#this stuff makes up about 40% of my inner monologue

[thecountessofkilmartin]

Every single day I think more and more about how the Grey's Anatomy writers fortuitously wrote one of the most poetic relationships to ever exist. And it's a travesty that they don't seem to understand that despite unchanged popularity of this ship.

They are two completely contrasting characters with the same brand of edgy just in different fonts, and they match each other's energies like no one does. And what I love the most about them is how it's their flaws, not their strengths, that drives their dynamic.

She's fire and he's air. At first glance, that seems like a recipe for disaster. But it isn't when they are both shielded by each other. She ignites his spirits, and he uplifts her. Without her, he's a calm, cool breeze. But with her, he's a ever-changing current with power and warmth. Without him, she's a fiery spark subdued by the world, but with him, she becomes a intense flame ablaze with passion. And when this current and fire gets out of control, guess what has the ability to contain and ground them by drawing back their catalyst? Each other!!!

April makes Jackson passionate and forces him to dream bigger. It may be mistaken for impulsivity, but she just stops him from taking the safe roads in life and forces him to live life fully on his terms. On the other hand, Jackson grounds her and provides a safe place for her to truly be herself. He's the only person who ever does that for her. Not man. Person! Not even her family provides that space for her. And that is why she becomes independent and sure of herself with his influence.

Some people justify hating them by saying they would be happier with other people. Don't even get me started! Those two would be miserable with other people. April is so spirited that she would be instantly desolate with anyone other than Jackson because she needs someone who can keep up with her and feed into her positivity. Jackson seems so calm on the outside, but in reality, he is often so turbulent that he would be completely bored with anyone else cause he needs someone who can keep him on his toes and anchor him at the same time.

The only reason that they fell apart after losing Samuel was because that grief made them forget that they couldn't be truly happy without the balance they provided each other. April ran towards something passionately without Jackson, and lost her stability and fire, and Jackson wanted to drift away from her and live calmly, but ended up becoming morbid and dispirited without her. You can literally feel how drained and colourless they become without each other.

Their relationship isn't supposed to make perfect sense because the unpredictability of life influence it, but their dynamic certainly does. And that is why those two keep going back to each other. Sure, they would be fine by themselves. But they're at their best with each other. So basically, they mirror each other, and make up for each other's limitations so they could be the happiest version of themselves. They are each other's spark and tether all at once. And that is why Shonda Rhimes will probably never create a more dynamic ship.

#not me writing an essay about them in 2024 #this stuff makes up about 40% of my inner monologue #japril #jackson avery #april kepner #greys anatomy

[emptyjunior]

It looks like with the movies taking off, everyone is on the Dune train now!! Which is very exciting, I’m glad a bunch of new people are discovering this media and reading the books, but can I recommend you the David Lynch, Dune (1984) movie.

First of all, if you are invested in the lore of the books and the deeper messaging of the story, you’re going to need to turn that part of your brain Off. If you love kick ass shit and are willing to be slightly tipsy while you watch and have a great goddamn afternoon, this is the flick for you.

Now first fun fact I’m going to share with you. David Lynch (twin peaks, eraserhead director, celebrated surrealist) turned down the opportunity to direct Return of the Jedi for this film. A film that was devastatingly slow to make, changed hands multiple times, had a pricy VFX budget of $40 million and then made barely $31 million, David Lynch turned down Star Wars to work on it. And he did this when he had never read the novel, and did not even like or engage with sci fi media. THAT’S how you know we’re really in for something.

Now this film has some big names in it! We’ve got a young Kyle MacLachlan who is rocking some Devastating outfits:

We’ve got Sir Patrick Stewert as our Gurney and Sting, lead singer of the police, playing the 15 year old Feyd Rautha! If you wanted to see a grown man, sprayed orange, basically naked playing a free wheeling maniac you are in for a treat! And another fun fact, David Lynch also did not know who these actors were, he made a mistake and thought Patrick Stewert was someone else and when Sting said he was in the police he assumed he was in an organization of lawmen.

Now these characters are familiar to you, but let me get into the unfamiliar. Lynch made some directorial executive decisions throughout this film, for I suppose the ease of the viewer? I mean an adaptation is supposed to adapt so he went let me change some stuff up👏👏👏.

Those who paid attention to Jessica’s backstory may know about the Weirding Way. This is a martial arts style created by the Bene Gesserit, and practiced by Paul. It is more than just a fighting style but also an important philosophical concept, like Aikido or how Kung Fu has foundations in Buddhism.

You may also be familiar with the quote “My name is a killing word.” This inner monologue of Paul’s refers to how his title Muad’dub will be used to spur a holy war. A simple name is what people will die and bleed for, it will be what they scream as they cut down enemies.

Dark! Intense! That’s Dune, anyways in the novel it’s easy to take your time exploring these concepts. Introducing the audience to the religious ramifications of a simple name and fighting practice and how these things can have rippling repercussions upon a society like the Freman.

Now David Lynch didn’t have time for that! He had the belief (that may be right🤷‍♂️!) That watching a bunch of people kick each other on top of a sand dune would be Lame😭😭

So he made the choice for his film that “My name is a killing word” was to be taken Absolutely Literally and invented a device where if the freman said the name Muad-dib, shit would explode.

If they said Paul’s name, they could Explode Stuff. Let it sink in how rad that is. Hell yeah man, hell yeah. Imagine me interpreting religious text that way, imagine if I made a bible movie and the moral I took from a parable is that when Jesus asked for food and everyone donated fish, I concluded that Jesus was a mutant who had fish powers and could immediately conjure fish with magic and gave him fish death rays that shot out of his hands.

So that’s what you can expect from this interpretation, the weirding way now means everyone has Lasers its rad as hell.

Some other incredible choices made! This is a spoiler, but in the novels and the new films you can see the Freman collecting every scrap of water they can. Dr Liet-Kynes, the planetologist, reveals to us it’s because they have a long, multiple generation spanding plan to fix the planet. By introducing this water back they hope to reset the ecosystem over centuries of work. The reason they have been unable to do this is because a green planet would obviously not have worms and sand who produce spice, the most coveted drug in the empire, so imperial and harkonnen forces have been stopping this from ever happening. They want to be free from oppression so that they can start to work on slowly fixing their world, a project that plays out in Paul’s adult life and has its own dramas and complexities.

In Dune 1984??? The moment, the Moment Paul lays out his cousin and throws the final punch, it begins to rain in Arrakis. As if they were all under a magical curse and were just waiting for a teenager to come fight another teenager and then the water will come back. It’s so good, it’s so funny.

Also Pugs! House Atreides official Pugs! Paul has pugs in his lap!!

This is honestly an adaptation choice that I really really like! Paul is the result of centuries of selective breeding, this practice is an artform to the Bene Gesserit and a skill that they monitor closely. It produces bizarre and sometimes terrifying results and is the reason for Paul’s existence.

I think having an animal that was also created through selective breeding, was engineered from a wolf into an animal that can hardly breathe is an incredible metaphor! A smart and identifiable symbol for the audience, I think it’s a slam dunk and the new movies should have done it to.

Anyways can not recommend this film enough.

-The body suits the bad guys wear are made out of real body bags, that actually had been used.

-David Lynch to this day hates it.

-The original cut was four hours.

-The cast and crew were sick the Entire shoot with something they called Montezuma's Revenge, which was probably just food poisoning, side effects from the constant smog because they shot the whole thing on backup generators, illness from the cockroach infestation and terrible morale.

-Frank Herbert saw it multiple times and said he absolutely loved it.

-When they ride the worms, sick rock jams play.

If you love electric guitar, lasers, worms and will forgive me for not including all the trigger warnings cause Yes this film will gross you out, then go watch this movie.

#dune #paul atreides #lady Jessica #dune movie #dune Frank herbert #dune 1984 #movies #scifi #kyle maclachlan #david Lynch #films

[rin-and-jade]

I'll like to stay on Anon, as of now, as that way I am free from consequences. Anyways, Do you have any other inconsistencies in personality? I would say that I really do constantly change my personality. It's kinda weird, as I have one singular line of consciousness throughout the day, but in that day I am constantly changing how I act and present. You can currently see it right now, as when I wrote to you earlier in the day I wrote way more eccentrically and emotionally, while as of now I write more professionally and medically. It honestly feels fake to me, but I make no conscious effort to do this... as far as I know... Are there gaps on memory that can't be explained and still happen randomly? There's not really "gaps" in memory, but I do struggle with it. As I mention before, I experience a single line of consciousness, and don't really have areas where I was, I guess, blacked out or something. However, I do seriously struggle with memory. I say alot that I do not have memory and I live in a constant present, and I really do think this is the best way to describe how I feel. I struggle with my perception of where I am in time, I don't really know what I did yesterday, or for a large chunk of today, a lot of times people tell me about things I don't remember, and I have absolutely no idea what I ever did for most of my life. Any thoughts or feelings or urges that pops up even if it feels foreign, or something you don't recognize where it came from? I would say like at least 30-40% of my thoughts, feelings, or urges are like this. Just irrational, out of nowhere, but not really like intrusive thoughts or feelings or urges. There's not really much else to say, but I would note that like 70-80% of my actions do not feel like they're my own. Is there any other personas present excluding this one? How many can you guess if it's a yes. I don't fully know what you mean by personas. If you mean identities... well... maybe... I can't really directly talk to her, but I did completely lose my sense of who I was once and I directly trace who I felt like to a, well, like a part or a side of me, or something like that. There's not really any good words to describe what those things are in my brain. However, I can kinda feel that there is at least 3 different parts who wants, see, and feel different things in me. It's more like a battle in my brain over what I should do. One is prone to anger, and is quite cynical. They don't trust the world and has a grim view of it. One is softer, and a whole lot more feminine than the rest, they've always seemed to be good at actually being able to address and acknowledge issues I have. She's more hopeful, and tends to trusts other stuff more. The last is just a pure jokester I or something I think. They don't really have any different world views or wants, they just tell me to say jokes 24/7. It really sounds like I'm describing alters, but truthfully, I do just don't know what these are. For all I know, they could just be different sides of me showing at different times, and there's actually no separation If you have inner monologue, do you find yourself talking actual conversations, as if, like a real person responding to you? And could elaborate, add opinions, and etc. It is possible if I'm conflicted. It's less like a real conversation, and more like a "There's this" "but what, there's is also this and that" I can't really explain it well, as I've never questioned it, and I'm not fully sure this is truthful, or an accurate representation of how I think. How often do you feel different on the things you like, hate, or prefer, has it been confusing for you or has it been the same and stable? Mayybe? I don't really know, the tiredness kinda kicked in as I was writing this section, so I can't think well, but I do certainly constantly change my thoughts on all the different things I do. I wouldn't say it's confusing though, as they usually seemed to make sense to me. I think my likes are just kinda fluid, I always change what my likes are cause I get bored and just swap it up a bit.

Yeah thats fine, and hm.. you might sound like one to me, but take that as a second person opinion.

Let me give you a read on DID right here and for the OSDD here. These two links has been skimmed by me to ensure the articles given elaborates better, have more explanation, or a better text/structure for ease of reading.

And come back to me once more to tell your evaluation/conclusion (after reading that) and also add if this defines your situation, alright?

- j

#did #actually did #did community #did osdd #dissociative identity disorder #sysblr #janswersask

[thattimdrakeguy]

I’m only reading so many issues at a time of Robin, because I’d rather pace myself, then go at it all crazy like, like how I normally would.

Like I read all of Robin in two days the first time I read it. I got waaay too ahead of myself.

But when I was reading the first arc in the ongoing  I was like “What kid talks to themselves like this?” like with his inner monologue. “Heck, since when does Tim talk to himself like this?” but after that his inner monologue went back to sounding like Tim. It was super weird.

I guess they wanted to be all noir ‘cause of the Az-Bats stuff. But I didn’t feel like it made since for a 14-year-old boy (pretty sure he’s fourteen at this point) to talk like a detective in a 40s movie. But now he talks like usual after that first arc. It was really weird.

It made me worry I was about to go ‘Oh don’t tell me I hate this now’. Because that would’ve suuuuuuucked. And the story is really solid, besides a moment where Tim loses his temper in way too little of time while basically saying he should’ve let someone get killed. And it’s so out of no where when you follow Tim up to this point.

But so far after that it’s just Timmy being Timmy. And thank goodness honestly. I felt like I was about to jump into something my brain never paid attention to for some reason, but nah, back to usual.

They used to do so many stories that’d crossover into other series’ and it’s very distracting. But it doesn’t bother me, because to me I’m always most interested in Tim’s POV anyways. He knows so little still, and still admires these guys so much, and is just a freaking anxious kid at heart. That his POV in these big Batman angst stories is the most interesting part.

But Dixon consistently gets Tim’s origin wrong. It bugs the heck out of me. First in Tim’s miniseries (which is one of my favorite comics) he acts like Bruce chose him out of options (or at least I’m assuming because the way Bruce words himself is bizarre. Like chose him? I mean I guess? Since it’s not like Tim can make himself Robin, but in context that’s a weird way to say it in the way that he does.)--when nah, Tim went to Dick to ask him to do it again, but Tim ended up doing it himself.

