#the first day of school and you die

[frogsandmagic]

“Kristen remember when we died?”

Oh my god why did it just now register to me that that’s like. Their first moment of really bonding with each other. They both died and realized how fucked up their perspective afterlives were, came back traumatized, and that’s like. Forever their first bonding moment as friends. Wild.

#the first day of school and you die #and then you continue to go back every year #and they’re currently fighting to save the school who killed them on the first day #and has almost killed and failed them bc of quests the school has put them on #actually insane when I think about it #fhjy #dimension 20 #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high #d20

[worldsquietestjojosfan]

Mingjue's gaze softens.

"Didi. You are confused. You are misinterpreting brotherly love for romantic interest."

Huaisang clenches his firsts and stares down at the floorboards. His expression morphs into one of pain. He draws in a deep breath.

"Da-ge, please sleep with me." Mingjue's body jerks back at his little brother's words. "If I sleep with you, then I'll know for sure what I'm feeling."

#bro doing anything but organizing her code #my brother says i write like i wasnt allowed to go to school #recently my brother had to do a project for school where he had to pick up a new hobby #he didnt do the assignment and at the last day he was like brother im so fucked help me #so i let him use one of my fanfics for the before and told him to use his own fanfic as an after and present that #his professor told him his improvement was incredible #thats all i have to say #theres something so cringe about when i write #ill write it and be like yeah. and then i read over it and die #unironically i actually run away from my fics. i have never once read them again after finishing #like when i draw. i look at it. im like yeah that part is good that part is bad. pretty mid but its ok. #writing? i turn red and hide from the monster i have created #i think my writing could be lethal. like if i read all my fics one after the other id die from cringe poisoning #i regularly look at my old drawings and cry how much ive regressed. but i can look at them. #one time my friend wanted to torture me so he called me to read my fics out loud. i endorse this as an execution method #shit gets me sweating. i have to get normal about this #some words #wip #the second wip actually #the first one is the saber spirit takes over nmj and he fucks nhs on the training grounds infront of everyone. #second one is nmj is like brother you have to stop being a freak this is getting out of hand and nhs is like nuh-uh. but also how'd you kno #on a side note remember my former student that confessed? yeah well #he proposed marriage

[deadandphilgames]

oversharing in the tags time :)

#i think it’s time i go back to therapy #i keep having recurring nightmares about my ex best friend #or dreams where she reaches out to me. and explains why she cut me out #backstory. in high school had a lesbian toxic situationship with my #bestie. THEN i had another one. which kinda overlapped? the first one was open but also just messy #anyways. jade and i were like together for a year. then she got a boyfriend one day and i had a breakdown #it happened just after high school and i was sooooo … unwell. wasn’t out to my family felt like i was gonna die etc etc #(this is all pre dnp btw) anyways next year i found dnp. a couple months later she broke up with her bf #and we sorted dated for a while (this whole time we’d been just friends and i was still not really over it but hiding it) #and then she dated ANOTHER guy. they broke up and she had a breakdown and moved 9 hours away. i went #to visit her for a month. we like kinda dated again then and i thought we could make it work. then 2020. no travel #so she started dating a guy. didn’t tell me. even though we spoke every day. she moved in with him #then she breaks up with him mid 2021. i started dating my gf. but Jade was clingy and it was awkward #she started dating a sketchy guy who was homophobic. i went and visited her a few times #start of 2023 she tells me she wants to make more of an effort cause he didn’t like her friends so she cut everyone out. then she ghosted #in feb 2023. we had tickets for #mcr in march. i had to text her cause she’d blocked me on messenger and said im going to the concert whether she’s there or not #she said ‘yeah no worries! you can take someone else in my place too 😎’ she used that fucking emoji #and I haven’t spoken to her since. I think she quit her job . and that guy was not a nice man #so I still worry about her #writing this all down makes me realise she was a bitch and I deserve better #but I just want closure. it isn’t fair she replied so casually to my text when I said ‘you’ve blocked me’ #it isn’t fair she HAS MY SIGNED COPY OF DANS BOOK #anyways. I need therapy to get over this #and I haven’t even written about my family issues (im #out and they’re supportive but my god they fucked me #up as a kid) #if you read this hi 👋 hope you are having a lovely day #don’t get in lesbian situationships!!!

