#tori's tinder event!

[a-kaash-me-outside]

Hello sweets

How are you?

Congratulations on the 4k ❤️❤️

If I'm not being a bother I would love to participate in your 4k event!!

name: Rochan as my twin loves to call me

pronouns: She/her

star sign: aquarius

bio: super shy, clumsy, fiction lover, an angel for those who don't know me well but my friends know how devilish my thoughts can be 😂💔(it's just thoughts, I would never do it)

interested in: men

looking for: long term commitment

myers brigg type: INFP

your perfect night: soft nights, slow dancing, lots of cuddles, nights full of assurance

dogs/cats/both: Both

favorite hobby: reading

hq bestie: kenma

smoke/drink: nether

currently listening to: hometown smile

introvert/extrovert/ambivert: introvert

anything else? When stressed I love to work myself to exhausting, or just vent by writing

Thank you for your all efforts and you absolutely deserve the 4k and more 🙆🏻‍♀️❤️

Again congratulations

And if this makes you uncomfortable in any way or mean just ignore it 🙆🏻‍♀️

Going to somebody's place for a first date usually felt like an added sort of pressure on top of the already nerve-wracking experience. But Kita seemed like the type of guy who took things slow, so when he invited you over for a home-cooked meal you accepted gladly. You fidgeted with the small vase of flowers while waiting on the doorstep of his place and when he greeted you warmly your fear was left at the doorway with your shoes and coat. 

A small kotatsu was set up in the living room. The lights were low and two small candles gave off a warm glow that radiated through you. 

“It’s not much,” he said, before offering his hand to guide you to sit on one side of the table. You offered him the flowers. “They’re beautiful, and the vase was a nice touch otherwise they would have been arranged in an old coffee can.” The small, airy laugh that escaped him filled your entire being with a feeling that usually only came from holidays spent with family and late-night conversations with old friends. 

Over a dinner so warming and full of comfort you could have sworn he’d plucked the recipe straight from a memory of your childhood, Kita came to learn about every facet of your life. He watched you with gentle eyes as you told him about your family and friends, about your job and about every other thing he could come to know about you. He asked question after attentive question and by the end of the night the two of you were sitting, heads perched against the seats of the couch as you sat millimeters apart. 

“I feel like I’ve been talking about myself all night,” you laughed while looking down at your hands. Kita brought a careful and tender hand to your cheek, cupping it and bringing your eyes back to his. 

“I was the one askin’,” he smiled. Searching his eyes, you finally managed to put your finger on what that feeling was that his laugh elicited before. Kita felt like home. 

#tori's tinder event! #toriwritesshit #kita x reader #kita fluff #kita drabble #hq drabble #hq x reader #haikyuu x reader #hq fluff #haikyuu fluff

[arsenicpanda]

Bughead Appreciation Day 1 Except It’s Day 2

So I spent yesterday nice and cozy in bed and put this off (good choice, tbh, I was very snug as a bug), but now, now comes the time for me to gush about some people in the fandom!  This is definitely not a comprehensive list, I have absolutely left some people out because I am very forgetful, but, in no particular order and under a cut because I’m a wordy bitch:

@tory-b: A delight and a dear, leading writer of monsterfucker!Betty, co-runner of @riverdaleprideandjoyzine, a legend and a friend, we have no choice but to stan.  Her stuff is so good and varied and just *chef’s kiss* a delight, two favorites of mine are Fangs/com/Match (Betty/dragon!Jughead meet via monsterfucker Tinder, has some great friendship moments with Kevin and Veronica and is v sexy and funny, features the horniest Betty) and Sticky Sweet Serenade ((past)-friends-to-enemies-to-lovers bughead, mixes up some statuses in Riverdale, excellent mystery, I remember reading it and going, “holy shit, a believable take on Northside!Jughead”).  I’ve also gotta mention Whats in a Name? (Betty and Jughead meet on tumblr, Betty writes poetry and Jughead is a shitposter, they slowly connect, it’s great) and To Balance the Scales (scientist!Betty/mermaid!Jughead, currently a slow build, I cannot wait for you guys to see the excellent worldbuilding she’s done).  I could keep going, or you could binge all her fics today, an excellent use of your Saturday, I assure you, because I’ve left a lot out.

@stillhidden: Always good for some great thoughts on the show, one of the best reasons for my your thoughts on Riverdale please show them to me tag, I get psyched every time I see a Riverdale text post or ask answer because I know I’m in for a good time.  Thoughtful and funny and nice, what a combo!

@satelliteinasupernova: So talented!  Author, artist, co-runner of @riverdaleprideandjoyzine, funny, haver of good thoughts on Riverdale is there anything she can’t do?  No, there is not.  Every time I see her art I’m like !!!, the colors! how well-drawn the hands are! the accuracy of their hair! the backgrounds! the way I can see the love in their eyes! I cannot even, there are no words.  Also!  Her fics!  So original!  One of my earliest memories in the fandom is reading The town called Riverdale (a sort of mystery about the meta fuckery going down in Riverdale, explores time loops, stories that control lives, the roles the Archie characters are “supposed” to have, a mash-up with concepts in Princess Tutu that requires zero knowledge of Princess Tutu) and going !!! is this a Princess Tutu mash-up?  Have I been #blessed enough to see a mash up between Riverdale, a story that fucks with archetypes, and Princess Tutu, one of the shows about fucking with archetypes and the way stories ontrol lives?  I was and I am and I raved to my non-fandom but Princess Tutu liker friend about it.  Has also wonderfully tackled eldritch horror in return to Eldervair and gothic horror/romance in The Lady of the Manor, does fluff, does angst, does it all, so go check her out!

@go-ldy: An angst and time skip queen, tbh, and always has some great thoughts on Riverdale, another reason I’m glad I have that tag.  Every time she answers an ask, I’m like, “Yesss, incoming Good Thoughts, I am HERE for this”.  But do not sleep on her as an author!  Into the Deep is some delightful dark!bughead, and I’ll walk with you in the shadows is such good time skip angst and a mystery and there’s a certain surprise I love but is a spoiler but you simply must read this, you must.  The Time after Time series is giving us that good angst bughead content that season 5 is not going to, and I’m so glad it exists and just thrilled that she trusted me to beta it.  I’m leaving a lot of stuff out though, so you should go check her out!

@milajovovich: One of the best gif makers in the fandom, I will fight you on this.  Makes absolute miracles with footage, the way she makes season 4 webrips look like they’re actual blurayrips is godly, they’re so crisp and so smooth and the coloring is always great.  And like, jesus, the way the bluray footage looks?  Fucking outstanding, the talent is off the charts.  Go marvel at their gifs, go, go.

@imreallyloveleee: A prolific, talented author and funny to boot!  loveleee is one of the people who has been here since the beginning, a mainstay in the fandom, and we are so, so lucky she hasn’t left.  How do I even begin to rec you some of her stuff?  She can write smut with fics like burn, baby (a 3x16 missing moment of bughead fucking in the car as the trailer burns, what a gift to the fandom, I can’t even), is queen of pining with fics like boy problems (season 1 post 1x05 canon divergence, a bughead get together but with that quality pining) and her i’m just a shot away series (two fics, one from Jughead’s POV and one from Betty’s, that are fully of pining and sexual tension and miscommunication and major teenage vibes, you gotta read them), and writer of one of the funniest fics in the fandom and one of my favorite, like spirits in the night (the core four + Kevin perform a seance to contact Jason Blossom and yes, it is just as funny as it sounds, perhaps even funnier).  And there are countless others, so settle in and go check her out because she does it all, fluff and angst too, I just don’t have time to rec them all.

