#undeserving of any of it

[starredforlife]

i feel the need to reassure also that im exaggerating my mistakes a bit but it's like. almost like an exposure therapy thing.

#when i say i've been 'bad/done 'bad things' it is probably more accurate to say #ive made my share of mistakes that were not made with any hurtful intention #but were motivated from a deeply ill place of fear and panic and guilt #that i wasnt capable of analyzing or stepping back from in the moment #but still caused some level of upset to my loved ones #made me someone painfully difficult to have a non-judgmental conversation with #and centered my opinions on right and wrong above anybody else's leading to fretful and almost controlling behavior #definitely at least domineering. even if it was smthn i would speak out about anxiously or with genuine concern #like 'im worried u saying this means u believe this and thats something i dont morally agree with' #which to me. i couldnt see it that way until i was out of the fucking smog #to me in that moment it was the end of the world #i literally created my own personal hell and then when i got close to people they would inevitably find their way down there #undeserving of any of it #my brain sucks so fucking bad but i cant blame it on that really and truly #i need to have it just fucking stop #star's thoughts

[mxtxfanatic]

Interesting commentary about how most people will identify with victims/victimhood while feeling discomfort when others identify with perpetrators, especially given the fact we live in societies (at least the one I’m in and the one that book was written in) that habitually materially revile victims on every level while championing and supporting perpetrators of certain violence.

#human reads time limited hunt #this convo comes up cause jiang lian is explaining to shi shanyan #how he wishes yan junxun would get at least one case wrong #because his ability to empathize with serial killers to this degree #unsettles ‘normal folks’ #but at the same time #is anyone *really* indentifying with the victims? #because the only reason why the crimes in this book happened #are because neither people nor institutions helped ANY actual victims #in fact they were using actual victims’ stories for prestige and ego boosts #even the victim-turned-serial-killer is using revenge killing *other* people’s assaulters #to make herself feel better #and because of that she ends up fucking up #and murdering an innocent man! #anyways reminds me of that study on kids #that said that showing bullying in kids shows #actually doesn’t prevent bullying #because bullies identify with the victims in shows #while adopting the fictional bullies’ tactics irl #so no lessons were learned #because nobody identified themselves as having the capacity to harm #or at least to harm the ‘undeserving’ #weaponization of victimhood and the aesthetics of innocence and docileness #or something like that #time limited hunt

[set-wingedwarrior]

Whiterose is a good ship.

That's it, that's the post

#rwby #Whiterose #White rose #Ruby Rose #Weiss schnee #I'm seeing too much undeserved hate for them #Even if they're not as popular as they used to it doesn't make them any less cute

[monkiekidtwt]

still ignoring the racism in the fandom okay i see you!!!!

Okay, let’s talk about the racism that went down regarding Erlang fans. For example, a minor was accused of sexualizing their own religion, and people who hate Erlang called him (a literal deity) “unseasoned chicken”. People mocking and harassing children who grew up with that religion for being attached to their deities, and-

… Oh wait, you just want me to talk about it when it specifically makes the people on the side of Erlang fans look bad? Because you don’t really give a fuck about racism OR the misogyny you used as an excuse to harass them (harassment you were doing BEFORE anyone was racist, by the way, so you can’t use that as a “but the other side is just as bad!” argument)? And you only PRETEND to give a fuck about marginalized groups when it’s out of spite, or when you can use it to excuse yourself of horrid actions?? Okay I see you!!!

Now take SEVERAL. Seats.

#of COURSE any racist comments were undeserved but you can’t use that to try and say it was ‘deserved’ in ANY way #bc any and all racist comments came AFTER y’all started HARASSING CHILDREN. #y’all were ALREADY being awful people towards innocent people you weren’t only lashing out at the racists #not to mention the racism present in trying to frame erlang fans who grew up with the religion as misogynists in and of itself like… #if we’re gonna try and assign one side of the discourse the title of ‘racist’ then my money’s on one side in particular #and trust me. it is NOT the side that you want. #now stop victimizing yourself for harassing children over a poll that was ALLOWED. TO. BE BOTTED. and log off. #asks 🍭☁️ #stupid lmktwt discourse

[inamindfarfaraway]

I love that we're getting focus on Chris Rodriguez early in the TV show, so that we have time to get invested in him before he a) betrays the camp and b) is driven so insane that only Dionysus can cure him. Knowing him beforehand will also make his relationship with Clarrisse, friendship and romance, feel more interesting.

What other cool, fun, not-heartbreaking characters will the show give more attention and depth? Silena Beauregarde? Charlie Beckendorf? Micheal Yew? Castor and Pollux? I can't wait!

