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satoruin · 4 months

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year’s end thank you post!

when i started this blog i didn’t really think much of it because all i wanted was to write fanfic but i’ve made lots of friends and it’s become a happy place :) thank you guys for 1.5K followers even though i seldom put out fics and i’m bad at interacting but i’m thankful for it all and i wish all of you the very best for the year :))

to my faithful followers: there’s a few of you i recognize that like many of my posts and i know it’s a banger post when y’all reblog and i smile seeing you in my notifs when no one else is thank you for giving me my hits of serotonin

to my moots that i may have missed: i’m so sorry if i did but it doesn’t make me love you any less! i am just bad of keeping track of who’s not active or moved or whatever else but still i wish you the very best and hope we interact more in the new year!

to my mootie patooties:

@mocha-bunbun : mocha darling i love you so very much/p you’ve been an amazing moot and friend and i love the support you give me and i hope the new year treats you well!!!

@tiredsleep : tired! i love you very much and you always helpe bounce around fic ideas and i really do have a satoru fic in the works so hope the new year treats us well and brings our blue eyed babygirl back to us. hugs and love going into the new year for you

@kazemiya: KAZE MY LOVE! you always liked my silly rant posts on my sideblog and i appreciate it! i also love love love interacting with you when you’re active and i hope that we can talk more! i hope all of your tests and studies have gone well and will continue to go well :) lots of love for you and have an amazing year

@verxsyon: VERA!! i think you’re one of my first moots and you’re from my very old blog and we did hq together (which movie in feb??) you’re the driving force behind my star rail love and dan heng series so thank you for being an amazing writer and giving me inspo!!! i love you and hope we have more opportunities to talk :) wishing you a happy new year <3

@2018-01-20: BOO my babygirl and my fellow dan heng simp. you’re so amazing and i eat everything you put out. ik you’re not very active but i sincerely love every time we interact and i just love you <3 hoping for more dan heng screen time and a happy and prosperous year for you!

@m1shapanda: MISHA !!! we became mooties this year and you introduced me to code geass and your art <3 you’re so fun to talk to and i really enjoy seeing you on dash! i wish you no achy joints and lots of inspiration for the new year!

@yuan4i: ài !!! you’re genuinely one of the nicest people i’ve ever interacted with and your smaus never fail to give me a smile :) i’m so glad we’re mooties and i hope you have a superb new year

@kkomaism: even though i am def not caught up with orv you did inspire my sick binge of it. though we don’t interact nearly as much as i’d like and we’re not really in the same fandoms anymore i still do love all the moments we do ! hoping you have all the inspiration to write your fics and have a happy new year :)

@solaaresque: REZE!! i think you’re so amazing and i love love love your writing and though it’s been too long since i’ve logged into enstars they remain near and dear to my heart because of you <3 i just love you lots !! please have the best year babes!

@cottonfluffs: AUNI DEAREST! i still remember the ask you first sent when you introduced yourself and ever since then we have been friends! i really really like talking to you and reading your works and though you’ve moved blogs i’m still enamored by your fics every time. have an amazing year babe and hope to talk to you more!

@sea-of-dandelions: your sigskk blog is my source of bsd content since i don’t really go looking for it and i love seeing you in my notifs when i make posts and it makes me feel like ive made a good offering. happy new year and lots of happiness!

@callilouv: i could not believe the notif i got when you followed me and i still can’t like ur very famous to me. i love love love your art and i await any and all art you’ll put out this upcoming year. please take care of yourself and have a happy new year !

@igumie: mai! ik you haven’t been active in a while so i do hope this reaches you. i love all your fics and quite literally all of your blog! you’re ridiculously amazing and i hope the new year treats you well

@so2uv: my ayato truther! sol i love being your moot and reading all your fics on your writing blog! e2l academic rivals ayato rattles around in my brain a lot. i also forgot you were a twst fan but i am more than happy to send you mal thoughts anytime esp with book 7 in the process of coming out ! i believe in your academic weapon powers and hope you continue to do well in this new year! send lots of hugs your way!

#[☾ ] lee stop posting challenge #[ ❣️ ] lee’s lovelies #happy new years to all of you with love from me <3

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hiveswap · 2 years

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i really want to get into dream smp but im surrounded by people who hate it and the fandom so im scared to + i have absolutely no idea where to begin and every time i google it i just get confused. even tho im capable of being critical of things i enjoy, esp when it comes to creators, i just feel like getting into dsmp no matter what would lose me a lot of friends. ive lost friends due to media that i like before being deemed "unforgivable" and dont rlly feel like going thru that again!! lately though i have been enjoying myself quietly looking at fanart and animatics and absorbing what i can through osmosis watching yall have fun. those funky mine craft guys are goin!! even if i dont really get all the context i like actually seeing positive stuff about it on my dash instead of intense hatred. ty for being one of the cool dsmp blogs that make me feel a little better abt being interested in it!

I am so sorry about your friends. If you're thinking of joining, you should make a side account to interact with the fandom. (sideblogs show up as recommended for your friends)

For lore/context, you should look up blueberrytv on youtube! They cut vods down to basically a webseries type of of thing so it's easier to catch up on. Also @/relaxxattack has a carrd that has the full story in order.

The fandom wiki has been called biased, but most of the things on there are widely agreed upon, so it's a mostly reliable source on lore.

I've been in the same shoes as you before, a friend of mine blocked me out of nowhere after seeing a random post about the dsmp being bad. I think everyone i know has a similar story. The culture around "irredeemable media" is horrible and stupid but as long as people think like this, the best we can do is find ways around it.

The community (at least my side of it) is very welcoming and close-knit, so if you do decide to make an account you'll find your place in no time.

Also filter tags! Filter everything you don't want to see. Esspecially #anti dsmp.

#ask #asks

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jung-koook · 3 years

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omg i stalked the hell out of you just now (sorry for that) and i am in shock. you've been here for the longest time??? you have posts from june, 2013. that's insane. i really want to ask you how does it feel, being part of this for more than half a decade. they've changed so much and it's hard to process as someone new, can't imagine seeing that happen real time. they used to be so dark and now they're not, plus they're heading the industry by far. it's so mind-blowing. what was what sparkled your interest in the first place? they look/sound nothing like they did during debut, it's like two different groups. omg. anyway this a weird ask ik, sorry again. and thank you for all your edits/gifs! thank you for still creating stuff for the fandom ♡

