#this my personal perception ok

[some-teeth-in-a-trench-coat]

The scariest thing about being the same person for 5 years straight is that some people are 5 years older than when I met them. This is extra scary because if I assume no one was using tumblr despite being below 13, that means they're all legal adults now every single one all of them that's bonkers. You used to be 13. How could this happen.

#brought to you by remembering how when people say “kids age 12-15” or whatever I think of the girl I met when she was 14 #but she's turning 19 this year she's literally not representative of the generation currently at that age #“15 year olds are super computer illiterate” “that can't be right my friend was using Linux for years at 15” then I realize #man being mid twenties is wild my perception of time just gets worse since when is 5 years so short that's still a decent chunk of my life?? #even worse is ppl born in 2000 are even older than her??? no way they should be like 14 at most and ideally 8 or below I think. #what do you mean they're turning 24. #also I need to ask myself what year it is to remember my own exact age uhh I was 22 recently I think hmm nope that's several years off. #sfw #personal #ok to reblog

[cerealmonster15]

truly part of why most things i show or whatever r sketchy doodles i did in one sitting is that it is always a race against the clock when im doing something before The Evil takes over and eats me. i get stressed about if i try to actually make something pretty bc i know i cant lol, and if i take too long [staring nervously at the google docs i keep opening and closing] on a fic it's harder to finish bc i start Thinking about it too much and if it's any good or if it's cringe or What Ever

#a battle against myself truly lol .................. #ive been making slow progress on the kalim/silver and jamil/azul story but. but. #im stuck and afraid lol #the heartslabyul thing i started writing a month ago i am like. at the end ? it's a short little simple thing but #ive frozen in like 'oh this is lame and bad and boring and cringe actually' and cant bring myself to finish #i have a cater/trey thing where i wrote up the idea/concept notes when the idea came to me #bc it's both a ship fic and also a character/relationship study #but then thats one where im extra afraid to write it bc it's likeohhh i want it to be good and handled well and i want my #point to come across and i dont want to fuck it up #grrr grrr grrr the downside of perception is thinking too much of. the perception of others JKLFDSJKFLJS #i want to be FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #also i just have. personal issues. self love issues LOL but im not getting into that rn. #i also have had nasty allergies all week girl help it's raining pollen and my throats fucked up #i took a covid test today just in case and it was negative #and my partner hasnt gotten sick from kissing me so im more sure its allergies lol but OUGHGHGHGHH feels ick #ok anyway. fics and fanart or w/e. it all comes back to the root problem of I Have Low Self Esteem GOODBYE!!!! #🤧🤧🤧!!!!!!!!!!!

[yuridovewing]

ngl i know it happened cause like, “lol im gonna fuck your mom” jokes are common and funney (and im not on a pedestal i make those jokes a lot LOL) and on a surface level if you havent read the books (which by the amount of love for how deep and nuanced dotc is, i can tell a lot of people havent actually read it) its a weird and bizarre thing and people likely just ran with that and made a joke out of it, but i really never liked the jokes about star flower and clear sky because like… the way star flower is treated is really gross and unsettling and its not a spiteful or petty thing shes doing, he likes her bc shes his sons age and will obey his every whim because “shes bad and needs to earn decent treatment” and she wants to atone or whatever and shes literally treated like a prize he gets for being suuuch a good boy now (now he ONLY abuses women, instead of abusing AND murdering them)

#truly i feel insane bc i read those books when they came out and they do not match fanon perception at all #‘’oh you just cant comprehend that clear sky is a complex character and you hate redemption arcs-‘’ #no…. no hes just a wifebeater. thats all he is. hes a character who abuses and kills the people around him and then he sees god #and hes like ‘’im a good person cause i believe in god and my dead wife said i was ok’’ #and then he proceeds to allow known abusers in his ranks and still control and abuse his cats #all while the female characters suffer or die for his development #the erins quite literally want you to think he was never really bad bc they have a black and white view of good and evil #see clear skys not evil cause hes not a filthy foreigner >:( hes a good christian man #like i get it we watched the always gold map and it was fantastic and it was so good it made us think dotc was an underrated gem #but like…. its not real none of this is real. clear sky as a character is just abuse apologia man pain whining for the authors

[melloneah]

gender used to be so strange to me. i couldnt be full on masculine or feminine or i would literally combust into flames. i always had to be BANG ON in the middle, wearing super baggy, masculine clothes that hide my body BUT never daring to leave the house without eyeliner or pretty nails. little me was so confused but never dared to try to identify with being anything but cis for fear of disrespecting the community in case i ever changed my mind.

im so glad ive given it a lot of thought in the past year and realised im just non binary and i dont have to cosplay being a girl

and i started identifying as it before i was certain, and it felt so natural i stuck with it. and that is SO OK!!!!!

so im here to spread the message: it’s okay to discover who you are slowly, even misunderstanding yourself along the way. the community is here to support you, not shame you for a rocky journey to healthy self perception ❤️

#im still in the middle of figuring out what my self perception is in regards to gender #it’s super hard!!!! and takes time #and that’s ok #be kind to yourselves #i feel a hell of a lot better and at peace than i did 2 years back #and it’ll only get better and clearer! ❤️ #non binary #personal post #lgbt #lgbtqa #lgbtq+ #lgbtq community #gender

[wolvertooth]

i need more gender freak weirdo friends so i can have people not call me insane for being like. this is #girl.