#can you imagine the gut punch of having castor and pollux be recurring minor characters #always together #the classic either very similar or very different twins trope #with jokes about dionysus being their dad and more insight into that awkward relationship #that's their shtick like the stoll brothers except the comedy premise is 'mr d is their dad' which really does write itself #they're well-established as both part of the camp's normal and one of those 'two-in-one' side character duos #then after over three seasons of this castor dies in battle #and we don't see the death but when we next see pollux castor just. isn't there #and we Know #only one thing could have separated those two and it looks like pollux is missing at least an arm (and hurts accordingly) #and when we next see dionysus he's exactly as broken as a father who's lost a son would be #so different from how we've seen any other god emote about their children #and it sinks in that he actually was present in castor's life for years and now that's gone #it isn't 'well the view from olympus is different now and my name is stained with failure. drat' but the weight of #'he won't sit at my table tomorrow' 'he will never play pinocle with me again even though it bores him because he secretly likes me' #and so on and on and on forever #because he's never coming back. we will never see castor AND pollux again #enjoy your fantasy series kids! war is worse than hell because it hurts the undeserving! #pjo tv show #pjo tv series #pjo disney+ #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #pjo

[theidiotwhowritesthings]

I’m literally crying of joy right now. I checked everyday for the past 3 months to see if you’d posted. Sort of seems creepy now that I say it out loud 😭 But you’re one of my favorite writers on this app and I was so sad when you quit being active on here. I hope you’re doing better and I’m glad to have you back!!! ♥️

STOP YOU'RE SO SWEET. Oh my god I'm obsessed with you, you kind perfect soul. wow. i have so many emotions💜 i am so sorry that i just up and disappeared tho. if i could alter one thing, i wish i had at least given y'all a heads up so everyone was aware of what was happening😭

but thank you and i love you!!

#tbh i really didn't think people would notice? #that came out wrong #i knew you lovely people would notice b/c you're overly sweet and kind to me #but i just never considered myself like a tumblr staple by any means #so i didn't expect the outpouring of love i ended up getting #i am undeserving #y'all are too good to me😭😭

[psychwarded]

So far from okay yet I have to keep my mouth shut I’m gonna lose my mind again

#meds aren’t helping anymore and I keep coping badly #why can’t I be normal why why do I do stupid things #I’m undeserving of any sort of love im a horrible piece of scum

[i-can-even-burn-salad]

If you had to chose one of your villains/antagonists to give a Disney villain song to, who would it be and why?

Hahaha, thanks for the ask.

That's too easy.

Gaston for... Gaston, from Undeserved.

(And yes, I named him after that Disney Villain. Though, honestly, I'm not a big fan of the song. None of my villains is disturbing in just the right way to use the best one, Hellfire. Clayton has lots of issues, but attraction is not one of them.)

#salad-ask #writingamongther0ses #Undeserved #I don't even know any new villain songs #I could give be prepared to Eilis' father 🙃 #and since that's the first ask since last night #I spent an hour trying to figure out why asks appeared and disappeared from my inbox #on this account the next/previous buttons are fucked #setting a wrong offset #so I do not see my 10th ask unless I go to the second page and then back to the first #where it then hides the first ask but shows the 10th #i also had one ask that was only visible on mobile independently of that #and on my other tumblr it's also messed up but in a different way #what the fuck.gif

[tulipe-rose]

It's just so disturbing how a great majority of my classmates started to forget about Palestine. I've seen people purchase Cokes on multiple occasions without a second thought, and wherever I go, McDonald's is always, without exception, crowded.

And I'm living in the middle east.

EGYPT. I'M IN FREAKING EGYPT, AND WOULD YOU LOOK AT THAT. IT DOESN'T MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

I'm shattered by the fact that I got to enjoy Eid, while my neighbors in Palestine starved.

The way I was so happy, momentarily forgetting the way they'd struggle just for a single loaf of bread.

How my country, the people I'm associated with, are putting up insane prices for nothing more than an individual to illegally pass the Rafah crossing. Leaving them to their own devices, no visa, no job, no home, and after making it past the crossing, no money. How they exploit weakness, and helplessness is something I truly scorn.

Never.

I repeat.

NEVER, do such a thing as interact with me if you believe any of this genocide, harm, ethnic cleansing, exploitation, propaganda, is justifiable.

I won't hesitate to give you a good enlightenment session; I won't mind turning it into a show for all to see if you dare so much as to give me your false, filthy accusations against the Palestinians.

No excuses will be taken into account.