first of all i already want to apologize for the bad english ♡

every time someone says they stalked my old posts i want the floor to swallow me LMAO there are so many cringe posts there. please dont do that to your eyes laksaksk ok, lets start by answering what sparkled my interest in this amazing group. ive been listening to kpop practically since i was born and ive always been interested in new groups. there was a forum that talks about rumors of new groups and stuff, there i learned about namjoon and the group he would be part of. at that time there was rumored to have other rappers who would be part of bangtan, before their debut time, bangtan already ~sounded~ different from what they were when they debuted. then after that i learned more about namjoon, the group and listened to some of namjoon predebut songs and started to like him. the one who sparked my interest in bangtan was namjoon but the one who made me stay until they debuted was jeongguk. before they even debuted i was crazy about jeongguk laksakls. i lost count how many times i watch their predebut logs and videos. before they debuted i met other people who liked them and these people wanted to make a gif bfor bangtan, then this blog happened. before it was supposed to be a blog with 4 people but they didnt have time to make gifs :/ so it was just me who made gifs here. me, who never had a tumblr and never made gifs in my life ALSKASK. so thats why this is a sideblog ); being in this fandom since the beginning is something really special and important for me. i have experienced many things and emotions here. i had a lot of friends who also started to like bangtan since their debut time but they stopped liking them for those reasons that you are talking about. these friends talk about feeling distant, feeling that bangtan has changed. it is obvious that these changes happen and were not expected but i never saw these changes as negative. i still dont feel this distance feeling. in fact, i feel more and more close to them and at the same time far away. i know its confunsing but its not bad feeling. its just, bangtan and their songs helped me a lot in my life. i always say that id be a totally different sky if i didnt meet them. but i put bangtan in a dangerous place in my life. i depend a lot on bangtan emotionally and physically. and for me that feeling did not do well. and that feeling didnt do me any good. i'm the same age as jeongguk, so i feel like i grew up with them. i was a kid who was 10 years old diagnosed with depression and saw no reason to smile. when i found bangtan they transformed my life. when i was sad i just watched their videos and listen to their song i forgot my personal life. many times that i thought that there was no reason for me to exist in this world but in bangtan i found a ~cover~ for my empty feeling. before i wanted to look for real help, bangtan was that help for me. bangtan still makes a huge difference in my life, just thinking about being without them i feel like crying! i'm not even exaggerating here. i think it was for these reasons that i didnt care much about their changes like my friends did, even though some made me wonder "why is bangtan doing this". like, boy with luv LAKSAKSK i dont hate this song but i never imagined this boy with luv bangtan 😆. so this was my short story of how i'm still here all this time and i know i'll never leave it here. one of the things that is so special about stan bangtan that many fans have a very similar story of how they became a fan. there are many fans who met bangtan at a time in their lives that they really needed them. and it makes me so emotional! i know a lot of the new armys wanted to be here from the beginning but the most important thing is that they came into your life when you really needed it. i dont like to be too personal here so i'm sorry. and idk why but my dyslexia seems to have gotten worse these days so maybe my text looks more confusing than it used to be. i feel we are very lucky to be an army, and to love this group that has an incredible history and that has done and does things that no one ever imagined they were capable of. i will love it if you tell me your story and how your interest in bangtan started. pleaseeeeee~ and please, you dont need to thank me sweetheart ok 😭

#Anonymous #reply #i’ll probably put this ask in private in a while because i dont like to leave personal things about me here :/

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kingjasnah · 2 years

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hi sorry if this is a weird question but how do you tell your friends (irl) about being in fandom spaces? i just saw your post about having real life friends who follow you but dont know about cosmere stuff and i wish i had that

hi <3 and tbh i don't usually sweat it that much. all of my friends, even ones ive made and become close with recently have been into Something. so its like hey you know how youre really into embroidery techniques of the 1900s? you know how youre really into a tv show with literally no online presence that ran for 2 years on abc and you only interact with it via pintrest? you know how you're really into (god forbid) barstool? this interconnected books series is My embroidery technique of the 1900s. like sure maybe i wait a couple months before seeing if this person won't mind me mentioning something i like a lot or i wait till it comes up naturally, but it almost always does because the people i surround myself with care not necessarily about my interests but the fact that i care about them.

and speaking from the other side, i absolutely follow a bunch of sideblogs made by friends even if i have no clue what they are talking about, im just happy they are having fun deep analyzing whatever the hell.

#not saying that following a sideblog is the pinnacle of support but like ur friends should care that u like stuff #but it ALWAYS comes up naturally like 'what are you doing this wknd?/im playing star wars bideo game' is easy and commonplace #what are friends without the inherent desire to hype them up even if u have no idea what they are talking abt #oh but i did get a bunch of irls following me here cause i started trek blogging and i was the last of us to get into star trek #asks #also its a good litmus test id cut someone off for still being into hp. actually ive been doing so on the dating apps lmao

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cardinalvalentino · 3 years

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hell yeah check in tag time!! thank u @followfindyou for the tag lava u <3

under the cut because this ones a bit long

why did you choose your url?

i enjoy ye baiyi and also transgenderism and since its pride month i thought id combine the two and trans ye baiyis gender <3

any side blogs? if you have them: name them and why you have them

i do! i have @translanzhans which is my cdrama sideblog, @dilfgawain which is my ?gawain sideblog?? i dont know. then um @jumpingandpopping which is the jestie only joppost archive and an aesthetic/stim blog that i am not disclosing drtfgyuh i also have blogs that arent rly sbs more like. other blogs such as the tma italian translation blog (@tma-traduzioni) which i share with the rest of the translation gang and the arthurianum zine blog which i run with lou (@arthurianum)

how long you’ve been on tumblr?

a really long time drtfgyhuijo like since age 11 (which is why i have brained rot) but not with this blog i changed blogs at some point

do you have a queue tag?

i straight up dont have a queue drtfgyhuij i just reblog stuff when im online and thats about it

why did you start your blog in the first place?

hmm for a long time i was on tumblr to just to kind of lurk in fandoms, these days the few fandoms im in im a little more directly involved but ngl im here mostly for the human connection with friends and mutuals and likeminded users and to share and talk about my interests a bit more freely

why did you choose your icon?

i love lan xichen dearly and we are besties (this is not my mdzs blog though i see a lot mf mdzs blogs i dont know following me and i feel bad for tricking them with lan xichen... hes just here cause i like him)

why did you choose your header?

i made it because i wanted something a little pretty and ive put there things i like (clouds, forget me nots etc)

what’s your post with the most notes?

romanticize caramelize unionize 😔😔😔😔 and on translanzhans its a wwx + textpost post (or transgenderization beam wangji im not sure)

how many mutuals do you have?

like around the hundred i think? no idea edrtfgyuh idk how to check... but my mewchwals mutuals are less than that

how many followers do you have?

362. too many methinks

how many people do you follow?

hmmmmm WAY too many i need to go on an unfollowing spree its like over the thousand

have you ever made a shitpost?

dont like the term but yeah sometimes the people take a liking to my silly little posts

how often do you use tumblr each day?

way too much 43w54d65f76g87h i may not one of those permanently on ig or tiktok people but i am permanently on tumblr

did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

unfortunately more than once... not going to get into it swerdtrytfugy those who know know.....

how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

i dont like the tone of "you need to reblog" but if its important ill move past that annoyance and rb. otherwise no sorry it feels a little mean and guilt-trippy

do you like tag games?

i adore them!! im always rly happy when people tag me

do you like ask games?

i do! i dont do them often but when i do its really fun <3

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

hmm not going to name names but i do have some mutuals with some really popular posts or like. kind of a following

do i have a crush on a mutual?

nope thank god ive never had the online friend kind of crush it sounds like an ordeal

tagging @xiaoguiwang @transwenkexing @i-like-creepy-and-cute-stuff @dragonji @trans-bunji if u want to <3<3

#this was so fun ty rook mwah #tag games

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thxngam · 3 years

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thank you @thumbllebee!

