#that's just what it's like to be 27 tbh

[birchbow]

Around what age do the trolls go through pupation?

I think it ranges over a sweep or two, starting a little younger with lowbloods just because they live way shorter lifespans overall, but by the timeline I've set up it seems like around 14-ish sweeps, at least for purplebloods. Like, a bell-curve in the 13-15 range, with the majority all going at once somewhere around the middle.

#ask time! #that's just what it's like to be 27 tbh #every color has their own bell-curve and they're all fairly close together but a rustblood would probably pupate like #a sweep earlier maybe on average. #it's easy to go ''oh troll pupation=human puberty'' but I don't like that #1. these are bug aliens from killplanet deathorb and I don't want to give them 1:1 life-cycles with humans #2. the weird reinvention of self that goes on in someone's twenties is much more interesting to me as a concept anyway #did I physically turn into mush and vanish into a cocoon when I graduated college and moved out of my parents house??? no! #but boy it sure the fuck felt like it #I came back out and I was the same person but my skin was tougher and my fangs were longer and not all the damage was fixed but #I at least had a new rebuilt body to weather my damage with #and I mean I was already writing a twenty-something Gamzee and I wanted to write pupation so it worked out haha

[marshmallowgoop]

no thoughts just Heiji Hattori (HD)

#detective conan #case closed #amv #my amvs #eye strain #heiji hattori #harley hartwell #conan edogawa #shinichi kudo #funimation english dub script #video #happy two-year anniversary to 'no thoughts just heiji hattori'! #while it's not my first amv (it's maybe my... fifth?) #it was the first one i made with davinci resolve and the amv that really got me into editing amvs for real #it's the amv that made me believe i could make amvs 🥺 #and in remastering it i deeply understood how ambitious it was! i thought i did a lot of audio mixing for 'messed up' #but that's not even close to all the audio mixing i did here--cannot believe that i did all this for my first big amv project #it took about 20 hours *just* to remaster! #which is something i've been meaning to do for a while now so i'm very happy to finally share the results! #to make this a 'remaster' and not a 'redo' the only changes i tried to make were to the source footage and audio #video now uses almost entirely hd remastered footage from my blu-rays or netflix rather than my dvds #but oh gosh was it *hard* not to touch anything else! i'd do so many things differently now #but this video will always be really special to me (and i can't believe i did it at all tbh!) #i hope seeing it in hd is fun too! i'm so blown away by all the love this vid's gotten #and that it helped increase interest in funi's old english dub is amazing and 100% what i was trying to do with it! #thank you everyone for all the support <333 i wouldn't be the video editor i am today without this vid or your encouragement for it <3333 #like the original the sources used are mostly from what funi dubbed (but mixed in hd by me!): eps 48-49 57-58 77-78 117 and 118 and movie 3 #but i also used episodes 141-142 174 189 239 263 277 291 293 345 479 491 517 and 522 #and ova 3 and tv special 6 (episode one) and movies 10 and 13 and ops 27 31 and 33 and the funi 5.2 dvd blooper for the one line lol #i'm sorry i've been so absent lately! i hope to be more active now... and there are 2 completely done amvs that i'm just waiting to post...

[coach-ukai-keishin]

me: Sigh..... why am i so attracted to pathetic 27 y/o anime men who have nothing and nobody in their lives...... why is it their utterly unfuckable vibe that GETS me somehow. that Vexes me like this. where did all of this start. why. how. What Is The Meaning Of An Existence As Twisted As This?

the therapist inside of my head (i have a real therapist but i wouldn't tell her stuff like this):

#haikyuu!! #coach ukai keishin #ukai keishin #ukai junior #reigen arataka #howls moving castle #howl jenkins pendragon #howell jenkiny #yeah thats the holy trinity #idk #the coach and reigen arent even 27 #but they feel like it!!! #omg wait #kakashi #kakashi hatake #naruto #almost forgot him lol he's a real one #idk just wished he was a bit more...... you kmow #grabable around the waist #idk what i'm talking about tbh #but y eah #howell jenkins #my stuff

[5oz-mud]

setting them up in my brain in the warmest coziest apartment before i start to absolutely microwave them.

