#they're only an hour each

[kipaia]

surprise panic attack???

#that hasn't happened in at least like five years #idly realized i'm double booked for pretty much my entire weekend #and i didn't get done half the shit i was supposed to get done today #and i'm having surgery on monday (which i'm thrilled about) but everything MUST be done before then T.T #had the passing thought that i forgot to warn my partner about a last minute schedule change with work for the weekend #and i think i just bunny trailed a lightning round of thinking about e v e r y t h i n g that needs to get done and i got super overwhelmed #hence panic attack #been so long i forgot what it feels like and it took me a heck of a while to realize what was happening #think im going to end up calling out of all but my two pre-req tests i'm running this weekend #they're only an hour each #uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh time is passing too slow (i want it to be surgery day T.T) and too fast (there's too much to do between then and now)

[inkskinned]

im gonna start a fight; and, at the same time, i need you to take this in the most good-faith way possible, but:

videos that involve body-checking and intentionally (and uncritically) show a mealplan of an unhealthy number of calories are just a revamped version of pro-ana food diaries.

and yeah, i know there's arguments. i address some of them under the cut. but at the end of the day, we're just coming back to romanticizing mental illness; we've just found a better platform for it.

this is already something we've done. we knew it was wrong and tried to stop it. and tbh. it just wasn't enough.

there are people who argue "well, what if you have an eating disorder, you can't help it if you don't eat!" except that as someone with an ED; we are not infants. we know what we're doing. part of having an ED is that you are like, maybe too self-aware. even if we can't help our own food choices, we don't need to fucking romanticize the disorder - something we've been warning you about since 2013. there are hours of setup, filming, and editing that go into these videos. they do not happen to fall into place randomly. there is a reason they are pieced together to be beautiful, bright, inspiring.

there's this woman who pretty much only posts daily plans under a normal amount of calories, and everyone defends her saying but it's better than nothing! and i'm like. except she opens those with images of her showing off her body and provides no context in the video or caption that suggests that she believes what she's doing is unhealthy. she has hundreds of thousands of followers on a platform designed for young kids and teens. i refuse to believe that by accident her content just happens to be cheery advice on "healthy" versions of starving.

for any other symptom of mental illness, we would be incredibly enraged by this kind of placid acceptance of a "tips and tricks" fast-start guide. imagine if people posted pink & pretty videos saying "best places to cut yourself" as if it was a fucking storytime. we, as a society, are so fucking fatphobic that we would rather accept blatantly harmful displays of self harm than admit that we are obsessed with a hyper-thin body type.

i am not suggesting someone never talks about their disorder. i talk about mine. actually, it's a plot point in my book.

here's the difference: i recognize it's a fucking mental illness. i am very careful to never mention a specific weight, eating pattern, or calorie plan. i always make sure to position it as something that ruined my fucking life. i do not put cheery music in the background and hearts and sparkles over my worst moments. i do not film it in bright light. i do not start each passage with an image of a thin body followed by "here's how to look like her."

eating disorders should not be framed as aspirational. and the problem is that society worships the "after" image, so long as you don't get too sick. there is a reason so many people who quit being "influencers" will later admit - i wasn't eating well that whole time; an obsession with food was completely destroying my life.

we let any uncredited, uncertified person write the most backwards, fucked up shit about how to get the body you desire! because the underlying, secret belief is: well, at least they're thin! and the real thing that fucking gets me each time - they make fucking money off of it. their irresponsibility and societal harm literally pays off for them.

"why do you care so much." "don't like it don't look." "so what if people experiment with new ways of thinking of food?"

thank you for asking. we're about to get extremely personal. it's because when i was 18 i discovered "thinspiration"/"thinspo." and it absolutely influenced, shaped, and codified my pre-existing eating disorder. i went from having some troubling habits and traits to being incredibly unwell within what felt like a matter of days. there were actual pages designed to train me on how to have an ED correctly. it was all so suddenly easy. i was sick; and the nature of the illness meant - i wanted to be sicker.

it takes an average of 7 years for a person to fully recover. i know this personally - even now, 10 years from the worst of it, i still fucking struggle. i am so much happier now and i eat what i want and i literally don't think about food at all (19 year old me would shudder) and yet - i still fucking know the calories of plain toast with butter.

an eating disorder is one of the deadliest types of mental illness. over 1 in 4 people with an ED will attempt suicide.

and i'm sorry. i just do not see the exchange rate of "high rate of engagement" versus "the value of a human life."