1. why did you choose your url?

it means gold in tamil and is something my mother calls me often. it’s sweet and it has personal significance so i figured i wouldnt outgrow it or something if i changed fandoms/hyperfixations. also its cute! i wanted just plain ol’ thangam but that was taken so i just put an x in there lol

2. any sideblogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them.

nope! i suppose i should for like ~organization~ but no my followers are just gonna have to deal with me possibly taking a hard left into a different fandom

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

idk? i had one when i was like 13 and i deleted it bc i never did hw bc i was always on tumblr. and then i got it again like a year ago? maybe longer? idk

4. do you have a queue tag?

i think so but i don’t use it very much lol

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

i wanted to talk to people? i mean mostly its because there are a lot of gifsets and other content relating to fandoms i liked so i was into that and then people started sending me asks and i randomly reached out to people i liked on here (i have no filter on tumblr when it comes to starting conversation. i am very awkward irl but online my inhibitions are gone.) and suddenly i like. had friends. which was very weird bc this has never happened to me before but i love it!

6. why did you choose ur icon/pfp?

it’s me! the picrew i got tagged in was adorable (sorry i forgot who did but whoever it was thank you!) and i liked it so much that i made it my pfp!

7. why did you choose your header?

i liked the colors? i changed the whole theme of my blog to oranges and yellows to match the pfp and the header was with pretty colors and matched the rest of my blog. so.

8. how many mutuals do you have?

idk actually? but i love all of you sm.

9. how many followers do you have?

125. but im sure some of them are p*rn bots and some of them are from when i was really into the mcu so. tww followers are probably less but i will say i am more vocal in tww than i was with the mcu.

10. how many people do you follow?

194! im not actually sure i care about all 194 people but i might? idk i know some of these are remanents of stuff i dont really interact with anymore

11. have you ever made a shitpost?

nope! but i love reblogging them!

12. how often do u use tumblr each day?

uh depends. when i was in the middle of school, not actually that often but now im so burnt out that i can’t really bring myself to do anything so its more often than i should. also i like talking to people so the temptation is high.

13. did you ever fight/argument with another blog? who won?

no i don’t think so! i mean. ive gotten weird anons and annoying commenters on ao3 but i don’t think ive ever straight up gotten in a fight.

14. how do you feel about the “you need to reblog these” posts?

i do not like them at all. and then there are all these other people like ‘hey this actually happened to me!’ and im always like no. it did not happen bc of this post. the universe was smiling upon you but that picture of a goat you reblogged from a deactivated account did not help. they just cause stress and anxiety and i just--ugh. nope.

15. do you like tag games?

yes! see this tag game for example lol.

16. do you like ask games?

yes!! i love asks. they really bond fandoms too, so its not just people throwing their content into the void. asks allow people to get new ideas and get other creator’s thoughts and create relationships and i just. asks are so fun. ask games doubly so.

17. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

idk? im not sure i know anyone? i think within subcategories of a specific fandom there are acknowledged ‘this person is amazing at this kinda fic/ship/trope’ but overall idk? (@claudiasjeancregg you are the queen of cj/toby and @jessbakescakes and @hufflepuffhermione you are both so damn good at josh/donna. @cauldronoflove you’re amazing at samjosh. i know without a doubt i am missing people and ships i care about but seriously. so good.)

18. do u have a crush on a mutual?

nope on account of never having met any of you irl but i love you all (platonically) anyway!

tagging @claudiasjeancregg, @cauldronoflove, @welcometo-yourworld, @hufflepuffhermione, and @jessbakescakes!

#tag games #this was fun!

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unlikecharlie · 3 years

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tagged by my love @mwagneto <3 thank you, baby

why did you choose your url? "si vis pacem para bellum" is the title of a Seether album that i adore, and "para bellum" is from John Wick as well

any sideblog? oh yeah, 4; one is for random shit i dont want on my main, one is for depression venting and stuff, another is for most exclu discourse i dont want on main, and the other one is sth id like to keep to myself akdjfsbdjkgbsd ide use it anymore so ill probably delete it anyway

how long have you been on tumblr? since 2013, but ive only been using it actively since 2015

do you have a queue tag? i did once when i was in the marvel fandom but i havent queued things in ages so no

why did you start this blog in the first place? i heard from someone that tumblr was a good place to find nice, aesthetic pictures so i created an account akdfjbsdkjfbs but i soon got into fandom and stuff and learned to properly use tumblr

why did you choose your icon? oh, my beautiful and talented love, zoe, aka @budgiepaws drew it for me and now ill never use another icon ever again <3

why did you choose your header image? although it's not visible on my blog any longer, my header image is the fallen angel by alexandre cabanel and i chose it because it's one of my favorite paintings :)

what is your post with the most notes? technically, i deleted it but it's this one

how many mutuals do you have? i honestly dont know, and i dont really feel like counting it sorry

how many followers do you have? 2,489

how many people are you following? 53 :) im very selective about who i follow but i also follow a lot of people i dont really have fandoms and stuff in common with simply because we're friends/mutuals

have you ever made a shitpost? one might argue everything i post is a shitpost, but yes i have

how often do you use tumblr? unless im working or otherwise busy with reading/watching something that has my full attention, every day, almost all day akfjadkjfdjkf

did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? love, i was in the marvel fandom, and i was a tony stan at that, what do you think?

how do you feel about the 'you need to reblog this' posts? i fucking hate them, loathe them with my whole being. if you convinced me to reblog your post through the content and then slapped that at the end, i can guarantee you i will NOT reblog no matter how much i agree, simply out of spite

do you like tag games? i adore them and i always love being tagged in them, unless it's games where i have to rank or choose favorite things, cause im usually at a loss and the stress of not only thinking of sufficient things to rank/choose from, but also actually doing it makes me not do them

do you like ask games? i do, i just wish people engaged me in them when i reblog them, thats why i tend not to anymore, its a bit awkward reblogging them and not getting any attention lmao akhsfbadkf

which of your tumblr mutuals you think is famous? not really a mutual since he doesnt follow me back (side eye) but @mwagneto

have you ever had a crush on a mutual? yes, i tend to have crushes on all the people i get to know well, and all my friends, i had a brief crush on chris, as well as zoe akdjbfadjkfbdjkf and another mutual i no longer talk to

tagging: @tinynebula @fronknsteen @selflesslovingdean @1812ad @tennet @bi-scottsummers and ofc everyone else who sees this and wants to do it

#rambling #tagged #tag game

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seijorhi · 4 years

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4 different tag games

Tagged by the incredibly talented and lovely @jackrrabbit - thanks bby!

All of my faves have all been tagged or already done these but if anyone wants to do any/all of these - consider this your tag! 💕

i) go here and make an icon of yourself

ii) list three random facts about yourself

1. I’m Australian but I grew up in Singapore (and I miss it a whole lot)

2. I have a (very useless) degree in Ancient History and I spent three summers overseas doing archaeological digs

3. I am obsessed with whales and sharks - about two years ago I went cage diving with great whites and it was no joke the coolest thing I have ever done

iii) post the first line(s) of a WIP as well as the last line you’ve written so far

First:

“Fifty six.”

Bokuto’s hand slams down a stack of papers onto the desk and sure enough, written in big loopy red handwriting, circled and underlined at the top of the first page is his score - fifty six out of a hundred. Barely a pass.

“I freakin’ killed it!”

Last:

“I honestly don’t care that you chose Karasuno just to spite me. I don’t give a shit that you decided to join their sad little volleyball club as their manager. It doesn’t make a difference what school you go to or what extracurriculars you waste your time with. You’re still mine, so why the fuck do you think I’d be okay with you kissing anybody else?”

iv) answer 10 questions and then ask 10

1. do you believe in astrology or not? what’s your zodiac sign?