Not after what I've been witnessing, and overhearing for the entirety of my childhood years before the 7th of October. My mother always read the news outloud to my sister with a brokenhearted expression, I always listened in, and cried a little (lot).

#saff-ron tag #palestine #palestinians #stop the genocide #stop terrorism #free gaza #free palestine #god please stop these degenerates #they are truly undeserving of anything #free free palestine #free from israel #stop israel #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #ceasfire now #egypt #Egypt needs to have a reform of their moral scale #and a little touch more of basic human decency #if there even is any #call me rude #i'm just stating based on what i've been seeing

[averagemrfox]

I want Ruby to go apeshit on Neo so bad just fully lose it bc “oh you’re hurt and upset because you lost someone you care about and blame me for it? What about everyone I’ve lost because of you?”

#rwby #Ruby rose #neo politan #which is not right it’s not a game of who has lost the most #but Ruby is in a bad spot right now and already lashed out at her friends and family #I cannot imagine she’ll treat someone who’s been trying to kill her for several years with any amount of sympathy #aren’t you tired of being nice? don’t you just want to go apeshit #it’s so messy all of it and I’m here for it and I’m especially here for the catharsis that’ll come from when they begin to heal #also I don’t think neo is heartless/undeserving of redemption #I don’t know what redemption looks like for her yet #but I still think about when she tried to kill Ruby in v8 but got yang instead #there was the briefest look of shock on her face

[newtafterdark]

Just as I thought my life was slowing down a little so I could focus on myself & enjoy what I got currently going on, it reminded me that no, I can't have that without an absolute horrid thing happening that'll drain me for at least a few weeks.

I'm going to recover because I'm a stubborn bitch who also knows I deserve better. But man is it rotten work.

#newt's ramblings #tldr my mom's ex (who I have a very complicated relationship with) ended up in the hospital #he's taken care of now & will recover there for 2 weeks #but the entire situation is so fucked up in ways I do not want to share online #the only thing I will bitch about is his sister absolutely RIPPING into me over the phone (UNDESERVED MIGHT I ADD) to the point where- #- I cried on the phone with my stepdad's best friend later #and even had to message my therapist - something I never had to do before #I hate my stepdad's family and his best friend is a wise man for never having had any contact with them throughout the decades

[mxtxfanatic]

I don't want to put this in the tags, since people are just having fun, but I figure you probably won't mind hearing my anon-complaints. I'm getting super annoyed by the recent influx of Jiang Chang related SVSSS crossover posts (and fics to a lesser extent).

Seeing JC interact with the PIDW world could be incredibly interesting, but the posts I keep spotting are all about the woobiefied fanon version of JC. JC and YQY are not all that much alike (JC isn't remotely loyal to WWX), and I don't think he'd get along well with LQG. The JC and SJ dynamic actually does seem like it would be fun to read, but with how toxic they both are it would be 'fun' more in the 'watching a car crash in slow motion' sort of way, rather then anything wholesome.

Anyway, mini-rant over!

Fanon: Everyone in svsss would just love Jiang Cheng!

Canon: Shen Qingqiu would take one look at Jiang Cheng and just assume that the natural state of PIDW requires a canon fodder villain to be killed. Assuming he was some previously no-named lackey, after the second time Jiang Cheng attacks Luo Binghe, Shen Qingqiu wouldn’t try to save him, anymore. Nobody else would have even cared to try.

Anyways, I know exactly what posts you’re talking about and exactly which blog keeps making them. Unfortunately for me, tumblr is trying this new thing out called “if the blog you blocked is a jc stan, the block doesn’t count,” so fuck people “having fun” in the tags. If I can’t have fun with canon on my own dash, no one is allowed to have fun with fanon on it, either 😤

#svsss asks #mdzs asks #anon #for legal purposes that last sentence was a joke #this isn’t the first time fanon jc-centric crossovers have happened #when jc stans get to feeling like the mdzs fandom is ‘too toxic’ #for discussing canon jc #they start fantasizing about jc ‘escaping’ mdzs #to live out his undeserved happiness in other books #as if those characters would like him any better #please they don’t even like their OWN antagonists! #nobody’s gonna have time to baby some manchild #that they have no personal connection to to begin with #jc is dying in svsss because he raises every character flag #that that should be his ending in a typical book of that style #sqh ain’t developing him and neither is sqq! #if he survived ‘narrative destiny’ then lbh is def killing him #the first time he snaps at sqq for *anything* #but what am i even saying: no way in hell #jc gets accepted to cang qiong mountain sect anyways #he’s huan hua if he’s in any sect #so lbh is def killing him during sqq’s 5-year death nap

