#was overwhelmed with emotion just now

[95enthusiast]

i love u cars fandom

#was overwhelmed with emotion just now #ur all so lovely #and funny and talented #just needed to say it #cars fandom #pixar cars

[good-beanswrites]

My thoughts on how the Milgram mv machine works based on the evidence we have:

(I know there’s been discussion about where exactly the interrogations take place, but wherever they are,) the prisoners are made to sit in a specific chair near the wall that houses the machine.

It’s ordinarily hidden, but the wall panels shift aside to reveal it when the mechanical sounds play in the dramas. As well as the walls moving, the chair transforms to restrain the prisoner and attach whatever it takes to access their brain. The fact that none of the more frightened prisoners try to run or break it makes it seem like they physically cannot. This is why Fuuta sounds so panicked, and why Amane is suddenly helpless in front of Es in their T1 vds.

(My mind conjures very classic sci-fi mad scientist machines with wires, pipes, lights, nodes, needles, etc, but I’d love to hear how other people visualize it.)

In some vds (maybe all? I’d need to check,) you can hear Es take some steps right before their iconic line -- it would make sense that for safety reasons, the power mechanism is placed across the room. Once again it could be anything, but the sound effect makes me think of one of those giant wall-mounted levers you have to pull down.

The voice dramas don’t really provide the type of crime details that an actual interrogation would reveal, and it’s odd that they’re placed before the extraction rather than after Es gets to see the new details. This leads me to believe the machine functions with priming. All Es needs to do is get them talking about their murder, so it’s on their mind.

The video produced is much like a (non-lucid) dream. Even if the prisoners figure out that this is how it works, they can’t control it just by thinking really hard about something else. The murders produce the strongest emotional affect, and that’s what it picks up on. If someone else used the machine, it would default to whatever gave them the strongest emotional reaction in the ~15 minutes beforehand, hence why Es’ video focuses on their daunting task ahead. (The Undercover theory is still a bit loose, though, given the private shots that Es wouldn't have known about). It’s why the videos are usually closely linked to the vd topics/beats. I also like to think that the reason their prisoner colors appear so much is because they’re looking at those colors on their uniform 24/7.

The bell rings to inform Es that it’s the optimal time to use the machine -- the prisoner has been thinking about things for long enough that the video will be about their crime, and if the conversation lasts much longer they’ll start thinking of other things. It’s at a different time for each prisoner because it’s based on the specific conversation. I guess Jackalope is listening in to the interrogation, timing it perfectly. (The only one that kind of messes with this theory is Yonah, because they just keep talking afterwards lol, but it could just show that the interrogation is still in Es’ control.)

Their “Sing your sins” is the final priming nudge to get them to think of their actions as a sin, revealing their guilt.

Once activated, the prisoner enters a sort of trance/sleeping state. It’s very much like REM sleep, with the machine forcibly activating neurons and recording the output. The prisoners have asked Es what they saw, meaning they don’t remember the mvs. I like to think the prisoners do experience the mv in real time, acting as the major version of themself that appears, but can’t remember it afterwards. It’s when you experience a dream, but as soon as you wake up you’re just left with fleeting emotions and memories right on the tip of your tongue.

The video plays immediately upon extraction -- whether on a huge projection or little screen depends on which room it’s in. It simultaneously saves the memory so that Es can rewatch it later (on those old TVs in the jailbreak mix). The machine downloads the song and video together, but requires special parts to retrieve them. The technology is pretty new and fragile, so if one is broken, there might be a delay between when Es can hear the extracted song and see it with the video. (That’s my justification for Kotoko’s delays -- after 9 prisoners the parts wear out, or maybe Mikoto himself overheats it with his complex situation.)

Based on the lack of conversation we get afterwards, I picture Es leaving before the prisoner wakes from the trance. The machine adjusts their brain back to normal before they awaken, restraints freed and able to return to the rest of the prison.

It’s very much like a dream, so it’s not harmful despite the amnesia/head injuries the prisoners have. It does, however, exhaust them. Brain activity alone takes a lot of energy, so forced brain activity with added emotional strain would cause them to feel pretty drained the rest of the day.