I don’t really believe in astrology, but then again I am a Pisces and some of that stuff does fit really well into my personality, so who knows?

2. best book you’ve read in the past five years?

I have not read a proper book in the longest time - but I started Six of Crows a few days ago and I’m really enjoying it so far!

3.what’s the last compliment someone gave you that made you think about yourself differently?

I mean it’s not exactly a compliment but somebody messaged me a while back on one of my other writing blogs and said they loved my fics and wanted to know if I’d do a commission piece for them, which was wild. To me writing has always been a hobby and I don’t really think I’m all that good at it compared to some of the brilliant writers on here - just the thought that somebody thought it was good enough to want to pay for it a) made by day and b) kind of changed the way I look at my writing

4. beer or wine? or neither?

Wine tbh, but I also tend to drink whatever other people around me are drinking so 🤷🏻‍♀️

5. what made you start your blog?

I have two or three other blogs (main and sideblogs) but they’re all geared towards other fandoms/stuff. I’ve been wanting to write some yandere content for bnha for a while and finally got the guts to create a blog to share some stuff and then I fell in love with Haikyuu and naturally being a feral thot, decided to add those characters as well

6. something you learned in school that changed your life (or at least changed your perspective)?

You can be pretty good at something and still hate it (maths) and vice versa, you can kind of suck at something and still find it super fun (art) which is really basic and dumb thing, but it took a while for it to click, and it’s pushed me to spend more time doing the things I love even when I’m objectively bad at them

7. 3 songs that you’ve listened to over and over throughout the years?

My music taste is a bit shit but I like what I like and I’ve been listening to the same stuff for years haha

Famous Last Words by My Chemical Romance

Work Song - Hozier

All Star - Smash Mouth

8. tell me a joke (bonus: make it dirty)

I am shockingly bad at jokes, but here goes:

What do you get when you jingle santa’s balls? A White Christmas I’m so sorry

9. what accent(s) do you like the best?

I am weak for a southern twang. Somebody calls me darlin’ and I will just melt into a puddle. But also any accent really.

10. what does your sleep schedule look like lately?

Haha, who sticks to a sleep schedule? Haha, at the moment it’s been all over the place. Wake up for work 8(ish) and then usually fall asleep somewhere between 2/4am which I’m aware is not healthy or good for me, and then some nights I just crash super early but... yeah... 👀

My 10 questions (if anybody actually wants to do them haha)

What scares you more - the deep ocean or deep space?

Favourite TV show growing up?

Tell me an odd animal fact

Do you believe in ghosts and/or the supernatural?

Do you have any pets?

What’s your perfect date?

If you could work in any job regardless of experience or anything like that, where would you work?

Do you collect anything?

Favourite holiday?

Does pineapple belong on pizza?

#about me #tag meme #tag game #long post #thanks for the tag bby!

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rennegades · 4 years

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I’m in such a mood. I just want to change everything.

I’m choosing to blame my dad because he offered the advice of using my “temporarily laid off time” to find something I like doing better and just get a new job on the other side of this mess and now it’s like. Hmm, maybe I should change all the things? Make myself happy with me again.

Which has so far led to:

dying my hair pure blonde again & not immediately putting “fun” colours in

deciding that yeah. i’m going to get the breast reduction that ive been contemplating for a decade

committing to a pure bred dog because every fucking rescue org is like “this dog is good with cats!” but when you do to the specific animal’s page it’s “lol actually they’ve never met a cat so we don’t know!” and I’d rather my cat not die

tearing the wallpaper off of my basement walls and discovering that it’s all bare drywall and I will have to mud and tape and prep and do about 10x more work than expected

buying lolita fashion for the first time since that disaster in 2008 (2009? shit when did tekuno wear my dress? that happened like a year after the disaster) (okay technically this purchase happened a couple weeks before I got laid off and I spent $500 non-refundable. part of me wishes i hadnt but part of me is going oooooo pretty dress!!)

deciding to tailor all of my clothing to my actual sense of fashion instead of whatever the fuck ive been doing

unfollowing blogs that post way too much political stuff even if they’re real life friends of mine because i use tumblr to escape that stuff thanks

and Im sure there are other things, but my mind is blanking and ive been looking at this post for twenty minutes

and in staring at this post for twenty minutes ive been staring at my username and icon for twenty minutes. ive been feeling disassociated with the name rennegades for awhile now. It’s my brand but. I don’t really like being called renne anymore.

i accept sam because i can feel my great grandfather rolling in his grave every time someone does and that’s fucking hilarious (he swore there would never be another sam in his line because too many of his relatives were named samuel and so was he), so if you know me as sam then. it’s whatever. keep calling me sam.

but honestly i’d prefer my current pen name. which is rivienna. riv is an acceptable short form. if you follow that link you’re going to get hit with a lot of teen wolf self insert fanfic. i’d apologize, but i’m still actively writing it so i’m really not sorry.

anyways. i still want to hold on to rennegades for my art stuff, but I also kinda want to swap it out to a sideblog and use the main blog for fandom stuff again. i miss doing that.

of course that means ya’ll will have to deal with a lot of buffy and teen wolf and star wars and mcu. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

if I could flip a switch and swap primary from rennegades to rivienna i would do it in an instant.

#riv just wants to be happy #the mood swings of the last week and a half are awful

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purge-that-urge-rhackathon · 5 years

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If someone wanted to start writing Rhack, where would you suggest starting? Or rather, what kind of content would you suggest starting with? Sorry for the odd question, been reading Rhack for years but writing it intimidates tf out of me...

Oh goodness my sweetie i’m so flattered you’re asking me, but truth be told, regardless of what it might look like, i am hardly an authority on it xD

The way I started writing rhack? Never played any games (i only just started playing bl2 last june… and only recently completed a first playthrough… and i have zero interest in playing tales or much else ahahah) but i read a lot of the fic out there at the time once rhack art starting hitting my dash and got me interested in them. I mean, who doesn’t see shiny new dolls in the toybox and wanna play with ‘em? Right?

So like, reading a variety of fic set me up to kind of understand the setting (based on what other writers included– i still had never played games at this point/seen any playthroughs at all) so you’re already ahead of the game here. But i wasn’t finding fic of the exact topics/genres that I wanted to read, so i just…. wrote what i couldn’t find/what i specifically wanted to read.

And that’s how Bad Habits came about, and i’ve picked up speed since that first fic haha :3 i wanted some damn hurt/comfort REAL hard but there wasn’t really anything… Hell, at that time everything was still very rhys/holo!jack… which was kinky fab fun but still not exactly filling what i personally wanted to read. So like corporeal jack/rhys wasn’t really a big thing at the time, soooo i wrote it :3

Basically, write what it is you wanna see :D

Take cues from other writers (without plagiarizing… i have been plagiarized in this fandom it aint cool lol) and just have fun with it. That’s how i literally learned xD

If you’re worried about characterization, go listen to their voiceline compilations on youtube to understand speech patterns of how they talk (also how i learned about the characters aside from reading dialogue from other writers).

If you’re worried about antis, just make liberal use of the block button, and you can also lock fics on ao3 to only registered users, which creates accountability. People are less likely to be total dickheads when they’re not anonymous. (Mortgages are scarier than antis, a wise wise writer once said …someone link me the post i know ive reblogged it haha).

