#today was my only day off this week

[laxchra]

...now what/who do I want to change my icon too

#Snow's Words (ooc) #I'm on for a bit !! #today was my only day off this week #I have to be at work tomorrow...through saturday #hapPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE #itsonWedbutyeah #I'm not hyped about this week #I don't mind working my birthday #& deff getting holiday pay Tuesday #and OT pay because my 'projected' hours are 46 #and that's if I'm clocking in & out at my scheduled times #which...I never do so #probably a 50 hour week #so give me the money

[lemongogo]

#waiting for livraz 2 show up^ #elendira #trigun maximum #trigun #lg doodles #mo but im like . going 2 complain for five secodns #but i hate working full time i hate it ive awkays hated it i will always hate it and when im dead ill still be hating on it #NOOO ENERGYY(‘!!!for anything . ever . #like ive given up on hobbies bc it feels soo fcking impossible to do anyrhing that isnt cooking dinner and then passing out 4 the night #miserable existence i want to claw my face off #the oast two yrs have been manageable in the sense that i alws had smt to look forward to #hyperfix or whagever. but these past 6 months r grey.DESOLATE‼️‼️‼️devoid of purpose #elendira outstretched hand lets take ibuprofen together #but its lexapro #anyways . ^__^!!~~ hope uve had a good day today #or did smt fun this week #bHELPPPP #walking 2 my car rn actually .. inagine the virgin walk guy thats like this > 🚶 #metbh #being let out of my hamster cage . only to return 2morrow

[ithinkilikeit-reactions]

I love love, like so much and the fact that I every year of my adult life have not felt loved in a romantic sense ever hurts me.

I just want someone to come home too, who wants to hear me yap about my day, I want to hear someone yap about their day and I want to learn how to cook their favorite meals. I want to go to a store and buy something for them because it reminded me of them.

I want to be cheesy with someone so bad

#my/thoughts #i was talking to a guy #and have been for a few weeks #only to wake up today and see he deleted me off of everything without saying a thing #on valentines day #idk man i really liked him

[the---hermit]

A lovely festive card from a friend and random notes.

19|12|2023

I am back after being very ill again. This time I got the flu, and to make things worse my panic disorder kicked me once again and it was bad. I am starting to feel a bit better now, but I am still very weak and my stomach isn't at its best yet. I spent a couple of hellish days, and decided to skip class this week. I confident I will be fully recovered for Friday when I'll have to speak in the seminar, but until that day I am not leaving my house and I am taking things slowly. This of course means that my nice study plan is totally fucked. I am so beyond schedul and I am not in shape to get caught with it, so I will simply have to sit down and make a whole other plan. I am starting to slowly getting back into doing some work during the day, but I have not enough mental energy to power through the book I have to study. So this week I will try to stay productive as much as I can but minding what my body allows me to do. I will study less hours during the day, do lighter stuff, and stop whenever I feel like I need to lie down, or move around depending on what my body is asking me. This morning for example I got about an hourish of work done, I was very happy with myself but then I simply had to accept that I needed to lie down, and I did so. I am fighting with the guilt of not sticking to plans and feeling overwhelmed with everything I have to do, and I am trying my best. The other thing I am struggling with at the moment is food, not in a concerning way, but more in the sense that right now I feel like I lost the joy of eating and having a good meal and that is impacting my mood so bad. First a couple of weeks ago I went to the dentist and struggled so much with pain in my mouth for a while, and now due to my stomach being affected by the flu, eating has just become something I have to do and I despise feeling like this. I want to sit at my table and be happy about what I am going to eat, I want to look forward to my meals and I have yet to figure out how to get back there. Maybe I just have a bit of a scare since in the past two or three years I often had my anxiety and panic symptoms strongly linked to my stomach and I am now scared that I'll get back into that stupid place in which eating was anxiety inducing for me. I just hope that will get better soon and that I will be able to enjoy the amazing food my family will make during the holidays.

calm hobbit winter activities and productivity:

read first thing in the morning (I managed to read ten pages which is such a big win after these awful days)

wrote notes for the second chapeter of Nature, Human Nature and Human Difference by Justin Smith

updated my reading journal

started watching cabinet of curiosities (in the past few years I have been terrible at watching new series, but this morning when I had to lie down after studying I felt like watching something new could be a good way to keep my brain a bit active. I watched the first two episodes and loved the first one. The second one fell very flat for me but I am exctied to see more of it, it definitely has the gothic horror vibes I adore)

started reviewing my men theories and power practices notes and added a few additional informations here and there

practiced my presentation for Friday

📖: Bookshops and Bonedust by Travis Baldree

#i know today's long post was a bit of negativity train and it's not the energy i love to put out in the world #but these have been a few bad days and i am not going to pretend they were fun #writing things down always helps a bit to declutter my mind and since I haven't been able to journal anymore this is my only daily journal #it works tho #anyway i am getting better now friday was the absolute worse and anything is better than that #plus the holidays are near and no matter how much i'll have to do I will take a week off #studyblr #studyinspo #journal #journaling #studying #productivity #calm hobbit winter #knife gang #mine #the---hermit #student life #uniblr #university

