#this is a very rambling post but this is tumblr after all

[blackkatdraws2]

I'm involved in a Stanley Reblog Chain and put effort into these drawings so I'll post them here too.

[The other characters belong to insomniphic / beartitled / and marionette-j2x]

[Just me rambling underneath!] ↓

Tumblr has a tag limit and it grates my nerves to no end to know that I can't ramble as much as I'd like to...

Stanley and the bad bitch he pulled by being a loser. Imagine having a hot babe deform reality just to be together with you because he sensed you were feeling lonely without him. [WHEN IS IT MY TURN?!]

It's funny because with the general vibe of their AU, it would make sense for him to show up in the most flashy but also unnerving way possible. The Narrator's [Black's] arrival has to grab people's eyes since attention and views are what he's all about.

I wasn't sure what type of characterization they had so I just played it safe and [tried to] draw how my characters would respond instead of blindly guessing how the others would talk or act around each other. [My Stanley is antisocial and an anxiety-ridden freak.]

Also, I've been wondering what their height differences actually were when I saw my Stanley have to look up at Marionette's Narrator [since this guy is pretty damn tall] so I did a bit of digging and this was what I found.

I had a lot of fun making this by the way. It's been a while since I've participated in any Reblog Chains that involved character interactions and making comics, so it's a real throwback to when I first started posting TSP art in 2023.

Stanley here is an absolute social shutoff teehee, but he does talk back when talked to. His responses usually leave no openings to continue the conversation though. He's the type of guy to stay on the corner and watch everyone else.

As for the Narrator [Black] he's a bit strange. He's proper in public, but he doesn't think the other people are special [or not as special as he is at least]. He just doesn't care to be honest, he keeps to himself [along with Stanley] and that's it. It's a miracle for Stanley to have even pulled somebody like Black considering their personalities are the type to clash with one another. [They love each other though, genuinely. Despite how deranged they can be towards each other sometimes, that development took a long time to be nurtured into something healthier for those two.]

Also, 4th wall breaking in action!!!!!!!!!!!

Black didn't want to interrupt this comic since it was made for Stanley but after the other three came in he lost reservations and came in as well.

These two would probably just stay in their own spot [somewhere quiet and more alone]. This place is a bit too crowded for their liking. But I would be very happy to jump on any opportunity to make my guys interact with the others!!!!! Don't be afraid to throw a bone [prompt] for me to bite on, okay?

[Oh no, I just realized Black looks like he has boobs on the last picture. He DOES NOT have boobs!! Sorry man boob enjoyers, it's the lighting that made it look that way wuwuwu...]

[Copy and Pasting the tags of my other post because I am NOT re-writing all of this...]

#the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tspud #tsp #tsp au #narrator tsp #tsp narrator #stanley tsp #tsp stanley #stanarator #stannarrator #stanarrator #stannarator #my drawing museum

[zvtara-was-never-canon]

Can I just ramble a little because I got so excited finding your blog! (All those notifications of someone liking your posts are probably all from me, sorry)

Anyway! I was very excited because this fandom is rife with Zu.tara and I don’t ship that! I just want my little corner to sit in where there’s no shipping wars or ridiculously bad takes on characters (I’m so demanding I know, how could I ever expect something so impossible from the internet). This is from someone who likes Zuko btw, he’s a good character and his redemption arc is one of the best done redemption stories ever I think.

I just don’t understand why it’s so popular. There’s nothing wrong with people wanting to ship these characters, it’s just they find a way to bring it into everything! Oh, here’s a cute post about Appa and Momo? Not anymore! Boom, ZK shippers crawling over the reblogs to scream about Aang! Oh, you like this fan art of Toph and Aang hugging after the wars over? Nuh-uh, now you gotta deal with the shippers in the notes! Type in literally any character and the first result will always be something about that damned ship! The ship itself I don’t have (much) of a problem with, it’s the fandom that annoy me!

But then I found your blog which is a relief! There are still a few of us on tumblr with some sanity left lol. I don’t know, I just struggle to get behind ZK, especially because in the ATLA universe, 16 (Zukos age) is considered marrying age and Katara is obviously younger than that (it’s also why I don’t skip KA, they both need a little time to grow some more and 12 is too young for dating imo). That’s not the only reason I don’t ship it, mind, but it does play a part. People will hate on Kat.aang and say the age gap is too much but then turn around a ship the guy who hunted Katara and her family for nearly three seasons and be like “this age gap is fine”

I’m probably not making much sense sorry I just needed a rant

Hey, rants about being annoyed at zutarians are always welcomed here. Even some zutara shippers do it, why shouldn't you? XD

I will say that I don't agree that 14 or even 12 is "too young" to start dating. It's literally around the time kids are in the middle of, or about to finish, puberty. It is THE age range most people start having crushes, kisses, and yes, relationships. It's not gonna be the same as romance between two older teens/young adults, but it's perfectly normal and happens literally every day.

