#this level makes me miserable dkjfvgdbgsdfjlkghfdgfbdgladfgjksdfhgbdfgsdlfgjashdfgdafgadflgsdajfhgsdebrfgaflgjhsdfgaflgjhadfgdfgladjkfgabfg

[basic-braining]

#psychonauts #little oly #morceau oleander #this level makes me miserable dkjfvgdbgsdfjlkghfdgfbdgladfgjksdfhgbdfgsdlfgjashdfgdafgadflgsdajfhgsdebrfgaflgjhsdfgaflgjhadfgdfgladjkfgabfg #bb rambles

[simpingforthisonedeer]

mama anshi I feel like your blog is the only safe place I can say this but Noelle admitting to Asta is really eh like why is everyone so hyped up we been knew💀💀

First of all, love how everyone calls me mama Anshi(Mamshi) or big sis Anshi💀💕💕

And secondly anon, you just opened a big can of worms for me😩🤚 I’m sorry you don’t feel safe or comfortable enough to share unpopular opinions elsewhere but I can assure you that I never take an opposing opinion personally so everyone on my blog are free to speak their mind safely😌💕💕

That being said, I completely agree anon💀💀 I’m personally not an astelle shipper but a lot of my close friends on this site are so I kept my mouth shut because I didn’t wanna rain on their parade💀🤚but it really was an eh moment😭😭

Look, you ship Asta and Noelle? Great! It’s gonna be the endgame couple WOOHOO 🥳 I want it to happen but do I ship it so much that im waiting for it? Nahhhh cus it’s all so one-sided💀💀💀

Asta is really focused on becoming WK and his character is completely oblivious to Noelle. I’m not abt to support my homegirl’s fruitless endeavors like that💀🤚 it’s really more of a “poor noelle🥲🥲”situation not a “yay noelle is finally over her denial phase” like okay😭?? What abt Asta? Y’all forget that Asta treats Noelle almost the same as everyone else and his harem? Heck he even forgot abt sister Lily cus he’s so focused on saving the world😭 are we going to have to wait another 300 chapters before Asta realizes too? I mean prolly cus Tabata said that he was gonna make this bih long💀

What I will appreciate is that her self-improvement doesn’t seem rooted in romance but rather her romantic feelings for Asta stems from the acknowledgment that he was the reason why she was changing for the better. To simplify that, I mean that Noelle isn’t improving because of her crush on Asta, but rather she has a crush on Asta and finally admitted to herself because she realized she was improving cus of him🥰🥰 and I really really really love that and honestly, props to tabata for maintaining a good vibe and conveying it properly in his storytelling😎🙏

But still not an Astelle shipper yet💀

Another reason why is that, if I was Noelle’s friend, I would totally discourage it because would y’all really tell your friends to go after someone who’s not really interested??

I will start shipping it when it’s no longer one-sided. When Asta begins to also notice Noelle and return her feelings and mistake her tsundere moments for dislike and create some really cute misunderstandings, then I will become the biggest astelle shipper you know👹🙏 I just really dislike one-sided attraction guys 😔🤚

#black clover #noelle silva #black clover asta #asta x noelle #astelle #it’s also cus I’m prolly traumatized you how much one of my friends were hurt when she loved her bf so deeply but he #how do I say this? She gave her 150% in the relationship while he gave his 100% #he loved her he really did but his affection he was giving seemed inadequate to my friend and it made her really miserable #I never want to see that happen make sure you’re always on the same level as your partner on everything #or it will create situations like that #the bf also cried for days when they broke up because she wanted *more* #which made him feel inadequate because was the love he was giving not enough? #that bf is also my best friend #yeah it’s River #we’re dating now and I love him with all my heart😌💕💕 just as much as he does me #and we’re still close friends with his ex! heck she’s living with us right now😎 with like 12 other friends too so it’s not THAT weird💀💀💀 #anon #thx for whispering🥰 #tag rant

[ur-promethean]

i ended up playing halo 5 w my arch nemesis taran this last week and it was my first time playing it. iirc the night the game was released there was some kind of promotional twitch stream of a playthrough to get people amped and all it did was make me cancel my preorder of the art book and soundtrack LOL so i never actually....... played it. anyway i always thought it was just a bad halo game when in reality it is an objectively bad video game overall

#txt #genuinely terrible. like full stop #fireteam osiris deserved their own game not a game thats halfassed about chief w only 3 actual levels w him in it #and the voice acting was fuckng miserable to listen to. i dont think either downes or taylor liked what they were doing LOL #honestly the fact i was also 100% right abt ur-promethean just. makes me insane #im not even mad either im just shocked by how bad it was #i think if they decided to just completely start over with infinite everyone would be fine w that bc it was so bad even a half-assed retcon #would be preferred LMFAO

[britneyshakespeare]

“season six is buffy’s best season because the big bad is Life Itself. there’s no camp. the scoobies all go through *real* issues. it’s torturous to get through because depression is like that.”