[possum-tooth]

should i get into dungeon meshi

#tempted to go to b&n and see if its available...... also maybe go to the mall. just for funsies. #museum closes at 4 so i would only have like an hour to look around :( so maybe ill go early next week on my day off #but. i still need something to do today....... do i really Want to go to the mall tho....... #40+ min away and gas is expensive.. and i dont need to buy anything but i need to get out of the house......... #talk tag

[bathroomtomb]

teeny tiny animation i made in a day for paul's birthday : )

#tumblr exclsuive and im not tagging it so you only see it if youre here...thanks for sticking with me folks #its no truck stop tiger but it will do for now. i had a lot of fun. #i can only make things like this when powered by nothing but very strong emotion and inadvisable stupidity. And deadlines #i was planning to do a big painting ...i worked on it for a few days this week. #i was very frustrated with it and this morning i decided i just wanted to do something else. #i may not draw as much pscop these days (i dont draw as much in general to be honest) but its still my favorite thing on earth. #and im always very glad to get the chance to express some strong emotion about it through art when i can. #so todays strong emotion is : Aggggghhhhhhhhhhh i love these characters so much im gonna gnaw my arms off #song is purgatory modulation engine by ada rook : ) #enjoy and i hope youre all doing well!!! #happy paulidays. Lol. #mine #care #paul

[derpinette]

when i exchange a message whether i receive or send one i have to immediately shut off my device & walk some laps for a few minutes to shake off the adrenaline rush

#i try to forget that ever happened so i can relax because otherwise i get heart palpitations & headrush my uterus drops ETC #so i have to stay off of whatever site i just used for like an hour but now i have messages sent+received on every app #i can only escape to yourube & it sucks #also even anonymously i exit out of the thread/tab & ignore that tab for as long as it takes me to forget #& then i check back on the replies hours later or days even despite not ever posting bait i just get nervous #( but not always... خلّي أيامك أحلى ) #currently hamster walking everywhere in my house & it took me a day to reply back ( was too busy agonizing ) #could have been a month like last time. or year like the other two times before. IDK why i even bothered #WHEW #that one screencap i already posted before with the courage the cowardly dog picrel Shockingly not posted by me #but i might as well have i do the exact same thing & when people are nice to me i ride that high for a week if not more #the high i got from crushing it at scribbl with randoms in 2020 i rode for like two years & then the *** livestream in 2022 #i am still riding today & ALWAYS WILL best days of my internet life for Serious look forwards to it annually cured me completely #from suicidal ideation. THANK YOU WOMEN. ^_^

[babblingfishes]

wip :3

#praying he lasts til halloween because today is my only day off this week #the amazing digital circus #tadc caine #tadc #jack o lantern #art

[fushigurro]

not only was i awoken this morning by maintenance men coming into my apartment and thus cutting my sleep short but i also did not take my adderall. not a fun combo besties

#rambles. #i have been dragging ALL DAY #i only didn’t take my meds because i don’t have enough until my next dr. appt #and since this is a new thing for me she wants to keep seeing me before giving more #and i feel weird calling and asking for more amphetamines LOL plus they ignored my call about something else from last week #so i thought ‘oh well i’m off work today i’ll just not take it’ #not having an awesome time

[cozymochi]

idk why im still not feeling it. this bday just started and it’s like 💀

#cozy texts #ON PAPER IT SHOULD BE GOOD- #i finally don’t work all week— #i have free time #if only for the next 48 hours given my original day off didnt get changed #but its still so weird. #Maybe its also because I’m [age here] and still haven’t accomplished anything substantial. #Like. it just hits all over again. #i should probably spend today AND tomorrow on those comms i really fell behind on. #At least then somebody’ll get something.

[derelictheretic]

sorry I keep forgetting about tag games and dm's etcetera I am in the not real mental state time

#we have a week break coming up (theoretically a break bc things are due after it so I know we'll all still be working) #hoping to decompress and get off of all devices during that time just to like. touch grass and smell the flowers yanno #self care and enjoy nature #I just haven't had the same energy since The Fire aisjsahsndhdh I am floating on a cloud loving and supporting y'all #while entering my unconscious npc era ahshsshdhdh #i'm shooting brainwaves at u filled with positivity #going to a gallery w my friend today to look at a fairytales exhibit hopefully that'll be a nixe relaxing thing #I would yell about the dnd sess yesterday but. tired. doodles coming eventually #one of my classes is literally drawing for games so the only fun art i'm doing atm is kofi member doodles ajahshdhdh #please other kofi memebers request a doodle sometime so I can draw more cute ocs. it heals me #anyway gotta go vote also oajssoahfjd have a wonderful day everyone <3 #nadine is typing...

[deus-ex-mona]

l e t m e i n ! ! !