#anti zutara #pro kataang

[winterpinetrees]

Okay yeah I’m still thinking about logistics. I am aware that lord of the rings is whimsical and I don’t care.

There must be so many people in Rivendell. It’s the Last Homely House, the last decent place before you go off into the deep wilderness. It’s at the bottom of a valley in the middle of nowhere. They aren’t getting everything imported. Elrond must have a full sized settlement there to produce most of the food, even if we are assuming that preserving magic makes it an easy place to live. Rivendell is a refuge too. It’s home to Elrond, his family, a significant number of Noldor like Glorfindel, and who knows how many wanderers. Elves don’t die of old age, and in the Third Age they don’t get murdered particularly often either, so I have to imagine that the population is large and just keeps growing. I don’t get the sense that many travel across the sea until after Sauron falls, and there really isn’t anywhere else for them to go. Lothlorien, maybe? There’s got to be thousands of people in that valley, supporting the Last Homely House and keeping the forces of darkness at bay.

More than that, it’s a huge place fit for the most powerful people in Middle Earth. Rivendell can easily accommodate Bilbo’s entire party in the hobbit and all of the visiting diplomats for the Council of Elrond. Do you have any idea how much manpower (elf power?) it takes to keep a place clean, well-lit, and functional without modern technology? It takes an absurd amount of work. There is nothing in the legendarium that I’m aware of to suggest that elves use magic as a labor saving tool. That means that people are doing all of that work by hand.

Are there elven servants in Rivendell? What about in Valinor? In the Silmarillion, we only ever really read about noble bloodlines, and in LoTR, elves are kept very mysterious. There’s craftsmen who make silmarils and magic rings, but who is forging gear for the average soldier? We know that there are a whole lot of average soldiers. Lord of the rings is a story of battles between armies. Is there upward mobility in an undying land? Whoever is cleaning clothes in Valinor, have they been doing that since the age of the two trees?

Maybe Valinor is more equal than that. Maybe in a place where everyone expects to live forever, they’ve found ways to share the load. But they did have a high king, long ago, and Feanor uses the argument that the elves should go to Beleriand to find freedom and treasure. He’s not a reliable narrator, but it’s something I’ve been thinking about.

What must it be like to be one of the other Noldor? To be a common elf and go east seeking freedom and adventure, only to find suffering like you cannot imagine? To watch that land sink beneath the ocean, to see Numenor be corrupted and fall, to fight Morgoth and Sauron and Sauron again? To finally leave it all behind as everything, even Rivendell and Lindon and Lothlorien, fades? Or maybe you die in combat and spend an eon in the halls of Mandos before reawakening in Valinor. Either way, you’re back!

And someone needs to do the laundry.

#by me #tolkien #the silmarillion #lord of the rings #this is a very rambling post but this is tumblr after all

[melit0n]

EUCLID ANALYSIS.

Told you guys it was coming, didn't I? I apologise that this has taken a bit longer than expected, my mental health hit me like a bullet train, but I do hope it's sufficient.

Part one -> You're already here!

Part two -> Line by line analysis part 1

Part three -> Line by line analysis part 2

Part four -> Musical/intrumental notes

Part five -> The Night in Sleep Token

Part six -> Conclusion

Please note this is a general analysis. Although I do go into theories, both my own and others, this is just general thoughts. Also note when I speak of Vessel, I mean Vessel as a character, not the person, unless I specifically state so.

Tagline: @rilllvri @a-s-levynn @fivewholeminutes @euclidsvessel @tonguetyd @moonchild-in-blue @kkarmatic @branches-in-a-flood

+ Some people were worried about spam liking/reblogging the last time I did one of these big analysis posts, and I want to say please don't worry about that! I get happy when I see the same users pop up liking and reblogging my work, because it means you're interested in this enough to go through the whole thing. Feel completely free to add your own thoughts, correct any errors I've made etc. As per usual, my DMs are completely open to anybody wanting to discuss ST <3

Let's start off with the basics. ‘Euclid’ is the anglicised version of the Greek name Eukleídes (Εὐκλείδης), mainly known via the ancient Greek mathematician Euclid of Alexandria, who is seen as the ‘father of geometry’, and most famous for his work on symmetry. Its general definition is something or someone who is renowned and or glorious (A) and the lesser known definition is something that is a copy of the same (B) (taken from Euclid’s ideas on symmetry), which we’ll come back to in a bit.

