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#thank you so much it’s beautiful beyond words ahh
the-darklings · 2 years
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Only answer to a groggy Dream? is cold, wet nose poking Wanderer's cheek and louder purring. Little heated motor, keeping Wanderer warm and safe.
Screaming, crying and throwing up about this oh my god!!!! That feeling when something is so warm and sweet it makes your chest hurt? Yeah that’s this. I couldn’t get this out of my head all day so have a little funky sketch of what I imagine in my head. Wanderer low key based off my bedhead 😅
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MY HEART 😭🤧
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aziraphales-library · 8 months
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first off TYSM FOR THIS ACC AHH ITS BEEN SO HELPFULL <3
do you know any fics with touch-starved Crowley struggling to get used to the amount of affection Aziraphale shows him?
anyways love you all byee
We have a #touch starved tag that you will want to check out! Here are more fics to add to the collection...
Demons need hugs too by apeiiron (NR)
The thought of losing Aziraphale, his one constant, his one love, his everything, is too much to bear. Crowley wants to hold him more than anything, but he's too intimidated by the what-ifs to try. Aziraphale did it for him.
My Dear and Only Love by Sarah_hadeschild (G)
“I like your hands,” he said, plainly. Aziraphale huffed out a laugh. “Do you?” “‘Always have.” Aziraphale regarded him for a moment as recognition dawned on him. The things was, Crowley loved to grandstand. He loved to act braver than he was— more callous. That way, when things went awry, he had no one to blame for it but himself. Aziraphale knew this. And because of it, he knew that if he didn’t look out for Crowley’s heart, then no one would. AKA Thanks to a well-timed Valentine's gift, a touch-starved Crowley is about to get everything he desires. Well, almost everything.
Charred Feathers by KannaOphelia (T)
The wings burst through, a flurry of feathers and ripping fabric. “Damn. Thought they’d be enough room. That was a Tom Ford under-vest, would have cost me eighty quid if I’d actually bought it.” “Of course you stole it, you vile fiend,” Aziraphale said automatically, staring at Crowley’s well-groomed wings. They were black, and tidy, but it wasn’t a pure, midnight black. More a very dark, almost shabby grey, for all their beautiful condition. He was beginning to have a horrible suspicion about those wings. He reached out, and very gently brushed his fingertips through one, not letting any healing power through yet. “Made it. Y’know.” Crowley mimed snapping his fingers. “You’re wearing knock-off flannels?” Aziraphale demanded, tone high with outrage. He let his other hand come to the other wing, stepping closer, as Crowley snorted with laughter. Aziraphale had been right. Crowley’s feathers were smooth and perfect and undamaged, and at the same time, they were charred black by fire.
The Touch of Your Hand by EdosianOrchids901 (T)
After a moment of casual contact in Rome, Crowley realizes that he’s touch-starved. He dreams about holding Aziraphale’s hand or—even better—hugging him. But Aziraphale is an angel, and Crowley is a demon. And demons don’t deserve hand holding or hugs…do they?
Velocity by dragon_with_a_teacup (T)
Aziraphale can sense Affection whenever that emotion is near. Yet he has never looked for it within himself whenever Crowley is near. It should be impossible, an angel feeling such things for a demon; why, then, would it have occurred to him to look? Why would he have thought to analyze his bond with Crowley—a bond forged throughout the centuries through a convenient work arrangement—for anything beyond mere camaraderie? Yet now, his favorite angelic ability turns inward for the first time, and at last, he sees: He’s been such a fool.
An Exercise In Trust by organizechaos (T)
It’s been eleven years since Armageddon and Heaven and Hell have been conspiring to restart it. Meanwhile, Aziraphale and Crowley moved in together, got married, and are overall really happy. When their former bosses finally confront them — attacking with an object that will take centuries worth of memories from the ineffable pair — something goes a little wrong in the process… Crowley takes the full hit. (Basically, it’s just about +37,000 words worth of Crowley being a confused mess at why Aziraphale’s finally reciprocating his love)
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AHH THEYRE OPEN!!! EEEEE
Could I request for your 🌹valentines event🌹 the prompt voice with Solomon with a GN MC? He’s heard their voice for a long time giving him encouragement and praise but he’s long since given up actually meeting them. They meet during the exchange program and he immediately recognizes their voice.
I’ve never heard of the soulmate voice scenario before so I’m realty looking forward to how you pull it all together! I love your works and am really excited for this event! Thank you so much for sharing your writing!💖💖💖💖💖
Solomon - Voice
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Solomon x GN! reader
Prompt: The voice in their head is their soulmate’s voice
AN: Hi Ivy!! Thank you for your sweet words, I'm really glad you like what I do! 💕 I'm so sorry about the wait on this request, but I suppose better late than never! I really got in a groove writing this, and uh...it's a little more hurt/comfort than I expected it to be, so I hope that's okay. Thank you for being patient and I hope you enjoy! 😊
Warnings: Slight hurt/comfort, mimics how you meet Solomon in the OG but diverges a tad.
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The cool night air whipped through Solomon’s hair gently as he leaned out of the open window. His eyes had grown tired from hours of combing through the weathered pages of an ancient tome he’d miraculously gotten his hands on, so he decided to take a small break to rest them. The sooner he did that, the quicker he’d be back at his desk furiously devouring the magical literature the book had to offer. 
Bleary eyes flicked lazily across the landscape of the soft city nightlife beyond his walls. He’s not in the thick of it, but sometimes he listens just to feel included. The distant sounds of horns honking, the gentle clicks of heels on the street below him as two friends pass by with gossip juggled between them, even the smelling the cheap, greasy pizza from one of the restaurants nearby. It’s all something that eludes him. Like an inside joke he’s not allowed in on…
“I hope you’re doing okay…”
Solomon perks upon hearing the soft, almost solemn voice in his head. It had started just a few short decades ago, popping up occasionally to say hello or to spout some words of encouragement. He was aware he was hearing the voice of his soulmate, but it seemed hard for him to let go of his reservations and interact with them. He knew it would never last, and he’d never meet them. So, he keeps his mind quiet like he always does, not wanting to give them false hope.
And it seemed he was disappointing them further by not responding yet again, hearing a soft sigh before speaking again.
“Sometimes I wonder if you’re even there. Maybe I’m talking to nobody...”
He wishes you were – or at least someone that wasn’t him.
“But it’s almost as if I can feel your presence. You exist. I know it.”
Oh, he exists, alright. Longer than he thinks you could ever fathom. How the universe could’ve paired such a patient soul to his jaded one is a mystery to him. It’s curious how you’re able to sense him too. If he didn’t know any better, he’d think you had some magical prowess as well – however small that may be. 
“Are you looking at the same moon I am? It’s so bright and beautiful tonight… A full moon.”
The sorcerer’s ancient eyes slowly move to the moon hanging above the city, where the skyscrapers seem to just brush its surface. It’s the same moon he’s looked at for centuries, the one thing that’s stayed constant in his eternal life. Tonight’s moon seems to glow a hair brighter than usual. Perhaps it’s a super moon playing with his perception. Either way, he basks in her maternal essence all the same. 
It grows quiet in his mind and Solomon assumes his soulmate is lost in the moment, just as he is. Whether it’s due to the moon’s company illuminating his figure perched on the windowsill or because of the presence that has wriggled their way into his thoughts, he doesn’t feel as alone tonight.
The minutes drag on with nothing more from his soulmate, so he takes this as a sign his break is over. With a long, drawn out sigh, he pushes himself off the windowsill before shutting the window and pulling the curtains closed. He takes slow strides back to his desk, stretching his back muscles before he inevitably hunches over the tome until his body gives out to exhaustion. The old, rickety chair creaks beneath him as the hard wood already begins to gnaw away at his bum. Though he pays no mind to the mild pain as he aims to jump right back into the marked pages he’d left open on his desk. 
“Take care of yourself.” 
It’s the last thing he hears right before his eager eyes can reach a word on either of the sprawled out pages. That gentle reminder causes his heart to ache in guilt knowing he should do better to take care of himself, yet...he’s too consumed with his life’s work to try harder. With a slight shake of his head to rid himself of those feelings, he plunges right back into the mystical tome. 
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The halls of RAD bustle with first-day gossip shared between demon cliques about the newly implemented exchange program and the exchange students that came with it.
Solomon, who keeps to himself against one of the walls to blend in with the crowd, hears the names of his angelic dorm mates, as well as his own, bouncing around as if it were a game of Hot Potato. It’s the typical fare of “that sorcerer, Solomon, is one of the exchange students this year” and “watch out for that guy, you know he’s a bit of a shady fellow.” Every other word that’s been tacked onto his persona is spit out with a venomous hiss. 
Powerful. Shady. No good. Hardly human. Sorcerer... Solomon, Solomon, Solomon.
He’s heard them so many times he’s started to believe there might be merit behind the sentiments. 
Beyond that, he’s also heard a few rumors about the second human exchange student. Due to the quickly buzzing word, the clever sorcerer had already caught wind of their name and a few other interesting details, like how Mammon had been appointed as the “human babysitter.” Solomon couldn’t help but chuckle to himself when he’d first heard that. Mammon as a babysitter of anything, let alone a fellow human… That’s rich. 
“I should run…” 
Solomon’s brow raises sharply, almost instantly, upon hearing that phrase in his head. What an odd thing for his soulmate to say. They hadn’t spoken much to him in the past few weeks, apart from some nerves about something they never fully divulged to him, but for this to be the first thing in a while is concerning to say the least. It may not even be a conscious effort as the panic of the voice in his head is quite obvious.
“That’s what Mammon said to do…” 
Mammon? How does this person…
It’s then that Solomon notices a timid looking human in the middle of the hall, their eyes casting side to side as a few groups of demons seem to eye them dangerously. The sorcerer’s feet move faster than his thoughts and he’s suddenly in front of the human with a friendly grin on his lips.
“Hey, you there.” 
He watches you startle at his sudden appearance, your phone slipping through your fingers and clattering on the floor as you just stare at him with anxiety practically radiating off you. It seems you’re opting for the freeze response from how on edge you are around him. He automatically feels guilty for scaring you so terribly, but he understands why. 
Slowly, as to not spook you further, he crouches down to pick up your phone, doing a quick check to make sure it’s not damaged as he rises back to his normal height. 
“This belongs to you. I saw you drop it just now,” he hands it out to you, chuckling as he does. “You should be lucky it didn’t crack.” 
He watches you glance down to his outstretched hand before slowly taking your phone from him. Your fingers brush lightly against his, sending a chill up his spine. For it being just a minuscule touch, it felt so natural. 
A small appreciative smile eases your frightened features. Though he can tell you’re still tentative. “Thank you.” 
Solomon’s heart skips a beat as he recognizes the voice instantly. He stills momentarily, though not enough to seem like he’d lost composure...but internally, he was flustered. The previous phrases he’d heard in his head suddenly made sense now. Before he gets completely ahead of himself, he decides to converse with you further to confirm his suspicions. 
“My name’s Solomon. I’m an exchange student from the human world, just like you.” 
Your fears instantly seem to vanish upon learning that he’s not one of the demons wanting to cause you harm. “Ah, well, that’s a relief. It’s nice to meet you then.” 
You give a quick introduction of yourself as well. The name he’d heard whispered among others earlier rolled off your tongue in the same kind voice he’s had in his head for decades. It doesn’t seem you realize the situation yet, but how could you? He never spoke to you… You didn’t know what he sounded like. If he had known meeting you wasn’t a slim to none chance, maybe he would’ve asked how your day was, reminded you to hydrate or study, or just said hi. 
The sorcerer makes his mind up pretty quickly – he’d make it up to you once he reveals the true nature of your special connection. 
Even now, he’s realizing you’re more than just a stranger to him. You were the kind words he couldn’t give himself, the reasoning he was blind to, and the connection he thought was best to deny. 
You were the sound he was lonely without.
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archiveikemen · 4 months
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『 Dark If 』 Story Event: Epilogue
Jude Jazza
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Note: This epilogue is a continuation of the Premium END story.
And so, Sleeping Beauty fell asleep for 100 years due to her curse.
She was awakened by a true love’s kiss from a prince, and they lived happily ever after. —
Kate: … I wasn’t kissed by a prince.
