#u can ignore i'll delete later!!!

[millenniummmbop]

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#LISTEN ALL IM SAYING IS kaiba is such a deeply complex and off the wall character #there's mental illness there's drama there's insanity there's nonesense there's DEPTH #he's a huge fucking edgelord drama queen bitch and he's CELEBRATED for it and TEE BEE AYCH #u RARELY get that in a female character and it is a FUCKING CRIME #😔😔😔 #like u wouldn't even have to change anything about his character just keep him exactly the same IT WOULD STILL WORK #i PROMISE u the whole power fantasy anger issues manic depression tragic backstory gay gay homosexual gay thing will carry through #GOD #sorry im like thinking about that post that was all #'the secret to writing a good female character is just to write a good character' #give me a cringe fail bitch i can properly project on or give me death #just give me more angry fucked up girls vr1ska cannot keep carrying all that weight on her shoulders #like i'll be in the rival tag on pixiv or ao3 and it's like #here is 99 girl yugis and MAYBE TWO girl kaibas if you've finished all ur hw and done all ur chores #like that's cool and fine but #girl the jealusty is CORE to kaiba's character why wouldn't u wanna keep it gay #why wouldn't u wanna explore the deranged insanity of GIRLS trying to kill each other a children's card game #why r u so afraid to love #ignore me #delete later #it's like 4 am racing thoughts go brrr #i guarantee none of this will make any sense to me when i read it back in the morning #very unlikely i'll remember writing all this as well #there's stitches in my mouth that have been pissing me off all WEEK and it's the only reason im awake and angry r n HHHHHHHHHHH

[kalloway]

WIP of Vyloris, who is done real dirty by being useless compared to other Hypogean heroes while having one of the coolest designs in the whole game, smh

#delete later #myart #wip #fanart #artists on tumblr #if she wasnt a SG-only build... I would simp build her lmao but I have more self control than that... sort of #anyway can u tell i only *kind of* know how to bullshit shiny metal stuff in the colouring? lol #like only works 50% of the time but im sure this is fine 8) I'LL FIGURE IT OUT #also do u like my strategy of drawing/figuring out most of the drawing THRU the lineart and along the way instead of like... #being planned out properly from the start? :') #half the dang details I keep having to be like “OH right I have to even draw that still” and there's still so much more to go RIP #but im liking how this is turning out so I'm trying to ignore those feelings of... overwhelm-ment??? what even is english tbh

[midnightsnyx]

girl at home | mat barzal | part 1

pairing: mat barzal x fem!reader summary: you're eighteen when you find yourself pregnant after Mat leaves for hockey. nearly eight years later, Mat finds out about your daughter and you have to deal with the consequences of not telling him about her.

warnings: mentions of pregnancy & not really edited word count: 1.3k authors note p1: don't mind me starting a new series when i have four other wips on the go :):) i love kid fics and this idea was stuck in my head so i wrote & decided to give it a go and post it. if this does well and you guys are interested, i'll do more. authors note p2: so notes about the series: i gave the readers daughter a name because i hate writing y/d/n lol of course you can change it in your head to something else if you want :) also the last name johnson is just there so i could have a full name but we all know she'll be a barzal also thank u @multifandombabes for giving me the push to post this!! happy reading & let me know what you guys think!

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In hindsight, you should have realized that it was bound to happen sooner rather than later. You did your best to avoid places you knew he would be when he was home, going to visit your grandparents or other family. Anywhere that would give you the opportunity to not be seen by him, because then you’d have to explain your brown haired, green eyed, seven year old. 

You weren’t proud of your choice to keep Nora a secret from Mat but you did what you thought was right when you were eighteen, sitting on the floor of your best friend’s bathroom four weeks after you had said goodbye to Mat and staring at three positive pregnancy tests. He had just left for hockey and you didn’t want to be what held him back and as time went on, it got harder to pick up the phone so a few months after Nora was born, you erased Mathew Barzal from your life. You deleted the photos, phone numbers, social media, with the only reminder being the little girl.

And it worked fine. Until now.

Nora usually didn’t come grocery shopping with you because you always ended up taking three times as long as you normally would. Except, your sitter fell through and your mom couldn’t watch her so you had to bring her along. Which is totally fine until you run into Mat. Who has a girl with him. 