#jeanpress #pressedjeans #theyre the ones microwaving my brain tbh #CAN SOMEBODY PLS TALK TO ME ABOUT JEANPRESS IM GOIN CRAZY IN MY ENCLOSURE <- guy with 27 page google doc #best jeanist #mr compress #mha #getting re-obsessed w this again. #winter months rly hit and i was like OK GUYS TIME TO DO EXACTLY WHAT INWAS DOING LAST WINTER #OH AND ALSO. one lung gang thing. I HAVE A BONE TO PICK WITH JEANIST TELLING HAWKS HE CAN LIVE WITH ONE LUNG. #LIKE. 1) you got hit in the ABDOMEN wtf are you on abt lungs for?? 2) NO YOU CANT ? #bro confused kidneys with lungs again 😂😂! classic ! #also idk if compresses injuries r actually his lungs it just looked like his whole side was blody idk idk im just out here having fun #opossum jeanist was literally just bc of a joke w my friend. #hakamada tsunagu #atsuhiro sako #half of these i made like. a year ago and half of them i made literally last night. u gotta guess which tho

[weaselshaped]

Hmm I need to make another embarrassing gender post but not right now I think

#Embarrassing in that like. I mean it's all embarrassing. It's embarrassing to have spent this long missing the point #And to talk about that in public. I am 27 years old and I have id'd as nonbinary for almost a decade and yet I could not refer to myself #as transmasc or incorporate that meaningfully into my self-concept until like. This year. Due to... REASONS??? #I literally don't even know! There IS no reason! I just didn't want to deal with it because it seemed harder than resigning myself to being #mistaken for a woman for the rest of my life??? I guess???? Stupid and cowardly tbh #Meanwhile tying myself in knots over like. Disproportionately identifying with queer men in fiction and deciding this was some sort of Crim #'Here is a thing that transmascs often do. Not me though I'm doing it for some other reason' I wasted SO MUCH TIME on this #It's not even really important i just invested a lot of energy into repression for WHAT. and like also on the internet the way I have #described myself over time is like. I am probably revealing some embarrassing things about the way I have engaged with my relationship to #gender that were not apparent until I started getting over myself/moving on from that bullshit. So that's great #I don't know man I would like to feel unequivocally good about sorting my shit out and finally doing what needs to be done #but mostly I just feel like I took too long and now I'm making myself look like an idiot. Idk man. I suck actually! #Oh look I basically did make the post anyway but as tags. Extremely me behavior

[clippy]

so today (12/30/22) marks the 10 year anniversary of me making a gijinka of clippy and literally altering the course of my life... i've talked in-depth about the specifics multiple times but that doesn't matter right now... what matters is Clippy is still one of my favorite characters of all time and i love him so much

#clipart #clippitag #i had no idea what to do w the background but i cant look at this anymore so just. take it. #fun fact! i was 17 when i designed my gijinka of him. and his gijinka's age was 22 #i later changed it to 24 but now im. 27. im officially like. decently older than him #tho tbh if/when i ever revisit my like. story for him and the other OA's #i might make him closer to 30 based on how my 20's were... his character doesnt really work as well #anyway my life is completely different 10 years later which is wild to think about #but this funny paperclip man has helped me through a lot of it #also these days im more attached to Normal Clippy but human!clip is still really important to me

[outeremissary]

So it turns out that I have so many tabs open on my computer that one of them is from right after this was originally posted and preserves the post that I deleted and didn’t look at since in shame. Now that I’ve been forced to see it again it’s Literally Not That Bad. Maybe it’s just that I’m sleep deprived and looking at it again on the monitor with the most fucked up color ever but it’s not deleting bad. And thus. It shall be restored.

Apologies for the delay... @dmagedgoods​ and @silversiren1101, y’all tagged me in this. Thanks for the tag.