#milgram #👍👍 #if theres anything contradictory please lmk -- this is how ive been taking the evidence we have so i definitely want to rethink things if #theres a mistake #but also i just wanna hear what people have been picturing 🤔 #i mentioned it before but the jailbreak tvs really did shift my brain from sleek tech to clunky old scifi vibes #im also still partial to an idea mentioned a long time ago about the prisoners waking up to catch the last few moments of their mv #and how heartbreaking that can be for some #but i feel like it would make more sense if there was no direct interaction after the extraction since es is overwhelmed with different #reactions (from us) and the prisoners themselves are raw with emotion and fatigue #i like the thought of interrogations occuring in that big courtroom (seen in undercover and now deep cover) #but that room seems way too echo-y for the vds to take place in #and it seems overkill to build every cell with moving panel walls and access to the machine #so the jurys still out on that one #(also hehe im still so excited that my oc fits very nicely into all of this but i kept this post 100% canon compliant) #analysis/thoughts

[ahappydnp]

need a dapg video where it's just like 'what happened behind the scenes of this moment'

wanna hear them talk about the angry bookstore dad or how they genuinely felt after those insane m&g crowds at vidcon/sitc or how much shit they talked after a youtuber event or what were they feeling after the first tatinof show

#like not necessarily the big moments or even private stuff but like the emotions behind the scenes? #idk i was rewatching an old zoella vlog where 7000 fan were surrounding them in london #and she had a moment after where she verbally processed what just happened and how she was feeling about everything #and i cannot fathom dnp ever being that vulnerable ESPECIALLY in that era but now?? #tell me how it actually felt to see thousands of people scream for you or what was the most surprisingly overwhelming moment #or when did the reality of this life actually Hit

[starrysharks]

"ugh, don't you understand?! everything needs to be exact, perfect! that's the nature of science!"

dr savory, the deuteragonist of reassassination. a scientist with a short temper and desire for control, he runs a small back-alley clinic in postmortem, conducting twisted experiments on himself and others.

#zeno's art #ocs #reassassination #dr savory #and why he ourple 😂 #i dont post him much but he is very much one of my favorites #i recently fleshed out his character more - hes a bit of a control freak now #and also the nail in his head is self inflicted + the cause for his bad temper (but that's just octavia's theory) #when he gets angry or overwhelmed with emotion it spurts out blood #which can cause him to literally faint from intense emotion #so hes always like 2 steps away from passing out from anger and tries to contain his emotions but it can be straining #there is a reason for his fuckedupness but its spoilerssssss

[ropasart]

Your sfms are so lifelike, I’m obsessed

↑ 4 years old wip gif hahahah

Hi! I'm happy you like them, they are sort of.. my children. My goal was making the characters' movements plausible so that's such a big complement. Thank you for the message! 😊

#They make me cringe cos theyre old but back then making sfm clips helped me stay sane #By just animating without thinking about anything else for hours #So i feel mixed emotions when I see my old sfms 🥹 #I'm pretty sure I became much more stable now #Sometimes I feel like making a clip again but now I forgot how to use sfm completely so it's kinda overwhelming to start... #But if I ever make one I'll post here #Asks

[notemaker]

The joke went a little too far. It's okay, they just need a minute to process.

#Don and leo can be pretty emotional in canon #I imagine that Don can't help but be overwhelmed by feelings at times. #He''ll fix the device in a minute. but now he's just going to feel bad for a minute as one does. Leo too. #Sometimes feeling bad about something doesnt mean #the same as being necessarily angry about it #but needing a break is all fine and fair #I didn't have the energy to clean this. I just wanted to put this idea down #donnie #donatello #leo #leonardo #rottmnt #my art #doodles #comic strips #leonardo hamato #donnie hamato #rottmnt donnie #leo rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt fanart #tmnt

[aleki-lives-here]

#mdzs #lan zhan #lan wangji #today I learnt that it makes drawing a character for me to fall in love with them #I thought I was rather indifferent about romance in general and Lan Wangji in particular #don't get me wrong #he's amazing! #but I always focused and loved other parts of the story (like the overwhelming tragedy of it all) #but then something made me attempt drawing the flower throwing scene and #now I just want to scream about Wangxian #and about Lan Zhan. I think I understand Wei Ying's obsession so much better now #I would also throw at him flowers to make him look at me #it's just #ahhhhh #I am experiencing emotions #my art #mdzs fanart

[calamity-unlocked]

I'm feeling a lot of feelings for the Doodler right now.