@meditationonbaaal: Absolutely one of my all-time favorite fic authors, like across fandoms, the talent, I cannot even properly describe it, like the quality of the prose, amazing, iconic.  the devil’s daughter (a season 2 rewrite with some differences in season 1, jumps back and forth through time in the best way, has the best and creepiest dark!Jughead, has some great smut that includes dom!Betty and dom!Jughead can you believe we are so blessed, such a good rewrite of season 2, and you know how I love season 2, so that is some high praise, let me tell you) is easily in my top 10 all-time favorite fics across the many, many fandoms I’ve read many, many fics of, and you simply must check it out, you will not be disappointed.  develop, stop, fix just blew me away as a kink week fic of bughead playing with bdsm in a dark room, the layers, the smut, the trust, the feelings, I cannot even.  And doll parts!  doll parts is so good, just such an amazing take on drop dead gorgeous, a fabulous Jughead and Betty as per usual, dare I say even better than an already fantastic movie.  I am behind on loose lips sink ships, but I can already tell it’s going to be a great exploration of the Stonies and a great take on season 4.  Keep an eye on her stuff here and here, do not miss out!

@dieqohargreeves:  An icon and legend in gif making, just makes the most beautiful and intricate and creative gifs.  The coloring is amazing, the techniques are amazing, that shit is Art, I will fight you on this.  You gotta check ‘em out, you just gotta, I can’t do their work justice.

@sullypants:  The wit!  The humor!  The observational skills!  The talent, my god!  Sully is the genius behind @bettycooperoutfitwatch and @riverdalearthistory as well as a fabulous writer of both meta and fic, yet another excellent reason for me to keep up with others’ thoughts on Riverdale.  Her a comic miniverse series is so funny and sweet and such a great take on the Archie Comics version of bughead, and the after-party series (Betty and Jughead attend a, well, prom after party, and the events that happen, and I am not doing it justice, but it is v good, I promise) has such a great vibe and such great characterization.  And young adult friction (librarian!Jughead is in a kind of competition with librarian!Betty, it’s so funny and so great) is such a delight, and we do not have time to get into everything great she’s written, but go check it out here.

@lilibug--xx: The queen of bughead smut, can you believe she has graced us with her stuff?  It is steamy and it is in character and it is amazing.  Dark Cherry Chutney is still a fandom favorite of mine, just some great dark!bughead who are unaware of each other’s darkness (but oh, they find out!) as well as some excellent smut.  And Pressed for Time (Betty teasing Jughead with her skirts in an effort to get him to fuck her and he is barely holding on until he isn’t, alternating POVs in the best way) is sexy af but makes you work for it, it’s a delight.  And give you mine (Betty and Jughead fuck at work and it is so hot, I can’t even) is so goddamn good, just some of the best dom!Jughead out there.  Has also written monsterfucker!Betty, which you know I’m a fan of, in once upon a midnight (werewolf-hunter!Betty/werewolf!Jughead with sex pollen where she does not shy away from some wolfy-ness and it is hot af) and has written monsterfucker!Jughead, a rarity but always a delight, with reap what you sow (witch!Jughead/undine!Betty and Betty is so delightfully otherworldly and it is so sexy but also sweet), and there are countless other smut fics, we would be here all day if I went through them all, so you gotta check her out here.  One more thing though: she can also write fluff with Lemon Drops and Chocolate Chips, a sweet fic of Betty and Jughead as neighbors that you should definitely check out.

@thatiranianphantom:  Funny and thoughtful and talented and has correct opinions on musicals!  Writes such good explorations of post-4x17 (and post-4x17 adjacent) scenarios.  Like, the we are a masterpiece series is v good and so interesting, and no one else is singing my song is such great angst as a post-4x17 fic and a great use of Crazy Ex-Girlfriend songs.  I am forgetting a lot of stuff, I know I am, and I think I might be behind like a fool, so let’s go check out all her stuff together here, yes?  Yes.  Also?  Great for Riverdale speculation, especially about the season 5 musical episode.

@heartunsettledsoul:  So talented, queen of canon missing moments, and funny to boot!  I love reading her liveblogging of the episodes, and I cannot recommend her stuff enough.  Her Forgotten Moments series of canon missing moments is iconic, you must go read all of it, especially there’s witchcraft in your hips, a post-2x13 fic of Betty and Jughead being such teenagers and Jughead being a dweeb about his cheerleader girlfriend and I am not doing it justice but you gotta go read it, man, you gotta.  But the series is full of gems from the beginning with Midnight Silence (Betty and Jughead talk post-1x04 about the Grundy debacle and it’s such a delight) and going all the way through to the most recent it might’ve been a nightmare (a 4x12 through 4x16 fic that gives me a wide range of emotions and is fantastic) and your eyes look like coming home (Betty’s diary entries throughout season 1, simply inspired).  But she’s also so good at AUs!  a dark world aches (for a splash of the sun) is already looking so good as a bughead mystery with some varchie fun on the side, just some quality core four content, and won’t be the same (if you’re not here with me) is a favorite of fake dating, Christmas, and there was only one bed, just the best tropefest.  And there are so, so many more, so you must check her out here.

@lovedinapastlife: She writes such a variety of AUs, I am just in awe of them all!  The talent, I am amazed.  The dark!bughead in The Society is peak dark!bughead with a simply iconic yandere!Betty, and you are seriously missing out if you have not read it yet.  Oh, and there’s some more dark!Jughead with a side of dark!Betty in the key to harm(ony) that you must check out because it’s such a great ride and is sexy, what more could you want?  Every movie AU she does really takes the source material and makes it her own from works You Drive Me Crazy (but I'm gonna keep on loving you), based on Drive Me Crazy and definitely better than the movie, to the most recent to all the boys (but especially you), based on To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before and just so sweet.  But also can write otherworldly fics like Heart’s Desire with genie!Betty and The Second Coming with fae!Jughead, as well as regular aus like Detention (Betty and Jughead in detention and it gets a little sexy but also quite cute), and pure porn like Eye of the Beholder (Betty and Jughead as sorcerers who hook up over sorcerer Tinder and it is sexy but also sweet), as well as some of the best ABO in fandom with her A/B/O Mine series (alpha!Jughead/omega!Betty in high school and holy shit is it hot as hell).  I am only just skimming the surface here, so definitely go check her out!

@kyloren aka @jughead-jones:  Mila is so talented at making gifs, like goddamn, and also so funny, but I bet you didn’t know that she also has written some damn good fic!  She hides it, but it is out there and it is very good, my favorite being let me hang my hook on your splendor, a fandom fave of a Scooby-Doo au that is so much more thoughtful and clever with its casting, and also very amusing, you must check out the rest of her stuff here.

@elizabethbettscooper: A delightful person and a delightful writer who is largely retired from the bughead fandom but still such a talent, like seriously.  Her Twin Peaks Riverdale AU The Past Dictates the Future is so good, you simply must check it out, like you must.  And yours was the first face i saw is such a fun AU of “what if Betty’s crush on Archie was a front for her crush on Jughead”, you must go read it.  And holy shit, her i may be bad (but i’m perfectly good at it) series is peak dom!Jughead/sub!Betty taking place when they’re in college and fucking in so many varied ways, like if you are into that, you must go read these fics, you must, you will have a great and sexy, sexy time.  And there’s so much more good stuff, you gotta go read it all here.

@bettycreeper: She does so much for the fandom and she makes such gorgeous gifs!  Like, the coordination she does on the @bugheadfamily server and @bugheadfanfictionawards and @riverdale-events and probably elsewhere cannot be understated, she is such a valuable presence in the fandom.  And have you seen her gifs?  Gorgeous quality, just gorgeous, and her movie poster gifs for fics are simply inspired.  Also?  She’s an amazing beta, just outstanding.

@stillscape: A very thoughtful person and excellent writer who I can’t seem to tag.  Dianthus Caryophyllus is still one of my favorite fics in the fandom, a high school bughead fic with some amazing pining from Jughead with an oblivious Betty, I can feel it, it’s so good.  And of course there’s Ninia, an amazing take on the soulmates trope, just so good, I cannot do it justice, you must check it out.  The for the life of me series is also such a good AU for Betty and Jughead getting together pre-Riverdale at a summer internship, I have such fond memories of it.  And la peste (the plague)!  So good, I cannot even.  We don’t have time for everything, except you should make time and go check all of it out here.