And now with this Tim says he surprised him in the Batcave--No, he surprised Dick at the circus, and didn’t meet Bruce directly until he saved him from being crushed by wreckage.

IT’S NOT HARD TO REMEMBER, DIXON.

He started writing Tim so earlier into Tim’s run as a character, that I have to assume that he did read Lonely Place of Dying, but why does he consistently get the details of it wrong? And why does no one during the editing process notice that he keeps getting the details wrong?

There’s no suggestion that Tim’s lying to sound cooler, and since Bruce said stuff weirdly in the Robin miniseries I think Dixon read Tim’s origin once, and potentially never again, and couldn’t remember it well.

[hoshiko2000]

Witch Hat Atelier Chapter 40 Spoilers

Just as a quick disclaimer I’m not a native Japanese speaker, just someone in their final year of a Japanese degree. As such I’m far from fluent and there may be a few inaccuracies in my understanding of this chapter (so please correct me nicely if I’ve got anything wrong!). But in any case I’ve tried to sum up the gist of all the drama and revelations to the best of my ability, and boy there is a lot to unpack!

The chapter basically revolves around Orugio and Qifrey having their long awaited chat about the whole business with Qifrey and the Brimmed Hats. Sitting together on a hill, Qifrey remarks that he’s surprised by his approach and thought Orugio would be angry with him. Orugio retorts that he is angry; he’s angry at Qifrey for placing his apprentices in danger, he’s angry that he fought while badly injured and he’s angry that’s he’s just generally worried Orugio to death as a result. But on top of that, he’s also angry at himself for not being seen by Qifrey as someone he could rely on, since Qifrey chose not to confide in him about his situation. Well, he says angry but comes off as more hurt than anything else. Qifrey is very taken aback and argues that that’s not true and Orugio hasn’t done anything wrong. Orugio retorts that even so, Qifrey treats him as if he has nothing to do with his situation. 

There is then quite a sweet moment where Orugio tells Qifrey that while officially his job as a watchful eye involves him living at the atelier to help everyone out, at the same time he’s also his best friend and will be there to stop Qifrey if he ever puts himself in danger again, and to help him out if he ever needs it. Qifrey appears touched but unhappy, asking Orugio how come he’s still doing this. Orugio muses that whatever motive he may have had when taking her on as an apprentice, Qifrey has proved to be a very good teacher to Coco. And this extends to his other apprentices as well; up until this point ‘Professor Qifrey’ has existed in the eyes of his students as their ‘kind, reliable teacher’. Therefore Orugio implores him not to betray the trust they have placed in him.

Now comes one of the parts I struggled to understand. Calling back to their childhood, Orugio urges Qifrey to come to him once again like he did when they were children. Or something along those lines. Japanese, it’s important to note, is a vague and highly contextual language. I say this because the exact verb that Orugio uses is tsukiatte, which can have a wide range of meanings, from keeping someone company to being with someone romantically, to following another person’s lead or example. From what we’ve seen of their childhood I’m going to place my bet on the latter meaning. In short I think that Orugio is asking him to turn to him for guidance and support like he used to, instead of heading down whatever destructive path he is currently on. Leading on from this heartfelt plea, Orugio once again implores Qifrey to be honest with him. 

Seemingly zoning out for a moment, Qifrey begins wistfully talking about how he likes the peaceful, quiet, tranquillity of the atelier, how he get’s pleasure watching the children grow and learn magic, and how happy his and/or the girls lives are right now (once again, unsure of exact context). However, his expression promptly darkens, with him declaring that it is for this very reason he is unable to forgive them. The ‘them’ being the unknown witch who, in Qifrey’s words, not only robbed him of his past, but is currently robbing him of his future. Orugio realises that Qifrey is referring to the loss of his left eye and his impending blindness.

Continuing on, Qifrey talks about how he has suffered greatly at times over the steady loss of vision in his remaining eye. How the magic glasses he created have helped preserve some of his vision, but sooner or later ‘it’ (his sight loss) will be complete. Therefore, before he loses the ability to draw magic, he has been spending as much time as possible thinking about what to do. He begins talking agitatedly about how the brimmed hats have studied that kind of magic, how they have a plan that must be stopped, about taking back his left eye and about something that must be destroyed before people find out about it.  

The oddness of Qifrey having knowledge of the Brimmed Hats ‘plan’ is not lost on Orugio, who asks him how he knows all this when he supposedly arrived at The Great Hall with no prior memories. In response Qifrey gives him a pretty shady look, before asking if he remembers the day the two of them took their test at the Tower of Books. Orugio recalls that although they both took the test, Qifrey was the only one to actually enter the tower. Qifrey then explains that while it is referred to as the ‘Tower of Books’, the books contained within not only include reference books, but also diaries, records and even scribbled notes. Basically literally anything that is ever written down ends up in the so-called ‘Tower of Books’, which is in fact an alias for ‘The Tower of Memories’. And it was here that Qifrey found a fragment of paper that made him remember something pretty disturbing.

Qifrey had been used as a test subject for new forms of forbidden magic. 

While a stunned Orugio reels from the revelation that the Brimmed Hats are trying to invent new forms of forbidden magic, Qifrey goes off on an inner monologue that I couldn’t make complete sense of but seems to imply he views their efforts as a source of hope of which ‘new possibilities’ (i.e a  cure for his blindness) can be born out of. 

After saying how Orugio is a kind person and will probably still try to help him and forgive him even after all the things that he’s just told him, Qifrey uncovers a hidden seal on his cap and uses this to wipe an (understandably shocked) Orugio’s memories, telling him ‘I’m sorry’. As Orugio lays unconscious, Qifrey reflects back on Orugio’s saying he wanted him to ‘remain Professor Qifrey’ (i.e. to keep being the person his students believe him to be), and mournfully murmurs that if it’s within his power to do so he wants that too. 

Cue the girls emerging from the atelier to fetch Qifrey and Orugio for dinner, all in time to witness a rain of shooting stars while a very confused Orugio wakes up to find he has a) randomly fallen asleep, b) is unable to remember the conversation he was just having. The chapter then ends on a much lighter note with Tetia telling Coco about the ‘Silver Night Festival’ that would be happening soon, and Taata arriving to ask Coco to come meet him on the night of the aforementioned festival. 

So yeah, quite the chapter. A lot of interesting revelations, and a lot of stuff to mull over as we wait for the next chapter to be released. Once again I am a languages student not a native speaker so there may be a few errors here, but I hope this helps tide people over until the scanalated chapter is released. 

#witch hat atelier #witch hat spoilers #tongari boushi no atelier

[chidoroki]

Head empty, pre-TPN season 2 thoughts only.

Normally I don’t even bother with hiding spoilers but since the new season is so close I’ll put everything below a cut (if tumblr cooperates) because I do want anime-onlys to enjoy the season with as little knowledge to what madness is about to happen as possible. This is just a bunch of notes that filled my head over the past couple days.. weeks? A long time.. and if I didn’t write them all down somewhere I wouldn’t stop thinking about them.. so if you understand this whole mess, then kudos to you.

So, here’s your post-season 1/ch37+ spoiler warning.

Demon language:

With Mujika and Sonju making their grand first appearances, I hope actually implement the demon language this time?

The only word spoken in the language in season 1 was the demon god’s name, which was just changed to “Him” (sub) or “The One” (dub), so ignoring it there was fine.

Granted, our demon friends don’t say much in their language during the upcoming arc, aside from this moment in ch48, but I can see the anime passing it off as a mere whisper between the two of them just so they don’t have to worry about it.

I don’t recall any of the GP poachers using the language though.. right? Pretty sure they don’t..

Anyways, all I’m saying is that they better figure something out by the Ayshe shows up way later in future seasons.

Episode count? 24?

Short answer: I don’t think so? Did once, but stuff happened. Anyways..

Season 1 ended in March 2019, which is also when we learned we were getting a second season and once we found later on that S2 was originally going to air in October 2020, I immediately thought we were getting about 24 eps.

I thought with all that time between seasons, 24 eps would be reasonable and that S2 would end at ch101. S1 managed to adapt 37 chapters, so 64 chapters in a season twice as long sound decent enough, right?

By the time we reach ch101, it would give us the demon forest, shelter B06-32, Goldy Pond and the short trip to Cuvitidala. (all of which would make this long wait for s2 sooo worth it btw.)

By this point we learn a bunch about the outside world, Norman being alive, what happened to Phil, and the demon bastard himself.

I bring up ch101 as a stopping point because it’s the last chapter before the two year time skip and.. I honestly can’t see them doing a time skip mid-season?

I mean, they could if they wanted to, I guess? Having everyone age up suddenly between episodes via a montage, a quick summary or even flashbacks of what we missed.. but maybe at the start of a season? Not in the middle.

Right now we know anime original scenes are going to be included into season 2 so I’m kinda hoping that once we do eventually reach the time skip we learn more about the search Emma’s group went on for T7W/golden water/temples.

I counted. If S2 does indeed get this many episodes, ep23 (or 22, if there’s a break in between somewhere or whatever) will land on my birthday and you can bet I’ll be beyond happy

HOWEVER! all the hope I once had about a 24ep season vanished due to the clusterfuck that was 2020. Thanks to the worldwide pandemic, many anime were put on hold and pushed back several months, with TPN airing this month rather than the original October date.

It was a bummer hearing about the delay at first but I never complained about it. I much rather have the studios prioritize their employee’s health over production.

Even if S2 did reach ch101, or even Goldy Pond, they would need to find a ton of new voice actors, and with how the world is working now.. eh, I have some doubts.

Cloverworks also has two other series airing this month aside from TPN so needless to say they’ll be a bit busy, especially if employees are still working from home, social distancing, or however they’re managing to produce these anime.

So, episode count.. 12?

The main reason I have a hard time grasping the idea of another 12ep season at all is because.. I don’t know where it’ll be a decent place for it to stop?

S1 ending at ch37 with the kids escaping? Perfect. You can’t question that decision. But now? When a whole bunch of craziness is about happen? How do you choose another perfect moment to end a season with?

No matter how many anime original scenes they have planned for the demon forest, I believe we’ll at least reach B06-32, which will get us to ch52.

Could they go farther? Sure. Perhaps ending at ch59-60? It would leave us off with Emma & Ray leaving the comfort of the shelter to follow Yuugo into yet another demon infested forest, much like how S1 left off, as the escapees left their once safe, comfortable life into the unknown world.

Or end at ch64? After Emma gets snatched by the poachers? It could work. It would certainly leave everyone wanting more, especially us manga readers because goddamn the GP arc would be SO close!

Perhaps ch74 after seeing Norman alive? Just so it’s not a big darn secret anymore to those who are going into this season blind? (how do people manage to stay anime only? i’m not trying to make anyone feel bad.. i’m just impressed? i caught up to the manga right after s1 because i didn’t have the self control to wait!)

Ending on that chapter would be so bittersweet to me.. because you know what appears in ch75 and it’s literally one of the only things I care about.

S2 preview trailers already teased some of the demon forest scenes I’m most excited about, so the only things left that will truly excite me are Yuugo and that darn outfit. (seriously, whenever we do get to see emma in her gp outfit for the first time, someone better scream at me so i can die from happiness.)

Okay, and all the GP kids too.. especially their trio!

Could they fit the Goldy Pond arc into a 12 episode season along with every other event that came before it? I.. seriously hope not? 

Compared to s1, which was very dialogue heavy, GP is about as action packed as we’re gonna get in the near future, and those scenes are going to fly by once they get put into motion.

Quick example (because it was recent and i can’t think of something else atm): the Overhaul arc from My Hero Academia. Off the top my head it was about 40 total ch? That arc took up half of the show’s S4, which was a total 25 eps.

So with the GP ending at ch96, it’ll give us about 20-30 chapters (depending on where you personally see the start of this arc I guess? once yuugo leads the duo through the forest, when emma gets snatched or when the battle actually starts)

If GP were to happen in s2 where there’s 12 episodes.. literally everything would be so fast paced and I don’t want them to rush anything or leave stuff out?

Other options?

It’s very wishful thinking and I would be getting my hopes up for nothing, because I know it won’t happen, but I could possibly see them fitting GP arc if S2 was made up of 18eps?

6 eps for the demon forest, 6 for Goldy pPond, the remaining 6 to accommodate B06-32, Cuvitidala and any other anime original scenes as they wish.

Although fitting about 64 chapters into 12-18 episodes sounds a bit much.. but not really? I seriously have no idea at this point how much story we’re going to cover this season.

Could I perhaps place all my hopes towards a second cour later this year? Like for the summer.. or would I be expecting too much?

This all could’ve been avoided if they just tell us! Seriously, I’ve been thinking about episode count since last year.. and now you have to deal with this mindless chatter of mine.

I’d honestly be okay with another 12ep season though. We waited this long that I’ll just be excited to see all the children again.

Anime-only scenes:

Those 3 days the children spent learning from our demon friends? Yes please! Did you know Emma not only learned how to use a bow and arrow but a freakin’ harpoon as well? Like.. hello?? I must see this!

Perhaps they’ll even adopt some of the extra pages from some of the chapters, like they did in S1 with the flashback of Norman being sick in ep10.

