#and that has completely backfired 😭😭😭😭

[touchlikethesun]

in retrospect making instant ramen - a food notoriously high in sodium - when i feel ill was not the great idea i thought it was going to be. i have a whole bowl nicely prepared with an egg and green onion garnish and i cannot force myself to take a single bite. i am quite hungry but i can’t eat this and i want to cry

#personal #vent #food mention #today has been bloody awful i feel like a victorian wasting away from consumption #this was supposed to be my first meal of the day something easy #and that has completely backfired 😭😭😭😭

[fairyhaos]

how seventeen act with their spontaneous s/o

requested by anon: hi i’m so glad that you’ve opened your requests again i really like your works!💟💟 can i request svt with a partner who has a really loud and messy personality/lifestyle and like very random w their actions(?) i hope that makes sense 😭😭😭

notes: this is such a cute idea omg

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seungcheol

lowkey makes him a little worried to see you running around and finding so many new things that interest you and leaving so many things around you in your wake. he's concerned that you're doing too much and you'll burn yourself out. but after several conversations, you reassure him that it's all okay, and now he just laughs, endeared, as you rattle off all the new facts about birds that you found out. doesn't really understand the entire idea of spontaneous trips, though. agrees to come with you when you wanna take a sudden trip all the way to jeju, but on the flight he plans exactly how long you're gonna be staying there and exactly what you're gonna do

jeonghan

on no less than fifteen occasions, you've managed to startle jeonghan awake because you yelped too loudly or jostled the bed too much in your haste to get up because of something or other. and that was saying something, because jeonghan was a decently deep sleeper. supports you in all the weird hobbies you suddenly wanna pick up, watches in interest as you water your plants diligently for an entire month before suddenly gaining a new fixation. (he's looking after your potted plants rn btw.) won't go on spontaneous trips with you, tho. sit down and think about what you wanna do first, then he'll join in

joshua

you've gone on many a spontaneous trip with joshua bc a) he can never refuse you and b) he's often as impulsive as you when it comes to these things. sometimes they go well, sometimes they don't, but he's there to laugh with you and calmly navigates the situation,  so that in the end your memories of the trip won't be all negative. thinks the sudden noises you make are really really cute. laughs when he thinks one is particularly funny, and loves to imitate them until you're rolling your eyes and pinching him on the shoulder for being annoying. his mischief backfires on him tho, bc now he sometimes unironically makes those very same noises

junhui

LOVEESSSSS it so much. you're so cute!! so vivid and happy and smiley and you look so lovely when you're gesturing animatedly and it makes him blush a little bc you??? are in love with him???? that's actually insane. he loves the little noises you make whenever you remember something, bump into something, successfully complete a task, anything. giggles into his hand and looks at you with stars in his eyes every time. not as much of a big fan of spontaneous outings (it makes him nervous) but he's always there to support you when you suddenly wanna know how to finger knit

hoshi

he's your energizer, and you're his energizer too. your bright, bubbly nature has most definitely helped him out of a slump where he wasn't feeling himself on countless occasions, and he very seriously tells people that he wouldn't be where he is right now if it wasn't because of you. yelps in surprise when you suddenly exclaim loudly, which in turns makes you yelp even louder in shock and it carries on back and forth between you two before one or both of your dissolve into giggles. loves you with his entire being. your brightness, your vivid nature and the way you never fail to make him smile means that he's staying by your side till the end of time

wonwoo

you two work, like, perfectly together. your spontaneity has led him to experience things he's ended up adoring, and allows him to get out of his room and actually into the real world. he loves it a lot. he'll jokingly complain to junhui and hoshi that you're always so messy and he's having to pick up your things after you, but he really likes it. you live so vividly, and he can practically see you living your life everywhere he turns—from your socks next to his table, your unfinished mug of tea balanced precariously on his couch arm rest, to every other possession of yours that has somehow managed to find itself lost in his living room. it's nice. it makes him feel a part of the brilliant, colourful life you lead. 

woozi

pretends to roll his eyes and tsk at the random things you keep leaving in his studio, but he always makes sure to stack your sweaters and the blankets you leave into a neat pile so you can pick them up when you return. literally thinks you're the loveliest, sunniest person in the entire world, and that's saying something because he knows seokmin. but for him, there is nothing sunnier than your infectious laughter over the new, weird ideas you get and the way your eyes twinkle and then soften when they land on him. it's the most beautiful thing in the world. 

minghao

it makes him a little dizzy, actually, how quickly you can jump from one thought to another, but he thinks it's endearing. he'll never say it out loud, of course, and more often than not, people will be able to hear him berating you for talking to quickly, telling you to take a breath and calm down for a moment. but your spontaneity, your vividness is accompanied by endless optimism, and minghao adores seeing you smile. he comes with you on any sudden trips you decide to make, and he's the one who makes sure you actually get to where you want to go, and get to do all the things you actually want to do. he's like a gentle enabler, of sorts. 

mingyu

is patiently trying to teach you how to clean up after yourself. it's not working tho, bc he's Forgetful and only remembers every other month, so when he tries to get you to clean your room it basically turns into an entire spring cleaning session, and you despise it so much that you vow never to clean it again. looks at you weirdly every time you come to him with a new hobby you're into, but he genuinely cried when you knitted him a sweater for his birthday last year. goes with you on all the trips you want. you're gonna have to book something other than budget flights tho bc last time he went on one, his knees were basically squished to his chest the entire flight

dokyeom

you're!!! just like him!!!! he gets you so bad. you finish each other's sentences. you go off on tangents that apparently you both get instantly. you guys can talk together for hours and never get bored. he adores you so, so much. thinks you're the funniest person ever. he's adopted mannerisms bc you have them, and you've adopted mannerisms bc he has then too. also, though, your house is kind of a mess? minghao cries every time he steps through the front door, but it's an organized mess, xu minghao, we know where everything is! (you don't. just last week you declared your last pair of white socks lost to the void forever.) 

seungkwan

you may or may not have given him mini heart attacks several times whenever you suddenly cry out as a new thought comes to you, bc he literally thinks you're being attacked or something. puts a hand to his chest while he pats your head with the other hand, telling you not to scare him like that. still thinks it's cute, though. keeps all the watercolour paintings you made from this one time that you were fixated on the art form, looks over at them fondly and treats them as if they're national treasures. gently pokes your cheek and smiles at you to get you to focus back in on a conversation when he sees you zoning out while his friends ramble on around you

vernon

you're like an excitable puppy, and vernon is like your endeared, chill owner. he lets you do literally anything you want. cheers you on with basically everything you do. looks at you mystified whenever you randomly make finger guns at him while reciting your flashcards for revision, but hesitantly makes finger guns back, and it always makes you laugh. doesn't go on your spontaneous outings with you tho, bc one time he agreed to go to a roller rink bc you really wanted to go to one at that evening and he accidentally managed to get himself drugged and had a mild concussion after. makes you go with either josh or cheol and has you text him every hour bc he wants to make sure that you're okay

chan

goes along with literally everything you do. joins in on any random hobbies you pick up. awwed and ahhed over your new helix piercing when you spontaneously decided to get one, and then held you in the night when it grew too painful for you to lie down on. stares at you in surprise whenever you make a weird noise with a weird gesture, before promptly making the same gesture that you had and amplifying the noise 10x so that you end up laughing and punching him lightly on the arm. tells you very sincerely, when you have worries about not knowing what you're doing with your life, that it's okay not to know, as long as you're having fun just like you are right now. 

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[hyewka]

HIHII hard hours open,, my specialty,, (😭) OK so last night i was thinking about. vv annoying bratty switch jun who honestly only agreed to be a sub cuz u wouldnt stop asking and he wasn’t expecting u to… well. be able to handle him and end up begging for him to take the lead in the end 😕 well that plan completely backfired as u end up having to tie him up/handcuff him and continuously edge the boy cuz he wouldn’t stop being a brat and let u have ur dom moment 😭 bro ends up nearly breaking the restraints (or he does?? up to u 😌) because of how frustrated he was because hes so used to cumming whenever he wants as dom :((( aaand then. comes switch jun cuz as soon as u untie him and say how good he was he just has this feral look in his eyes and completely flips you over on 4’s and pounds the shit out of u and saying shi like “u rlly thought i’d let u get away w all that? how about i do that to you now??” 😔 sigh so mean of him ..

warnings: praise kink, bondage, dacryphilia, pet names, non proofread filth, switch!jun

being a sub is something yeonjun is not used to, especially in his relationship with you. hes only had experiences where girls would ask to take a lead and still somehow find himself on top by the end, grunting ‘good girl’ and singing praises with an annoyingly smug face as he harshly thrusted in and out.

so when youve straddled yourself on top of his lap, grinding your half clothed pussy on his bulge as you heatedly kiss, breathing being a second priority, and in between, whisper “let me take the lead today” hungrily, he only nods, an overconfident smirk slipping into the kiss—not thinking you’d go through with it.

but you do.

“you’re actually going to tie me up?” he says with a tilt of his head, sitting at the edge of your bed, watching you look through your drawer.

his pants were unbuckled, and his lips were swollen red from your lipstick, his hair was untamed — he was ready to tease like he always did but you stopped his hand telling him that you’re going to get things from the drawer — which he only assumed to be a rope.

you finally find the thing you were looking for, dangling it in front of him squealing a little. “gonna handcuff you”

he only lightly scoffs, an amused smile appearing as his eyes focused on your pretty hands cuffing his hands together. “c’mon, are you actually going to go through with this?” he whines as he watches you pushing his jeans down completely, revealing more clearly his dick outlined in his boxers, rock hard.

you roll your eyes as your hands slip out his fat cock, precum leaking from the tip — ready to pump it. “jjun, shut up and let me get you off.”

you know hes not going to take you seriously, so instead of doing the usual quick pump and swallow, you roughly push your hand up and down at his girth a corner of your lips slowly forming up as his body tense up, slightly buckling into your hand with his close shut as he breathes out curses — he was close. when you stop your rigorous unapologetic speed, his eyes shoot open.

“w-what are you doing—shit, i’m close!” he yells frustrated, his hips now desperately buckling in and out of your hand.

when he notices a dark glint to your gaze, he naturally finds himself squirming and feeling himself turn small, even as he tries to break the handcuffs off his hands.

“you’re dangerously confident for someone cuffed”, you sneered, your hand still tightly restraining his cock from moving in and out. “jjun, i’m punishing you until you can be a good boy for me, alright? so try your best to cooperate.”

it proved to you edging jjun was a struggle, because though his usual confident dominance crashed and burned, he still thought he had a chance of taking over as he bit down on his bottom lip, holding back any moans that might slip out. but it eventually got to him, as you looked up at his face, his eyes clearly unable to hold back any tears.

“please”, he squeaked as you edged him again, for the fifth time, unable to control his lewd moans especially as you slip your hand up under his shirt, squeezing his nipples. “let me cum”

you almost coo at the sight— with his cheeks flushed red, his eyes wet with tears, and the messiness of his face with his swollen red tip right in your face. you pout as you pick up your pace again, deciding he did his best.

