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harmonictechnicality · 10 months

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thinking about Steve digging into a KFC bucket around Eddie, who is about to snap in half at the sight of it. Just seeing Steve Harrington sink his teeth into a chicken thigh, sucking on a drumstick bone, swallowing the most ungodly-sized bites he’s ever seen. His eyes are fucking locked on Steve’s lips that are extra shiny from all the grease. Eddie can’t even touch his own damn food because his stomach is in knots from this weirdly erotic and carnivorous circus act.

Steve smears the grease off with the back of his hand, staring hard at Eddie. “What?”

“Huh?”

Dumb. Idiotic. Why is Eddie suddenly experiencing the same level of flusteredness as the varsity cheer squad around this guy? It’s just Steve. Steve eating meat…

Thick, juicy, noisy meat in Steve’s mouth. His mouth that looks so-

“Dude, try some.” Steve waves a half-eaten chicken wing in front of Eddie’s face. He’s smiling as he chews, looks honest to god tipsy from how much he’s enjoying this meal.

Eddie shrugs, pops his knuckles to keep his hands busy. “Not hungry.”

Which is a big, fat lie. He is hungry. Thoroughly starving to see Steve in angles that are banned from biblical literature.

“Christ on toast, Harrington, close your mouth. I can see your fucking tonsils from here.” And yeah, that’s a problem too. Eddie could draw the inside of Steve’s mouth from memory by now. Could make himself a handy little diagram on how stuffed it could be if he just-

“Can’t help it.” Steve interrupts. He tears another piece of meat off and chomps as he speaks. Says something that actually breaks the last bit of dignity in Eddie’s soul. “It’s finger lickin’ good.”

Right, yup. Okay. Eddie is all impulses after that. His gaze drops to Steve’s slick hands. His ears only able to process words at a caveman baseline:

‘Finger. Lick. Good.’

Yeah. That does sound pretty good to him. Really good, actually.

So Eddie reaches across the table and takes Steve by the wrist. He opens his mouth, swirls Steve’s index finger over his tongue, sucking on it for way too long. Makes a loud slurping sound as he returns Steve’s hand back to him. He’s pretty sure Steve gasped at the contact, but couldn’t exactly focus on anything other than the taste of salt and grease and skin.

As Eddie sits back down in his chair, he examines Steve’s face. Red everywhere. Up his ears, down his neck. He isn’t moving either - like Eddie’s little stunt just paused all the muscles in his body or something.

He should run. Avoid getting beat up by a guy who’s a former jock. Besides, Eddie Munson is somewhat famous on cowardly shit like running away. It wouldn’t exactly be unheard of for him.

But he doesn’t. Instead, Eddie dabs the corner of his mouth with a napkin. Takes a deep breath in. Smiles sweetly over at Steve, sweet enough to feel playful. Edging on mean.

“Looks like it wasn’t false advertising after all.” Eddie tosses the used napkin at him. Isn’t trying to make Steve flinch, but it happens anyways. “Finger lickin’ good is an understatement.”

“Understatement?” Steve studies his finger, the one Eddie just used like a jolly rancher, then smiles wide:

“Should be mandatory with you, Munson.”

#steddie #steddie fic #wait wait I can explain myself #no I can’t this just poured out of me #I couldn’t get the image of Eddie sucking on Steve’s KFC-coated finger out of my head #and now you all have to suffer with me #also sorry for any non-meat eaters reading this #y’all are better people than me (and Eddie in this fic)#gonna dunk my head in a bucket of holy water now byeeee

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lazylittledragon · 1 month

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a 2 act tragedy starring me: i’ve been making fruit smoothies in the morning for a few days which has been great because it’s getting me to actually eat fruit for once, only to go on the internet and be told that it apparently releases all the natural sugars so it's actually Not that great for you and i am devastated

#ramble #i thought i was doing myself SO many favours #i ENJOY FRUIT i just don’t eat it for some reason related to adhd #context i am a long term ED sufferer so this kind of thing upsets me #honestly i don't care that much because it feels like it's better than Zero Fruit #can any dieticians put my mind at ease #someone explain how ‘the natural sugars are released and become Bad Sugar’ makes sense. like it’s all just the FRUIT #chanting to myself ‘there are no bad foods there are no bad foods there are no bad foods’#like the Nutrients are still there and some of the fibre is still there #tw ed #on a lighter note current fave is pineapple+orange #also kiwi which i didn’t think would be good #edit: WAIT YOU’RE RIGHT WOULDN’T THE SUGARS BE RELEASED THE EXACT SAME WAY BY JUST CONSUMING THE FRUIT. WHAT THE FUCK

