A Real Daddy?
Summary: You sat in bed watching Pedro's latest interview;
Jeff Bridges: "Are you a daddy?"
Pedro: "I'm not a daddy. And I'm not gonna be a daddy!"
Your heart shattered at his words as you looked over at the bathroom where six positive tests were sitting on the sink.
Pairing: Pedro Pascal x Fem!Reader
Word Count: 3.6k
Warnings: language, mentions of abortion
A/N: This fanfic was a commission request. She wanted a short Pedro x Reader where Y/N is nervous to tell him that she is pregnant, and after watching his Hollywood Reporter Roundtable interview, I had to incorporate it into the fic. I hope you all enjoy it ❤️ (gif found on Google, credit to the owner)
You and Pedro had been together for a couple of years now after meeting long ago on the set of Game of Thrones.
The two of you had hit it off right away and had become close friends during the filming of Season 4, but somewhere along the way that friendship had turned into so much more.
Watching Pedro perform as Oberyn Martell wearing that mustard-coloured robe with his unique accent, you never stood a chance. The man was a gift sent from the Gods and for whatever reason, he had taken a liking to you.
"Are you sure you're okay? You still look a little pale." Pedro observed, leaning against the doorframe of the bedroom. His beautiful brown eyes met yours from where you were laying under the blankets, and you could see the concern washing over him as he stared at you.
"I'm probably just coming down with something. I'll be fine. Aren't you meant to be at the airport by now?" You asked, glancing at the alarm clock on your nightstand with a frown.
He had less than an hour before boarding. He really should be halfway to the airport by now.
"Maybe I should reschedule. I don't want to leave you alone-"
"Pedro. You can't reschedule, you start filming Gladiator tomorrow. I'm fine. I promise." You reassured, but your words didn't seem to reassure him in the slightest and you sighed.
He had been working so hard for his new role in Gladiator. With his vigorous diet and workout routine, he had pushed his body to the max for this role. You were so incredibly proud of him. There was no way you were letting him reschedule.
"You were throwing up all morning. You're not fine. I want to take care of you." He all but whispered, walking into the room and sitting down on the edge of your bed.
He lifted his hand, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear as he cupped your face gently and smiled softly at you. You leant into his touch and rested your hand on top of his.
"I love you for that, but I don't need you to take care of me. I can take care of myself."
He sighed, "if you get any worse then you call me, okay?"
You rolled your eyes, "Pedro-"
"You call me." You repeated sternly and you nodded.
"I promise. Now, go before you miss your flight." You said, shoving him gently off the bed. "Text me when you land so I know you're okay."
"I will, baby. I love you." He said, leaning down and kissing your forehead. "Get some rest, okay?"
"I will. I love you, P." You replied smiling softly at him before he grabbed his suitcase and walked out the room.
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Life as you knew it continued on as per usual. That weird stomach bug would come and go, but you just put it down to work stress and bad food.
Pedro was still filming Gladiator overseas and wasn't due back home for another couple of weeks. It was hard whenever he was away, which was fairly often with your line of work. Acting was a very demanding job and although you were taking a break for a while after you had just finished shooting you last movie, Pedro had job after job lined up for the rest of the year.
You were happy for him though. From Narcos to The Mandalorian to The Last of Us, he had really shot to fame. He was the talk of the whole internet at the moment, and you were so proud of how far he had come, you honestly couldn't be happier for him, but a small jealous part of you sometimes wished he wasn't as popular.
He had writers and directors calling and emailing him constantly about job offers and interviews. The two of you rarely got to spend any time together.
It was part of the job though. You both lived busy lives with your acting careers. You knew it would be like this when you first started dating. The two of you had spoken about it before making things official between you, knowing that if you were really serious with each other that you guys would make it work, and you have. But it still sucked sometimes.
However, as you sat on the edge of your bathtub staring at the pregnancy test on the sink, you wished more than anything that he was here with you now.
There were still a few minutes before the test was done and you sat anxiously tapping the empty packet against your knee while you waited.
Neither of you had really spoken about wanting kids in the future. The topic had just never come up. You were too busy with your careers to even think about having kids, but now you were really wishing that you and Pedro have had that conversation. Did he even want kids? Did you even want kids? It was too much to think about.
As if on cue, your phone suddenly began to vibrate in your pocket, and you pulled it out to find Pedro's name on your screen.
He was calling you.
Shit.