“hnng—y/n, g-go faster, go faster please!” you smile as you finally accomplish your goal of making him beg, generously opening your mouth, taking in his tip like a hungry dog as your hands harshly pump his cock — you dont expect to immediately feel a rush of warm thick liquid spurting in your mouth the moment your tongue touches his tip, but it does, and you feel accomplished as you swallowed his seed.

yeonjun smiled weakly, satisfied but worn out, as you got up.

“that was fun, huh?” you say heading to your counter to get the keys meant to unlock the cuffs.

your hear him hum in agreement and you smile. when you go over to unlock his cuffs, you look at his face, dried with tears—and give him a little peck on his lips for reassurance. “you did well baby” you whisper. you don’t notice, but yeonjuns breathing becomes heavier again.

as you unlock his cuffs, you continue to talk. “i mean, it was a little hard at first, but once you let out your pretty moans, i knew you were going to do well and let me take care of you pup.”

once the cuffs were off of his wrist, set right next to him on the bed, you near his ears again, “you’re such a good boy”

and that was yeonjun’s last straw.

his self control snapped, as he pulls you to fall on top of him then flipping you right on your back, slipping his tongue roughly in your mouth, kissing you like a hungry, rabid dog. “im gonna” hes busy kissing you as he tries to continue, “f-fuck you so bad”

you’re only shocked as you return his kiss, already moaning as his raw dick rubs in between your flimsy shorts. he quickly manages to turn you over, your ass shot up, with the side of your face buried in a pillow.

he pulls down your shorts along with your soaked panties, in no time, your bottom half being completely unclothed as he doesnt prepare you for his big cock thrusting right inside your sweet cunt, his hips relentlessly snapping back and forth, as his hand is fist full of your hair, keeping your head down.

“gonna fuck you all night” he grunts as he pushes into you. “thinking you can get away with what you did dumb kitten?”

you cant respond as your mind fogs up, eyes rolled to the back, mouth hung open as pornographic moans mindlessly fill up the room along with nude skin making rough contact.

yeonjun pulls your head up with the amount of hair he has in his hand, and now youre in all fours as he reaches to push his tongue in your mouth when you turn your head back to him—that was preciously stained with his cum.

his movement staggers as he reaches his climax once again, shooting his cum inside you. when you feel the warm seed spreading in you, it elicits your orgasm — causing you to chant “i’m cumming jjunie” like an animal, breathless.

when you both get quiet, only heaving as you breath in and out to catch your breaths, his dick still deeply buried inside your tight cunt — you unfortunately find that your precious edging was a booster of his stamina.

you think hes going to finally pull out but it only happens for a split second until he sharply thrusts into you again, his seed being fucked into you further.

“call me a good boy”, he whines, his tone being different than his sharp thrusts and his strong hold of your waist, “call me a good boy” he demands this time.

“nng—jjunie—y-you’re” a moan slips out of you again when his cock hits a good spot, “such a good boy”

when his third load is released inside of you, it being even thicker and more filling than the previous ones, you knew yeonjun was planning to teach you a long, long lesson.

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[hyuk4sbf]

how txt would confess 😳

😳😳

i like to think yeonjun would be rather upfront and honest abt how he feels, telling u to ur face despite how bashful he gets while wearing his heart on his sleeve for u. he apologises w an embarrassed laugh at how his hands are all clammy when he cups ur face to finally kiss u, before mumbling just how happy he is to be the one of his dreams >< (he panics again after that and asks if u were dating now or if he had just jumped the gun and assumed he was ur boyfriend. u roll ur eyes and kiss him again to hush his worries)

soobin i could see being upfront and saying it face-to-face except that he is looking anywhere but ur face T_T he’s got his hands in his pockets like it means nothing to him (it means everything) that he’s just told u he’s been in love w u since forever. the tips of his ears r completely red and give away that his nonchalance is an act he’s putting on. ur hands clasp his, feeling the tremor in his fingers, and he finally looks at u to be met with the prettiest smile he’s ever seen, one that he’s been so infatuated with for months.

beomgyu would probably be less explicit w words and more implicit so u’ll catch the hint and ask him about his feelings first. his heart is in his throat when u ask if he loves u, and the first thing he can manage to say is a quiet, timid, ‘is that okay?’ he feels sick the quieter u stay, until eventually he ‘oomph’s at the impact of ur body flying into his to hug him.

‘more than okay.’

now taehyun … i always think of whatever he said to that moa once abt asking ur crush to wrestle w u or smth to make ur move ????? 😭 while i don’t think he’d actually do it i do think he’d be playful in stuff like that just so he has an excuse to be near or to touch u. it’s moments where he jokes like this when he’ll drop smth like that, and act like his stomach isn’t lurching w the idea of u rejecting him. (ur gonna have to clarify over and over again that it isnt a joke bc he was genuinely waiting to fall back on that excuse if it backfired on him)

hyuka i genuinely think would text it to u and probably shut off his phone out of pure anxiety 😭 he’s genuinely preparing himself for the worst case scenario poor baby </3 it’s not a long message but it’s not hard to tell that he really means it and it makes ur heart flutter all the same, giddy in the face of a love confession. by the time he can bring himself back to ur chat, he’s left staring w rosy cheeks as u ask if u can see him bc u really like like like him soooo much too :>

#txt fluff #txt x reader #txt imagines #yeonjun fluff #soobin fluff #taehyun fluff #beomgyu fluff #hueningkai fluff #yeonjun x reader #soobin x reader #beomgyu x reader #taehyun x reader #hueningkai x reader #💌

[ryuichirou]

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You know the drill!

Anonymous asked:

Malleus is soooo cute and he's being such a little shit about it 😭❤️

He knows he is the cutest, that’s for sure >:3

Anonymous asked:

Oh your LiliMal 💚💚💚 I love it so much!

I just really have this thing on my mind that young Malleus has a crush on our dear cool General Lilia. I mean who wouldn't? fufufu

Thank you so much, Anon!

I agree, Malleus and Lilia have a very complicated relationship, but one thing about it is certain: Lilia has always been the most special person in Malleus’ life <3 for better or worse lol So he was absolutely crushing hard on him back then.

Anonymous asked:

YOU

*points accusing finger at you*

I see the purple and green paint mixing in that pallet, sneaky bastard(/j)

*this is refering to the greenviolet art*

Ahh I’ve been found! Exposed!

It’s all Violet’s fault, he is the one mixing these! And he absolutely doesn’t need whatever colour he ends up with, I don’t think it works very well lol But it’s the process that counts…

artfulhero-m asked:

Also completely random but you know how Malleus has the ability to teleport yeah? Do you think he has the ability to choose to teleport out of his clothes or do you think the clothes have to stay on during teleportation? The thought of that man just forgetting to teleport with his clothes on and actually managing to catch a housewarden meeting, albeit naked, is a really funny thought to me. Then again, he doesn't strike me as the kind of guy to do that at all, but it's still a funny thought in my opinion lol.

(this is the second part of the ask from yesterday)

I’ve never thought about it, but you know, accidentally teleporting out of your own clothes does sound like a fun concept lol Maybe this is one of the first things you learn when you master teleportation: how to keep your clothing belongings intact, and then how to teleport other objects or people without directly touching them. Malleus really isn’t very likely to make that amateur mistake, he is very powerful and skilled.

But for the sake of the funny scenario… he would be so confused about what’s going on, and the rest of housewardens would be so shocked that they probably wouldn’t say anything. I’m betting Kalim will be the first one to make a sound lol

Poor Malleus, he would be very upset and embarrassed after that. Which is horrible for every single NRC student; we don’t want to have Malleus in a bad mood… the housewardens would silently swear to never speak about it again. But the memory would haunt them forever…

Anonymous asked:

I saw your RookLeo reply, and I was like 👀 But honestly I think maybe it happened exactly ONCE because Leona thought that giving in just once will stop Rook's... obsessive behaviors, but little did he know 🤣

Sounds like a typical thing Leona tells himself to cope; like yeah sure it was a plan that just didn’t work and somehow even backfired lol

But to be fair, there is no way this plan would’ve worked in the first place, so…

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[slytherinshua]

and and i know this is so overrated but just chilling in your home with bf namjoon :( cuddled up while you’re reading a book or cooking together… or a date n walking around th park or or museum date :((( i’m so soft for him literally stop 🥹

Stop omg it’s literally so domestic whenever you’re with Joon. Even when you’re out on a date it’s just so relaxing and healing just cause you’re with Namjoon.

He likes to go to museums or bike around the park or just walk hand in hand. And he’ll dress like SUCH a boyfriend with loose over-shirts or big sweatshirts and have a messenger bag hung around his shoulder where he keeps his notebook and other things.

He’ll stop at a random bench in the park and pull out the notebook to write lyrics that suddenly came to him. And you just watch in awe as he looks around the park at the scenic view and other people walking their dogs or playing with a frisbee, and he just starts writing and his dimple pops out, and you fall in love all over again.

And when he takes you to the museum he always has fun facts about EVERY painting or piece of artwork there. Even if it looks like some weird squiggly lines or smudges (smh you don’t appreciate modern art like he does) he’ll start explaining in SUCH detail what the process was for creating the piece, and how the artist put a piece of their soul in everything they create.

You try to gain even a fraction as much appreciation for the art as your boyfriend does, but you kinda tune out once he starts explaining to just stare at him. Cause he just looks so attractive when he’s talking about the things he loves that you just can’t look away!! And if his dimples appear when he’s talking cause he’s smiling so much, you sneak in a kiss on them because you can’t help yourself </3

Cooking would be… uhm… 🧍‍♀️yeah… it’s just you trying desperately to make sure Joon doesn’t burn the entire kitchen down. And he’s trying his BEST okay 😭 he really really is, but he’s just… so… bad at it. HE NEEDS HELP OKAY LIKE A LOT OF HELP.

But lucky for him, you are always happy to help :D you would place your hands over his as he’s trying to chop an onion and complaining about the tears. Really, you’re worried he’ll chop his finger off, so you try to guide the knife steadily. It kinda backfires, because he gets flustered and his cheeks just flush a bright red and he goes abnormally quiet.

“Babe, you okay?”

“O-oh, yeah…”

“We’re making soup, remember? Can you peel the carrots?”

He just looks at you cluelessly until you direct him to the cutting board with 2 carrots and a vegetable peeler.

Namjoon loves to cuddle you while working in his studio. He’s getting frustrated with this song he promised to do as a collab with another artist. Those are most stressful cause he feels so much pressure to do well on them, and no matter how much tweaking he does, the song just sounds so bland and boring.

Discarding his headphones, he finally decides to take a break. He swivels around in his chair to find you on the couch behind him, hands hugging your legs as you scroll through your phone mindlessly.

And the biggest smile just blooms on his face because he’s feels so lucky that you are his girlfriend and that he can just go hug you and kiss you whenever he wants. So he joins you on the couch, pulling you until you fall into his arms. And you two just stay like that, your head snuggled into his chest, breathing in his familiar scent.