[eggs-love-loki]

Me: I’ll watch one episode of my hero after dinner that’ll be fun :)

Me three episodes later, having gone from crying earlier to just pure distress by the end: Well that was the worst choice ever

#my bf and I are watching ‘together’ by setting weekly episode goals and this week’s goal is three so I’m maxed out #I figured I’d watch one a day after school then it would be close to when he can watch them… #whoops #MHA s6 spoilers in the rest of my tags here: #WHY DID THEY DO THAT TO TWICE????? bro I forgot I liked him and then I was just sobbing when he died oh my word #and then almost hawks too I was like noooo I can’t take this #I’m glad tokoyami got a hero moment but also the kids being in danger causes me distress #uhhh laser guy that mic left with shigaraki was #was dumb as hell #like what was that dude #mirko SAID that he’d wake up with ELECTRICITY and you LEFT HIM IN A PUDDLE NEXT TO SPARKING WIRES????? #dumb bitch deserved to die but the rest of the people around the hospital that didn’t outrun the new power up didn’t!! #I thought they were going to kill mic then he got grabbed but then I thought they were gonna kill Aizawa and I was like NO #NOT HIM TOO YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME #but he’s okie for now #shigaraki’s power up is absurd #my live reaction to the spreading crumbling at first was like Gasp then Oh no characters I care about them Oh wow this is crazy #It’s gotten the whole building! then Okay- okay- woah there- alright now stop that. stop that this is ridiculous. knock that off #like there’s powerscaling the villain to be a bigger threat and there’s absurdity this was absurd #alright thanks for reading my review since I can’t talk to my bf about it till he catches up and I needed to say this somewhere

[h0n3yk1tt3n]

FRIRNDO BLENDO!!!! Tell me your bmc glup shitto

THE GIRL AT SEV-ELEV

She's in ONE LINE of ONE SONG and NEVER APPEARS in canon and I MADE HER A MINOR CHARACTER IN A LONG COMIC™️ ON INSTAGRAM BACK IN 2019-2020

Backlog Part 31, circa March 13, 2020

This comic got me through covid/my senior year you have no idea

Plus the dtiys I hosted after the comic wrapped up, hot damn it's almost the anniversary HHHHHH

She's 19 at the time of the show (+ after vimh) so she's 3 yrs older than Michael, there are Some sex jokes shared between them but? Idk they're pretty minor all things considered. She's gay so we get that swert wlw mlm solidarity babyyy

#asks #the girl at sev elev #be more chill #michael mell #so i excluded the first panel of this part bc waaaah pic limit #but micha is listening to I Hate Everything About You by Three Days Grace when he comes in #and we see the date and time on his phone is nov 6 at 9:42pm #ITS ON NOV 6 bc thats after halloween AND when micha says 'some say i did [die]' its bc of the rumor mill spawned from the fire #bc he hasnt gone to school since halloween cuz hes being an angsty little shit #they havent learned each others real names by this point so they just call each other Red and Blue and Slushee Girl #god i miss this comic #and its sequel #i should really work on the third installment #BUT my current wip has consumed my lift for the past 3 yrs so #maybe later #ANYWAY YEAH UHH SLUSHEE GIRL IS MY BMC GLUP SHITTO #geez should i post backlog + its sequel here? it literally ended three years ago but #idk lmk #mj says shit

[wonderbuster]

Fuckkkkk it's that time of month againnnn 😔

#First days are when the cramps hit the WORST- #Thank God they're usually on near the end of school but #My tummy ain't surviving shit man #Can I just die real quick that would be very appreciated please and thank you #BusterRambles

[kittycowboy]

