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freesomebodybyluna · 2 years

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#today has been such an awful day....#i paid almost $400 for my eye exam today & they switched my contact brand bc they no longer use the one im used to #so i have to try them out for a week before i can call to purchase them when i wouldve liked to have paid in that moment #so itd hurt less......#and ive had a fever since my appt #my back hurts a shit ton & so does my head #my legs hurt too & its super hot but ive been getting chills #and my mom has been on my case all afternoon as well which didnt help w my headache #and there are just so many problems that i have to deal w w her to the point where even my sister is beyond done w her but cant #say anything for fear that she wont get to see our bro anymore & theres really no pt in arguing w her bc of how clueless she is to her own #manipulation....im so tired & i haven't gotten an internship yet or learned how to drive #everything just feels so hopeless #dl #also i couldnt tell if my contacts were making my head hurt as well or if it was just my growing headache as a result of my fever....#they fit nicely though & my new optometrist made me feel very comfortable hes very kind #he was kinda trying to convince me to get the weekly contacts vs the monthly ones but i was like buddy....i wanna get out of here 😭🔫

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hammill-goes-fogwalking · 1 month

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#not dislike. its hate #it made me cry several times today #thinking of how my classmates manipulate our teachers #and chatgpt AIs can EVERYTHING #its so painful to think of it #today I broke down in the bus and cried #idc what people think. hiding my feelings any longer would destroy me from the inside #maybe youve also seen how people use freakin AIs in their exams #the thing is that:#we wrote an exam for which Ive studies for like 2 whole days #this week we finally got the exams back (w the grades ofc)#and ok Ive got a 3 (C in America syste #*m)#my friends who used chatgpt throughout the exam got way better grades (I didnt expect it otherwise)#PLUS #the most provocating messages from the teacher:#“10/10 POINTS :)” “YOURE ROCKING THIS” “YEAH”#💔#seriously #this breaks my heart #dont the teacher see something suspect in the exam?!#why cant they open their eyes and get modernized to reality.#& they KNOW- the students Im talking of. they usally have bad results.#once our teacher came to a chatgpt student and said the most miserable thing:#“youve been using duolingo a lot lately hm? thats where your nice grades come from 😉🥰”#you get it?#no- this peoson didnt learn.#no- this person isnt even interested in the stuff we learn in lessons #AWFUL feeling to hear the praisings of da teachers when *I* gotta sit among the gpt-students and look like Im a worse student than *them*#[writing this at almost 1 at night] still have some tears. this topic really has the power to destroy someones day. 💔💔

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kaidabakugou · 3 months

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the new girl at one of my favorite bakeries called me pretty this morning and it literally melted all my stress away 🥺

#kai.rambles #i was feeling sad bc my grandma is in the hospital and when i went to visit her they wouldn’t let me pass bc my license is expired #which okay ik that’s my fault but i took my passport with me just in case and the guy straight up told me that it wasn’t a valid form of id #and im like yeah tf it is ITS A PASSPORT and he said no #and while i was waiting for my mom to come down to the lobby an old lady came in and he turned her away for the same thing #and dudeee okay you turn me away fine fuck off but an old ladyyy??? at that age they don’t pay attention to that just let her pass #and then he argued with another woman bc she brought a flower arrangement and it had water so he couldn’t allow it HELLOOO??!?#so i had to leave and went to go get breakfast for my mom at least bc she stayed the night and i was supposed to stay the day #and when i came back to give her the food she told me that the nurse that was with my grandma asked what happened bc she wasn’t expecting #my mom to return and when my mom told her she immediately got so angry bc that same guy #didn’t allow her and a couple other nurses to bring in a cake for one of the residents #who’s birthday is today and they had a full on argument this morning #so it was all in all awful and now my mom has been there for more than 20 hours until later tonight when my aunt goes over :(#anyway this turned into a whole rant im sorry but im so mad bc i know for a FACT that a passport is a valid form of id #and he was just being a fkn dick #but the girl called me pretty and it took some stress off and she really liked my blush #and i liked hers so we had a little makeup 101 exchange and it was so nice at least 🥺#and i have a couple cute asks to answer that have made my day as well so i’ll get to those in a few 🥰

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satanfemme · 4 months

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*the cloud of smoke settles and you see me laying face down on the floor* I sent a follow up email.