You glanced over at the upturned test before taking in a deep breath and pressing the little green accept button.
"Hey!" You said into the phone with as much joy and excitement as possible, not wanting him to know that something was wrong.
"Hey, baby. It's so good to hear your voice. How are you feeling? My sister called and said you sounded a little flat yesterday on the phone."
Yeah, yesterday wasn't a great day. Your body decided that it didn't want to keep any food inside of you, even the plain toast for breakfast came back up. His sister had called at the worst possible time for a chat. You had tried to sound normal, but apparently you hadn't fooled her. You should have known she would tell him.
"Oh, yeah, sorry. Just wasn't feeling great yesterday. I'm good today though, but enough about me. How's Gladiator going?" You asked, and if Pedro noticed your sudden change in topic, he didn't comment on it.
"It is great! Joe and I had this really intense fight scene, and we did it in one take! Which was crazy because during rehearsal we kept laughing and dropping our swords, but we totally nailed it."
You smiled at how happy he sounded as you stared at the pregnancy test packet in your hand anxiously. You couldn't tell him. He was happy and in the middle of filming and you probably weren't pregnant anyway, no point in making him worry for no reason, right?
"Sounds like you've had a good day then." You replied.
"The best! Oh, remember when I did that Hollywood Reporter Roundtable interview?"
"With Jeff Bridges, Evan Peters and the other guys?"
"Yeah, that one. It's finally been released.
"Finally! I've been dying to watch it. Is it on YouTube?" You asked, putting him on speaker while you opened up the YouTube app on your phone to find it.
"You don't have to watch it. It goes for alike an hour and I'm probably just staring at Jeff Bridges the whole time. I don't know how I got through any scenes with him back when we were filming Kingsman together, that man is a legend." He admitted with a chuckle.
"Well now I have to watch it." You responded causing Pedro to laugh through the phone before you heard a voice shout in the background, but you couldn't hear what they were saying.
Pedro sighed, "sorry, baby. I gotta get back on set. I'll call you a bit later."
"Go knock 'em dead, Gladiator. Talk later." You replied before hanging up the phone.
You found the interview on YouTube and glanced over at the pregnancy test on the sink before shaking your head. You couldn't look yet... you didn't want to look yet because if it was positive... you had no idea what you were going to do.
So instead, you walked into your bedroom and connected your phone to the television on the wall and played the Hollywood Reporter Roundtable interview hoping it would distract you.
The interview did distract you. It was a good interview and whoever decided to sit Pedro and Kieran Culkin next to each other deserved a raise because they were fantastic together.
You had almost forgotten about the pregnancy test, you were so invested in the interview until the interviewer bought up the topic of 'daddy'.
"Uh, yeah. I am." Pedro answered the question with a smile. "I am having fun with it. It seems a little role related. I think. The Mandalorian is very daddy to baby Grogu. Joel is very daddy to Ellie. These are daddy parts."
"Are you a daddy?" Jeff Bridges had asked from across the table.
"I'm not a daddy. And I am not gonna be a daddy!" Came Pedro's answer.
He didn't want to be a daddy.
That thought hadn't really occurred to you. Pedro didn't actually want kids... you knew that was a possibility since you guys had never spoken about it, but he really didn't want to be a father.
The interview was still playing on the tv, but you had long ago stopped listening.
What if you were pregnant? What were you going to do?
Abruptly, you jumped off the bed and rushed to the bathroom and your stomach dropped when you saw the two little pink lines on the pregnancy test. It was positive.
Your body was paralysed where you stood, unable to tear your eyes off the stick. That couldn't be true. It couldn't be.
But after six positive tests later, you were forced to face reality.
You were pregnant. With Pedro's baby... but he didn't want to be a father.
Pedro had stated publicly during that interview that he didn't want to be a daddy, but you were pregnant. How were you meant to tell him? When should you tell him? You couldn't tell him now. He was in the middle of filming one of the biggest roles of his career. You couldn't dump this on him now. No way.
Pedro's boisterous laugher came from the tv in your bedroom and you sighed, listening to him. His laugh had always been contagious, and you could hear the others in the interview all now laughing as well.
You loved Pedro. And he loved you too, but you couldn't go forcing this baby on him, a baby that he definitely didn't want. How could the two of you have a baby anyway? Between your busy careers, there was no time for a baby. It wouldn't be practical. It wouldn't work.
In the end, you decided to ignore the problem for now. It wasn't like it was going anywhere. So, you ignored it. Maybe you were a little in denial about the whole thing, but any normal person would be.