So yeah, everything was fine until now.

It’s kind of comical the way his panicked eyes dart between the three of the girls standing around him. A quick glance at Nora confirms that she’s two seconds away from saying something to Mat which will not go well since the kid has zero filter.

“Hey, you’re that hockey player mama and grandma watch on TV!” she exclaims and you want to melt straight through the floor when Mat looks at you with one eyebrow raised. 

“Yeah?” he asks, kneeling down so he’s at her level.

“Yeah,” she confirms, and then loudly whispers: “I’m not supposed to watch ‘cause some games are past my bedtime but sometimes I’ll sneak out.” 

He offers his hand and smiles. “Well, it’s nice to meet you…” he trails off, clearly hoping she’ll offer her name. You hope she just says her first name instead of announcing her full name which she tends to do lately.

“Nora,” she tells him, shaking his hand and then to your unsurprised horror, she proudly tells him her full name. “Nora Nadia Johnson.” 

He keeps the smile on his face but stiffens and gently drops her hand. 

“Cool name,” he says, still smiling but you can see the tension in his shoulders. 

“Thanks! My first name means light and my middle name-”

She doesn’t get a chance to finish her sentence because you grab her hand, abandon your shopping cart and high tail it out of the store. She grumbles while trying to keep up with your pace and eventually you just pick her up and carry her to the car.

“What did we say about talking to strangers?” you ask while buckling her seatbelt, ignoring her annoyed sighs. 

“He wasn’t a stranger, you watch him on the TV all the time.”

“Have you ever met him?” you ask, raising an eyebrow and she mumbles something under her breath.

“What was that?”

“No,” she mumbles, crossing her arms over her chest and giving you a look that is so Mathew that you could laugh.

“Well then, he’s a stranger.” 

You leave it at that because she starts talking about the summer camp she’s starting next week. You’re only half listening, trying to get over the shock of seeing Mat and knowing he realizes that he probably has a kid you never told him about. If you were in his shoes, you would be angry so you are expecting him to show up on your doorstep later that evening but he doesn’t. Part of you wonders if the reason he doesn’t come is because of that girl he had with him but you figure if he really wanted answers, he would come regardless. 

What you’re not expecting, is a text from his sister Liana. You still see his family from time to time out in public but after you essentially ghosted Mat, they didn’t really want anything to do with you. When everybody found out you were pregnant, you lied and said it wasn’t Mat’s which nobody really believed but they couldn’t prove it and you’d used your mothers maiden name as Nora’s last name so there were no ties. You were surprised that his family didn’t tell him anyways, but you thought that perhaps they didn’t for the same reason you didn’t.

To give Mat no reason to stay here and instead, pursue his dreams and go play in the NHL. 

So a text from his sister is unexpected. 

Liana: hey, are you free for lunch tmw?

You almost delete it at first and pretend she never messaged you, but you know that there’s no going back now that Mat saw Nora. He’s not stupid. He probably went home and asked his parents about her. So you text her back a reluctant yes and agree on a spot to meet up the next day.

Nora goes to your moms house because you’re unsure if it will just be Liana who shows up, or if anyone else does. You meet up at a Starbucks and aside from the initial tension, it melts almost immediately and the two of you go back to the big sister/little sister relationship you had when you and Mat were dating. Except now, she’s all grown up.

After some catching up, the conversation turns to the reason she asked to see you. She hesitates, picking at her nails - a nervous tick you know she does - before sighing. 

“Look, everybody kind of turned their head with ‘The Nora Situation’ because it was clearly what you wanted, and it was probably what was best for Mat,” she says. “But he knows now, and he’s got questions that we can’t and won’t answer. Dad had to talk him down last night and his girlfriend went back to New York this morning.”

You wince at that, not liking that the reason his girlfriend left is because of Nora but Liana must notice because she shrugs, taking a sip of her drink.

“Honestly, she wasn’t very nice. I’m not broken up over it and Mat didn’t seem to be either.” 

Okay, that is interesting. 

“Anyway,” she continues, “this is Mat’s new number.” She slides a small piece of paper across the table and you gingerly take it. “I know you didn’t want to tell him, and I understand but he knows. So give him a chance, okay?”