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puppyeared · 4 months

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anton belongs to @poicyss

#i. dont know how to explain myself and im not gonna #ive been collecting shitposts and finally drew them out with some sillies #btw lucky would probably be the irresponsible/fun uncle just because 1) vincent is indestructible and 2) he dont give a shit #this man is painfully oblivious to the fact that he joined a man eating werewolf cult so i dont think it would be out of the question #i also know anton is technically an abno but also. weirdly funny to me what it would be like for him to deal with an abno breaching #like hey wait you cant do that. only i can do that wtf #ALSO I FINALLY DREW HIM WITH FAT TITS. LETS GOOOOOO #god theyre so unhinged all of them. i love them <3 #my art #myart #my oc #friend oc #anton #augusta #lucky #vincent #doodles #sillies family #starshadow

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milkbreadtoast · 5 months

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random but rewatched this tangled song to take notes on how to draw golden hair (for prince jesse ofc🤧) and it p much confirms what I thought before... the look of shininess is created when there's lots of contrast...

u can see in these stills her hair is not just a medium yellow/blonde the entire time but has (fairly big!) areas of dark brown as well as super bright highlights when in direct light... im gonna make a note to be more liberal with the darker sections when drawing golden blonde hair🤔 bc we(or at least I) normally just think of blonde hair as being yellow so we might not consider there to also be dark brown in it...

#srry IM NOT A PRO GIVING ART ADVICE just rambling abt my observations... mumble mumble #actually normally id do this on my priv twit but lately i find myself using tumblr more #O ACTUALLY WAIT. the reason why im doing this in the first place tho #someone.. actually several ppl... complimented how shiny i make jesse's hair look #and im like!! thank u!! and wanted to explain how i did it (which is v simple i just added areas of high contrast KFJSJ)#but i wanted to look at how more pro artists did it bc thatd be a better demonstration #as well as learn how to draw it better myself...#🤔🤔... hmm... i think i can still lvl up how i draw it #but the way ive been drawing it is a v easy shortcut LFJDK #i have more to say but ran out of space for images so posting this first #o btw i was watching the jp dub of the song bc thats my fav rapunzel voice BWAHA

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mysweetsinfulobsessions · 1 year

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"In the next"

Ava and Beatrice - Warrior Nun, S02E08

#i have to do everything myself round here #this is the best I could do on short notice #sosoft #the shock on Beatrices face and how ava waits for her to kiss back #i literally couldn’t find this gif set of the kiss but apparently it exists! why didn’t tumblr show it to me as top reblogs! explain!!#they’re even better quality y’all can go find them #warrior nun #warrior nun s2 #avatrice #avatrice kiss #avatrice spoilers #warrior nun season 2 #warrior nun spoilers #warrior nun s2 spoilers #alba baptista #kristina tonteri young #ava baptista #sister beatrice

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pebblezone · 1 year

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She is soooo Living Dead Girl core

#hellsing #hellsing ultimate #seras victoria #a #okay I need to explain myself I started a journey last week to get world without logos on Apple Music which worked but before involved me #searching through hellsing playlists and one of them had dragula and I was omg wait rob zombie I’ve never given you the time of day that #ends now to which I listen to all of hellbilly deluxe and am like this is sooooo seras core my baby girl #so starting Monday I’m evening what cool drawing can I make so I can be like living dead girl core #also so on Instagram I can have it be the little jingle that was the main driving point #the important thing to note is I finished ultimate Tuesday and decided that I have to watch the abridge because it seems like #required reading so that same night I begin watching the abridge as I’m finalizing the sketch for this #next day comes I’m going ham and I hit the 7th episode and imagine my absolute horror to find they used it for her going ham #I’m unoriginal beyond reason and I’m very distressed about it that’s it I’ve bared my soul to the harsh harsh world #abridged makes me remember that cishets interact with media too

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generaterandom · 5 months

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Some of y'all aren't viscerally fascinated by the depths of human depravity and it shows

#sometimes you need to have a serious philosophical discussion of the ethics of selfcest #and sometimes you need some toxic yaoi #yet other times one requires evil yuri #or simply an evil woman in stem #and sometimes you must read tumblr user cemeterything talk about the rot #it varies from day to day #i am once again thinking about SouShin and none of you can stop me #my condolences if you find yourself horrified #i will be explaining myself eventually #just you wait

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coulrology · 8 days

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So what's the lore with Juniper n their relationship with Vitimir n Hettie?