He can’t help but litter kisses on your forehead and temple, muttering soft ‘I love you’s and ‘I’m so lucky to have you’. You always relax completely when you’re in his arms because it is truly the safest place you could ever be. Listening to his steady heartbeat and subconsciously matching your breathing with his, you feel completely at ease and utterly in love.

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[lolabangtan]

STAY | 14

You haven’t talked to any of your friends or Jungkook when Seokjin shows up at your flat. He wants to ask you something important, and Jungkook gets it all wrong.

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Word count: 6k

Warnings: Jesus Christ...

# angst, misunderstandings, mentions of cheating, mental health discussion, OC finally heals an old wound 😭😭, closure.

A/N: I know y’all wanna hang those three (especially Ari for some reason)

There’s a thick silence reigning over the natatorium.

You left just a couple of seconds ago. Jungkook tried to follow you, talk to you, terrified by the idea that you would no longer want him— but you asked him for some time. And, well, he has to respect that, doesn’t he?

His friends are a completely different thing, though; staring at each other, they look guilty and desperate.

“Listen, Kookie, we can—”

“Shut up!” he blurts out, and Jimin goes quiet, totally taken aback by his junior’s rudeness but not at all surprised. “So, this was actually a sick joke of yours, wasn’t it? Since the beginning.”

Ari lets out a breathless laugh. “Well, that’s not exactly it—”

“Then, what was it! Tell me! A game to see who could make fun of us first? You know how much that would hurt her, noona! And you still went on with it!” Jungkook’s heart is racing painfully in his chest, he’s on the verge of tears too. His head is dizzy, and he needs to drink some water and get changed. “God, it all makes fucking sense now! Of course!”

Because suddenly it does.

The oddly inconvenient behaviour, the reckless conversation in the kitchen, the way he was kicked out of their flat to move into yours. How everything somehow happened to make the two of you spend time together.

Jungkook buries his face in his hands and lets out a broken sob, palms wet with tears.

“Fuck, Jungkook, we— it wasn’t our intention to make fun of you,” Ari groans and tries to approach him, but Jimin stops her. “We wanted to confess, but things got… complicated.”

You’re going to leave him. Right now, probably, you’re sitting somewhere, wondering how you’ll dump him. You don’t want him anymore, it’d hurt too much. The coldness in his limbs only grows, and Jungkook lets out a cry, slowly squatting down. His heart aches as nothing has ever ached before.

“You really… don’t understand how fucked up it was? Are you even her friends? What would you do something like that?” he blurts out.

Utter shame reflects in their grimaces; of course they know.

Ari lets out a heavy sigh. “We didn’t… It didn’t start like that,” she murmurs then. “After you got kicked out and Y/N’s car broke down, I thought it would be a good way for you two to learn to respect each other. But then, uh, Jimin… Then Jimin…”

“You can tell him.”

“Jimin mentioned that it’d probably backfire since you had a crush on her,” she goes on, and Jungkook’s cheeks turn a furious red. “It was all done and settled, though, so I couldn’t back out.”

Jungkook parts his lips to protest – to say that he did not have a crush on you back when you were mean and cold. However, as the seconds go by, he realises that it was probably true; that his tiny, small, minute infatuation didn’t die that night he caught you talking shit about him. It feels as humiliating as it looks, but he hasn’t had the guts to deny it since that time he dreamed about you.

At his silence, they stare at each other for a while. So, Taehyung gets up, ignoring the way his friend flinches.

“After living together for a week or so, we realised you were a good match. I mean, you could tell you were meant to get along. You two just got off on the wrong foot because you met at the wrong time.”

“So, that’s when the bet came up,” Jungkook blurts out with a hurt scoff.

“Uh, sort of… Someone mentioned betting on it, but it never really went far.” This time is Jimin the one to explain himself. “But we did joke that, if you found out, you’d get together to get the money. Honestly, I’d have done the same,” he says with a weak laugh which soon dies off awkwardly. “That’s when T— that’s when everything started. We just wanted to see if you’d do it, that’s it.”

“Still sounds like something only an asshole would try out.”

Just like Jungkook finds it totally unlikely to understand his friends, they can’t really get that it’s a pretty hard pill to swallow. So, they all stand up to leave after a few seconds of awkward silence, guilty, sad looks on their faces – but he’s stern and doesn’t look back at them.

“Hey, what’s going on?”

Namjoon’s voice startles all of them. He, Hoseok, and a bunch of freshmen just walked into the natatorium after watching you leave with a wretched face and your cheeks wet with tears. Maybe you and Jungkook bantered again? It could be anything. But walking in now and seeing the four of them defencesly facing each other gives Namjoon a heart feeling that it could be something completely worse.

“Nothing!” Jimin chirps, even though there’s a clear pinch of concern in his voice. “We were just—”

Hoseok nods and sits with them. “Oh, by the way, Ari, did you know Jin-hyung is in town? He dropped by earlier and wanted us to tell you he said hi. But I’m sure we’ll see more of him.”

“What?” Ari’s face goes pale. “Jin-oppa is here—? Why?”

“Uh” – everyone turns to Namjoon when he speaks up – “isn’t Y/N’s birthday next month? Maybe he’s coming here with Yoongi-hyung for that.”

Is it? Jungkook didn’t know it was your birthday until now. What an awful boyfriend.

Hoseok chuckles. “I really don’t think that’s the reason.”

“Whatever, we should get her something.”

The topic quickly switches to your upcoming birthday as the four of them sit awkwardly silent. Namjoon carries on the conversation without a clue, and even though Hobi does feel there’s something off, he’s decided not to say anything and stick to coming up with ideas.

“Noona wanted to see her brother this summer,” Jungkook murmurs, “maybe she could visit him for the weekend?”

Ari shakes her head. “She doesn’t have the money.”

“We could pay for it—”

“As if she’d ever let us do that,” she groans anyways. “Do you think I haven’t tried it before? And now she won’t even speak to me. But Y/N is so prideful when it comes to owing things, or money, for that matter.”

“Why won’t she talk—”

“Is Y/N-noona close to her brother?” Jungkook insists.

Namjoon looks up at his question and totally forgets about it. “Oh, true, Yoongi-hyung graduated before you started here! He’s barely a couple of years older than her, so they grew up like an antinatural mix of friends and siblings. Also, he is a very close friend of her ex-boyfriend; they were roommates for their first two years.”

“And he didn’t mind that his best friend was screwing his sister?”

“Well, I guess anyone would get a bit upset if you put it so crudely,” Namjoon says, rolling his eyes at the freshman eavesdropping, “but he trusts Y/N, and Seokjin is a good guy. They were, like, the most perfect couple you could ever imagine; so good-looking, so smart, so successful, parading around campus and turning heads their way. Pity it ended up like that… I do remember Yoongi got mad at him for that, but they made up.”

“Perhaps we shouldn’t be talking like that in front of her current boyfriend, should we?” Ari says nervously as she quickly glances at him.

“But that’s in the past!” Hobi meddles in. “I’m sure she likes you madly now, Kookie.”

But Jungkook just chuckles, lowly, like he doesn’t believe it. He really does not. “Yeah… I know she does.”

He doesn’t believe it because everyone here knows it’s not true; besides, perhaps, Namjoon or Hoseok, or his teammates, who don’t know anything about the bet, the four of them are perfectly aware that he’s not and has never truly been your boyfriend. Jungkook is nothing to you, really, for now – but he wants to find out if he could be.

One might think you did say the two of you were official, but if you really were, you wouldn’t have run off like that. instead, you’d have stayed and talked things out, if not with them, at least with him. That’s what an actual couple would’ve done.

But turns out you two are nothing, after all. You’ve made it clear.

“Uh, by the way,” Taehyung suddenly says, and they all turn their heads, “did any of you tell Y/N that Seokjin-hyung is in town?”

“Hm, not really.”

Jungkook’s heart shrinks painfully in his chest.

So, you weren’t ‘unimpressed’ by his return, you just didn’t know. He can’t think about what you’ll reaction will be like, maybe he doesn’t know you that much – maybe he doesn’t know you that well.

He doesn’t know you at all.

“I better go home now,” he mumbles as he gets up, dragging everyone’s eyes along. “I’ve got a class early tomorrow.”

“Yeah, we all should do the same.”

Namjoon shepherds everyone out of the natatorium after they collect their bags and clothes, and follows Jungkook down the stairs. He’s too fast, though, so the others can’t catch up, and he decides to leave him alone with whatever is bugging him at the moment. He knows he’ll come back when he’s ready to squeeze it out.

I need some time alone.

What does that even mean? He can’t stop thinking about those words, about how your voice trembled as you spoke, the way your glassy eyes shone with unborn tears.

What do you need, then? A few minutes, a day, just the evening off him? He misses you, he’s missing you from the future with the growing fear you’ll never come back to him. Maybe you’ll come back to him, maybe that’s why he’s here; he heard you were getting your life back and decided he wanted to ruin it again. Maybe he just disliked Jungkook from the very second he saw him and decided he would never let you go again.

Shit, he’s losing his mind, isn’t he? This kind of stuff is scary as hell, but Jungkook can’t really help it.

He spots a bench far into the quad; it’s dark already, well into nighttime, so he’s lucky he could find some eery place to sit down and think. He needs to do a lot of thinking right now, or else Jungkook’s about to have a breakdown.

Where did everything go wrong? Why couldn’t you stay and talk things out with your friends like he did? Do you really not care that much?

Jungkook can’t help but wonder where you are right now. After all, despite how closer you’ve got, you’re still a mystery to him. He can’t fathom what’s going on in your head, in your heart, in your brain. He can’t figure you out, and if you could do him, you would be here with him, not missing, or roaming somewhere. Maybe you two have been just too blinded by lust and infatuation to notice.

And despite knowing it should make him feel better, why does it hurt so much to think so?

He wishes he was more confident. Jungkook wishes he knew about everything and everyone, wishes he could know exactly how you feel, if you love him, or if you at least could, eventually, come to love him. If only there wasn’t a hint of doubt in his heart, he’d go and look for you, give you one of those movie-like kisses where you’d slowly kick your leg back as you snap out and kiss him back. And there’s you’d all be good, and you’d no longer be scared, and this frightening feeling would vanish from his chest.

But of course, Jungkook doesn’t know shit.

Mustering some courage, he resolves to take out his phone and look for your contact. It rings for a couple of seconds before it suddenly stops, showing on the screen that you hung up.

Soon, a message pops up:

Need some alone time, bunny, but I’ll call you back later <3

He nods slowly as if you can actually see him but doesn’t reply to your text. Instead, he turns off the screen, lips slowly beginning to tremble, and soon a sob escapes from his throat while the first tear rolls down his cheek.

Your message is clear, you just need to be by yourself, you’ll call him later. Yet, why does it feel so bad? Why does it make him feel so fucking alone?