#I know for a fact my boss is working today so I gave her a few hours but then sent her something brief.#because it's been 3 days and my original response was due yesterday. so u know. I need to know she got it ok #I feel kinda irredeemably awful rn (<- has never sent a follow up email before) but it had to be done for my own sanity <///3

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kazuichikazuichi · 1 year

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mahiru! ♡♡

#me not drawing something based on a stage play photo? crazy #also super proud of this bc it's the first time ive drawn something in one day in so long!!#mahiru my beloved #mahiru koizumi #danganronpa #super danganronpa 2 #sdr2 #my art #and just yeah art has been hard for me lately and i started today feeling awful but to turn it around and draw something aaa i feel proud!!

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dreamlogic · 7 days

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musing in the tags about the view two years out from my hysterectomy and the shifting nature of neuropathy. i asked my PT for recommendations/resources pertaining to pain science and that's been a very helpful lenses to have. i'm still not back to normal, will never be unmarked by this experience or return to my pre-op self, but my baseline has been gradually increasing over the last few months, and it feels good to look back on the last two years and say "i have no idea how i managed to function while living with that, but i did!"

#meatsuit renno #chronic blogging #ctxt #at first post-hysto pain was a deep burning ache #and eventually that lessened on my left side and settled in for the long haul on the right #after a couple weeks it had started to feel like a small carnivorous creature scrabbling and gnawing at the inside of my abdomen #nestled into the hollow of my pelvis and reaching up with its raking claws #about 6 months in and the creature still chewed occasionally but had shrunk to the size of a tennis ball under my right incision site #it clamped its jaws down and went to sleep and i perpetually felt like someone had pinched a fold of my insides with a large binder clip #this constant awful twisting tug every time i moved that kept me from straightening up or breathing fully #this is about a year into recovery and my original surgeon has blown off my requests for follow-up treatment three times now #i carried on as best i could. fatigue and brainfog getting worse & worse as the pain wore on unrelentingly #about a year and a half into recovery it worsened again. searing lancing pain like i'd been impaled on a piece of white hot rebar #couldn't hardly move. couldn't think straight. couldn't sleep #finally checked myself into urgent care & then the ER just to try to get someone anyone to take me seriously and help me #finally got a referral to a new surgeon who immediately pinned it as extreme neuropathy #started gabapentin end of december last year and the relief was immediately #i never thought i would welcome the gritted teeth vice grip of my little feral pain creature #but when i felt the molten spike slide out to be replaced once more by its worrying jaws #the intermittent spark and fizzle of that pinching squirming pain was a dramatic improvement #then i started PT in march and slowly so slowly the creature's hungry grip is loosening #it still clamps down occasionally. maybe once every week or two i'll have a day when i just accept #that there will be a horrible little creature chewing on my right side from the inside #but nowadays with the gabapentin doing as much as it can and an exercise routine i must stick to religiously to supplement PT #the pain is more of a little pearl of dark matter shifting around under my skin #it's incredibly dense. the heart of a black hole of disabling agony. all that white hot fury condensed into a slick heavy marble #as i recover some of my strength and energy i can feel my body coating it in nacreous layers to minimize its influence #my hysterectomy was 2 years and 4 days ago today and i feel like i can finally finally say i'm beginning to truly heal #i suspect i'll always carry this pearl in my side like shrapnel. product of damaged nerve tissue that went untreated for far too long #i wish my original surgeon had been more competent more attentive less lazy & indifferent to my pain. but i still don't have any regrets.

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abalidoth · 1 month

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Gotta say, you're very much gender goals for me.

I'm trying to grow out a beard now too and I hope to have bright purple hair one day. You're wonderful, ty for being you!

Ahhhh jcslfjskxbakf ☺️☺️☺️☺️ that means so much to hear, thank you!!!