The meower

#Queued... technically March 23rd? #I mean its march 22nd in oregon. but im not there rn lolz #either way im late. SORRY !! i forfor to queue on the 20th then i was on planes for like 21 hrs total #well no 5 of those were a layover @ the airport but #ANYWAYYYYY hi future me !!! #Howww was the trip? im on my first (second actually- its 4am of the second day if u coukd the arrival) day in Hong Kong #Its rlly hot and humid so I think im gonna die. BUT ITS ALSO SUPER COOL !! #Even just from the few hours I had out earlier its amazingggg. The lights and the buildings are so cool and theres such a fun but chaotic #atmosphere - idk if its just bcs its a big city or specific to HK? #I loveee large cities in general. New york. Tokyo. HK. thats all of the ones ive been to ig #I havent seen even close to all of HK. Im in central rn but we're goin to other parts later #Dad says the other parts are totally different- Like theres LOADS of gisnt buildings here (WAY MORE THAN U SEE IN ******!!! u know that tho #and theyre almost all residential of the ones I passed. Im sure theres offices n stuff i just didnt see them in the likd 20 minutes cab #ride lolz. U know all tuis already tho #ig what im getting at is HOW WAS THE TRIP !!!!! How was the rest of HK? WHAT WAS KYOTO LIKE?? #augh soo many cool things..... #Also also !! Have you learned any mire katakana? #ive JUST learned the vowel line so maybe u lesrned the k line now too? #I cant imagine school is any different. OHH DID U FINISH THE M P 10P COMIC?? #I started it and got abt one page done on the plane #I think it should only end up being two or three pages idk #Ohh !! Hows the new meds going !! I think u should have ur blood test done by now so do u know if it helped at all? #I hope soooooooooooo #Mm I think thats all I have to say .... NO WAIT HAVE U HUNG OUT W/ JACKIE?? #i rlly want to b friends with her ^.^ #Alright Thats all !! HAVE A GOOD DAYYYYYY I LOVE U #queue drop #weather report #WAIT EDIT DID THE TRIGUN VOLUME COME. HOW IS IT

[loverboybrightsideghost]

i really do love practicing 🎻

#i'm in music school so now it's a much more significant source of my already very significant fears #but practicing only feels stressful when i don't do it enough and i'm trying to 'catch up' #some weeks fly past me like hurricanes and i get to my lesson and i can't say i've made any progress and that fucks me up #and i don't think that's ever going away- like i'll always have weeks like that cuz everyone has bad days and bad weeks #from time to time #but when i plan correctly (which is becoming more and more the norm for me) my practicing is something im really proud of :) #i have a System. i didn't do very well before i had it and i would die without it now. #i get excited about learning! i get excited having realizations abt things to change or work on when i practice! #it feels experimenty a lot of the time and i like it!!! #i have a lot of catching up to do in terms of comparing myself to others but i'm not here for them i'm here for me #i will do my best and i will learn from others of course but my goals are to make my Me better first and worry abt other people later #i won't lose sight of that #<- and when it doesn't feel experimenty it can be calming to just be like okay ik what i need to do now just. Practice. Repeat. #i mean music is a fucking rollercoaster and sometimes you are at the bottom and i hate that but it comes w the territory #sometimes you're just Stuck but you do get past it and in those moments i just try to think back to previous times ive felt like that #ive felt horribly shitty before and gotten through it and come out the other side slightly better! #life is like that i think #anyways. hashtag iris loves music and being a musician 🙄 nothing new over here hehe

[waywardsalt]

in post-ph specifically a really old idea ive had is that linebeck is extremely, extremely possessive of his coat, but if in a situation where he fears he might actually die, he gives it to the person he trusts to save him, or he gives it to someone he cares about that seems to be on the brink of death

#its not permanent unless he dies. which he doesnt in any of the cases of this happening #at the end of the day its like a symbol of his immense trust and respect for the person and a sign that he really thinks hes not making it #bc otherwise you cannot touch that thing. rn i really only have one scenario with this with link damien and bellum each #link’s is the one where hes afraid the other person will die but hes also afraid hes going to die at that moment its a whole thing #other cases are if he thinks he wont be able to get out of smth without it being damaged or if he just wants it to be safe #theres a bit where he has to be separated from the crew for a bit so he preemptively gives it to damien for safekeeping #generally if linebeck hands his coat to someone its a Bad Sign. something is very wrong #bellum is the only one who understands the gravity of it when he first sees it bc like. hes been in linebecks mind he knows the abstract #idea of how protective linebeck is of it. and he has no idea how to feel the first time linebeck gives it to him. its a warm feeling #with damien its a mixture of terrified and dutiful he understands it as being trusted with it and makes sure to keep it safe #he understands what the coat means to linebeck just not on the same visceral level as bellum. link also has a good idea of how much #linebeck cares about his coat but its filtered through being a slightly mischievous kid whos tried getting to it before. when hes actually #given it or sees linebeck hand it off the first (few) times hes really scared and a bit confused until the idea clicks for him #this is an ooooold idea i think its from back when post ph was mostly going to be a 50 chapter thing using a 50 word challenge list #if anyone remembers those. this shit originates from middle school. the olden days. before damien existed #i like linebecks coat being an item tied to his identity its what he wants its something he finds comfort in its something he made himself #salty talks #post-ph #this might carry over a little to some other aus but these situations dont really happen the same was as they might in post ph