You manage a nod and let her leave with the final word. All you want to do is take Nora and leave, to get as far away as you can but something inside you stops you from doing it because maybe Liana is right, and you should give Mat a choice. After all, you were the one who decided to take it away from him in the beginning. 

So later that night, after Nora is asleep, you curl up on your couch with the piece of paper and stare at it for a good fifteen minutes. Regardless of whether or not you text him, you will have to deal with this and you’d rather it be on your terms. You reluctantly type his new number in your phone and hesitate, trying to think of what to even say. This isn’t a conversation you were expecting to have with him. You type and delete a dozen messages before deciding on something simple.

To Mathew: Hey, I guess we should talk.

You take a deep breath, and hit send.

#hockey imagines #allies writing #nhl fanfiction #hockey fanfiction #nhl imagines #hockey imagine #mat barzal x reader #mat barzal imagine #mat barzal fanfiction #mat barzal fic

[svt-chanel]

hiii!! sorry for the random ask (and you could totally private reply to this too), i found your blog from a friend, and i noticed that the fc of chanel is mina (lover her btw), but you listed her nationality as australian-korean-vietnamese. No hate or anything, but since mina is japanese and not of korean blood, and while you also listed her as chan's half sister (which chan is full korean ethnicity wise and korean-aussie nationality wise), it comes off as a little weird. Having her as hanni's (who is 100% viet ethnicity wise and aus-viet nationality) half sister also comes off as a little confusing too. This is kind of like ethnobending, so I just wanted to let you know. You can totally keep her fc as mina, but it would be nice to change up the nationality or to not have her as chan's half sister and hanni's half sister. I hope this doesn't come off as rude or hate, I just want to help a fellow addition out!! I do love the little antics and posts you make about chanel, but I wanted to bring this up. Hope this finds you well <3 If you have any other questions feel free to shoot me a dm and I can clarify/explain more if needed!

hihi!! I decided to private reply to this but I'll unprivate it if anyone else will need clarification about this! Yes I understand that Mina is Japanese but I made Chanel Viet-Aussie-Kor. I did do this intentionally because I

Couldnt find any viet idols that were older (like older than hanni or were popular)

I wanted something unique!

Chanel is a very unique character with her personality and her family! At first she was only gonna be Viet-Aussie but I kept on changing Chanel wether it was from her fc to her nationality/ethnicity. I made her Korean even though mina has no Korean blood because Chan however does have Korean blood and was also born there but raised in Australia. Idk if I've said this one her profile or anywhere else before but she's Korean because she has Korean blood and was born there (the Korean blood comes from her/chan's mother) and the thing is her backstory is rhat her mother and father met in Korea (before her + chan's birth) in high-school and even had a relationship with each other until in college they broke up cuz she cheated on him with Jack (Chan's father). Years later during 1997 Jessica (Chan's/Chanel's mother) is already pregnant with Chan (and she doesn't know) but Jessica and Her Father meet again in Korea while he was on vacation there and then they...yk (I heard u can actually get pregnant with twins by different fathers if u have...yk while ur pregnant) and then after that Chan + Chanel were born and yeah! And then ofc later Hanni was born by her mother bur Chanel's father which makes all 3 of them Half siblings.

I chose Mina as her fc because at first I didn't know what I wanted for Chanel and didn't plan anything out for her yet at the time but I saw Mina and was like "She's an underrated faceclaim plus she's pretty and gives off a elegant vibe." (The vibe I kinda wanted Chanel to give off at the time) I knew Mina is Japanese but just ignored it at the time and hoped nobody gave me problems with it!! (Whoch btw u haven't its just a question!) And I knew this question would come some day but didn't expect it to come this quickly. But yeah! I'll probably either change her fc (sigh again) or change her nationality cuz I PERSONALLY think the Hanni, Chan, and Chanel as half-siblings is really cool or ill just have one of them as her full sibling (which will most likely be chan). Or I'll just save it for a different oc or just delete her entirely and make a different Svt addition.

But either way I really appreciate that you like the antics of Chanel that I post about! (More ade coming from the drafts soon!!) And ofcourse I will and maybe in the future we can become friends!