However, there is another Euclid in history that we’ll be referencing; Euclid of Megara. This Euclid, similar to our mathematician, was an ancient Greek Socratic (having been a pupil of Socrates) philosopher. I’ll be taking part of a text out of his Wikipedia article since his ideas have been explained thoroughly there.

(we'll be coming back to him soon)

First off, this is an incredibly interesting choice of name for a song. Outside of someone's maths and philosophy class, this name doesn't exist to most, so the fact it's been chosen at all is intriguing.

Vessel has shown time and time again he enjoys sometimes elaborate references in his art, an example being chemistry and biology in TPWBYT (most notable would probably be ‘Telomeres’), so, I think it would be easy to say that, whether it be a reference to Euclid the Mathematician or Euclid the philosopher, that said reference is understood and intended by Vessel.

So, let's start with our mathematician, shall we?

What I find interesting about Euclid of Alexandria is that his life and existence outside of his work on geometry is almost completely unknown. There's almost nothing known of him, as a person, other than where he spent half of his career (Alexandria; Egypt, hence his title), where he may have studied (Platonic academy) and a general idea of when he lived (around 300BC). What is known about this insanely famous man who created the foundations of symmetry is incredibly barebones. People take Euclid at face value for his work, just like Vessel (both as an artist, and a character).

Further, we, as listeners, don't have much of an understanding of who Vessel is other than being a mouthpiece of a deity known as Sleep, someone once human now grasping at the threads of humanity and someone sharing some of his struggles in life (both with Sleep and unknown people). Like Euclid, he is barebones, we take him at face value; a vessel. He is both a mouthpiece for Sleep, a mouthpiece for his own emotions (obviously) and a mouthpiece for us. His experiences transcend being just his, due to his anonymity, therefore allowing us to connect and express our own experiences. It's music for the sake of music; expression.

Now, having talked through Euclid as a person, it's time to talk about Euclid and his symmetry. Symmetry in shapes is 'reflections, rotations, translations, and combinations of these basic operations. Under an isometric transformation, a geometric object is said to be symmetric if, after transformation, the object is indistinguishable from the object before the transformation- a copy of the same’. So, of course, this means shapes like squares, rectangles, parallelograms and circles. Circles are a representation of infinity, wholeness, unity and loops. What does Euclid do? Loop itself (starts and ends with B major, which also happens to be the same chord that TNDNBTG starts with), and loops the three albums together, musically and lyrically.

Now, onto Euclid of Megara.

Euclid was born in Megara, Athens and was a follower of Socrates (sneaking into Athens to hear him speak, and he was also present during his death). He is most known for his philosophy that good is the knowledge of simply being and that the opposite of good does not exist, aka evil. The Good is described to be a perfect, eternal, and changeless Form, existing outside space and time. A form of Heaven without a God.

This idea could be linked lore-wise with Sleep Token; Sleep could, in a way, be The Good literally. Bliss. Further, with the idea that there is no actual opposite of good, then how can anything be bad? How can Sleep, as a deity, have bad intentions if there is no actual evil?

So far, with these two notable figures in mind, we can perceive Euclid as one of two ways (and there are more ways to come). Euclid can be seen as quite literally being a form of symmetry; a parallel that Vessel lays his life on because it brings all of the produced albums, all of his stories, together. Or, we can think of Euclid as Vessel. This brings me to @euclidsvessel's post on their theory on Euclid; what if Euclid was Vessel’s name before he became a vessel?

The theory that Euclid could be Vessel’s old name is not only extremely insightful, but very plausible as well. They explained their points very well in their original post, and I don't want to repeat what they’ve already said, so I do implore you to go read that! It's not detrimental to needing to understand this post, but I highly recommend it. Despite this, I am here to both support their argument and bring my own comparison. Take a look at the cover art for Euclid:

Let me repeat the lesser-known definition of Euclid; a copy of the same. A clone. A replacement. Held in the right hand is the decapitated head of Vessel's old (2nd gen.) mask. Specifically, the one that covers his mouth; the version that relinquishes the most amount of humanity. The album art is a representation of change portrayed in a symbolically gory way. Beheading, depending on the era you’re working from, symbolises both vengeance as well as a form of purification. By cutting off the head, you remove any ‘unholy’ thoughts. It's also among one of the most horrific and humiliating ways of killing someone (since it was typically done publicly, and sometimes the heads were placed on spikes of battlements as a warning).

Furthermore, there's a theory that's popped up a couple of times, lore-wise, that Vessel is not the first person to be turned into a vessel of Sleep, and he certainly won't be the last. So, considering the literal album art illustrates a replacement of Vessel, I’d say that theory is pretty much confirmed. In conclusion, the album art can either be interpreted as how Vessel will eventually be discarded and replaced by another vessel, or how Vessel himself will change, for better or for worse; clawing out of his own skin to become “someone new”.