[rosekasa]

I totally get not having good Bengali! I speak Hindi at home but when I'm with my friends who understand it they all make fun of me cuz I'm so bad 😭😭

HAHAHW MY SITUATION IS THE OPPOSITE 😭 i have a lot of bengali friends at uni and so it's easy for me to speak to them in bangla because they don't laugh at me, but my family ALWAYS LAUGH AT ME because i only ever speak english at home!!! it's so embarrassing dhfksjsj

#when i went to BD i remember i met my dad's side of the family for the first time #and we were having a REALLY big dinner with EVERYONE in that family #and i was speaking to one of my older cousins who i had never met before this day #and i was trying to say something in bangla and this man fully looks at me and says #'did you not finish school? why can't you speak bangla?' #i wanted to die i was so embarrassed #but then i also couldnt help but think #why would i be learning Bangla in a british school #technically shouldn't me not being good at bangla show that i went to school??? #anyway. #oh the woes of south asian language #ask #anon

[dankovskaya]

There’s always this disturbing urge to put Jews in an imagined “rightful place” hierarchically from people on literally any point of the political spectrum it is really so crazy. Like even the most otherwise progressive people will only reluctantly “concede” that yes, Jews are *technically* oppressed, but don’t get too rowdy about it cause you’re still white and inherently middle class and probably a zionist! Like people genuinely believe that some stereotypical Western ashkenazic secular reform Jew from an affluent family that spring vaycays in Tel Aviv is what 99% of us are and never see any reason to question that.

#And the crazy thing is that. In my experience at least a lot of white progressive Jews will be the FIRST to point out that #antisemitism tends to cause more outrage or be the ''last straw'' more often than say antiblackness or some other forms of bigotry? #Like at least in the past antisemitism WAS taken comparatively more seriously and there's a reason for that. #Even though that is really starting to wear thin these days. #But its just crazy like the hatred. A Jewish person will say NOTHING and people be frothing at the mouth desperate to tell them #that they're not actually THAT oppressed so shut the fuck up. #Girl. There are security guards outside my synagogue to make sure we don't get shot for singing songs together or being a child #that happens to go to hebrew school. 😭 #And fucking anyway. Even the most otherwise privileged Jew you can imagine is still going to deserve to die in the mind of an antisemite.

[boomerang109]

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN ITS OCTOBER TMRW

#TOMORROW AS IN THREE HOURS AS IN MY MUTUALS ARE ALREADY IN OCTOBER #I CANT #I CANNOT #why is this the first time in my life I’m actively trying to be present and I’ve never been more baffled about where the time went #(it’s a combination of the soul crushing depression and even with the ‘I literally want to die’ depression it’s still easier to get through #days than it ever has been before in my life. how fucking crazy is that. I’m spending my days ignoring the obnoxiously loud part of my brain #that’s like ‘you know you really want to be dead right?!’ and I’m still like. functioning better than I ever have in any school semester #ever before. ever. like. what. HUH. #the other day I was just thinking about myself and I just went ‘someone should really study me’ and I honestly don’t think I’m wrong #my friend used to joke that I was a medical mystery #and actually it was just a tmj thing and i didn’t sleep right for 21 years but like #ISNT THAT MORE FASCINATING #like idk if I’m just using my own small understanding of the thing to blow up the situation? but based on how drastically my life has #changed even while my mental health is still shit it’s just crazy to me

[thursdayg1rl]

i have no idea what I’m going to wear on this holiday btw..