The cold wind cuts through the rooftop, giving you shivers. But, in a way, it’s refreshing, and it clears your head as it cools the embarrassed flush on your cheeks. Your heart aches so painfully you can’t even keep crying, eyes too tired to keep weeping.

You can’t believe what you just heard.

See, you’re not even mad about the bet itself. You found out about it long ago. You don’t even mind that Jungkook and you got together because of it since you’ve been nothing but happy.

What it’s eating your insides is the fact that they fucking played you.

Like a fiddle, like you were a little idiot in the palm of their hands, a puppet following their breadcrumbs trail into his arms.

You let out a ragged sigh and bury your face in your hands.

What to do, what to think, what to feel – you’ve got absolutely no idea. There are so, so many different emotions and sensations mixed up inside of you, like a Molotov cocktail, ready to implode at any point. You hate them, hate them for hurting you, but at the same time, you can’t help feeling grateful because you’ve got Jungkook now.

Your eyes shift to your phone, clutched in your fingers; you know you told him you needed some moments by yourself, but do you, really? Because you can’t stop missing him. He’s so comforting, could soothe the pain of a bullet.

Oh, you suck. So selfish and cruel. What if he’s wandering miserably and waiting for your call?

The fact that Jungkook called you really made you feel immensely better. Even if you didn’t pick up, it let you know that he cared, that he was worried about you. His sweet, warm concern made you feel cared for without having to beg for it. So selfish and cruel, indeed.

You want to know what he’s thinking right now. Is he confused as well? With this news on the bet, you can’t tell whether Jungkook is indifferent or not towards it.

Your skin feels frozen by the time you realise that the night has cooled everything around you. With a slight shudder and a tremble in your knees, you stand up, shaking off the dirt on your skirt. You had put it on with several intentions today, and none of them was to sob like an idiot on the rooftop of your building.

“Jesus Christ…”

Knees cold and numb, you manage to take your tired body back to your flat.

The lights flicker before they illuminate the living room, giving the place a feeling of solitude. You just want to get changed and tuck yourself into bed, hoping Jungkook will be back soon. Should you call him? Why isn’t he home already, though? Maybe he’s busy.

You quietly open the door and walk into your shared bedroom. It’s not really tidy, you guys didn’t have the time to make the bed or clean up this morning, heh. Too busy doing stuff.

The room smells like him.

Yeah, you should definitely call him back.

Just as you’re taking out your phone and calling him, resolved to at least hear his voice, the door rings. You frown; Jungkook should have his keys with him, and your ‘friends’ wouldn’t have the audacity to show up at your door just yet. So, who the hell is violating your doorbell right now? Fucking shit, I heard you, I heard it already! STOP!

You hang up the call, rush to the door to open up without even stopping to check who’s behind it, and naturally, you freeze at the sight.

Seokjin stares back at you with a polite little smile.

What.

Slowly, and not even bothering to look away from his eyes, you close the door as his face mutates into awkward confusion and finally into shock when the door clicks back into the frame.

A few seconds later – in which you just stand there, equally shocked – the doorbell screeches throughout the flat. Your hand moves on its own to the knob, and you open up again with a hopeful frown, but Kim Seokjin is still standing there, waving his hand like the fucking idiot he is.

“Hey.”

You don’t really process his voice. “What— what are you doing here?”

“Uh, thought I’d pay you a surprise visit,” he murmurs, shifting his weight back and forth between both legs. “Can I come in? It’s kind of cold out here…”

“No!” you blurt out.

“Oh—”

“I mean, n-no, I mean— what are you doing here?” Seokjin seems to be having a hard time understanding you, so once the shock finally starts to shake its grip off your body, you continue, “Here as in… back in town.”

“Ah,” he lets out and sighs in relief. “There have been some changes in my life lately, so I’m moving back.”

You frown and take a peek above his shoulders. “Where’s your girlfriend?”

“Well, not here, obviously.” Seokjin sighs, knowing you’d eventually ask about that. “For your information, we broke up half a year ago. Not the reason why I’m back, but it did take some weight off my shoulders… Long distance relationships never work, you know— so, uh, can I come in?”

Finally realising you’ve been forcing him to stand in your doorframe like an idiot for a while now, you silently step aside and beckon him with your chin to walk into your flat.

Your mushy brain is still trying to process the fact that Kim Seokjin is here, in town, at your place, talking to you. It’s been so long since you last heard his voice or bothered to even think about him, you hate that your heart still aches at his sight.

“I thought you’d know already.”

You tilt up your head. “Uh, I should know what?”

“That I’m back. I went to watch the training this afternoon with Namjoon and the others.” You don’t quite understand why he’s grinning like that, so your frown deepens. “Well, the thing is, I’m back, and we have a lot to talk about.”

Stopping on your way to the empty bedroom, you turn around with an arched eyebrow.

“Uh?”

“I just feel like neither of us will be able to carry on for real unless we fix this—”

“There’s nothing to be fixed,” you groan. Is he for real? “What the fuck! I’ve been perfectly happy since you left, who do you even think you are?”

“So, you don’t think I fucked up?” Seokjin retorts quietly.

Your silence is all answer he needs, and you continue to walk into the room before you take a seat on the bed. There’s a puff seat in front of it, and you let him take it while you sit on the naked mattress; you haven’t really used this room since Jungkook moved into yours, and now there’s just some furniture, a carpet, and a few half-emptied boxes left inside.

“I mean, you did,” you mumble. “But that doesn’t mean I have to discuss anything with you.”

“Listen, I—” He goes quiet for a second, and you surprisingly respect the few seconds he needs to order his thoughts. “What I did was wrong, I know. I should’ve been straightforward with you as soon as I met Bora.”

You can’t talk about this, you can’t hear about this. Not right now.

“Then, why didn’t you?” you ask anyways.

“Uh… I guess I was confused. I never considered breaking up until much later, not after the hell I went through with Yoongi to date you. It made it all kinda, uh, pointless?” he murmurs. And it hurts, each of his words hurt so fucking much, especially because you know they’re true. “Just so you know – contrary to what some idiots said – I never slept with her while you and I were dating. We didn’t even make out until we,” Seokjin says then, pointing at you and him, “were over.”

You snort with a sneer. “Oh, thank you for being a fucking decent person, then, I guess!”

“Jesus Christ, that’s totally not what I’m trying to say,” Seokjin groans. “Just wanna establish some common ground here, okay? I want you to forgive me for hurting you, I did my best, even if my best sucked.”

“I can’t.”

“What—? why not? I’m truly sorry, I’m not lying!” he cries then.

“I know you’re not, but…” You hug your knees with a blank face as your eyes roam off his face, trying to focus on your own thoughts. “You see, if I forgive you now, I’d be giving up half of my current personality, and I can’t mentally afford that.”

After all, no matter how he hurt you in the past, you’ll never have trouble being honest with him. It’s like a mechanism, he gets you like no other— well, he gets you in a way only Jungkook does. Like an open book, as if they can pierce through feelings you haven’t even seen yourself yet. It’s embarrassing, in a way.

“I’m being serious, Y/N.”

“Me too!” you rush to defend yourself. “What I mean is, hating you has become kind of my comfort zone, you know?”

Seokjin rolls his eyes. “Jeez, you’re so fucking feisty, and for what?”

The two of you sink into a thick silence, staring at each other; you’re still musing over what he just said, and Seokjin is trying to come up with a way to make you come out of your self-defensive bubble.

“I… I don’t think you understand… what I went through after you left,” you whisper then. Your eyes can’t bear to look at him anymore, the sight overwhelming – so he only nods softly and waits for you to continue. “Suddenly I felt like I was everyone’s laughing stock. And our friends? How could I still hang with them when they had known all this time? You— you ruined everything! You ruined my happiness, my friendships, my fucking concept of life!”

Seokjin doesn’t flinch when you start crying, thick tears running down your cheeks. There’s a hand squeezing your heart with a painful burn, your throat constricted around nothing.

“And if you’d never left, I wouldn’t have realised my life sucked! So, why do I feel like I’ve got to be grateful for all that fucking pain?!”

His eyebrows furrow in pity and sorrow. In understanding. Because despite whatever you might think of him—

“Y/N, I loved you so much.”

But you shake your head. “Don’t go there, Jin—”

“I loved you dearly! And I still do! You know I do,” he insists, suddenly sitting up on his knees. The sudden movement makes you jump in surprise. “Please, I won’t leave until you say yes. Do all those years together not matter to you? Can’t you just try—?” A thud comes from the living room, and you hear the front door slam shut. “What was that?”

“Uh… Jungkook? It can only be him.”

“Oh, your boyfriend,” Seokjin chirps then. “You don’t think he’ll mind finding me here, do you?”

You stare at him in silence, but not in defiance: actually, you’re not sure how well he’d take finding Jin here. Especially after what happened earlier. You still have to talk to him and let him know how you’re feeling, and you want to know how he’s dealing with it too.

“Hm, but there’s something going on, right? I can tell—”

“No, you can’t—”

“Oh, but I do.” He relaxes his stance on the floor again and leans back. “You can tell me, I know a thing or two about men… How about we deal with this with a nice bottle of wine? I brought you one.”

You scoff. “You’re not gonna bribe me with some wine, but okay, I guess I could use a glass.”

Before you’ve even finished the sentence, Seokjin gets up and rushes to the living room, where he’s left the plastic bag. It takes him a while to come back, and when he does, he informs you that there’s no one else in the flat.

“He didn’t text me or anything,” you murmur, checking your phone.

“Maybe it wasn’t him after all? It could’ve been just the wind. Are you waiting for his call?”

“Actually,” you babble, grimacing, “he’s waiting for mine.”

Then Seokjin drops onto the floor, two glasses of wine in hand, the bottle in the other, and opens it with a delightful pop. You take the glass when he hands it to you, and wait until he’s served too to take a sip. Surprisingly, a groan of pleasure comes up your throat.

“So, this Jungkook… He’s cute, huh? I heard the public story, but I’m guessing there’s a lot way more behind it,” he says.

“Cheers,” you scoff.

You tell him a summed-up version of what happened; from your car breaking down to him moving into the flat, then finding out about the fake bet, and how you slowly went from wanting to kill each other to a disgustingly clingy couple of lovers. Then you take a deep breath and explain what just happened an hour ago at the natatorium – dodging obvious scenes that he has absolutely no need to know about.

“Shit, those three are always meddling, aren’t they?” Jin lets out a chuckle. “I can imagine how much that hurt. So, do you think they used you for their entertainment?”

“I feel like they did.”

“Or maybe they were trying to get you out a bit? Doesn’t mean you don’t have the right to be mad or upset, but it can make a difference.”

But you only let out a sardonic laugh and cross your arms, frowning. “Oh, now we’re all allowed to play with people’s feelings? Now there are no consequences for one’s actions? Okay, let’s go gaslight your depressed friend into dating a guy she hates!”

“Then don’t forgive them. You don’t have to,” he murmurs.

“But they’re my friends, and I love them!” you blurt out and let out a sob. “Why would they do this to me? Don’t they love me too?”

