#tryna be god

[subconsciousmysteries]

Enneagram & Movement

If you look into the OG enneagram documents, they didn't even use it as a personality theory. Gurdijeff was never typed with an "ego fixation" until after his death.

The creators of enneagram used it to map processes in nature. Read the Wikipedia page about the original enneagram, pre-Naranjo and pre-Ichazo. The OG theorists never took the movement out of the enneagram like Naranjo did when he wrote his chapters about all the different types as if they are static caricatures rather than moving beings. the original theorists were OBSESSED with movement between the numbers. They were trying to map biology to the hexad types.

In modern enneagram, we are obsessed with pinning ourselves to a static point, which I think is moronic because an enneagram that doesn't move is a dead symbol. Never forget this quote.

In order to understand the enneagram it must be thought of as in motion, as moving. A motionless enneagram is a dead symbol, the living symbol is in motion. - George Gurdijeff

Tritypes based on the head / heart / gut triad were not a thing until Oscar Ichazo made them so. Pre-Ichazo, enneagrammers were concerned with all sorts of "tritypes" beyond the 27 common ones we know. 147, 285, 369, 428, 571, etc. They were even concerned with quadtypes, quintypes and sextypes. There was far more flexibility in their thinking about how to use the enneagram map, as they did not confine themselves to these arbitrary rules that we use in modern enneagram, and they were not obsessed with their own ego fixations.

The Sufis used enneagram as a personality theory, but not in the same way we do in 2022. Again, they were not obsessed with their own egos. They did not go labelling themselves as this number and that number. They explained the points on the enneagram as vices / virtues that all humans have inside of them and all humans can relate to.

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As for me, I type myself the way I do because that is the movement I observe inside of myself. I never saw my fixation as an ego fixation that I needed to "fix" or rid myself of. I saw it as an impartial pattern operating inside of me, for better or for worse. A pattern I enjoy observing, through observing my feelings and reactions and psychological state over time.

I am someone who started from observing the enneagram inside of myself as a moving symbol. Now I am expanding towards seeing it more broadly applicable to things beyond myself and the personalities of people I know. Going back to the basics where we applied it to biological patterns and nature patterns and patterns which weren't our egos. But perhaps starting from inside ourselves and our feelings and our reactions is the best way to develop a framework which lets us understand things more broadly.

#i am in the enneagram rabbit hole #because i can feel this system in my body #it is realer than any rabbit hole ive been down. most rabbit holes are just fakedeep. #arbitrary symbolism thrown together by some dude tryna be deep #tryna be god #like all the freemason symbolism #but with enneagram #i can feel the movement of the patterns #thats why the inventer (gurdijeff) is always typed as an 8-9 liner... lol... zero shock #george gurdijeff #enneagram #typology #sufi mysticism

[brambeag]

that girl. from that game!

#lil warmup from tryna do smthn else god bless #morrigan #myart #dragon age

[shuueep]

More of the ex-colleagues(?) I think

Damn

#I love slowburn and angst #prismo #prismo the wishmaster #scarab #scarab the god auditor #prohibited wish #prohibitedwish #I tryna draw on my iPad after while so it looks weird #sorry man #human scarab #human prismo #comic silly

[lacebird]

#plot what plot

HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN in THE LAST MAN (2019)

#mine #gifs #hayden christensen #hchristensenedit #the last man (2019) #the last man #kurt matheson #filmgifs #filmtvcentral #dailyflicks #mensource #dilfgifs #dilfsource #filmedit #userthing #usersource #flawlessgentlemen #menedit #mancandykings #tuserlarissa #lads i think i saw god #also dont ask me to gif *those* scenes bc i WONT #tryna keep it tasteful here adsfgdfh #also also this movie is a NIGHTMARE to color holy shit #but the coloring i'm V happy about oof

[maomango-doodle]