WELL for both, their relationships go back to their school days! Although the difference being that Juniper and Hettie went to St. Epiderm together, while Vitimir went to a different school (Glandus at the time he met Juniper).

I’ve briefly touched on how Juniper and Vitimir met here, so that explains their first meeting. To reiterate, Vitimir was a shy kid that didn’t really have any friends growing up (aside from bugs/whatever little creatures they spent their time around) and was bullied frequently, so that single positive interaction with Juniper, though small, really stuck with him and he never forgot it. Juniper didn’t forget it either, but being the sociable type meeting and talking to lots of different people, that moment sorta blended in with the rest of their memories. So fast forward to them both working as Coven Heads at the same time, Vitimir immediately recognizes Juniper. Despite Juniper changing a lot since his child self, that one good memory left such a big impact on Vitimir as a kid that he still held that soft spot for them. So of course, when Juniper eventually approached him on their own time, Vitimir already had this layer of vulnerability. Even though they might not have recognized him, from Vitimir’s perspective, there was that sense of familiarity and comfort; Juniper might have changed, but that kind kid was still in him. Now that they have the chance, Vitimir wants to actually get to know this one person who had plagued so many of their thoughts as a kid. And the rest is history!!

As for Hettie! Again, she and Juniper attended St. Epiderm together. Hettie was just as terrifying as a kid as she is now. She was everything- a jock, a princess, a bully, a weird girl, whatever you can think of. Though she’s very open about who she is, everyone around her was always so intimidated by the fact that she was unpredictable (and the fact that she’s both the smartest AND strongest person you’d ever meet is terrifying enough on its own). Most everyone- except for Juniper. To Juniper, Hettie was always such a character. She’s always been so confident and unapologetic, able to command people’s attention without even saying a word. Her unpredictability made everything she did so interesting. Juniper so deeply admired this about Hettie. And the fact that she’s 100% his type only drew them closer to her. Hettie was Juniper’s first ever crush, and that love Juniper had for her never faded. Though as kids, they weren’t in the same social circles, they did cross paths a lot, whether it was through Sonia (Scooter Crane’s daughter and childhood best friend to Juniper, who was also in the Healing Track), or Juniper getting injured for whatever ridiculous reasons. At this age, Hettie didn’t reciprocate her feelings (yet), but she had a fondness for Juniper because he was so different from the other kids for the fact alone that they had a (very obvious) crush on her. And while their crush may have caused them to do embarrassing things, and foolishly being used as her own guinea pig from time to time to practice her magic on, Hettie had cared about Juniper. To her, he always made life more fun and interesting. Fast forward to them as Coven Heads- Hettie has grown a stronger affection for Juniper. He’s changed over the years, but he still makes life so much more fun and interesting. Perhaps now, Hettie admires Juniper for the same exact reasons they always have her. They’re still a bit pathetic around her, but Hettie finds it endearing. Not to mention, Juniper still makes for a good doll to experiment on, and she takes good care of her favorite dolls ;-)

#ask #juniper jazz #vitimir #hettie cutburn #junimir #medical mirror #I HOPE THIS ANSWERS YOUR QUESTION I tried my best to make it sound coherent and not ramble on about certain things 🙏#tried to talk about hettie more bc i don’t think I’ve explained much of the medical mirror stuff publicly yet #or. anything tbh 😭😭#BUT I MEAN I GOTTA GET EVERYONE ON THE SAME PAGE EVENTUALLY SO THIS IS A START 🙏🙏#I can always expand on anything else if anyone wants me to and is curious :3c #you KNOW how much I love yapping about my stupid peacock I didn’t put all my blood sweat and tears into him for nothin 🫰#ALSO!! FUN LIL THING I WAS GOING TO MENTION BUT DECIDED NOT TO IN THE END BC IT WOULDVE BEEN TOO MUCH-#long story short lets just say hettie chose to hang out w juniper during the night of a school dance 🤭#THAT’S ALL I’LL SAY FOR NOW ABOUT THAT i have Art Ideas for that i -really- want to get to one day #okay i gotta stfu now i told myself i was gonna hold back on the yapping 😭😭😭#OKAY WAIT ONE LAST THING-#idk if anyone actually cares but reminder that I’ve got both junimir and med. mirror playlists if you wanna get a better idea of them!!#theyre not perfect but theyre still fun Okay I’ll shut up for real fr now ✌️

