#when im in these fixations

[saspitite]

i hate being hyperfixated. i hate being so dedicated to doing something that ive literally done nothing else with my time in the past few weeks. i hate that i haven’t done literally anything else that i promised myself id do. i hate that ive prioritized this task over fucking taking care of myself and literally needing to make several alarms to remind myself to eat and shower. i hate feeling like im doing nothing productive despite also thinking that this task requires all of my energy and focus. i hate that i feel like i cant get out of this until i finish this stupid fucking task and i don’t even know when that’ll be. i fucking hate being hyperfixated

#sas says #adhd #actually adhd #<afaik that tag is referring to like. sharing the genuine experiences of adhd instead of the glamorizing it constantly gets #and i don’t think it’s got anything to do with shaming self diagnosed people? #but if it does ill remove it #but anyway #god im so tired #being neurodivergent in a neurotypical world is so tiring #i dont want to hate my adhd #i really dont #its just that this world raises you to think you should be normal #and im just #i feel helpless #when im in these fixations #anywyas #ahem #shrimpposting soon or something

[lottieurl]

hyperfixations are so scary like yeah this could be a month long thing or i might be thinking of it everyday seven months from now. no way to tell

#occasionally i remember that post i made at the end of february where i was like #im not responsible for the person i will become when yj s2 starts airing! #and it gets funnier every month since 😭 #i occasionally think my fixation faded only to realise i just became extremely used to thinking abt yj THAT MUCH #new normal etc

[slavhew]

01/11/2023 struggler(s)

#pathologic #Мор. Утопия #daniil dankovsky #artemy burakh #bachelor #haruspex #admin draws #fanart #forgot about this fucking guy almost entirely #2nd one as a small bonus bc i like how temy came out specifically #truly crumbs when compared to the fixation my friend has/had when i drew these but yk. no actually i dont know either #im mass editing all these for posting and loading them into the queue idfk

[dizzybizz]

sleepy gill and gill with the bubbled evil cat

#hi remember when i thought i was in for a really bad bout of hsr fixation. lets see how thats going.. lets just check in and #oh . oh no. oh this was. this wasnt the plan. oh no #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #gill in pjs got to me ok. gill fighting in pjs got to me. the thought of gill sleeping in a barrel of water with pjs on got to me. #wheni tell you this fkn podcast is the only thing ive been thinking abt for the past few days dude what thef uck #theyre all so stupid they get up to so much bs its fkn great i lvoe the three of them so mcuh WHEHhghh >:'O #my art #i keep nearly forgetting that tag help??? #ive slowly been getting used to drawing them jsut you wait til i feel good abt the designs n shit ok its gonna be epic or smth #oop s its 1am soon whoopsies ehehee but like ..... the dumbasses... theyre in my head.. #there are so many stupid scenes i want to draw 😭😭😭😭😭 #im sorry to. my friends. for jsut . yknow. and everyone really #i wasnt ready for this 😭 idk what happened i just started going through eps so quickly all of a sudden and ive gone through like 12 eps in #2-3 days and i feel absolutely insane and i think abt them so much. theyve taken up all my time help

[so-very-small]

#im allowed to make this joke im autistic #tbh when i got diagnosed my first thought was like. oh THAT explains the lifelong size fixation

[mrtequilasunset]

BOOM! Hear the Bass go zoom !

(based on this pic of Aqua)

#disco elysium #the speedfreaks #acele berger #noid #andre #egghead #dj crazy times #ms biljana electronica #planet of the bass #doing this reminded me i had a massive fixation on aqua when i was a kid #their music videos were my cocomelon shit #im not the first to do this but im crazy abt the concept #click for better quality yk the drill #pete andre #my art

[cringefail-clown]

hateful gaze

#homestuck #homestuck au #beforus #alpha trolls #kankri vantas #man beforus SUCKS ASS in this au #i cant wait to post this fic. kankri backstory anyone??? #like i dont think it was ever stated but. his ass was def culled #and when you think of culling as complete removal of your rights - similar to conservatorship but on crack #like every part of your life is under control of your guardian #it really puts into perspective how horrific this whole thing actually is #not mentioning how a system like that is a breeding ground for abuse against disabled/impowerished #overall just fucking terrible. i have. many thoughts about beforus #its for the ultkri au btw for those unintiated thats a thing im apparently fixated on rn