I know this will be such a high hope, but I remember in ch177 how Emma claims that after they escaped, they all remembered how kind Isabella really was, so if they decide to adapt the extras from ch41-42 & ch45, I’ll cry.

And these pages? Cloverworks, please..

I’m literally begging here..

Especially these two! Even though I still doubt we’ll reach Goldy Pond if we get 12eps.. but in the future! Please!

Other random nonsense:

I may or may not get emotional upon seeing Isabella at the very start when she goes to confront Grandma Sarah. If her hair is kept down as it was at the end of S1 then I’ll give the anime staff my sincere thanks.

We only heard 15 seconds of “Identity” and yet it has been living in my head rent free ever since that trailer dropped. I need to hear the full song sooo damn badly, y’all have no idea.

Here’s hoping they don’t cut out the inner monologues again. At this moment I don’t remember any specific ones from the demon forest I want to see but I’m sure they’re present.

I’m ready to die at every cute Chris moment they give us.. and this entire scene where the kids scold Ray. 

Literally every scene with Emma & Ray. They’re my top 2 favorites from this series okay? Of course I’m going to fangirl over them. (they already showed the hug in one of the trailers and i damn near cried)

If we see him, (which i’m sure we will, but i still have tiny some doubts) I hope they give Yuugo a fantastic voice actor.

Also, his nicknames for everyone!! Literally everything about that man I’m hyped for.

Again, very doubtful we’ll get GP in a 12ep season, but whenever that arc decides to grace us with its presence, “63194” better play on full blast when ch92-93 gets animated.

Speaking of music, while I’m completely excited to hear the new OST that Obata has in store for us (thank god he’s doing this season again btw!), I hope we hear some of those unused tracks from the first season, specifically “Their Own Thoughts.”

Every time Emma mentions their future, their goals or how her family will always be together, I’ll cry. (thanks demon god and your stupid reward)

Yes I’ll be doing those reaction posts (if you follow me i’m sure you’ve seen them by now) after every new episode as I do with other series I watch.. once I survive the usual long day at work, avoiding anything TPN related so I can watch in peace and quiet when I finally get home.. damn it, im already so anxious, help.

#the promised neverland #chidoroki used chatter

[golbrocklovely]

so i finished reading the boys book. i wanted to write down my thoughts about it, so if you've also read it (or just want to know my general feelings about it), feel free to message me !!

SPOILERS AHEAD

also it's gonna be really long bc i have a lot of thoughts. and i'm gonna rate the book at the end if that matters to you lol

so one of the main things that's brought up A LOT in the book is the boys not trying to judge trey and georgia, and honestly it is so annoying to me. idk why gaby wrote it like that, or if sam and colby insisted bc they sounded judgmental thru out the book, but good god the amount of times they talk about not wanting to be judgy, but then going ahead and judging two seconds later is way too much.

there's literally a part in the second chapter where colby says that he hates judgmental ppl, and then literally him and sam judge the rest of the book lmao

i think it's fine that they are judging thru out the whole book bc this situation that they are going thru is foreign to them, so you're gonna be questioning things a lot, i just... don't get why they wanted to say they're not judgmental as if that's the worst thing.

like you literally almost get sacrificed to the dark lord, i think it’s okay if you’re a bit of an asshole, sam and colby

i got annoyed when the boys got really into their philosophies early on in the book, but that's very on brand for them. they don't talk about 'living life to the fullest' and all that shit too much in the book, which is good bc honestly that would have been worse, but they do mention it.

personally, colby's chapters were funnier to read than sam's. maybe it's just bc colby's (kinda sorta) inner dialogue is something i relate to more, but i did find his chapters to be more interesting imo

the nature descriptions in this book are abundant and god knows how gaby was able to describe it as well as she did over and over again. that being said, it happens too many times. like, personally, i don't care about tropical nature, that's not my cup of tea, but if you love that imagery, cool beans and those parts must have been fun for you. but like for me, it was just kinda boring and redundant after a while. bc literally every time the nature was mentioned, it was going from 'oh it's really beautiful. no it's not beautiful, it's gorgeous. no it's ethereal. no it's heaven' and i was just like... we get it.

idk why, but maybe i didn't pay attention well enough, but the drama that happened with trey and colby didn't really feel like it got fully flushed out. like, i got the general idea that trey told colby that youtube was a dumb idea, but i feel like it would have been better to really express how much that hurt colby's feelings, and why that made him cautious to help or see trey.

them physically saying 'this experience is so crazy, we're gonna have to write a book about it'... was a bit too on the nose for me.

highkey, kinda loved the casual mention that sam and colby have smoked weed before, since this is something they both haven't said they've done. (granted we have all seen that one livestream where colby was literally high on an edible or whatever with prettyheartbreak aka my fav livestream of colby’s lol)

also, idk why, but it weirded me out that colby was so hyper-fixated on a mermaid statue of a 16 year old girl... it was just weird to me.

the build up to the spooky stuff took a while to get to, like almost a 100 pages, and i honestly thought half way thru that they were gonna leave the belle estate for good and all the spooky shit would happen afterwards

that being said, i think where the real experience stopped and the novel begins is the first time they left the belle estate. i just have hunch.

not technically book related, but the convo they had to have with alex about turning him into a bad guy must have been a fun lol

like i can literally imagine them asking 'would you be okay with betraying us in our novel?' and alex just being like 'yeah, 100% do it. i'm ready to sacrifice you guys already.' lmao

and my biggest gripe about the book (and also the hugest spoiler):

all the spooky shit they experienced was not real and was just a drug induced hallucination??? i call bullshit.

i think at times it would have been fine to mention that georgia drugged them, or even drugged trey to be compliant (like roofies or something like that), but to literally do the 'it was all a dream' thing except make it drugs... was such a huge let down. 

like, it was cool for a moment to be like, 'holy shit it's not real and she's gonna kill them bc she thinks it is, but she's actually just in a drug induced psychosis'. but the let down of all the ghost and spirits they saw were just bad trips??? i hate that. it was such a cop-out. it would have been so much better to just go full spooky and be like 'no, there's spirits but also we're high', you know?

random things that are extremely nitpicky but whatever i want to say them lol:

colby literally saying ‘w-t-f’ when the sacrifice is going to happen was the dumbest thing i’ve read. there were a couple times thru out the book gaby used internet lingo which was fine (i have no room to talk i literally use ‘i-d-k’ sometimes in actual conversation), but if i was about to be sacrificed, i’d be using every curse word i have in my vernacular lol

sam calling trey a ‘lucky fucker’ was not something i could see sam calling someone, but maybe that’s just me.

there were times it was extremely word heavy, which i know sounds stupid to say for a novel. but there were times that it just felt like gaby was trying to reach a word count, so she would just say every word she could think of. also things were just worded weirdly at times. idk how else to describe it, but if you read it, you probs noticed it too.

there was this one moment in the book i literally got lost at what the fuck was happening bc the boys were flip flopping between hallucinating and hating the belle estate and i was just confused as to what was going on. like, it’s fine for them to lose it, but you don’t need the reader to also be lost along the way.

i would have loved an epilogue of some sort. it felt like it ended too abruptly, so it would have been cool to have some sort of ending where maybe they make a video about the experience, no one believes them bc it’s insane, and then they get news that the belle estate burned down and that trey wasn’t found. or like maybe they get a letter that the belle estate was handed down to them or something like that.

kalani explaining everything to the guys felt a bit lazy. i’m not entirely sure how else gaby could have told all of that information to the audience and sam and colby but it was just weird to have some random person we’ve never met before know everything that was about to happen to them and why.

actual positives i have about the book bc i feel like i shit talked the whole thing:

the humor thru out was really good. how all four of the boys joke with each other felt really realistic and it added some nice touches to the darker scenes.

the gore of kalani having his heart ripped out of his chest was fucking terrifying and dope as shit. i literally went into this book thinking no one was gonna die besides whoever the bad guy was, but i was wrong and i’m impressed.

the hauntings and the descriptions of what sam and colby experienced were so cool and i really loved how she wrote it.

the internal monologue of sam and colby felt exactly like what i think they would sound like in their heads. i think she got a really good grasp at who they are and was able to dictate what they would sound like in a situation like this.

the one scene towards the end where colby was saying how much he loved sam... i literally almost cried.

my rating of the book: 3.5/5 stars

overall, there were parts to the book that i really did enjoy, but i have to take a step back and wonder that if i didn’t know who sam and colby were, would i have even read this book? i don’t usually read paranormal stories, but i have a few in my collection so i think i would have been drawn to the book bc of that. however, i don’t know if i would have understood who the boys were as ppl if i didn’t already know who they were before hand. also i feel like at times the story fell a little flat and for it to take almost 40% of the book to get to the actual haunting parts, i’m not really impressed by that. while i did like reading this book, it could have been a bit better.

please let me know what you think !! i would love to hear your thoughts/theories/commentary on all of it too :)

#i would seriously love to talk to someone about this so please message me thx lol #also colby feel free to read this #sorry if i'm a bit harsh #sam and colby #sam golbach #colby brock #paradise island #personal #text #spoilers

[luverofsupernatural]

click if you want. These are just my spilled words. It’s not gonna change anything, but I need to write it for myself.

I ask that if you want to say something, please reply, don’t reblog.

I never really liked self-diagnose of mental illness for myself. I did, and then I didn’t. I don’t know if I read something, heard something, thought something, or what. But, I got this idea that me thinking I have a mental illness without being diagnosed was insulting to people who actually have that affliction.

So, I changed my language and my phrasing of things. Instead of saying “I have depression.” it would be something like “I felt shit all day,” or “my mood on a scale of 1-10 was a 0 because my scale works from -3 to 7,” or “I stayed in bed all day cause i didn’t have a reason to get up,” or “I didn’t eat because my brain didn’t want to.”

And it’s completely accurate too. I can describe my experiences without invalidating anyone else. I have times that I feel depressed. I have had panic attacks  (one day I had 5 total). 

But as valid as that is, I can’t help feeling that it’s wrong of me to assume that I don’t have depression or some form of anxiety (i’m leaving out a lot of details btw). but, then I think that no health care professional will believe me if it doesn’t seriously impact my life day to day. And it doesn’t, because i don’t let it. I’m feeling in one of those states, do things anyway. Don’t wanna eat? too bad, stomach does while you don’t. have those thoughts of self harm or suicide, just draw on yourself in sharpie instead. can’t let anything mess up my life besides in my head.

And I know, I know. I should go to a therapist. The three I’ve seen all say that I’m just stressed out because of school. This is not only because of school work. It happens year round, busy or not. Stressed or not, because you think after 21 years of my life I don’t know when something is just stress and when there is something deeper??

They give up on me, so I give up on them. 

I have this quote from one of my inner monologues:  I don't know what's more terrifying: that there is something wrong with me, or that there isn't.

I have tons more from Questions my brain I don’t want to be asking, including:

Should I be complaining about this?

Am I a burden?

Am I a flummering idiot?

Do I ask too much of my friends?

Is my life worth it?

Is it okay to not like someone?

How broken am I?

I would say part of this is because I always had been praised for being smart (I’m an academic sponge. Learning is fun and natural to me). But that was it. I was never told I was pretty, or I was nice (at least by my parents). When I tried sharing my interests they were shut down, so now I don’t feel comfortable telling my parents anything. Especially by sexuality/romanticism.

I don’t feel comfortable with someone eliciting information from me. If I want to tell you, I will give it to you. 

But anyway, back to the self-diagnosis. Do I think I have depression or anxiety. I don’t think that’s my call to make at this point. Because I am still functioning, am I not? And isn’t that the main criteria of getting a diagnosis? And I’ve developed so many inherent coping skills that I know how to combat what, especially if I can also sense the chemical signal (or rather, lack thereof). 

I was on medication that shifted my mood meter from -40 - 40 to -20 - 60 (or at least it did for a bit). Now I think it just multiplied it to -60 - 60. Because I was having good days. But at least it was better than my other medication that put caps on it (-20 - 20 range).

And this is just the stuff that has spilled out of my brain. I could go into that one period in nineth grade, but that is a situation that I think I will take to my grave.

Oh yeah, not to mention my mother, who has been diagnosed with depression, thinks I’m being overdramatic. With this depression-stuff and this anxiety. Is it any wonder I feel I have a strained relationship with her

#trigger warning #content warning #depression #anxiety #self-diagnosis

[ryouverua]

The Despairingly Hopeful Flashback Light

“It’s been days since I’ve had a chance to insult people so do me a favour and line up in a row so I can have a go at each of you in turn.”

“Just.... enough energy... to pick that low-hanging fruit...”

Have you even slept at all since this all began?!

She... she’s fully ready to do this? I know it’s not participating in the killing game, but this still not how I want you to use your talent! Not at all!

Just before I go onto the good stuff, I wanted to bring it back over to Himiko’s fluff text because it’s so bittersweet to have her thinking about Tenko in this situation.

It’s hard to say though, Himiko - I think she would have difficulty accepting the situation in general and would try and encourage you to at least enjoy the time you have left. Would she be mad at you though? Mad, no. Sad, absolutely.