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thomine · 2 months

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This is my five billionth time trying to come up with something, so let’s go. Thank you! <3

I’d consider myself an ambivert that primarily prefers being alone to indulge myself in my hobbies, but also hates being lonely. While I wouldn’t consider myself sociable, I’m a friendly person. I can easily chat with most people. I love learning about people and hearing what they like to talk about. But my natural inclination is to cling to my alone time.

I am a very analytical person at heart. I like studying things to know why and how they work. This applies very much so to people. Because of this, I tend to be known as a smart person. At work, I am fast and accurate. I understand how my duties and others work in the big picture. I’m quick to notice when things are wrong and can point out where the error lies. I have a reputation for being a quick and reliable helper.

I’m generally known as a logical person. While I do have a temperament, I’m not seen as emotional. I make decisions with a level head. I’m not weak either. I love debates and arguments. I enjoy raising my voice. I do not hesitate to stand my ground if need be. If I get mad at someone, it’s typically because they’re contradicting themselves or saying something that makes no sense.

That being said, I’m lacking in many ways too. I’ve been told many times that I am a mean person. Apparently my way of speaking makes some feel like they’re being humiliated or mocked. I lack sympathy. I’m too outspoken. I serve primarily my own motives, not others. I’m stubborn, a know-it-all, selfish, etc etc etc.

My biggest insecurity is being misunderstood. I have a hard time verbalizing my feelings/opinions and conveying my intent which has gotten me in a lot of trouble in the past. That being said, what bothers me isn’t being seen as a good and kind person, but simply as being perceived inaccurately. I want to be understood as I am without changing myself to be more palatable to others. I may be selfish and unsympathetic, but I’m more than that.

So who would you pair me with? 👀 @paimonial-rage

this is a gift.

if you would like one of your own, please read my post here that lists what i'm willing to do and what to expect for a non-gift.

i wanted to pair you up with zhongli, ngl. but anyways, picture this:

you're in a debate with someone, temper agitated and argument points hot enough to dissolve your opponent's ego in the akademiya building. such a sight is common in the school, so you don't bother with the stares and looks knowing they'll treat you like background noise eventually. you raise your voice, disturbing those in the vicinity, but your adversary is literally covering their ears to combat your logical brilliance. it isn't long till they declare a stalemate. when you and your opposer part ways, you want to go home quickly but someone taps you on your shoulder...

it's tighnari. maybe you briefly recognize him considering his reputation in the academia and among the forest watchers. maybe you don't, but that doesn't bother him. reputation is just the backdrop of a person, not the person itself.

although... tighnari has heard of you. as you said, you're known as an analytical person, someone smart. he has a penchant for such people, and bonus if they can speak their minds. you're efficient, quick, reliable, which is everything tighnari wished he had in his colleagues. in some sense, perhaps he already has a small admiration for what he heard about you, but he's wary to place labels on these feelings. he doesn't know if you have a favorite color. he doesn't know if you like mushrooms. small steps, it's what he believes in, so when he sees the chance to approach you, he takes it without hesitation.

your debate intrigues him, and he has a few questions. he doesn’t mind talking to you there and then, but he has something to rush for in a few minutes. exchanging addresses to mail each other letters is the ideal thing to do.

you're not a sociable person, but that's not an issue for him. he's alright with initiating. anyways, he approached you, didn't he? after you exchange details, don't be surprised if you receive a letter here and there. at first, it's to expand on your argument, but casual topics are gradually discussed. and conversation, i believe, will flow smoothly with how you're open to hearing him ramble about his interest in plants and the ecosystems of the forest. it will be comfortable, and exciting in some ways, to have him write to you about the contraptions they use at the forest. from traps to capture berserk animals to their machinery of conveniences.

perhaps at some point in your brewing relationship, he invites you to the forest ranger's headquarters. tighnari's hands are shakier than expected, temperament more fragile than ice in the summer. he warns his colleagues with an infamous streak of trouble to not do anything silly, but of course something has to happen. a forest ranger carelessly discarded a trap they used in an old mission, causing the injuries of a wandering adventurer.