I muttered while recalling a passage from the original story of Sleeping Beauty I read back in England.
Ellis: What’s the matter?
Kate: Ah, it’s nothing, just… did my father or any soldiers try breaking into this castle while I was asleep?
Upon waking up, I was informed that my father had passed away while I was asleep.
His passing weighed on my heart for some time, because I felt that I was unfilial for not being there during his final days.
However, I was able to better cope with my feelings after paying a visit to his grave
Besides… I had to be considerate of Jude, who cursed me and took me away from my father, and was still hated and greatly feared 100 years later by the entire country.
(I don’t want to make him regret saving me.)
That was why I never asked for any details on the matter, but it suddenly started troubling me again lately.
Ellis: Ahh… come to think of it, I think I remember something like that happening.
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Ellis: I drove them all away under Jude’s instructions.
Kate: What…?
Ellis: I did try my best to have them leave as unharmed as possible.
Ellis: But it seems that the ones who came while I was away were flayed by Jude and thrown out.
Ellis: Some of them were even left hanging outside for a while.
It was possible that all the princes who attempted to get to me were defeated by the fairy of the thorn castle and his assistant, the thorn.
(In order for this world to have a happy ending…)
(Perhaps someone from this world has to kiss me to wake me up from my sleep.)
“There is something missing in this world” — those words had been bothering me for a while.
(But…)
(If I have to kiss someone other than Jude… I'd rather this world remain twisted.)
Kate: … Thank you for protecting me.
Ellis: Nah, don’t mention it.
Jude: You haven’t paid for that service yet.
Kate: ! Welcome back, Jude.
My heart instantly started racing the moment I heard that voice.
I sprang up from the couch and ran to Jude.
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Jude: You don't have to come sprinting towards me every single time. What are you, a dog?
Jude muttered dismissively and sat down on the couch.
It had been a few months since I woke up from my sleep, and I was still very much in love with him.
Kate: … I can’t help it when I miss you so much.
Jude: Yeah, yeah, how nice.
The way Jude treated me was as though I were a little girl.
(... I want him to see me as a grown woman.)
(Could it be that he thinks the difference between our mental ages is too big, because I was asleep for 100 years…?)
I still wore the collar he gave me back when we first met.
He told me that I could take it off whenever I wanted, because it wasn’t really something that could blow my head off.
But I found joy in the thought that this collar connected me to him in some way, so I couldn't bring myself to remove it.
— On nights when I had difficulty falling asleep, I would sneak into Jude’s study.
(These piles of books… they were all for finding a cure to my illness.)
While I did find Jude’s spiteful nature endearing, I yearned for him to look at me beyond my illness and as a person.
(I wonder if right now, Jude only sees me as nothing more than free labour and someone who’s repaying a debt they owe him.)
(I mean, of course I’m genuinely trying to be helpful towards him as I promised to and I’m more than happy to help, but…)
(I’m asking for too much, aren’t I? This just isn’t nearly enough for me.)
A suffocating feeling of hopelessness overwhelmed me.
(... This room smells like Jude.)
The love overflowing in my heart was making my body throb and heat up.
Kate: Jude…
I touched my lips.
(I don’t need a prince to kiss me. But…)
Kate: … Will you finally notice me… if we kiss?
Jude: I was just thinking it's admirable that you’re holed up in the study night after night to read…
Jude: What kind of dirty thoughts are you having, pervert?
Kate: …!?
I whipped my head around to see Jude leaning against the door with a mocking smile.
(Jude!? W-When did he come into the study…)
Kate: E-Erm, I was uhh…
Jude: What? Feeling frustrated?
His disgusted remark made my face turn bright red.
I bit my lip tightly in frustration, feeling as though I had just been chided for doing something indecent.
Kate: If you say so… then yes, I am.
Kate: But… it doesn’t mean that I want just anyone to think of me that way or touch me.
Jude narrowed his amethyst eyes and stared at me intently.
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Jude: … You sound like you're saying that you’re horny for me.
Kate: … That’s exactly what I’m saying.
Even if it would make him dislike having me around or hate my entire being, I wanted to come clean about my feelings for him.
Kate: It bothers me that I’m only being thought of as a labourer working to repay a debt.
Jude: — Just a labourer?
He had remained unfazed until now, but upon hearing those words — Jude’s facial expression stiffened and his eyebrows twitched.
Jude: … You really don’t get it at all.
Kate: What…?
Jude hooked his long finger under my collar.
Kate: … ah…
His fingertip coming into contact with my skin sent a sweet tremble through my body that had been throbbing with need ever since he entered the room.
He pulled on the collar, bringing my face closer to his.
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Jude: Do you think I’ll spend 100 years finding a cure to an incurable illness, just to save the life of someone I don’t see as anything more than labourer?
Jude: Are you looking down on me?
Kate: ah… ugh.
I felt a pain in my back as I was pressed against a bookshelf.
He let go of my collar and held my wrists together—
There was a soft touch on my neck, at the spot where the needle pierced me.
(Huh…?)
The moment I realised that it was Jude’s lips, my entire body started pulsating.
Kate: ah… aah…
His teeth grazed on my skin and he bit down on it like he wanted to slowly instil the pain.
(Did Jude just… bite me…?)
I felt my body go numb and it was as if my legs were about to give way.
Jude pushed his leg in between my knees, preventing me from falling.
Jude: … Before you fell asleep, I said this to you.
Jude: I said that, because it's you, I would never let you die.
The gaze from his gleaming amethyst eyes staring down at me became harsh.
Jude: I must've phrased that wrong.
Jude: It’s precisely because it’s YOU, I didn't let you escape me just like that.
Kate: Jude…
I was so happy that I wanted him to touch me, kiss me, and look at me as soon as possible.
Jude looked down at me mockingly.
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Jude: Oh, but I’m not going to kiss you or anything more than that.
Kate: … Why not?
Jude: You kept me waiting for 100 years — it’s not fair to me if I so easily give you what you want.
Jude: As much as possible, I’ll make you feel impatient, frustrated, and miserable.
Jude: Knowing how persistent you are, 100 years will be nothing, right?
Kate: — You’re awful…!
Jude: Hah… I could say the same thing about you.
It was miserable and painful, my body wouldn't stop throbbing.
The heat from craving for him like mad was messing with my thoughts.
(I don’t need a prince to kiss me.)
(Nor do I need a happy ending, or to return to my original world.)
Even if this bittersweet pain he gave me was making me feel miserable — to me, that was the best form of happiness.
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perotovar · 5 months
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hey sweeties!! kel and i put a list together of all the submissions we got for our event and split them into two masterlists of fics for you all to read and enjoy! this is my part of the list, so if you don't see yours give @beskarandblasters 's list >here< a look and see if that's where your fic/submission ended up!
we can't thank you enough for submitting and helping us give a voice to the smaller writers of the fandom ♥ oh, and for any multi chapter fics/series, we only read the first chapters to make it fair!
please make sure to read each fic's warnings carefully and happy reading! ♥
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@iamskyereads - Compulsion (Ezra x ofc!Beatrice)
i can't even begin to describe how much i love this fic already. it's so smart and the worldbuilding?? incredible!! it feels like a sequel to the film, or like it could easily take place in the same universe. just brilliant. and ezra's voice is so clear here, i could hear him saying every word. and the oc, beatrice, is fascinating already, i can't wait to see where it goes!
@all-the-way-down-here - This Is Why We Fight (Dieter x nb!oc!Bell)
i love the start of this. both dieter and bell have excellent characterization and the conversations being had by every character feel so real and are so important. bell's group of friends all sound like friends i would have, and i would love to hang out with them. i love the direction this is going!
@linzels-blog - Delta Palms Tropical Resort (Frankie x f!reader)
ahh what a delightful little fic! it feels very much like an early 2000s rom com and i mean that in the best way! very cute and i love the vibes. everyone's characterization is great and i can't wait to sink my teeth into the rest of it!
@elvenmother - Context and Perspective (Marcus M x f!reader)
completely obsessed with this concept. i love a good enemies to lovers and this is such an awesome way to do it! i always see marcus m fics featuring someone without superpowers, but to have a character that's just as powerful as him? sign me up!
@kedsandtubesocks - In the Dead of the Night (Din x f!reader)
one of my absolute favorite din fics. the worldbuilding and din's creature form is incredible. i love a horror au that's flipped on its head. i also love the "creature is also the hunter" trope and this does that incredibly well. the atmosphere is off the charts.
@ghostofaboy - Rock Bottom (Frankie x original male characters)
god, i don't even know where to begin with this story. it's so raw and visceral and i can't say enough how much i enjoy it. i love reading something new and especially if it's coming from a male perspective. this is, unfortunately, something i could see frankie getting up to. frankie is such a deeply tragic character and this fic does that justice in a dark, but really intriguing way.
@ishabull - The Way We Were Drawn (Marcus P x f!reader)
ohh this is such a sweet fic. i love the imagery painted and the dynamic between marcus and reader is so sweet!
@secretelephanttattoo - Headshots (Marcus P x f!reader)
this fic is beyond sweet and so dreamy. the ideal scenario for anyone, in my humble opinion. who wouldn't want to take pictures of handsome fbi agents and then fall in love with said agent?
@lesbianhotch - you walk by and i fall to pieces (Frankie x f!reader)
THIS WAS THE CUTEST DAMN THING. i love me a nervous frankie (hello, have you read my fic lmao) and this was by far one of the cutest. i'm obsessed with reader's confidence and i just know those two are gonna be menaces once they're together. throw in some patsy cline and i am a goner. this is going on the reread list for sure.
@insomniamamma - Remain Nameless (Ezra & Cee w/ gn!reader)
ok, this one actually made me cry. i'm not sure if it's my own sleep-deprived ass that caused it but this is probably one of the most beautiful but sad fics i've read in a long time. i mean all of this in the best way because i don't normally get emotional from fics. prospect as a movie makes me emotional, though, so it doesn't surprise me that this did as well. it's such an incredible missing scene that i can, unfortunately, see absolutely happening. have some tissues nearby.
@sweetercalypso - Unlikely Friends (Joel x gn!reader)
this fic is one of my absolute favorite fics for joel. a big reason for that is i have a cat named tilly. and imagining joel reluctantly and grumpily cuddling with my tilly makes me emotional, ok??
@softstarlite - The Casualty of Love (Javi P x f!reader)
very cute! i love the awkward tension around not seeing someone for so long and there being a huge glow up maturity-wise from one of them! seeing someone in a new light is always a strange thing and i love the start to these two and their journey!
@julesonrecord - Shots (Jack x f!reader/oc)
probably one of the best post-movie fics i've ever read for jack. the way jack's trauma and therapy is handled is so fucking brilliant and tonic is one of the best fucking characters, god. eva is written so well and i just. i can't recommend this fic enough. if you like jack, hell even if you don't, give this fic a shot. i promise you'll come out of it liking it.
@coulsons-fullmetal-cellist - The Audition (Dieter x f!reader)
goddd this was so cute! dieter's insecurities don't come up very often and i absolutely love what a match he and reader make. she's so sweet with him and takes such good care of him. and he loves her so much and i love them ok
@max--phillips - A Little Lipstick Never Hurts (Max P x f!reader)
this is one of the best explorations into kink that i've ever read. it's so respectful and hot as fuck. completely obsessed with this take on max as a character and i can't get enough of the dynamic between him, reader, (and eventually dieter). it may not be everyone's cup of tea, but i highly encourage you to give it a try. max gets some well deserved lessons taught, and who doesn't love that?
@coastielaceispunk - The Gift of Lingerie (Max L x f!reader)
god, this was so fucking hot. i'm so here for a mentally healed maxwell in a healthy marriage with a fulfilling sex life lol the little bit of teasing on both their parts was beyond sexy and i loved how equal everything felt. ugh, will be rereading this one for sure.
@lotrefcp - Hidden Away (Javi P x f!reader)
i'm obsessed with a no nonsense reader with just as much attitude/sass as javi does lol i just kept reading going GET HIS ASS. an excellent start to a universe i'm excited to sink my teeth into!