@theheavycrown:  God, where would we be without Sarah?  She does so much work for the @bugheadfamily and @bugheadfanfictionawards and @riverdale-events and @riverdalecentral and I’m probably forgetting some, tbh.  And so sweet and talented!  Her gifs are fantastic and so are her fics.  Like, Rain Comes Down (Betty and Jughead fucking in the car on the side of the road while cars drive by)?  Iconic, some amazing exhibitionism.  you had me howling(Betty in heat in the woods and then Jughead finds her and fucking ensues)? Fantastic ABO, so horny, so desperate.  Beneath the Silver Moon Rising?  Excellent dom!Jughead, excellent sexy times.  You must go check out all of her stuff here, you must.

@50shades-of-bughead:  Just some of the absolute cutest art that you must check out, especially their series of dark!bughead that is just fantastic.

@thepointoftheneedle: The variety of work here is phenomenal, the talent, I cannot.  Took my ridiculous double fake marriage/draft-dodging concept and turned it into an excellent, thoughtful period piece with phenomenal characterization and a great mystery with Never No Locomotive, I cannot recommend it enough.  And Ghosts and Clouds and Nameless Things (ghost!Jughead/grieving-dead-Jughead!Betty with a side of mystery) gave me so many emotions, I think I almost cried, and I am not a crier, I assure you.  Hey Pixie Dream Girl, I’m Coming for Your Man! (Betty in her bookstore saves Jughead from his date with a Manic Pixie Dream Girl) is so delightfully funny, and Sunflowers (Betty and Jughead share a working space and fall in love) is so goddamn cute.  I have actually found myself behind on her work, which is a crime, it all looks so amazing and I know it will be, and you must check all of it out with me here.

@hellodinoflower:  Such an amazing presence in the fandom, such a delight, so clever and funny.  She ran @bugheaddrabblechallenge this past summer and gave us all so much joy in the process, and, while her fics are deleted now (as is her right), I promise you that they were amazing, you all missed out if you slept on her.  She’s such a great follow, you gotta follow her.

@bluevelvetvideo:  A delighful soul, great character insight, great writing.  Like, her smut is fantastic, have you read Arsenal (a double feature of Betty and Jughead fooling around in public and then having some sexytimes back in private with some quality dom!Jughead, let me tell you, v steamy)?  Because you should.  Christmas Lights (Jughead ties Betty up with their Christmas lights, it’s fantastically sexy) is a delight, and you can’t blame gravity (for falling in love) is a very fun take on soulmates and soulmarks, and you simply must go read it.  She is a master of smut, let me tell you, and you must check out all her stuff here.  Also?  An excellent beta, 10/10, I’m so lucky to have her.

@a-true-janian-reply:  Very funny, has excellent thoughts on Riverdale!  Like, truly, every time I see an original text post or a reblog from her, I am PSYCHED because it’s always going to be SO GOOD.

@writeradamanteve:  Such great talent across genres, really impressive.  Drive (illegal drag racing Betty and college student but former-ish Serpent Jughead, just fantastic) is one of my earliest fandom favorites, I remember excitedly telling my non-fandom friend about it because I thought it was so clever, and we all know how good Daemon Bound is, yes?  Yes, I’m sure we do.  Let’s go make sure we’ve read all her stuff here.

@thugheadjones:  Has some great insights, some great responses to dumb anons, and some fantastic art, like holy shit, I cannot even.

@bugggghead:  A delightful soul, so nice, so talented.  Writes some amazing smut, like, have you read intimately acquainted (alpha!Jughead/omega!Betty, meeting up on an app to help Betty with her heat in a heat retreat, four chapters of excellent smut)?  Because you should if you’re even kind of interested in ABO.  And en pointe is the bughead knifeplay fic of dreams, you gotta check it out.  And there are so many other ones, we do not have time to cover them all.  She also does cute fics, btw, and Message Me (fanfic-author-who-is-actually-the -real-author!Jughead/gif-maker-and-fangirl!Betty meet on tumblr and fall in love and it’s great) is such a delight, definitely go check it out.  In fact, go check out all her stuff here.  Also a fantastic beta, I really owe her for that.

@heavy-lies-the-crown:  A talented soul who has written so much high quality fic, from the hilarious red ribbon winner (a Christmas fic comedy that I cannot describe well but I assure you is both hilarious and sweet) to the emotional and moving road to me (Betty and Jughead break up, find themselves, and come back together and it’s perfection) to the heart-ripping angst of apizza (a semi post-4x17-speculation fic of bughead together but apart at Yale and the way they will come back together and it is so good and so angsty) to many, many more.  You gotta go check it all out here.

@lurker-no-more:  Yet another funny person, we as a fandom are so blessed, you must check them out, you just must.

@iconic-ponytail:  Another excellent writer!  a revelation in the light of day is SUCH a great slowburn and  SUCH a great take on both FBI!Betty and Sheriff!Jughead and the two of them falling in love as adults.  Also, the side varchie is fantastic, and the mystery is amazing.  I have not yet checked out the nighthawks, but I already know it’s going to be good, I can tell, you can trust this author to be quality, so go check all of her stuff out here.

@soyforramen:  Funny!  Very funny!  Also?  Writes some great ficlets that are, I think, exclusive to tumblr, which is a tragedy, tbh, but as is their right.  But I do have the link to this genius fic about bughead and a platypus in honor of the platypus anon that was going around this summer.  Definitely go check them out!

And now I am very tired, I have used up my energy, and I am so sorry if I forgot anyone!

#Riverdale #fandom #fic recs #I mean they're buried in there but they're THERE #can you tell I ran out of steam at the end?

[wherethehellisderrymaine]

February Wrap Up

Books:

under the dome (lent by enzo)

la bruja verde

ramble book

egghead

el nombre de la rosa (el favorito de Lucho, me lo regalo)

the bronte cabinet 

Songs: music session, vol.48 - bizarrap, tiago pzk (temaiken) vivir asi es morir de amor - nathy peluso LEVEL OF CONCERN - twenty one pilots CALOR - sebastian cortes nathy peluso bzrp music session 9 lives - niki demar saoko - rosalia baby - nicki nicole la declaracion - el zar todo lamento - natalia lacunza me gusta - nicki nicole formentera - aitana, nicki nicole buenos aires . nathy peluso fosil - mi amigo invisible  big bang - usted señalemelo  i feel like i’m drowning - two feet eco - loli molina  la luna - conociendo rusia electroshock - nos miran raro mi fiesta - bandalos chinos dije tu nombre - bandalos chinos moving like that - omar rudberg the color violet - tory lanez  cambiando la piel - nicki nicle, wos el temblor - bandalos chinos rhinestone eyes - gorillaz everything machine / hot tea - half alive cafeliko - jimena amarillo ojitos MD - axel fiks  emergencia - nathy peluso fast times - sabrina carpenter don’t wake me up - why don’t we shadow of mine - alec benjamin dancing feet - DNCE vino tinto - estopa 

Events: 31: sexting with emo for the second time. it’s really fun but it feels a little weid bc I’m scared Fer would find out. I still miss him and I wanna see him but I don’t dare to text him to meet up even though I can do that. I’m overthing all of this way too much.  01: downloaded Tinder - again. Chatted with an italina guy (i need to fuck him SO bad, when he talks to me in Italian, I MELT DOWN; but I don’t know if he will want to see me); with an artist/painter who I wanna meat bc he sounds smart and to have similar political ideas as I do; and a red head with tattoos with a baby face (he is “too cute” for me but i think we can get along pretty well; I’ll see him on Friday) ----- WENT TO EMO’S HOUSE to return him the book and “eat ice cream” (we ended up fucking and it was great; easy, comfortable, fun, no second thoughts on it UNTIL I went back home and thought of him for hours. I was feeling sad but then, at 23:30, I got a voice note from HIM. I couldn’t listen to it bc i was panicking and excited at the same time. -- I LOVE MY FRIENDS FOR PUTTING UP WITH ME 

02: i listened to fer’s audio. it made kinda mad bc he recomended me something that reminded him of me. I wanted to talk to him but I just said thanks and moved on but he replied so I kept of chatting with him. Being the scorpio that I am, I told him that we could meet, just to chat (honestly, I no I stand no chance with him from now on); and he said “what are you doing today?”. SO we went to the beach, for mates. he was there with Aroha and I almost died when I saw them. We talked quite a lot, more than ever and I felt comfortable. Not as anxious as I used to, which allowed me to talk more. He took photos of me, told me I was really pretty and that “next time” we could meet at a place that I choose. he even gave me a kiss when I got out of the car. I was expecting any of that. Now I feel bad about having fucked Emo. I thought I was not going to see them again, and maybe I won’t. But I do want to Fer before he moves away :’( I wish I didn’t like him this bad but i do and I just want to make the best out of the time i have left “with him”. i can’t help it. 