That is... exceedingly odd. We’ve only ever found them before by searching - but then again, who would be searching for anything now?

Maybe, but didn’t he say he wasn’t going to interfere with us anymore? I suppose that could be a lie too, but I can’t imagine why he would do anything like this now.

Closure is better than nothing I suppose. Though I’d argue that was... sorta, kinda what Kokichi gave us, in a way?

That’s the, uh, attitude? 8′D

“They don’t call me the Ultimate Assassin for nothing, kid.”

omae wa mo shindeiru

Alright then... well, let’s see it. She’s right, honestly. What’s the worst that could happen at this point? They’re days away from committing mass suicide! 

FLASHBACK LIGHT! FLASHBACK LIGHT! FLASHBACK LIGHT!

Is it the colours? Are the colours why I love this animated sequence so much?

Wait, Hope’s Peak Academy?

WAIT A SECOND ALL THOSE WORDS LOOK SUPER FAMILIAR

So it officially is now??? I always thought it might be in a small way (I mean, come on, Monokuma is there), but literally everything???

Hope’s Peak Academy, you absolute bastard.

Man, we’re really just going over everything, aren’t we?

~The Biggest, Most Awful, Most Tragic Event in Human History~, which was then renamed to being the second most awful because METEORS RAINED FROM THE SKY AND WIPED OUT EVERYTHING -

Here’s Junko -

The Ultimate Catalyst. >>

Aaaw crap though, if she’s being brought up now... they can’t possibly bring her back for a third time, right? Right???

Now the 78th class’s killing game, most significant to history because that was what led to Junko’s death, I imagine -

We really are getting the Cole’s notes version of events, aren’t we!

I guess they can’t outright talk about Danganronpa 2 here, huh? Fair enough, honestly! Might as well give people a chance to play it without spoiling it too badly!

You gonna expand on that champ? ...... No? Uh, okay?

NO SERIOUSLY WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT CAME TO A SUDDEN END THAT ANIME WAS CALLED ‘END OF HOPE’S PEAK’ NOT ‘END OF THE HOPE VS DESPAIR WAR’ 

Wait are you seriously telling me the cult is the Remnants? I... I don’t know if I’m super happy about that, but okay... I guess it makes sense for them to try and latch onto something like this when their side has lost so much ground. Does that mean there were still a bunch of them lingering, left over from when their fight came to a so-called abrupt end?

Wait, Makoto did this? Would he be in his 40s or 50s then? I was hoping this would take a good deal after the other events, so I guess that’s one way to do it!

though with that said you didn’t have to literally chuck meteors at the prequels and burn them to the ground that is some serious overkill

hope hope hope hope hope hope hope

.......

Oh right, before I forget -

hope.

Please don’t sound so happy about that Shuichi, I thought it was actually nice for you guys to be from different schools. 8′/ Though I guess the whole reason were were considered ‘Ultimates’ was because you were selected as a representative of your specialty to attend Hope’s Peak, but still.

Applied? Weren’t they scouted? I guess Makoto changed the rules or something? 8′D

????? Am I just completely remembering things wrong because I swear it was a scouting process and not an application process...

Oh, that I like at least! Wait, does that mean there were 16 classes going on at the same time for a single year of students??? The logistics must have been a nightmare.

because Makoto’s normal meter has been completely, utterly destroyed by his own old class

.....

.....

LMAO

THAT

THAT WORKS TOO

.........................

eyes Kaito

......... Are you, now? Exactly... what are the symptoms of the virus, exactly?

Oh hey, it’s a new ‘New World Order’! Long time no see!

I MEAN... LIKE.... THIS ANSWERS SOME QUESTIONS.... BUT RAISES MORE....

I know I said I thought we were missing information that would help gel some things together, and this would explain why Monokuma is overseeing this game again, but I still feel like there’s more. I mean, also because even now we’re still in Chapter 5, but that’s beside the point.

Damn it the ‘h’ word is out of the bag and it’s like the game is trying to make up for lost time. 8′D

Weirdly enough, having the cult be the Remnants of Despair makes me more suspicious of Kokichi’s claims of being the mastermind? Is that just me? 

FML HOW DARE YOU BE SO CUTE AT A CRUCIAL MOMENT LIKE THIS damn you’re so small

So timeline-wise are we far enough away from Junko’s life and death for her to have become both a historical figure as well as a symbol? Do I have that right?

Mm, I mean, if we hadn’t had that whole ‘sister’ reveal I could see ‘let me witness the beauty of humanity in the most extreme of circumstances’ Korekiyo Shinguuji being a good, if slightly obvious, choice just off the top of my head, and without any relation to the Remnants. 8′D 

That I can actually agree with! There’s way too much of a coincidence between how things are being held for it not to be related to them, at the very least.

HEY EXCUSE YOU WE HAD A PERFECTLY GOOD ‘TRUTH VS LIES’ THEME GOING ON DON’T GO SHOVING THIS HOPE-SHAPED PEG IN WHERE IT DOESN’T BELONG

Literally my biggest question!!!

That.... That just seems like such a handwave answer! I know one of Junko’s things was how bored she got, and sure, Kokichi talked about how boring a lot of things could be, but the game was literally how Junko got her kicks! She was quite happy to see it until the end, and I’m pretty sure if Kokichi was following her script he would do the same!

Eeeeh? But like... Junko’s plan was ruined by Naegi, Kirigiri et al., right? She didn’t just throw it all away the way Kokichi has. Doesn’t that seem weird to any of you guys at all??

T... The number of times the word ‘hope’ has been said in the last twenty + minutes is leaving me dizzy.

“WOULD YOU LIKE SOME HOPE WITH THAT HOPE??? AND WOULD YOU LIKE TO UPSIZE THAT HOPE? IT’LL COME WITH AN EXTRA SIDE OF HOPE!!!”

Normally I’d love to hear more about your inner voice but right now I’d love for you to put it on mute. 8′/

I love you two but I am debating the pros and cons of pushing you both down the stairs leading to Kaito’s lab r/n

say hope or despair one more time

Aaaaw Himiko! My tiny shining light in this sea of hope and despair talk!

I am glad she was revitalized though - it was pretty scary watching her talk about having Maki kill her!

NO SHUICHI NOT YOU TOO

K1-B0 HOW TF DID YOU MANAGE TO GET THEM BOTH IN ONE SENTENCE LIKE THAT!

Sweetcheeks I am judging you inner monologue right now? Do you hear me?! I am judging you right now!!!!

If he’s the mastermind, it was probably a reward for getting so far, right? “Here’s everything else you need to know about the world that I didn’t get a chance to tell you.”

But if he’s not the mastermind aka lying about it, it seems like this is a way to disrupt his new power? Would he have really done this? Would he be able to access the flashback lights as the new king of the school, if he isn’t the mastermind? I mean, it’s not out of the realm of possibility - he’s got control of the exisals, and that shouldn’t be possible if he isn’t controlling everything - but if he also has the ability to give out flashback lights, why would he do it now? Is this is attempt to make them more interesting again?

Hypothetically, yes... though that conclusion does seem to be based on Kokichi = Mastermind. I guess to say everything I blabbed earlier more concisely, does Flashback Light Access = Mastermind, or does Flashback Light Access = Control of the School?

you wizarding nerd he’s not going to pop up if he hears you say his name

Or... would he? If he’s the mastermind, he should have access to whatever method of surveillance being used this game. This seems like a good time to pop up now in that case - gotta quash the rebellion before it starts - but he hasn’t yet.

Yes!!! Rally around Kaito’s safety!!!

SAIMOTA HAS BEEN REVIVED, BABY!!!

He did say he wanted the remote for the hangar and that he would be keeping Kaito there! So Kokichi periodically leaves to get food and supplies? I guess with an exisal, there isn’t much any of the students can do to stop him. 8′D

TSUMUGI IS THIS REALLY THE TIME

“Look guys, if I see a ship, I call it.”

also I’m a bloody hypocrite re: my saimota comment earlier

“SHIT SHIT SHIT WHY AM I SUCH A TYPICAL TSUNDERE TSUMUGI I’LL KILL YOU -”

TSUN

OOOOKAY that’s uh tmi, anyway thank you for your contribution!!!

?!?! :O Oh shit, when in the world did you get that? Did Miu have extras in her lab?

Oooooooh oooooh how clever of you!!! Damn girl, you’re good!

A;LKDSJF HIMIKO

AND NOT THE KLEPTOMANIA PART?!?!

Alright - so despite Kaito not being there, they’re able to hammer out a pretty good battle plan. Sorry Kaito, looks like you’ve been relegated to the ‘damsel in distress’ position! That’s... sorta close to being a hero? Related? Or something? anyway if you don’t think Kaito being a damsel in distress makes me incredibly happy you don’t know me at all

So they’ll be charging the exisal hangar tomorrow (gotta charge those hammers!) with an electrobomb to disable Kokichi’s access to the exisals and hammers to disable the shutter lock and as a back-up. It’s a good plan, all things considered!

.... But..... why do I have a terrible feeling that someone is going to be dead when they get there? For that matter, I don’t know why I’m saying it in such vague terms - I’ll be shocked if someone isn’t dead either by the time they reach the hangar, or while they’re in there. I posited the idea that Maki’s lab could be an alternative spot, or even Shuichi’s lab, but with both Kaito and Kokichi in there I don’t think there’s any doubt left. I also feel like the ‘potential victim’ list has been cut to the two of them too.... D: 

MAKI THE WHOLE POINT IS THAT WE DON’T WANT ANY MORE DEAD BODIES

Is this not just so incredibly reminiscent of what happened with Kaede? It’s incredibly tempting, I understand that, but we can’t make the same mistake twice! I also feel like this will be another case of 'wrong target’ but that’s a separate issue

Well said, K1-b0!

FINALLY a chance to use the nerdmugi tag again! It’s been so long! I’ll let that use of the word ‘despair’ slide this time, but only because of that.

C-CAN WE NOT NEUTRALIZE HIM

RYOMA’S CHAINS OR TENNIS NET CORD

KOREKIYO’S CAGE

GONTA’S INSECT NET

MIU’S GENERAL BONDAGE DUNGEON THAT I’M 99% SURE EXISTS UNDER HER LAB

THERE MUST BE SOME OPTIONS

Despite being embarrassed about being rescued by the others, I bet Kaito would be so proud to know that Maki reached out to the others like this and is working together with them to rescue him! She’s spent so much time caught up in her own emotional walls she created around her heart, you know? And now, finally, she’s letting some people in!

Okay now Maki this may not be integral to the plan or anything but I do insist that if the impossible happens and nothing goes wrong, you carry Kaito outside of the hangar bridal-style. Okay? Okay.

It’s wishful thinking, all things considered... but we can hope.

but first, time to get a certain robot’s underwear.

#Ryou plays drv3 #Maki Harukawa #Shuichi Saihara #Kokichi Ouma #Kaito Momota #Kokichi Oma #nerdmugi moment #Keebo #K1-b0 #Tsumugi Shirogane #drv3 spoilers #spoilers #Himiko Yumeno #Kiibo #honestly this post ended up so much longer than I thought 8'D #I tried to cram way too much in whoops #ah well #long post

[tellywoodtrash]

status update:

So, I got a few friendly, good-natured asks on how I was doing, and what’s up with my life (work, Chandler, etc.), so I suppose this is as good a time to tell everyone: I quit my job earlier this week.

Early followers of the blog may be aware that this blog started as an attempt to find some kinda peace during some very trying times in my life. Since then, I’ve been burning the candle at both ends (I guess, in some kinda misguided attempt to move on with life) and... it’s finally caught up with me. I’m fucking exhausted and at a breaking point. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. ('Spiritually. Ecumenically. Grammatically.' Name that movie!) And so, I'm giving myself a break and am going to be taking some time off to focus on my mental health.

However, this hasn’t been an easy decision to make, as it means bye-bye financial independence and my ~~riproaring Sex And The City life (snort, NOT) and that I will now have to pack up my entire life and leave the country I (and Chandler!) call home. So the next few days will be even rougher; full of transition and second-guessing myself. But in the long run, I think I need to do this now before things get much worse.

Poor Chandler has no idea what’s coming up; that he’s about to be unceremoniously stuffed into a box and flown many thousand miles to a whole new country, with strange new smells and creatures (including my relatives who will want to come around every now and then and friendly-ly harass our socially anxious butts.) I just hope we both survive this move!

As for what it means for the blog, it’ll mostly be business as usual, I suppose. I will have more free time, but it’s going to be invested in moving, and settling in, and recovery (first I have to recover from the moving and settling in, and only then can I focus on *actual* recovery) so... I’ll do as much as I can. Yes, there's lots of new shows, most of them better than IB, and I might wanna watch them too, but.... idk, I don't seem to have it in me right now to get invested in a whole... new.... thing. We'll see once I'm properly settled into a restful routine where I don't feel so battered in the brain. On the plus side, moving to India means proper access to Hotstar and Sony Liv and alllllllll the platforms; I won’t have to jump through hoops and diddle around with VPNs to access what I wanna watch! Yaaaaaaay!