#d a m m i t d to the h to the l whyyyyy did you have to increase the shipping cost by 20 bucks the literal day before the preorders shipped— #thanks to that it only shipped today auuuuuuuuuaughdjejdjdjdhd #wdymmmmmmm the package is still in the same place from 4 hours agoooooooo #auauaaaauauaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i want in s o b a d l y #s o bs the only song jp twt is talking about is last stage #i don’t care about last stage (for now) i want m e o t o ! ! ! #s. s o b s. unless a surprise mv drops ig im gonna have to wait till 12am for the midnight release… 7 hours to go… #ig i’ll just skip a few hundred times and do some pushups while i wait… im lich rally bouncing off the walls here i cant even auauauauaaaaaa #this. seriously hasn’t been a good couple of weeks for online purchases for me… #first my local shipment for [insert item] was delayed bc of last week’s oddly rainy weather #and t h e n that item was apparently mislabelled and locked in shipment purgatory for the weekend (sadge) #it only arrived yesterday (sadded) though ig i should be glad it even arrived at all #and nowwwwwww. this happens. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh #idk there’s so many other things i’ve been meaning to do while i wait for the cd but. i just. can’t #this sucks i wanna be marginally more productive too heyyyyyyyyyy #i wonder how long meoto is though… hopefully between 3-5 minutes… #if the song’s like. m. ilgram t2-length im gonna cry #but ymk said that it’s her favourite song on the album so it should be good!!!! right??!!!!!!!! #ausgshhssh he l p i should really go back to. like. cleaning idol sengen pages instead or sth. #see you in a few hours for meoto tl/if they decide to drop a sudden mv or sth idk

[irhabiya]

today sucked the life out of me ya Allah

#nothing particularly happened #well actually multiple things happened but none of them are that big of a deal im just tired #yesterday the ppt file for my presentation corrupted as i was finishing it :') didn't have autosave on :')) #had to redo the entire thing from scratch. i was working on it all week too for god's sake #finished by like 4am today and i had to be up by 8 for uni so i barely slept #the presentation was fine i think given i had to do everything again last minute but ik the original version was better #my blood pressure was through the roof the entire day for some reason. felt my pulse in my head for the whole day #fitting because our pbl case this week was about hypertension😭 #called my dad to make sure he went to get his meds renewed... #i'm really worried about him he refused to go to the doctor again aslan but i sat him down and we had a long talk about it #alhamdulillah he agreed to go. only for them not to have his diabetes meds in stock💀 bas ya3ni it's good that he went anyway #my mom is a different story she's so stubborn i swear #had an argument with her today about letting me work again to lift a bit of the workload off her since money is still so tight #and she got pissed at me #so now im tired unrested have a migraine and my mom is mad at me what a day bgad #ya Allah

[bruciemilf]

let me give you biiiig hug you look like you need it 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

Tyyy

#just one of those days yk #i cant study i cant draw i cant watch YouTube i cant watch movies. no song is satisfying and just tires me out #everything tastes gross and i don't want to eat but ik i have to or ill be more irritable #its too hot its too cold i want to cry i cant cry #i want to sleep i wanna talk to ppl i dont want to talk to anyone bc im so mentally maxxed out #idk i think its seasonal burnout. sucks that it happened a week right before my exam but oh whale #only the 4th time i fail #i will tell you i dont have the nerve to off myself. but if i could hire someone to swiftly shoot me in the head #i would do it TODAY. fuck. like life is worth living but im just so grossed out #not dc #vent #depressive episodes fucking suck

[lvebug]

good morning and happy new year, everyone!! i started many new things in 2023 and rp was one of them and i just want to spend a moment to say how grateful i am and how much fun i've had so far! andie is not only my first rp character but also the first character that i've really poured my heart & soul into, so to be greeted so joyously by everyone both for me and for andie has been the most lovely experience. joining rp has introduced more whimsy, creativity, and friends into my life and there is not a group of people i would rather go into the new year with. i've seen so many brilliant ideas, characters, graphics, threads, over these past few months and that's really a testament to everyone on this site and how much hard work everyone puts in. it inspires and encourages me everyday to write more and write my best, but also is just a plain pleasure to see. all this creativity and joy and passion that people have just makes my life better by adding richness & fondness to my days. i'm really glad to get to be a part of it and even though i've now rambled on, i really don't have the words to actually say how much being here means to me and how much y'all have actually improved my life!!!

#finally finally have my one and only day off for thr next 3 weeks today!!!!!!! yippee!!!!!! #THERE'S A LOT OF BEAUTY IN ORDINARY THINGS — ooc

[teruthecreator]

i got a christmas gift from work and my manager got me stress balls im dead

#ignorance cloud on #she rlly said ‘ive caught you crying too many times at this job’ #she also got me a nice metal cup w my initial on it which i appreciate :-) #i rlly dont wanna be back here but luckily todays my only full day of work this week #tomorrow we’re getting out early and then im off monday #AND my manager isnt even in this week so thats fun