#tesserants #today has been an awful day and this brightened my mood immensely

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beevean · 22 days

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Mega Man X5

Zero Stage 1

#megaman #megaman music #mm music #megaman x5 #music of the day #not only this became my favorite fortress theme in the x series #but it's a serious contender for one of my favorite megaman tracks period #it's almost prismatic in how you can feel so many emotions here #there's the utter fear of the unknown #determination to face the end of the world #the numbness for how long this has been going on #the realization this might be the end #the awe at something terribly beautiful #the grief for a lost friend #simply gorgeous music #sure it's not very fitting for quick man 2.0 but who cares #(fun fact: i queued this track in april 23rd 2022)#(exactly 2 years ago as of today)

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playertwotails · 1 year

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Okay I got thoughts about Tails and how much of a little badass he is and this is gonna be a long ramble with spoilers for like most everything I can think of so buckle up if you keep reading.

The villains of the Sonic universe are doing themselves a disservice by only seeing Sonic as a threat and that if they take them out they’re good to go. But Tails is arguably the main problem to all their plans going south and none of them have really taken that into account in any media that I can remember.

Like okay Forces didn’t do a great job of portraying this side of Tails and they murdered his characterization in that game. Frontiers had to backpedal hard to try and fix it, I think they did a pretty good job for the the band-aid they had to slap on for an explanation as to why Tails was like that in that game honestly. Saying he was essentially overwhelmed and couldn’t be brave and fell apart cause he is you know still just an 8 year old child, is a pretty solid explanation honestly. But still Forces really didn’t know how to write Tails around the Sonic OC monstrosity I know most of us made. If they wrote Tails with his previous characterization in mind there wouldn’t have been a point to the player character cause Tails probably would have kept Eggman at like 50% and saved Sonic. (side note making the OC player character lowkey terrify was hilarious in cut scenes if you went that route and if you didn’t go back and play the game and just make the most terrifying creature game lets you trust me it’s worth the laugh).

But stumbling off my Forces soapbox, none of their rogues gallery seems to put two and two together that they’d probably win if Tails wasn’t there to come up with a counter plan to theirs.

Just to like build on why Tails is such a threat the their villains I’m gonna start with just Tails’ physical traits:

To start, Tails can keep up with Sonic. Very few characters are listed as being able to do that (granted most game mechanics have to make it so other characters can also keep up with Sonic). But in all the written out lore and characterization it's usually mentioned that Tails is an outlier in how he can keep up with Sonic and that's part of the reason they became friends.

Obvious one, Tails can fly. Meaning he has a whole other terrain he can fight in and leaving it to gravity in a fight with him will fail. And combine that with his speed being up there with Sonic's and now nowhere is safe from him.

Tails can pack a punch. He's been fighting since a young age, younger than most of the older characters even, and is best friends with Sonic and Knuckles so of course the kid knows how to hit something and fight.

Tails is really strong. I know that one twitter take over has a joke that Tails is ripped but like he'd kinda have to be. We've seen him able to carry both Sonic and Knuckles at the same time and not to mention all the heavy machinery he works with regularly. That 8 year old is pure fluff and muscle.

Now here's where Tails goes from menace to threat for their rogues gallery:

To start with Tails is a super genius. At 8 he's on par with Eggman in intelligence, a man with a doctorate and who's been at this for years, and at times out out classes him (i.e. see the zombot arc Tails figured out a cure when Eggman couldn't against his own virus)

He's made a fake chaos emerald that was next to indistinguishable from a real one. Like I might make a whole separate post about this one later but this child made something that was essentially close in power to a god-like entity, like what the actual fuck.

He's defused a nuke. Eggman did not foresee a baby that apparently has a part time job as a one man bomb squad wrecking his plans.

Ace pilot skills. Wasn't sure if I should put this here or the list above, but I'm putting it here cause my list. But just any sort of air battle Tails has covered either with his own tails or a plane, the sky's are his.

No one really talks about this from Sonic X but Tails built a whole ass functioning space craft Star Trek Enterprise style that they all lived on for months, had artificial gravity, and fuck you levels of weaponry. I know nothing is really canon from that show but I mean how could I not list it.