03: i feel guilty for what i’ve done and i’m judging myself pretty hard. I know I won’t do it again and that I acted based on my feelings and on what I knew at the moment. I’ll try not to make it bigger than what it actually is. passport appointment  cafe lari - i need to talk to her

04: visitar a fo y cita tinder - martin - scared bc we didn’t use protection. i got the pill but if get pregnant i’m gonna kill myself. 

05: rained a lot - tired - home alone - another tinder date -- franco, he is fun and easy going. sex was great - we played games, i’ve never done that before, and we listened to lots of music. -- i wanted to see fer

06: family sunday - my back hurts from last night and i’m tired as hell. -- fer texted me asking me how was my home alone night and he told me how was his. he asked me what was i doing and kept on chatting with me throughout the day. i flirted a bit to test the waters and he didn0t laugh about it, he went along... i just need to see him again adfgh

07: cobre lo de las elecciones --- deje rollo de la camara para revelar en salto luz --- reserve el quilmes rock, estoy re emocion, y pobre --- me di la tercera dosis de la vacuna pfizer en el trabajo de mamá --- primera reunion en el cem por 3rd children --- teatro con cati, fuimos a ver a Gabriel Rolon y lo ame --- anxious bc of unprotected sex -- me hablo Lucho :’)

08: took the test and it was negative, i’m a little less stressed about it but until i get my period i won’t relax. i know i should take another test next monday/tuesday and i will (my period should come another week later, i can’t wait that long) -- PAY DAY, i got the money for the concerts but I’ll pay them later, maybe next month. -- bloated -- SOCIAL MEDIA BREAK, i’m too dependant on instagram and whatsapp, i don’t like that. -- NEED TO READ

09: more chatting with Lucho, I really like him and I wanna see him (i never want to see anybody, wth). - also Fer is talking more to me BUT I don’t care that much anymore. I’m more invested on Lu, he makes me happy while Fer makes me... anxious. 

10: more chatting with Lu, he likes FARGO and has tattoos, i’m in love hahaha. -- more chatting with Fer but the thrill is not as strong as before

11: date with tomi (younger), I like him but meh... I just think about Lu. -- boys over at Grosellar, we watched Vox Machina and had wine and nachos -- talked a lot more with Lu asdfg I NEED TO SEE HIM 

13: chatted with gus (sado), it kinda scares me but he seems nice and maybe i’ll try it. lunch at fo’s. talked to Lucho

14: valentine’s - MET LUCHO: i was EXTREMELY nervous. I saw him and I was dead. he’s SO handsome, it intimidates me. I wanna look at him for hours. We went to Bruder and it was lovely. He made me feel super comfortable and asked me about lots of things. He let me speak and listened to me. HE IS A GREAT KISSER jesus. I couldn’t stop kissing him. We have so much in common it’s ridiculous. His house is as incredible as he is. He is gentle but strong, I wanna touch and listen to him all the time. He is great at s’x as well. HE IS TOO GOOD and I don’t know what to do. I don’t wanna panic, I want to enjoy it bc we both deserve it. 

15: i miss him

16: i still miss him. - bought s’x toys - planned threesome with fran and mica - picture of the full moon - body dysmorphia

17: new ferrari, it’s amazing - bought clothes - a bit better with my body - first meeting at cem for 3rd level - picture of the sky - family dinner at home - ate a lot

18: reunion del cem 1st level - date with Lucho: club tri, cine “uncharted”, sleepover, stayed in bed all morning. I really REALLY like spending time with him, he is amazing. HE GIFTED ME HIS FAVORITE BOOK AND WROTE INSIDE OF IT. i don’t deserve him. I feel like i can start, slowly, building something lovely with him but at the same time i don’t wanna think about it. I just wanna live it. ///// I hate still getting such a thrill when Fer talks to me, he is not good for me bc we are complete opposites; i need to stop wanting to see him. 

21: went to the apartment to take off the carpet with mum. / saw him again. i can0t get enough of him. we bought chipa and watched Fargo, while I  clutched on him for three hours. i adore him. 

23: sleepover at Fo’s. 

24: sleepover at lucho’s. we got drunk (at least I did cause I’m sad and I needed it) and we kept on watching Fargo. also: s3x with him is amazing and I love that we are being less shy each time, discovering what we like together. 

26: fo y flor se fueron. SAD. Lucho vino a almorzar (fatai y lemon pie) y despues fimos a Club Tri. - los chicos vinieron a dormir a casa. se corto la luz - DnD y karaoke, los amo. 

27: fui a lo de fo a hacer presencia. - museo mar - dormir en el grosellar, vino Tomi y a ver Shrek (i don’t really like him but it was nice)

28: recital gratis - vi a fer (creo que por ultima vez porque me estresa y cansa verlo y no saber qué hacer) - lucho vino a cenar (pizza a la piedra y tiramisu) y a quedarse a dormir. Lo QUIERO y se lo dije asfg quiero hacer de todo con eĺ, desde dormir a ir de campamento y hasta cosas que no quise con nadie antes. 

[stretchjournalemerson]

Do I Look Like That?: Bitmojis and Perspectivism

By Tori Serpico - 

The Bitmoji app, launched in 2013, is massively popular and has seemingly ever-growing success. The app allows users to create cartoon versions of themselves, which then are placed into hundreds of small animated photos, or “stickers,” that can represent nearly any mood or situation that you can then send through text -- all integrated into your phone’s keyboard. In the early days of Bitmoji, the app’s avatar customization was sparse. Should my Bitmoji be fully blonde or fully brunette? What skin tone is just right? Would I even wear that outfit? After spending too long attempting to answer these questions and make a Bitmoji to capture my essence I showed it to my sister. She looked at it, and then at me, and then back at it, and said: “That doesn’t look like you.”

This was a disappointing response. I handed her my phone and let her give it a try. She would periodically examine my face or ask me to turn my head. “Done!” She handed me back my phone. It didn’t look like me.

While what I am describing is truly a first world problem, there is an underlying question that reaches far beyond the Bitmoji: how can we truly capture the self?

To begin, we must consider the factor of perspective from someone who has explored this in depth. Let’s look backward to discover what historian and theorist Jane Tompkins, has already explored this topic of seeing the self through varying representations (Pifko). Tompkins, in her essay "’Indians’: Textualism, Morality, and the Problem of History,” describes the trouble she faces in attempting to piece together the encounters between the Europeans settlers and the Native Americans. Throughout her research, she discovers massive disparities in information as she reads varying accounts of what should be the same experience. This is troublesome to her, as clearly there is only one true history. However, these inconsistent records suggest otherwise. Due to this frustration, Tompkins concludes that the nature of facts, or of truth, is that although there is only be one base truth in the context of any given situation, due to the external human factor of perspective, multiple truths exist. As seen through Tompkins’ essay, this concept of perspectivism, or the idea that truth is inherently muddied by point-of-view, is closely aligned with understanding historical events. But I can’t help but wonder, what role does perspectivism play in an examination of the self?

The Bitmoji conundrum I described serves as an instance of perspectivist self-examination. When noting the disparity between the Bitmoji I created for myself and the Bitmoji my sister made for me, the differences were slight. A wider nose, a longer face, a few freckles.