@beefrobeefcal - On the Waterfront (Frankie x f!reader)
oh, this is dark. i love the vibes immediately. i've had a weird fascination with the mafia for most of my life and this has that air about it. a dark, chubby mob boss!frankie is right up my alley for sure. i love that he's still frankie tho. sensible, practical, but with an edge. mind the warnings.
@flightlessangelwings - La Estrella de Mi Vida (Javi G x f!reader)
ahhh so romantic and so tragic!! i swear, it's impossible to make javi unappealing but this fic is just so sweet and manages to make me love him even more (somehow). but i love the added drama and tension from outside forces!! i need to read the rest of it asap!
@littlemisspascal - Rockford & Roan (Tim x f!reader)
my god, i love this?? i'm not usually one for superpowers/soulmate au's but i'm in love with the practicality of this? it feels otherworldly without being too much and it's very grounded. i love the reader and the way tim is written is so believable. i love that we as a fandom have created such a visceral image of this character from only a minute's worth of footage!
@something-tofightfor & @the-blind-assassin-12 - Aphelion (Oberyn x Ellaria & f!reader)
goddd the imagery painted in this one. so heartbreaking. absolutely breathtaking. i'm a slut for vampires and i'm a slut for oberyn/ellaria. this is absolutely something i will be reading the rest of lol
@bluestar22x - The Rockford Files (Tim x f!reader)
ok this is insanely good. one of my favorite books of all time is "red dragon" by thomas harris and i felt like i was reading that again while i read this. the details of the case and the cadence of everything was top notch. obsessed with the psychic element thrown in there and i'm beyond excited to see where tim and psy end up next!
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@sweetenerobert - Fiction vs Reality (Tommy Miller x m!reader)
ohhhh my god. you give me a bisexual tattoo artist tommy miller with stretched ears and i'm supposed to be normal about it??? UNLIKELY. i am extremely tempted to edit this into reality ngl but my god. this was so fucking hot lmao
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justanamesstuff · 11 months
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All I Need
Chapter 8.5 (Matty's Version)
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A/N: someone left this anon (thank uuu) and I couldn't just do a blurb for it..i felt the need to do a full chapter, adding Matty's experience of the events during chapter 8. I hope you like it, guys!!
Warnings: little fluff, heavy feelings, angst, hurt feelings, SO MUCH CRYING (sorry), typos. Also, it can be a little repetitive sometimes because it has parts similar to chapter 8 (the original) but read everything because this is only Matt's POV.
Word count: 7.1 K
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Evening of the 1st show of ‘The 1975 on tour’.
Matty smiled down at his guitar, recalling inside his mind the morning with Amelia and Y/n. He wanted his life to be that, spending all his time with them in their house. Matty loved performing, he wasn’t sure he would be able to stop doing shows. Although, since Amelia was growing faster and faster, and his relationship with Y/n getting more serious, he didn’t want to miss anything. 
His sight looked up, beyond the stage of the arena, towards the seats Amelia was going to see him play. Matty’s heart pumping nervously inside his ribcage. His little girl. 
“You look…happy.” George almost hesitates to say, interrupting his inner talk.
Matty let the guitar hang in front of him, turning to look at George, “I am, mate.” he smiled sincerely. 
“Mel and Y/n are coming, right?” G messed around with his set, waiting for Ross and Adam to show up.
“Yes.” Matty couldn’t help to smile even bigger.
“Can’t wait to see the little miss.” 
Ross popped out from behind George, screaming, “Alright, babies, aren’t we supposed to do soundcheck or something?” he patted G’s back, gaining an annoyed look from him.
“Yeah, but we were waiting for you, div.” Matty snapped. 
“Ahh, you miss me, Matty?” Ross messed with him, going to kiss his cheek.
“Fuck off!” he shielded his face. 
A few feet behind Matty, Adam plugged his guitar, “Stop that, let’s get this started!” he scolded them and the three grown-ups took their places. 
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Backstage at the arena.
Matty walked along George’s side, not paying attention to all the warnings he was giving him for the show. He kept his attention down towards his phone. Y/n had notified him, by text, that they arrived. Matty’s heart fluttering with the thought of having them around. He started walking faster. George didn’t stop talking, almost running to keep Matty’s pace. 
When they could see Amelia, Denise and Y/n at the other side of the hall, George acknowledged the baby first, “Where’s my favourite god-daughter?” George’s shouted when his sight fell on Denise holding Matty’s child.
“You only have one, idiot.” Matty hit him playfully on his arm.
“Org, org!” Amelia boobed up and down, excited to see them.
Once they were close enough, George stole her from Denise’s arms, wrapping Amelia with his owns. Matty went to stand closer to Y/n, touching the small of her back, sighing under his breath, feeling at ease knowing she was there with him. 
“Hi, beautiful!” G tickled her. “I missed you!” He went to kiss her cheeks, making the little girl blush. 
“You haven’t seen her in two days…” Matty scoffed, rolling his eyes. His hands drew figures on Y/n’s back, feeling desperate because there were layers between his hands and her skin. Matty felt her relax under his touch. 
“Daddy!” Matty’s face brightened, hearing Amelia calling him.
“Is this gorgeous lady asking for me?” Matty took her from G’s arms, gaining a protest from his bandmate. George’s attention changed, going to say hello to Denise and started chatting.
“You look so pretty!” He complimented his daughter, admiring her outfit, on the same vibe as he had planned for his own for the show. “She looks perfect.” Matty turned to look at Y/n.
“She looks dashing.” Denise said, instead interrupting her talking and preventing any response from Y/N. Matty looked at his own mother. “Aren’t you going to greet your mother, Matthew?” She teased him.
“Hi, mom.” He went to kiss her cheek, with Amelia resting her head on his shoulder.
Y/n focused her own sight on George standing at the other side. “Am I invisible to you, Daniels?” Y/n exclaimed, arching her eyebrow to him.
George dramatically let his tall body hang a little, comically going to engulf Y/n in a big hug. “Thought I was imagining you being here!” He joked, talking at the top of Y/n’s head.
“Ha, ha…so funny.” Y/n’s voice coming muffled by George’s chest.
Matty stared at them, “Let her breath, George.” he whined from her side.
George let her go, resting his right arm on top of Y/n’s shoulders. “Jealous man talking…”
“How was sound check?” Y/n freshly cut the bickering.
“Everything is ready to go.” G said excited.
Y/n looked up at him, “That’s cool. Charli is coming, right?” She asked.
“Yeah! She’s looking forward to seeing you and Ames.”
“Me too! I haven’t-” Y/n started to talk, when someone from the crew shouted.
“Matty!” Mark –the security guard– made himself visible for them; the whole group turning around to look at him. “There is a girl at the gate, asking for you.” Mark addressed Matty directly.
“I’m not expecting anyone else, must be a fan.” The frontman tried to brush it off,
Mark insisted, “She’s not…she’s on the list.”
“Fuck…can you take Amelia for a second?” Matty looked at Y/n, pleading.
 “Yes.” Y/n’s replied.
Matty stared at her eyes for a moment, feeling there was some kind of worry. He wanted to take it away and bring back her smile. 
“I’ll be right back.” Matty reassured her. 
He ran towards Mark, turning back to check at Y/n and Amelia until he couldn’t see them.
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At the gate
“Hi, Matty.” Daisy greeted him, when he came to the back entrance.
She was standing beside a bodyguard, looking even more small than she was. Matty felt a wash of relieve to know it was his friend the one at the gate and not some crazy person trying to get in.
“Hey, Dais. Whatcha doing here?” he went for a hug. 
Her answer came from behind his head, “You asked me?” she inquired. 
“Right! Shit- I forgot.” 
“I knew it, you idiot.” she hit his arm playfully.
Matty watched Mark talk with the other guard, letting him know everything was fine. The frontman detached himself from Daisy, glancing at her face. 
“Sorry, sorry…I’ve been-”
“Ignoring your dear friend.” she accused him directly. 
“I wasn’t ignoring you, if that’s the case I’ve been ignoring you and all the rest. I’ve been occupied with-” he blushed. “I’ll tell you later, there are a few people I want you to meet.” Matty exclaimed excited. He wanted to introduce his dear friend to Amelia and Y/n. 
“Let’s go then!” she urged him.
Walking at the same speed –not too fast, not too slow–, Matty and Daisy made their way from the gate towards the green room where people awaited for Matty specially. Matty rubbed his hands, anxiously. The time before the show was coming to an end, and his nerves sensed it.
He tried to distract himself making conversation, “So, how’s everything?”
“Not good, not bad, y’know? He’s telling bad things about me to all of our mutual friends, so…” Daisy brushed a strand of hair behind her ear, tired. 
“He’s such a twat.” Matty didn’t hesitate to say.
“I know.” she bobbed her head up and down.
“You deserve better, Daisy.” Matty let his hand rest in the middle of her upper back, patting her to show his support.
“I’m aware. Thanks, Matty.” she smiled at him, turning around the corner. Loud voices coming from the green room, and the hustle of the arena. “Hey! Sorry for bringing the mood down, this is your night!” she cheered up a little. 
“Yeah, yeah.” he smirked. “Okay, here.” he guided her, letting enter the room first.
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Backstage room. 
(30 minutes for the show…)
“Daddy!” Amelia was the first one to spot him, leaving Hann’s children playing alone. 
Matty's sight went first towards Y/n who was chatting with Carly. She found his eyes for a split second and then looked down. Odd.
Amelia collided with his legs, forcing him to pay attention to her, “Hey, baby.” Matty lift her up. “This one is Amelia, my daughter.” He introduced Daisy to Amelia, returning his eyes to Y/n’s form sitting on the big couch, she was not really listening to Carly’s story.
Matty grew confused with Y/n’s reaction. It was like she was miles away from him, he didn’t like the feeling.
“Hi, sweetie.” Daisy greeted Matty’s daughter.
Amelia hid her face on Matty’s neck. “She’s shy with new people.”
“It’s fine.” Daisy understood, she was a very shy person herself, so she related to the little girl.
 Suddenly, Matty watched from the corner of his eye how Y/n pushed up from her sit, excusing herself with Carly. Walking fast towards the door. 
“Y/n?” Matty interrupted her exit, worried.
“Yeah?” She turned around. Matty looked her eyes drift between them three, hiding something behind her beautiful eyes.
“Are you alright?”
“Yes, Matty. I need to go to the bathroom. Watch Amelia for me, please.” Y/n rushed her words and stormed out.
It took Matty a second to react, even though when he realized he needed to do something he moved fast.
“Mom?” Matty instantly shouted for his mother. 
“Yes, Matty?” 
“Can you look after Amelia?” he asked, walking closer to her, leaving Daisy behind.
Denise studied his worried face, “Everything is alright?”
“Yes- I don’t know, please.” he insisted, passing Amelia, so his mom could hold her. When his daughter was secured, he moved around,  “Sorry, Daisy. Be right back.” he apologized with her.
One look at his face after Y/n left the room, gave Daisy enough information to just say, “Don’t worry, go!”
****
Matty ran to the bathroom, knowing she was at the other side. He stopped, looking at the red door, catching his breath. 
He knocked rhythmically.
“Y/n.” Matty called her, trying to be polite and respectful, waiting for her permission.
“No!” she shouted, but before Y/n could prevent it, Matty was inside. He preferred to say sorry and no please that time. 
Matty took her state in, her body deflating. He exclaimed a quiet, “Baby…”
“Don’t you fucking dare!” Y/n took some steps backwards. Matty’s heart break into pieces. She didn’t want him close. His mind started to pound and his hands sweating. What happened? In fact, what was happening?
“Y/n?” He asked, expecting. 
“Please, leave me alone.” She coldly responded.
“Y/n-” He protested.
Y/n shook her head from side to side, without looking at him. “Matty, I-”
“Sweetheart-” Matty came closer, he lifted his hand going to touch her face, Y/n sensed it. She made the space between them even bigger. Matty’s heart stopping for a second. “It’s not-” he wanted to tell her that it wasn’t alright from her to push him out and what could he do, but she understood something else.
Y/n lift her hand, stopping him. “Don’t tell me it’s not what I think it is…I have eyes. I don’t understand.” 
Realization hit Matty fully when Y/n spoke those words. She believed Daisy was one of his exes. Matty felt an urge to whipped his worries.
“There’s nothing to understand, baby!” Matty desperately tried.