Pedro had noticed something was wrong almost immediately when he next called. You tried to act normal, but he knew you better than you knew yourself so hiding anything from him was stupid, but you kept trying.
He knew you were lying to him whenever he asked if you were okay, but you weren't about to drop the biggest bombshell of his life on him over a phone call. So, you kept lying.
It wasn't until a few weeks later that you came home to find Pedro sitting on the couch with your laptop open on the coffee table in front of him. That in itself wasn't anything unusual, he always used your laptop to check his emails or play solitaire. But him being home a whole week before the end of shooting was definitely not right.
He hadn't noticed you enter the house. He seemed too focused on something on your laptop and whatever it was, you knew it wasn't good by the way he sat with his body tense and jaw clenched.
Did something happen?
"Hey!" You greeted happily, despite the worry churning in your stomach. "I thought you weren't meant to be back until next week."
Pedro turned his head in your direction, his usual bright brown eyes were dull and hard, his brow furrowed in a frown as he turned back to the laptop.
"We finished early. I was going to surprise you." He answered, his voice flat compared to his usual cheery smiley tone, and he looked away from you avoiding your eyes.
Okay, something was definitely wrong.
"What's going on? You seem... I don't know, did something happen?" You asked worriedly, dumping your keys on the bench before walking over and sitting beside him on the couch.
"Why don't you tell me."
You frowned, "I'm not following."
"I went to check my emails, but this was already open when I turned it on." He explained, leaning forward and tilting the laptop screen towards you.
You squinted a little staring at the laptop on the coffee table before your eyes widened in utter shock. It was your booking confirmation for an abortion.
Oh, God.
"You were pregnant." He said, but it wasn't a question, he had already figured it out.
You looked away feeling tears burning in the back of your eyes. He was angry. He was trying to hold his anger back, you could tell, but he was angry. Pedro was angry at you.
"Who's was it?" He asked, when you didn't say anything.
"What?"
"Who was the father?" He repeated, causing you to look over at him in confusion. "You got an abortion without talking to me, so it obviously wasn't mine. Who was it?"
Wait, what?
Did he seriously think that...
"You think I cheated on you?" You asked in disbelief because that couldn't be what he was implying, right? You've been together for years, he wouldn't think you would do that. He wouldn't.
"Who?" He demanded, his beautiful brown eyes full of so much anger and sadness, it made your heart break.
"I didn't cheat on you. I'd never-"
"Don't lie to me!" He snapped.
You flinched back at his raised voice like he had physically slapped you across the face. Pedro had never yelled at you before. Sure, you guys have argued, every couple did, but he had never raised his voice, not like this.
The anger in his eyes subsided a bit, a flash of guilt washing over him. Instantly regretting his actions before he shook his head and stood up from the couch, heading towards the front door.
"I... I'm sorry. I shouldn't have shouted at you. I just need a minute to clear my head." He said over his shoulder.
"I didn't get the abortion and I didn't cheat on you!" You hurriedly yelled, not wanting him to leave.
If he left right now... you would break down. You couldn't lose him, and you didn't want him wandering the streets of LA thinking you had slept with someone else while he was away.
Pedro froze where he stood, his hand on the door handle about to open it, "what?"
You took in a deep breath, tears threatening to spill from your eyes as you looked over at him, his back still facing you.
"I'm pregnant. It's yours, and I didn't get the abortion."
He slowly turned to face you, but you couldn't gauge his reaction. His whole body was just a blur through the tears swimming in your eyes.
"You're serious?" He asked, like he couldn't quite believe it was true.
"I'm sorry." You whispered, the tears you had been trying so hard to keep back finally falling down your face. "I'm sorry, but I didn't cheat. I-I would never cheat on you. Never. I need you to know that. I would never cheat on you."
Pedro rushed across the room, dropping to his knees in front of you and placing his hand on your knee as he looked up at you. All the anger that had been bubbling inside of him was now replaced with guilt.
"I know, baby. I know. I just... when I saw the email, I thought... I'm sorry. I should have never accused you of that. But why didn't you tell me?" He asked, his voice breaking ever so slightly as he continued. "You booked an abortion without telling me. You didn't have to go through this alone, why didn't you tell me?"
Your heart shattered at his words because you knew that was true. He would have dropped everything to be there for you, no matter the cost. He would have ruined his role on Gladiator for you in a heartbeat, and you wouldn't let him do that.