[chirpsythismorning]

birthdaygate = guaranteed happy ending for Will

#byler #stranger things #birthdaygate #bc the angst #and the pain #it's all gotta be leading up to something beautiful #bc truthfully if s5 was just all fluff or problems equal to/less stressful than previous seasons #it would make the ending anti-climactic #it would make a happy ending feel undeserved basically #also if they don't plan on killing any of the mains #... basically means we should be prepared to see these people go through borderline torture.... #which does fit into what caleb said about s5 being really dark and r rated #we're going to see everyone going through the ringer #will especially is going to be front and center experiencing a lot of trauma resurfacing... #it's going to be brutal #but again remember #HAPPY ENDING GUARANTEED! #will byers #st5 predictions

[countess-of-edessa]

nepo babies =/= person from a rich family i always thought?

#i thought a nepo baby was specifically someone whose parents/relatives are in the entertainment/arts industries #like taylor swift isnt a nepo baby she just had rich parents?? they bought her way into a music career but with their money not any #connections they had in the music industry previously. #whereas like…Ben Platt would be a nepo baby because he is a stage and film actor and his father is a film producer and produced films #that star him. #that’s not really to say that one is better or worse than the other and i don’t really care about the discourse either way #(people being upset their fave don’t have an organic by-merits-alone rise to fame story kind of confuse me because it seems like a very #modern and out of reality way of thinking) #like i get that people are getting undeserved opportunities through (1) money (2) connections and then putting out subpar art which sucks #but i do kind of think that ultimately you can’t trick people THAT MUCH. kim kardashian threw a bunch of money at a music career and it #never went anywhere because she simply was not good and no one liked it. #billie elish has rich parents but no matter your personal taste you can’t deny she's found success because she has an audience for whom her #music resonates. idk if she would be as successful if her parents didn’t have money and she didn’t have the opportunities that gave her #and certainly there are millions of people as good or better than her at music (if you can even quantify it in that simplistic of a way) wh #will never get the opportunities she has had that gave her success but i also don’t think she would be as successful as she is if she was #less talented. #also this is literally the worst time in history to be worried about nepo babies lol not saying that no one should complain about nepotism #casting but like we are in the golden age of people achieving artistic success through grassroots means thanks to the internet #getting an audience for work that resonates with people without the machine of the entertainment industry backing you is more possible than #ever before #also and i only have to say this in this exactly corner of the internet #if you are a monarchist you can’t use the term nepo baby #sorry you just can’t

[girlcatullus]

obligatory disclaimer i do not actually have studied classical archaeology all that much during the course of my university level education and thus my opinion is not very informed but. do i hate classical archaeology

#i am mostly just being petty #and maybe it's the level of my university but in my experience archaeologists are underprepared compared to other humanities majors #this doesn't prevent them from having an (undeserved) huge ego #they don't know a lot of basic stuff and will flaunt their digs any chance they get #and i know this is very unobjective because i've been watching too many agatha christie's works adaptations... #but i can't help picture some asshole archaeologists i know in full. colonial archaeologist gear #with the hat and all that. #the logistics of a dig also give me a headache just at the thought. #i just want to plop my ass on a library's chair and get scoliosis

[genius--built]

yknow it is the internet and all, so I can’t really say I could’ve expected better. but the last drawing I posted was not intended to be ship art. I would’ve been up front about it if that had been my intent. I’ve gone and tagged it at the request of a few people, but this is not a blog where I will be posting stuff that should result in genuinely threatening asks, so I’d appreciate some civility. I’ve been here less than 2 weeks, you don’t even know me.

#aide screams #antis would love to chase every perceived proshipper off the internet #and despite this not being a tcest blog I’m fielding threats from people over art that doesn’t feature any romance #I am not made of spite. I joined the fandom a week ago and I’m just trying to make friends #it just isn’t worth being attacked over #it absolutely takes a village to stand up to hateful ppl and I don’t have any friends in this fandom yet so yknow #no ones got my back and it’s not worth the RSD to put up with #I’m not leaving yet but if the ridiculousness continues I will go Anon and stop fielding the bullshit bc it’s undeserved #I know antis love to get a rise out of ppl and I’m just feeding the flames but jfc this IS an 18+ blog and I stg most of y’all are minors #I can’t honestly believe someone over 18 would send a stranger on the internet threats over fictional characters. it’s childish as hell #I’m beginning to understand why this fandom has such a problem with authors and artists MASS DELETING everything they’ve ever made #antis even crawled into the ask box on my LoZ blog. like. wtf is wrong with you