“Don’t call me baby! No when she’s in the other room-” Y/n bit her lips.
“This is not– She’s not–” Matty didn’t know how to explain everything, how to repair the damage he did. He wanted to push her closer, he needed Y/n. Matty felt hopeless and terrified.
“I knew it was too good to be true.” Y/n stated, regaining her coldness. 
Matty felt weak on the knees when her words reached his ears, “Y/n, please listen to me! This is a mis-” He begged.
“So you can lie to me again? I’m naive, no stupid.” Y/n spat. “I need to go and check on Amelia.” She told him, starting to walk towards the door.
She couldn’t leave the room without this mess being clarified. 
“Amelia is with my mom. She’s okay. Y/n don’t go.” Matty took her wrist. Y/n look at his fingers, and back at his eyes when he started talking. “I invited her way back, wasn’t expecting her to actually show up. She doesn’t mean anything!” He screamed. Matty felt like his words weren’t reaching her. Panic was filling his body, he couldn’t lose her.
“I don’t care, Matty. Let me go.” Y/n said strangely calmed.
“I can’t let you go….how could I?” Matty felt his eyes watering. “No when I’ve just got you back…” Matty spoke softly, loosing strength.
“Don’t-” Y/n protested. “Just stop. Let me go.” She insisted.
“Y/n-”
Someone knocked on the bathroom door behind them. Matty felt rage overtaking him.
“What?!” He shouted, still holding Y/n.
“Matty, are you there?” The stage manager asked. 
Matty breathed in, trying to calm down, he asked, “Yes, what?”
“5 minutes!” The person informed him.
“Fuck!” He swore under his breath.
“I’ll get Mel…” Y/n took her hand out of his embrace.
Matty went to touch her again, screaming, “Y/n!” but she was gone. “Fuck, fuck, fuck!” He started screaming without caring who could hear him.
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Matty stumbled into the green room, feeling disconnected from everything. Was Y/n going to leave him? 
This was a big misunderstanding he needed to fix. Daisy was his friend, and Y/n the love of his life, the mother of his child, his everything. He couldn’t lose her two times in his life. 
“Matty?” Adam asked slowly, carefully.
The frontman looked like a cat ready to jump and scratch you. 
“Mhm.” he mumbled.
“Are you okay?”
Silence was the answer the guitarist gain from his friend. He placed a hand on his shoulder, still being careful but hurried by the time. They had to get on stage right now. 
“What?” Matty snapped out of his trance. 
“Are you okay?” Adam asked again.
Matty looked around the room. The rest of the band directly staring at him, he grew self-conscious. He had a work to do.
“Yes-” he cleared his throat.  “Yes, I’m fine. Let’s do this.” Matty walked out the room without making contact with his mates. 
He was going to do the show, as best as he could, still thinking about Amelia, and then when everything was done he was going to approach Y/n and fix the mess.
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Matty wasn’t really interacting with the crowd. Barely touching the wine the crew left for him to drink, he preferred to stay sober. Although he was smoking like a chain, his nerves and anxiety spiralling. 
Even with the mix of emotion he was going through that night, the band managed to deliver an amazing show. The singer knew he should interact with the crowd more, but he had no energy.
Matty lighted another cig when the rest of the band left him alone on stage for a few minutes. He took the microphone, walking closer to the edge of the stage. He looked up to the left side of the stage, shielding his eyes from the strong lights.
“There’s someone special here tonight…” He started to speak, still looking. People cheered for him, screaming a lot of different things he missed. “I don’t remember the exact place, but-” He rambled. “My little girl is here!” Matty screamed proud. 
The lights around the arena came back on, so he could see better around. Although, Matty wasn’t having it.
“Turn the lights off again!” He demanded. “Please, put your phones aside…” He asked rather politely. “My daughter is watching me and the rest of the band…” Matty made a signal like that last part didn’t matter, making everyone laugh. “For the first time…” He started walking around the stage, looking down at the floor.  “She’s here, with my mom and her own mother-” Y/n’s face hurt inside the bathroom earlier on made him want to cry. “So, as you can see, this is a very special night for me.” he looked at the sea of people following every one of his movements. 
People started screaming, and proceed to chant Amelia’s name. 
“Aww, that’s so sweet!” Matty spoke, bringing his free hand to his heart, looking at the fans. Even though he wasn’t a big fan to acknowledge that many people knew his baby’s name. He wanted to keep Amelia out of the spotlight as much as he could. His protective side turned on. “Back to me now…” The crowd laughed again. “This night is special. There are some things I wish were different, but life is-” Matty stopped his sentence, he wasn’t going to share this part of his life with the fans. “I don’t know.” He finished without making too much sense. Matty really didn’t care. 
The rest of the band returned to the stage, Matty stared at them for a second without speaking. “Right, we’re going to play one of Amelia’s favourite songs…which obviously-” He smugly exclaimed. “It’s one written by daddy.” he pointed to his chest, gaining a new round of screams from the crowd. “I hope you like it, baby. I love you!” Matty closed the moment. 
The first chord of ‘Sincerity is Scary’ started playing around the big venue. 
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Almost midnight, still at the arena.
When the show was done, he almost forgot to say goodbye to the crowd. Matty wanted to found Y/n as fast as he could. 
He entered the green room, some guys from the crew were there working on stuff Matty didn’t focus on. No Amelia, no Y/n. 
Matty returned to the hall, watching a happy George walk closer and closer.
“George, have you seen, Y/n?” he asked, his breath rapidly. 
“No.” G’s demeanour changing completely, feeling like something bad was happening.
“Amelia?”
George tried to think, “No since-”
“Fuck, fuck.”
“Hey, they must be stucked with the fans or something.” the drummer tried to reason with his friend, not wanting to think that something bad indeed happened.
“No.” Matty took his phone from his pocket. Nothing.
Adam and Ross rounded George’s body, coming into Matty’s view. They looked at his friend who asked without skipping a bit, “Guys, have you seen Y/n or Amelia?”
“No.”
Ross stared at him, going to speak, “No, since earlier. What’s-” 
Denise and Daisy’s returned interrupted him.
“Mom!” Matty shouted.
Denise didn’t notice her son’s worried state, she went to congratulate him, “Matty! What a show! Amelia was so happy to watch-”
He interrupted her, “Yeah, yeah. Where are they?” he asked, going directly to the point.
She stared at his face, “Y/n and Amelia?”
“Yes, mom! Fuck- Where are they?”
“What’s wrong, Matty?”
“I don’t know, fuck.”
“Y/n told us she was going, I thought she was returning here…” Denise told him what she knew.
“Okay, I-”
“Hey, they’re fine” Denise let her hands rest on his shoulders, forcing him to look at her. 
Matty tapped on the screen of his phone. “I need to know exactly that, Denise.” 
“Call her.”
“Thanks mum, very helpful.” his voice full of irony. Matty placed his phone to his ear. “I’ve been trying, she’s not picking up.” 
“There must be a reason.”
Matty tried again and Y/n picked up finally. 
“Y/n, thank god! Where are you?” Matty screamed.
He noticed her cold tone she used in the bathroom, “Home.”
“Fuck, Y/n! You scared the shit out of me!” Matty walked down the hall, far from the rest of the group. 
She explained, “I’d told your mom to tell you. I’m sorry if I worried you.”
“Bab-” Matty started to say, pressing on his free ear because the guys and Daisy were making too much noise. 
Y/n cut him, saying, “Amelia is fine, Matty. I’m sorry. Go to your after party-” 
He interrupted her this time, “Fuck, no, I’m not going to that…we need to talk! I have to finish here, and then-” Matty tried again for Y/n to listen. 
“I don’t want to talk about it, Matty. Not now.” Y/n stopped him.
Matty felt panic creeping inside his body. “Y/n…” He begged. 
“I’m going to bed, to my bed.” Y/n informed him; her voice breaking at the end. The mention of ‘my bed’ and not ‘our bed’ broke his heart in pieces. “Good night, congratulations!” She choked on her words. 
Before Matty couldn’t add a single sound, Y/n hang up the phone.
“Shit.” Matty shouted, making his friends and mom to look at him. He felt the tears wetting his cheeks. This night supposed to happen differently.
Denise, George, and Daisy approached him almost immediately when his broken cries reached them.
“Where are they?” Denise inquired first.
“Home.” Matty dried his eyes with his sleeve. “I need to go home.” he touched his pockets, trying to think if he had everything.
“What’s happening?” Denise continued. 
“I don’t know, mom.” Matty told her a white lie. “Daisy?” he turned to look at his friend.
“Yes?” 
“I need to rush home. You can go with the boys to the after party if you want, or I’ll call a car for you.” 
“Sorry guys, but jet-lag it’s hitting me.” she told G, and he boobed his head understanding.
A quick set of goodbyes were exchanged between the little group. Afterwards, Matty walked around the halls and spaces of the backstage with Daisy to found the way out of the arena.
“So, what’s happening with Y/n?” she took the risk to ask Matty.
Matty putted his hands on his trousers pockets, “How do you know it’s about her?” he didn’t look at her face. 
“I see how you look at her, Matty.” Daisy smiled.
“Right.”
“And how she looks at you.” Matty’s friend admitted. “So, what’s happening?”
“I’m not sure, and I’m scared.”
Daisy placed a hand on his back, like he did earlier that night when they were talking about her ex.“Hey,” she called him. “Everything is going to be alright, yeah?”
Matty made direct eye contact. “I hope so”
“Believe me, I’m a little witch-y.” she joked.
He said, feeling a little more calm, “You’re a little bitchy.”
“Asshole.” Daisy hugged him once they were at the gate.
“Text me when you arrive at the hotel, okay?” he made her promise.
“Sure. Good luck, my friend!” Daisy shouted, going to open the back door of the Uber. 
“Thanks.” he waved.
Daisy last words were, “Keep me updated!” he nodded.
“Bye.”
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One hour later…
Matty claimed up the stairs, jumping between steps to reach the first floor quicker. He needed to see Y/n, they had to talk. He couldn’t give up without fighting for them.
The house was under a complete silence. Most of the lights gone. Y/n previously informed him Amelia was sleeping. He tried to hurry without making too many noises. 
When he took the last step, finally arriving at the top of the stairs, his heart sank. Y/n’s door was once more closed. A soft glow of light coming from underneath it. Matty moved forward. He pressed his ear to the door, taking the handle without twisting it. 
Y/n was scrolling through some social media, the noise was clear for him. He knocked and all the sounds were gone. 
“Y/n…” he started softly. Nothing. “Baby…” he tried once more. “I know you’re up. I need- We need to talk, please.” Matty continued.
“Go to sleep, Matty.” She whispered loud enough for him to hear. 
“I can’t sleep if we don’t solve this…” 
“Don’t-”
“Y/n.” Matty felt he was running out of resources.  
“Go away.” 
Matty started crying again, he had lost count how many times he had cried during the night. This time he did it in silence. He decided to give her space, even with his heart broken. 
He walked all the way to his room with his heart on his hand, ripped. Matty pushed his room door open, expecting to magically see Y/n there. Reality was a hard pillow to swallow. His bed felt strange, foreign, unfamiliar without her; he didn’t want to try to get in. 
He moved closer to it, reaching for his pillow, and stopped in the middle of the same action. He leaned forward, reaching for the pillow Y/n used all those weeks sleeping with him. Matty brought it downstairs with him.
He left the pillow and stared at it, feeling his face wet. Matty was sure about fighting for her, for them. Although, his mind couldn’t help to overthink a little.
The singer folded forward, landing on the couch. His body twisting until he was lying as a little baby in fetal pose. He clutched the middle of his chest. 
Matty cried and cried until he felt asleep, with the repeating thought about how this was only a big misunderstanding. He could fix it, they were going to solve this and returned right back to normality. 
Repeating history two times wasn’t a possibility, Matty reassured himself. 
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His phone started ringing from under his tired form. Matty groaned with his eyes closed, touching everywhere around him to try to find it. Useless. He had to open his sore eyes to realize the device was under his body.
“Hello.” his raspy voice, low and barely understandable. 
“Morning.” Jamie greeted him from the other end. “Sorry to disturb your princess slumber, but we have an emergency.”
“What’s wrong?” Matty sit upwards, blinking his eyes to get used to the early morning sun. 