Seokjin scoots to the side and moves next to you, covering your shoulders with his arm in a warm embrace. “I’m sure they do. They made a mistake, you see? They thought you and Jungkook would work together, they came up with an honestly hurtful plan, and they made a mistake. Just like I did.”

“So,” you say then, burying your face in your hands, “everyone’s allowed to make mistakes except me, right? When I do, I’m a selfish, heartless bitch, but everyone else made a mistake.”

“You know that’s not true.”

You let out a weak chuckle. “Oh, but it is.”

“Jungkook knows too,” he says softly, “doesn’t he? He knows you’re human, that you make mistakes.”

“I… guess he does.”

“Talk to them first, let them explain why they did it. It won’t mean you’ll have any less right to be angry or hurt, but it will give you the chance to heal.” Slowly, you allow yourself to lean on his shoulder, and Seokjin smiles tenderly when you sniffle, like an older brother – like the older brother he had always been and should have remained. “Let them apologise and give it closure.”

“Even if there’s no friendship afterwards?” you murmur.

“Yeah.”

You purse your lips. “But… I don’t wanna lose them. I wanna— I wanna stay frozen like this until I make up my mind.”

“You know you can’t do that,” he chuckles.

“Yeah…”

Silence takes over you again as Seokjin rubs your back. You wish things had always been like this between the two of you, wish you had never gone out together. But people talked, and people swooned at the sight of you, and it got so embarrassing and draining that you knew you had to.

“So—!” His hand slaps your thigh, and you whine at the pain, quickly rubbing where he hit you and hitting him back. “Tell me about Jungkook. How did he react? What does he think of the bet? What did he say?”

Ashamed of the memories, you lower your head. “I… I don’t know. I stormed off before we could talk.”

And Seokjin just moos in contemplation – and disagreement.

“No need to chastise me, I know I messed up. I should’ve talked to him first, but… I was so shocked! And hurt! I— it got the worst of me, okay?”

“But were things all right between you two before you, uh, found out?” he asks.

“Things were going very well thanks to ignorance. Our relationship didn’t start off like that, with all that hating each other, and finding out about this... I don’t know, it made me realise we have a lot to talk about,” you murmur and finish the glass, but just a second later and Jin is refilling it with a peaceful smile.

“Like what?”

“Like, we’re not even properly dating,” you blurt out. “It was just a silly bet they made behind our backs at the beginning, and I was trying to make Taehyung win it so that we could split the money. I really needed my car back… Well, that’s what I thought it was— but it turned out to be a ploy of theirs to set us up… So, what are we, really? Are we just, uh, going with the flow until we get tired of each other? Because I don’t remember Jungkook ever asking me out.”

He wiggles his eyebrows. “And you don’t like him in the slightest?”

Your entire body gets a shiver, and you turn to him with such a grimace of disgust that even Jin grimaces back.

“Ah, no way, don’t start talking like Yoongi, not when you’ve had your dick inside of me. It’s incredibly unsettling,” you groan, cringing.

“I’m not talking like him!” Seokjin whines with a chuckle of disbelief. “I’m just trying to act like a friend, which is what we’re going to be since I’m moving back to town. I changed schools.”

“Oh, so that’s it. You just want to ‘be friends with me’ so that you don’t have to worry about your crazy ex-girlfriend annoying you and prying around as you frolic about town. I could’ve expected this from many people, Kim Seokjin, but not you—”

“Oh, stop making up stupid excuses, will you?” he blurts out with a whiny voice. You frown and cross your arms. “Can’t we just… close this chapter? Yes, we dated; we’re both hot, smart, and funny. It was the law of nature…” Your fingers twitch at his words even though you’re listening carefully. “But we also weren’t suited for each other at all; we’re too alike, and I know you know too that we should’ve broken up way before we did. So, tell me; this Jeon Jungkook, do you like him?”

A tender smile appears on your lips without resistance. “I… I do. I mean, we hated each other’s guts at the beginning, but he’s a sweet boy, and I have a lot in common with him. This thing we have, I’m just not sure where it’s headed… I really should talk to him first, shouldn’t I? But—”

“Then go for it.”

“— what?”

“You like him,” he continues, shrugging like it’s no big deal – and it probably isn’t, “and it pretty much looked like he likes you too when I met him today, so why not give it a try?”

You flash a pair of puppy eyes at him for a second before looking down. Your hands are playing with the edge of the mattress, pulling at the hanging, forgotten threads. It’s not like you’re afraid of opening up to him, but you’ve always been afraid of the truth; once something leaves your mouth, it will be forever true. You can’t pretend you never said something, can you? You can’t live in such a lie.

“The thing is…”

As you speak, Seokjin leans out to hear you better.

“When we were fake-dating, it felt like—” You let out a sigh, making him chuckle. “It felt like I was your girlfriend all over again; the pressure, the anxiety, the expectations. Even the uni staff was excited to see us together. It’s exactly what got me into this miserable situation in the past, how can I know it won’t happen again after this new love bliss washes away?”

“You can’t.” At his quick response, you frown. “Is that simple, you can’t know what will happen in the future; you can’t know whether it’ll go well or bad, or if it’ll make you go through a hard time again.”

“What a shitty piece of advice—”

“Do you really think I didn’t stop to think about that when I met Bora, whether it was reasonable to throw away a relationship of years for one that I didn’t know was going to work or not?”

“And it didn’t,” you resort with a knowing grimace.

“Yeah, in the end, it didn’t,” Seokjin murmurs in response. A sense of guilt grips your heart. “But she gave me two beautiful years together, and some big lessons.”

“Like what?”

He’s still not looking at you when he says, “The risk of loving is always worth taking.”

You will never know how much Seokjin loved that girl because he will never tell you, but you can imagine that it was enough to leave you. And the idea hurts and churns your stomach with envy – envy for him, for his bravery to love. You’re so, so scared of pain, of what pain can make of you, that it leaves you petrified every single time unless you numb your heart with an infatuation.

Because Jungkook is more than a crush, more than a passing fancy or a simple affection. It’s not the victory of the ego over a man who used to despise you.

You probably love him.

Out of a sudden, you get up from the mattress and renewed energy. Your throat hurts and your chest feels shrunk into your ribcage, tears threatening to spill down your cheeks. The smile on your lips wavers— but you’re confident.

“I’m going to call Jungkook to find out what’s up with him,” you tell him, immediately taking out your phone. “Do you want to stay for dinner?

“Are you sure? I don’t want to get in your way,” Seokjin lets out bashfully.

You only scoff. “Don’t be stupid; actually, I think he could use to meet you and talk to you.”

With that, you disappear into the kitchen to rummage through the cupboards. There isn’t much you can use to make dinner, so it’ll have to be something simple. So, you put water on to boil, and in the meantime, you look for Jungkook’s contact in your phone.

To no avail.

Of the three times you call him, he doesn't pick up any of them. You send him a couple of messages while you are preparing the noodles; they all arrive, by the fifth they stop going through, and by the sixth, they reach his phone again all at once, only for him to leave you on read.

Okay, this is weird. Why isn’t he answering?

[Monday, 7:16 PM] You: What’s wrong, bunny? You didn’t pick up. I told you I would call you back.

[Monday, 7:17 PM] You: Why are you leaving me on read?

[Monday, 7:17 PM] You: Well.

[Monday, 7:18 PM] You: I’ll be happy to talk whenever you feel like it.

With a deep sigh, you place your phone on the kitchen counter and stare at the black screen; maybe, if you pretend to ignore it, he will text you back. Seokjin approaches from behind and crosses his arms.

“What’s wrong?”

“Jungkook,” you reply with a tired voice. “He read my messages, but he won’t answer. I just don’t know why.”

Seokjin shrugs. “Maybe he’s busy right now?”

“Yeah, of course.” Smiling weakly, you nod. “It must be that.”

The two of you get on with dinner, immersed in silence. Only the noise of hot water burbling in the pot right before boiling cuts through the quiet kitchen, each engrossed in your own thoughts. You couldn’t stop thinking about Jungkook, whether something could have happened to him. What if he got hurt? What if he got lost and is alone and scared? What if he can read you but can’t type a reply?

“If you’re so worried about him, why don’t you call Ari?” Seokjin suddenly says, arms crossed as he glances at you.

“Huh?”

“You said they were all together when you left,” he continues. “If there’s anyone who knows what’s happened to him since then, it’s one of those three, don’t you think?”

You shake your head and keep slicing the onion. “I don’t want to talk to them right now.”

“Okay… Suit yourself then.”

His following silence only fuels your inner agitation, and his indifference only makes you fidget and roam around the kitchen with a decreasing grip on reality; you bump against every corner, trip over yourself, forget to turn on the heat, and almost throw the sliced vegetables in the rubbish instead of in the frying pan.

“Ugh! Okay!” you suddenly groan, dropping the spatula on the counter.

Seokjin snickers as you turn around to come back for your phone and keeps stirring the noodles. Your fumbling and rummaging are loud enough for him to know when you’re coming back to the kitchen.

“Keep an eye on the vegetables, I’m going to call Ari, all right?”

“At your service, madam!”

You roll your eyes. “Ugh, you’re insufferable…”

Once you dial the contact, the phone rings for a couple of seconds. Meanwhile, you wait and wait, but she doesn’t seem to pick up any time soon. And it’s a bit odd because it’s not very late in the evening, and Ari is literally glued to her phone. Sometimes you think that messages get through to her brain before they get to her phone.

After holding your breath for the added ten seconds it takes, she finally picks up.

“Hello…?”

A piercing pain grips your stomach, but you get over yourself.

“Ari? I was wondering— do you know where’s Jungkook?” you rushedly ask. “He’s been out all evening, and he won’t pick up the phone.”

“I was about to call you…” Why does she sound so weird, like she’s talking to a criminal? “Uh, Jungkook’s here, he’s sleeping over… Did you fight or something after…? He just showed up without a word, cried his lungs out, and kept sobbing your name until he cried himself to sleep. He’s up now, though… What the hell happened?”

“Well, that’s why I’m calling! I have absolutely no clue.”

Seokjin comes from behind you, wiping a glass dry with a cloth. “Y/N? Everything all right—? I can go and help.”

“Is that— is that Seokjin-oppa?” The sudden sound of Jungkook’s sobs only gets louder over the phone. “God, Y/N, you’re— you’re such a fucking idiot—! Ugh, I guess Jungkook is staying over for a few days…”

“What—?”

But she’s hung up already, the beeping sound piercing your brain.

What on earth does she mean? What have you done wrong now, for heaven’s sake? This riddle-talk is giving you a headache.

“Was that Ari-ssi?” he asks again.

“Yeah…” You slowly turn to him. “I don’t know what, but, uh, something happened. Looks like he won’t come home tonight— and I really don’t wanna think about it anymore,” you spit out, cutting him off before Seokjin even gets the chance to ask. “I’ll help you make the bed if you want to spend the night here.”

He nods slowly, and you walk away without a word to get a bunch of blankets.