Get a beta-reader if you’re not confident in your language abilities (lose vs loose, their/they’re/there, we’re/were, know/now). Lack of paragraph breaks (block text) can be a huge turn-off regardless of content (basically, don’t make any of the mistakes that personally annoy you yourself when you’re reading :D)

On that note, be a little picky about who your beta is. Some people will volunteer for it out of a need to feel important/assert control vs. an actual need to assist. There is a difference, and it can be damaging to your will to write. Get someone you know and trust not to do you dirty (if using a beta. I don’t but… i know things :X).

Play fast and loose with canon all you want. These are digital representations of dolls we’re gonna play house with. They’re not real. None of this shit is. Don’t feel constrained by things. You can switch it up all the fuck you want :)

Write what you know or learn about what you want to write about :3 If you’re not into smut, don’t write it unless you want to. There is an audience for everything. You just need an idea. Also asking on your blog for fic prompts or ideas (and also searching the tags for prompts) can be a great source of inspiration. Whatever you were wishing would happen in a certain fic, well, go write it yourself!

I mean, this is all pretty generic advice even just about starting to write fic in general, so like starting to write rhack? I mean, just do the thing friend.

Block antis, just delete any hate mail (acknowledgement is what they want because they’re sad pathetic fucks) and just dont engage with them, don’t internalize, just DELETE/BLOCK :) I personally haven’t had a problem with antis and i write some weird shit, and fuck im more worried about my next paycheck than what some purity-culture teen has to say about how i play with the community dolls.

So don’t worry, have fun, and if you ARE concerned about certain folks, just start a sideblog for your fic and try not to associate the two accounts (this seems to be the main problem a lot of folks have when beginning to write… vs. the writing itself hahah remove yourself from that position in the first place and youll be grand. And you can always promote your work on your main blog without being like THIS IS MINE. Thats also how this blog got started AHAHAH now i just dgaf) :)

Just… start writing, anon. Write down a particular moment you have stuck in your head that you’ve really been wanting to read. Just that scene right out of your head, no intro or any shit. Just put the scene onto paper and eventually you’ll flesh it into story. :)

#poisonjack answers #personally i tend to write the very end of stories first. Not consciously of course but that tends to be how it happens #and then middle bits come in from certain places #i mean as far as writing processes go... thats mine. Just a crazy hive of bullshit back here that i open a new document and connect later #i write like connecting legos together or somethign hahah. or a puzzle OH this piece goes here copy/paste lol #you do you anon :) just write.

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hesallin · 6 years

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i dont usually do these, but i just hit 100 followers, and i thought maybe some of you might wanna know a little bit about me!!!

tagged by two of my favorite pals, @goodnightfall and @smarterest

name: my god given, christian name is actually sarah, but pretty much everyone on the internet calls me dizzy! feel free to gift me with a horrible nickname, i love those

nickname: i guess i already answered this! i seem to collect shitty nicknames though, so some people call me christmas, some people call me sans (NO!!!! relation to the undertale character you gremlins!!)

gender: female!

star sign: im a scorpio!!

height: 5'5. i am pleasantly average

time: it is 7:08 here in good ol ohio

favorite bands: i dont really listen to bands that much?? im a Theatre Kid™ so mostly just like..... soundtracks but i really like sleeping at last!! also, i keep hearing walk the moon songs i love!

favorite solo artists: hmm. i think i like calum scott a lot?? every time i hear a song of his i like it. sam smith has put out a few things on the radio i like. aah, im not very good at this, im sorry!

song stuck in my head: the fucking. plagues song from prince of egypt. i sent the pestilence and plAGUE UNTO YOUR-

last movie i watched: good question. i go to the movie so much i can never remember!! black panther maybe?

last show i watched: B99 THEY JUST PUT A NEW EP OUT YESTERDAY

when did i create my blog: three weeks ago maybe?? exactly the day i wrote my first fic!!!

last thing i googled: canned bread. dont ask

do i have another blog: yes, several!! this is a sideblog, actually, so youll notice all my notifs come from a different place. my main is mostly just for my poetry

do i get asks: absolutely never but to be fair this is a very new blog!! lots of people just waltz right up to my messages, which makes me weep, i love making friends. youre absolutely free to send me asks though id love to talk to you!! even if its just on anon

why i chose my url: wish i could say theres some deep and beautiful meaning but its just the words "hes all in". felt like that.... really summed up stony, i always really liked that

following: oh my god so many

followers: just hit my first hundred on this blog!! im so excited i could cry!!!!

average hour of sleep: like ten. i go to bed at 9 on school nights lmao. i need a lot of sleep

lucky numbers: hmm. i really like seven, but i dont know if its lucky!

instruments: i play the viola and a little bit of piano. im super musical, but mostly i just sing!!!

what im wearing: LMAO. a yellow adidas jacket, black adidas track pants, and nike shoes because i am whatever the female equivalent of a fuckboy is.

dream job: im gonna be an actor! im a senior in high school, and im going to wku for theatre next year, and im so excited!! its kind of..... my Whole Entire Life, lmao. writing is just something i like to do between rehearsals and stuff!!

dream trip: im going to paris this summer and ive been waiting my entire life so as you can imagine i am. so happy i could burst

fav food: BUBBLE TEA

nationality: american!!

favorite song right now: hm. ive been binging 25th annual putnam county spelling bee right now, which is a musical about... the 25th annual putnam county spelling me lmao! i keep playing "i speak six languages" on repeat, haha

sexuality: im bi!

hogwarts house: proud slytherin

favorite animal: cats!!!

why you got a blog: to meet all of you!!!! ive been reading your work and seeing your posts and gazing upon your glorious art for so long, i wanted to contribute something to the fandom and have a space to share everyone elses ridiculously wonderful stuff!!!! and im just. so remarkably glad i have

i just realized how remarkably long this is, so ill stop here. sorry to anyone who had to scroll past this monster!!

tagging some of the loveliest people: @bardingbeedle @peggycarterrrr @starsandsupernovae @sunnyzhp22 @goodmorningbeloved @ishipallthings @xtaticpearlsblog @arachnaboy @coldnerdytrash

#tag meme #long post #beware!!!!!!!!

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irlcringekin · 7 years

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Callout post: @toroidion @fckhand @mashcores @googledocz @1cm3 @tcnno @tarnmas @p976 @p15s @harmacysts tons of other urls-- SEXUALLY HARASSES AND ASSAULTS OTHER MINORS!!!

I apologize so much for posting this into fandom tags but he’s a Transformers fandom blogger and everyone needs to watch out. First off,

Here’s a list of shit this callout post covers:

him literally SEXUALLY ASSAULTING and SEXUALLY HARASSING MINORS.

him forcing nsfw/kink onto both MINORS and adults.

him being very emotionally manipulative (guilt tripping, threatening suicide to force people to be friends with him, etc.)

SO TW FOR ALL OF THAT.

Here are his blogs:

@38 (current url!!!)

@fckhand (he goes back to this url a lot)

@googledocz (past url)

@8752 (previous url)

@1cm3

@tcnno (a previous url)

@tarnmas (a previous url)

@roughbf (some sort of active sideblog)

@ctdc (an old tfkin group chat he had -- this is where he’s proved to harass people the most!!)