But I was bothered by these small details that I failed to recognize in myself that were so simple for someone else to identify. Which was more accurate? Should I trust an outside eye’s perspective of my physical appearance because it is inherently less biased? Or is my own recreation of myself more true, as I am the self I am attempting to capture? And where do these two selves intertwine? If we view these questions through Tompkins perspectivist lens, then even "...if the accounts don't fit together neatly, that is not a reason for rejecting them all… one encounters contradictory facts and divergent points of view in practically every phase of life” (Tompkins 118). By the logic of perspectivist theory, there is no one true self to capture because each perspective provides a new insight. Therefore, I am all of my failed Bitmoji attempts. Yikes.

The belief that the self is a collective idea as opposed to a static being is not new. In fact, it’s almost three hundred years old. David Hume, a skeptic Enlightenment philosopher discusses his views on the permanency of self in “A Treatise of Human Nature.” Hume writes: “I may venture to affirm of the rest of mankind, that they are nothing but a bundle or collection of different perceptions, which succeed each other with an inconceivable rapidity, and are in a perpetual flux and movement” (134). This is known as the Bundle Theory. What this theory is arguing is that the self ever-evolving concept as it is constantly the object of others’ perspectives. These perspectives are so varied and so frequent that it is impossible to claim that one’s identity is singular-- it is only within our minds that we prescribe oneness to self. In this way, the Bundle Theory is inherently perspectivist. There cannot possibly be one true self if that self is being constantly externally perceived.

So who are we, if we are not who we think we are? To attempt to answer that question, let’s get back to basics: we are all human beings that possess human features and qualities. Now identifying these qualities is what creates implications that illuminate our perceptions of ourselves, ultimately aiding in others perceiving us. For example, my hair was once both brown and purple. At this time, Bitmoji did not have the option of multiple hair colors, meaning I had to choose between the two in order to best represent myself.

These hair colors are “signifiers,” or physical representations of greater meaning, or the “signified.” If I consider this post-structurally, as Tompkins would, these signifiers create a multitude of meanings that then contribute to larger structures of culture and identity. As I chose between two coexisting signifiers, I was deciding between selves. My choice would ultimately force me to perpetuate an idea of myself that was not entirely physically true. The implication then becomes that I view myself in a way which is inherently inaccurate. We all possess our signifiers, but the deliberate nature of the creation of a Bitmoji places a pressure upon the user to have a heightened understanding of them.

This pressure to have an accurate Bitmoji exists for several reasons. As its popularity has grown, the app has been integrated into a multitude of other popular social media apps, such as Snapchat and Tinder. Now instead of our “real” faces being plastered onto profiles, it’s our recreations of ourselves. Why is this preferable? I feel the aspect of control over our signifiers is something that society has striven for. Through the lens of the Bundle Theory, this is entirely impossible in reality. We are constantly being captured by various perspectives that we have little to no control over, no matter how much effort we put into physical appearances. The ability to capture the preferable, to show what we want to be seen, is a widely accepted part of social media culture. Bitmojis indirectly caricature our inclinations towards either embracing or rejecting this culture simply through the choices we make in attempting to recreate ourselves.

This is not to say that Bitmojis cannot be true to self or to say that Bitmojis deemed to be misrepresentative of their subject are done so purposefully. As I described, there is a margin of inaccuracy due purely to the lack of signifiers to choose from within the app. However, Bitmoji has become aware of this and has since released a game-changing update that drastically increased the accuracy of the recreation of the self: Bitmoji Deluxe. Bitmoji Deluxe offers such specificity in its signifiers that the pressure to have a true-to-self Bitmoji has not been relieved-- it has been heightened. In her essay “Thanks to Bitmoji Deluxe, my Bitmoji now gives me anxiety,” Stolyer expresses exactly what her title implies. The increased realism of the update caused Stolyer to “question physical looks [she has] never noticed before,” and described her “experience with the new feature [to be] filled with(…) anxiety.” While I cannot assume that this is a universal experience, this account clearly illuminates my point. Bitmoji is a new form of virtual identity that requires users to constantly be in a state of self-examination.

And for the reasons I have already discussed, self-examination is not a simple task. If I am truly just a bundle of selves or a collection of contradicting perspectives, then how can my Bitmoji ever really look like me? I posed the question: “how can we truly capture the self?”-- a question worth my exploration, and a question I wish I could answer within the confines of these closing thoughts. The only sentiment I can confidently leave you with is that we cannot allow philosophy to rob us of the existence of something as simple as physical appearance, as tempting as it may be. Truth and self still exist, just not in the ways that we think they do. Tompkins says it herself: “bringing perspectivism to bear in this way on any subject matter [has] a similar effect; everything is wiped out and you are left with nothing but a single idea-- perspectivism itself” (Tompkins 117). Perspectivism gives us the ability to diminish almost any truth, whether it be historical or personal. In my opinion, understanding the complexities of self is not an excuse to reject the self altogether and make your Bitmoji look like a big fat purple dragon. We are difficult to define, we are not intrinsically indefinable. As we must in any undertaking, in attempts to capture the self we must make decisions-- decisions formed by accepted facts. I will always have brown eyes-- and even if they may look hazel in a certain light, or if an unknown onlooker mistakes them for blue-- they will always be brown. We must take perspectivism with a grain of salt, and acknowledge that while truth exists in layers, there is always a foundation. So let’s use Bitmoji responsibly, with the understanding that even though we are victims of perspective, ultimately our own perspectives of ourselves should rise victorious. But first, be honest: does this look like me?

Acknowledgments

For my mom and my sister, who love my Bitmoji no matter what it looks like!

Works Cited

Hume, David. “Of Personal Identity.” A Treatise of Human Nature, 1738, pp. 133–139.

Pifko, Matthew. Class workshop. 15 November 2018.

Stolyar, Brenda. “Thanks to Bitmoji Deluxe, My Bitmoji Now Gives Me Anxiety.” Digital

Trends, Digital Trends, 1 Mar. 2018,

www.digitaltrends.com/features/my-bitmoji-gives-me-anxiety/.

Tompkins, Jane. “‘Indians’: Textualism, Morality, and the Problem of History.” Critical Inquiry,

vol. 13, no. 1, 1986, pp. 101–119., JSTOR,

www.umsl.edu/~alexanderjm/IndiansbyTompkins.pdf.

#technology #philosophy #social media #bitmoji #tori serpico #stretch2019

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CONGRATULATIONS YOU NO-PLATFORMED YOURSELF

LD50 Gallery is to shut its doors next month, as a statement from the Shutdown LD50 Campaign assures via landlord communique. Free speech is dead, so much for the tolerant left. The cultural echo chamber of lefty marxist fascist chimeras have destroyed the tyranny of differential opinion, leaving only a scorched earth where irony can never grow unfettered.

One less opportunity for a dodgy businessman, whose colleagues are ex-mob and are tied to wind farm investments cause that’s normal, to use a London art gallery space funding deal for something not related to movement and taxation or cleansing fiscal value exchanges wink emoji. One less venture for a curator with strange right-wing views, as if they’re a threatened species. Threatened by the inherent violence of the left! On the flipside, this occurrence presents an intricate web of gifts to the anti-normie libertarian or the lumpen privileged critics failing to get their arses in the pants of Real Journalism™. When incontrovertible evidence appears that conflicts with a shilled-for belief, just ignore it. When answers fail to appear, purposefully obfuscate the whole situ. Freedom of speech is freedom from consequence, something like that. Prognosticate a future desolation if the contemporary narrative is slowly torn apart, one full of mea culpas and false flag irony operations. Ripped to pieces by the hypocritical commie mallards! Nick Land is the outsider poised to immolate all received wisdom of the sodden philosophies that circulate in western arts & culture. Do not suggest the white hetero cis male should stop gentrifying and proselytising so much. Do not even suggest art criticism circles give them an easy ride, it’s supposed to be that way!?!?! It’s basically discrimination to suggest they should be platformed less. At the first sign of resistance all they have is eachother on twitter and DC Miller (who can travel irl on own budget very handy).