So, to compare the idea of Euclid being Vessel’s old name, and to create the third perception of what or rather, who, Euclid is, what if Euclid will be the eventual replacement for Vessel?

#I would like to mention that the idea of a 'Euclid class object's floated around Reddit theories for Euclid as well #said objects are 'anomalies that are either insufficiently understood or inherently unpredictable' #I didn't include this because it's from SCP and I thought it highly unlikely that it could be a refrence to that #but then again; a lot of the lyrics refrence hardware and un-understandable things so I thought I'd say something about it #masaive thank you to Nine for spurring me on to continue writing this and eventually post it with their theory post #just a very big thank you to everybody on ST Tumblr who post any analysis bits because you all inspire me #with that said #I hope these will be interesting for you all <3 #sleep token #st #mel's rambles #euclid #euclid sleep token #sleep token analysis #vessel #vessel sleep token #tmbte #sleep token tmbte #hiding in here that I felt a bit like Hamilton writing these #'John Jay got sick after writing five...James Madison wrote twenty nine...Hamilton wrote the oTHER FIFTY ONE' #apologies to anybody who reads that lmao

[designernishiki]

okay hot take time with tumblr user designernishiki yet again.

i really don’t get the hype over majimako like. at all. I’ve tried to wrap my head around it but every time I just end up so confused how it’s such a popular pairing and wondering if we played the same game like?? they had no chemistry, barely even knew each other (and what they did know of each other was almost entirely built off desperate traumabonding) and people treat the pairing like it’s the most deep, romantic thing in the world despite there being like. nothing there. at least romantically speaking. it’s honest to god baffling to me.

their most iconic “romantic” image together comes from a scene where makoto wants to fucking run away from him because she wants to find lee, who she fully trusts and who’s in danger (and probably also because majima’s literally just admitted to initially planning to murder her.) and he has to hold her there so she doesn’t get herself killed by running (literally) blindly into the street or something. how on earth is that a romantic scene.

their little sort-of date consists of majima being kind and sympathetic to her, sure, maybe even displaying some surface level feelings, but she’s completely preoccupied because of the massively important issues going on at the time with the lieutenants who wronged tachibana, she’s more or less probably plotting their deaths in her head during that scene, and in the end she purposefully has him run to get takoyaki so she can flat out Leave without him stopping her. because she has other priorities and is Not In The Headspace For A Soft Sentimental Escapade to say the absolute least.

Whatever they were, they were not In Love, they didn’t have time or circumstances for that, or to get to know one another as Actual People rather than as incidental liferafts in the midst of a sea of traumatic, nightmarish events. majima attached himself to her and felt strongly about her safety and eventual return to normalcy because she reminded him of himself and wanted her to have the pleasant civilian life he couldn’t give himself. on her end? honestly I don’t think she felt that connected to him at all up until the end, namely up until when he fixed her watch. and even then “romantic” is not even close to the word id use for what she was feeling– in fact I think that waters it down, if anything. I mean like fuck she was there bringing flowers to her brother’s grave in the spot where he died in front of her i really don’t think this was about romanticism, it was about compassion and selflessness and wishing her good luck in her new, free life, while expecting nothing from her in return. he cared about her and her outcome in life deeply and this would be the case regardless of any romantic feelings for her.

Anyway I didn’t mean for this to turn into an essay and somehow I could go on for longer but I absolutely do not need to. I just. am so secure in my thoughts about this and sometimes seeing how people talk about this relationship and it’s supposed deep romanticism makes me feel like I’m losing my mind or played a completely different game or something ngl. don’t get me wrong, ship whatever you want I’m not saying it’s problematic or something it’s just. bizarre to me how popular and sensationalized it is. and a little frustrating how applying this overdramatic romantic narrative to them can so often water down a dynamic that’s way more nuanced and interesting on an individual character level.