"I couldn't tell you." You whispered, tears still streaming down your face as you looked away from him, not wanting him to see you cry.
"Why not, baby? I would have been there for you. I wouldn't have forced you to do anything you didn't want to do, you know that, right?" He asked, seeming genuinely worried that you may have feared that.
You sniffed, "I know."
"So why couldn't you tell me?" He asked, his voice softer and gentler than you had ever heard it.
You thought back to that interview, your heart breaking all over again. I'm not a daddy. And I am never gonna be a daddy. Pedro didn't want this.
"You said you didn't want to be a daddy." You answered, your voice barely above a whisper.
"What?"
You looked back over at him to find him staring at you in pure confusion and you sighed, wiping the tears from your face before elaborating.
"In that Hollywood Reporter interview. You said you didn't want to be a daddy... I watched your interview and found out I was pregnant the same day."
Pedro's expression dropped, "oh, baby-"
"And you were filming Gladiator." You quickly said, cutting him off. "So, I didn't want to tell you and distract you from that job. You've worked so hard for it, and you were so happy whenever you called from set. I-I didn't want to ruin that. But... but I knew you didn't want kids and I didn't want you to feel forced to have a kid that you didn't want-"
"Breathe, baby. Y/N, breathe." Pedro reminded, squeezing your knee gently.
You sucked in a shaky shallow breath, knowing you were working yourself up, but you had to say it all now because if you didn't than you probably weren't going to say it at all.
"I booked in for an abortion, but I couldn't go through with it. I was sitting in the waiting room, I was ready to go in, but I couldn't. I couldn't do it. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." You sobbed, burying your face with your hands.
"Shh, it's okay, baby. It's okay. It's okay." Pedro reassured, getting to his feet and sitting down beside you.
He wrapped his arm around your shoulders and pulled you into his chest, his other arm wrapping around you tightly, holding you while you broke down in his arms. Pedro was still talking, whispering soothing words to you while you cried.
"I'm sorry you had to go through all this alone." He whispered, rubbing gentle circles over your back as he held you. "I'm so sorry, baby."
You weren't sure how long he hugged you for. The tears had eventually stopped flowing but the collar of his Lakers shirt was now damp.
"I'm sorry." You whispered, lifting your head from his chest and had to do a double take when you noticed Pedro's eyes were now red and glistening with unshed tears. Seeing him on the verge of crying made tears rise in your eyes once again, but you forced them back.
"You have nothing to apologise for. Nothing." He insisted, pulling away and cupping the side of your face with his hand, brushing the tear stains from your cheeks as he smiled softly at you. "I love you."
"You... you don't hate me?" You asked, your voice sounding as broken as you felt.
"Hate you?" He asked in shock. "I could never hate you."
"But... you don't want kids... and I'm pregnant and it's my fault and-"
"If I remember correctly, it takes two people to make a baby." He pointed out, chuckling softly as you rolled your eyes.
"I'm serious, P."
"So am I." He stated, his laughter coming to a stop as he took in a deep shaky breath. "Look, I know we've never talked about it, but I always wanted to have kids. I love kids. I love being an uncle and I love playing daddies on tv, but I had accepted that it probably wouldn't happen for me, not with my age or career."
"Pedro-" you tried to say, but he kept talking.
"I love you, Y/N. If you want to keep this baby, we will make it work, I promise. We will figure it all out. But if you don't want this, I will support that too. It is your body, baby, whatever you want to do, I will be there for you and support you."
His words sent the tears in your eyes trickling down your face once again and his own eyes softened as he brushed them away with his thumb.
"I-I don't want to force you into anything. I don't want to-"
"Baby, baby, you're not forcing me into anything." He reassured, but you shook your head.
"But the interview..."
"I said that thinking being a real daddy wasn't in the cards for me, but now it is, only if you want it to be though." He explained, putting emphasis on the last part.
You didn't say anything for a moment. A million different thoughts and emotions washing over you as you slowly nodded and met his gentle gaze.
"So, if I told you that I wanted to keep it..." You trailed off unable to finish the sentence as Pedro's eyes lit up with hope.
"I'm gonna be a real daddy?"
You smiled, "you're gonna be a real daddy."
Pedros face broke out into a bright smile, the tears in his eyes silently falling down his face before he lent forward and captured your lips with his, kissing you gently.
"I love you. I love you so much, Y/N." He whispered against your lips.
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