Don’t hesitate to like, reblog, and leave some feedback if you liked it! It’s always good and encouraging to know what you think <3

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#jungkook smut #jungkook fanfiction #jungkook x reader #jungkook enemies to lovers #jungkook college au #bts enemies to lovers #jungkook noona

[jewbeloved]

Yandere kyle alphabet pls ✨

Warnings: Kidnapping, Manipulation, Physical and Emotional @bu$e, Mentions of blood/gore.

Gender: Neutral

Yandere Kyle Alphabet 💚💚😈😈😭💜

Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

He would be very clingy when it comes to giving you affection.

He would always follow you around especially if you're going to the bathroom.

If you yell at him or push him away, things might start to get violent.

So don't reject his affection 🤗

Blood: How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?

The last time he killed somebody was when you tried getting help by sending your bird friend to deliver a letter to the police.

Kyle found out and shot the bird before it could have a chance to fly away with the letter.

He also told you that he murdered the entire police station before he proceeded with his plan of kidnapping you.

Now you won't have any shitty popo to come and save you.

Cruelty: How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

The only time he mocks you is when he's having one of his rage moments.

Whenever he mocks you, it's about you being so stupid enough to think anybody would ever come and save you.

And to think, you will ever have another chance with somebody else because he has already spreaded rumors about you so nobody would want to take you expect for him.

You really think you have control over him?!

You're such a fool in his eyes whenever he's like this.

Darling: Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will?

He still wants you to be saint and have a personality so he wouldn't take too much rights away from you.

But he will absolutely not let you interact with people, go outside because you might try to escape, and he will put security controls on your phone so he can monitor whatever you do on it.

He has security cameras everywhere (including the bathroom-)

He will be a little perverted about looking at you in the bathroom, but will stop since he doesn't like making you too uncomfortable.

Exposed: How much of their heart do they bare to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?

Extremely..

Ever since Kyle first saw you, his heart started pounding so fast and he wants you so badly.

He already had planned everything ever since.

To kidnap you, spread rumors about you, eliminating the police so they can't save you, and make sure you are finally his💖

Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back?

He would get angry and he might slap you cross the face to get you to shut your goddamn mouth.

You're being extremely annoying to him with all your constant whining and complains.

And if you continue to fight him, the next day you will end up with a eye patch over your eye and multiple bandages all over your body.

Game: Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?

He enjoys it so much.

I loves how his s/o is always trying everything to escape but it always backfires on them.

Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

You were cuddling with Kyle in bed.

You waited for him to fall asleep so you could grab his keys and escape.

When he fell asleep you grabbed his keys and dashed out of the room heading for the door.

When you were almost there, you were met with a innocent smiling Kyle who had his hands behind his back staring at you.

You were in complete shock and confusion, but how?! You literally saw him asleep!!!

"Y/n, I'm not that stupid okay? I only pretended to sleep to see if you would actually take the chance to try and escape, looks like I was right then".

He aggressively grabbed you by the hair and started to slam your face into the wall until your nose broke and your blood on the wall.

You were unconscious and severely injured from the last blow of the wall, Kyle dragged you by your feet with your head on the floor taking you back to the room to patch you up.

Ever since this day, you were scared to even try anymore attempts to escape....

Ideals: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?

He wants you to love him forever and nobody else

He also wants to have his kids with you as well <3

Jealousy: Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?

Hehe...I don't think I need to explain this one....

You know the drill, he will definitely get jealous and it won't be pretty.....

Kisses: How do they act around or with their darling?

Despite him hurting you and making you feel worthless.

He still wants his darling to be loved.

He gives you kisses every morning, afternoon, and night.

He is clingy like I said before so he will be cuddling you as well <3

But you better enjoy his affection towards you or else....

Love letters: How would they go about courting or approaching their darling?

He tried to confess to you but he saw that you were with another person and you were giggling and smiling at them.

Then he knew that he had to put his plan into action before he loses you for good....

Mask: Are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?

It's the same usual Kyle everyone always knew

But when he's with you, he's a whole new person that's for sure.

Naughty: How would they punish their darling?

Believe me, his punishments can be pretty brutal depending on his mood.

He knows that he may have went a bit too far with hurting you that badly so that's why he patches you up.

He patches you up because he feels a little guilty.

After he bandages you up, he will give you a gentle kiss on the lips while you are still asleep.

Be glad, that Kyle still has empathy in him.

Oppression: How many rights would they take away from their darling?

Like I said, he wouldn't want take away a lot of rights.

He would only take away those that involves you socializing with people or using methods to try and escape.

Patience: How patient are they with their darling?

He is patient with people

But won't be as patient If he catches you trying to escape thought....

Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?

He knows that he already spreaded rumors about you.

If you try to get help from somebody they will give you a disgusting look and walk away.

Same thing with the police, they will kick you out of the station.

When everyone rejects you, you had no chance but to return back to Kyle.

When Kyle opens the door and sees you, he smiles and pulls you inside and starts pinning you to the couch while kissing you before you both start cuddling and watching a movie together. (No, he didn't do anything nasty to you he knows better then that, he doesn't like making you uncomfortable)

If you die, well that's mostly because Kyle accidentally killed you while punishing you.

He really messed up this time when he saw that you were moving and breathing.

Did he get down to his knees and start crying you assume?

Yes and no, he didn't get down to his knees but he did started crying because he accidentally killed the love of his life.

Blood pouring out of your body with your eyes hallow signing no life inside them.

He pulls your corpse into his arms as he cries.

He would cry until he sees no point in crying anymore because your gone and never coming back....

Regret: Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go?

Lmao, no

Stigma: What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?

Cartman literally always ruins Kyle's chance to experience love for once in his life instead of him always getting it from his parents.

Kyle wants to feel love and affection from other people! Not just only his parents.

And due to his mother's constant rage moments has also made him have this aggressive side to him.

Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

You. Are. Not. In. Control.

Don't even think you are!

You think your meddling crocodile tears is going to scare Kyle into being gaslighted by you?

How cute....~

Kyle finds you so cute when you cry like a whiny brat, it only makes him know that he is always 10 steps ahead of you.

Unique: Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?

No

Vice: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

Ike....

You can threaten to hurt Kyle's little brother Ike.

Kyle will not allow that to happen, he will not let anybody lay a single finger on him!

But Kyle will not submit to you trying to manipulate him into letting you go all because you try to hurt Ike.

If you actually do, Kyle will not feel bad about trying to kill you this time....

He never hurted your family so don't try to hurt his!

Wit’s end: Would they ever hurt their darling?

Yes, but only when you're bad.

Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over?

Lmao, he ain't worshipping you.

Not in a million years.

Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?

2 months.

Zenith: Would they ever break their darling?

Yes, but he still wants you to be loved and have a personality.

Kyle yandere alphabet completed✅✅✅🥺💚🤗

#kyle broflovski x reader #south park #south park x reader #southpark sp #southpark blog #sp x reader #x reader #kyle brovlofski #yandere alphabet #yandere #southpark x y/n #southpark scenarios #southpark headcanons #alphabet

[haejjoon]

ohhhh if akira endorses phantom thieves since day 1 i wonder how the okumura's murder affects his popularity! i guess it wouldn't tank with medjed like akechi's did but it would take a big blow after the whole "public thinks thieves kill people" huh..... but also the thieves (sans goro) would probably trust akira even more if he didn't backtrack on his words and continued to support them in public....... god your swap!au is so delicious!! i love all the little changes that snowball and paint a completely different picture <33

so factoid: he does slip up with the sushi comment, but ryuji and ann don't actually notice. goro and morgana are the only one who caught it.

ann and ryuji think that they just misremembered, especially because they don't remember him saying it at all (i always thought it was odd that ryuann picked up on princekechi's slip up considering how much the game loves to remind us that theyre not very observant)

goro is the only one out of all the phantom thieves that continues being suspicious of akira. even morgana eventually convinces himself that he just heard akira wrong. the phantom thieves wanted to include akira in from freakin madarame but since goro never allowed it (+ unanimous rule), he never joined until sae.

the phantom thieves all think that goro's being petty since he has a Thing going on with akira

Also, akira doesn't kill okumura!

he injures his shadow severely as he's returning to his real self, so he does induce a coma so that by the time okumura wakes up, his revenge (yes hes planning revenge) on shido will have been completed and there will be no repercussions for him to face after okumura confesses his crimes.

plus okumura becoming comatose would still backfire on the phantom thieves' popularity severely, especially since some mental shutdown victims do survive, but just become a vegetable (like ohya's journalist friend). the public would assume that okumura has also suffered a mental shutdown by the phantom thieves, though his mind is just repairing itself from the damage akira's done to his shadow

akira mostly lets him live because of his bond with haru—spoiler slight not spoiler he's familiar with losing family, no matter how distant, so he refuses to be the one to rob haru of her opportunity for an actual, happy family.

akira ends up joining the phantom thieves when they're at their very lowest, and when he's at his lowest; the phantom thieves sans goro agree to let him in immediately.

whew this is long 😭 sorry for infodump!!!

#swap au #goro akechi #p5r akechi #persona 5 royal #p5r joker

[roalinda]

i try to crack what is so irresistebly compelling about prongsfoot. Was it the tragedy of canon? Or (i'm sold on this one) was it the absolute synch they had in bad and good, this shared edge in high magic level, wicked fun, reckless lifestyle and firm choice in wizarding war sides? they are amazing, terrible AND always inseparable> this level of togetherness hits hard.

Hello anon ♡

I had some health issues, so I am very sorry for the late reply. 🙈

First and foremost, I would like to point out that prongsfoot is a pairing that makes sense. It is THE pairing ( non canon-wise ) , specially in the Marauders' era. I'm not here to spread hate on any other pairings or saying this because I am a prongsfoot fan, I am just looking at it logically, beyond the excuses of - If this happened in that AU … - or - If X fell for Y… - 

Now let us proceed with your wonderful ask. ♡

Prongsfoot is a complete package deal, there is no need to add dysfunctional wild imagination to it. By wild imagination I don't mean vast fan creator imagination, those are necessary for a good fan work. What I mean is that there is no need to change their base into something that doesn't exist. There is tragedy, there is angst, there is enabling and co-dependency, there is darkness and light, there are shenanigans. 

You have all of them in prongsfoot. You don't need to make them handsome or bright. You don't need to make them morally grey. You don't need to make them heroes and villains. James Potter and Sirius Black are canonically like that and it works so great like a magnet. 

They ruin and rebuild, wreck and reconstruct, all in one go.

Personally, I think one of the most attractive parts about prongsfoot is the way they enable and indulge each other shamelessly. We have not seen much of it but from what we saw, they don't care about other people's opinions and reactions as long as they can satisfy the other. Yes, James likes attention and Sirius has him on leash, but the depth of their entertainment is private. What we saw was the negative part of this deep enabling but I think what most people fail to realize ( or do not want to acknowledge ) is that this can have a positive side as well, which again, is only directed towards each other, no one else. The possessive protectiveness they share is one of these traits. That is why Sirius was in pieces when he lost James, because that protection backfired. 