#long post #rambling #it drives me a little insane. can you tell #I don’t know man #sometimes I really feel like a lot of people just like it because it makes majima seem more Normal and Less Fruity #not saying everyone is like that #but #I do think a large portion of the hype comes from this mindset consciously or not #and if I wanna get Real spicy for a second. I think the insinuation that he somehow developed feelings for her after knowing her for like #less than a week and only in the worst possible situations was written in as a way to- at least somewhat intentionally- #provide an excuse for why majima’s relationships with women in future years either crumble horribly (mirei) or he doesn’t take any #genuine interest in pursuing them at All. it helps to be able to point at shiyawase nara iiya and go look! he’s Like That because he’ll #always only have feelings for makoto! there’s definitely not anything fruity going on with him at all and he’s definitely not been #into his close male companion for possibly entire Decades #and what’s annoying is that this strategy. if it was. in fact. a strategy. worked pretty well #people really do think he’s been romantically hung up on her for years and that’s the sole reason he doesn’t pursue any women #(sans mirei but that’s. a whole different discussion. and obviously did not work out very well.) #but anyway #yeah #fun fact this pairing is the only tag I have filtered on tumblr like. period. fhfjfjdjdjdj #I KNOW that’s petty of me and like I said there’s nothing like morally Wrong with it or something it just. annoys me. #and I’m gonna be real since I’m dumping all this here anyway. every time I see an alternate timeline pic of them where they’re like. a #Normal Couple with a Normal Life and majima is a Normal Guy i physically recoil i just. i hate it dude i really do #like agshdhfhdhdh majima’s development into who he is hinges SO MUCH on embracing and accepting the fact that he’s not Normal and will never #be Normal and that’s okay– in fact that’s great in its own way because he doesn’t have to fit into a mold and can explore whatever #eccentricities and hobbies and parts of an identity he wants to create. for better or for worse. y0 majima still clings onto hope that he #has the capability for ‘normalcy’ and he sees that potential in makoto. but eventually has to come to terms with that not being an option #for him. and he mourns it at first but is quick to take advantage of the freedom that comes with that realization. and etc etc etc. it’s so #important to him as a character and such a big queer theme as well and I hateeeeeee when people erase it in favor of ‘but what if he was #Normal and not a Freak.’ bdhxhffjbfb I ran out of tags so I need to shut up fr fr

[carlatsukinamistolemyhamsandwich]

I just realised today that it’s been over 8 years since I published my first piece of reader insert fanfiction (not for DL but it laid the groundwork for what was to come) and it’s absolutely crazy to me. I don’t know that I’ve talked about it on this blog much (for it was not good by anyone’s standards) but I used to publish on Quotev and I made a couple of friends on there who really helped me when I was going through a hard time in real life (not that I think any of them necessarily realised how much :’) ). Sadly we all sort of drifted away from the site and lost contact but I still think about them sometimes and hope that wherever they are they’re doing well. 

I miss our little community on there too and the silly conversations we used to have, as while I don’t think Tumblr ever quite had the same vibe, I do think it’s grown a lot more impersonal over the years (or at least that’s certainly been my experience). 

Anyway I don’t know that there’s much of a point to this other than me reminiscing but if we’ve interacted at some point while I’ve been running this blog, or even if you just silently like a lot of my posts (because believe me, there are usernames I recognise even if we’ve never properly talked), then I’m grateful and I hope that you’re happy and doing well.

#personal #delete later #I just needed to get this off my chest I think #and... I think this might be a goodbye #I've had this blog for over 6 years and it's gotten me through some tough times #and I am so very grateful for all the good times #I've been saying I plan to move on for a while but I think I'm actually ready this time #I'd been debating whether to make a song and dance over it or quietly disappear into the night #but I look back on abandoned blogs and always wonder what happened to the people who ran them #so if you're looking back on this and wondering then at the time of writing I'm doing well #busy but well #and I though that saying goodbye in a rambling set of tags was very true to form #so if you're still reading thank you so much for joining me for this chapter of my life #and if you're someone who's stumbled onto this blog years after I made this post #(providing Tumblr is even still going by then) #then I hope these characters and stories can bring you as much joy as they once brought me

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

HI EVERYONE monday and tuesday are going to be my exam days so once those are over I'll be back to being active here and continue working on everyone's commissions 💚 this is just an announcement to keep everyone posted~ I'll respond to any unreplied messages soon, just give me time!

also, happy birthday to my fellow october celebrants! i'm aware that there's a lot of october mutuals here but i don't want to contact everyone to greet them especially if it's late so here's a generalized one 🎂 cheers to more years to come!

#admittedly it was very stressful this week and figured i'd shut down my activity on tumblr and avoid browsing excessively (it worked!) #we had a LOOT of performance tasks to do and it was all before exams which made it all the more panic inducing - but they're all done now! #i'm very excited about the new hypno's lullaby update now that its back in development (mostly fleshing out what was missing in v2!) #so I'll most probably be actively talking about it~ me and my friends are very excited! it's honestly like we manifested for it #it's such a coincidence no joke! i already had started rbing old posts about redemme and this happens its so... whoa #so so excited. though i honestly never left this fandom even if i started focusing on SM red and Steven!! #their songs are still actively playing on my phone so i never left it.... aheheh #I will most probably stop doing repostober just in case school will become hectic after exams - but its been super fun to share :] #well that's enough babbling! ill see you all possibly on wednesday or thursday <3 #im also gonna watch the digital circus soon im so proud to see how far gooseworx has gone <3 #ive been a long time fan of her songsss #~ rambling