“I know you’re stepping out of the board of directors, although util it’s done I need you here.” Jamie explained. 
Matty ran a hand through his curls, “Whatever, tell me.”
“I’ll fill you in when you get here.” subtly telling him to go to the office. “I’m really sorry.”
“It’s fine. I’ll be there as soon as I can.”
“Okay, bye.”
Matty cut the line without spoken more words. 
He excited the house, taking a look towards the stairs. No sounds coming from the first floor. Matty opened the door and left the house. The sooner he solved everything at work, the sooner he could be back.
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Dirty Hit 
He was seated at the big table with Jaime and the rest of the people on charge. Matty was trying really hard to keep his focus on the topic, but his mind drifted several times. 
The frontman checked his phone under the table, no messages. Y/n was probably awake now, still not texting him. He swallowed thick.
Matty moved his fingers along his screen until his thumb found the Instagram up. His phone crashed with the amount of notifications that started showing on his phone. Matty kept tabs about Y/n and Amelia. He started to worried.
“Jamie.” he whispered to his managed seated beside him. 
“What?” the older man replied without sparing him a glance.
“Let me borrow your phone.” 
“Why?” this time, Jamie stared at him, forgetting the meeting.
Matty extended his hand, with the palm upwards. “I need to check something, I’ll be quick.” he promised.
Jamie let him have his phone, monitoring what Matty did with it. The singer opened Instagram again.
Multiple sites showing Y/n walking along Paul, or pictures of the seated at a fancy restaurant. Matty didn’t move a muscle. He knew they were old, but he feared for Y/n reaction. 
He continued scrolling until his eyes fell on a post that mixed the same pictures and a video of him walking with Daisy the night before. The fuckers cut the video to make it look worse than it was in reality.
“Shit.” Jamie swore beside him.
“I’m going to call Y/n.” he informed his manager, without caring about the rest of the people staring at him left. 
He heard Jamie excused him. 
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Matty didn’t know very well how he managed to make his phone work, he had only one objective in mind: talk with Y/n. Not even the cold weather that morning bother him when he opened the door to the rooftop of the studio.
He attached his ear to the phone. The characteristic sound repeating. Matty was dying for a cigarette to calm his nerves. He bit his nails anxiously. 
The answering machine. 
He huffed, going without thinking twice to call again. Still nothing. 
The light bulb inside his brain found a solution. He found fast Grace’s contact and press on it. 
Line sounding rhythmically.
“Hi, Matty.” Grace greeted him, Matty listened to the sound of the back door of his house closing. 
Matty’s voice was quavering, unsure, when he asked,  “Please tell me you’re with Y/n.” he placed a hand on his forehead. 
“I am…”
“Tell her to answer me.” Matty commanded Grace. 
She hesitated, “She’s not…ready…to talk.”
“Grace, I swear-” groaned, closing his eyes tight. He felt the first signs of a headache.
“I’m trying to do my best to not send you to fuck yourself, for everything. I’m trying only for her, so don’t push my buttons, Healy!” She warned him, surprising how Grace brought her protective side.
“She’s not talking to me. I need to talk to her.” Matty was desperate up to that point.
“Matty-”
“Grace, I’m begging you!”
“Matthew…”
“I swear it’s not what’s look like…” Matty tried to play that card. If Y/n wasn’t going to talk to him, at least if Grace knew, he was sure Y/n was going to get the information. 
Grace scoffed at the other end. “Paul said the same to her…” 
“Don’t compare me with him.” he shouted furiously with the comparison.
“I’m stating facts, Healy.” 
“Yeah, your cousin is a wanker. I’d never do that to her, never.” 
“Then what happened yesterday?” Grace asked, annoyed. 
“I’m not with Daisy, I had never been. Grace, please put Y/n on the phone.” his patience leaving his body.
“You’re in no place to demand, Matty. If you’re worried about her, don’t.” how could he not worry about the love of his life? “I’m here, I’m staying as long as she needs. Let her breath for a minute, okay?” Grace requested this time.
“Fuck, you’re asking a lot, Grace.” Matty pull his hair. 
“I’m not. Do it, for her and Amelia.” and then she hanged the line.
Matty slowly placed his phone in front of his face. He stayed froze on his place for a minute before he returned inside.
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From Dirty Hit’s office to home (non-stop).
Matty’s first instinct once he returned home was to search for Y/n. She wasn't in the kitchen, or living room, or laundry room. Nowhere around the low level. For a second time in less than 24 hours, he ran upstairs. 
He was sadly convinced she wasn’t going to be in his room, even though maybe she was in Amelia’s room or bathing their daughter. The house was spectrally under silence. Y/n was nowhere, neither Amelia. Matty felt a rush of panic. He took his phone out of his pocket, ready to call her if his last try didn’t work. 
“Y/n?” He knocked on her door.
Silence was the only replied from the other side. 
“Y/n, are you there? Are you okay?” Matty tried. 
Y/n decided to reply, “I’m fine, go away.” Relief wash over his muscles, at least she was at home. 
“Please let me in, I want to check you’re alright…”
She marched angrily towards the door, opening it with a sudden movement that Matty didn’t expect.
“I’m doing fucking amazing, don’t you see?” Y/n shouted, opening her arms wide on the air. ‘Fuck, I missed her’, he thought.
“Baby-” 
It was the first time they saw each other since the fight in the bathroom, at the arena. His hands ache to hold her, to bring her closer. Y/n wanted to push his away, out of her sight. 
“Don’t call me that.” Y/n folded her arms.
“Y/n…”
“I don’t want to hear it, Matty.”
“I need to tell you.”
Y/n scoffed, turning around, far from him. “Exactly what? That all the past weeks, month were noth-” She stopped, choking on a sob. “Nothing for you.” Y/n rearranged herself, looking at Matty’s eyes with her own full of tears. 
Matty was taken aback from her sayings. “Nothing?” 
She believed she didn’t mean not only a lot, that she didn’t mean the entire world for him. 
“You were with her meanwhile…” Y/n stated very sure of her words, making Matty’s heart swelled.  
“No!” Matty took a few steps forward into her room. “Of course not! Daisy and I- We never- It wasn’t like that between us. Y/n, we-”
“We what? Right, nothing…it meant the same as the other girls you fucked…” Matty’s knees weakened instantly. 
“Y/n, you know that’s not true!” Matty insisted on it. 
“I don’t know any more after yesterday!”
“Please, listen to me.” Matty continued making himself closer to her. “I would never do that to you, never.” He searched for her eyes, Y/n started back. “You’re the mother of my baby, you’re my friend…” Y/n went to protest, but Matty stopped her. “You’re the love of my life, Y/n!” Matty finally admitted. The words slipping through his lips, but he couldn’t care less. He didn’t want to keep the secret any longer.
Y/n eyes grew a size,  “You don’t mean that, Matty.”
“I do, I fucking do. I loved you since the first moment I met you…” Matty felt brave enough to hold her face between his hands. “I was a fucking coward, I still am. Well, now I’m trying to fix that. I love you, Y/n. I’ve loved you since the start and never stopped.”
“Don’t say that…” 
Matty felt more sure of himself. “It’s the truth.”
“Why you never said anything?” Y/n protested.
“Because…the prospect of losing you, or you hating me- Can’t do, baby.” Matty stared at her with his eyes softening looking at her.
“Matty-”
“I mean it.” He leaned forward. 
“I don’t know if I can do this- No right now…” Y/n closed her eyes, Matty stared at her letting his forehead rest on hers.
 “Why not? I know you feel it too.” He was sure of it. 
“Matt-”
“Fuck, gorgeous…please.” Matty wasn’t going to stop begging if that was needed for her to returned with him.
“Stop, I need space to think!” Y/n took a step backwards, making his hands fell at his sides. 
“What there’s to think, Y/n? We love each other!” he complained.
“A lot there’s to think! Saying you love me doesn’t solve things magically, Matty. My phone is bombarded by your fans telling me how horrible of a mother I am, dating some random guy. Said guy that was fucking other girls while dating me, person I don’t want to hear about, but now I have to. My name is on a handful of articles. Amelia’s privacy, my privacy, it has been violated. Add to the mix the videos of you with that girl-” Matty stayed in silence, listening to her explanation. 
Matty went to tell her everything about Daisy, “I walked her out of the venue…that was all-”
“Well, they say other stuff.” Y/n exposed what the articles were saying, what he read after a quick inspection. 
“Y/n, you know better than-”
“Do I? Matty, this is all very confusing…I need time.” Y/n begged. 
“I can give you time, space…everything, but don’t leave me.” Matty reached for her hands. 
“I think it is for the best, Matty. For now…”
“No.”
“Yes, we need to think about Amelia. We were okay when we stopped messing around-”
Matty felt his throat close down, thinking Y/n could think so less about the connection he felt they had.
He started low, “We weren’t just-”
”Doesn’t matter now.” Y/n spat.
“It does!”
“Matty, be real.”
“I am!”
“What happens when you get bored of me, of being a…couple, ha? Where am I going to be left? Being just your friend again and the mother of your daughter? Think about Amelia…I don’t want us to mess up with her head.”
“Y/n-”
“What happens when you take onto fucking every single groupie again right where you left it?”
“I don’t want to get back to that, Y/n.” he didn’t delay saying. “Since you are in my life, I’m done with it….since we had Amelia here, I’m done with all that shit. I want the three of us…”
“And yet you kept doing it, Matty.” Y/n shot his past doings directly into his face.
“You’re not being fair with me. Adam has a family-”
“Adam is Adam, you…are you, Matty.” Y/n bitter tone wounded Matty deeply.
“I would do anything to have you again.”
Y/n tilted her head.“When did you really have me, Matty? We were never…” 
He stopped her before she could finish that lie. “Don’t say it, don’t fucking say it.”
“I’m sorry, Matty. I think it is for the better if I stay with Grace for the night…” Y/n concluded.
She signalled with her hand to move out of her bedroom; Matty didn’t want to, although if this was what she wanted for now, he’d obeyed. For now.
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A few days later…
Matty was closing his suitcase, which was placed on top of his bed; a place that stayed untouched for days. Matty had been sleeping on the couch or besides Amelia's crib. He was physically incapable of getting under his sheets. 
He looked around, feeling nostalgic already. Matty had to leave for tour in a couple of hours, before that, George was going to pick him up soon. He didn’t want to leave, not when Y/n and him were barely talking. Matty did his best to give her the space and time she needed, he was sure about his intentions and his past actions. If he had to, he would wait his entire life for her. He was sure she was going to return to be his, this time was different from before. Y/n loved him, he knew. That was what kept him going. Even though, leaving for two weeks was reaping his heart from his chest. 
Matty grew used to the routine of staying home, going to the studio and return to his girls. He was getting old, getting tired of all the hassle of touring. He loved the moment he was on stage, with the fans, but the rest was starting to bother him. Specially since Amelia and Y/n stayed at home. 
The sound of the front door closing, the soft chat of Amelia and Y/n –mostly the mother talking–, brought him back. He took the suitcase, carrying it in one hand while he started walking downstairs. 
Matty left the item close to the door, voices came from the kitchen now. He smiled hearing them interact. He walked slowly there. 
“Hey.” He made himself present. Y/n turned to look at him from the kitchen, closing the refrigerator slowly. 
“Hi.” She answered. 
Matty twisted his hands, anxiously, “George is picking me up in a couple of minutes…” he told Y/n.
“Mhm.” she expressed shortly.
“I’m going to say goodbye to Amelia.” Matty hesitated, wanting to say more, wanting to beg.
“Sure.”
He approached Amelia, interrupting her playtime. “Mel-mel?” He called her attention.
“Daddy!” the little girl said, running to hug him.
Matty rounded her, “Baby, daddy has to go now.” He tried to explain, she looked at him trying to understand. “Daddy is going to miss you so much, Mel.” Matty felt tears coming but fought them, he didn’t want to upset her.
Amelia noticed his change, “Daddy.” she hugged him tight, hiding herself inside his embrace. 
“I know, I know…I’ll see you soon, okay baby?” Matty rocked from side to side, trying to soothe her. 
“No.” she whined. 
“Yes, you’re going to have fun with mommy and aunty Grace.” Matty tried this time, holding his sobbing, biting his lip.