Like, this incomprehensible being found itself unable to cope with the complexity and weight of human emotions, so it locked those feelings away for its own sake. But now those emotions are coming back all of a sudden - so far in a very violent, unkind way.

After years and years of the gentle numbness of chaos, to have fear and love returned to you without a moment's notice, at the suffering of others... call me normal oak the way i empathize, but it just seems like a lot.

#dndads #dndads spoilers #dungeons and daddies #like it put those feelings away bc it HATED itself #hated the pain it was inflicting and the rejection it could not handle #so it made itself numb #and then loneliness - FEAR - came back suddenly #through pain and death #and now it feels love again; but again because of betrayal and heartbreak #i don't know. it must just be so overwhelming #its got the emotional maturity of a teen! #how can it *handle* this?

[boimgfrog]

when my baby nephew trips and falls I'm always like ohhhhh oh wowww you're so strong and brave!! look!!! you didn't even get a scratch!! you're like achilles!! such a big strong powerful baby!!! and he always ends up getting back up and going back to playing <3 when he gets upset or overwhelmed and starts crying im like ohhhh the woes oh nooooo, oh the saddest little boy in the WORLD oh come here strong sad boy come here let's go sit in silence or hold a soft toy for a couple minutes and he calms down. idk if this is a long term solution but it works for now and he launches himself at me at the speed of sound whenever I watch him so <3

#jay says a thing #basically the goal is to distract him from the scary experience when he falls and still validate the emotion he feels from it #oh no! oh you took a tumble but look! look how powerful and brave you are now to stand back up!! ohhhh youre so strong!!! #and then when hes upset or overwhelmed validating the feeling comes first and then the distraction #oh noooo ohhhhh so sad so so sad oh noooo oh come here lets fix this posthaste!!! #and the solution is usually just he wants to be held or carried somewhere quiet or have something to hold #i just love the little guy hes such a sweetie

[brown-little-robin]

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#robin processes emotions on main #would it be evil to stay home from family thanksgiving because I don't think I can do all my homework if I go. would it be selfish #it probably would be selfish #I'm just feeling overwhelmed tonight because I remembered All Of The Homework due on Tuesday next week and I was planning #to do most of that homework today but there's more than I thought and I also chose to do a thanksgiving dinner and online games #with the uncle who also stayed home from family thanksgiving this year. and it was fantastic and I wouldn't trade that for the world #but it was last minute and I'm SO OVERWHELMED NOW 😭 #and I just DROPPED THE PIZZA SAUCE from the pizza he bought me and it was just the last straw folks. now there's pizza sauce #on the floor and tears in my eyes and my throat hurts. and I'm aware this whole upset is selfish but STILL #still #wellllll anyway sorry #big sniff #I'm fine and everything will be fine this is just a lose/lose situation #also I'm not feeling well physically and driving four hours tomorrow for a stressful event sounds really sucky :( #four hours round trip for like six hours in person

[nerosdayinanime]

wait. random idea. Pathetic(blame candy) muzan & kokushibo are exes from Centuries ago and he has Complaints hed like to talk about w him but all hes getting to now is Nakime. hes so sick of his bullshit and just enduring it and goes to kagaya like 'i have to kill kibutsuji. ill help you kill him & the other upper moons just PLEASE im so sick of this shit. i need to kill him' 'well you arent killing me so ill give you the benefit of doubt-'

since they broke up he's hacked at the curse to the point he can snap it Whenever without muzan noticing, he finally did so & went to kagaya bc he can Feel shit's gonna pick up soon. he has his memories but he Ignores Them bc hes ashamed and kinda projecting it onto muzan. he has to kill muzan to kill his shame kinda fucked up coping mechanism yk?

the hashira try to kill him On Sight together but he calmly deflects everything while explaining hes working with them to kill kibutsuji. reluctant acceptance with the note from kagaya giving him a pass. most of them fully believe its a trap tho.

koku seeing tanjiro & his earrings and starting to approach, giyuu already has his blade lodged in his neck as a warning/threat & tanjiro staring at him in shock like 'HUH?? THE MAN FROM MY DREAMS?? HES A DEMON NOW? WAIT WHATS HE DOING HERE-'