[e77y]

Procrastinating so hard even though this is a fun topic about my embarrassing old interest... It's literally an excuse to infodump WHY am I procrastinating 😭

#🤓posting #I need to seriously start though bc this is due tomorrow and I have to make a physical zine (for the first time ever) #because I decided to commit to that for some reason 😭 #procrstinated so hard that I painted THREE layers of nail polish (I am usually very lazy with it. so) #and waited for it to dry all the way and everything LMAO #sorry for all the school posting lately I have had a very stressful week lolol #I will be done with projects after Monday and then on spring break the next week so yay #and my transient school is on spring break rn #but I'm moving soon (not out of town yet; my mom is moving houses down the street actually haha) so I'll be busy with that #also why do I keep getting ed tumblr (idk if it has a specific community name or whatever) tags recommended when I type in tags 😭 #every time I start a tag with 'I want' or 'I need' I get these tags recommended..... I don't want to have to block all of them UGH #I actually don't think I have any filtered tags rn #anyway sorry for the ramble I'm gonna go work.... not now but soon lol. byeeee

[eterniityblooms]

updated my rules to include shipping info + a bit more about my monster muses specifically, since shipping with at LEAST one muse on this account is probably inevitable at some point

#『 from the rumblings comes a song: ooc. 』 #tldr i don't know who is and isn't open for ships so if you jive with a particular muse after writing with them some by all means feel free #to ask and we can see if it would work; crossover ships are absolutely wonderful too so don't feel afraid to ask even if the verse is #different! #also that all my monster muses are fully sapient and open to shipping with humans/wyverians/nonhumans/other monsters/etc provided they vibe #and most of them possess their true form，a 'hybrid' form and their human/wyverian form but all of them can and will spend at least Some tim #in their true forms and a lot of them Prefer that form #i don't think? that'll be an Issue here on tumblr but on twitter ojhhhh my god nobody would rp with you if you didn't basically make your #monster muse a glorified human. i had ppl try to pressure my muse ic to use their human form just. for a conversation?? then proceeded to #drop the int and cease to acknowledge me whatsoever when i refused because my muse didn't see the point in wasting the energy to shift form #when they can talk perfectly fine in their true form #not ALL of my monster muses speak words verbally (soul comes to mind as one who typically doesn't) but those who don't still have plenty of #ways of expressing themselves #also they choose not to not because they CAN'T because they either don't Want to or mimicking the sound of speech is hard on their throat #(ie soul) so they opt to not unless they Really want to make a point or make damn sure they're being listened to #nonverbal/non-words communication is a valid form of communication and i like writing natural monster/dragon communication through sounds #and body language. it is very fun<3 #sorry for the tag spam ramble btw i do this Often. nicer than dumping it all in the body of the post yknow?

[crabs-nonsense]

Something I love is my mom's romantic relationship. Like her partner and the ways they interact are both so wholesome and amazing. So you guys are gonna unlock some lore here.

Over two years ago my dad cheated on my mom and she said their relationship was over, because that was a rule she's always had for herself, once a cheater always a cheater. After that she started dating her current partner in a long distance relationship. They are an enby who lives in Norway and the two of them met on tiktok because they both cosplay the marauders era from Harry Potter.

In the two years they've been together my mother has gone and spent several months visiting them and meeting their family twice, once for summer and once for winter. Their family loves her and regularly invites her to things even though she can't attend. They video chat pretty much daily and text constantly. They've seen eachother at their highs and lows and been there through it all. An extremely funny fact is that my mom started learning Norwegian from a 6yr old with a very specific dialect and a speech impediment, because her partners son mostly speaks Norwegian with a bit of English.

Anyways the reason I was thinking about this is that yesterday I was in a voice chat with my bsd cosplay friends and my mom was across from me talking about the paperwork for getting citizenship through marriage with her partner. And I'd said she doesn't have to be engaged for a long time before getting married, which very much confused my friends and I had to explain. So it's been on my mind lol.

I love that they've talked about the steps needed for all of us the get citizenship, and how to get my sister and I onto disability there. And they even told my mom they might get a bigger house just so we can all still live together. They also send us Norwegian candy from time to time (sending things to the US is super expensive so it's not very often). They also send all her kids presents both randomly and for birthdays and Christmas. I have a crocheted pokemon plushie from them that I absolutely adore.