#ive had literally ONE person agree with me so far.....i cant help that my perception of gender is sooo cool ok #literally the first 2 movies oh my goddddd girl vibes off the chart #like. when i say Girl i mean it in a completely nonbinary way like...concept #LIKE wolverine is both fag n dyke to me. sabretooth too but in a different way. #i hungout with people for the first time in like 2 months last night and they all didnt get the vision despite being nb n trans #and it felt so alienating.ngl.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Sometimes I want to create naruto polls. Then I look at the results of other naruto polls. And I'm like no. The people are wrong. They don't understand.

#ill look at the tags and see takes that i cannot comprehend #my experience is not universal. the perception of others is incomprehensible #which is to say. if i made naruto polls it would jusy make me angry lmao #bc im the type of person who goes: is it me? am i out of touch? no. its everyone else #but in this case i think im right bc ive seen ppl with similar takes and im like ok. maybe other ppl just cant do media analysis or watched #as a kid or something. not my problem lol #naruto ramblings #i just have to put my thumb on the scale of existing polls #my naruto mutuals have good takes 🖤 but some of yall on this website. we r not thr same lol

[padfootastic]

i love prongsfoot because arguments can be made for both house husband sirius and house husband james.

like, i can see sirius just dropping tf out of public eye and only focusing on his james and their house and any potential children. he has so many hobbies, doesn’t need to limit himself to a single job, and his authority issues don’t get a chance to come up. also the sheer hilarity of him dressed impeccably, hair done up, looking sharp and dangerous—just to drop off lunch for james? give him a kiss on the nose and leave?

‘was that sirius black? no way’

but. at the same time. house husband james fits so perfectly because he !!! loves !!! his family so much!!! this gives him the ability to spend time with effie and flea, who’re old and unable to move around so much now. he can cook and bake and pamper his friends to his heart’s content, apparating all over the continent to where they’re working just to say hi or give them a flower. also like, making cutesy bento boxes? sirius black, terrifying in whichever profession he chooses, opens these adorable boxes where u have heart shaped sweets, and all of his favorites packed in neat little rows, and he just eats them with a fond smile and zero embarrassment because he’s equally in love.

(and i’m not even gonna touch on dad james bc we’ll be here the whole day)

#sirius black #james potter #prongsfoot #my typo changed house husband to gouda husband so uh. sirius black is cheese now? #ok but sirius as a HH subverts so many perceptions for me and i *love* imagining it #and james is fully built for this #i personally think both of them need constant intellectual stimulation so they’d use this time to work on 2537 things at once #just all over the place #sirius has an office that has everything known to wixenkind #the most niche topic and you’d probably find something about it there #and james has pickup quidditch matches on the weekend #he enters himself into various silly competitions during the week #like growing the biggest pumpkin or some shit #i’m making myself crack up here w the imagery lol #ALSO!! the stay at home dad thing—if they have a kid and they’re both working at the time #you just know they’re gonna fight over who gets to leave and stay at home #like both of them r like ‘no listen i don’t want ur career to suffer. i’ll make the sacrifice and be with the munchkin no problem! #in the end both of them give it up bc they’re rich bastards who don’t need to work a day in their life lol #pen’s notes #pen’s favourites

[orcelito]

Honestly I have realized that 99% of my shipping of vashwood comes from trimax. Yea I vibed with it while watching tristamp but trimax is what took my utter heart and soul

It's to the point where I just don't rly enjoy tristamp vashwood that much anymore hfkshfjd like. OK? Those sure are some dudes. Not My dudes tho, sorry.

#speculation nation #i'll still reblog the fanart if it's good. but yea it just ain't what im about anymore. #i feel like the worst vashwood perceptions r found within tristamp only fans anyways #(this post tangentially related to the post i just reblogged) #tristamp only fans see these two and are like 'this is the Angry Buff Dude and the Tiny Pixy Man' #which pretty much erases like everything they stand for? while also supporting racist caricatures. #not all tristamp only fans do this btw but i have definitely seen it much more around there. #meanwhile trimax vashwood is just like. this is an old married couple. theyre so hopelessly Goofy. #the angst is off the CHARTS. the love even more so. #they very genuinely love each other in trimax In Canon and that's what really gets me. #plus theyre pretty similar in height and build. Adult Men!!!! i like this ship for Adult Men!!!!! #idk this also relates to that post i made yesterday about fandom perception of vash being an innocent uwu virgin #despite being 150 or so years old. & they'll also make wolfwood some sex god or whatever #when comparatively hes been an adult for a MUCH shorter time than vash. my dude's still a pretty young adult ok #and you wanna tell me he's got more sex experience than the 150 year old dude????? ok... #lol im just complaining at this point. i have very specific views of my ideal version of this pairing #and a lot of fandom portrayals are starting to bother me bc of it. #so im just writing my own vashwood my own way. rn focusing on vash being a rounded person #yes having some childish aspects. but also some mature aspects. he's a goofy adult. it can exist simultaneously. #looking forward to when wolfwood finally comes in. i hope to do him justice.