@pcrv (old URL - still online)

@p15s (old URL - still online)

@skrnr (old blog - recently taken by the Woody Collectives)

@breakpng-remade (an old blog when he used to ID as Breakdown)

@harmkin (an old blog he used to stalk people on to send them n.s.f.w)

Past URLs:

toroidion

incelreaper

magistream

oddcorn

harmacysts

harmacysts-remade

ctnet

cybertronnet

breakdovvn

breakpng

skrnr

soliqsnake

paralons

Names he goes by to watch out for:

Pharma

Para / Paralon

Docs

Griev

Grim

Ten

Break(down)

He’s a minor himself but that does NOT excuse him from literally sexually assaulting other minors and putting them in danger within multiple group chats.

Please PLEASE PLEASE REBLOG IF YOU CAN!

Note: some people in this post are kin with certain characters. If someone is using a character name, it’s because of that. Don’t attack them about this.

Note: those whose names/urls/etc. are not censored gave FULL PERMISSION to be included and not censored in this post.

Note: again, this person is indeed a minor too (which doesn’t excuse him at all) but please do not harass him. Block him and spread the word to protect other minors!

He sexually assaults other minors:

It’s been my personal experience of being with him in group chats that many times he has just been asked to stop talking nsfw/kink because he’s a minor or it just made people/other minors uncomfortable. However, most of the time, he either refused or said he’d stop... only to continue. That’s all I’ve experienced. This obviously isn’t enough to warrant a callout post, however...

HE HAS RECENTLY WENT SO FAR AS TO MASTURBATE WHILE ON CALL WITH A MINOR (15) WHO WAS TOO FUCKING SCARED TO TELL HIM TO STOP.

I’ve been given permission by the person he assaulted to say who they are: it was @t4ilgate he assaulted.

It started off with someone messaging me about it:

Note that @/harmacysts aka @fckhand (now @toroidion) fakes being a system in order to get out of most of the shit he starts. Ie. “oh my other alter did that, not me, so I can’t take responsibility for my actions!”

I later got proof of his sexual assault and harassment on a tumblr user by the URL of @t4ilgate (again, permission was given to make their url public):

JUST BECAUSE THIS PERSON DIDNT SAY NO AND FELT PRESSURED INTO IT, DOESNT MEAN ITS OK. THIS WAS FORCED UPON THEM. THEY LITERALLY SAY THAT THEY DIDNT SAY NO BECAUSE THEY WERE TOO FUCKING SCARED TO SPEAK UP.

He later tried to defend them not speaking up as them “giving consent”:

“They should not have given me the slightest consent if they didn’t want it” SILENCE AND FEAR IS NOT CONSENT.

“i gave them the option to say no multiple times” THEY WERE TOO SCARED OF YOU TO SAY NO. ALSO ACCORDING TO THEM,

YOU DIDNT AT ALL.

“I’m genuinely trying to get better” YOU WOULDNT FORCE NSFW/KINKS AND YOURSELF ONTO OTHER MINORS IF YOU ACTUALLY WERE.

And here it is CONFIRMED that they were pressured and scared/forced into this shit:

[ @/t4ilgate: i really tried to hint at trying to make things slow down when he started getting too sexual with me. he just kept asking and asking me until i just felt really pressured to just agree. he really took advantage of me, especially since i had something really similar like this happen before, i was distressed abt upsetting him. he kept asking me over and over how i was feeling, and asking me if i knew what he was feeling and doing. he kept insisting that i should be blunt whenever he did.

(name redacted): god - im so sorry you had to go through that ]

Again allow me to emphasize:

“he just kept asking and asking me until i just felt really pressured to just agree. he really took advantage of me, especially since i had something really similar like this happen before, i was distressed abt upsetting him.”

And in response to his “public apology”:

[ @/t4ilgate: HAHAHAHA W O W OK THEN - 'consent' oh, you mean, constantly badgering me until my 'i dont know, im not sure' turns into '....ok' - 70% of the call was spent doing sexual activities he spent so long trying to convince me to do. - get fucked. ]

HE DID THIS WITHOUT CONSENT AND EXCUSED EVERYTHING WITH “but... [after i intensely pressured and forced them into it] they barely said ok so it’s consensual!”

BADGERING SOMEONE UNTIL THEY GIVE IN IS NOT CONSENT. YOU ARE A FUCKING SEXUAL ASSAULTER AND YOU’VE POTENTIALLY TRAUMATIZED A MINOR FOR YOUR OWN SEXUAL GRATIFICATION.

I hope you have fun living with this knowledge for the rest of your life.

And here’s him being asked to leave, saying he’s “so sorry” for sexually assaulting someone, (note: the person telling him to leave says that he’s done this to MULTIPLE PEOPLE SO HE IS A REPEATED OFFENDER AND DANGER):

As you can see, him asking “are you sure you want me to leave [after sexually assaulting a member of your chat]” outright shows that he’s not even considerate of how others feel LET ALONE THE PERSON HE ASSAULTED. He asks after sexually assaulting someone if they really want him to leave. Which, no shit asshole who WOULDNT want you to leave.

As a trauma survivor myself, this utterly disgusts me that this person @/harmacysts aka @fckhand (now @38) who is also the owner of @/ctnet would go so far as to WILLINGLY TRAUMATIZE ANOTHER MINOR FOR SEXUAL GRATIFICATION.

That’s cocsa even if it’s not physical or in-person, it’s still a form of sexual assault and harassment and I feel so fucking bad for the person (people?) he’s sexually harassed.

It gets worse!!!!

HE ALSO MADE A BLOG ABOUT THIS POOR MINOR AND HIS SEXUAL FANTASIES ABOUT THEM AND HARASSED THEM ON THERE TOO

Apparently this has happened BEFORE with other people as well many times:

[@/t4ilgate: -and really sexually affectionate, but i never knew he’d do that w/out asking me first - YEAH - like he even made a nsfw vent blog to talk about him lusting over me and just feels so bad and wrong i hate it i hate it

(name redacted): he did that to us too

@/t4ilgate: the url used to be harmkin - seriously???

(name redacted): he used to have a blog called fakegimmick and he’d vague about wanting to fuck us (all 17+ year olds) all the time

@/t4ilgate: that’s so fucking sick holy shit i never knew

(name redacted): and he’d even send us the links to the shit he’d vague - it was so fucking uncomfortable - he even made fun of sex-repulsion]

Him making nsfw blogs to literally stalk and harass other minors sexually and to talk about them sexually is fucking creepy. He was asked to stop multiple times but DID NOT EVER STOP. This is harassment, this is cocsa, and this is disgusting.

If that wasn’t enough, then here’s more of what he’s done:

UPDATE!! -- his new url has changed to @38 !

@tcnno used to be a previous url (proof):

[ like… i know ive been denying everything this whole time but… the person that was called out is in our system. im a newer host. i tried to get away from the whole thing because im a coward but that’s irrelevant. the point is that im letting go of my role as host and Pharma is taking that. if anyone is uncomfortable just leave the server its all fine. i doubt im going dormant but we’ll see. im really sorry i have to do this everything is too much for me to handle right now.

if anyone wants anything cleared out just ask. pharma is here with me so he can ask questions as well.

by the way feel free to screenshot that because im not hiding anymore.

oh and if you dont know whats going on just… ((link to the callout against him)) yeah. he doesnt do that kind of shit anymore and is getting better but still if anyone is uncomfortable, feel free to cut contact ] --- source (tcnno)

please note that he has excused his manipulative and abusive behavior and even the fact that he has sexually harassed a minor with his “system” and “headmates” before!!!!!