But yeah despite my mom being completely done with my dad he spent a year and a half trying to "win her back" but in like a really semi toxic roundabout way that all of us could see would never work except for him. And he only this year finally moved out of the house. Divorce papers FINALLY got filed and we all know he's going to drag it out and fight for full custody just to spite her. So because of that my mom and her partner are only dating, but mom has said the moment the divorce goes through she wants to take a small trip to Norway so we can all meet them in person and she wants to propose in person. Her partners son (again he's six) insists he's planning their wedding (they've never said anything about getting married to him), and he collects rocks and shells every time they go to the beach to use as center pieces for the tables.

Another thing is that with the safety of trans people quickly fading here they've also talked about how if things get bad enough that we are in danger here, we can all go to Norway. Like they told my mom if she suddenly said hey we're getting on a plane and will be there at x time, they will get their family together to get large enough transportation and housing for us (I have 4 siblings so there's 6 of us in all).

And and and!!! They are also disabled and have been since they were a kid. They don't have the same issues my sister and I do but they do have joint problems and chronic pain just like us so its been amazing to be getting first hand advice for a lot of things. They are so amazing i can't wait to meet them in person and give them a hug honestly.

#long post #story time #i love my moms significant other soooo much #sorry i just wanted to ramble about this but didnt want to bother anyone so its a tumblr post instead of a dm aha #to anyone whos heard me talk about the whole physical abuse trauma from my dad id like to clarify here that my mom didnt know about that #i didnt acknowledge really to myself that i had physical abuse trauma and that it wasnt all normal until last year #and he never did anything as extreme when she was around so she never saw it happen and i guess we all assumed she knew so never said much #but after they separated and she would talk about stuff with the oldest two kids (my brother and i) we mentioned something about it and #she was very upset about it and it is a huge part on why she wants full custody of the kids #anyways yeah #someday i will go to Norway and if im really really lucky i wont have to come back #the US government is not good and would rather i was dead so im very much not interested in staying here aha #being trans autistic and disabled was not a good call here but alas it was not my choice #sorry for the rant #crab says words #im completely normal :D

[silverselfshippingchaos]

oh my.

#i wrote out a whole post but methinks tumblr ate it :( okay so yeah here's a picture of g.arrus that has me going wild #i love my m.ass e.ffect ash! she's a very happy soldier in m.e1 but the events at the start of m.e2 shatter her and she abandons her post to #go fight crime with g.arrus! he's Archangel and she's Falcon. when you recruit her again she is much more serious and mature and that #carries through to m.e3. #after the games they have 2 kiddos. human biotic named k.irrahe (like the salarian) and turian boy named aster (my s.hepard's first name) #im almost done with m.e3 and was gonna play the citadel dlc this week! i am not ready for all the g.arrus content #i love my alien boyfriend or whatever #ash rambles 💚

[anonprotagging]

gene was supposed to be so bitter about being in hisui and get even more angry and unhinged over time with ingo as like his one friend and, and volo was supposed to come to the slow realization that being seen by arceus is maybe not a good thing but keep up that customer service guise so by the end gene doesn’t even know if he’s learned anything

but instead they were both so desperate to talk to someone who got them that they’re literally just living together now ksjdhfkjsdhf

#normally I'd post this rambling over on twitter but I've resolved not to post anything unique over there anymore #lack of security and all #I kind of prefer the casual format over there it feels too official posting on tumblr but alas #we're all stuck with me weeping on main now #I might have posted parts of this one before but MAN they were supposed to make each other worse #guzma was right gene's really good at cooperating with people #weeping and wailing tbh #PLA spoilers #mentioned #dhgsdgfdshfd the kleavor fight was such a big turning point 😭😭😭😭 #everything volo was supposed to realize slowly he realized very quickly instead -- arceus couldn't care less if his heroes live or die #in that one instant he went from 'if I visit every day people will think I'm courting him but idc about rumors' to 'I Am Courting Him' #also you can tell these were from a long time before kleavor bc the hat is Smooth #immediately after kleavor volo's hat got fluffy #I just got better at drawing it lol but it feels symbolic skjdhfksjdf

[exisntidonot]

So I was googling old tv shows I used to watch, procrastinating on my homework, and guess what show popped into my head, after not seeing it for a very, very, very long time?

The haunting hour.

I only remember that show because it used to be on YTV, at like, 10-11 o'clock at night, and I would watch it. I was really obsessed with the show, even though I barely understood what was going on.

And the nightmares. I used to get really, really bad nightmares after I watched the show, and after like 3 months of me watching it, and getting nightmares of it, my mom enforced a screen-time limit, mainly for shows after 9:00.

And I remember that show so damn much, mainly because of the body horror stuff, and how freaked out I was over it.