#we need have two ‘formal attire’ dinners #I have this jumpsuit I can wear for one of them ig #other one no clue #then the first day I guess I can wear my white linen trousers and maybe my pink or striped shirt… #this is where we run out of trouser options . no I am not joking. #was trying to find these brown ones I had but i don’t know where she put them ..probably threw them away ! so #okay actually maybe that first outfit I’ll wear on the second day #bc she said the first day is ‘very comfortable attire’ #but what is that. #maybe a pair of jeans 😭 it will be thirty plus degrees I will die #then the other formal thingy…. #trying to think of good school outfits I have and drawing a serious blank #yeah it’s not looking good for me #the actual engagement I do have an outfit for #but then we’re supposed to bring more comfortabl clothes #maybe I can reuse the white trousers 😭😭 #the day after is like a picnic/barbecue #girl….. do you think my aunt will kill me if I ask to buy clothes for this #I actually have nothing like when I say nothing… #and there are TWO MORE after that #I don’t have enough clothes… #maybe like a maxi skirt..

[hella1975]

some people in the catering industry are so STUPID okay so where i work usually has two or three KPs on at a time bc it's quite big and the job of the waiting staff when clearing tables is literally just to bring it to the kitchen and leave it on the counter for the KPs to wash up. now you're supposed to put the cutlery in a bucket and scrape all the food off the plates bc that's just the decent thing to do but a lot of the staff literally just DUMP it bc there's a real snobbery thing about KPs and how waiting staff generally think they're better. now there's one woman who does the potwash a lot and ive been friendly to her since the beginning - no ulterior motive it's just the decent thing to do???? i dont understand some people - AND THE THING ABOUT MY JOB IS THAT THE KPS ARE USUALLY TRAINED ON DESSERTS TOO SO THEY MAKE THE DESSERTS anyway found out this woman my bsf had fucked up one of her desserts and she HID IT and waited for ME SPECIFICALLY and i got a free brownie

#like there are so many benefits to being nice and treating human beings like human beings #one is that it is a nice thing to do and being a jerk will make you feel all gross inside #and another is that THEY WILL BE NICE TO YOU IN RETURN #primary school level social skills and yet so many of the staff who are OLDER THAN me #treat this poor woman like dirt #i love her she's so chatty and she really likes me now which is kind of sad bc literally all i did was talk normally to her #like i say hi to her and ask her how her day is and i asked her name when i first started #and i thank her when she takes the plates #it's basic shit it's nothing i need a fucking medal for #BUT she's kinda petty in a really funny way (like not letting any of the other waitresses have the brownie then giving it me IN FRONT OF #THE OTHERS SKDGHKSHD) #like one time there was a queue in the kitchen bc a load of tables left at the same time so we all had plates that needing washin #*washing #and this woman IGNORED the other three girls in front of me and started a convo with me over their heads LMAO #i was like bestie you CANT DO THAT KSHGDKJHG #i love her and the brownie was fucking stunning #also the same way the waiting/bar staff have a real comradery against the kitchen staff when they're being dicks #the KITCHEN staff are renowned everywhere you go for being very cliquey #like you know how everyone always slates chefs? yeah now imagine a group of them who think it's a ride or die environment #and ive been pretty intimidated by the chefs here just bc they're so cliquey and they're not really interested in being friends with #the waitresses like they're there for their own people and nothing else #BUT bc im chummy with this one KP now SHE is one of the kitchen staff and like i said they're very protective of their own #SO NOW THEY ALL LIKE ME LMAO #finessed the system on accident purely by being a nice person #shocking truly! how has no one realised this! when you are nice your life is easier and better! wow! #hella slaves to capitalism

[mrfoox]

Uh you ever.... Feel okay or pretty decent and then you remember your lifes circumstances and then you're at the verge of tears?