#and there's something else in there about like .... #tbh once i got over something like 1k followers #i stopped being specific about my ED for a REASON. #yes on ur personal locked blog that u use like a diary go ahead etc #but we are OBVIOUSLY not talking about that. we're talking about the sheer NUMBER of people i could be talking about #in that one paragraph. that you and i probably were thinking about 2 different influencers #bc they get to say that they're just posting FITNESS and if it's FITNESS it's OKAY and im like #jesus christ lord almighty #every person in recovery from an ED: this is incredibly dangerous holy shit do you know how much this would have triggered me #each of these ppl: how dare you!!!!!!!!! i am only harming those who WANT to engage with my content!!!!! #their followers: leave them alone !!! they can't help that they make an hours-long choice to frame their disorder as if it was #fucking cottagecore !!!! #like girlie this person needs THERAPY #again! i didn't even have that large of a following before i IMMEDIATELY deleted any specific mention of calories food etc #bc i recognize responsibility and i didnt EVER want to even ACCIDENTALLY encourage this #and im not even GETTING PAID FOR THIS!!! #aND THEY ARE!!! #something something something they know this content makes them money #they don't give a SHIT about u babe

[marclef]

some Noisette and Fake drawings i did because on god i wish these two had any form of canon interaction.

your honor i just think these two should be allowed to be Silly together.....

#they're both goobers. doofuses. they deserve each other. #plus fake would be the only one to stomach most of noisette's food and that'd probably make her really happy. #my art #pizza tower #pizza tower fake peppino #pizza tower noisette #i spent 8 hours on these. lord help me. #but it's worth it for my Sillies..... plus i've like barely drawn noisette and i NEEDED to give my girl some love come on!!! #we were gifted a Girl knockoff of The Noid and by god we will appreciate her.

[mulders-too-large-shirt]

i think a major thing that is overlooked in the x files is that when they do their little cutscene of them driving from washington dc to the bumfuck middle of nowhere at the start of each episode, their roadtrips must be SO long. so what are they doing in that time? are they fighting over which radio station to listen to? filling the silence with conversation? is that how they become inseparable, over mind-numbing hours on the road where stories slip off of the tongue with ease?

#i HATE road trips so this is baffling to me #like at first it HAD to be awkward. what the hell do you say at first. but then it happens again and again. #are they chatting? getting to know each other? debating cryptids? talking about life? #are they putting on music? taking turns flipping the stations between what they like and the other person likes? do they bring CDs? #there's no way they have a mutually compatible music taste i just know they drive each other up a wall with that #in all honesty i think they're probably listening to NPR because they seem like that type of nerdy intellectual. and talking about that. #but with THAT MANY HOURS in the car like. you have to come up with SOMETHING to do. #maybe they'll address that later on idk i'm only 10 episodes in but the thought is making me laugh #txf #the x files

[puppetmaster13u]

Oh boi even more of One au in like 3 hours lol

I like to think that like how in @phoenixcatch7's Doll au there's gas versions of like cures and such in the batfam's gas masks since they don't need to breath when possessing the puppets right? I like to think there's an organic version of that with the meat puppet bodies, at least with Bruce, where the plates on his neck opens up into vents of sorts, pictured here with a few spikes removed for visibility reasons.