-xx love Akuma/Woo

#chanel svt #14th member of seventeen #fictional kpop community #kpop female addition #kpop female member #femaleidol #idol oc #🦢: chanel solo #woo verse ִֶָ ࣪៹ chanel #🦢.svt #𓇼. . . ⟿ Lies are sometimes sweet // friends !! #𓇼. . . ⟿ Lies are sometimes sweet // asks ! #𓇼. . . ⟿ Lies are sometimes sweet // clarification !! #𓇼. . . ⟿ Lies are sometimes sweet // help !!

[shinakazami1]

I'll delete this later but I will respond to the Fernator asks in the future, this week my health got worse and a few things happened irl so I'm trying to rest as much as I can

but yeah, just wanted to update to folks that in not ignoring u 🙏 thanks for ur support

#Delete latte

[ufolvr]

It's been short minute since I made this post but I'm realizing its all hormone infused ocd overthinking making me sick and scared so. Take this with a grain of salt + I might delete it later.

Ok tiptoeing my way around this but I don't think I'll ever like. Come clean about certain f/os bc they're meant to represent horrible people or are downright vile and it makes Me second guess how i view them.

And yeah I understand fiction affects reality I'm not saying I should be allowed to do whatever unapologetically that'd ignore years and years of media supporting systemic oppression and normalizing it. Whatever.

What I am saying is that liking a character from a certain show can make people uncomfortable and make them not want to talk to you and make assumptions about you and your moral stance on things. And I just straight up do not want to give strangers that opening towards me.

I'm not saying I support creators who use their platform to harm minorities like scott cawthon or jk rowling btw. Nor that I love shit like sp hetalia or aot which are straight propaganda. And also don't take this statement to mean "it's ok guys I'm bad but I'm not bad like Those people uwu" leave me alone. Also doesn't mean I like characters who are underage btw if you were wondering.

I don't know what I wanted to say with this. Just like. Some of my f/os are for me and my friends alone bc unless u know me and I know u know me I will be constantly afraid u think I'm a freak monster or that I endorse what the characters in question stand for.

I don't know. I don't know! I'm near my period I have mad ocd and other issues I overthink way too much and think liking a problematic character will send me to hell (figuratively). Hopefully u won't think I'm hiding demonic secrets in my basement for saying this.

#feel free to not read this its just me venting about liking some bad characters. #📡 incoming transmission 📡

[doeyedangel]

hii feel free to ignore / delete!! i don't know where to begin ,, i was sa'd as a child (merely six years old) and groomed online four years later ,, and i crave abuse ,, not s3xu4lly but abuse as in the "more known" abuses such as physical abuse ,, i feel horrible for thinking, WISHING that i was abused differently ,, so much so that i fantasize about being in such a relationship ,, i dont know if im coping or if im genuinely fucked in the head or both ,, m sorry for dumping on you </3

hi dear, i'm so sorry you had to go through that :(( the effects of trauma and abuse can manifest in a lot of ways and one of them is definitely craving unhealthy relationships because it's familiar/you feel like you deserve it. There's a few articles talking about this cycle i'll link for you below. I just want you to know that you're not alone in how you feel at all, but you deserve so much better than to be hurt or used, you deserve gentleness and love and kindness. I really really hope you can get the help you need, whether it's a therapist or a really good friend/support who you can talk to but please don't let yourself get into a dangerous situation okie? ;u; sending you lots and lots of love <33

#csa tw #abuse tw #craving abuse #asks #anon

[mistressmooncake]

A lot has changed. I dumped my meta. I got rid of all the extra toy boys and started seeing that latest boy [W] exclusively.

I don't think I can be poly. I'm truly just awful at it. I'm not madly in love with him yet but it's getting close. He's very good to me and good for me. The sex is incredible. He fucks me like an escaped convict. His cock is impecable. He's down to earth and honest with me. He talks to me. Everything I look at him I melt.

One of my old fuck buddies (barely, if that) has gone kinda psycho on me. He keeps trying to be besties but anytime he's upset or mad I have to deal with it. He says I'm all he has but that's not my problem.

He asks me to babymetal. I say not really my thing. I think he thought he had a hole in one with the band and was surprised I said no. People are idiots when they assume what I like. Yes I like anime. Yes I like metal. No I'm not a super fan of babymetal like God wtf. To assume makes an ass of u and me.

Anyway when he's annoyed I say no he goes around in circles with the same shit and then wonders why when I start getting annoyed and then it's "calm down". I say OK, it's all good and leave the chat app. What I don't know is he sent some message about having anxiety as I closed it and I didn't see.