There are a few things blog-wise that I just have to address though, because they’re srsly stressing me out a lot lately:

Messages asking me to explain WHY stakeholders in the industry (actors, makers, the channel) make the decisions they do. Bhai main kahan un sab ke ghar ya boardroom mein ghussi baithi hoon, ki mujhe pakka pata hoga???? All I can do is speculate like the rest of you. Which is what I do. I look at the facts that I do have (social media posts, TRP reports, etc.) and put out MY theory. But it’s all it is. A theory. I do not have any kind of information that you also do not have access to. Asking me to explain the inner workings of complete strangers' minds is just nonsensical. I do not have the complete information based on which I can give you an accurate answer. So please just stop asking me these. At this point, idek why *I* do half the things I do, let alone have any surety of anyone else’s decisions.

Complaints. Look, all of us have complaints about the shitshow that is IB, and the Tellywood industry at large, and its affairs both off-screen and on-screen. But just think of my plight when news breaks/an episode airs and I get like 10 anons in an hour, most of which are filled with cribbing. OVER SOMETHING I DON’T HAVE ANY CONTROL. You have all the right to complain, sure, but not IN MY INBOX. I only publish about 30 - 40% of the asks that I actually do receive, and because of that you may think that you’re the only person sending in this to me; but trust that more often that not, you’re not. I most probably have already received least 5 messages about it, in varying degrees of negative, and it’s exhaaaaaausting for me to wade through it all.

"Asks” that are just STATEMENTS, with no real question to them. I get these and whether I agree with your statement or not, my only reaction is “.... haan, toh???” What really is the point of these? I have nothing to contribute to them. It’s just YOU deciding that your opinion is sooooooo important that you must come tell ME it. In my inbox. On anon. Which is not just stupid, but also RUDE af. What you're doing is the equivalent of going and ringing the doorbell of a stranger's house and monologuing in their face about a random topic when they open the door. Like, I literally did not ask?????? Especially since you’re on anon and I have absolutely no personal equation with you. By having an open inbox, I didn't consent to being the receptacle of every opinion wrt Tellywood under the sun. Like, the whole point of this blog is so I can shout MY dumbass opinions into the void that is the internet without bothering anyone else about things they might not care about/agree with. Anyone who follows/engages with me is here by THEIR choice. Why don’t you do the same? Go make your own blog, instead of using mine. There’s only place for one person here on this blog, and that’s me. Please read your messages before sending them and ask yourselves: Does my tone/content leave anything open for discussion? (FYI: Just putting a question mark at the end of a sentence does not make an engaging question that opens up a discussion.) What contribution am I inviting from the recipient with this message? If the answer is “no”/"nothing", then please don't send it.

The rise of combative and contrary asks; ones that don't come out of a genuine curiosity, but with the intent to mindlessly argue, talk in circles without a point and overall, and just belittle the opinions I’ve expressed by engaging in whataboutery. There's a point at which "healthy discussion" ends, and "debating" starts, and I’m not here to engage in Debate Hour. The open askbox (or replies function) is NOT an invitation to pick at ONE sentence of some post (often missing the context; those other sentences are there for a reason y'know) and demand explanations from me, for which I have to then bend over backwards to clarify to some random faceless person on the internet. Not only does it take tremendous amounts of time and energy (for what is largely a pointless endevour: these people aren't really here to have an exchange of ideas or even try to see my point of view, they're just trying to force THEIR contrary opinion ON me), it really sucks the joy out of the blog for me. Look, I am not an idiot. I can correlate writing patterns and associate them with previously seen comments/opinions and make educated guesses on who these may be coming from. I've been holding off on blocking anyone yet, but these comments and asks have me seriously considering it. (And FYI: blocking an anon blocks you via IP address. So don't think ki 'oh ho ho, I can just hide under the anon function, coz that has no consequences.' All you'd be doing is proving my guesses right, as to who is whom.) I don't WANT TO go to such extents, and want this still to be a place where people can approach me, but this gross disrespect of my time and boundaries is beginning to wear on me now. Before coming at me, please think to yourself if what you're saying is actually necessary. If it's just a passive-aggressive counter-argument to my opinion that's all conjecture/opinion (i. e. things without factual basis and based on feelings) then please; you're very welcome to whatever you believe, but I don't care. If I wanted your opinion, I’d ask for it. If I care for your opinion, I will engage with your posts (by liking or commenting or reblogging or sending you my love in your inbox.) I just really really don’t care what anyone's opinion ON MY OPINION is. Please stop being contrary just the sake of it and ruining my day and mood. Go chronicle your opinions on your blog/twitter/whatever, instead of using MY blog as a platform and arm-twisting me into participating in this unpleasant exchange. I just don't have have the energy or interest to engage in this fuckery anymore.

Look you guys, I love getting stuff in the askbox. I do. If I didn’t, I’d just have closed the askbox and called it a day. I’m just asking that you be a little THOUGHTFUL about the recipient, me, AS AN ACTUAL LIVING PERSON WITH FEELINGS AND A LIMITED AMOUNT OF ENERGY AND TIME, instead of some kinda faceless robot who just processes your messages in binary and spits out an answer. Before engaging, please re-read your message to consider your tone and content and the impact on the person on the other end. Despite this request, if you just decide to engage in the above mentioned ways, I’m sorry in advance if you end up getting blocked; but things have reached a point where I have to look out for myself, and my comfort, and what I want from this space. I would like this blog to be source of joy in my (and others’!) life, not something that I feel resentful about, or as a source of draining what little energy I have left.

Sooooooo, that’s how it is! Things should be the same around here barring some periods of inactivity occasionally due to moving/spotty internet (but the queue should be running anyway.) A lot less negativity and gloom, hopefully! Wish me (and Chandler!!!!!) luck and please send us all your good, restful, soft and fluffy vibes!

(The restful slumber of a poor fluffy bastard who has NOOOOOOOOO idea of what the next few weeks have in store for him.)

#status update

[winstonbfreeman-blog]

It’s a funny old world....

 So after I returned to Berlin from a beautiful and rest-filled respite back home, a sudden depression hit me.  The initial high wore off and I felt incredibly alone.  Remembering the mindset I have to have here of being an island, a mysterious island, I touch no-one and no-one touches me type mindset. Perhaps it was the visit back home that evoked all these old feelings and memories I have.  Since I have been in Berlin I have shed my old identity and life and become a strong, but isolated person.  

 I understand I am too much for people sometimes.  The way I talk and express myself people find peculiar perhaps.  Which, I accept.  And as I feel more and more isolated from my social creatures I build a wall around me. I tell myself that I don’t care an iota if no-one understands me or likes me, I am true to myself and am who I want to be.  This takes a lot of energy and emotional will power and maybe it was a little dose of the post-Christmas blues that stung me at the same time, but the first four days of being back here were hard.

 I sweated them out though. Just sat in the studio with the thousand yard stare and thought about my life and journey and stuff.  I went busking the day after I got back at the quiet side of Eisenacher and then the BVG stopped me and gave me a warning and expulsion and took my details.  This was another chunk out of my castle, and so I used the studio rent for December that hadn’t been picked up yet and bought myself a monthly train ticket and a busking permit for a few days.

 The weather was still hard. That concrete cloud above had yet to crack and it was grey days every day.  But I hit the busking and started to pick myself up.  It’s amazing how good a nice busk will make you feel, and equally amazing how bad a bad busk will make you feel.  But I soldiered on filling my bag with coins and paper and nice exchanges along the way.  This continued for two weeks and I was in a nice momentum.  Drinking a lot, but pushing myself.  Sometimes when you don’t really feel like singing in-front of hundreds of passing people it takes a little push.  A kindl can be the perfect push.

 So after a good week of making nearly 300 euroes, paying back the rent, pickin up a smoke I was in a great mindset; feeling good and strong.  I went to see my mate Dusty and didn’t get back the studio until like 5 or 6 am.  I got the place all nice with the bed made and lights and put the kettle on to fill my hot water bottle – which always shares my bed through each winter.  The kettle boils and I start to fill up the bottle when it drops over my foot!

 A sudden shock of pain splinters from my foot to my brain and I scream as I remove my sock.  The skin on top of the foot and toes and just dissolved like paper and all that is there is this bloody burnt flesh where the top of my foot should be.  I hop to the sink in the toilets and cock my leg to run it under water, feeling a pain I have never felt before I scream in agony.  I lay there on my bed almost crying and feeling this bad burn radiate and glow with pure pain.  I try to sleep but it isn’t easy and so I get up, manage to put a slipper on and make the ten minute walk to the supermarket.  I buy some water and candles and limp back to the studio and have to rest.

 I make the hour and a half journey home to the house of the family where I stay in Schoneberg and grind my teeth through the pain.  I couldn’t put a shoe on, so just wearing this thin slipper I see the filth on the streets and undergrounds that I try to avoid.  Spit, vomit, beer, doners.  I get to the house and tear the sock off, and with it comes the layer of skin that was reforming on the top.  I felt like Rambo when he takes that bullet out as I removed that sock.  The next day Anja went to the chemist and got me all bandages, cream, painkillers and all the necessities for getting better.  Not only this, but with their love and company and beautiful home cooked food have helped nurse me back to health again.

 I have been bed ridden for 13 days now and it has been a stark knock down from the momentum I was in at the start of the year.  It has humbled me and slowed me.  My ego has took a hit and looking back; I feel my mentality can be quite monstrous when  building a wall around myself and feeling like I don’t need anyone.  We are all a simple slip of the hand accident away from being completely bed ridden and useless.  I love to be in motion, even if it’s just riding the trains somewhere, and being completely unable to walk has been a lesson and journey in itself.

 I have used the time well though.  I always love to draw, but have only ever drew my patterns and mazes which have a nice and unique style.  But since being bed-ridden I have practised to draw people and portraits.  I have done about a hundred so far and with each one I am getting better.  The noses, eyes and ears are all forming the more I’m drawing.  Whatever you want to be good at, just practise and practise and if you love it enough you will progress.  That’s what I feel with my drawings anyway.  I am quite amazed at myself to the level I have got to in these days of injury.

 I have also had a good de-tox.  No beer. Already my thoughts are clearer, my inner-monologue articulates itself concisely and clearly and I feel good mentally, but physically walking is still a slow and painful experience.  But at least being able to walk on my heal  is a lot better than the hopping and crawling I was doing for the first 10 days.  I have also watched a lot of films and tube.  Lots of Coen Brothers films; I found this channel on youtube “The Best Film Archive”  Which has some great films from the 30s and 40s.  The past is a different country...They do things differently there.

 But anyway I’m just taking it easy and slow, and looking forward to getting back busking and band practising.  In a few days I should be able to put my shoe on again.  

[malfoys]

Hey um can you give me some advice/tips in how to get accepted into UBC because I really want to go there!!

ok I’ll try to give my best advice to how I got accepted (and keep in mind that I’m an American student, so some things might be a little different if you’re from Canada or wherever else)

First of all, your chances of being admitted really depend on the program you apply to. Science programs are going to be a lot harder to get into than Arts degrees. For example, the program I got accepted to, Media Studies, only accepts around 40 people per year, but that’s based heavily on a portfolio (which I’ll get into later)

My GPA (about a 3.6), ACT (26), and SAT (1235) scores were not the greatest compared to other applicants. I believe you should aim for a 3.7-4.0 GPA (90s I think for Canadian students) and an ACT score in the high 20s and 30s, and 1300+ SAT score. (Do other countries do the ACT and SAT? idk but I told you just in case)

If you’re like me and you grades and test scores aren’t as great as they can be, you need to kill it with the Personal Profile. Your Personal Profile matters!!!! Don’t half-ass it or brush it off as unimportant. For me, because I grew up in a white, upper-middle class neighborhood in the midwest, I obviously don’t have a lot of hardships in my life, so for the PP, all of my short essays were really witty and sarcastic and lowkey political. I depended on my wit and charm to mask my boring, privileged life. (but if you have any life traumas or hardships, I’d try writing about that for some of the questions too, but make sure you show your personality)

I don’t know how much extracurriculars/hobbies matter in the whole admission process, but try to appear to be really well-rounded in this. For example, I think I put that I was in band, on the swim team, the forensics team, participated in acting classes, and work as a lifeguard during the summers. My activities are a combination of academics, sports, and artsy things which (I think) made me seem well-rounded in my interests. 

also, if you happen to be an international student like myself, you’re already at an advantage. UBC loves international students, and I’ve read that they’re more likely to accept you than not. but if you’re from canada, I’m sure you’ll still have good chances of getting in as 75% of their student body is domestic :)

As for my specific program, Media Studies is a bitch to get into. And I wasn’t aware of that until after I’d been admitted. Someone told me on a campus tour that it was a super competitive program, and that’s when I found out how fortunate I was to be admitted. 

So if you aren’t interested in Media Studies, you can skip this next part

Admission to the BMS program is heavily dependent on your portfolio and your essay. Some programs require that you need extra stuff for your application. BMS requires you to write an essay about Media Studies and your interest in the subject matter. You also have to submit a portfolio with three mediums of artwork.