The tragedy of canon is something that hits so deep and is so devastating that it gets worse and worse with every book re-read. With every re-read the lines get a new meaning and when I am comparing my understanding of them to years ago when I first read HP, I can't help but to realize how age and several re-readings can change one's view on how a character works. It's canon that Sirius and James were glued together. I just can't imagine James' pain when he was faced with Voldemort, knowing that he is going to die without seeing his soul mate one last time, knowing what it will do to Sirius and still be brave enough to stand in Voldemort's way to buy Lily time, a time that he knows is probably useless. 

Just thinking about that and James' desperate try to protect his family at that single moment breaks my heart. Like, all these thoughts coming to him in less than a second and then…sudden silence and death. 😭

James Potter was a brave man who died an honorable death and I am not accepting otherwise. Also anon, I am crying right now ( not kidding) because I am an absolute crybaby for James and Sirius and their tragedy.

The way they are in sync and harmonic is just on a whole another level. They are that kinda couple that can finish each other's sentences or can't pull pranks on each other even if they want to because they always know what the other is thinking. They are trusting and private. The world sees them as a pair of mischievous brothers but in reality they live in a private crystal globe. Others can watch from outside, but they don't know what is happening inside, what their secrets are, or exactly what their bond is.

That is what makes prongsfoot so beguiling. Their love is in plain sight yet is hidden under the surface because they are so entangled that no one knows when they are romancing each other and when they are not and Remus and Peter have suffer through all these platonic/romantic gestures. 

Thank you for the ask. ♡

#Prongsfoot asks #Prongsfoot #James potter #sirius black

[skania]

Replies to OnK Asks #3

Idk how this happened but I can already do a third round of replies, so here we go!

That's exactly how I read it, too. To me that panel confirms that Aqua has thought of being intimate with Akane, which contradicts his earlier statement about not seeing her as a woman. Which means the way he views Akane did change, some people just don't like acknowledging that.

Can a relationship be endgame just because it's healthy and can a relationship not be endgame just because it's toxic?

I mean, since this is fiction, then that can absolutely be a valid criteria in choosing your endgame ship.

That said, this is just my personal opinion, but I'm honestly not sure I'd consider Aqua and Kana particularly healthy. His feelings for her have been described as an "obsession" and Kana was so emotionally dependant on him at one point that she couldn't shine on her own. Aqua doesn't let her see the real him, the one that is so traumatized and guilt-ridden that he can barely function. Kana doesn't know about the darker sides of his personality which, combined with how easy to read she is, makes her extremely easy to manipulate; case in point, Aqua knows exactly what to say to get certain reactions out of Kana. So Kana is basically at his mercy, if he chooses to manipulate her she's essentially defenseless.

These issues seem bigger to me than anything that Aqua and Akane have going on, because at least Aqua and Akane are pretty much equals mentally. It also helps that they have developed enough emotional intimacy that Aqua feels comfortable showing himself as he is to Akane, and that Akane has an accurate reading of him overall.

So it's just like you say, there aren't any perfect relationships anon! It's up to Aka to decide which relationship works best for his story.

I agree, I think Aka kind of messed up by rushing the Aqua/Kana reunion. And by that I mean that we spent chapters upon chapters showing how dependant Kana is on Aqua and how miserable she is without him. This eventually led to Kana realizing how unhealthy this is and deciding that she isn't that kind of girl. Which is great! More than great actually, that's the Kana I know and love.

Except instead of letting Kana walk the walk, he basically has Aqua enter her life again almost immediately after. Which, again—I get it. Kana realized the issue and thus got the development she needed, so Aka considered it done. But it'd have been much more satisfying to see Kana actually shining without Aqua being in her life just yet lol

Here is to hoping Aka delivers when it comes to Aqua and Akane! Honestly, their big moments are so iconic that I do think Aka will rise to the occasion.

Yeah, even if Aka goes like: Kana is everything Sarina was and everything Aqua thought Ai to be, but since she is her own person it's like Aqua is getting the best of both worlds! I would just be like

Preach it anon! Being Aqua is suffering :(

My take is that Aqua messed up because now Ruby is more attached to him than ever. There is no way he can doom himself without breaking Ruby in the process, and the last thing he wants is to hurt her :(

Your English isn't weird at all, no worries anon! And I agree, I find it really soft too 😭 He is such a nurturing person by nature

I'm with you, Akane's goal is to save Aqua. Since her goal is intrinsically tied to him and to his outcome, trying to write her out on that premise backfires lol

I think Aka is at his best when he is subtly developing something rather than being in-your-face about it, so I can only hope that he subverts the expectations of everyone who is expecting the predictable end lol

That they're falling victim to confirmation bias.

If Akane were "the second option", she wouldn't have been in his thoughts at all lmao

I feel them completely because that's exactly how I felt during my first ONK read. I just think that Aqua and Akane have more potential that people give them credit for, so I'm choosing to have some faith in Aka 😂

So they want Akane to steal Kana's thunder?

Kana is like a mirror, she reflects back whoever you project onto her 😂 Just kidding, but I am glad that more and more people are talking about all the parallels to Sarina and Ai.

Yes, me too!

That's one of the reasons I love her, she is such a dynamic character that she fits the story in its entirety instead of just fragments of it 😭

I went through something similar! OnK came out while I was reading Kaguya, but since I already wasn't very impressed with Aka's writing and the topic didn't interest me, I didn't bother picking it up. I forgot about it until the anime came out, and since I heard so many good things I decided to give it a shot. I already knew Ai would die, but making it through the first episode was a struggle. There were a few things I found interesting here and there, but not enough to keep watching. Then I heard about Akane and got curious, so I decided to pick up the manga and she blew me away. I've been here ever since lmao

#onk asks convos #if you don't see your message here scroll down a bit! #it should be on the first page of my blog #I'm up to date so I'll take a short break tomorrow to try and write my thoughts about chapter 98 #if you send me an anonymous message don't worry I'll get to it! it may just take me a bit longer than usual while I work on that post hahah

[imhereforscm]

Y'AAAAAAALL😭😭🤧🤧🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕💗💗

THE SKY IS SO FREAKING CLEAR, IT'S ACTUALLY INSANE!!!💕💕💕💗💗💗💓🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕💓💓💓💓💓💓

I CAN SEE MY DEAREST MOON SO CLEARLY, I WANNA SOB FROM HAPPINESS!!! 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕😭😭🤧🤧

Today, my mental health did a 📈📈 or as I like to call it: my brain was going through its "shakespeare phase"

So I slept away the feelings and when I woke up, I saw the moon notification on my phone AND WHEN I WENT OUTSIDE, IT WAS FULL AND THERE'S NOT A SINGLE CLOUD.

It's like the gods sympathised with me and went: *place the full moon on the palm of my hand* "Here. Get yourself something nice. Like serotonin."

THANK YOU, GODS!!💕💕💕🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

ONE DAY I WILL GET A TELESCOPE FOR STARGAZING, JUST TO BE ABLE TO SEE IT CLEARLY. I WILL SIT OUT THERE. ALL NIGHT. GAZING AT MY DEAREST MOON.

It's like... I love it so much, it's so comforting, like it keeps me company at all times and I know that, even if I loose everyone and everything, it'll be there. Every. Single. Night. I can look at it all I want and it won't harm my eyes. Loving it unconditionally won't stab me in the heart. It won't backfire. It's the most pure, unselfish, ethereal and eternal form of love.🌕💕💗🌕🌕💕💗💗 And I love it, no matter if it's full, or almost there, or half, or less than half. And it will always be here no matter what I look like (inside and out). It'll be there every night no matter what.

My day has been fixed. My mind is finally at complete peace. I'm back.💓🌕

I love you all, I hope your night is beautiful.💓💓💓💓🌕🌕🌕🌕💕💕💕💕

[canvas-madness-txc]

Thoughts on Oliver Twist

The fact that Charles Dickens starts off his book basically like: "Our story starts off in a town but not one that exists in real life, but I am also not making one up" is somehow both brilliant and kinda annoying at the same time

Oliver's good spirit that had plenty of room to grow because of the fact the establishment refused to feed the orphans. That is depressing.

Mr. Bumble is efficient with his naming process. He has all the remaining letters and all the way through again once he gets to Z

Oliver makes me want to cry when he cries, he's just a little kid

The fact that they just took people away from their families instead of encouraging them to support their family is insane

Mr. Gamfield has "the slight imputation of having brushed three or four boys to death already"... thank goodness they didn't send Oliver with him

I did tell my friends that the "please sir, I want some more" came from this

I get that they're orphans, so they are outcasts but are threatening death over food necessary???

Everyone is so mean to Oliver for no reason :(

There is something particularly gross and horrifying when the undertaker, Mr. Sowerberry proposes to make Oliver a "mute" (someone who goes to funerals and cries) specifically for other children's funerals.

Dickens calling himself Oliver's biographer and using the first person as if he's actually telling the story to us is always something that makes me happy in his books. I like it when he speaks personally of his characters like he knows them

"He'll murder me!" You insulted his dead mother. Can't blame Oliver on this one

He's not a murderer. He shook Noah a few times, but he's still alive and well, just sobbing with a black eye. It would definitely hurt, but he'll live

The fact that they blame Oliver's actions on meat and being overfed is so weird 😐. Oliver deserved to run away

Dick is so sweet despite being prepared to die from sickness

"The blessing was from a young childs lips, but it was the first that Oliver had ever heard invoked upon his head; and through the struggles and sufferings, and troubles and changes, of his after life, he never once forgot it" my heart

Fagin, Bates, and Dodger kinda treat Oliver better even when the pickpocket things throw it off. They probably should've warned him before he was caught as a "thief" or, not betrayed him

At least Fagin is upset over it, even when it backfires in Mr.Sike's face. They do bother planning to look for him by asking Nancy to. It's kinda selfish that they do it so he won't tell, but they are worried for their own survival as well

Mr. Brownlow and Mrs. Bedwin seems to be the only people who care for Oliver genuinely 100% of the time

Fagin is called "The Jew" more often than he is his actual name

Nancy talking about how she thieves for them for 12 years :(

Oliver keeps getting betrayed and left behind. He got shot, and they just left him!! Fortunately, someone always cones to find him, whether or not it's with good intentions kinda reignites the problems

Mr. Bumble gets married and is completely degraded by his wife's sharp wit in only 8 weeks.

Rose is an angel, no questions asked

SIKES JUST KILLED NANCY NOOOO

NOOO DICK DIED TOO 😭

Fagin is also dead for his compliance in the murder

Sikes dies in the most catastrophic way possible, fitting.