#i do not like enduring a season's worth of trauma thank you #buffy #text post #btvs #i'm sorry but there are just too many events that go on that make me never wanna rewatch it again. it was MISERABLE to get through #my first time watching. #it's not all bad but the concept of a 'real mental illness season w no supernatural baddie' is not as good as the allegorical villains #of seasons before it. #there were layers to all of those characters that represented adolescent struggles and feminine coming of age. #season six just rips the mask off and says now the trauma is EXTRAAA canon (as if it wasn't canon the whole time?) #(AS IF BUFFY DIDNT KILL AND SEND HER BOYFRIEND TO HELL AS A 17-YEAR-OLD?) #season six of btvs is a perfect example of why i think 'realism' does NOT inherently equate to better art. in fact sometimes the goal #is just to make the art more bleak and ultimately less beautiful and less enjoyable #art should be a higher level above life. it should be exploratory. #also 'realistic' doesnt have to mean 'fucking pessimistic and sad' but thats a wider societal philosophical issue isnt it?

[gobbluthbutagirl]

have i ever mentioned that when i did voc rehab those personality tests they make you take to determine what career would be a good fit for you all told me i should get into acting. there were like 2 or 3 different ones (can’t remember) and ALL of them told me i should get into acting. and the lady who was assigned to be my career advisor was like “well that’s of course not really a viable career path here in south carolina” and i was thinking yes ma’am i know that’s why i came here. bc i have got to get out of this miserable state. and anyway then she asked me what kinds of things i enjoy doing & i was like “i like to bake i guess” and the rest is unfortunately history

#have i mentioned the reason i decided to go to voc rehab in the first place was that i got rejected from a job at walmart. as a cart pusher! #i had landed a fucking in-person interview & everything & afterwards this man never even called me back! #i was like oh my god. if walmart won’t even hire me as a cart pusher no place on earth will ever hire me as anything #& let me tell you something about doing voc rehab in one of south carolina’s reddest counties #the ‘people you didn’t even know god could create’ levels in that environment are off the fucking charts #& you know the ironic thing. in the long run doing voc rehab did very little if anything to contribute to the job i eventually found #i only did it for a month & a half. and it was february 2020 when i started. one guess as to what happened #but yeah. if any high school dropouts are following me & need to hear this you do NOT need to go to voc rehab #in order to find a job that will literally make you so miserable. you can do that by your damn self! #again. hell is just a grocery store bakery in south carolina. but i lived bitch!

[wherearethewatermelons]

miserable people just want to make other people miserable.

#i'm done with people thinking they can say whatever they want to me #without me getting angry #like i'm sorry your life is miserable #but you are not gonna use my mother's death as a way to make you superior #thats not right on any level #my mother loved me #and she always will #you made your own misery #thats not my fault #you are both grown adults #in your 40s and 70s #why are you attacking me an 18 year old? #you should be better than that #but unfortunately you're not #god will take care of #you are an evil #and you will be stomped out one day #you will not use my mother's death in any way #you will keep her name out of your mouth #and you let her rest

[frogcoded]

so i’ve been wanting to take up sewing out of frustration with the current fashion (beige my detested) + i desperately need hobbies in which i Do Stuff With My Hands And Turn The Brain Off, which is also the reason why i took up baking during the first lockdown and so far i came across the following differences that i somehow did not expect: - baking usually takes max 5€ and an afternoon (i never did anything exceedingly complicated and i don’t expect to become a master of sewing either), sewing takes more money and time and it’s not something you can do as a once-a-week thing - baking tires me way more because i have to cut and mix and clean stuff and getting tired is good because i struggle with doing physical activity while in lockdown, sewing just hurts my neck for some reason - but also i can sew for half an hour before bed if i have a project going, if i want to bake something i’m booked for the following five hours - when i finish sewing something i can’t eat it :/

#wild how much having a cake at the end was actually my motivation for baking #anywayyy as of now i've only done small fixes to existing stuff #(except from a project that was way above my skills and thus failed miserably but we're not gonna talk about that) #but i think in a couple weeks when i have more time i'm going to the mercato or to ikea for those super cheap fabrics and try and make #myself a skirt hell yeah #but first i'll visit my grandma and ask her where she used to get her fabrics because she used to sew before her sight got so bad #maybe she'll even have some offcuts to give me lol #(considering ikea too even though it's not the best place bc i don't know if i'll be able to go to an actual market since i always have #lessons in the morning and fabric shops are too expensive for my level of skill and willpower atm)

[kawaiianimeredhead]

So many things feel like they're hanging on ny the thinnest of threads and I am so exhausted by it