For the essay, I hadn’t had experience with a lot of the subjects Media Studies delves into, so I talked a lot about the subjects I did have experience in and highlighted my interest and excitement to learn about the subjects I was unfamiliar with. It’s basically just a standard admission essay, talk a lot about what you like and why you’re drawn to Media Studies.

For the portfolio, you need to create a website to showcase your artwork. I just made a blog on tumblr and posted it that way (you can use blogspot or any other website making tools too). I personally recommend using tumblr because you have more control with the theme and how your page looks. Using tumblr also makes you look more experienced with webpage coding and such.

Anyways, my three mediums were Creative Writing, Digital Art, and physical art (idk the proper term for that). For my piece of writing, I just took an expert out of a book that I’m trying to write, one that showcased dialogue, description, and inner monologue. For my Digital Art, I put a bunch of icons for tumblr that I had made. (I also linked them to this blog, to my gifs and graphics, and I talked about my follower count) Lastly, mostly because I had no idea what other medium to put, I did some random drawings that I’ve sketched throughout high school.

And don’t worry if your admission comes relatively late. I applied in early November, and I didn’t hear back until early April. I was legit prepared to go to UVic, and then my admission to UBC came.

this was a lot lengthier than I had anticipated, but I hope you found something useful from this! I hope you get in!

#answered #Anonymous #UBC #university of british columbia

[star-trashinum]

Hot and Sweaty

Chapter 1 - Mostly Sweaty

Uploaded on 2017-04-25 on ao3

Riko suffers in the most pleasurable way possible. No one has ever blushed more or accidentally pushed her face into as many rippling muscles, either. (For clarity's sake, You (Watanabe) is written as Yo).

Notes:

Italics indicate Riko's inner gay monologue.

Dear God, why is it so hard to be calm around Yo!?!?

       Riko cursed her own inner thoughts, filled with images of various sculpted muscles, as she walked with her head looking down, trying hard to hide both her blush and gaze, opting not to stare at her girlfriend too long.

       "C'mon Riko, the sooner we get to the gym, the more we can work out!" Yo exclaimed, bouncing excitedly while she held Riko's hand, "It's not often that I get to work out with you, so I want to make the best of it!"

       "I know, I know, there's no need to pull my arms though, Yo-chan," Riko wailed as Yo tugged her arm forward until they reached the doors of the gym, "See? You're just impatient, Yo-chan."

       The couple made their way into the gym, greeting familiar faces as they walked to the dressing room, changing into more suitable workout gear. Riko heard a confused noise that Yo tended to make when she walked in on her cooking, and turned to see Yo holding up a grey sports bra and matching yoga shorts. "Umm... Riko... how come this is all I have in my bag?" Yo asked, puzzled too why there was... so little, "I know I asked you to pack me some clothes but... I don't usually tend to work out like Mari or Kanan."

       "Omygoshohmygosh I'm sorry dear, I just... you asked me to get something that you would look good in... and I guess I wasn't thinking straight," Riko apologized, reddening as she hid her face behind a t-shirt, "I-I have an extra t-shirt you can wear... it might be a bit small though."

       "Aww, it's OK, I've worn outfits like this before; just remind me to help you with outfits next time, OK?” Yo added, before giving her girlfriend a comforting hug. The two quickly changed, quickly slipping on their shoes as they headed towards the treadmills. Riko looked down to see that her shoes were untied, and quickly fastened them before getting back up, only to come face to face with You’s abs, out there for Riko to gawk at, like usual. “Let’s go, let’s go; I can’t wait to start!” Yo cheered as they started their warm up, lightly jogging for 10 minutes before they stopped to cool down.

       “Whew… I really need to get in the gym more often; this is killing me already…” Riko panted, taking a big gulp of water before catching her breath, “What’s next, Yo-chan?”

       “Mmmm… Since we just gave our legs a good warmup, I think we should do the same for our arms, no?” Yo giggled, as she lead her girlfriend to the bench press, “Let’s get on the bench; I haven’t done it in so long because I haven’t had someone to spot me in forever, ehe~” Riko watched in fascination as Yo set up the bar for her set; watching her place heavy 40-pound weights on each side. Yo laid down on the bench, taking a deep breath as she rubbed her hands together and gestured over to Riko as she gripped onto it, “Just help me lift it a bit, and make sure I’m balanced, okay?”

       “Gotcha; you can do it, dear,” Riko encouraged as she helped Yo take the bar off the rack, watching her breathing matchup methodically with her arms and chest, watching her face squint as she focused on nothing but benching and counting the amount of reps she had done. After a dozen, she looked at Riko, who quickly helped her place the bar back, before letting her arms down to rest, stretching out her arms to keep limber.

Wow, Yo-chan is really quite something, she’s able to lift so much with ease; must be her nice arms and muscular ch-

       “Riko, are you ready now? ” Yo asked, looking over to Riko, who was quite red over staring at her, “you’re spacing out, and you should focus when you’re benching, to avoid injuries and all that sort of stuff.”

       “Y-Yes, yes, o-of course!” Riko stammered, regaining her composure as she laid down on the bench, preparing herself as she readied her arms, “did you remember to change the weights on the bar?”

       “Of course; I wanted to make sure you were safe while doing it!” Yo exclaimed, giving Riko a quick peck on the cheek before she lifted the bar up, “let’s go; Yosoro!” Riko lifted the bar and started her reps; face strained as she attempted to do her workouts, stopping after only 10 reps, arms tired and wobbling from the weight. Yo helped guide the bar down to its rack, and laughed as she watched Riko turn over and collapse to the floor, done after their first set. “C’mon Riko; we at least have two or three more sets, then we can do biceps next!” All that Yo got in return was a guttural moan of sadness as Riko attempted to lift herself up.

       “Yoooo-chan, is the workout done already?” Riko moaned between sips of water as they made their way back from the water fountain, “I don’t know if my body can take much more…” Riko felt as if her chest was punching her from the inside and out; but Yo still looked as happy and chipper as usual, even after doing so much more weight than her. Riko gave her arms one last rotation before they made their way to a rack of dumbbells, each of the girls picking up weights that felt comfortable to them.

       “You curl them like this dear, you can watch my arms as an example,” You instructed, making sure Riko was watching so that her form was ok; the last thing she wanted was for her to pull or dislocate something, “make sure your arms are at your side, and that you’re only using your upper arms to lift the weights, alright.” Yo waited for a response from Riko, but looked up, only to realize that her girlfriend’s eyes were fully transfixed on her bicep, watching them as they flexed and unflexed while she demonstrated the exercise.

They’re moving like a pair of pistons… look at how strong and muscular they are… no wonder she’s so athletic, I bet she could really put those arms to us-- PURE THOUGHTS RIKO PURE THOUGHTS

       “Riko, love, you know that you need to do the exercise too; you just can’t stare at me all day,” Yo jokingly told Riko as she placed the weights down, “Now, did you get all the instructions for the bicep curl memorized?”

       “O-Of course! I was listening, I swear!” Riko suddenly answered, fumbling to pick up her weights and repeat Yo’s actions, eyes still razor-focused on Yo’s prominent arm muscles, “i-is this alright? I hope I’m following your actions; I-I got a bit distracted while you showed it to me.” Yo watched her girlfriend finish up her set, and decided to tease the poor girl by pretending to stretch, which only resulted in her flexing her arms, and Riko nearly dropping her weights out of sheer surprise. “Yo, don’t do that!” Riko yelled, pausing to put the dumbbells down to make sure she didn’t end up hurting herself, “you can’t just go around doing that; o-ok?!”

       “Awwww, I’m sorry Riko!” Yo sarcastically apologized as she wrapped her arms around her girlfriend, flexing her arms, letting Riko feel them press against her. Riko began to feel even more warm than she already was from her workout, reddening from her girlfriend’s effective teasing, panting as she looked down to see Yo’s muscular arms holding her.

       “Yo… please l-let go…” Riko begged, attempting to wriggle her way out of Yo’s bear hug, “your arms are t-to dangerous… I’m gonna make weird noises if you keep cuddling me here…”        “O-oh… my bad,” Yo apologized, letting go of her, looking down in embarrassment as she realized that her teasing had gone a bit far, “I-I’m sorry Riko.”

       “No no, it’s ok darling,” Riko quickly told Yo as she returned the hug back, “now, I think we should get back to our exercises, right?” Yo nodded as she bent down to pick up her weights again, starting her reps again as she focused fully on her exercises. She finished her set, and put her weights down yet again, to take another drink. She looked over to see Riko, who was slowly curling her own weights; eyes glazed over and transfixed on Yo’s arms again, a bit of drool on the corner of her mouth. Yo giggled a bit before Riko realized that she was staring, blushing slightly before putting her weights down to take a drink, splashing herself in the face in the process.

       “Ehe~ that’s what you get for being thirsty, darling,” Yo joked, walking up to her as she placed a little kiss on her cheek, “unfortunately, we only have a few more sets, but you can always watch these guns later~” Riko struggled to finish her last two sets, trying her hardest to not distract her mind with Yo, which proved hard as she kept staring at her wonderful girlfriend. After two more grueling sets, Riko dropped her weights and promptly fell to the floor, clutching her arms in pain and defeat, while Yo giggled and help her girlfriend up off the floor, who was mumbling something about no feeling in her arms.

       “Wow; you really worked up a nice, good sweat Riko!” Yo cheered, giving her a thumbs up while she grabbed her water bottle and towel, “what should we work on next, love; legs, or abs?” Yo’s face lit up as she started to giggle, watching as he girlfriend’s brow furrowed and her lips pursed, thinking intensely about what part of her girlfriend she wanted to see.

       “Hmm… squatting would let me stare at your butt… and it’d be good for my legs as well… but on the other hand… I’d get to see your stomach…” Riko mumbled as she thought over her options, “I guess I’d want to see your rippling six pack- I MEAN I WANT TO WORK ON MY CORE. YES. NOT LOOKING AT YOUR MUSCLES. NOPE.” Riko puffed her cheeks, trying not to be too angry at Yo as she collapsed onto the floor in laughter, unable to hold in her amusement at seeing Riko so focused on her body.

       “Alright baby; you’re in for a real challenge then; I’ll make sure your abs feel nice and sore after this!” Yo cheered, walking a terrified Riko towards a different part of the gym, bringing out two yoga mats and a pair of medicine balls to Riko, who was curled up in a ball on the cold floor.

       “See look… I’m working out my relaxing muscles with this exercise,” Riko announced, rolling over to her other side, “and look, I switched sides and everything.”

       “You know, you won’t get to see these in action if you’re acting like a lazy kitty,” Yo replied, teasingly tracing her hands on the faint outline that was her abs, which immediately made Riko sit up in place, “See; wasn’t hard, was it?” Yo helped Riko set herself up; both girls sitting beside eachother; medicine balls in hand. “Now, we’re going to do some twists and sit ups; and you need to hold this medicine ball to make sure you're getting the full workout from this, ok?” Yo explained, watching Riko nod in understanding, watching Yo intently for instructions, “now, you just need to lift your legs off the floor, sitting upright, and twist the ball around like this!” Riko watched intently as Yo performed the exercise, watching as her stomach twisted and flexed as she finished a dozen or so rotations, before putting the ball down, barely skipping a beat. “Now it’s your turn, baby!” Yo cheered, signalling to Riko, who lifted her legs up off the floor, attempting to copy Yo’s actions before falling over after 10 twists.

       “How do you subject yourself to this; and so often as a matter of fact!?!” Riko complained, groaning as she clutched her stomach, “how many do we need to do?”

       “Five sets of twenty or so, then after this, planks!” Yo excitedly answered, watching Riko’s face contort in shock, “don’t worry; after a few workouts, you’ll be strong in no time!” Riko flopped over onto the mat, turning to Yo with her biggest puppy dog eyes, in an attempt to stop the exercises. “Silly Riko, you aren’t getting out of this that easily,” Yo teased, moving her mat closer to Riko, “besides, you said you wanted to tone your stomach, right?”

       “Yeah, but I didn’t realize how much… effort I would need to put in,” Riko sighed, staring at her girlfriend’s stomach, reaching a hand to feel it, “they’re never going to look as good as these, though; your body is on a whole different level from mine!”

       “Ehe~ I do take pride in my stomach after all!” Yo grinned as she felt Riko’s hand rub and touch her stomach, fingers tracing the indents of her abs, “Umm… earth to Riko?” Riko’s brain had all but shut off; too focused on the fact that she was touching firm, solid muscle, that was her girlfriend’s, of all things

They’re so tight and they just look so sexy… I just can’t stop touching and feeling them… what did I ever do to be this blessed?

       Riko’s bordering-on-lewd inner thoughts were interrupted by an arm that was slightly shaking her, which turned out to be Yo, who was beet red in embarrassment. Riko soon realized why she was that flustered, after she looked around to see a few people staring as Riko had started to drool again after touching Yo’s abs, and quickly retracted her hands and curled up in embarrassment. Yo did her best to take a deep breath after that particularly embarrassing moment, and attempted to pull Riko up off the ground, who was on the verge of tears.

       “I-I’m so sorry Yo, I wasn’t thinking and I just couldn’t resist; they’re just too nice…” Riko mumbled, trying her hardest to pull herself together, “I’m sorry for embarrassing you in front of everyone…”  Yo suddenly pulled her embarrassed girlfriend into a hug, easing her heart and mind as she returned it.

