The Mountain Goats, “Heel Turn 2” // Topaz Winters, “battlefield” // Lilith Kerr (me) // The Mountain Goats, “This Year” // e.e. cummings // Tumblr user @girlroach // Angus & Julia Stone, “Make it Out Alive” // Gang of Youths, “Achilles Come Down” // Gloria Gaynor, “I Will Survive” // Mary Oliver // Dylan Thomas, “Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night” // Richard Siken, “Snow and Dirty Rain” // Lilith Kerr (me) // Lilith Kerr (me), “rebirth” from unloving the knife (2023) // Gwendolyn Brooks, “To the Young Who Want to Die” // Lilith Kerr (me again; sorry, I was running out of material lmao) // Tumblr user @daisies-on-a-cup // The Mountain Goats, “Amy aka Spent Gladiator 1”
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ok while i think i speak for everyone when i say khml better not go ‘surprise! the legendary keyblade master that eraqus is descended from was actually ephemer as well, not brain!’ for a lot of reasons at the same time it’s kinda interesting to think of how different eraqus and brain are. brain is calm and collected and never, ever jumps to conclusions. he pulls out his weapon only once and that’s only after a thorough interrogation of his enemy to be sure he knows what he’s doing. he stared a primordial darkness in the face and had a whole conversation with it and didn’t even flinch. eraqus would’ve peed his pants. eraqus would’ve run away or tried to slash at it in vain without a second thought. eraqus feels the need to fight vidar vala and vali just to blow off steam. not saying ephemer would’ve done something as wrathful and irrational as that but he’s definitely one of the most impulsive of the union leaders. he and eraqus both have that golden retriever energy
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why is pete wentz important to me?? like him, i was a non white kid who grew up in a very white neighborhood in the chicagoland area and it was exhausting and isolating and so so so lonely it could make your teeth hurt. like him, i’m bipolar and no one has ever quite gotten close to describing what my highs and lows are like, but he’s the only one who has gotten close. (do you know what it's like being so so so manic and you know you're not okay and everything rushes around you and you feel like you're on top of the world but you know it's all a lie? an illusion? do you know what it feels like to plummet down so so so so deep and dark and there's nothing but you and that gaping ache inside of you, reminding you just how hollow and fake you are?) like him, i grew up enthralled and obsessed with rock, punk, the hardcore scene of chicago, and there was nothing and no one there for people like me and people who looked like me in a place and sound that i loved more than anything on earth. i saw him reflected in me and in the most non creepy parasocial way possible, he has been one of the most incredible influences of my life. maybe even one of the possible sunshines of my lifetime for all he is still a stranger to me, and i to him.
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sometimes you’re so stressed you feel like you’re going to die and you feel like you can’t do anything right and are a complete fraud collapsing under the weight of everything you have to accomplish and then all of a sudden you come up with a cheap, easy, and innovative solution to a complex problem which can be implemented immediately and go “oh yeah, i AM a capable person, actually.”
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honestly? the worst part of all this is just… seeing people go on trips and talk about hanging out. and everyone’s happy for a thousand reasons. and i just feel so much like it will never be my turn. i haven’t physically hung out with anyone in like a month. i haven’t gone anywhere away from this fucking place in more than a year. i can’t because i have too many responsibilities all the time. and all i want to know is: when will i get to live my life and not be permanently paying off the general debt of my own birth.
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