This gas could be some cures for like Joker venom & Fear gas and such, or it could also be sedatives, paralytics, could even vary between each member. (For example in the Cryptidverse Steph has Anesthetics on her claws, Jason has reflective powder that mimics embers/sparks, Cass has paralytics, etc). Honestly I am just brainstorming so this could definitely change lmao

I do like to think they start developing their own venom though, gotta' have those fangs & tusks for some reason lol

#meat marionette au #batman au #cryptid batman #cryptid batfam #body horror #batman #dcu #dc #Sorry Phoenix if I am spamming you lol #Honestly I feel like Bruce & Kane are the only ones with like big-ish tusks as though to show they're the fully grown ones of the group #Batwoman has set up shop in Bludhaven while Bruce usually sticks to Gotham me thinks but they still help each other out because family <3 #God I want to ramble about their language and body language and stuff so bad lol I love world building #I also totally haven't been writing a drabble for this for the past hour lmao #The caves have a favorite mortal and It's definitely Bruce lol #Okay but now I am thinking of how Bruce & Clark could meet the first time lol #Bruce can definitely sneak up on Clark if he wants to and it's probably terrifying lol #Something I will have to think about for later I suppose #What are the tunnels? Fuck if I know lol #The drabble totally isn't from Its pov tho lol (definitely not) #Tumblr don't eat my tags 2023 #Bruce definitely freaks out the first time he sees his second body #Not helped by the fact the first time he sees it he is piloting it and emerging from a flesh wall #All stumbly like a newborn deer (not helped by long limbs and body all differently proportioned & more limbs lol) #The secondary body's face is something between a human and an animal's muzzle #Dick deserves electric organs like an electric eel so he can shock people #Y'know what Cass deserves pitch black flesh & organs- like I am talking vantablack barely lets in any light black #Bruce is probably more wary about taking in kids what with the whole eldritch thing beneath the streets but really what choice does he have #All of them were already trying to do vigilante work & they'll end up killed if he doesn't help them :/ #He loves them but he *really* wishes the tunnels didn't take a liking to them as well because they're already traumatized enough #He wishes it didn't call to them like it did to him so long ago

[nguyenfinity]

Have I done the homework I was supposed to? No

Have I drawn more Rinniki? Hell yeah

#enstars #rinne amagi #niki shiina #rinniki #gays upon ye #the context of the second one is that if they're at a waterpark/beach they'd do that thing otters do #where they hold onto each other while floating #the first one is just a surprise kith #2 chapters and 123 questions due in 22-23 hours godspeed o7 (to me) #literally the only thing i've been drawing all month. sorry y'all (not really) #squishy style

[factorialsotherfandoms]

Something something it going on like this for two weeks, then they return to a presumably de-gooped island, and Etoiles and Fit cannot look Philza in the eye, remembering all of this, and Philza, immortal who knows if he dies he's dead and he isn't dead so he can't have died, just not comprehending why things can't go back to normal, why his friends don't want to talk to him any more - don't love him any more.

#qsmp #qsmp Philza #qsmp Etoiles #qsmp fit #No but Etoiles afterwards sounded genuinely sad and it's just day 1 #But also I really don't think it'll stay like this #Even if somehow there's no lore mode #Once people are logging in at their usual times they'll probably start hanging just because its friend hours #Okay maybe not Tubbo #But that's equally funny #Fit and Philza cross-town flirting and Tubbo diving in like a screeching murder bat #And they're just like hi kid need an apple #Maybe even setting traps for him #They'll fight it out at the end but if theres only the three of them online they'd be so bored hunting each other

[beanghostprincess]

me every time someone mentions usopp or sanji individually: not to make this about sanuso but *makes it about sanuso*

#is it my fault that they have so many parallelisms #and that they're meant for each other #I COULD TALK FOR HOURS ABOUT THEM #the only reason i post in this tag is because nobody listens to me irl #except my fiancé but they haven't caught up yet with op and haven't watched wci i'm devastated #one piece #black leg sanji #usopp #sanuso

[svtskneecaps]

ngl i really hope german joins the red team sometime. i have no idea what he's like or what he's up to but 1) i want to 2) carre needs a buddy besides cellbit, because i love that guy and being surrounded by english is probably wild in maybe a bad way 3) idk just want to see what happens. maybe homie can match energy. gas mask squad, team friendship. could this be what drags him back? god only knows, but i want to