       “It’s OK; I understand,” Yo cooed, letting go of Riko to sit back down on her mat, “it’s just very flattering to see you love my body this much…” Yo giggled as she watched Riko stare at her abs yet again, flinching away in an attempt to control her gay mind. “Now, are you going to be able to calm yourself down to do more exercises, or am I too distracting?” Yo jokingly asked, receiving playful hits to her head from a flustered, giggling Riko, “I’ll take that as a yes~” Riko gritted her teeth as she started her twists again, keeping her pace at the rhythmic counting of Yo, stopping again after a few minutes, falling to the floor in pain.

       “Auuugh… I feel like my stomach is going to fight me…” Riko groaned, getting ready for her next set, “three more, right?”

       “Yep; and planks after!”

       “UGGGGGGGGH… Yo why…”

        Riko fell to the floor as her arms gave out, finishing her last plank, with Yo following a few seconds later.

       “Wow Riko, you’re doing great; that time you lasted for 40 seconds!” Yo congratulated, stopping the stopwatch on her phone, “you're making great progress!”

       “I would say thank you, but I feel like I’m going to collapse from the inside out,” Riko sighed with a defeated look on her face, “are we done yet, or did you plan something else to trick me with?”

       “Not this time baby; just stretching, okay?” Yo told Riko, as she laid down on the mat, readying herself, “Riko, could you give me a hand with this bridge in case I fall down; just hold up my back a bit.” Riko followed Yo’s instructions and knelt beside her girlfriend, putting her hands on her back as she got up on her hands and feet.

       Unfortunately (or fortunately, in Riko’s case), Riko bent over in an attempt to grab her phone and was met with Yo’s abs, pressing against her face, making her mind go dizzy and her body press more against them.

Oh God oh God oh God they right here they’re so hot and sweaty but they’re so nice thank you to whichever God graced me this day

       Yo gave a surprised yelp as she fell over, sending Riko toppling down after her, turning into a mess of sweaty limbs on top of a yoga mat. “Nnnn, Riko are you ok?” Yo asked, hoping she didn’t hurt her girlfriend, struggling to get up as she noticed that something was in the way. She bent her head up a bit to see Riko, arms wrapped around her; fully red-faced as she pressed herself against her girlfriend, muttering something about ‘being too sexy to handle’.

She could almost feel the shower sex coming.

#Gratuitous depictions of muscles #you watanabe #riko sakurauchi #gym #writing #My writing

[mayaminamoto]

8, 15, 22, 27, 39, 40

08: What’s the best piece of feedback you’ve ever gotten?

I actually don’t know? I don’t get that much feedback in the first place, especially nowadays. I remember though some feedback that motivated me, even if it wasn’t “helpful” in a “shows you what to improve” way. During my studies one of my teachers wrote a small comment on one of my papers complimenting the style. One person commented under one of my fics that I have a talent to write grief. It helps.

15: What would you say has inspired you the most?

I like to take a trope and/or some pre-conceived notion and kinda turn it around. Some of my earliest ideas were about questioning certain tropes from manga/anime, like “what if the girl transported to a different dimension DIDN’T magically know the language” or “what if the chosen one actually worked for the evil side”. Some of these I still kinda hope to write one day. Since right now I’m mostly into shippy fanfics I try to bring out highly drama-inducing parts of certain pairings that fandom often seems to conveniently forget. Which you know, makes it hard, because said things technically should make my fav ships (including my OTP to end all OTPs) nearly impossible due to being EXTREMELY unethical.

22: Do you start with characters or plot?

Characters duh. Which can backfire horribly, when I have some cool characters and no plot to put them in.

27: Which is your favorite genre to write?

I’m not sure if it counts as a genre, but I love writing introspections. I like to give voice to the inner turmoils of the characters. Which is why a lot of my works are 90% inner monologue and no plot whatsoever.

39: What’s the weirdest story idea you’ve ever had?

Probably the crossover between Slayers and Wizard of Oz, which I wrote on a skiing trip with my parents when my dad was in a hospital for a torn ligament.

40: Which is your favorite original character, and why?

Robin, duh, my precious baby. I think the fact that she’s an RPG character and therefore, a bit of a collaborative project, she’s my most well-rounded character. She has THEMES ok? Like, actual depth and stuff. Genevieve, for the same reasons, though at this point I’m highly unsure who came up with the initial idea - me or Vodh. And Carmina has some potential, though lately I’m a bit unsure about her, because I realised that Jacqueline Carey already wrote her better in Ysandre de la Courcel.

#Mai gets asks #sayonaramidnight

[spaceorphan18]

Finding Kurt Hummel: The New Rachel

Masterpost

4x01: The New Rachel

It’s a new year, and a new Kurt.  Actually - it’s more like a new show entirely as Glee heads mashes up Glee: The College Years with Glee: The Next Generation.  It’s a rocky start here at the beginning of season 4, where the show loses its identity a little, and struggles with what it wants to be.  I’m not sure it ever quite figures it out, but we do get an entertaining second half of the series anyway. 

I don’t know what BTS stuff happened to prompt it, and I’m not here to speculate, but this is the year that Kurt takes a back seat a lot.  So -- among the facts, I’m placing my own interpretation of things, but the blanks are often so wide here, that just about any interpretation is possible. 

So, settle in kids, because this is about to get bumpy. 

Back from Break

Kurt’s first mention in Rachel’s inner-monologue, where she wishes he had come to New York with her.  And I kind of roll my eyes at the story here.  Because, essentially, Kurt didn’t get into NYADA so that Rachel could be alone in New York for --- all of one episode.  So what was the point? Other than to give Kurt one episode of misery in Lima before heading out there himself? I’m not going to apply reason to any of this. 

Meanwhile, Rachel’s calling him every three hours because she really doesn’t handle being alone very well.  And we get our first glimpses of Kurt.  And here’s the interesting thing.  The outfit - it’s a very Kurt-ish outfit.  But Kurt, well, he’s changed.  I don’t necessarily think he’s taller, but his face is thinner, and more mature, and for the first time - it’s Chris Colfer does not look like he should be playing a teenager.  It’s definitely a (welcomed) jarring physical change.  Also, natural highlights, my ass, Chris. 

Also worth mentioning - the fact that Kurt refers to a penis as a “twinkle tube”. You know he’s named Blaine’s.  I mean, c’mon. 

So, Kurt’s back at McKinley - and there is a little bit of, ah, c’mon Kurt, move on with your life lingering around.  He goes back to visit Sue, who has just had her baby.  Did anyone remember she was pregnant? Oops. 

And then we are introduced to Kitty -- and the first thing the show does is introduce her as the New Quinn, and she insults Kurt.  And the writers really thought this was the best way to get us to like the new characters? Really? 

So - we learn that Kurt has signed up for classes at Lima’s community college.  Sue still calls him a sad sack, but I mean, what does he expect if he’s going to go back and visit her? This is also interesting when you think about it - this scene is here to revisit both Kurt and Sue, but doesn’t really make a whole lot of sense within the character dynamics - other than adding another mark on my Sue and Kurt have a strange connection list.  

Anyway - Kurt might be handling everything Sue’s throwing at him pretty well, but there is some truth to what she says.  That he really shouldn’t be hanging around the past since it is holding him back.  And Kurt knows this. 

Lima Bean

So, we find that Kurt is working at the Lima Bean.  Remember way back when - when Kurt was filling out an application? Makes me wonder just how long he’s been working there, though probably not long if his manager is yelling at him to refill things, as if he’s just learning.  He is really adorable in his uniform though. 

Here’s my thing about Kurt being still in Lima.  I think there are relevant stories about staying in the place you grew up.  I think you can go home again - as evident by Finn’s story, and how I think Lima fit him best (and in a way that doesn’t fit Will very well).  But Kurt, Kurt isn’t really living right now.  He’s hanging on to the past, is way more excited about glee club auditions than the two people in glee club, is being bullied by a girl still in high school, and getting yelled at to fill the biscotti.  Kurt’s just kind of existing, and not pushing himself to be his best, in that Kurt-ish way he usually does.  

It’s interesting - the only other time we see Kurt start a season being content with the sad state of his life is season one.  Season four is about hitting the reset button on the show in a lot of ways, and Kurt, who has had a really great couple of years, is starting from the bottom again. 

So, yeah, let’s talk about Blaine for a second.  At the beginning of his scene Blaine and Brittany are chatting - about Santana, and how Brittany’s not having the greatest time.  In a lot of ways Klaine and Brittana are going through the same thing, and it’s not easy for either couple. 

Brittany misses Santana because she’s never there, and you get the feeling that even though Kurt is right there next to him, Blaine misses Kurt, too.  I can only assume that the summer was kind of rough -- and that Kurt was in a deep funk for a lot of it not having gotten into NYADA.  Blaine was already doom and gloom about their relationship before, but Kurt staying in Lima isn’t any better.  He’s only a shell of himself, trying to pass the time any way he can.  

Also worth noting - Brittany calls Kurt out on his patheticness, as Blaine tries to sugarcoat it.  I kind of like that Brittany is never afraid to tell it like it is.  

Anyway, Kurt and Blaine have been off kilter for a while, and there are tidbits in season three that show this, but here, they are really out of sync.  And it’s going to be a long, long time before they’re back on the same page.  It’s going to be really hard, but man, there will be a lot of great stuff to sink my teeth into.  

Auditions

It’s funny that Kurt is so into auditions here.  Also, it’s going to give him practice for when he comes back in two years and is running the club with Rachel.  Interestingly, he’s sitting next to a way less than enthused Blaine.  

Btw, why are all the glee club members there watching? That seems weird to me. 

Anyway - this whole scene is for the introduction of Jake Puckerman, who is channeling his brother pretty hard here.  Kurt declares that it’s rude when Jake purposely knocks over the music stand.  But c’mon. Will was pretty rude interrupting him in the first place. 

Also, Kurt’s still there for Marley’s audition - but we don’t really see him. 

The New Rachel

You guys remember when a BTS still came out for this moment, and we all concluded that the higher Kurt’s hair got, the more gelled Blaine’s got? Yeah... 

Also, nice to see that Kurt’s still got an insane way of organizing music.  Who lays it all out on the floor? Also - he’s dividing it up this time between genres, Broadway, Standards, Top 40, which at least makes more sense than by emotion. 

A big chunk of this episode is devoted to deciding who the ‘New Rachel’ is.  And here’s where Will’s teaching style has done some damage - because these very talented kids are all fighting against each other in order to be the ‘star’ and replace Rachel Berry.  I will say, one nice thing about the New New Directions is that they do kind of get rid of the whole New Rachel rhetoric pretty quickly and become a much more ensemble based group -- AS IT SHOULD BE.  But, part of that is the difference between Finn leading the group and Will.  

Kurt, meanwhile, is totally misremembering his time at McKinley, and claims that the glee club was about acceptance.  And to him, it probably was, because it was the first time he felt like he belong, like he was a part of something.  But that’s not necessarily true to others in the group.  And, Tina does have a good point - Rachel, Mercedes, Santana, and Kurt fought all the time over who was the biggest diva.  

Interestingly, there’s no reaction shot from Kurt when Blaine receives New Rachel status.  I actually don’t think that was intentional.  But it is interesting... 

It’s Time

Okay, so here we go.  The conversation starts out about Blaine being the lead soloist.  And what Kurt says to him is kind of strange.  First, that Rachel made everyone feel included.  No she did not, what even Kurt? If there’s one thing that I don’t like about this season it’s Kurt drinking /all/ the Rachel kool-aide.  Also, I’m not sure why the comment to Blaine about wanting to make sure everyone was included.  If there’s one person who is going to do just that - it’s Blaine.  But, I mean, it’s dialogue to fit the episode more than the character, so there’s that. 

But then there’s Blaine to Kurt -- that he essentially says, you’re stuck, you need to move on.  And he’s right.  Kurt knows that he’s right.  And I know Blaine gets a lot of flack for pushing Kurt to New York then being upset that Kurt left but A) Kurt wouldn’t have done anything he wasn’t ready to do deep down and B) Kurt, once he moves to New York, is not a model boyfriend, and that’s a whole issue I’ll be chatting about in later episodes. 

But yeah, it’s killing Blaine to do this, because he is incredibly scared about their relationship going forward, and you know, Kurt is, too.  He’s finally here to have the conversation he didn’t want to have in Goodbye.  But Blaine just reiterates Kurt’s earlier words - that they’ll be okay (even though, now, they both seem unsure). But the important thing is that Kurt staying in Lima - would not be any better to their relationship, and I think they both know that, too. 

Something I’ve never noticed before -- but Blaine singing to Kurt in the courtyard has always had to do with change.  

Somewhere Only We Know - Kurt comes back to McKinley, and he and Blaine area separated.  

It’s Not Unusual - Blaine comes to McKinley and they’re together again

It’s Time - Kurt goes to New York and Blaine stays and they’re separated.

Got to Get You Into My Life - They sing together, and Blaine goes to New York with Kurt, and (despite another break up inbetween) they’re together for good.  