Blank here or under the cut.

#yeah it's like amateur hour graphic design for suresies and the portrait just isn't well suited to this purpose but literally who care #you can see that I didn't know what to do with job (which tbh I assume was originally for WoLs?) so I just got silly and never revisited it #a fun fact about this is that I drew the portrait specifically for this because I felt a bit embarrassed to reuse art #and at the time I'd only been tagged by sphinx. #but I got sucked in and by the time I was done I checked my notifications and I'd been tagged a second time #oops #tag game #balthazar lucienne #dmagedgoods #silversiren1101 #and I will NOT delete it a second time #you HEAR that future me??? #anyway I could add like a page of notes to basically any one of the sliders because I am capable of Infinite Talking #nicknames that real people have called Balthazar: Balth and Balty #balthazar's age is subject to change if I ever decide I was an idiot about timeline details. #although I've been an idiot filling these out because I'm pretty sure 24 is supposed to be his age in 4710 AR #so it should at the very least NOT have been what was on the shipping one... probably should have been 27

[akkivee]

that’s!!!!! something!!!!!!

#this is vee speaking #me on sunday night: oh manga updates should be happening soon when do they update??? oh 4/26 and 4/27???? #me: oh 😀 so wednesday and thursday accounting for the time difference— *insert jojo tbc screen* #i don’t know how to tell time that’s just part of my character setting LOL #ANYWAY THIS IS A LOT FR #like that is such a technical skill i’m not entirely sure what to make of it lol #like what’s probably about to derail this dh strategy is saburo’s mentality to rework himself to overcome/endless potential #but who in this cast isn’t mentally strong enough to handle more poignant criticism lol #how………… how do you use rosho’s ability lol #ohhhhh but wait i was talking about how ineffective raps seemed to be against honobono and ichijiku #because they don’t view men highly enough for them to be hurt by their words so maybe rosho’s could function as a way to damage them 🤔 #and rei’s is incredibly similar to hifumi’s i’m very startled lol #i would love an official description for it because it looks like it’s just a move planted for future use #(very rei tho tbh it’s giving ‘laying the groundwork for a future goal’ and would be one hell of a move at the end of a match) #c: rosho

[highlifeboat]

Madhouse was a nightmare. I cant do it again

I've beaten it a few times (like maybe 3 or 4). But it's also because I've played RE7 a shitton. Sometimes the suffering reminds me of how nice Normal and Easy mode are.

Madhouse is worse than VoS in my opinion (in terms of difficulty) because in Village you have New Game Plus but RE7 doesn't. At least not to the same extent.

Like you get the Albert-01, and there are things that you get after beating it once that kinda help if you do it again, but you always start with basically nothing. The main upside is that once you beat Madhouse once you get infinite ammo (which is a fucking godsend in that mode). And the buzz saw. Which is nice but kinda useless.

And any other upgrades you have (Inifinite Ammo, defence coins, X-Ray Glasses, ect) ALL take inventory space. But not in 8.

In Village you can go into your first VoS run with a full inventory of healing items and stocked up on crafting stuff, along with infinite ammo. You can go into it with a fully upgraded magnum with infinite ammo if you wanted.

Basically, you can go into VoS as a fucking tank compared to Madhouse.

And that's not to say that VoS is lesser or whatever because of it. I'm pretty sure it's not designed to play through on a fresh save, and it makes for a fun challenge regardless. But if I had to pick which one I personally consider easier, it'd be VoS.

#tbh i don't mind madhouse #but also i've played re7 WAY more than RE8 #like i just enjoy 7 more (which is wild because i don't talk about 7 that much anymore. It's my favourite RE game though.) #the only thing that gets me is Mia's starting fight in Madhouse #girl is bullet sponge and for WHAT #like damn babe just die already i shot you in the fucking face 27 times #had to kill her with the axe once (and succeed) cuz i ran out of bullets #that was awful #i'm so sorry for the ramble btw i did not realize i was this passionate about Madhouse vs VoS #asks #fatallyidiotic

[itspileofgoodthings]

the thing is—-it doesn’t feel impossible. It feels increasingly plausible.