[smuby]

I am literally allergic to posting things normally here. Also kid Goku design by sporkks as per usual (hi sporkks if you see this)

#when the fixation is so bad you literally wake up to make content for it and dont eat until its actually painful #not a vent thing im suffering but im having a blast so idc #dbz #smub art #dragon ball #dbs #dbgt #son goku #trunks briefs #bra briefs #bulla briefs #bulma briefs #i know briefs isnt a canon last name but i like it too much. dr briefs name is either literally doctor briefs or briefs briefs #vegeta #vegebul #vegetabul #yamcha #dbz au #whis

[mossrockpog]

Tbh my main perspective on most qsmp things is just that I'm happy to be here. These concerns with the unlocks to me are just growing pains of a server where people genuinely care and want the experience to be good. The content creators, according to Bagi, are advocating for themselves, and there is communication happening, even if it isn't always the best. I'm just happy and ready to have a good time :)

#qsmp #moss posts #i feel like when i look for issues with something im gonna find em. and i personally tend to fixate on issues in the things i like far too #much. which ruins my personal enjoyment #so tldr im just chilling :3 #cave mumbling

[canonkiller]

do you consider your self made?

#my art #self portrait of sorts #been musing a lot on disability recently and how being relatively freshly unable to do Most Things has changed my perspective on things #for a long time growing up i was fixated on the idea of being An Impact On The World yknow? mainly the next Big Writer #(and that it would be sooo impressive that everyone would make my books bestsellers when i was only 12 because it was That Good) #and i mean. obviously that didnt work out as originally planned because i was 12 and learning. but I've felt a lot like #I've kind of built my sense of self on those big achievements. even if they were only big to me. and a lot of them #are now out of reach or very difficult to reach. and it's been a lot to. recontextualize #to take what ive been told my whole life and ignore it in favor of just being being enough. #things will happen as they happen. i havent earned anything by suffering but it hasnt ended the world either #im here doing what i Can do for as long as I'm able to do it. and thats all i need to be for now #just making sure that i Do do the things i can do rather than assume i can do them later #anyways. love you #cw: #top nudity #artistic nudity #the dreaded ambiguously presenting nipple #if you put any pro weight loss eating disorder shit on here ill kill you btw #my body is sexy because im in it and im still alive. not because its struggling to stay that way #lindwormposting

[ryssbelle]

Just two kids who got left behind

So now we got Clay's side of the cave in!! He didnt really have time to process any of the emotions he was feeling due to having to immediately run for his life, then guide others to safety alongside Viva.

This was made mostly in response to this fun little tag by @zivazivc

I wasn't planning on drawing it up so soon but AUGH I had to, also ty I pride myself in drawing raw emotions

Btw I do read all the tags and comments I get on my posts I'm very happy to have crushed you all thoroughly 💖

#my art #n2 au #trolls #trolls 3 #trolls au #trolls band together #trolls clay #trolls viva #trolls john dory #im having a lot of fun #i also have like 4 or 5 mor posts locked and loaded about this au #ill probably schedule them to go out for the next few days while i work on other stuff #but ill still like answer asks #i just have been hyper fixating on this and i forgor i have another comic im supposed to be focusing on #but thats for another day #im really excited to share all the silly things ive made #theres quite a few #when i go bonkers insane about something i go #bonkers insane #my wrist hurts so bad but that will not stop me #im so much stronger than possible carpal tunnel #but yeah about little clay doh #he is not well lmao #mentally or physically #hes grieving and terrified and theres so much responsibility on his shoulders #he also feels like its his fault if JD got caught in the cave in #because if hed gone back with his brothers before the escape JD wouldnt have to go back for him #but he loves being with Viva so #its a whole mess of emotions #the reunion with his bros minus jd when they find him is going to be very different

[nocofamilyau]

so much for his day off, eh? (1/8)

#noco family au #total drama #total drama noah #total drama raj #total drama wayne #im sorry Jesus #I was drawing this earlier and thinking to myself like wtf am I doing #why can't I hyper fixate on something decent like getting a job #but it'll be funny so I keep going #anyway gonna try doing like these lil arcs when I can #asks will still be answered I just wanna get this done first it has been stewing in my head for a fat while now