#qsmp #to be clear every team can probably be called team friendship this is the qsmp #but they went turbo friendship. friendship is the only reason they're still playing #cellbit fully intended to take like two to five days off this morning and then played a few hours with the team and will probably log again #cellbit and baghera both said it was probably best if the red team only played with each other and never alone #they ended day one making the equivalent of a blood pact but with fire and dying #day two they almost immediately made a cult #wasn't watching his pov but carre def seemed to match energy from my view #absolutely a standout when he unmuted complete star sorry about all the english he did great #tbh the backbone of the team morale along with phil #slime was like 'dude we're screwed' when carre was gone only to immediately change his stance when carre came back #(it wasn't exactly like that but character limit lol) #idk i have many thoughts about team red and their manic energy and crazy bond #shut up vic #block game brainrot

[musicalchaos07]

Jonathan having to work at family video in s5 and that's part of why he and Robin become besties 🙏 (Steve is pouting in the corner with the cardboard cutout of Phoebe Cates)

#they're going on about Alfred Hitchcock and Steve is just like i don't give a fuck #like i imagine he'd be so annoyed #not only is Jonathan stealing his bestie but they have a lot more in common #he'd be so pouty about it #also yes this circles back to the lore of Jonathan working at the hawk #queue me periodically reminding y'all that Byers comes after Buckley and that Jonathan and Robin should know each other based on that alone #stranger things #jonathan byers #robin buckley #steve harrington #... what do we call two alt kids and their golden retriever ex jock? #i just know Mr Byers would clock Robin's crush on Vickie in a matter of hours #... tbh his observant ass probably already knows she's gay #st 5

[figureofdismay]

they thing is, carter's 'scully left mulder bc he got so depressed and mentally ill so she had to leave for His Own Good/For The Implementation Of Gratuitous Mulder Manpain' post canon character decision is that Scully simply wouldn't.

She would not leave him.

Not in a 'she loves him too much to leave him, isn't it romantic' way, though.

She Wouldn't leave him in a 'they're too enmeshed by then to even seriously contemplate it, he's been literally dead before and also on the run apart from her and she never considered them Over, and then they spent a good few years on the run together in the 00s in not even slightly cheery circumstances, and if, after 20 years of unconsciously warping themselves around each other's neuroses and serious trauma, she can lift her head up far enough from their personal morass of dependency and compensation to see that he's depressed it'd be a feat. She might, with this clarity of vision, at times consider leaving to 'shock' him out of it, but she Can't because he's her whole support system and his belief in her and his persistence is the bedrock of her continued functionality in the face of stupendous loss and confusion by like year 3 of knowing each other, and not having him or his vision of her to lean on was bad enough when there was literally no other choice. So. No, even in the midst of that through process, she probably wouldn't really go all the way through with it.

But it's equally likely that, just like in rocky eras of their earlier FBI days, she'd only be able to accurately see how much he was struggling very intermittently, and mainly just start subconsciously altering her behavior and frame of mind to accommodate him or meet him, while maybe having the instinct to try to aim them at some kind of goal or occupation (ie some kind of warning signal going in the back of her mind that says understimulated Mulder is unhappy, though probably not that bluntly coherent).