#allied kokushibo au #he gets to have a conversation w tanjiro (giyuu watching like a fucking hawk) about his brother & sun breathing and all that- nezuko and her #conquering the sun- koku agreeing that of any demon she deserves to have the sun's blessing. not fuckin *muzan*. he'll want his grubby #little hands on her as soon as he finds out. You. practice sun breathing Right Now you have to be Ready for this. #kokushibo #tsugikuni michikatsu #kny spoilers #<probably need to add that since this is like Entirely surrounding the final few arcs #he talks to tomayo&yushiro and shinobu and gets in on their plans. maybe stop shinobu from her suicide attempt & deals with douma himself #leaves more than just tanjiro and giyuu to fight akaza #i dont remember how kaigaku's goes isnt zenitsu the only one? if so he can keep that thats his atonement whatever for jigoro #nakime however is going to have much more of a Time defending against like 4 hashira at once #yadda yadda less casualties happier ending. koku not knowing what the fuck to do now. stop the need to Eat People to live obviously but what #the fuck. he still hates himself. all the tereible shit hes done and for What. does he kill himself? walking into the sun seems like a good #way to go. fitting yk? but if he becomes fully human like nezuko did what the fuck does he Do. just. Live? after all the shit he did? no.. #cool at the beginning but the ending has many questions #i do think he'd want to kill himself but i also think he'd be scared to see his brother in the afterlife. in canon it feels like a spur of #the moment Explode Yourself bc the emotions were overwhelming in the moment #or maybe its been way too long since ive read the manga and this shits ALL out of character #whatever it was funnie at first but then i put too much thought into it #def wanna see somethn with him & tanjiro talking about how theyre connected #kny manga spoilers

[soldier-poet-king]

'bereavement leave only applies to immediate family' okay wig tell me these policies were written by western individualist society WASPs without explicitly telling me so

Not attending a cousin's funeral?? In MY family?? With the approximately seven billion aunts and uncles and assorted relatives??? Lmao okay. I literally do not understand these ppl who assume everyone is like them and dont have a large extended family and accompanying obligations (regardless of whether or not I /like/ this family, Im gonna/gotta go)

#also its literallly not my fault i have to be gone for 4 days of work #bc its far away #and not like a little day jaunt for a funeral #the duality of Fran #its starting to hit me now and i. just. overwhelmed and tired and weepy #and i wasnt even CLOSE to my cousin. she annoyed me alot!!! we barely saw each other #i selfishly am more worried about having to manage my fathers emotions #and the whole extended family drama #over the next few days #lowkey staying home would be preferrable but im not gonna do that im gonna be responsible #and there is smthn to be said about presence and a duty to the dead #even if no one else sees it like that. and mt whole family does drama #to me. to ME. there is an important duty to the dead. the waiting. the accompanying #its a duty and its also peaceful #ive long thought id have been a good graveyard keeper #less the physical elements #more the records and tombstones and paperwork #of some large long historied place #caring for the memory of it #yknow the rolls and registers anora speaks of in the cemeteries of amalo #and how none of the prelates want the public cemetary duty?? i would do well there

[rainymoodlet]

I'd be appalled if I saw you ever try to be a saint I wouldn't fall for someone I thought couldn't misbehave But I want you to know that I've had no love like your love