[spoopup]

thinking about them with pokemon

#ace attorney #apollo justice #trucy wright #ok i drew this as a joke mostly because. apollo and victini have the same hair #but i think itd be funny if victini showed up the wright and co office or hung around them a lot because theyre victorious in trials so ofte #when i can i wanna figure out teams/partner pokemon for some of the AA guys and stuff i fckng love making pkmn aus #if im fixated on something i HAVE to mix it with my biggest interest ever its like. The rules. in my brain. yk #RAMBLING SORRY

[moodyjazzyblues]

i love doodling little guys at family gatherings

#art #mk1 #mortal kombat 1 #fanart #johnny cage #mk1 2023 #mortal kombat #sidewalk chalk art #chalk art #kencage #johnshi #little blorbos i love them sm #u ever get a hyperfixation so strong that it instantly cures your mental illness #cuz i was fr down in the dumpster for like 2 years when the genshin fixation wore off #im back and better than ever bitch #moodyjazzyblues

[sealhaus]

Nobody making Liam fanart??? Fine, I’ll do it myself

This funny (severely traumatized) dog (terminally ill man) has taken over my life for the past couple days (I’m enjoying myself)

I noticed absolutely nobody making fanart for him even though he is objectively the best dislyte character. His design is on point and his story is absolutely perfect for the mythology he comes from. I’m a bit of a Xolotl enthusiast (I mean hell I have a chibi of him as my pfp) so I was really worried about him after seeing what they did with Quetzalcoatl, but IM SO FUCKIN HAPPY HES EVERYTHING I COULD HAVE WANTED DISLYTE TEAM YOU HAVE REDEEMED YOURSELVES!!!!

I’ve got a painting of him in the works too.

#liam dislyte #xolotl #xolo dog #furry #furry character #furry anthro #sketch #dislyte #fanart #anthro #dislyte fanart #dislyte valeria #dislyte esper #dislyte game #sketch dump #funny dog appreciation #IM VERY FIXATED ON HIM AND NOW ITS YOUR PROBLEM #blorbo from my games #double tap if you’d skrunkly the when #the skrunkly #my hyperfixatons are your problem #I love him so much it’s physically painful

[inkskinned]

it's not always going to make sense, and it's going to be hard, and the way that you feel her push through your ribs will make the rest of you ravenous. you will be standing in your tiny kitchen looking down at your feet and the loneliness will spray in buckshot over your whole life until you are a crimescene and you will still have to remember to get groceries. you will think about her hair, the wheat, how she has stained your life in yellow, and how before her you were almost-happy but now somehow you are starving. you will think of her weight in your hands and over your skin and her impossible grin. you will want to force your entire fist into your hand and bite down, but you won't, because you're an adult, and you only cry at funerals. so much of her reminds you of fire; the shock of her hair and the swordblade of her laughter - so you sigh and drink water instead. you have emails to send around the shape of her. you have chores to do that avoid remembering the last time she held you. you have to take the trash out and avoid the sensation that she is hanging in the air, all that desire in the back of your throat. you will have to apologize to your dog. i promise. i'm trying. the way you want her is almost reverent, an amber crescent. she has annexed the whole apartment, has made her way under your fingernails. and yet you still have to pay rent. you still have to pay bills.

#writeblr #>:( #i keep!!! fucking!!! burning my popcorn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #AND I DON'T KNOW WHY!!!!!!! IT JUST KEEPS BURNING!!!! #I HAVE TRIED EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #I FUCKING R E S I D E NEAR THE MICROWAVE AT THIS POINT. RAVENOUS INDEED!!! JUST GIVE ME MY FUCKING SALT FIXATION #the only thing left i hadn't tried!!!! was writing a fucking passive aggressive poem about it!!! #(goblin currently expressing his Doubt At My Cooking by skulking quietly off to the Other Room) #but yeah i mean uhhhh death of the author actually this poem is about whomever u were thinking about #and it's actually about u #edit in the tags: it's also about love just fyi. u know when u burn ur popcorn n ur like. #''no one loves me and im going to die alone'' #if ur relating to this ur supposed to relate to it