Playing around with the color wheel WEEE

#self-indulgent doodles babyyy #mostly a mix of pose studies and chibis #my fave color is green but im rly into pink lately #color palettes based on pride flags btw. except for the last doodle page #gender is like clay. its whatever i want it to be 🫶 #half op vash and no op knives are so important to me #love me some relaxed/silly vw. sharing clothes or glasses #SOOOO normal about ww wearing vash's coat :DDD #and vash being comfortable enough to let his wings and feathers out around ww and not cover up his scars #also tryna come up with a name for legato-vash-midvalley trio. not even a romantic trio theyre just a couple of buffoons annoying each othe #midgatovash? legavashvalley?? VHS as in vashhornsummers?? valleybluestyphoon??? #god im so bad at coming up with names..... #i'm mainly thinking of their dynamic in '98 but trimax also works #so much flavor to this trio imo #anyway. it's fun playing dress up with characters and trying to find what would fit their style and all. i wanna do more of that #trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #vashwood #millions knives #legato bluesummers #millionsummers #midvalley the hornfreak #shinxo art

[shrublub]

floor 19

original: @/hustlehousela (tiktok)

#idk if norse demigods can use phones LOL #magnus chase and the gods of asgard #alex fierro #magnus chase #mallory keen #tj #thomas jefferson jr #mcga #pjo #riordanverse #all my contributions to rrverse fandom r shitposts lol #this is how it’s like in asian families too tryna sneak everyone in one hotel room #my art #artists on tumblr #fanart

[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

Peedee on ice ^_^ and a double date !!!

"Rhombuses are significant if you try hard enough" - Ashton tryna convince me to add a rhombus choker to Ashe ^_^

#night thoughts #art thoughts #jrwi #jrwi prime defenders #prime defenders #jrwi pd #ashe winters #dakota cole #vyncent sol #william wisp #demonkicks #god it was hard tryna convey that the skates were ghost shaped #but hope i did a good job ^_^ teeheez

[amiracleilluminated]

#spider man: across the spider verse #across the spiderverse #spiderverseedit #atsvedit #animationedit #*gifs #i was a dicaprio meme when he said the thing #GOD that man is stupid. why you tryna outbeef a baby

[yashley]

fearne: *is an Animal* imogen: *Gives Scritches*

#critical role #imogen x fearne #imogearne #ygifs #honestly god himself had 2 stop me from adding John mulaney's I Think Imogen Temult Is a Furry but yk what I don't need 2 see it 2 see it #imogen calling horse fearne a good girl like I've read enough 1 fic to have that ruined for me but I will absolutely definitely take it #not shown here but snake fearne in episode 3 just flicking her tongue at imogen to say hi ok yeah I mean sure #also rat fearne and imogen hijinks of imogen tryna shove her tiny rat ass through the BOTTOM of the door like sure I mean yeah #fearne turns into an animal and imogen goes I mean yeah thats mine #also means NOTHING to me that Imogen suggests quokka and fearne goes so I'm going with quokka as if that's not druid flirting OK I hate it h

[nessie-bessie]

they got my account y'all, not once, BUT TWICE ;_;

anyways I had to draw the comfort character + doodle dumps from last month (discord)

#clone high #nessiebessie #faq u tumblr oh my god #did a real great job tryna help me too #/s #did u get the m.h.a references btw

[inbredlamb]

twin flame ♡

#peace #pure beauty #ethereality #dereality #deer photography #derealization #how im tryna be #photo dump #abandoned by god #grungy aesthetic #trailer boy #fawn response #in love #you tasted love and it tasted sweet #early 2000s #nature #fawncore #deerlife #alterhuman #appalachain mountains #rural america #woods #i love the woods

[lyss-butterscotch]

Art/shiptrade with @pansear-doodles

You can't give me your ship and expect me to not draw them dance

#the lesbeans the girlbosses #oh my god not a gijinka art???? #plus doodles of me tryna figure out how to draw anthros comfortably #rain world #rw hunter #rw artificer #artihunter #my art #art trade #lyss art