An important caveat to note, or ignore if it inconveniently breaks prefab libertarian emasculated rage, the individuals affiliated with the ShutDownLD50 campaign did not actually force the gallery to close and were fully non-violent. The protest, despite some muddy criss-crossing with other periphery groups, was to raise awareness that the gallery had organised talks with white supremacist speakers to coincide with an exhibition of alt-right artworks, which were promoted amongst far-right online forums. Unless you’re in court with the “tone police” this isn’t a manifestation that can be queried, although not visiting the show or listening/seeing any element of the talks shouldn’t be a barrier to form a livid hot take smashed out faster than an art bro penis without numbing lube (or cogitated slowly a week later, like a haunting and mercurial tinder post-date whatsapp chat gone awry). SDLD50 did raise that awareness to the immense credit of everyone involved, enough that the Mayor of Hackney was even none too pleased to make a statement about what he was made aware of. The landlord of the space wasn’t exactly thrilled to find out either, as most people wouldn’t be if they read the timeline of the events. So Moss and Diego, net art crusties flirting with the alt-right, move on finding solace with the most tolerated racist in the art world (Nick Land duh) and non-ironic Anders Breivik fanboy (Brett Rogers). Only reliable is the online support of eggs or erratic ariel pink tribute band rejects on androids, the vinegar smug kind who drive poor Owen Jones off of social media. With the osmosis of online/offline that can get scary. Richard Dawkins eat your godless heart out. Make space for Dude’s Law.

The poor helpless landlord, brainwashed by the real nazis, the art school liberals, booting out the cultural proletariat into the cold harsh streets of east London. They might have to find another racket to buttress their NRx fanfic experiment, buddying up to the garbage post-human internet symbiote worms of 4chan who won’t force them to acknowledge, apologise or even accept criticism in a forum outside of the electronic /pol abyss . Or a Piers Morgan AI.

Rote sarcasm aside, this wasn’t some kangaroo court. Right wing sympathies lie nascent everywhere in the London art scene, with all the money laundering and the dealers/collectors often being tories, the same tories pulling out all subsidies to arts education, forcing universities to run themselves like businesses which in turn makes art students behave like the children of a misguided Deliverance-Tron crossover project, apolitical career obsessed thirst hunters or “useful idiots of the art world” to borrow Megan Nolan's terminology. To oppose these things is not some hypocritical entanglement with an inconvenient truth, leave that to the art critics fighting with the concept of research and investigation when an article demands something beyond describing things. Those noble defenders and articulators of free expression, at least after the adverts for luxury clothing, expensive perfume and Sothebys auctions. The potentially misguided notion of art being something progressive, intrinsically liberal at source is another undercooked thesis proposal on the shelf, but in short it should ideally be a cultural infrastructure that supports a diversity of voices/practices. Also inclusive of the bad ones (even simchowitz likes instagram art and clipart abstractionism and the new museum likes slime in a fishtank with an arduino doing something nearby) and not, y’know, promotion for white supremacy and spinning it like it’s just part of the art. If the line isn’t drawn at tory donor, surely it can be drawn at the hinterlands of neo-nazism?

To end on a clarification, the call to “shut down” was not some humourless screeching tyre skid to protect the cabbage patch of that dangerous liberal echo chamber, nor was it a purgatorial wail to the state for some benign intervention. It was to say: white supremacism should be made untenable everywhere. Even in those “safe space” art galleries and any precious right-wing memezoid “snowflake” (to borrow their own terminology) artist or curator whose careers, or whatever nightmarish life trajectory they’re on, get hurt in the process might want to check their privilege and keep to the pages of ArtReview where they can whinge about triggered liberals in farting, clapping safety, far away from the real diverse communities of actual people who might actually want to live without threats of social cleansing, ethereal or otherwise.

Following are links to organisations where you can get involved and/or support: 56a Infoshop

Anti-University

Artists For Palestine UK

Arts Against Cuts

Autonomous Centre Edinburgh

BARAC / Black Activists Rising Against Cuts

BDZ Group / Boycott Zabludowicz

Black Lives Matter UK

Boycott Workfare

Cleaners and Allied International Workers Union

Cops Off Campus

Digs / Hackney Private Renters

Disabled People Against the Cuts

DIY Space for London

Independent Workers Union of Great Britain

Jewish Socialists’ Group

Lesbians and Gays Support the Migrants

London Anti-Fascists

MayDay Rooms

Movement for Justice

Mute Magazine

Novara Media

PCS Union Culture Sector Group

Plan C London

Radical Housing Network

TUC Black Workers

Sisters Uncut North London

South London Solidarity Federation

Goldsmiths UCU (University and College Union)

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[icychainges]

Fri, 10.13.17

Next Monday we start shooting 201. Come to think of it, this will be my first time shooting on a set this scale. There will be so much food all the time and so much little shit for us to deal with. Actually, I start with the writers in ktown Monday morning, but after they break I’ll prolly head to set. These two days Amelia and I put so much energy into making the charity setup that we’ll have tomorrow first day on set.

So much had happened in the past few weeks. Towel came and I hung out with her two days after my most exhausting day yet - our first day with the writers at the stages. We then had such a great night out dancing at the car dealership across from LACMA then going to Open House. Dang there’s such a dope vibe there. Now I go every week. This week met Ismail and Tori. Saw an amazing exchange by them. Tori is super cute.

Made awkward eye contact with Ali Brie as she walked out of C&L’s office when I never saw her walk in... constantly seeing new faces but not introducing myself cuz i’m awkward, but also exhausted, and busy doing PA stuff. Got dropbox current folder notifications figured out with IFTTT.

Last night Liz personally sent an email thanking me for the work I’ve been doing, felt amazing. 

Dana from Alchemist Coffee Shop remembered all my morning coffee orders. 

Packaged so much leftovers today from the production office in ziploc bags to give to the homeless. Third time seeing Michelle now. She’s the greatest person I’ve met during these trips. Tonight caught her reading a book with glasses. She was able to get a shower yesterday so her hair looks different too. And it sounds like they’re gonna be sheltered in a few weeks! Helped by a kind real estate agent or some sort, so amazing. 

Seeing the actors is getting less awkward, for me. Since I know their faces so well, and there’s so many of them, it’s a little more comfortable talking to them. Well it does help that they’re also super kind and great. Chatted with Britney Young the other day. Already like her so much.

Got my pikachu with the hoenn ash hat! Overwatch’s Halloween event finally started! been trying to beat it on hard mode with HomeAlone2, although honestly he’s not he most skilled player haha.

About to be 22 soon... starting to expand my LA circle. reaching out to my LA friends. but it’s so exhausting...it’s always nice to have a weekend to just relax, but i also want to socialize, but it also takes so much energy to plan...sigh. Yeah, got Tinder Gold. Hasn’t done much though. 

OH! Right. They’re writing in a new character who breakdances. Honestly have no idea if i had an influence on that or not. But they asked me to do research and stuff and now Shakira Barrera is in training! Really don’t think she’ll be getting power moves down this quickly though, they’ll prolly need stunt doubles...BUT. SO looking forward to shooting those episodes and been daydreaming about jamming with/battling the choreographer haha.

#journal17

[twentyminutemiso]

Tales from millennia

It's early April and i get an event invite on Facebook. Cool. I have a quick glance through the people invited and it's a funny hodgepodge, only about 5 people from my course who i know and they're all second years. Instead of feeling weird that not that people i know are invited, i feel flattered that I'm one of the few. Ged's kinda kooky and i wonder what his hipster white queer friends are saying. 

 Later I'm looking through the attending and i see a name. It's this hot boy who had a tantalisingly sparse conversation with me on tinder three years ago. I remember my internet stalking skills were pretty accomplished then so i had quite an extended fascination with him which i would often Return to, although i probably haven't looked him up for at least a year. I think that maybe it would be fun to check out the party with Rebecca whose also attending. I have a pre emptive scroll through of the boys socials. Maybe a couple of scrolls through. God do i hate Whilst being inherently defined by social media. 

Night of the party, I've had a beer with Anna and i see alice and himasha but i extricate myself and stumble towards becks house. She s looking super cute. She dyed her hair pink and she has this multicoloured bra top going on. A guy called will and his mate eesa are sitting at her table with the ridiculously small seats. Will's one of those naruto-loving mixed race boys. Mate, whose eyelashes are doing me some serious damage, looks like a male version of aqsa qureshi. They go to ARCA concert leaving me with becky to fill me in with details about new bb will. We do a line of coke and listen to pitbull and she shows me some clothes she got from oxfam finchley. On the way over the two boys rehearse some Japanese phrases within earshot of me. 