he's livid, marching silently towards the crime scene. he insisted that you stay at headquarters and wait for him, but somehow you find yourself tagging along. the guilty forest ranger is doing his best to deal with his mistakes, but his lack of knowledge on medicine makes it worse, causing tighnari's rage to grow.

it's not long till he raises his voice, eyes aimed at one person, tongue reprimanding left, right, front, center. the forest ranger shivers as if stripped naked in winter, and tighnari quickly deals with the adventurer's injuries.

he doesn't bring it up on the walk back or when he accompanies you out of the forest after a long day of planned (and unplanned) activities. instead, it's you. it's a levelheaded conversation, of tighnari's reaction, of the forest ranger's reactions, and ends with practical suggestions on how such situations can be minimized. he had people talk with him about his temper. they always say he acts out of line, but you don't, at least, not without understanding his point of view. you can see why he would be angry.

something clicks in him, and such a situation makes him crave your essence more.

hanging out with tighnari isn't tiring. he is a busy man so time is precious to him. he will plan and arrange days to do certain activities he thinks you might be keen on, but he'll also arrange times to do as each wishes, understanding the need to invest and indulge in one's passions. he doesn't need quick responses from his letters, and neither do you. it seems like he's an uptight person with all the planning, but he's actually extremely flexible, as required in the nature of his job.

of course, not everything is sunshine and rainbows. there are times your harsh and straightforward ways of speech has irked tighnari in his times of stress. he does not appreciate having your words slice through his already thinning patience, and arguments can erupt. it doesn't help that both of you are stubborn. but, he does not fault you for the way you speak or the sides you take. in fact, when others call you selfish, he calls you reasonable. the first rule he learned in biology is that fools don't look after their own needs, and this also applies to humans.

eventually, after having thought through thoroughly of each person's position, logic will prevail. consensus and compromises formed, and arguments quelled.

you say your biggest insecurity is being misunderstood. tighnari is not one to quickly place judgement on people. since the very beginning, he is aware that what he hears of someone is not everything. as researcher of plants and organisms, he knows how assumptions suffocate the growth of a plant. one needs to pause, to observe, to notice, which is exactly what he is. he relies on his senses and experience and less on prediction and universal rules. he is someone in tune with his surroundings; always open to be proved wrong. as a researcher, isn't it exciting when you're faced with the truth that you don't know everything? there is no worry of making yourself palatable for him. he appreciates you as you are, and will do the best within his knowledge and means to make sure he understands you as you.

i hope you liked my analysis.... i'm sorry if it's not a structured as what you did for me, or as interesting or accurate (idk??). i found it pretty hard to write without incorporating some sort of scenario or story so i hope that's alright!

#genshin impact x you #genshin reader insert #genshin x reader #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact x y/n #ok but abt pairing you with z.hongli it was a joke and then i realized it's ACTUALLY ok. like not too bad of a pair #and at some point i wanted to go with a.lbedo but then at some point i figured this character was a better choice #i have some notes but like i dont know how to explain them at all #ALSO so sorry for the wait. i called myself slo for a reason.... sloth... and slow...... both are me..... orz #this was sent in like the start of the year. this took more than a month omg HAHAH #u know i did joke abt u and a.lhaitham being a good pair but after writing this #i don't think it's bc you make a good pair with a.lhaitham. i think you fit much better with this character #but. but. but. you are literally one of the few selected person i can see a.lhaitham possibly being interested in #and among the smallll list of characters i can see a.lhaitham with you'll be one of the top choices

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scorndotexe · 1 month

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i'm so angry at everyone and myself

#sorry everyone a break from the usual programming on account of the.#surgery i regret.#for all these complicated reasons that i CAN explain. but like who cares.#i feel like ive failed at having bodily autonomy #i feel like i've failed myself #i didn't even want this you know.#i didn't even want a fucking breast reduction. i would have been fine to wait for top surgery #my mother kept telling me how much better it'll be #and that i can get rid of my breasts entirely in the future if i want to #i should have waited. i really should have waited.#did you know it is infinitely more dysphoria inducing to CHOOSE this.#i did tell her it would feel worse.#she meant well. of course she meant well.#doesn't mean i don't hate everyone involved.