At least everyone else got the fates they deserved, good and bad :)

#classic literature #books #oliver twist #book spoilers

[cantarella]

i'm so sorry, chi. but i need to do it: WHAT are the thoughts on the newest gwitch ep? because it's going to have me eating glass for breakfast for the next two weeks until we get the next ep. this will surely nooooot backfire in a horrible way, absolutely not (<- trying not to think of the consequences)

[trying to sound normal] my condolences to suletta for not surviving her teenage homoerotic situationship. I figured something like this would happen, I just knew that prospera planting the seeds of doubt in miorine's mind that she is also using suletta would end up like this auhfjghfhchdcj. the most tragic thing is that miorine clearly did it for suletta's own good, and with how deep the manipulation runs I fail to think of another way she could have tried to give her a wake up call, but miorine can't understand how traumatizing this is for someone like suletta who was neglected and treated as nothing her entire life, not that miorine had it easy either but y'know it's two different situations. anyway suletta has the chace to really grow from this, if her other friends make her realize she's still valued as a person she might begin to have a breakthrough. or she's gonna spiral completely align herself with shaddiq and pilot the ifrith since there's no pilot for that one rn, both are interesting ways to progress but I'd rather have the first one bc enough agony. I bring up shaddiq bc he has an agenda against prospera and miorine and if suletta wants to fight back she'll need allies, but honestly other than these two paths idk what the hell's gonna happen next I can't even begin to theorize on it. anyway with all that being said what the fuck guys come on she was so excited for her wedding😭

#I'm still a miorine apologist though my girl did nothing wrong‼️‼️ #chi.txt #gwitch spoilers #mona tag #ask

[phantom-of-the-501st]

Episodes 7 + 8 Thoughts

Spoilers for TBB Season 2

79's!!! 🍹

Haha, emotional damage *cries*

You know the drill, bullet point thoughts down below!

(Also, I'm writing this a few hours after I saw the episodes so I may be missing some stuff/this may be in a ridiculous order).

Love how the last time we saw that was during the Fives inhibitor chip arc. Love that! (Also, I miss Fives ☹️).

None of the Batch this ep but I still really enjoyed it!

Riyo and Bail!!! We love them both. 🥰

The shear amount of bullshit that came out of Rampart's mouth.😤

Tipoca City destroyed by a storm? What sort of excuse is that?!

Ah yes, this building (designed to withstand harsh weather) built on a storm-weathered planet was completely destroyed by a freaky weather phenomenon that just so happened to coincide with us wanting to get rid of the clones. 🤨

Coincidence? I THINK NOT!

Man, I love the clones so much. 😭

More clones with beards is something I appreciate. 🥰

SO MANY PEOPLE GOT SHOT IN EPISODE 7 WTF

Poor Slip. ☹️

The number of times I said "IS IT REX?!" to myself in the first episode. 🤣

Eventually I was correct!!!

PONCHO REX

I miss his armour so much, but the rebel outfit... damn.

Are Riyo's bodyguards voiced by Noshir Dalal or am I just hearing his voice in random places because Rampart is haunting me?

ALSO HOW ARE WE PRONOUCING RIYO?!

Did I just get that wrong this entire time or...?

The person shooting clones was another clone. The pain is real in these episodes. 😭

But dark purple is totally Rex's colour. 😏

GONKY! 🥳

Wholesome Echo and Omega moments making me cry again. 😭

Interesting that Omega has taken up meditation. 🤔 It might be playing into the idea of her being Force sensitive but she doesn't seem to connect to it on the same level as Gungi.

Echo doesn't like solitude because of Skako Minor. 😭😭😭

As soon as he brought up what the Batch did for him, I was like "oh, that's interesting considering Echo might be thinking of leaving. I wonder if they're going to play into that this episode. 🤔"

... I was not emotionally prepared.

Rex and Echo actually have more than 5 lines of dialogue with each other this season! 🥰

Echo pushing Omega back so she can't see the body. He's such a good mum. 😭

Wrecker's fear of heights OMG 😭🤣

"This is him doing better." I'm crying. 🤣

Rex saying that they need more people for the Rebellion and Echo considering it. 🥲

Also Echo volunteering to be Riyo Chuchi's witness?! He just wants to help people. I love him so much. 😭

PONCHO OMEGA.

I thought they were going to steal a wholeass Venator for a second.

Love Echo being so intouch with the Batch's plans now and Rex is just like WHAT IS HAPPENING

Tech being annoyed with himself for being 6m out.

Palps is back!!!

Hahahaha Rampart getting arrested makes me very happy. 🤣

BUT THAT PLAN BACKFIRED BADLY

R.I.P all the clones. 😭

...I cry just thinking about the end of this episode

I find it interesting how they have the Batch clustered very close together on one side of the shot and Rex and Riyo close on the other side. But Echo is kind of floating in the middle. Am I looking too much into the framing of this shot? Maybe. But I think it's interesting. 🤔

I thought Echo and Hunter might have talked about this on the nugget mission but Wrecker and Tech knew as well??? 😭

AND THEY'RE ALL SO SUPPORTIVE OF HIM 😭

THEY KNOW THAT HE NEEDS THIS 😭

I KNOW THAT HE NEEDS THIS 😭

I DON'T NEED THIS PAIN THOUGH 😭

Him crouching down and putting a hand on Omega's shoulder.

Him telling her to keep training (I'm convinced Echo taught her most of her combat).

He's so soft around her I can't do this 😭

OMEGA HUGGING HIM 😭😭😭

He looked so surprised but then he hugged her back and I'm literally dying inside

They way he steps forward a bit when be watches them leave

HIS FACE 😭

I remember seeing the trailer and thinking "I don't like the fact that he looks sad there"...

The last shot of Omega hugging Lula 🥲

I WAS NOT EMOTIONALLY PREPARED

So erm, yeah...

If you couldn't tell this episode completely destroyed me. I am lacking all coherent thoughts. No, I will not be okay.

How do I go on from this??? DO WE GET LESS ECHO???

I'm kinda hoping for an Echo and Rex centric episode, but I don't know if that's going to happen. Maybe, but I think we may just not see them until a Batch reunion later on or something.

I feel like I should have more to say but I am struggling to process emotions right now. Might watch episodes 6-8 again later but I need to work out if I am willing to cope with that. 🥲

#i am ruined #these episodes broke me #the bad batch season 2 spoilers #the bad batch spoilers #tbb spoilers #the bad batch season 2 #the bad batch #star wars #echo #omega #tech #wrecker #hunter

[randomjreader]

YOUNG ROYALS SEASON 2 SPOILERS AHEAD, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

Here we go, part 2 of my mess of thoughts while watching young royals

Hot take: Simon and Marcus aren't that bad tgt, but Simon's heart isn't entirely into it so it's never going to work out. I just hope Simon is direct with him now before shit goes down with Wille again

SIMON THROWING THE DODGEBALL AT WILLE 😭 that was personal 💀

Ahhh I get why Simon is mad, but Wille does have more to consider when it comes to big decisions 😭 I feel so bad for him

YES YES YES FELICE AND WILLE MAKING UP, WILLE APOLOGISING FOR KISSING HER LIKE THAT, FELICE BEING SO UNDERSTANDING AHHHHH I LOVE THEM

No honestly? Any doubt I had abt Felice back in season one? Squashed, killed, crushed underneath the sole of my foot. Absolute top tier character I love her to bits

"it hurts so much. I feel like I'm gonna die" STOP PLS MY POOR WILLE JUST SHATTERING MY HEART WITH A SLEDGEHAMMER

THE LOVE LETTER TO FREDRIKA, IT HAS TO BE FROM STELLA RIGHT? SHES LOOKING AT HER LIKE THAT THERE'S NO WAY IT'S NOT FROM STELLA

WILLE IN TEARS WHILE PUTTING ON HIS MAKEUP PLS 😭😭 SOMEONE PROTECT HIM PLS STOP HURTING HIM

MORE FREDRIKA AND STELLA MOMENTS IM CALLING IT RN THEY'RE A THING

Ok, not them making me feel bad for August??? He set up a whole romantic thing for Sara and she bails? Yikes

Marcus showing up for Simon? Aww

But Simon not telling him the names of his fishes bcs they remind him of Wille :(

I FUCKING KNEW IT, STELLA AND FREDRIKA AHHHHHHHH I AM HERE FOR IT 🏳️‍🌈

FUCK YES THEY FINALLY KISSED!!! BUT SIMON IS STILL WITH MARCUS?? ITS MORE COMPLICATED NOW 😭 Lowkey feeling bad for Marcus man he does seem to like Simon a lot

Simon singing to Wille 😭 y'all I'm in my feels rn

WILLE WAS SO HAPPY AFTER THE KISS AWWW <3

NOOO SIMON CALLED THE KISS A MISTAKE

OK, ITS HAPPENING, WILLE TOLD SIMON THAT AUGUST POSTED THE VIDEO

Ughh this whole music room fight, I hate that I understand both sides and it's just a whole djoajdkskfkwjdjxn

Wille going to Simon's house to talk to him 😭 AND IMPLYING THAT HE'D ABDICATE FOR HIM

That phone call, August was tryna buy Rosseaou for Sara right? That's kinda sweet actually

WILLE THROWING UP AHHHH

THEY CLOSED THE CURTAINS, I REPEAT, THEY CLOSED THE CURTAINS

Okok, I rlly do feel bad for Marcus. I mean, he was harsh and Simon is not wrong in saying he did tell him that he didn't want anyth serious, but I do understand his anger and it makes me feel bad for him, bcs I do think he did like Simon a lot

OK, ANYTH I SAID ABOUT FEELING BAD FOR AUGUST? KILLED, CRUSHED, COMPLETELY DEAD. HOW FUCKING DARE HE

Ok, it doesn't erase that I did feel bad for him when he went thru shit but my rage at him for blackmailing Wille is overpowering any sympathy I feel for the guy

Also ALEXANDER??? BABES I WAS ROOTING FOR U I WAS SO EXCITED WHEN U CAME BACK HOW DARE U BETRAY ME LIKE THIS

OH MY FUCKING GOD, THE ENTIRE FUCKING GUN SCENE WAS SO INTENSE, I ACTUALLY JUMPED

I WATCHED THAT SCENE TWICE IN SWEDISH THEN ONCE IN ENGLISH BCS I JUST NEEDED TO HEAR EDVIN PORTRAY WILLE'S RAGE

Thereeeee goes Felice and Sara's frnship, it was fun while it lasted 😔

YES YES YES YES YES THEY'RE BACK TOGETHER

STOPP NOT THE I LOVE YOU FROM SIMON THEY'RE TRYNA MAKE ME CRY FR I LOVE MY BOYS SO MUCH

Sara?? Telling the police?? Oh god ok good for her for trying to do the right thing but there's still the drug thing and I think it'll backfire...

HE TOLD THE WORLD, THIS IS NOT A DRILL, WILHELM TOLD THE WORLD THAT IT WAS HIM IN THE VIDEO WITH SIMON

The look in the camera 😭 we ended season one with a completely stoic expression and now we have a small smile I LOVEE

Well. That was a giant emotional rollercoaster. I'm gonna need about 3-5 business days to process everything now.

#young royals #young royals 2 #wilmon #prince wilhelm #simon eriksson #felice ehrencrona #sara eriksson #august of årnäs #young royals marcus