 Party. Kitchen scenario is super dark and quiet and cramped. Balcony scenario is quite peng but full of body's. I sit on a bed and a girl who's wearing some green 40s looking dress and a pink beret tells me how she's not privileged because she went to a states school in north West London. I just checked and the mp for her area is Tory so. She's OK anyway so i find her again later in another bedroom and we're taking about something about how i feel awkward. Out in the corridor i see how the boy i saw from the fb page just arrived. He's wearing the smallest beanie ever perched on his head kind of look. I make sure to pass them a couple of times whilst half securing a surreptitious glance.i go and sit out on the balcony making sure that i can see whoever is leaving. Becky and beau leave And i dont notice. I do a sweep of the house. They text me saying they left. No sign of the boy. I think he is like 28 anyway, there is like a maximum amount of time you can stay at a party with nineteen year old s before it gets inappropriate. 

 Fuck. There's some weird stock photo puppy looking guy who i bump into again who tells me about his acting career. Its time for me to leave. No sign of that boy. I think about how long his eyes would have glanced over me if i passed through his line of sight, whether his brain even registered the features on my face. 

Sitting at the bus stop i glance back towards the house. In my head a scene plays out where -oh! They're leaving the house now, they were in some upstairs room the whole time. We enact some kind of barely formed interaction in my mind. Maybe they're getting the N91 too. Maybe there's more to this story than me hopping on the bus home again. But probably not.

[a-kaash-me-outside]

hi i hope your days is going well :D this is for the matchup event!

my name is rini, she/her, leo, i like psychology, handwritten letters, amusement parks, cold nights, going on long walks and cats, interested in a guy (is this what u meant when u said gender or am i stupid LMFAO), looking for a long-term thing

i'm an intp, my perfect night is smoking up with my friends LMFAO or like just staying in, eating junk and watching anime, i love both dogs and cats don't make me choose </3, favourite hobby is probs taking a walk while listening to music, i like smoking but i prefer smoking up, drinking is fun from time to time, currently listening to sza, i'm an ambivert i think??

i hope this is alright i'm bad at sending asks LMFAO 😭

It was a pretty dismal day to be going to a theme park in all honesty. It had rained most of the morning, and the downpour had only let up about half an hour before you guys met up outside the park. 

“It doesn’t look like it's going to rain again,” you said looking up. “But we can do something else if you don't wanna risk it?” The lilt in your voice conceding your slight nervousness. Rin shrugged, keeping his hands in his pockets. 

“I’m not afraid of a little rain.” 

The first hour or so of the date seemed promising, lines were pretty short due to the earlier deluge and the slightly slippery concrete around the park gave him an excuse to snake his arm around you to keep you from falling. But just as you were sizing up your next ride choice for the day, the heavens opened. Rin kept a tight grip on your hand as you scampered towards the parking lot and into his car. After a long moment of silently panting and taking in the hammering of the rain on the windows you turned to each other and broke out laughing. 

“You’re soaked,” he said, grabbing at your sleeve before letting it go. 

“So are you!” you laughed, before leaning your head back on his headrest. “Well, what the fuck are we supposed to do now?” Rin stared out the window for a moment while he mulled over your question. 

“Hm,” he began. “I’ve got something, let me know if it's not your thing though, ok?” You gave him a questioning look before nodding and before you knew it he was climbing into the backseat.

“Uh, listen this is our first date I dont think-” you started, looking at Rin in the rearview mirror. He turned to look at you. 

“What?” he asked, brow furrowed and then very quickly, eyes widened. “Oh god, no no no! Sorry I should have explained. Shit, hang on.” He turned and opened the center console where a drinks holder was in between the back seats and reached his hand through to the trunk, pulling out a large baggy. 

“You smoke?” he asked, with a hopeful and slightly mischievous grin. Your face broke into a similar expression. 

“Hell fucking yes.” 

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Hi babes, so I already sent ut to your messages but I saw you said we can send them as asks so Here is my submission for the Tinder Match up event. I'm really excited to see who my match will be. And please let me know if I need to correct or adjust anything

Name: Mavis

Age: 24

Pronouns: she/her

Star sign : Scorpio ♏️

Bio: If what you're looking for is a girl with personality then you're in luck because I have multiple.

Interested in: Men

Looking for: casual hookup with someone funny, attractive and our vibe has to match

Myers Brigg type: INTJ

Dogs/cats/both: both

Favourite hobby:

HQ bestie: Kanji Koganegawa

Smoke/ drink: casual drinker

Introvert/extrovert/ambivert: introvert

// nsfw below minors dni //

he made it so disgustingly easy, really, every step of the way. he sent the first message, kept the conversation flowing, invited you over, made the first move. and more than that, it wasn't just easy, it was comforting, like sure, you were at this guy's house to hookup and sure, he led the way, but it wasn't sleazy or expecting. it was smooth.

he asked you questions and smiled at you and cracked jokes and he was the epitome of the perfect casual hookup. you couldn't have asked for him to be better, couldn't have asked for more chemistry.

you're not even sure when it switched from harmless flirting to where you're at now, everything melded so perfectly together. a confidently soft kiss, lingering touches, fingertips ghosting over your skin, tongue dragging down your body.

and now seated in his lap, leg on either side of his thighs, his head pressed against your shoulder nipping at whatever skin he can reach, soft groans between them as he lifts his hips to meet you, you feel complete. "holy shit," you breath, throwing your head back.

he wraps his arms around your waist, pulls you against his chest, lips softly brushing against your ear, tickling the side of your neck with his breathy scoff, "i've barely even started."

#tori's tinder event! #matsukawa x reader #matsukawa smut #toriwritesshit

[a-kaash-me-outside]

Hi! This is for your matchup event so I hope I did this right lol. Congrats on hitting almost 4k!!!💞💞

name (doesn't need to be real obv, could just be an emoji, i'll use as the title!) : V

pronouns: She/Her

star sign: Capricorn 

bio: (something for your matchup to msg you abt): I’m a horror artist, I work in both 3D and 2D mediums, and I’m obsessed with horror movies and rock music 

interested in (gender of the character you want to match w): Males

looking for (casual/hookup/long-term) (determines blurb type): This may be excessive but are we allowed to ask for all three? If not you can just pick whichever blurb type you want then lol 

myers brigg type: INFP 

your perfect night: Eating candy and watching horror movies together 

dogs/cats/both: CATS

Favorite hobby: watching horror movies/making art

hq bestie: Yachi

smoke/drink: Rarely drink 

currently listening to: Paint it, Black by The Rolling Stones

introvert/extrovert/ambivert: Introvert 

Some extras: I’m artistic and musical (I play piano). I have a major sweet tooth. I’m pretty shy and very introverted, I never go out unless my friends invite me to do something. But that’s not to say I hate being social, i do like socializing it’s just difficult. I’m short and pretty petite, only 5’0”, and I do like big height differences but it’s not a requirement. I can get very excitable and passionate about the things I like. I don’t like to take things too seriously and kinda just go with the flow. 

"what...," you start, words trailing off, eyes narrowing, trying to figure out how you wanted the rest of the sentence to come out of your mouth. you go for quizzical. "exactly am i look at?"

tendou throws his arms up in the air before making finger guns in your direction. "we're making horror chocolates." you tilt your head in question.

"what does that mean?" you ask. the sight in front of you is slightly less confusing, the plastic piping bags and smeared red food coloring making slightly more sense. the small plastic bags with various colored toppings and the jars of different flavored fruit jams becoming clearer. he doesn't even have to answer you. you start nodding, "i see, okay." and then you erupt in laughter, smiling painfully at his attempt to connect your interests. he did say that it was going to be a fun surprise. he wasn't wrong.

he teaches you a bunch of fancy chocolate techniques and terms and he helps you pipe the hot chocolate into little molds and he shows you how to pipe freehand onto the cold counters and when you're done you have, actually, some really cool looking creations, all edible.