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lunaria--annua · 5 months

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For the few people that aren't my friends but remember me/ my art (or friends I haven't stayed in touch with), I wish to give an explanation for my constant week or months long disappearances:

I am a school kid stuck in an incredibly brutal school system, with a born in disability that only increases the difficulty to an insane degree. I have 10 hour schooldays and am still expected to do homework and study for intense exams (that can be up to 130 minutes long) when I arrive home late at night. This translates to my weekends also being used up for study and any free time being used for recovery from the chronic exhaustion (I do not use the term »chronic« lightly here, this is something noted by my doctor).

I really do not like letting this art blog rot only to be temporarily revived for a very short period of time once in a blue moon, but it is out of my control.

I hope (and I do think that will be the case) that in the future I will have more opportunities and energy to be creative, and will be able to share the fruits of my creativity. I miss doing art, but the constant grind from school erodes my creative passion to a degree that I barely even doodle in my notebooks anymore.

I'm optimistic this will not be forever though 💜

#harmonica noises #I have a multitude of international friends and acquaintances and they were all appalled when I explained the details of my school system #except from my buddy from Thailand; he was able to sympathise a lot 🤝...#There's so much I would love to show; and develop and update about my world #especially things I'm dissatisfied with and are outdated (it's a lot...)#but it will have to wait.#in the lower schoolgrades; back when it wasn't as intense (it was still intense) I would go on Tumblr regularly but I don't have the energy #to do that even more #I am so tired and stressed all the time! it has become my default state of existence pretty much. But it will not be for forever 💜#I am unsure if posting something so personal is wise... but I still feel the need to explain myself #So tired... I cannot afford to go to bed on time. maybe on the weekend but that's it. I have to stay up late and do homework and study #because again; 10 hour schooldays.#and even when I can sleep 8 hours; there's still the chronic exhaustion I will face for... forever.

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sabraeal · 4 months

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1000 Followers Update!

Due to some super fun chronic health shenanigans, the posting for the 1000 Followers Celebration is being postponed a month! Posting will start on 2/2 with to all the ghost still standing in this room, and continue as previously planned from there. Thank you guys for bearing with me-- I struggled with the idea of even postponing for a week, but it became very clear on Monday that I would not be able to catch up with the schedule unless I took an extended break to recover. Can't wait to show you guys what I've got up my sleeve!

#1000 followers #i don't talk much about my illness struggles on here because without a word count limit #i would absolutely write myself into a terrible spiral talking about some of the very recent setbacks #but I do weekly goals up on twitter and I often talk about what's going on there #so it's only fair that i explain a bit in some tag chatter where i have to stay on task #to start: i'm fine and I'm going to be quick to recover now that i've gotten my meds #but due to all sorts of insurance bullshittery that has occurred since september/october #my last three infusions have been over a week late. two of them have been nearly two weeks or over #and coupled with a particularly nasty stomach bug + christmas stress #i ended up with extremely bad exhaustion and brain fog #and on monday finally flared #thankfully i was able to move my infusion up a day so I only had to wait until wednesday #and me and my husband had planned that I would be out of commission for the 10 days my meds were overdue #so I just had to triage my commitments and lay low until they could get me what i needed #it's been two days and i'm doing much much better. back to a place where I can actually write #probably at a better place than i have been since the beginning of December since today I nearly blew through 1K without even trying #but it's been 2-3 weeks of barely being able to scratch out what i consider my minimum #and then a week and change of not being able to even READ without it overwhelming me #so i finally had to face the music of: not only can I NOT do this on time but I need fully shift it #so that I can work without stressing myself or my limits #i am a rat gnawing at the bars of my little rat cage over it but it is what it is #tldr; i'm here i'm fine i just have to accept my human limitations and i don't like it

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bitternace · 2 years

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i held onto you, with a desperate strength with everything—with everything in me

i was feeling tender, it will happen again.

[Image ID: A digital drawing of kingdom hearts characters, Lea and Isa. The background is transparent with geometric shapes, mostly in bold yellows, pinks, and blues. They are shown sharing a kiss with their eyes closed, Lea half-lying atop Isa, on his belly, his ankles crossed and held high. He half-props himself up with his right hand, and the other lies gently over Isa’s collarbone. He is wearing burgundy jeans, a black sports vent tank top, a blue elbow brace, a gold sweatband, a purple hair tie on his wrist, and black socks with decorative flames. Half supporting his weight is Isa. Leaning back, Isa props himself up on his left elbow, his other hand on the nape of Lea’s neck. One of his legs is pulled closer to his body, bent at the knee. He wears a grey turtleneck, black sweatpants with blue sidelines, and blue socks with decorative bananas. His hair is held up with a grey transparent hairclip. /End ID.]