Tails is the one that comes up with the plan or invention that Sonic and gang use to win (usually he is...Amy seems to have taken over the more plan side of things in IDW comics during/after Forces for big battles, and we love this for her in this house). But like Tails is the one whose invention or plan usually ends up being the main reason they win.

Tails has a super form and can use chaos energy. Like despite what the line up of the cast who can go super form would have people believe, this is actually stated to be a rare trait that few have the ability to actually do. (it's like going super saiyan, cause it ripped it off, stated to be rare then everyone can just do it cause plot)

Tails is just such a one man army at 8 years old that I see him just becoming an even bigger threat as they get older. Cause he's canonically 7 years younger than Sonic and one of the youngest characters in the cast. Meaning he's got room to grow still and if he can keep up with the older character at 8 how strong is this kid gonna be by the time he reaches Sonic's current age of 15.

Like I see it that as they get older Sonic will still be the main protector of the planet and a thorn in all their villains sides. But like if Tails walks up that's it..fight over..you lost..don't stop at go to collect $200 just do your self a favor and go straight to jail.

Out of the whole cast, though they are all young and could only get stronger at this point with age, Tails has the most potential out of all of them with just how many skills this kids has on him.

Also throwing this in here cause I can, Sonic is one of the few if not only person who recognizes this about Tails. It's why he trusts Tails so much and falls back on him when things go bad (also trusts him cause Tails is his best friend/little brother/family figure). Sonic is well aware that his little brother will more than likely one day surpass him and he's proud of that. Sonic pretty much raised Tails so he has a weird combination of proud older brother/almost-parental proud feelings about it. They're brothers you honor.

Welp this is my ramble about Tails cause he's one of my favorite characters ever. Feel free to add on to it if anyone else thinks of anything that I missed. This was all 100% rambles from memory and I have shit memory so I know for a fact I missed something.

#tails the fox #miles tails prower #sonic the hedgehog #I just love tails alright he's fluffy and adorable and can kick ass #all the best traits #wrote this cause it's been on my mind and I called out from work today cause I feel awful #instead of 10 hours of paper work today I'm writing this #but yeah Tails has been my favorite character since I was still in the single digits of age #so it's been a while of him at the top of my list considering I'm closer to 30 now than I am my teen years #time may be an unstoppable force no one can fight against in terms of aging but fav characters are forever #spoilers #just a general spoilers tag cause we'd be here all day if i listed each spoiler individually

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touchlikethesun · 11 days

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in retrospect making instant ramen - a food notoriously high in sodium - when i feel ill was not the great idea i thought it was going to be. i have a whole bowl nicely prepared with an egg and green onion garnish and i cannot force myself to take a single bite. i am quite hungry but i can’t eat this and i want to cry

#personal #vent #food mention #today has been bloody awful i feel like a victorian wasting away from consumption #this was supposed to be my first meal of the day something easy #and that has completely backfired 😭😭😭😭

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wayfinderships · 5 months

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Good evening gamers!! Hope you're all doing well! As for me, I'm not doing so hot but playing some games will definitely help!

#pan rambles #Today has just been bunch of small annoyances building up to the point where I'm gonna burst into flames-#It's all irl stuff so I won't into super big detail but #One thing I will say is that my back is killing me after Painting for so long with shrimp posture #and after I was finally finished for the day. I dropped my drink near two cables I was using #which was. not fun. awful way to end that-#the cables are fine dw but now I feel extra annoyed (mainly at myself for being clumsy)#I'm irritated and stressed and maybe some Hades will help me- I just need to hit stuff (in a game) for a bit #Ahem #but enough about that #on a lighter note #I might watch some H.aikyuu with my childhood friend after my finals are over #It's been months since I've seen her so I've been missing her so much- hearing her voice in a call would definitely help #I love her sm she's the best <3

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pessimisticprincess · 8 months

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i just have to get through the rest of today and tomorrow

I JUST HAVE TO GET THROUGH THE REST OF TODAY AND TOMORROW