OMG you guys - I don’t know if I should credit Glee with this much cleverness. 

Anyway - this song is about changes (and not changing), and while it’s very much about Blaine - it’s about Kurt, too.  Because, essentially it /is/ his time to grow up and change and go down the scary path towards adult hood.  

It's time to begin, isn't it? I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit I'm just the same as I was Now don't you understand I'm never changing who I am

But thing I find interesting about this song, is the message of staying the same through that change.  Kurt’s going to go through a lot of hard things, but he remains, as ever, himself.  Which is pretty cool. 

Also, I want to note the playful nature of this performance.  The cups, the jumprope, the goofing around -- it’s very childlike.  And, while that’s very Blaine, and I may be stretching this a little, it’s also a commentary about their relationship, too.  Up until this point, they’ve had a very childlike, innocent, fairy tale romance.  Sure, there were a few cracks in season 3, but things are going to fall a part very, very soon.  And in that, the childlike nature is ending.  

So yeah, this is all bittersweet, and a goodbye to Klaine as we know it.  Which makes this scene a lot sadder in retrospect. 

I wonder if it was intentional or not to have this moment mirror the Somewhere Only We Know moment.  But yeah, all through this song, Kurt watches Blaine, and is amused, and delighted, and sad, and wistful, and very much in love.  Kurt’s heart very much wants to go to New York - but it’d be disingenuous to disregard how much he’s going to miss Blaine, too. 

Also - this scene cuts off quickly, and that’s because there are two bits of dialogue missing.  

Kurt: I’m going to miss you so much.  You really are a star.  Blaine: And you’re mine. You always will be. 

Why would you cut that, Glee? Why??

Leaving On a Jet Plane

There’s a thing where Blaine and Burt are somewhat alike.  Because they both know that sometimes, you have to give Kurt the push in the ass that he needs. 

Oh. That sounded better in my head. 

What I mean, though, is this.  One reason Kurt didn’t get on a plane and head to New York over the summer is because he’s scared.  Because failure is a thing that haunts Kurt, even if he doesn’t always like to admit it, even if he presents himself with the best confidence.  He is human, after all, like the rest of us.  And, god, going to New York without a plan is, really, kind of insane.  But Burt does have a point -- it is an adventure, it’s how you learn to make your way in the world.  If you don’t go out there and try, then you’ll never know if you’ll be successful or not.  

And the longer this scene goes on, the more hesitant Kurt is to go on.  And Burt is just amazing.  Because his heart is breaking to see his kid off, but he knows it’s in Kurt’s best interests.  And he knows Kurt well enough to say just what Kurt needs to hear to get him out the door.  It really is a fantastic, sweet little scene - that is the epitome of what these two have been through the past few years, and the strong bond they’ve grown since then.  

Kurt: You really are the worlds greatest dad.  Burt: I know, it’s written on the mug you got me for father’s day. 

Burt tells Kurt he can always come home - but I think part of being a parent is letting your kids go - and go on to live their own lives.  Burt breaks down a little, and Kurt looks back, but the path is already set.  

New York

Oh this scene...  Kurt arrives in New York, and naturally the first thing he does is find Rachel.  It’s probably the smartest thing he does, because man, guys, just as an FYI - if you’re moving out to NYC, do plan a little.  Kurt’s plan is seriously insane.  

And, you know, I’ve kinda resented this scene for a long time.  Because it has this rom-com feel to it, like you know, lovers who meet up at the end of the movie.  And after not having much romantic Klaine, it was irksome when I first watched it.  I don’t know if I necessarily feel the same way anymore.  I mean, god, time, what have you done! Lol.  It doesn’t feel as rom-com-ish, nor does Klaine feel not that romantic (geez, there’s some great Klaine stuff in this episode, you just have to look).  

But -- I will say, this kicks off season 4 Hummelberry, which might be even more frustrating than season 3.  Kurt’s less indulgent this year, though, and that helps. 

So yeah -- Kurt’s in New York, ready to start this new portion of his life.  Poor kid, it’s not going to be easy for him.  But it’s going to be a fascinating ride... 

#finding kh #kurt hummel

[pendulumprince]

And onwards, to episode 108

So Edo continues to have his inner monologue

And that’s it.

After the opening!

Yuya and Shigo come running up

HEAR SHINGO’S SCREAM

AND

MY BOYS WERE JUST BEATEN BY THE TYLER SISTERS

WHY AM I NOT SURPRISED

SHINGO CAN NEVER HAVE A FULL DUEL

HE CAN NEVER WIN. NOT ONCE.

THE TYLER SISTERS SAY SOME IGNORANT SHIT, YUYA YELLS AT THEM WITH YUTO’S ASSISTANCE

YUYA AND YUTO HAVE SOME TALKS ABOUT THINGS AND STUFFS

YUTO WANTS TO KICK THEIR ASSES

DESTROY THE TYLER SISTERS.

DESTROOOOOOY THE TYLER SISTERS!

Omg but please let them live I love them

Yuya and shun bring out their duel disks

Set the action field spell

Blonde Tyler sister takes her first turn!

Summons a magic card

And then fusion

Because fusion seems to be the bread and butter oif every Academia student

SHE SUMMONS THE SAME 2800 ATK MONSTER AS BEFORE

SETS A FACE DOWN

ENDS HER TURN

YUTO SEEMS TO BE CONFUSED??

YUAY DOESN’T GIVE A FUCK

HE SETS THE SCALES 3 TO 8

HE BRINGS OUT THE MAGICIAN OF CREATION AT 1500 DEF

AND THE KEYBOARD MONKEY AT 2400 DEF

YUTO DOESN’T APPROVE OF THIS WEAKSAUCE MOVE ON YUYA’S PART

AND IT PLAYS RIGHT INTO BLONDE TYLER SISTERS HANDS

BECAUSE IT TRIGGERED HER TRAP??

OH NO

NO NO NO

BOTH THEIR LP’S GO UP TO 5500 LP

NOOOOO THAT’S SUCK AN ASS MOVE WHY

BUT SHUN SEEMS TO BE UP TO THE CHALLENGE

YUYA SETS A FACEDOWN, ENDS HIS TURN

WHITE!TYLER IS NOT IMPRESSED

SHE DRAWS. IT’S FUSION.

FUSES TWO MONSTERS

BRINGS OUT THAT DAMN TIGER MONSTER AT 2500 ATK

IT GOES UP TO 3000 ATK, JUST LIKE LAST TIME

THEY GO IN FOR THE ATTACK

BOTH YUYA AND SHUN GO DOWN TO 3400 LP

BUT WAIT! THERE’S MORE!

THEY ATTACK THE MAGICIAN OF CREATION, AND BOTH YUYA ANS SHUN GO DOWN TO 2100 LP

YUTO SEEMS TO WANT TO AWAKE THE DARKNESS WITHIN??

YUTO WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO YOURSELF

SO SHUN PENDULUM SUMMONS THREE 100 ATK MONSTERS

THE SISTERS GO UP TO 5800 LP

SHUN OVERLAYS HIS MONSTERS

SUMMONS RISE FALCON AT 100 ATK

LOOOOOL I REMEMBER THIS SON OF A BITCH

THE TYLER SISTER LOOK CONFUSED

YOU’LL FIND OUT SOON, MY GIRLS

SHUN BRINGS IT UP TP 600 ATK AND

YUP. IT’S EFFECT'S COMING INTO PLAY

AND IT’S ATTACK GOES UP TO 5900

YAAAAAAAAAS

DESTROY THE TYLER SISTERS

AW WAIT NO

THAT WOULD BE TOO SOON

THEY’RE ATTACKED, BUT THEIR MONSTERS STAY ON THE FIELD

AND THEY GO DOWN TO 2500 LP

SHUN TRIES TO ATATCK AGAIN, BUT HE’S BLOCKED

RISE FALCON GOES BACK DOWN TO NORMAL

SHUN SETS A FACEDOWN, ENDS HIS TURN

WHITE!TYLER ACTIVATES A TRAP CARD

AND

THE GIRLS ARE BACK UP TO 5900 LP

HOW DO YOU EVEN GET AWAY WITH THAT??

I CAN SEE HOW THEY WIPED OUT ALL OF SPADE NOW

WHITE TYLER ACTIVATES ANOTHER TRAP!

IT WORRIES YUYA AND SHUN

I’M WORRIED TOO, DUDES

THEIR TIGER MONSTER GOES UP TO 3000 ATK

THEY GO IN FOR THE ATTACK ON SHUN’S MONSTER

SHUN RANKS UP INSTEAD

SUMMONS A 1000 ATK RAID RAPTOR

THE AMAZONESS GOES IN FOR THE ATTACK

BOTH MY DUDES GO DOWN TO 300 ATK

FUUUUUCK MY WORLD THIS IS LOOKING BAD

SHUN SUMMONS HIS PREVIOUS 100 ATK MONSTER VIA MAGIC CARD

AND THE GIRLS GO UP TO 7000 ATK

WHITE!TYLER SAYS SOME MORE IGNORANT SHIT

SHUN LOOKS READY FOR MURDER

IT ALARMS EVEN ALLEN AND SAYAKA

YUTO AND YUYA ARE SPEAKING IN UNISION??

THAT’S LITERALLY NEVER A GOOD SIGN

YUYA IS FIGHTINH AGAINST YUTO’S ANGER

MY SWEET, SWEET TOMATO LOOKS SO TROUBLED AND SO SAD

AND IT’S HIS TURN NOW

YUTO BOWS OUT

YUYA GOES IN FOR HIS TURN

ANNNND HE DRAWS SMILE WORLD

BRINGS MAGICIAN OF CREATION BACK OUT

THE GIRLS GO UP TO 7500 LP

AND HE ALSO BRINGS OUT SHUN’S 100 ATK SINGING LANIUS MONSTER

YUYA OVERLAYS THEM

SUMMONS DARK REBELLION!

THE GIRLS GO UP TO 10,100 ATK

*cries deeply*

HOW ARE YOU GONNA BRING THAT DOWN TO TO 0

EVEN YUTO IS CONCERNED

YUYA’S SMILING SO ADORABLE RIGHT NOW

OOOOH DAMN

Okay, back to Academia

Edo mentions Yusho…

BACK TO YUYA

“LAAAAADIES AND GEEEENTLEMEN!”

HE SUMMONS A MAGIC CARD

PRETTY STARS APPEAR EVERYWHERE

THE GIRLS LOOK MILDLY MESMERIZED

AWWW FUCK MY BABY

Back to Academia

EDO SEEMS YUYA SUMMONING SMILE WORLD

ALL MONSTERS ON THE FIELD GAIN 400 ATK

EDO, LIKE ALWAYS, IT 100% AGAINST SMILING

YUYA WINKS AT SHUN

SHUN IS NOT AMUSED, BUT GET’S WHAT YUYA WANTS TO DO

(WELL THAT MAKES ONE OF US.)

SHUN BRINGS UP HIS MONSTER’S ATK TO 6600 ATK

YUTO GETS IT NOW TOO

AND…!

THEY USE DARK REBELLIONS OVERLAY UNIT

AND IT ULTIMATELY BRINGS DARK REBELLION UP TO 5075

THE TYLER SISTERS HAVE NOT YET BEEN CONVERTED TO THE WAYS OF EGAO

BUT ALAS, THE FUN AS JUST BEGUN.

BOTH DARK REBELLION AND SHUN’S MONSTER GET INTO CARTOON LOOKING ROCKET SHIPS?!

LOL OKAY I’M TRUSTING YOU DUDE

ALLEN AND SAYAKA LOOK SO HAPPY?!

EVEN THE TYLER SISTERS LOOK LIKE THEY APPRECIATE ALL THE GLOWING LIGHTS.

SO ONE OF THE ROCKET SHIPS LANDS ON THEIR TIGER MONSTER

WHITE!TYLER IS OPVERJOYED??

TH GIRLS TAKE NO DAMAGE, THOUGH

BUT THE SECOND ATTACK DOES!

AND!

THEY GO DOWN TO 0!

I understood none of what just happened, but I’ve accepted that never understand this game

YUYA AND SHUN WIN!

MY SOOOOOONS

YUYA MENTIONS HIS DAD

WHICH SETS EDO OFF AGAIN

(WHY DON’T YOU JUST ADMIT YOU HAVE A HARD ON FOR THE 40 YEAR OLD CLOWN??)

Back in Heartland

The Tyler Sisters realize what just happened

They’re on their knees, looking all devastated and whatnot

Bowl-cut man rolls up, yells at them to get their shit together and go back after the Lancers

BUT

OH NO

IT’S THE OBELISK FORCE

IF YOU CARD MY DAUGHTERS I SWEAT TO GOD—

Preview time!

Oh no okay the Tyler Sisters are all right

YUYA AND SHUN ARE TAKING ON THE OBELISK FORCE?!

Okay but this isn’t season one anymore

We all know these dudes are weaksauce

#yugioh arc v #arc v episode reactions #arc v episode 108 #yuya sakaki #yuto #shun kurosaki #shingo sawatari #noboru gongenzaka #grace tyler #gloria tyler #edo phoenix arc v #heartland #xyz dimension #academia #fusion dimension