"here," he says, picking up the chocolate he's made, "you try mine."

he offers the small sweet to you, extending his hand out for you to take it. a subtle surprise and a not-so-subtle blush spreads across his face as you lean down, mouth open, and take the chocolate from his fingers. your lips close around his fingers, tongue swiping over the pads where the chocolate has melted against his warm skin.

"it's really good," you admit, less sultry than you intend because it is, wow, really good.

he laughs at this, adjourned with a proud smile as he lifts another chocolate to your lips. "another?"

#tori's tinder event! #toriwritesshit #tendou x reader

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Hi! I'm here for your event! Congratulations by the way on the huge milestone!!

Name: Salem 🖤

Pronouns: She/Her

Zodiac: Scorpio

Bio: Just a spooky bitch that loves anime, psychology, the paranormal, cosplaying, and writing!

Interested in: Males

Looking for: Long-Term (my demisexual could never 😭)

MBTI: INTP

Perfect Night: Scary Paranormal videos, snacks, drinks, and all the lights off. Or driving around at night.

Cats or Dogs: Dogs

Favorite Hobby: Creative Writing!

HQ Bestie: Terushima or Osamu

Smoke/Drink: I have an alcohol phobia 😅 Smoke

Currently Listening To: After Dark by Mr Kitty

Intro/Extro/Ambi: Introvert all the way

Trivia about me: I have long black hair, I'm pretty chill, I talk a lot once I get comfortable, I consider myself Goth with Japanese fashion elements, I still listen to my 2013 emo music, I have chronic insomnia.

Thank you 🖤🖤🖤

“Don’t worry, I’ll protect you ;)”

That was the text you got an hour or so before meeting up with Bokuto outside of a haunted house some friends of yours were putting on. He greeted you with an enthusiastic call of your name and an all-encompassing hug so innocently doting it made your cheeks prick with blush. 

After spending some time wandering around the small fairground nearby, watching small children battle to see who would get the first shot at one of those strength games with a hammer and seeing others eating their weight in cotton candy, you decided to make your way into the event’s main attraction. 

“Better get ready to grab my hand, it could get pretty spooky in there,” Bokuto said in a half-joking tone. You smiled.

“I think I’ll be fine, but we better not take any chances,” you replied before taking his large hand in your own. It felt good there, in the dark, cool hallway at the entrance to the haunted house, the weight of Bokuto’s hand in your own felt just as grandiose as the hug he’d given you as a greeting. Bokuto didn’t do anything in halves. And apparently, that included protecting you. 

As you rounded the corner into the first room, a creepy-looking clown actor accosted the two of you, waving a large plastic machete in your face as he did so. You let out a screech of both surprise and delight, and before you could even turn to gauge Bokuto’s reaction you felt a pair of strong arms wrap around your waist and pull you backwards.

“Are you alright? What’s happening?” you said in alarm once Bokuto stopped, now back in the safety of the cool entryway. 

“Am I alright?! You screamed! Was it too scary for you?” The expression on his face was filled with such genuine concern that you could only let your jaw hang in disbelief. 

“Bo, of course, I screamed, it's a haunted house. That’s sort of the point.” You reached down to grab his hand, truly grateful for his concern, it was trembling slightly. Ah. You got it now, perhaps it wasn’t about you after all.  

“I, er, just didn’t want it to be too much for you, that’s all,” he said, rubbing the back of his neck. You smiled and squeezed his hand lightly. 

“Thanks, Bo, but I promise I’ll tell you if I need protecting, okay?” He returned your smile and nodded. 

“Okay.” 

“Ready to go back in?” you asked, pulling him towards the entrance. He gulped a little before nodding. 

“Ready as I’ll ever be.”

#tori's tinder event! #toriwritesshit #bokuto x reader #hq x reader #hq fluff #bokuto fluff

[a-kaash-me-outside]

For your 4K Tinder Match Up Event ❤️ Congratulations 🎉

name: Sarah (23)

pronouns: She/Her

star sign: Aquarius

bio: E.R. Nurse/EMT/Artist/Equestrian

interested in: men

looking for: hook-up/long-term

myers brigg type: Mediator (INFP-T)

your perfect night: eating at a restaurant and watch the stars together

dogs/cats/both: I have two dogs, cats are okay

favorite hobby: drawing, horseback-riding, traveling

hq bestie: prob Osamu or Bokuto

smoke/drink: neither

currently listening to: “Can’t help” by Parachute

introvert/extrovert/ambivert: introvert

it wasn't necessarily the first date that you were expecting, because, y'know, usually first dates aren't planned in the emergency room or on the clock. but this one did.

in the middle of a quiet afternoon, you were sat messaging back and forth with the cute guy who you had been stealing glances with ever since he set foot in the building. it took a few minutes to make sure that yes, indeed, you were the cute nurse in the emergency room right now and yes, indeed, he was the cute guy who came in for an injured wrist.

you stopped by to check up on him, not through tinder dms, but face-to-face, to hear his voice and take him all in.

"well, maybe when you're all healed you could take me out sometime," you offered. it's slightly more bold than you thought it would be, but he looked pleasantly surprised, slight smirk with a hint of sweetness.

"what time do you get off?" he asked.

you couldn't help your laugh, "i'm not sure we would have much fun with your broken wrist and all."

"actually, it's just a sprain," he shrugged, "left hand, anyway." he paused for a moment and then matched your boldness, "i'm sure we would have a whole lot of fun."

"i- well, i don't-," you cleared your throat, "i don't get off until later tonight, so." and now you're trying to think if there's anyway yo

"alright, sounds like a date," he smiled, "you getting off later tonight, that is."

#tori's tinder event! #toriwritesshit #ushijima x reader

[a-kaash-me-outside]

hello everyone!! look out for my 4k tinder match up event on Monday!!~ I am going to be writing a bunch of blurbs and matching whoever wants one with some hq characters! so like be around on Monday to participate

#hq x reader #hq x you #hq #hq fanfic #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu prompts #haikyuu fics #hq event #tori's tinder event!

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Hey!!! Congrats on 4K! I haven’t gotten a HQ matchup in a while so I’m excited for your event.

Profile info!

Name: Cindy (she/her) Libra

Bio: looking for someone to cook with, laugh with, go on adventures with, and face all life’s challenges with.

Interested in: male characters

Looking for: long-term

Myers brigg: ISFJ

Pets: Cat!

Hobby: bowling

HQ bestie: Sugawara

Smokes: never/Drinks: socially

Currently listening to: Star Walkin- lil nas x

Personality: Introvert/homeboy

after days of back and forth, both talking about the adventures you had been on and your favorite ones and the places you wanted to travel next and the things you wanted to do in the future, he offered you an adventure to add to your list.

you laughed at the message, sent some emojis and a message along the lines of haha maybe one day i'll make it there. but he sent you a photo of an itinerary scribbled on a piece of scrap paper and a link to train tickets and the next day you were on your way to meet him.

stepping off the train in a city that you had never been to, a small mountain town that you had heard needed to be on your bucket list, was slightly intimidating. the adventures that you had taken were typically with friends or, if they were solo, a bit closer to home, a bit more familiar.

but then you saw him, a messy bun with a few strands framing his face wearing a weirdly perfect combination of dressy adventuring clothes and you no longer felt out of place in this unknown city. he approached you, arms slightly outstretched and a blissful smile on his face.

maybe not the type to typically hug a tinder stranger, you went for it, because he was warm and inviting and familiar all wrapped up in one.

"i- wow, thank you for meeting up with me all the way out here, i've never been, but heard it was a must see," he said, pulling away, hand lingering on your forearm.

"i didn't think you were serious at first," you admitted, laughing a bit to yourself.

"well, i'm really glad you're here," he smiled, a soft moment in the middle of the train station for just the two of you. when you were ready, only when you were ready, did the moment end, his hand leaving your arm to gesture to the exit. "where to first?"

something tells you that this is just the start of a long line of "where to"s.

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