Anyways, one of my most vivid memories of the show was this one about this kid who was obsessed with ancient egypt stuff gets frickin. sucked back into time to be essentially another person's body or something??

And I googled it I googled rl stine show ancient egypt and I finally found the name of it. I'm gonna watch that episode, and get me a bit of nostogia

#exisnt's rambles #also something funny imo is that out of curiosity I googled where tfp was being streamed because my thought-pipeline went from: #scary show that I didn't understand -> shows i didn't really understand -> shows I definietly did not remember or understand properly as a- #-kid -> hey look when the haunting hour was made that roughly around the time when tfp was made -> ytv took american shows and showed them- #-to canadian audiences -> hey WHAT THE HAUNTING HOUR USED TO BE ON THE HUB (where tfp used to be released)- #-hmmm i wonder if they ripped shows from the hub to show on ytv -> googles where was tfp streamed -> results include ytv. #Conclusion? I might have been the target demographic for tfp when it first aired (although a little too young - animated would fit better) #but i probably changed the channel because I wasn't interested in the show #just a nagging feeling but i bet they probably showed it after tmnt and spongebob when everything looks boring and then boom. tfp. #there is the possiblitity they might have not shown it during its original runtime at all ofc and we didn't have cable after 2014-2015 ish #i think it probably streamed when we got rid of cable and such and probably at like. 1 am or some other ungodly hour #this is very interesting to me and i cannot explain why. #also yeah now i just want to watch the show and compare some old memories of episodes to how they actually went bc i know i did not- #-remember things properly. #not gonna tag this as the haunting hour yet cause i haven't watched the show yet lol #too bad i can't find really old tumblr post on this idk but i feel like this show would have been milked for all its worth on tumblr #and aggressively hated for all its worth as well.

[cjgladback]

I've finally decided on a final result tag for my work (#gallery) and gone through to add it to the last posts of each WIP, not counting the ones that aren't done yet. But there were two embedded sketchfab posts that errored out (the pizza box just said "there was an error processing your post" when trying to save and the very old animated rabbit had its iframe break in the tumblr dashboard view -- still working on my custom blog -- and won't let me save it for that reason) and I don't know which site to blame. But I'm mostly posting this to remind myself that those two are missing from the gallery tag.

#linking the whole phrase ''very old animated rabbit'' would feel like that xkcd about the disappointment of conjoined wiki links #i might have to make a geriatric bunny one of these days #ramblings #tumblr #i also haven't added my fiber posts to that tag yet #the socks might count--they were a design brought to fruition and they're already up on instagram after all #but the upside of having this tag is that you don't have to scroll through a ton of unfinished things to see ''what i do'' #the downside is you don't have to scroll nearly far enough to find what i've done #but artstation is there for being a cleaned up gallery this should be the complete library #sticky kids dvds and all

[nivq87]

man the wow hearthstone event is great, I used all the waiting around to file my taxes and pay a couple bills

#Im joking but also very sincere I had been struggling to muster the energy to do these #GJ blizz making an event so boring that tumblr post reminding usa folk about tax options #got me to actually do my taxes out of boredom #but now my taxes are done :) and then I can play skyrim some more without that weighing on me #why am i rambling #kinda reminds me of the infamous shadowlands icecrown event #where I spent all the down time knitting socks #world of warcraft IS why I started knitting after all #maybe that's what I'll do tomorrow night when I wait around on the hearthstone guys some more

[collegeoflore]

artist vs oc

tagged by @tadpole-apocalypse!!!

i tried so hard but this picrew is honestly not my fav LOL

human-adjacent xarrai bc i couldn’t make them purple. i tried ieriyn instead bc at least he’s human color but he came out way worse so u get xar LOL

i’m a monster so i’m just tagging anyone who sees this and wants to do it. go crazy :3

picrew link here :)

#i also associate this picrew with like. the 2016-17 era of picrew icons on callout posts on twt dot com. #i was a contributor in a zine in like 2017 or maybe 2018 #and another person had an icon from this picrew and i was like ‘hey we can be friends :) we r in this zine together :)’ and i went to check #out their tumblr and it was just like #callout after callout after callout for innocuous things #i wish i remember which zine it was i did a few those years #my GUESS is it was the later otasune zine i did but i don’t even remember what that one was called LOL #it def was Not mgs lost years and CERTAINLY not the kaz zine bc i did solimiller for that one #lol #this was a very off topic ramble. anyway here’s me and my guy #i own a very very similar outfit to this irl i will say. just not pastel LOL #it does always feel weird to make myself in a picrew bc they’re all so skinny. like girl who IS that #also i know the piercings don’t fit right on xar’s ears i just decided i didn’t care #漫言 #oc. xarrai #tag game #ty for the tag btw!!!