#character theory: scully #not that i even accept anything after existence #it's just funny that he thinks that either of them are capable of being like 'objectively we are unhealthy' #or 'objectively me being here is unhealthy for him/her' about each other from any point past like scully's cancer #let alone breaking mulder out and going on the run together! #they made codependency into an art form there is no way either of them has modern therapy speak level perspective on the other by that poin #txf meta #may i repeat: 20 years! #and frankly a majority of the first 12 to 15 of those years was spent in adjoining or singular motel rooms in small towns #or being unable to go more than 6 hours without calling each other #objectivity left the building sometime in the mid 90s #a noble 'i'm leaving until you get therapy and meds' doesn't even fit in the conspiracy chip in the neck alien vaccines setting #but more than that it's a stretch to believe dana scully's thought patterns would even allow that by that point #anyway that prevalent line of thought in the fandom circa ~2017 about how she was Right and Strong and Enlightened to leave him #because he was 'too sad and probably impotent haha and she has too much self respect and is too Smart to put up with that guy anymore' #drove me completely bonkers and this is like half of why. a lot of assumptions about how much Smart is even involved. And how much Objectiv #traumatized codependent people are so much more likely to keep making do while only half realizing it for one thing #but also it was like a collision of genre and reality types that just didn't fit #if the aliens weren't real they could and /should/ go to therapy. but the aliens /were/ real so they're in scifi noir and out in the weeds

[kangpingyu]

ONEWE's leaderline | Soundwave Fansign 27 April 2024

#onewe #kanghyun #yonghoon #kang hyungu #jin yonghoon #leaderline #원위 #용훈 #강현 #i could watch them for literally hours #looking at this frame by frame you can literally see hyungu's gaze get softer while he's looking at yonghoon and it's devastatinggggg #i still can't believe yh recorded audio of them bickering over buying a couple t-shirt to match eo and uploaded it #only for them to show up wearing each others clothes the next day #they're so 🤢 #yongspear kangshield #KPY OG #KPY gif

[dylanconrique]

follow up to this post: tamara’s the first one up and ready in the morning confused as to how quite it is in tim’s house, since usually either him or lucy are already up by now (tim insists on driving them around everywhere while rosalind's out). she tries calling for them cause they're all about to be late, but when that doesn’t work she starts looking around the kitchen and living room a little bit until she decides to lightly knock on tim’s bedroom door before letting herself in, only to find her parents still sleeping all snuggled up together like...

#*and this is icarly! #the rookie #the rookie season 5 #tamara collins #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well #bradfordschen pointed out in a reblog that tim would leave his bed to the girls and she's 100% right #but i imagine his muscles start to feel sore after awhile #and lucy offers up to take his place... only that'd be weird with tamara #so tamara offers to sleep on the couch (cause let's face it it'd be less weird that way & neither tim or her are too fond of sharing a bed) #ONLY BOTH THSE FOOLS ARE SO TENSE THAT IT TAKES BOTH OF THEM HOURS TO FALL ASLEEP #(tim longer than lucy) #tamara being the sly devil that she is starts snapping a bunch of pics for evidence #she even takes a few selfies with them while they sleep before she pokes them both awake #they're just so tired after everything they've been through #they're both so comfortable in each other's arms it's the most peaceful sleep they've ever had so of course they overslept 😭😭😭😭😭 #am i unhinged? yes. do i care? no. 😌

[5ducksinatrenchcoat]

school kinda sucks, not even gonna lie

#its been one day #how am i gonna do this for 10 more months?? #nothing bad even happened! and it still sucked! #and new uniform rules like oohoohoo that'll make the kids happier #no more sweatpants under my skirt?? have they forgotten we like in canada?? where its fucking freezing?? #and we got a lecture in each class about “academic integrity” #and also my hair looked like shit even though it looked good when i woke up #and i have 2 classes with my arch nemesis (some kid i hate for literally no reason other than we compete for top student every year) #very frances and daniel of me #UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #and my friend who i have a crush on moved schools without telling me (we're not that close) #and moved to my ex's school (they're friends) #but she's twins with my good friend who didn't switch schools so i'll see her again #but i wish she didn't leave #and she told some of my friends i think but i only found out cuz my ex told me (we're still friends) #and also my parents didn't let me go to a concerty thing tonight that i really wanted to go to because i have dance #but now i'm not even going to dance because i'm so fucking tired (i need my full 9 hours)(i got about 5 hours last night) #sorry about how many tags i put but i'm too worried to make an actual long post

[good--merits-accumulated]

i really need to like. make a list of all the anderperry fic ideas i want to write and know i never will and put it somewhere. maybe here