He has said MANY TIMES that he has “changed”!!

this is normal manipulative behavior for him. please do not fall for it! he is STILL VERY MUCH A DANGER!!

and he’s since then moved to @1cm3 as stated on his blog:

and from this blog you can find a url trail from 1cm3 to @incelreaper and then back to the old @fckhand and over to @arknights and over to @mashcores and then to @googledocz where he deleted most of his content and then to 8752 where he seems to go back to the url @fckhand a lot where he admitted he was googledocz. he is now @38

UPDATE: HE JOKES ABOUT SEXUALLY HARASSING PEOPLE AND ADMITS HE DOESNT FEEL BAD ABOUT WHAT HE DID!

I guess he saw the callout post and all he did was make jokes about it and thus him sexually harassing people:

and then even say he “feels bad but also not”:

He forces nsfw/kink onto both other minors and adults:

Many people have come to me telling me that in all of the group chats he runs and/or is in, he has tried to force nsfw/kink shit onto minors MANY TIMES.

The below pictures in this next part include him going so far as to force nsfw/kink onto his old ex datemate. He’s went so far as to completely ignore their boundaries and they make commentary here and there about how scared they were (tw for vaguely nsfw implied text - but nothing outright nsfw):

[ @/harmacysts: we still have that thing you suggested - we should do that eventually.

--- A note from his ex who we’ll call “Tracer”: I didn’t suggest it. ]

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[ @/harmacysts: well i just remembered a thing from our past and im-

“Tracer”: ???????

Harmacysts: try to guess

--- A note from his ex: here im playing along bc im too scared to do anything else ]

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and here is where his ex datemate tried to LEAVE THE SITUATION but he kept forcing it further:

Nothing is outwardly nsfw but his ex is clearly very VERY uncomfortable and tries to literally escape the situations he puts them in MULTIPLE TIMES to the point where they feel SCARED of him.

There were also a few other instances of him forcing nsfw/kink onto people:

He has posted pictures of himself wearing a collar in a group chat he used to be in. This made a lot of people very uncomfortable as he’s a minor so they had to delete the pic he sent. During the time he was wearing it/sent the pic, he kept talking about how “age regressed” he was and then later on called his age regression “pet regression” (possible fetishization of age regression and trauma?)

After being called out about it, instead of apologizing and trying to make things better, he deleted most of the shit he sent and ran from the situation and left the group chat, unable to take people telling him to stop posting nsfw things.

Most of it was deleted including the picture he posted, but here is where he sent it:

note: NO ONE told him to send it and NO ONE told him that it was ok to. Here’s proof that they did not encourage him AT ALL and even told him to NOT post it:

and here’s the aftermath of it where, when being talked to about it and asked to stop in a calm manner, he immediately guilt trips the person telling him to stop:

[caption:

(Name redacted): I apologize but you didn’t have to leave. All I was asking was for you to not post such things into a chat with adults and - Yeah a few people have also mentioned that it made them incredibly uncomfortable as well as adults. I also don’t understnad the issue with me asking you to not post such things, and for adults to be informed of you being a minor.

Harmacysts: no its just best im not there at all]

However, after that, he once again began to force collars and kink shit onto people DESPITE BEING TOLD TO STOP MULTIPLE TIMES:

Here’s where people tell him to stop:

Note, these are taken from multiple group chats,

[ (name redacted): you NEED TO STOP POSTING THIS SHIT its making so many people uncomfortable and youre a MINOR. this isnt an nsfw chat. this is a sfw chat. and even if we did allow nsfw, YOURE A MINOR YOU NEED TO FUCKING STOP OR ELSE WE’RE GOING TO BOOT YOU FOR GOOD, OK? ]

[ (name redacted): pleasee stop this is really uncomfortable im a minor and i dont wanna see this stuff.... please??? idc if youre a minor too i want you to stop!! ]

He’s made EVERYONE both minors and adults uncomfortable. He forces nsfw/kink shit onto minors. He forces it onto adults too. No matter how much people ask him to stop, he doesn’t.

He’s caused multiple minors harm and has even triggered quite a few of them into panic attacks with his blatant sexual harassment.

I can’t stress it enough that even though he’s a minor himself, THIS IS NOT OK --- LET ALONE THE FACT THAT HE SEXUALLY ASSAULTED ANOTHER MINOR!!

He’s very emotionally manipulative:

Here are some accounts of him emotionally manipulating, guilt tripping, threatening suicide, and even trying to break relationships up out of jealousy.

This will be a mixture of people’s encounters with him and screenshots of what he’s said/done.

[ (name redacted): one of the only things that made me stay and wait for him to get better was the fact he used to guilt trip me with "i think i would have kms if i hadn't ever met you" which made me feel important but burdened WITH A FUCKING HUMAN LIFE ]

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[ (Name redacted #1): all he said when i once commented about the age difference between his first two relationships i knew of was "i can see why it's not everyone's thing" like................. hey

(Name redacted #2): oh my god

(Name redacted #3): so he perpetuates gross age gaps - also he’s still shoving his nsfw kink talk into minor’s faces - he’s doing it in other group chats

(Name redacted #4): UGh ]

so he advocates and even perpetuates for adult/minor and age-gap relationships.

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a few emotionally manipulative and guilt-trippy things he’s said but nothing too serious to warrant a callout post by itself, but it’s still something to include to show his general behavior:

(he apparently used to go by this name and icon in a different chat)

EDIT as of 21/01/2018: since then, he has been changing to numerous URLs, FULLY PRETENDING TO BE OTHER PEOPLE, and trying to drag new people into his shit. He’s hurt even more people according to a few sources and STILL tries to excuse his actions with weak apologies and saying that he “has changed and improved”:

[[ Pharmy boy (aka harmacysts/fckhand -- now @toroidion): yeah ik its really bad but if you need an apology/explanation or something i can provide one? just first off its been 5 months since everything Happened. ive improved a lot since then and i dont condone those types of things at all. it was very stupid of me and i take all the responsibility for it. i mightve been 14 at the time but that doesnt take away how bad it is. ((continued))--

I am trying my best. So first off yeah I did do sexual things on call with another person when i hadnt been given a proper answer, and i did pressure them into it. I admit that. I didnt mean to hurt them, I genuinely thought it was ok, but now i know better. i do feel very guilty for what i did. ill be more careful in the future and am sure to not repeat the same thing ever again.

then theres me talking about nsfw when people were telling me to stop. obviously thats not a right thing to do either, as everyone was clearly uncomfortable with it. i wont repeat that either, and will look after it myself.

theres also me blaming things on alters, and not taking responsibility for what they mightve done. i dont remember exactly what happened but from now on im sure to take note of what they do and apologize for them. ((note: he is NOT an actual system, does not have DID, and only started to claim to be one after he got friends who also claimed to be systems))

ive also bee manipulative in the past, and ive taken note of it. i used to guilt trip people and say shit like “no one loves me and youre lying” etc etc but i promise i will not do that again.

the only time i ever did stuff like that was the ones mentioned, i havent done the same before, and neither will i do it again. ((false: he has done many more things that weren’t documented due to him deleting messages after he was told off or called out))

sorry thats a bit sloppy.

but like. i promise ive improved, and i still am. ill continue to improve from now on as well, you can give me a chance to prove that if you so desire.

bottomtron: sorry but, literally, i cant. my abuser of 3 years that ruined my life was like this and i even physically lived with him. im sure youll get better in time but 5 months isnt long and my gut tells me to just do what i feel is right. so i hope you have a good run in life and you do get better. ]]

however, despite harmacysts/fckhand’s claims, he actually HAS NOT changed and continues to sexually harass and perhaps even groom other minors:

plus it should be quite obvious that 5 months is barely enough time, especially since there has been little difference in his behaviour.