[moliathh]

[alucard/hellsing]

—“But who prays for Satan? Who in eighteen centuries, has had the common humanity to pray for the one sinner that needed it most”

#hellsing #alucard hellsing #i enjoy doing boards too much #these quotes is so inspirational like i just take a look and goes ahh this is about alucard #that is a mark twain quote btw #i like how alucard was sarcastically asking did god descend? with mouth full of fangs and venomous words #he had truly become lucifer the bitter and arrogant fallen angel always the child with a temper #alucard is my lovely unreliable narrator #of course he is not unlovable and his mouth isnt just for ripping flesh #but good luck tryna convince him he deserves love

[tojisun]

thinking about the way he’d lift you up in his arms, helping you as you wrap your legs around his waist, before gently sandwiching you between his bigger body and the wall, and then fucking you like that. you’re weightless in his arms, crying and moaning, hiding your tear-stained face on the crook of his neck as he bounces your body on his cock, gripping the meat of your thighs as he does so.

“you’re so good to me, sweetheart,” he’d say, nuzzling his face on the side of your cheek, preening when all you could do is gasp out a shaky moan of his name. “that’s right, sweet girl. you’re daddy’s greatest joy.”

– jake, tonowari, quaritch

#suns.hc #collecting the dilfs 🤞🏼 #jake sully x reader #tonowari x reader #recom quaritch x reader #jake sully #tonowari #recom quaritch #atwow smut #suns #i was tryna write a jake fic but it fit them all my god 😭

[jacenotjason]

"CandyBatz au where Streber is a vampire giggle giggle teehee" NO CandyBatz au where KEVIN is a vampire and Streber LOSES HIS SHIT

ill draw this later i promise

#"OH MY GOD VAMPIRES ARE REAL!! #“im just tryna do my job” #spookymonth #spooky month #spooky month au #candybats #kevin x streber #streber x kevin

[just-null-cult]

the way you drew kokichi .. i think im ascending to the heavens .. i see the light .. chest collapsing .. heartbeat flatlining ..

oho, a Kokichi enjoyer!! tysm!! it was my first time drawing him at the time so im glad i didnt fail him. i dont want to fail any of the kyoto group. i love them all!! even w my clear favoritism

he's nice too, a bit more expressive than Noritoshi so i can finally draw something that isnt :| or >:( even if it isnt by much- i like him too

I like how he's both a dick but also kinda sweet. He's a different flavor of tsun... i can use this. my knowledge on him is limited but FROM WHAT I SAW IN THE WIKI OH MY GOD???????? OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! KOKICHI!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#muta kokichi #kokichi muta #mechamaru #kokichi muta x reader #mechamaru x reader #? i guess #double post lets go im tryna be as fast as lightning #woah a non noritoshi post... crazy....... #my hands feel tingly and weird #my blog is so yume centric that my one track mind made you a love interest right off the bat #fuck it. everyone's in love w you unless stated otherwise #congrats. youre a harem leader/protag now except i have a strong bias towards one guy unless asked abt someone else #AND I JUST FOUND OUT MORE ABT KOKICHI???? WHY AM I FUCKING CRYING????? DUDE WHAT THE FUCK #OH NO THIS IS NOT CORRECT.. IS THIS WHAT SHIBUYA ARC IS???? DUDE #IM GONNA RIP OUT MY HAIR. THIS CANNOT BE. I CANT FAWN OVER ANOTHER CHARACTER W SO LITTLE SCREEN TIME AND CONTENT GOD PLEASE #HE GIVES SO MANY VIBES..... LIKE FUCKED UP 'i'll sacrifice the world for you' VIBES AND ITS MAKING MY BRAIN KRCHAKKRCHAKKRCHACK #kokichi muta... another hidden gem.... wipes tear #we'll treat you right kokichi... sobs. there there