) bc i rlly didnt see anything between them in the show, but what was even crazier was finding out that ppl called it queerbait lmao like im sorry but that word has no meaning anymore

#i think i just cant engage in fandom anymore it drives me a lil crazy #wdym eddie was queer coded he was supposed to represent the straight white male nerds who felt othered and oppressed bc they played dnd lol #like enjoy ur hcs and ships but idk #is a lil tiring only seeing ppl engage with media in one way i guess #or maybe im just grumpy bc i cant enjoy the ronance tag without seeing 100 st/eddie posts #but im ngl steve n eddie did not even register as a ship in my mind when i watched the show #so coming online and seeing them get just as much if not more attention than robin n nancy was a little bit of a shock

[cattheraccon]

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#guess who started playing persona 3 portable on their psp go and got absolutely obsessed and cant stop thinking about it #p3p #also i only started playing because someone who used to be a close friend recommended p5 to me some time ago #they always recommend awesome stuff so i obviously had to try it but im too broke to get p5 right now #we arent even talking anymore so it's kinda sad i guess but their memory loves on #(i still hold high hopes for talking to them again) #(i know it probably wont happen ever again and i rpobably fucked up and i cant stop thinking about it but i still hold hope)

[dexaroth]

i cant believe the day but i finally got a full tower pc. bought it already built and at a considerable discount of some 320 dollars off. its fucking huge and theres so many things going on inside... i was initially planning on choosing the parts myself but finding the graphics card was so hard and everyone else convinced me to just buy it built and honestly? good. id probably have fucked this up so badly by myself

i cant use it yet bc i took too long to buy the monitor that was also on sale and now its regular price -_- tho i managed to find a discount used one for now. well see how that goes since ill get it tomorrow. i tested it on out living room tv and it had some kaspersky thingy open and like thats so cute. i hope they left some treats in the browsing history for me to search through before i wipe it clean

#its a hexer case and wouldnt you guess the front has a hexagonal pattern. so pretty.. #it came with 3 fans installed there too that have a cmyk color style to them and it looks quite neat. im thinking of buying some leds to pu #inside the case to go with my keyboard tho idk if id go that far tbh (< gamer rot is setting in. im not immune to pretty lighting..) #its also got a lot of unused space inside. im thinking of making more sculptures to put in. though idk if thatd be safe for it #bc cold porcelain is glue and water. what if it evaporates inside and suddenly everythings covered in a glue film #i wonder if varnish would help? the transparent nail polish sure didnt do shit it came off like 2 days after sculpting the rw slug sleeping #which like yeah of course. its nail polish. but i didnt expect it to flake since all it does is sleep on top of my laptop keyboard #i need miniature glass cake cover tops to encapsule every sculpture inside for safety #looking at it still no wonder these are called towers gotdamn its legit so huge.. #it looks awkward tho bc i cant fully make it glue to the wall bc of the cables so its like. awkwardly a bit in front of the wall #im scaared as to how to tell if it ever gets too hot. on a laptop u just press ur head against the left half and feel how hot it is #i think im gonna need software for this.. sigh. tho maybe ill never get to that point since its supposed to be decent #AND its not 8 years old + the 3 fans and gpu fan and cpu fan. surely thats enough. the case even has space for more than that!! #the acrylic side reflects my keyboard too. so niceys. stimulation for my creature eyes #my desk is gonna be so fucked up when i have to organize everything too bc the one i have now is perfecly laptop-oriented #it sits on a custom wooden desk and the keyboard+drawing tablet sit below. but theres a shelf on top of my desk thats too low for the> #>normal monitor to sit to so i wont be able to use the custom desk. and i dont even know what ill do with my laptop either #finally a good change in my sad life routine fr. i cant wait to play watchdogs on this and overgrowth and other ones #AND LAGLESS KRITA SMUDGE ENGINE BRUSHES!!! AND DOUBLE BRUSHES. THEYRE SO LAGGY #A N D ACTUAL FULL HD NORMAL MONITOR. maybe that will get me to not draw in small canvases anymore #now im anxious i just want the day to be over to get the monitor tomorrow aouugh.. just bc i started coding my resources neocities page #dextxt #<the 'major life events' ((sorta)) tag returns. one for the books.. if something bad happens.. itll be here to remind me of the good times

[chierry]

damn depression is actually like. kicking my ass pretty hard

#i am so #sooooo #augh #everything is so much effort im not happy with anything i cant do anything that i like and just??? what am i supposed to do with my life #WHEN I CANT DO SHIT #writing in painful drawing is painful #i want to do both of those things and i just cant #i can read books in public transport and play zelda and thats pretty much it? #im kinda going insane bc i dont like my life rn at all #but i feel too weak and lazy to change anything #its like i want to rest forever because its never enough i never have enough energy #and just. aughughughgughugh. i dont want to die thank god i am not suicidal #but man i do not want to live as myself anymore right now #i guess i will write yaoi about it or something #gah i now this is my blog and all #but sorry for the constant depressing talk lately lmao #it gets better eventually