[barnbridges]

*cough* the funny thing about logging on reddit sometimes is that you will get people who think it's absolutely autism that a man shits on someone's cake and then the same people on a vent post of an absolutely terrible autism parent would be like, supporting eugenics.

#same with borderline personality disorder #like both feed into the same perception #that individuals whose behavior you cannot tolerate MUST have something inannely wrong with them #and you can't say anything to their face about it but you hope they die and wish they werent born #which is insanely hurtful to hear #i know i will be a burden on my family and significant others for the rest of my life. but that doesn't mean i can't be talked to. #that doesn't mean that there arent days when i feel “normal” or where i don't bother anyone #or that i don't deserve to live because i broke down in a supermarket bread isle a couple years ago because of a shopping cart #it's life. yes it's not PLEASANT for me OR for the people around me #but that doesn't mean you should have zero empathy #and wish all children with autism were aborted #that's not freedom #that's not right #and that's not an abortion argument only some people are making the argument that all autistic children should be given up which #makes no fucking sense and IS eugenics #also people on reddit nag on autistic men a lot because they tend to pass on the set of genes #and like fuck off #genuinely #people are ok with eugenics as long as it's someone they see as a bother #and that bothers me so deeply

[criticalrolo]

#I’m banging my head against a wall because of Internalized Weirdness #jesus fucking Christ trying to get my brain not to fucking wreck itself #over gender and sexuality and Transphobia and perception. and just. Looks #Is so hard!! it’s hard. #usually at this point my brain will let me rest from self destructing but who knows. anyway this is because I went shopping with my sister #and twitter was being. well #anyway I’m tired of the hot takes on twitter and wish I was a real person who could do things #ok goodnight #I will Stop doing this

[hellonoblesky]

Every time I see a school assignment and I did all that was required of me INCLUDING talking to other people on the discussionboard but then I get points off for. not using formal tones in my . comments on other people's posts I'm just like "Have you ever talked to anyone in your life" because formal tone, to me, literally sounds like an alien studied only the most stuck up people and like one normal guy and based all it's speech patterns on That it does NOT work in my head I hate it

#WHY can't I just adress people as NORMAL FUCKI NG PEOPLE #ESPECIALLY WHEN THOSE PEOPLE ARE MY CLASSMATES??? #Maybe it's just because I have a weird perception of things but like #if i asked for commentary or something to a comment of mine. and someone gave it in a formal tone #I would litearlly be like 'oh. ok' #BUT IF THEY JUST RESPONDED LIKE A NORMAL PERSON ID BE FULL EARS LISTENING!!! #I hate formal tone all my homies hate formal tone #turtledove yells into the abyss

[guayabaenjoyer3000]

i feel so disconnected lately. so many of my relationships/networks from the past year are sort of falling apart, and while i happen to be quickly making new connections and strengthening older weaker ones, nothing feels cohesive yet. it all feels quite uncertain.

#i've felt the need to distance myself from 3 ppl. who altogether were some of the ties of my 2 most important social groups. #one of the ppl was also my main like... social interaction all the time #there's no longer one person with whom i can share everything & anything... #now im getting closer with two new besties but one of them is a little bitchy and ppl dont like her bc of that. #& w the other im so worried about his perception of me bc we've p much only hung out high and i think i act so fucking stupid when im high #i think its all ok tho... w the first girl im SO used to and tbh in love with that forma de ser #like ik what she´s about. she's just doing her thing #blessed #n then with the guy... we will just have to see. also i think i need to check out his music taste to find sth more in common

[torahtot]

umm hi jewtuals does anyone wanna be interviewed for my jewish philosophy paper on faith journeys that's being officially assigned on thursday 🫢 it'll be fun i prommy

#the difficult part is. i also have to write about my OWN faith journey #and im gonna have to get personal and vulnerable and shit?? a thousand curses #it's ok i love my teacher im so cool and not afraid of human connection and perception of the self i love that shit im all about it. yeah #gonna have to be like uhhh. gay people. haha #:/ #if i dont find a friend to interview i might have to ask my parents LMAOSDJOSUR not happening #yeah idk who else to ask.. i dont have adult figures in my life that im close to. besides my therapist but i cant ask her #ANYWAYS!!!! you want to be interviewed sooo bad woogly boogly yes you do #hey.. maybe i could interview the Geef.. she is so cool and interesting and complex and i always want to study her under a microscope.. #nachi speaks

[muppet-on-a-spit]

cis friend just referred to period pain as "lady problems" in front of me (trans guy) and our other friend (trans girl). neither of us said shit. about to chew thru the floor

#i hate it here #admittedly this happened a few days ago but i process things slowly & im upset now :/ #gray speaks #she's normally p ok at the whole recognizing gender shit. but. not this time I GUESS #personal #oh & despite not saying anything we were both so obviously uncomfy. well. my trans girl friend was. i have no outward perception of myself