Amelia wasn’t having it, “Daddy.”
“It’s okay, we’re okay.” 
The doorbell rang, interrupting them. Y/n went to answered it. 
After a short chat, she informed, “Matt, George is outside.”
“I know.”
“Come on, she’ll be fine. I promise.” Y/n approached her daughter and Matty.
He stood up, taking Amelia with him. He turned around, coming closer to Y/n. She stood there, waiting for his actions. He took her cheek on his hand, caressing it. 
“Y/n-” he said, searching for her eyes. 
“Not now Matt-” 
He rested his forehead on her. If they weren’t going to talk, at least he needed to be close, to touch her after leaving the house. Maybe, like that, she would understand his feelings. 
“Please.” Matty couldn’t stop trying.
“Go and do your thing, Matty.” Y/n said, more sure of herself. “We’ll be here…waiting, and then we will talk, okay?” she promised. 
“Mhm.” Matty agreed, without moving a single muscle. 
Y/n instructed, “Go.”
Matty opened his eyes, looking at her from inches away. “I love you.” he openly expressed.
“Matty.” Y/n softly complained.
“You don’t have to say it, I need to say it.” she nodded.
“Good luck.”
“Thanks.” Matty spoke, and turned to kiss Amelia’s head. “Bye, baby.” He proceeded to pass Amelia to Y/n.
“Daddy, no-” she struggled, reaching for the comfort of Matty’s body. His heart breaking in pieces with the idea of hurting Amelia.
Y/n lulled her, “Shh, baby…it’s okay, mommy is here.” 
Matty walked away, not turning around. If he took one more look at Amelia and Y/n we would refuse to leave the house.
The front door closing down resounded around the house. Amelia started crying harder. 
“Daddy!” Amelia tried to call him back.
Matty started to fully cry, still hearing Amelia at the other side of the door.
The walking towards George’s car felt longer than normal. His feet weighing like his shoes were made of concrete.
When he sat down, G asked, “Everything alright?”
“Fuck, no.” Matty admitted, still crying. 
“Mate-” 
“I’m losing her, G.” Matty hid his face behind his calloused hands. 
“What happened?” George wondered. 
“She believes I cheated.”
“What? Have you?”
“Fuck you George! Of course not.” Matty pushed his body back into the seat, turning to look at his friend.
G showed him his palms up showing innocence, “Hey! I’m trying to understand.”
“Sorry.”
“Matty…you’re not going to lose Y/n.” G started the car, moving slowly from Matty’s house front.
The frontman shocked his face from side to side, “I can’t lose her, G. I can’t…”
“And you won’t, okay? Give her a little time.” Matty’s mate advised him.
Matty watched his house got lost between the rest around his neighbour. He wanted to return home already.
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Hello <3 This is not exactly going to be a question, but more of a rant, so bear with me.
To say that I'm loving your Charlos escort fic is an understatement, and I've been wanting to send this message before but I was procastinating and, also gathering the courage to re-read the last chapter, because it is so good it almost pains me (in a good way) to read, because I already know the turmoil of feelings I'm going to experience.
Basically, I think I understand why I'm liking this story so much. Of course the tension and the spicy bits that are *chefs kiss* help (a lot) but the way you're portraying Carlos and Charles is what's flooring me. The fact that you're creating an alternative universe, that has zero to do with the reality we know them in, but I can relate every action to (what we think) is their personality is amazing. Especially Carlos, the way you're making him this professional persona, that does his job exceptionally well and only shows his true side a little but, in the end, we know there's more to him, more passion, more dedication, more everything, but he tries to cover it for his own sake, it's just like Carlos and racing in real life: he has this side to him that shows he's strong, tries to be a bit cold and calculating but, in the end, he lets us see how deeply in love he is with racing, how he sold his soul to this sport and just wants to excel at it... but all of it in such an effortless and natural way, that comes so naturally to him, I just can't explain.
And, on the other hand, we have Charles and his chaotic intensity and I don't think I need to say much more: it's him to a T. I'm not implying that he is less complex than Carlos, but he has this pureness to him where he just seems to lay his emotions on a platter for anyone to see. Maybe I'm being a bit naive about him, but i think It's truly beautiful. And the way you're conveying it all in this piece of fiction leaves me a little breathless every chapter.
So sorry for this much complex and probably confusing analysis but, in case you missed it, it's just a huge huge compliment wrapped up in complicated feelings and words ahaha Thank you so much <3
Ahh thank you for such an in depth message 🥹 sorry it took me a minute to respond to this but know that I read it and it gave me so much encouragement to work on the next chapter ❤️
I’m so glad you’re enjoying the characterizations - what I will say about Charles is that we also have the benefit of being in his head to understand how he’s thinking and feeling. But I think that if we stepped into Carlos’ head, we might find…that he isn’t so sure how Charles is really feeling 👀😆
The situation’s definitely a complicated one, what with both of them having signed a contract. Charles is obviously smitten, but from Carlos’ POV, that doesn’t mean he necessarily wants anything beyond this contract…
(I’m over here rubbing my hands together like an evil mastermind bc I have this whole concept of what Carlos is thinking throughout this fic that no one else knows 🤭 But maybe once the whole thing’s posted, if there’s still questions, I could share my thoughts on his POV)
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hii i just wanted to say thank you for existing because your blog is stunning AND YOUR WRITING IS GORGEOUS LIKE THE DUNE STORY IS SO BEAUTIFUL OAJSKANSK. alsooo i'm like stalking your masterlist and i have never been so excited to read such long fics AHH!! :3
cheers to all the future nights i won't be sleeping because i'll be crying and reading your stories!!
also wanted to say thank you for being like one of the writers that brought back that inspiration to write again... i don't think there's any words to describe that feeling of finding that love for writing (especially fic writing because omg?? why is it so hard??) after all these years omg
wow this is really long i am so sorry but yeah das it!! wishing you the best love!!
p.s. i just realized we're virgo twinnies lolol :3
okay now i'm really done lol. skansksnsn bye heh
i’m gonna die this is such a sweet message.
whenever i write i tend to get overexcited, hence the super long oneshots. keep me updated about which one is your favorite! and awe, shucks! i’m glad you think the dune fic is beautiful! i’ll be writing some paul x reader oneshots soon as well!
goodness, this is such a compliment. i feel beyond blessed knowing that i helped to reignite any kind of spark in you. writing is so fun when you don’t put too much pressure on yourself!
and you’re a virgo! are you a september or august baby? my bday is september 7th! feel free to message me! i’d love to be friends 💗
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a-world-of-whimsy-5 · 4 months
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May I request a Feanor x AFAB!elf reader and "Twas the night before Christmas"?
Lemon or SFW, you may choose.
Thanks for reading this, and just a short shout out to writers like you: YOU ARE AMAZING AND I HOPE YOU CONTINUE TO GET MORE FANS!
Eee! Thank you!
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Pairing: Modern! Fëanor x AFAB! Reader (second person POV)
Themes: Soft | Smut
Warnings: Kissing | Foreplay | Penetrative sex | Cream pie
Word count: 1K words
Summary: Despite being tired, Fëanor decides to make it up to you on Christmas eve night
Rating: 🔥🔥| Minors DNI | 18+ | You are responsible for the media you consume.
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The wind finally died down considerably, even as the snow continued to fall. Barely anything could be seen on the streets below, save for the sunflower-yellow street lights and the flashes of red and gold and green appearing in dozens of windows.
“Snowed in on yet another Christmas eve,” Fëanor observed, and he slipped his arms around your waist. He peered over your shoulder, hoping to see more of the world beyond the rooms the two of you called home. Besides the lights and the snow, he saw little else. “At least we don’t have to go anywhere tonight. Come back to the living room, my love. You’re cold.”
He headed toward the heater while you walked over to the sofa. “The tree is beautiful,” you noted, and you took a deep breath. The faint redolence of pine hung in the air. It was invigorating. “From where did your dad get it, exactly?”
“The scouts were selling them. Blue spruces mostly,” he explained when he returned to you. The apartment was warmer now, and more comfortable. And it was all the prettier now that the Christmas lights were turned on. “Dad got lucky with this one. All the other good trees were sold already.”
“It’s perfect, really.” Fëanor sat beside you and sighed. The drive from his father’s workshop was never long, but in the snow, it took almost forever sometimes. Today, he barely missed the storm that hit the city without warning. Now, he looked beyond worn. “Although I wish you didn’t put yourself to the trouble to get it for me.”
“Twas no trouble at all.” Despite his exhaustion, Fëanor’s mouth twitched in a smile when a kiss was pressed against his cheek. December was busy as always, and his father’s workshop was never short of orders. But everything was squared away, and the orders have all been fulfilled for the holidays. Now all he wanted to do was to rest and spend time with you, and not think of his job until after the New Year. “And you have done a wonderful job decorating the place. I’m sorry you had to do it all by yourself. And perhaps, I should make up for it, and for being away so much because of work.”
“Fëanor!” You cried when he pushed you onto your back and moved over you. “I thought you said you were tired!”
He rewarded you with a knowing smirk. “I am, yes,” he confessed, “but that doesn’t mean I’m so exhausted that I cannot do anything. Now, where was I? Ahh yes.”
He sought your mouth and drowned your protest with a kiss. On any other day, Fëanor would be all fire and passion, but tonight he was slower, tender, and a great deal gentler. Perhaps it was the exhaustion. Perhaps it was something else. You, however, found no reason to complain. He freed you from your clothes before freeing himself from his own. He stroked your arms, your throat, your belly, and your breasts—long, languorous strokes that ended between your thighs. He kissed you and touched you again, and again, and again, until it felt like every inch of your body was on fire. It was too much. And not enough at the same time. You pleaded as much. More, you said. Fëanor laughed softly, then agreed to give you more. He lifted your hips and grunted in satisfaction when you wrapped your legs around his hips, your arms around his shoulders.
Every part of him ached. The ache from finishing up work, from the torturous drive back home. Still, it was a good ache, and it was slowly forgotten when he slid his cock inside the warmth of your body. Fëanor sighed. Nothing else in the world could be as glorious as this, cleaving to your flesh and then losing himself in it. He savored every sensation, every flavor: the salt on your skin, the softness of your hair, the fragrance still clinging to them. It was all an invitation to do more, and do more he did. He moved slowly, rhythmically, drowning in your eyes, his grunts growing deeper and deeper the longer he went.
He felt so good. Everything about him and everything he did felt so good. Your entire body hummed as if electrified. Your hands glided over his back and combed through his thick, dark hair. Fëanor shivered and pushed in harder. It made you see stars behind your eyes when he did so. His mouth found yours again, and the kiss that followed was rough and desperate and more than a little greedy. It brought about fresh needs that took root and surged all over your body. You think to yourself: if all of this was a part of his plan to make amends for all the times he worked till late, then it was working splendidly. You clung to him while he took you to the peak and beyond. Fëanor did not let go of you even when you shattered beneath him and your orgasm ripped through you. You could not think, much less breathe. All you could do was drown in the unimaginable bliss that rippled through you over and over and over again. Then Fëanor kissed you again. His entire body trembled when he emptied himself inside of you. After a final silent cry, he stopped, and then the two of you went still.
The snow continued to fall outside, covering everything it touched in thick carpets of blinding white. But at least the wind had stopped a great deal, and the storm had passed. Still, it was wonderful to lay on that sofa and listen to the hush that enveloped everything. Fëanor moved, his chest still heaving from the exertion. He let you rest and went to the bedroom to fetch thick robes. Later, he drew you a warm bath. It was almost as wonderful as what he did to you in the living room. He joined you, rubbed down your arms, and repeatedly kissed your hair. It made you feel cherished.
“I know there are a few more hours left to this night,” he whispered, “but merry Christmas, sweetheart.”
“Merry Christmas, my love,” you whisper in return.
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Arendale Needs an Heir (Part 4)
A vacant look came over her eyes as she trailed off, as though all thoughts had left her mind for a moment. Esla sighed and set the potion bottle down on the cabinet and then turned to her.
"Anna, listen to me. What I am going to tell you is the truth, and you will believe and obey everything I tell you going forward. Answer me truthfully, do you understand?"
Anna: "Yes Elsa."