#meeting someone I mean #meeting my husband #part of me knows he’s out there #and that I’ll meet him when it’s right #God’s plan! #i can almost feel it though. not in terms of specifics or getting overly attached to some imaginary version #but I know and believe and trust that it could happen #(a confusingly worded sentence) #like underneath all the insecurities and sadness and worry of being 26 almost 27 #i know I am a lot of a woman (positive) #i know I am interesting and layered and complex and funny #and it’s just most men won’t want that #but it feels very likely that one WILL #that there is someone out there who will be delighted by my intensity and inability to shut up about myself #and impressed by my brain and protective of my heart #and in need of me and my love #the older I get the more likely it feels tbh #like. it’s a mark of reality #of course I don’t know the future and can’t predict it #it’s all in God’s hands and I am glad about that but I guess what I’m saying is that I trust that intuition and I see no reason to not #cynicism about romance is of course tempting but it’s also very stupid #and fundamentally contrary to how reality and love both work #the more specific I am. the more I live my life with my whole heart and try to do my best #my many failings and meltdowns aside #the closer I know I am to finding what is meant for me #which. i guess could NOT be a husband. but I feel like it is #it’s fine either way! because God knows what I need #but yeah #anyway I am glad replies are turned off #my musings about my (not real) romantic journeys always prompts a lot of discussion

[kikirambles]

got my supervisor to check my eyes and good news!! i probably dont have glaucoma! but bad news. i probably have ocular hypertension

#but im glad i finally know my next steps instead of like just sitting here hoping i wont go blind #kiki rambles #tbh i was more nervous about asking for a free check up more than anything hsksbks but she was so nice 🥲 thank u maam #when she said my iop was 27 my blood ran cold like did it get even higher what #i need to ask her why i have this in my early 20s cuz this is an old people disease.......

[oh-katsuki]

what shoujo manga are you currently reading? and what are some of your faves?

right now im reading "the story of our unlikely love" and it's VERY cute, a little cheesy, but cute. i also just caught up with skip and loafer and it's SO SO SO SO cute!!!

and hmmm my favorites have to be kimi ni todoke, our precious conversations (SO SO SWEET), ao haru ride, and (even though it's not exactly shoujo) blue flag (my all time fav, i would kill to read this for the first time again) !!!

i kinda forget a lot of the manga i read and i feel like im missing some that left a big impression on me but those are the ones off the top of my head rn!!!

i've read so many i need to start keeping a list bc i always forget 😭😭😭

#[ 🏩 – chatting ] #please this single handedly inspired me to keep a list of the stuff i read #because i KNOW im missing some FANTASTIC ones #but i CANT THINK OF THEM #i also just finished reading 'living room matsunaga-san' after seeing a million ads for it #but im not reccing it because it's age gap and borderline illegal #im sure u can guess what i mean by borderline illegal but what i mean is that she is 17 and he is 27 #i still thought it was cute tho PFT #a bit creepy at times #but like pretty deece for an age gap tbh #doesnt compare to sesame salt pudding tho

[korattata]

i wish tumblr would let me put 2 videos in one post so i could post a comparison of how Chicory was acting normal and then 48 hours later was acting. not okay.

mostly so i could just point at it and go 'why are rats like this'

#thankfully she is doing better after i have given her a few doses of some of kyle's medicine #because. the way she was acting weird. makes me think it's probably also a pituitary tumor like he had :/ #i know i'm being that annoying person that vets hate by diagnosing my pets myself #but when you have had 27 rats and your vet isn't able to see your rat until like 5 days later anyway #i think you should be allowed to do this. it took her 48 hours to go from completely fine to wobbly and lethargic #i can't just wait 120 more hours to hear what's actually wrong. she'd probably just be dead by then. #i haven't given her any of the cabergoline yet because i wanted to be sure she would actually improve with the pred #therefore making it more likely that i am correct on that being what's wrong. but i'm gonna try to give the last pill of kyle's to her #tomorrow morning. i don't have the good stuff that he would take it with tho so i hope she is much less pickly lol. #either way based on how long it took Kyle to show symptoms > when he got to the vet #Chicory. should hopefully. be okay. not sure what i'll do if she's not tbh!!!!!!!!!! #like ffs sakes couldn't you guys have at least waited a whole month. it's not even been a month since Kyle. #new rat ramblings #*new creative post tag here*