Small edit as of 2018/07/30 --- fckhand (now @38) proves that he STILL has not changed and does not care about nor respect any of his friends’ decisions to leave him after they find out what he has done.

He has no changed, will not change, and refuses to respect peoples’ decisions even after claiming for ages now that he does. He is lying.

TLDR --- this person @fckhand (now @38) literally sexually harassed another minor under the guise that their silence and fear was consent. He pressured them into it and harmed them. He’s extremely manipulative and toxic and is KNOWN to force nsfw/kink onto other minors. since then, he has been lying and trying to worm his way back into fandoms and people’s lives.

again do not harass him but by all means please reblog this post, block him, and tell others!

#fckhand #38 #callout #callout post

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nardaviel · 7 years

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tagged by @cupkayke :o (SORRY i just noticed the tag didn’t work when i first posted this asl;jkfasdf)

Rule: Tag nine followers you’d like to know better.

Name: libby

Star sign: taurus

Average hours of sleep: 9-12 tbh

Lucky number: 4 because when i was like 11 or 12 i found it showing up a lot in my life so i was like hm, i guess if i believed in lucky numbers 4 would be it. and so now its 4. also something about it is pleasing to me

Last thing I googled: "steve bannon gold farming” because my dad told me but i couldnt quite believe it

Favourite Fictional Character: literally too many to list. from boueibu which is my current fandom, en+atsushi+kinshirou. from death note and dragon age, previous fandoms that ive been on tumblr for, light and L, and then ...?!?!?! too many to list from dragon age alone. if i HAD to choose a favorite from each game it would be sten, fenris, and dorian

What are you wearing right now: polka dot pajama pants, the shirt from this selfie, white socks w/ cute colored stripes on the bottom

When did you start this blog: i think i had to look this up for another of these things (or maybe the same thing lmao maybe ive done this meme before) and iirc the answer was early 2012

What do I post: fandom stuff and miscellaneous things that i like. occasional personal posts which have better than even odds of getting deleted soon afterward

Do I run any more blogs: i have a writing blog? the 2015 advent calendar blog is a sideblog but i havent touched it since december 2015

Do I get a lot of asks: nah. i would say i get a moderate amount of tumblr IMs but thats not really the same

Why did I choose this URL: when i was 13(12? 14? idk smth like that) i decided that i wanted to have one username i could use everywhere. i was into tolkien at the time so i looked up words in the back of the silmarillion, stuck them together, snipped off the end of one so that i liked it better, and then stuck -viel on the end because in my head that made it sound like an elf womans name. and thus was born nardaviel, or “fire shadow elf” in bastardized elvish. i would change it now but its my username everywhere and its pretty as long as u dont know the embarrassing backstory. also theres no chance anyone will have taken it before me on any new website i go to

...im tagging @serurianouji @lidoxia @vashtijoy @otakushrew and anyone else who wants to do it idk i dont want to think of 9 people

#1 #2 #3 #4 #5 #meme

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elvesofnoldor · 7 years

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got tagged by @jedihighcouncil (thanks! Sorry this is a little late haha)

Nickname: my mom has 234802394 unofficial nicknames for me and they are all...technically...in Chinese. she has one official nickname for me and its also in Chinese. Star sign: cancer Height: 5′7? (idk i should be b/w 1.69-1.70cm lol. i’d like to think im 1.70cm) Time right now: 10:25pm Last thing I Googled: star wars rebels season 1 Song stuck in my head: i have no idea what is called :\ Favorite music artists: im never too passionated abt musicians (these composers doing classical music in 19th century r exceptions lol). I’d say Leslie cheung but i genuinely hate these trashy ass mf canto pop songs :\\\ I like indie shits that features poc as band members, so im gonna go with....Bloc party? There is also this black canadian artist that goes with the name of “cold specks” and i luv her stuff too! I’ve been playing her songs on this radio show ive been doing cause i only aimed to feature indie songs from artists of colour or bands consisted of mainly artists of colour. Speaking of which, I actually played one of the songs Oscar isaac covers in inside llwyen davis on the show too lmao, so i guess Oscar Isaac can count too??? If i gotta go with an established mainstream musician i’d go with Sia. Last movie I watched: logan ( it could be “kubo and the two strings” tho) When did you create your blog: September 2013 Currently wearing: black to white gradient leggings, long sleeve shirt with a hoodie, black socks Blog content: mostly star wars now, movies and a few tv shows. Obviously theres joke posts, a few bizzare shit posts, too much personal posts and some social justice content Other blogs: i have a leslie cheung sideblog but that blog has been inactive for over a year cause i decided to only post original content on there and...its been very hard for me to open photoshop to do edits and gifs and graphics these days :((( Do you get asks regularly: not at all tbh lol i used to get moderate amount of asks when i was in spn fandom Why did you choose your url: i love poe and i want to make my url related to his name! I also couldn’t think of something artsy to go with “poe” or “dameron”...well i could, but im not satisfied with any of urls i came up with so i resort to make a url that sounds as close i can get to his full name. Also I kinda want my url to be unmistakably... “star wars”? Gender: cis girl Hogwarts house: pottermore sorts me into ravenclaw?? But honestly im not sure if im hufflepuff or ravenclaw and i dont really care Pokemon team: UM! the blue one??? i forgot lol its been a while Favorite color: i always say “blue”, or “sapphire” for this kind of question, but honestly? blue gets boring for a while, lilac is probably my 2nd fav Average amount of sleep: ...LOL! who the heck knows?? 5-6? These days i woke up at 6 or 7am and then fell asleep till 10, 11 or even 12 a lot sooooo Dream job: I would love to be an indie filmmaker making documentaries or fictional narratives but I also like to survive in a capitalist society! There r literally filmmakers out there who wins awards at film festivals but couldn’t pay their goddamn rent! Captalism is evil my dudes! Even awards don’t pay then what if you don’t get awards! I’d also want to be a prof specialized in transnational Chinese cinema or whatever, but do i wanna get a phd after getting my masters tho? Also there aren’t that many universities out there with positions in humanities programs, and im not as scholarly as I should be. Tbh i love screenwriting, I’d probably try to write for feature films or maybe even tv shows, cause filmming on set is exhausting as fuck and i aint got the brains and passions for considering logistics as a director.

tagging @sammywilson, @platanochips, @poefinn, @scoundrelhan @fineiljosten, @skygualker, @softdameron, @bodhiroks @jewneto (no pressuring in doing this guys!! Also while im pretty sure none of u mentions not wanting to be tagged in tag games, if you actually don’t like to be tagged, just tell me so i wouldn’t do it again <3)

#tag #yolanda talks #previous url: Crownlesscas #long post for ts

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