From nobody. 🌵

#ts4 #ts4 edit #ts4 screenshots #ts4 gameplay #;tjol #;tjol+ #ts4 legacy #sim: dallas #sim: shingo #|| #🥹 i am overwhelmed with emotions okay #engagement photos for my babies~ because never in my whole life did i think a randomly generated sim would capture my love like rangi did #but here shingo is :') now the whole 'nanny sasaki is here' notif makes me so emotional when i find it in screenshots dsfjkhd #for a small summary: dallas is my tjol founder + shingo is the first nanny that showed up to babysit ivory (our heir) when she was just an #infant :') he had a higher relationship with ivory than dallas did for a while dfhjfsd #he is such a sweet and caring sim and he's almost dallas' polar opposite - they're brash and loud and shingo is patient and quiet #he made them massive amounts of food every time he came over. it was the same routine: show up - put ivory to bed - make food - play w dogs #the 2 got extremely close & shingo was the one who always invited dallas out to festivals (i never took pics but they went to the festival #of lights when ivory was a lil bab it was so sweet ;o;) he kind of empathized with their situation & never judged them for calling at 11pm #before they went to work at 'the flamingo'. i was resistant to their totally natural developing relationship bc i was like?? no dallas is #way too hot for me to post them with this elder sim and say 'LISTEN ITS JUSTIFIED BECAUSE THEY'RE IN LOVE' but like... #if y'all had watched them the way i have you would understanddd #shingo loves dallas and ivory with all of his little pixel cpu-processed autonomous heart and its genuinely so fcking sweet i'm such a nerd #abt it but ughhh you have no idea T^T dude canonically doesn't want kids he's like 'nah ivory is my daughter i'm GOOD' mans is a #family-oriented nanny and when dallas asked him if he'd like children he said 'nah i'm good'. to their gorgeous face. like my guy that is #willpower of STEEL. IVORY WOULD'VE HAD A SIBLING SO FAST MAN DALLAS WAS READY WITH A CAPITAL R. #im not shitting u the 'loves partners butt/muscles' shows up every time they **** its precious. dallas is besotted with him and i never #should have denied them each other dsjkhdas #MY RANT IS DONE I PROMISE #I LOVE THEM SO FCKING MUCH THANK YOU FOR LISTENING TO ME TALK ABT MY PIXEL PEOPLE

[girls-and-honey]

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#okay so random tag post even though it's been ages #me thinks the current place i work is actually decent a la accepting-queer-ppl so?? miiiiight. consider actually putting my #pronouns in my email signature (which hardly gets used but shh) but like. the actual ones not the society/people assume anyway ones #idk i attended a virtual tech focused event for trans dov (yes early but they didn't want to put the event on sun) and you know when #everyone is just sharing their stories and experiences and it's just like... an overwhelming sense of community? anyway that #and since it was hosted by a professional org the topics were all workplace focused and mayhaps that's something i'm thinking abt for #this year. at least within our pride group I might be ready? wild bc for a long time tumblr has been the only place I feel comfy being 100% #myself. but hearing real people's stories makes me feel like that kind of community would be nice to have elsewhere too #and the whole looking to others also turns around into the leading by example thing bc then we had some breakout groups at the end for #networking which is not my favorite but! i did my intro and said I use she/her for work but will use she/they for this group and #then the next person said he/him at work but for this group he/they so that made me wonder if it was bc of me saying so first? #which if it was is kind of like oh. the way I'm looking for those people for me.. I can also be that for someone else #anyway this sounds dumb typed out but irl/professional me has always separated out queer identity so it's new to me #i'm allowed to be giddy okay. just a little. as a treat (is tumblr still using 'as a treat' i really hope so) #oh shit is this what gender euphoria feels like #alright that's it for now i think #gah emotions and whatnot #missed you all btw i'll start actually being online again soon #personal

[crescentfool]

with the year coming to a close, i hope that anyone who's reflecting about how the year went remembers to be kind and fair to themselves with how you evaluate the year as a whole.

i think there are definitely times when life throws things that are... Not So Great at you. whether if it's some external circumstance that surprised you, or maybe your mentality wasn't at it's best. i wish for anyone who's encountered those kinds of challenges to be able to triumph over them and be able to say that they got through it.

heck, it might still be a work in progress even though you've kept chipping away at it, and that's ok! the results will show themselves eventually as you work through it! and i hope that we can all remember to be patient with ourselves as we go through these processes (learning, healing, etc.), because damn, it can be frustrating when you feel like you're "not there yet."

knowing that life can be rough at times, i think it's unfair to yourself (and others) to discount and downplay any progress you've made this year- whether if it's something that you did for the first time, or maybe you came to a new understanding and insight that you didn't have in the previous year.

it's not to say that you should undermine the validity of your experience with hardship, but to take the time to remind yourself what makes life worth living. to recall what moments were the most satisfying to you- and use it to strengthen your resolve for the next year and beyond. no amount of hardship will ever take away from the fact that you deserve to have hope that things will get better.

i hope that looking back on the year, you don't leave out the things you cherish. that you can remember the good that came this year. whether if the small victories are things like meeting someone new, trying something out for the first time, or making some strides in a long-term project/obligation...!

i wish everyone a happy new year! may it be prosperous, and that your life can move in a direction that's close to what you want out of life. you're all going to do great! remember to congratulate yourself for what you did well! despite everything, you're still here, and that's wonderful. never forget that!