[blkwag]

forgot to ask for kimchi with my bibimbap

#tbh when that man told me my meal was 27$ (i got boba too) i was STUNNED #like what the fuck #i’ll just stop by the asian market and get some before i head home #and that lil seaweed side dish too ooo im sick

[astrxealis]

hi good evening (still obsessed with milgram) ... !! ffs i am so busy oh my god but anyway rq, i know i've said a teensy bit about my feelings towards some characters but tbh it all is so complex and honestly i love milgram sm bcs. i used to think about those kinda stuff a lot (still do but was kinda on pause! back again now <3)

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა milgram ໒꒱ *·˚ #it's weird and interesting. what makes a person 'forgivable' or not. 'innocent' or 'guilty' #the point with milgram is that all of them are morally gray or ambiguous and so you really can't just say 'oh this person should not be #here at all!' except for yuno tbh. at least as far as i'm concerned. but there's the fact whether she shows remorse or not #and etc etc etc YEAH there's a lot to think about a lot to factor in. it isn't simple at all #and the thing is i know a lot about fuuta from what there IS to know. but i still have yet to properly see the drama audios #so obviously i can't really say anything just yet. and there's the fact his 2nd trial mv is literally in 2 days so...!! #anyways yeah i love how milgram makes your brain work and think and all. really big fan of the whole concept #and the songs <3 deco*27 so ofc they are all bangers <33 and the voice actors are all so GOOD <333 #anyways yeah this is me from thinking about fuuta more (i am thinking of him a lot) #i love all the characters (in a sense that they are Interesting to me) but for characters i actually love (more like Like as a character?) #that would be not all of them! but in a kind of critical/objective manner uhh i forgot the term but yeah i like them all in a way #it's interesting to think about whether the guilty or innocent verdict is ultimately best for them #with the first trial and the second trial and the fact a lot goes on like with muu and haruka. that makes it even less simple #a part of me doesn't want to vote so i can see how it just goes but yk what i want to take a part in it ofc so! #also esp fuuta <3 but let's see hm. whether my fave is deserving of a better verdict uhh IDK HOW TO PHRASE IT yeah

[colorousme]

For a place where so many neuro divergent / adhd / autistic people come together, flock to even, art school truly is the most hostile and even traumatising environment especially for people like us

#I realised today that graduation and the whole 8 years themselves have for real been traumatising #being graduated allowed me to escape #and now I'm in shambles crying on the floor while I get triggered by things like 'getting out of your comfort zone' #(when it comes to creating art) #and the other day when I watched a video essay about why grades do not work and the part where she talked abot what a grade communicates #and I got So incredibly mad at school all over again #but like #I mentioned neurodiversity because we're already kinda sensitive especially at that age like 18-27 #so going to school in itself is already a challenge #combined with extreme perfectionism and the fear of failure that accompanies it #I already had 2 burn outs during my 8 years there #and I persisted and I graduated now in way that was managable and I created something I'm very proud of #and got the most confusing grading results as a reward #and they didn't even bother to tell me their reasoning!! #genuinely I am so so mad I wanna punch 16 walls #I wish I could go to the building without getting a panic attack tbh that would be nice #just how could they do this to me what happened it's been 8 years and I only remember bits and pieces #I know I learned a ton but it also fucked me up along the way #and now here we are #het zwarte gat na de academie #maar niet het soort dat ik dacht dat het zou zijn #me after graduating #personal shit #colorousme's art school adventures #pretty sure that was a tag I used at some point?