#work time is reflect upon life things time and it means #i end up feeling awful for approx 3 hours a morning #i really have never been an 'everything is awful and Will Stay awful' person #i absolutly believe in better happier futures and tomorrows at least on a personal level #idk about like globally or in the US we lookin kinda bad in those areas #but also i could not tell you what actually will get better #like yeah i think theres a time i wont feel depressed and mildly suicidal and will be happy #but i have no idea when that will actually happen or what is going to change #because i dont have enougg faith in anything to really use that as like motivation and or a targetting system if that makes sense #so im just like yeah sure itll get better hut its sucks right now and im miserable #andbi cant think of where i was going with these tags #dont mind me #im so so tired #every time my therapist talks about how good everythings been going and soundding i feel like im lying lmao #to a degree i guess im lying hy ommision but somethings judt dont come up #related to earlier tags i so genuinely cant see futures like once i got out of high school any kind of planning and thinking ahout future #stopped at like a month ahead #because too many things change and i know that so the idea of planning or dreaming or thinking ahout any kind of future #involving people in a personal or just passing by way just can not be imagine #it iust dead stops and it goes no where #there has been only abfew exceptions and even that gets really fuzzy when various things happen #like everything and everyone changes far too much for me to judt he like 'yeah one day its still gonna be all the same people and things' #and if anything this past year reenforces that and double down on that #like i cant even think to hard on my dog heing in my future or it makes me cry because i know she cant be because shes already almost 10 #life is fucking miserable and it will and can get better but i could not tell you shit about what thatd look like and who will be there #and thats been very much a viewpointvive had for YEARS even if i didnt know it that well in words #i think its one of the reason i can not wrap my head around marriage really like for other people i think ita cute andbi love seeing wedding #but i can not picture myself married and havent been able to since i was in like middle school #any time the talk of marriage comes up i can not related and have not related #tag rambles

[troyboltonfanclub]

If your level of respect towards me raises as soon as it comes up that I went to university I really dont want anything to do with you and do not need or accept your EMPTY respect thank you very much

#also if you shame me for changing fields fuck you?? #like yeah i used to go to a good university and had some internationally very respected and succesfull professors #but i was miserable it wasnt making me happy #also the level of somebodys education tells nothing about how good their heart is or how kind they are #leaving university was one of my best choises in life and im so tired of people shaming me for it #rant over

[apathyfairy]

me watching 15 hours of youtube in a row: it’s called therapy

#hey guys <3 gonna kms fr soon <3 #so not only did i find out i have an abscess and need a root canal on monday <3 but then i got home that night and my bird died <3 #yes another death for death omen girl harbinger of death that i am #anyways yes he was almost 10 years old and for some dumbass reason i thought his breed species whatever #lived for 20 years when <3 they only live 10 so he exactly fulfilled that. so anyways im miserable #and i had 2 birds. his sister. and she's <3 heartbroken so i want to fucking die <3 #anyways so that means ! that in the last 19 months ! i have lost 2 dogs and 1 bird and before that i had never lost anything at all <3 #so lets recap ! first i lost my dog tragically. i am still not ok from that ! ! ! then 6 months later a v close family friend died ! #ok ! then my great aunt died of cancer. literally. she did not Tell anyone she had cancer at all she pulled one of those secret diagnosis #things and literally when she died they told her kids. oh she had cancer. and they were like ??????????? #anyway she died. #then a month later !! my grandpa died which forced me to talk to my dad so painful on a few levels #then!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #my OTHER dog died <3 <3 <3 2 weeks after her 17th birthday <3 <3 #THEEEEEN 6 months after that i found out my ex boyfriend died <3 4 years ago but it feels like 2 months ago for me bc i just found out <3 #NOWWWWW !!!! 2 months after that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! which im still grieving from!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my bird dies!!!!! #on the same day i find out i have to have a root canal!!! and i dont have dental insurance!!!!!!!!!!!! so im waiting til it kicks in on the #st next month!!!! and if i dont make it and the infection hits my braind before then i guess ill just die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #anywhores im having a mental breakdown because i just ! cant ! take ! it ! any !!!! fucking!!!! more !!!!!!!!!!!!!

[hauntedorpheum]

I feel weird saying this, but for the first time I could 100% understand Dean’s point of view in the whole situation

#don't get me wrong #i disagree with him on every single level #and sam is 100% right in being pissed and deserves to call him out #but usually i need to slow down to get dean's pov #maybe is bcs they were really obvious as they usually do in motw but #in this one i was like 'yep it makes sense dean would do this i get it' #he is lying to himself to protect both sam and dean and failing miserably #spn spoilers #spn 15x16 #im not good at explaining things so don't ask aksjkajdfkj #my post

[rainbepourin]

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#just another crap day of a crap year #and unfortunately I consider the year crap mostly on a personal level #which makes me both miserable and kind of an asshole?