Close-ups under keep reading.

[Image ID: A close up of their faces shown from their shoulders up. /End ID.]

[Image ID: A close up of their hands and torsos, shown from the shoulder down. /End ID.]

#kh #kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts fanart #kh fanart #lea kh #isa kh #axel kh #isalea #leaisa #akusai #also idk i spent a lot of time on the lineart so if anyone wants to give coloring a go hmu and u can have the archive??#u just have to prommy to show me when you're done i'd love to see it #also idk how to explain that that song is Their Song In My Brain #also u might be wondering #gee bitternace will u keep drawing isa in profile CAUSE good question i keep asking that myself #it's just that i had a silly little self-indulgent drawing that i was drawing and #wait before i forget #my doods #anywa self-indulgent image i was drawing and i drew like 20 isa's in 3/4's and front view so i guess this is how my brain is coping #I WILL FINISH THAT OTHER THING EVENTUALLY #but good god i didn't want to draw axel OR isa ever again /lying through my teeth #also while showing this to my friend i forgot about the socks #I FORGOT ABOUT THE SOCKS #and then i laughed for 5 minutes

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hatake · 8 months

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#started going to therapy again in the hopes of coping better with my fam situation #but my therapist is pretty adamant that the situation is too toxic for me to be able to heal in #and i know he's right but also i'm not in a place rn where i can leave said situation or have the emotional capacity to try #and having a third party affirm that the position you're in is actually more fucked up than u thought is both validating and exhausting #bc like before i was just like ''my mom is entitled to still be close to the ppl who sexually abused me''#and was able to just blame all my rage and frustration and hurt on myself #but now that it is starting to resonate that Wait That's Actually Fucked Up #just existing around my mom has become so much more exhausting #& i've spoken to my therapist abt this but i'm venting here bc i'm really feeling it today #it's sounds dumb but having someone explain to u that ur rightfully at ur limit at all times makes it so real somehow #ofc i'm at my limit at all times in this environment most people would be too!!!#i'm just so tired 😭😭#tired and overwhelmed and tired and overwhelmed #and #ugh

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boileddogchicken · 6 months

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A bit late~ but 4 and 15 for B’rsh~ 💖

b'rsh ask!!!!

4. What are your character's quirks or eccentricities that make them stand out from others?

ooo this is a tricky one!!! id say her biggest quirks are that she likes to tell a lot, also that one of her eyes (the white one) glows

15. Describe a defining moment in your character's life that marked a turning point or significant change in their path.

THANK U FOR ASKING ME THIS BESTIE. I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR AN OPPORTUNITY TO TALK ABT THIS PIECE OF B'RSH LORE.

so i'm gonna talk abt a couple defining moments, but they all connect so it's kinda like one big defining moment almost (spoilers up to the end of 6.0)

so, b'rsh grew up in corvos, under garlean imperial occupation, said occupation involved lots of machinery and factories, thus Very Bad Air Quality. bc of this, b'rsh has always had at least some trouble with her lungs.

then, in shadowbringers, the light aether moment happens. it kinda just causes all around internal damage to her, but since her lungs were already impaired it caused even more damage to them, and all this led to pretty intense chronic coughing and pain, which meant she ended up having to figure out ways to adjust routines for her own safety and in order to continue being a warrior of light (thankfully having her friends and allies meant that they could help her out with some of that, plus one of said friends helped b'rsh develop custom mobility aids)

and then, in endwalker, in the zenos fight, b'rsh got slashed in the face, and bc of an overflow of light aether that lingered after the events of shadowbringers, it sorta surged into the wound to heal it, but did so in an incomplete way (her vision in that eye is impaired compared to the eye that didn't get injured)

thanks again for the b'rsh ask!! these were super fun to answer

#go kitty go!!!!#ive been waiting *so* long for the chance to explain b'rsh's chronic illness lore #she's such an important character to me and being able to have this catgirl who has similar physical disabilities to me #who goes around casting spells and fighting monsters and whatnot #is very cathartic tbh- like yeah i myself can't do the stuff she can but seeing an aspect of me in her helps me connect with her more #kinda rambling in the tags but yeah it's very neat how b'rsh has grown and changed alongside me #and once again thanks for the ask!! i had lots of fun answering this one #endwalker spoilers

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