#miranda talking shit #Maybe this is too specific but hah yeah ... #I can feel okay and be like ah things are pretty good ! And then i remember how my life 'is' and im close to a breakdown #Trying nit to compare myself to others and so on but like.... Its so hard not to lmao #25 soon and no job havent finished high-school i got no partner (plus i guess a virgin lol) #And all the things i havent done or experienced which is pretty universal? Yeah mmm... Ive lost so much of my time and life to mental #Illness and i cant help but morn that. Like if i didnt have my child trauma id probably have a lot milder anxiety and depression which is #Keeping from doing most things... Id still have my autistic and add struggles but i want to imagine I'd manage to accomplish more if #My dep and anx wasn't this bad bc of my past... I hate how my mentality was wrecked before i even knew how to count to 100 #And sooo many years of my childhood just feeling bad and even suicidal (first time i mentioned wanting to die in my diary i was 10-11...) #Just struggling so many years mentally and since i was so young i couldn't make the connection why i was feeling like it? Like the first #Time i started considering why etc i was already like 16.... I didnt think it was weird to cry every single day as long as i can remember #Now at 25 i am still a crybaby but i do it weekly instead. Its just so ... Weird and sad. You dont understand how serious something was #That happened to you and how it affected you until youre almost an adult... And you start to understand that its not just all on you #Its not just your fault youre struggling so much. Youre not just being lazy and difficult ... God Just wish someone protected me when #It mattered . I know my past could have been worse i could have been treated a lot worse and abused more and still to this day it makes me #Feel iffy or bad to claim i was abused? I mean... I was? But cant help to feel my trauma and experiences is not as serious as others #Like i wasnt sexually abused for example or abused by my parents... And i know many have so i feel its not my ... Right to say anything ? #Like my brothers mentally abused me for years and physically from time to time but it could be so much worse #Idk where im going with this i need to go to my vourses instead im crying in the bathroom like stop #Negative

[b4kuch1n]

3 and 21, if you still wanna :3

oh boy do I! ask game here!

3. What ideas come from when you were little

gods I need to remember what I drew when I was a kid... turns out I've always been interested in messing around with crayons n stuff! according to my mom bc I don't remember any of that at all. the only thing I remember abt drawing as a kid is 4yo me in my kindergarten class drawing a person portrait with only black brown and red for colors because all the other crayons were snatched up by the rest of the class. the teachers were debating putting my drawing on the wall at all bc of how shitty it was lmao. in the end they still put it up but in a far corner where u have to really look for it to find it. garbage but extremely funny thing to do to a 4yo I feel

but yeah I was basically a battery-powered animal of malice as a child lol. I actually didn't commit to drawing as the Thing I do until I was, like, 15yo? so most of what I started with were like, cardcaptor sakura and detective conan fanart. not a lot of connective tissue in there visual-wise. to my own recollection I don't have a "childhood dream" of being an artist or an art vision I deperately want to realise every since I was a babe whatever, I was just extremely bad at making shapes by conventional standard until I started liking very specific things and couldn't find enough of those things out in the wild, and then I started experimenting in my backyard. it's all very mundane and trivial like that, but I'm only some guy afterall

21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways

uncle mod's TPOH I feel like is about as diametrically opposite of my personal styles as possible, but I think it slaps and I love looking at it. I also used to really love yuumei's art and still enjoy it now, even though craft-wise I detest doing that kind of glass-like "anime graphic" so to say rendering. anything hyperrealistic is also definitely outside of my wheelhouse, but when used to do more whimsical stuff I am a big fan of it, like with sun yuan & peng yu's "Fallen Angel" and "Teenager, teenager". I'm a fan of miku! and like 80% of her official visuals are things I would never want to draw myself in a thousand years! I like a lot of art and do very specific, if random, things.

#ask #combustibabe #bakuspeech #artist ask #thank you for the ask! #honestly I do think if I run after every kind of art I find fun to look at I would die before I could take a single breath #I've learned this lesson. art I like and art I do are two entirely different things #I do what feels nice to do. I look at what's nice to look at. these two things are not synonyms #reason 1 of 3874372847 why I would not survive in an art school or a legitimate company #but hey! it's true. it's why not everyone does art all of the time. cause some things suck shit to do! #it all makes sense see (I stand in front of you in disheveled button up and slacks with a stick pointing at the board like I just threw up) #the first question which is the third one in the ask game is also rly interesting to answer bc it makes me realize how like #there isn't really a ''core'' or ''true self'' to my person at all. this is all artifice and made up babey!! #I feel like now that I have more controls over my own environment I will settle a bit. and be recognizeable as a person #but my childhood was and will always be a loose collection of like four different kids #I'm not a character I don't have super clear and in-your-face impactful backstory. I just made myself up one day #the moral of the story is you can do anything forever. just make up a person you wanna be and be that! it's fine #it's all fine! (I have gotten even more disheveled and I crack the pointing stick over my knee)