Later I'm with my bf and I see him messaging and I just ignore it thinking I'll get back to him. Then he starts calling me. I miss the first time but he calls immediately after anyway and I pick up thinking something is wrong.

I'm say hello he's like YES. HI. I ask if hes ok hes like NO. IM FREAKING OUT RIGHT NOW. I'm like oh ok why. And then he tucks I to me for leaving the chat and not being there for him and I'm like wtf OK I didn't know hes like OFC YOU DIDNT. I take it on the chin and manage to calm him down and we get off the phone.

He deletes the messages he had sent I'm sure they were some whiny bullshit. But then he sends some more messages later that night. I don't check them till the next day when I'm out.

He was really nasty and made all this commentary on what I should have done with my last bfs, what my new bf should know about me, and how he was hoping to be my bf after I dumped my meta (who he's friends with). That's it. He's pissed he wasn't immediately promoted to bf. He's pissed he's been waiting all this time for me to dump my meta, expecting he's next in line, some knight in shining armour. Like we're some star-crossed lovers meant to be. Like i fucking owe him something. He thinks his fucking opinion on what I do and who I see is best? Fucking seriously? He's also coerced sex out of me before and didn't know it was a form of rape until I told him when I started backing off after.

He began seeing a shrink the last few months and he's trying to tell me what's wrong with ME. Bruh. I know I have problems at least I can manage them, who tf are you to diagnose me?

I tried. He keeps trespassing. The worst thing is he thinks he's do harmless and nice he literally is in denial about how much of a fucking incel he is. He seriously thinks he's not like other men but he's exactly the same. I was too i only really clicked on after all that disrespectful inappropriate bullshit made me so fucking angry i saw him for what he is. He lashes out then thinks he can be all sorry I wasn't in a good head space and that wasn't me I'm sorry blah blah. Fuck off. It is you. It's the bad parts of you. We all have it. We control it.

I realised I was getting no good out of this friendship. I get anxiety when he messages me. He does not spark joy in my life in any way.

I sent him a large message about how he can't just apologise for repeat shittiness and expect everything to be fine. I asked him to leave me alone and that if I wished to speak to him I would.

I don't even want to talk to him again. So fucking done. He's so toxic.

#rant post #sex blog #tumblr diary #diary entry

[snippyrocket]

mental health talk below the cut:

feel like shit lol my house is a mess, i’m a mess, my routine is a mess, and i’m just not............ the most talkative right now. 

might need to check out my thyroid again because sleepy bitch disease & insomnia are whacking me hard at random and i’m like. hm. my appetite is also through the roof again to where I’m needing to eat a ton of food, yet I’m not gaining weight. which probably means my body is begging for energy rn.

also, being isolated in a foreign country is the most crippling loneliness i have ever experienced??? I haven’t touched another human being in months and I haven’t spoken to anyone face-to-face in my native tongue since the end of March. I want a hug so bad and I’m jealous of all y’all who got family/roomies to quarantine with.

we’re due to go back to school next week which should solve the loneliness, but i’m a little bit skeptical about how they plan to socially distance as many students as we have??? i work in one of the biggest schools in the country and i see no way of distancing 40 pupils per classroom when there’s barely enough room to walk between desks placed two-together, nevermind providing 2m between every child.

add to that, the issues of distancing in the corridors during breaktimes and keeping everything ventilated when it’s getting hotter??? it’s a constant battle to keep fresh air circulating in the room under normal circumstances, nevermind with all this pandemic stuff.

let’s not even talk about the hour-long commute there and back, in which i’m normally crammed against people on a packed train. Yikes.

i’m also at risk bc of asthma and previous pneumonia bouts so i’m just. not happy right now. things are reopening too fast for my liking and i understand that kids need an education, but it feels like we’re just guinea pigs here??? idk.

yes, i’m goofing off here for the time being bc it makes me happy. but i’m not great. so i’m sorry if i drop off or w/e.

#( outofcharacter. ) #( tbd. ) #// mental health #// covid 19 #this is a lil bit of a vent post sorry dfjkkjdf #u can ignore i'll delete later!!!