#lizzy speaks #hello everyone. i know that there are *checks calendar* still 20 days left of december and 2023 #but i've had a lot of strong emotions and feelings i've had to sort through as i've been thinking about how 2023 went for me #so a lot of what i've written here comes from the perspective of someone in their early 20s #it's like... a crash and burn from when you were a teenager thinking that you know everything #and realizing how big the world is and how many responsibilities there are #all while a feeling of overwhelm looms over as you try to sift your way through the world and adjust your understanding of it #for me i've definitely had an underlying thought that 'you should have your shit together by now why aren't you there yet' #and it's! not motivating! at all! to think that way. and it's made me more than ever want to be a friend to myself. to extend a patient- #kind voice to myself that reminds me that others are also trying to navigate these feelings and to accept that i'm not going to have an- #instantaneous understanding of how one goes about adulthood. and neither will they. even if they look 'put together.' #like... these people have also undergone similar stresses and along the way figured out how to navigate through that space #and personally i've found peace in knowing that there are people who are older than me. trusting that they've dealt with these things too i #some shape or form and that them living... being here.. is proof that we shall be fine in the end and that we will move past what plagues- #our mind. there's definitely been some... anger i've had this year that. school didnt teach me these things or skills!! i was so mad lol #but hey if we are little guys who are living on planet earth for the first time we shouldn't condemn ourselves to an unrealistic standard- #of going through life and being able to instantly do everything 'correctly' and know how everything works #i'm still working on improving that patience... and also trying to put in the work to understand these things. #in the midst of a very tough week for me i was tempted to say that 'nothing happened this year it was not productive' #but then i was like. that's. objectively not true if you just look at other things. also theres worth in life outside of 'productivity' #...i think i passed 20 tags at this point. but like. my favorite thing about 2023 was meeting so many cool awesome people! #who would've known that funny lil squid game could bring so many connections and friendships i cherish! #thank you so much! for being a part of my life and changing me for the better! for giving me many fond memories! #and i'm very grateful to anyone who supported me and my art this year... for sticking around even though i wished i could do more #it means the world to me knowing that there's proof that i exist and have touched someone's life in a positive way! thank you! truly! #ANYWAY. happy early new year. i hope everyone can nourish a friend in their head that extends acceptance and patience to themselves #as we try and make sense of the world together. there will be things that we don't understand yet! but one day we will! and it'll be like #wow! look how far i came! i'm okay! i'm alive! yipee! thank you for reading this post i made to get my feelings out! have a nice day!

[lunarharp]

some illustrations/vibes from my uhh 29k memory trauma/disability focus orufrey fic, into the deep end.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #idk what more i'll draw so i'll just put these here. i think my failing eye qifrey will be with me forever now. #yesterday - i realise this is probably weird - i BURST into tears for ages like hot tears bc i just suddenly was overwhelmed #by oru's feelings rather than qifrey's. i was just in my orufrey mindscape as usual teehee and i just. oru wanted qifrey to be able to look #at him so much suddenly. and realised that can't ever happen again. i could literally cry a lot again now. i wrote oru trying so hard #to focus on the good qifrey can still have from living and i felt bad and HE felt bad in that moment for being SO sad about it #but until then i/he hadn't processed the truly painful parts of disability that you can't deny. sometimes it hurts so bad and it's unfair #the thing is i do feel that shirahama is leading up to this. disability is so central to witch hat and as for qifrey's narrative... #mm. i can't really believe the powerful and desperate emotions orufrey give me lol anyyyyywwaaayyyyy read my fic haha #i want more ppl to read it and tell me they enjoyed it..but you can't beg for such a thing. no matter what orufrey is..god they are so much #i am so glad from the bottom of my heart that i encountered this manga. #the first drawing is meant to express the feeling of pain coming from one place in your body. and feeling like a conduit #*oru voice* You are a human being.