Elsa nods at the response.
Elsa: "Good, in a few moments you will come to your senses with every command I told you being true to you. First, I want you to give me that ring."
Anna pulled the ring off her finger without batting an eye and handed it to her. Elsa sighed contentedly as she set the ring on the cabinet beside the bottle.
Elsa: "Thank you. Next, you will forget that Kristoff proposed to you today. He didn't, in fact he broke up with you and left the city."
Anna's eyes widened slightly as a look of sorrow came over her, immediately believing Elsa's words.
Anna: "He broke up with me…"
Elsa: "Yes, because he's an idiot. It's ok though, you're not sad about it, in fact you're glad. Because it frees you up to pursue what you really want."
Elsa took a breath now, this was the big part, this was what she'd always wanted.
"You are free to come and confess to me that you really love me. Not as a sister, but more. You want to marry me, you want to serve me, Anna you dream every night of submitting to me and letting me breed you with my beautiful and powerful cock!"
Said cock was getting harder by the second, by the syllable. And as she got harder, Anna's look got happier, more excited as she took in everything that Elsa said.
Elsa: "When I say awaken, you will do so and you will act normally except that everything I've told you here will be absolutely true beyond any shadow of a doubt to you. Awaken."
With that Anna blinked a few times before looking at Elsa, her mind taking a several seconds to catch up with where she was, with what had changed. Finally she blushes deeply, her face almost matching her hair in color.
Anna: "Elsa! I-I'm sorry, I know this is sudden but please!"
She grabs Elsa and pulls her in for a deep and passionate kiss, her mouth pressing against Elsa's, matching and molding to the shape perfectly as each sister opens their mouths and let their tongues explore the other's mouth. Elsa moaned loudly and desperately into the kiss as Anna let herself melt against her older sister, not bothered in the slightest as she felt Elsa's massive erection pressing against her leg. Finally Elsa broke the kiss and brushed a bit of hair out of Anna's eyes as she held her in her arms.
Elsa: "What?"
Anna: "Please, Elsa take me~. I'm yours, Kristoff dumped me today, and, and I finally see the truth. I didn't love him, I never did, not really. It's always been you Elsa~. Please, take me, use me, make me yours~!"
Anna's desperate pleas were almost enough to make Elsa cum then and there, it was everything she'd always wanted to hear from her. She pulls her in for another passionate kiss, her breasts pressing firmly against Anna's smaller pair. It lasts several seconds before Elsa pulls back again, each of them gasping with desire.
Elsa: "Get on your knees Anna. From now on, you're mine. Your my sister, my cumdump, and my whore~. Your first task is to suck my cock."
Anna moaned with pleasure and delight as she hugged Elsa tightly.
Anna: "Oh thank you! Thank you so much Elsa, yes! I'll be the best cumdump sister ever! Here, watch!"
With that she drops to her knees and lifts Elsa's dress, exposing to herself the massive cock there and without hesitation she wraps her lips around the tip, almost too large to fit in her mouth, and immediately begins bobbing her head back and forth, working desperately to fit more and more of it in.
Elsa: "Ahh~! Oh fuck me~! Anna! You're so good, mmmh, t-that bastard had better not have had you doing this with him~! Ahh, if he did, I-I swear I, oh fuck Anna~!"
She grips Anna by the back of her head and shoves her cock as far down as she can, her nuts almost touching Anna's lips in that moment as she cums. Woden was right, the first climax came far too fast for her, and she wasn't nearly satisfied yet. While Anna gagged and choked on Elsa's cock and cum, she didn't make any attempts to pull away, being the obedient cumdump she'd promised and remaining there as her older sister dumped her load into her.
Elsa rips the hem of her dress in half, pulling either side back as she exposes Anna underneath. She then grabs Anna and helps her to stand up before pushing her onto the bed.
"Oh fuck! Anna, that was amazing! Come here~."
She locks lips with Anna again, tasting her own cum in her mouth, mixing with the taste of Anna's lipstick and mouth.
"Ahh~, fuck I love you Anna."
Anna: "Mmmh~, I love you too Elsa."
Elsa grips Anna's dress with both hands just over her crotch and tears it open similar to what she'd done with her own. She then grabs Anna's panties underneath and tears them off too. Not caring if Anna didn't have anything to wear back to her room, as she had no intention of letting her leave tonight.
With Anna and herself both exposed now, Elsa wastes no time in grinding her long and thick shaft up against Anna's sweet untouched pussy. Both sisters moan loudly in pleasure as they grind against one another, each one wanting nothing more than to take it to that next step.
Elsa: "Anna~, mm, I want you t-"
Anna: "Fuck me! Oh gods Elsa please, shove it in and fuck me, knock me up, cum in my pussy, make my first time the time you got me pregnant Elsa please!"
Elsa kissed her again, Anna having practically read her mind for what she'd been about to tell her to do, and with that out in the open she does exactly as she'd been asked. She pulls her hips back, line up with Anna's pussy and thrust. The first thrust parts Anna's pussy lips around Elsa's cock, creating a near water tight seal around it as she was stretched nearly to her limits before her tip nestled firmly for the first, but certainly not the last, time against Anna's womb.
Neither sister wanted to part long enough to say anything, they both knew what they wanted, knew what their sister wanted, and frankly neither cared to say anything else anyways. Each had made the decision that their love would be best displayed through their actions. Each of them became all but consumed by the carnal pleasure, slowly tearing off one another's clothes over the course of their lovemaking, scraps of cloth soon littering the ground around Elsa's bed. The wet and meaty sound of flesh slapping against flesh filled the air of the room, reverberating through everything within, even the walls and the door, letting the guards well aware of exactly what was happening within. Once again, Woden had proved correct, as with Elsa having already came once she was able to go for far longer now.
Their passionate love lasted almost thirty minutes, Elsa's excitement having long since started a flurry within the room, and Anna having already came no less than five times. Finally though at the end, Elsa's fantasy came true. Anna wrapped her with her legs, holding her tight to her, their hips touching, Elsa's balls resting on Anna's ass, and she came. Elsa came harder than she'd ever came before with Anna, filling her womb and pussy with cum. Load after load flooded into her, eventually so much filled her that the cum was forced to squeeze past Anna's tight pussy lips wrapped around Elsa's cock. The cum leaking out and dripping down onto her bed.
The two sisters laid there, each one panting with pleasure, and basing in the afterglow of passionate love making. Only with the clarity that comes from such a release does Elsa realize that she'd almost forgotten something. She sighs and kisses Anna again as she reluctantly sits up, pushing her legs open and pulling her slowly softening cock out of her.
"Ahh, damn it. I almost forgot, Anna give me one moment."
Anna tries to reach up and grab onto her as she pulls away, feebly trying to make her stay and cuddle with her in bed. Not wanting the source of such warmth and pleasure to leave her alone.
Anna: "Mm, nooo… Elsa, come on."
She pouts at Elsa as she watches her get up and walk over to her desk. She watches as Elsa grabs a pen and the paper, walking back over to Anna and sitting down beside her.
Elsa: "Anna, I love you."
Anna: "I love you too~."
Elsa: "And I want us to keep doing this. I want to keep this, and I want you to be my wife."
Anna smiled up at her, a look of absolute love in her eyes.
Anna: "Ohh, Elsa! Yes, yes I'd love to be your wife!"
Elsa chuckles and leans down, giving her a quick kiss.
"I know Anna, and don't worry, I'm getting you the best ring in the kingdom tomorrow. For now though, we need to sign some papers to make it all official."
She hands the papers to Anna, having already filled out as much of the papers as she could ahead of time. She walks her sister through the papers, having her sign here, initial there, ignore that. In the end, the papers were signed, sent off with the guards to be notarized by the proper officials first thing tomorrow morning. At that same time Kristoff was being visited by several palace guards, bundled together with Sven and forced onto a ship, a writ of exile having been delivered to him. While the writ was signed by both Elsa and Anna allegedly, neither sister knew of this action. The guards having been sent by the council in anticipation of what was to come.
With the business dealt with, Anna officially having agreed to serve as Elsa's wife and concubine, likely already pregnant, and still under the potion's effects, the rest of the night was spent in absolute bliss. The next day Elsa knew she'd have to actually break her sister in, knew it wouldn't be pleasant for her beloved sister, but until then she'd enjoy this newly wedded bliss.
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thatfeanorian · 16 days
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20 Questions for fic writers!
Thanks for the tag @spiritofwhitefire!!! I love these <3
1. How many works do you have in A03? I just hit the 50 mark with my most recent oneshot!
2. What is your total word count? 285,059 and that's just the stuff I've published on ao3 I'd estimate it's closer to 350-400,000
3. What fandoms do you write for? It's all the silmarillion. that's all that exists. save me.
4. My top 5 fics by Kudos: ahh yes it's plug time:
Make You Mine (the way you should be) is an older Kidnap Fam fic featuring E & E having prophetic dreams about M & M (very fluffy)!!
All The Ways To Love is a completed russingon longfic of mine featuring an arranged marriage AU with Bad Dad Fëanor. Normally I love Fëanor but he just worked so wonderfully as a villian here lol.
The Difference Between You and I is a kidnap fam fic centering around the first night E & E spend with M & M. I love this fic so much and I'm so glad it's in my top 5!
And We Begin Again is my current WIP longfic with modern AU russingon. I am super proud of this fic and it is being updated slowly but consistantly due to the fact that I am a disaster nursing student.
Guide You Softly Slowly Towards The Light is another kidnap fam fic (very super fluffy with only a hint of angst) featuring Mae's love language being cooking/baking and lullabies.
Please check these out and leave me comments if you can I will love you forever!
5. Do you respond to comments? Every single one. They keep me writing and I am in debt to anyone who has ever said a nice thing about my fics. I also often take requests in the comments for what people want to see in the future chapters of long fics because ultimately I am writing a story to share!
6. Fic with the angstiest ending? OOOOH... honestly it's easily When Stars Sing, one of my favorite things I've ever written which has (imo) sinfully few reads. It made me cry while writing it and the TRSB art I wrote it for is stunningly beautiful. It's a Russingon fic (again oops) exploring Maedhros and Fingon's relationship in Beleriand.
7. Fic with the happiest ending? Perfect For Me. I am on my body diversity elves campaign and this is one of the fluffiest things I've ever written. I will def write more stuff like this whether or not there is an audience for it because it makes *me* happy.
8. Do I get hate on fics? I have indeed and it was on the ones where I have written chubby elves. Honestly, I just feel bad for the people who feel like they need to hate on bigger bodies and tell me that "you're slandering Tolkien's idea of what elves are." I simply delete and move on, so don't bother leaving them because they will not stop me from publishing what I want.
9. Do I write smut? If so what kind? I do indeed write smut. Most of it is plot relevant but I do have a few pwp oneshots. So kind of everything.
10. Do I write crossovers? Nope.
11. Have I had a fic translated? I have not but I would be beyond honored if anyone ever wanted to.
12. Have I ever co-written a fic? I did a long time ago with a friend in high school but there is nothing published that was co-written. I'd love to do it again though so if anyone wants to co-author a fic with me (ahem @last-capy-hupping, @arofili, @spiritofwhitefire I'm eyeing all of you intensely) I'd adore that.
13. All time favorite ship? Russingon. All you have to do is look at my AO3 to confirm that.
14. WIP I want to finish but don't know if I ever will? This isn't published but I have a longer Russingon fic about Valinor flirting/getting together that someday I'd like to publish but at this rate I think it might be years and probably a hundred thousand words away.
15. Writing strengths? world building and imagery because I can sit there for hours and describe a setting without adding to the plot even once.
16. Writing weaknesses: writing action scenes and arguments, I always feel like they come across choppy and unrealistic.
17. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language? I've never done it but I would be open to trying it... the closest I've gotten is writing phrases/words in Quenya and Sindarin in my fics.
18. First fandom I wrote for? I actually have no idea it might have been Percy Jackson with my classy self-insert or possibly Lord of the Rings.
19. Favorite fic I’ve written? That's hard I'm stuck between my current WIP and When Stars Sing (both linked above) although I also really love Your Face, So Sweet, another modern AU Russingon fic about adopting baby Gil-Galad.