[fandomfan315]

Hey I started taking Greek on duolingo even though I only know basic French and that in no way will assist me in learning Greek and like if. If anyone here. Knows how to pronounce each greek letter. Please h e l p m e,,,,

This is the keyboard I have that I use so. Yeah. I feel like all I need to learn is to stop thinking of these letters like English letters and start associating them with the different greek sounds,,,

I only know a few of the letters tbh

λ is y, δ is d(or maybe v??), φ is psee, ρ is p(?), τ is t(?), ο is o, α is a, ζ is zee, ω is o(?), β is b(?), and ν is vee(?)

As u can tell there's lotsa question marks lmao

Just send in an ask ig if u can help? I dont rlly want to risk my dms gettin filled, even if the chance is super low lol

Anyways happy scrolling! If you ignore this post thats totes fine lmao idrc ^-^

#long post #duolingo #greek language #learning languages #learning greek #dee speaks #I'll probably delete later tbfh #delete later #can ignore #feel free to ignore #i love how im in the middle of learning french and my brain goes 'bitch im bored lets go to greek' and immediately im on board lmaooo #like my french teacher can view my duolingo account so i kNoW shell see the greek language xp count go up #and i KNOW shell be thinking 'wtf this?? is french class??? why are u taking greek u idiot-'

[lew1s-moved]

i got the strong desire to gif dzeko while i was going to bed so im queueing this post so i can see it in the morning and maaaaybe actually make something. when it's not midnight you know

#anyway this is for myself u can ignore #but now im thinking that i'll have to find and download videos ugh #i wanna gif not find the material #no looking through videos just making the gifs pls #q #delete later

[idvmercenary-remaking]

puts t*nt*n shippers in my dni

#ghost boy talks #THIS IS A JOKE MUTUALS IGNORE THIS but......but is it #i just. i am in love with norton. that is all #i joke abt mister norton campbell all the time but he actually has my hand in marriage. sometimes i wish i was kidding <3 #that ship was on the same level as naibeli for me but i can stand naibeli now so. i guess this is one of my least fave idv ships? #along with jack and literally any of the girls #and most emma ships r not great either #anyways i'll probably delete this later but i just got randomly angry while listening 2 a song in my nortnaib playlist so u know.

[rucow]

I’m so picky with music, I only have a very few utau users whose covers I like... it’s making me sad TT~TT

#delete later #before I started using utau I didn't care how vbs were used at all #I listened to anything bc I just.. my hearing wasn't refined I guess #but now.. god I don't like anything anymore #unless the vbs are used correctly then I won't listen... #which just means I have to make my own content! I can do it! if not me then who? >3 #my friend makes really good Ruko covers too god bless #but out of the popular ruko users... tanjiro is the only decent one #kowareta too although she only used ruko 3 times (as far as I know) #everyone else just.. ignores his optimal range #so it's sad that the most popular male utau isn't even used correctly 99% of the time *sobs* #plsssssss he has so much potential and he could sound so good if only people cared his optimal range #lower usts when using him! he sounds a lot more natural that way ;A; #pls I beg give me good ruko usage I'll love u forever

[24hourmess]

i know y'all don't care but im in a Mood

#u can ignore this #i dont care #i just wanted to vent #anyway i was gettin a taste of that crippling loneliness and then my suitemates made me mad so now im Lonely and Mad #i'll delete this later #i only have like one friend so sorry y'all will probably hear me complain more and more

[petrasplaining]

so.. new year new meme spam ? :) does anyone want random memes bc..

#ᵒᵘᵗ ᵒᶠ ᶜᵒᶰᵗʳᵒˡ ( ooc ) #like and i'll send u a bunch that u can totally ignore if u not feelin it #delete later

[theroyalsavage]

this is probably the most Petty thing i’ve ever said on this website but if i ever have to read another comment talking about how fic writers don’t deserve commissions or pay like artists do because writing is easy and doesn’t take talent/practice/hard work i’m going to physically set myself on fire

#PLEASE IGNORE ME THIS IS MY ANGER SPEAKING #i'm so sorry this is so petty i'll probably delete this later #but god #if u really think anyone can write just bc someone commented 'good job' on a bad fic once ur a fucking dumbass sorry i don't make the rules #SHOULD I HAVE PUT THIS UNDER READ MORE IDK IT'S TOO LATE THO