#all these ideas have in common is that #a) they hold my waking mind captive a solid hour or so of the day #b) i dream up at least one little snappy vignette for each of them #and c) i know irrevocably that i am never going to write them #c) is usually because of i) concept intriguing but idea of doing the research boring to me #ii) doing the research sounds fabulous but it's the type of research that'll take years before i'm satisfied with the accuracy of the work #iii) great vignette! now think of an overarching plot/themes/etc. to encompass it! and the answer is invariably that i shan't #iv) Dude Come On You Know They Wouldn't Fucking Act Like That #v) the herculean labour of having to rationalise why they're Fucking Acting Like That #and this only goes for one particular idea but #vi) yeah i'm going to have to deconstruct my own feelings around/perception of/experience with colonialism before i even ATTEMPT this #anyway i'd hate for these all to languish in the dungeons of my mind. so i will put them on the internet. whatever #anderperry #tristan writes

[amiharana]

CHILDHOOD CANON PLSPLSPLS ik childhood revalink isn't very popular but i am DESPARATE for that content 😭✋

(ask game from here)

more people should write revalink as little babies since we get like two sentences from mipha about what link was like as a toddler and pretty much nothing but inferences on revali's childhood based on how he acts. revalink community, i'm calling forth upon you to write more baby revalink ☝️👁️

👶 9. Childhood headcanon

i've talked a little bit here and there about my headcanons on both of revalink's childhoods, so i'm not gonna try to reiterate those here 😭 but i'll do a couple more little bullet-point hcs teehee

i just know link was a menace for his mother to deal with when he was growing up. climbing on trees, the houses, disappearing to climb the fucking mountains, just a little rabid animal for a child

once, he was hiding in the wheat fields or maybe pretended to be a scarecrow, and then he jumpscared one of the farmers, who nearly died from a heart attack 😭

link probably once tried to climb up to the spring of wisdom by himself to catch a glimpse of the great dragon naydra, only to pass out in the cold snow. something warm and blue takes him back home, and when link wakes he's at home in bed, like he never left. but he remembers seeing a bright gold eye in his dreams...

i bet you part of the reason why revali was so obsessed with perfecting his gale and being able to fly properly was because he couldn't even fucking glide as a kid. his little baby wings just couldn't catch the updrafts and he was left behind during flying lessons. completely stacked his resolve to be the only rito who could properly fly

rito village treated revali naruto-style. the elders and adults pity him for having lost his parents in such a tragic way, but the kids and teens tended to bully or ostracize revali for not having any parents. yeah.

sorry for only sad baby revali hcs omg ok the elder takes revali to the hebra plunge with him and the hunting squadron to catch fish for an upcoming festival and this is where revali learns to hunt fish for the first time! when he catches his first hearty salmon, he's so excited, and the elder and members of the hunt who watched are very proud of him! it's a huge fish, and they let him keep it and help him make his very first salmon meunière 🥺🤍 bb vali eats very well that night

baby revali stumbling upon the pocket of updrafts at dronoc's pass for the first time after getting left behind, and teaching himself how to glide there 🫣 it's difficult at first because he has no one to teach him how it's supposed to be done, but he gets a hang of it pretty quick after a while. i just know his dumbass kept falling into the water though LMAO but it's his special secret spot that he shares with No One else! and ofc when revali's older and has bested everyone with his superior archery skills, he has the flight range built there 😌

#loz #botw #loz botw #legend of zelda #revalink #revali #link #amihan's headcanons #ask #ask game #cryiling #throwback to the archer!link anon #that ask was so big brained #imagine an au where revali and link actually grew up together or something #what if link lived in tabantha village before it was ruined #revali and link would only be like maybe an hour or two max away from each other #can someone actually check how fast it would be to travel on horseback from rito village to tabantha village ruins in-game #when revali's big enough he just gives link flights home #when they're old enough revali proposes n asks link to move in with him so he doesn't have to keep flying him home KJDHFKDJHFKDJHFKD #childhood friends to lovers revalink 🥺