Did I miss a question somewhere?? I don't think so but if y'all have any other questions or requests for fics my askbox is always open even if I'm a slow writer at the moment.
Tagging: @last-capy-hupping, @arofili, @i-did-not-mean-to, @jaz-the-bard, @secretlythranduil, and anyone else who wants to, make sure you tag me because I want to see everyone's answers!!!
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giggly-squiggily · 6 months
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Aaaaaaa Sguiggily !!! Happy birthday !!! 💫✨ I hope you have yourself an absolutely wonderful day ahead, you've given so many of us fellow fluff enthusiasts strength and energy through your writing, and I want to extend my deepest thanks for always doing your best to put a smile on our faces. 🤲💕 I can't tell you how many times I've come back to several prompts and fics you've done for a pick-me-up hehe
Speaking oooof! I didn't get to send this earlier cause I was out but aaauUWWAAAAHHHH your fill for my sacredshipping puff submission was just--so so perfect, I kept thinking about it this whole day. 😭💖💖💖 You really shouldn't worry about their characterization, I think you did a wonderful job - Morty being the ler in this case was a surprise but a Beautiful and Welcome one for Dang sure !!! You really captured that essence of how laid back and calm Yet cheeky he can get, especially with someone he cares deeply for like Eusine (which makes him quite the notoriously excellent tease, whether he realizes it or not hohohoohh) 💕💕💕 I hadn't realized how much I've been craving for a lee!Eusine until I drew him for my own comic project (this man's smile is just so captivating I swearrrrr) so seeing him struggle to regain composure out of his own giggling was just aaaaaaa///////////// wonderful wonderful wonderfullllll 🙏✨✨✨ Thank you so much again! And have a great week ahead :}
AHH I'M GONNA CRY! Thank you so, so much friend! Your kind words really made my day all the more special! I'm honored to bring some joy and pick-me-ups when you need them! Thank you for giving me the chance to share my humble stories with everyone! :)
EEE YAY!!! I'm so happy you liked it! :D It was an absolute joy to write for you! I can't deny- I was originally gonna make it Lee!Morty, but once I sat down to write it, the need for Eusine smiling and giggly was too much to ignore! I'm beyond happy I could make your day with some classic sacredshipping!
Have an amazing week aswell, friend!
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murasakin · 6 months
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Would Havann share tea from the pot on his (?) hip or is that for him alone or does it only brew poison or something else?
aHH thank you for the question i'm so honoured 🥺is it that obvious he's my current hyperfix HAJFKSJD
the version of havann with the teapot is after he's been reformed, for lack of a better word. it was a kintsugi teapot one of the party members i DM picked up from a city, and when she saw how havann's facade was beginning to crack, she offered it to him. the message of how something broken can become something beautiful resonated with him
there's a lot more context and nuance that would be too lengthy to add, but he finally relented and accepted help
so the pot is pretty much a symbol to him, a reminder not to give in to loss and to believe in people again. that he is not beyond happiness or redemption.
with that though, yes he definitely shares tea from it, but only during special occasions and only for himself and the party who accepted him 😌
a fun thing to note if you look at his gentler future design vs his earlier one is that he has something else at his hip that he then replaced with the kintsugi pot--that bag contained something definitely more akin to poison.
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apocalyptichearts · 1 year
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hi yes i definitely love your edits, will literally get the songs stuck in my head at 3am and open up tiktok (and blind myself) to watch them on loop. don’t be surprised if you randomly get gifted a work one day bc it’s probably me basing it off one of your song edits ;P
i have a lot of maydaisy thoughts so apologies in advance if this is a mess and very adhd-riddled but these are my song recs:
1. when god made you my mother by riley roth
when god made you my mother
he knew who i’d need
when he picked you from the others
he could already see
that you would be my hero
and everything i wanna be
when god made you my mother
he was being good to me
2. i get to love you by ruelle
i can’t believe it’s true
i get to love you
it’s the best thing i’ll ever do
i get to love you
it’s a promise i’m making to you
whatever may come
your heart i will choose
forever i’m yours
forever i do
(tbh using this in my long fic but would love to see an edit with this too!!)
3. right here by ashes remain
i will show you the way back home
never leave you all alone
i will stay until the morning comes
i’ll show you how to live again
and heal the brokenness within
let me love you when you come undone
4. my love, my life (mamma mia 2)
my love, my life
are the words i try to find,
my love, my life
but i know i don't possess you
with all my heart, god bless you
you will be my love and my life
you’re my one and only
and
in the now and beyond
nothing and no one can break this bond
5. the ones who dream by victoria carbol
literally just. the whole thing.
6. true colours (either version but anna kendrick & justin timberlake might be better vibe-wise)
i see your true colours
and that's why i love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colours are beautiful
like a rainbow
and
can't remember when
i last saw you laughing
if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
just call me up
‘cause i will always be there
7. golden sky by jessica jung
pretty much the whole thing but if i may be so bold as to shine the spotlight on:
you’ll never know behind my smile
i wanna tell you you’re my golden sky
and
today, today, today
i’ll be thanking you for being by my side
every minute, second, forever
you’ll be a part of me till the end of time
in my golden sky
you’re my shining light
pls don’t feel pressured like you have to use these; i’m just highkey bursting with maydaisy thoughts and also very mad my fic won’t write itself so i just kinda needed an outlet ahdjksks
thank you for all ur hard work with your edits and your ao3 oneshots tho!! they are reread and rewatched many times by yours truly <3
ahh thank you sm, audios are a pain to find and this makes it sm easier!! <3
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seijorhi · 2 years
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fic asks <33
most of these are for Sea Change and Heedless, Heartless, but there are some other misc ones in here too!
I just finished reading 'Sea Change'... It was— I don't even know how to describe how stunningly written it was! The care taken into crafting the story, to give the readers an entire movie with just words— it's amazing! Seriously, I could vividly see everything! Even little Hatori, looking like a tiny little Oikawa, I could picture Darling's crying face as they remembered everything leading up to that particular situation! It really did play out just like a beautiful, heartbreaking film in my head! I just adore your writing so much. I hope you're doing amazing. Take care!! 💙💙 - @perhapsimacat
ahh thank you my love <33 yea sea change is just... sad. cute, because hatori's so damn adorable, but i wanted sad vibes there, so i'm glad that came through! ILY!! <33 i hope ur day is going well too bby!
Rhi! How you write such good works??
i made a deal with a witch <33
Two fics in a row???? Rhi, pinch me, I must be in heaven - @artemis32
it's cuz ily so much. i gotta keep y'all fed don't i??
U ARE AMAZINGGGGGG IM CRYINGGg sREAMING for THAT iwa shsksjjsjsjsj can he bully me like that iM BEGGING
iwa: i'm not a bully like oikawa
iwa: proceeds to be just as bad if not worse than oikawa ghfjdkhfjd
love how u keep the obsession over iwaoi alive for me, two such AMAZING works n on my knees to thank u for that rhi muahhh <3<3<3
UR WELCOME BBY!! i'm just glad you liked em :)
well. well you’ve done it again. chilling work rhi!!! i have to ask—how did oikawa react when he found out you escaped? how did hatori react 😞 oh poor bubs
poor hatori :c @krystalwithakay made comment about how ANOTHER mother is abandoning him and i felt so guilty vgfdhjkcjhfdjsk SHE DIDN'T HAVE A CHOICE! but no, hatori's so confused about where his mama is because quite literally up until that point, as far back as he can remember she's spent every single day with him. he's so devastated but also too young to really understand why she's not there and giving him good morning cuddles??
oikawa on the other hand?? oof. he has to try very, very hard to keep his cool so he's not scaring hatori but boy is PISSED. also, very worried about the reader cuz she's six months pregnant with his daughter, alone and god knows fucking where.
oikawaaa
agreed <33
Amazing writing rhi!! I am absolutely screaming though at how oikawa was deserted in both fics (deserved, but god damn)
i know!! who am i?? being so mean to my beloved. but he did definitely deserve it in both fics. i like to think that sea change is more of a... temporary problem hehehe. heedless, heartless on the other hand... who's to say :))
Reader Chan’s friends and family are the worst and the school let Toru stay but kicked out reader what kind of sexist double standard is that anyway great fic reader and Hajime both need therapy tho I think Toru is beyond help
literally the standards are below the floor. everyone knows it's oikawa in the vid but because you don't technically see his face the school's like :)) welp not our problem :)) meanwhile to the reader they're all 'we have a reputation to protect this is unacceptable, begone, whore!'
there wasn't as much i was able to elaborate on with her friends and family, but her family had incredibly high expectations of her, she was very much a good student who wanted to do well and had like a five year plan and so getting kicked out of school a few months out from graduation, not to mention the reason WHY she was kicked out, yeah they were not happy. assholes the lot of them. poor reader, i still love her (and so does tooru and hajime hehe)
Do you think yan! Emma is someone who would take advantage of her family (having all three brothers in powerful gangs must be rly convenient) to get to her objective, or do you think she'd actually do the dirty work herself ?
i actually think she'd wanna keep her darling as separate from mikey/izana/shin's gang related stuff because she doesn't wanna put the reader in danger. she's not above a little dirty work herself ;))
you said koko thinks himself to be in love with reader, but do the other bonten guys think the same? like in the privacy of their own minds, can they admit they have some sort of love/fondness for reader (even if they’d never act like it or say so), or do they genuinely think of her as a toy to play with until it breaks and nothing more?
mikey knows he's in love with her, kakucho admits that he feels something for her (he's probably the only one to admit to himself that it's certainly not a healthy kinda feelings, but feelings all the same) sanzu and the twins definitely have an obsession, and there's a fondness there, but i wouldn't go so far as to call it 'love'.
whoa okay but choking and slapping? Now that’s terrifying for reader...I would have thought kaku might be a little better than the rest since he seems more calm and kinda looks out for reader? Also, I cannot imagine how terrifying sanzu’s bad day will be for reader since he’s already unstable
as i said kaku's fine on a good day, but not every day is a good day. he carries a lot of issues and guilt and maybe has slight abandonment issues (people he love tend to be taken from him) that make him a little possessive and rough at times.
sanzu's bad days mean the reader watching people die in awful ways before getting brutally fucked in/around/near their blood/bodies so yeah... not fun.
https://www.tumblr.com/mintmatcha/697660715787583488 Which Yan do you think it's
visually i'd say oikawa but tbh it could work for a lot of them
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saryasy · 2 years
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sary baby <3 15. dearest / ache (you can use one or both, do as you please!)
ahh a, my dear, thank you so much for the prompt 💖💖 this is very different so I hope you enjoy it!
the prompts list
15. Dearest/Ache
My dearest Sam,
How are you, my love? I hope this letter finds you well.
It has been 107 days since I was shipped out. I know because I counted them myself, one by one. And as each one passes, I miss you more and more. I lie in bed and think of you, of your beautiful smile, your calming voice. The nights are cold without you, my dear, and I want nothing more than to hold you, to touch you, to feel you.
I get anxious waiting for your letters. I hold them delicately for they were once in your hands. I read them quietly to the candlelight over and over, I can almost hear your voice whispering them to me.
My darling, there is an ache deep in me that can’t be calmed by anyone but you, and it has been growing impossibly large with every second I am away from you. I wish for this war to be over, for me to come back home to you, to hold you in my arms once again, my absolute beloved Sammy.
I love you and I miss you.
Yours forever and beyond,
James
This is the last known communication of Sergeant James Buchanan Barnes. It was intended for his roommate (read: lover) Samuel Thomas Wilson, but its transport was intercepted at the border, making it impossible for it to reach its destination.
Sam Wilson - known as the Falcon to his fellow airmen at the 58th Rescue Squadron in the Air Force - went on to live a happy and long life, though he never married. On his death bed, Wilson's last words were of Barnes' name.
Some historians believe that Sergeant Barnes didn’t die on his last mission the night after this letter was sent out. Some theorize that he actually survived his fall from the train and went on to become the infamous Winter Soldier, the main suspect in many profile killings spanning across decades, though nothing was ever proven, including the existence of the Winter Soldier himself (who many believe was nothing but a conspiracy theory, a ghost story with no basis in reality.) Others believe that he reunited with Wilson before the latter’s death, and was present at his funeral according to conflicting and unreliable accounts.
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