#which is perhaps the problem.

[grammarpedant]

*sigh* someone has submitted an intriguing prompt to the Aspec Murderbot event that i'd love to try filling. it's basically "loveless aro Murderbot," the prompt makes it sound cool and fascinating to explore, but every time I try to search "loveless aro" to get, y'know, some perspective on an identity and way of life that I'm new to, what I find has me like "what the fuck are y'all talking about (derogatory)" and "what the fuck are y'all talking about (genuine)" what the FUCK are y'all talking about can someone please point me to Any kind of resource that explains What people mean by it when they use this term for themselves and why they use it that isn't, like, the aro wiki page that basically just explains that it's for people who don't identify with the concept of love. like i got that part thanks, can you say more that's a little more internally coherent. this is a sincere if frustrated request for help, btw.

#I'm hangry today I had to wake up earlier than usual to send my ma to a medical appointment only to find the snow cancelled driving as a co #concept. #I'll cheerfully admit I've only just scraped the surface of googling this shit but i figure my shitty search skills would be less valuable #than Just Asking someone who knows anyway #verso talks #gonna be real here chief some of what I'm finding has me like You Are White And Terminally Online #a lot of focus on the narrative of platonic attraction (not convinced this is meaningfully exists in amatonormative society) and like. #How I Personally Feel In My Heart About These Things #can you stop navelgazing for one fucking second and say something politically coherent? since you're not doing the dishes either way. #anyway not to trash the concept of loveless either. i kind of vibe with it but from a specifically non-white non-xtian political pov #which is perhaps the problem.

[vanlegion]

#RVB #rvb #Red vs Blue #dexter grif #Epsilon church #a pinch of salt #But srsly just a joke meme #S19 looks like it's gonna be badass with all those sexy animations #but im still a tiny bit bitter we are gonna lose seasons15-17(18) #it just doesnt make sense to me #so many real moments #and not just with my two favs but with others as well #Red Team never gets nice things like Plot Advancement #i have an idea for an art piece and i need to get it out asap #my biggest hope is perhaps whatever happens doesn't happen right away. . . and after they win the fight they still party #like a calm before the shitstorm #they win #they party #then maybe everyone leave chorus? #THEN things go sideways? #Dunno... but we'll see soon enough #PS Yes I know Donut was also like the Duotagonist for 15-17 #which again #Red Team Problems ; u ;

[crimeronan]

used this generator to make some warning sign vibes for the original project n i think some of you guys would have fun with it too! thank u to my qpp for linking me to it..... love me some deeply concerning imagery.

#original fiction #horror #? #not sure these are Horror horror but. unsettling perhaps. #warning signs #'kitkat which characters do these refer to. what is happening' oh u know #original fiction quartet #theyre all in here somewhere. people with problems

[familiariscanis]

not saying that you cant headcanon chuuya as an alcoholic but i think the reasons people have for this headcanon are usually kind of flawed? from what i've seen people tend to view him as alcoholic because he:

a. collects wine

b. drinks it sometimes

c. is a lightweight (so we've seen him behave drunkenly)

but none of these are traits that actually indicate alcoholism. honestly, they actually are more likely to indicate that he's not one and that he doesn't have a problem with alcohol at all. wine collecting is a very expensive hobby and chuuya has wines that are several thousand dollars a bottle. you don't get nice booze when you're an alcoholic: you're drinking to get drunk. the quality doesn't matter. the fact that he's a lightweight and gets drunk easily is also indicative of him not being a regular or heavy drinker, since your tolerance increases the more you drink.

this feels like such a common interpretation of his character and it's just a little odd to me since not only does it not have any canon basis, but the canon facts actually suggest he's more likely to be moderate about alcohol rather than abuse it.

tl;dr chuuya may have a wine collecting hobby but an alcoholic this does not make.

#honestly i think an alcohol abuse headcanon has more canon basis for dazai than for chuuya #there's been a few pretty eyebrow-raising remarks about his drinking habits. #but that's a seperate post #i think part of the problem with this headcanon is people not really knowing what alcoholism is or what it actually looks like #and mistaking use for abuse #but i also think it's part of the larger issue of fanon chuuya and a large part of the fandom's collective perception of him #and the inability that part of the fandom has of separating chuuya from soukoku #and therefore every single character trait or flaw he has has to be in service of soukoku scenarios and ig alcoholism is good for angst #and i think there's perhaps a status quo in this ship that people feel very strongly about upholding #so chuuya is always out of control and dazai never is #having alcoholism which is often perceived as a weakness #fits into that #more than it fits into chuuya's actual character #but that's also a separate post #obligatory text post tag #nakahara chuuya

[beebfreeb]

It might actually be possible for me to sell stickers and whatnot in the near(ish) future! I've had a small win in the realm of personal autonomy today.

First and foremost, I am definitely planning on making stickers of my hazard sign drawings (and can already think of a few improvements to layout and readability on a small scale) but if anyone has any suggestions or ideas on what you'd like to see: Gimmie. I'd like to hear it.

#Without going into too much detail: My problem has been that I do not have any access to a bank account. #(which is also why cashapp is my only payment option for commissions) #If all goes well... I should be able to resolve this sometime next month. Perhaps around my birthday? (wishing and hoping) #funny talking tag #Anyway if you would buy art of mine: Which one. I need money to get out of here. I miss having running water.

[vvienne]

I literally woke up in the middle of the night like God will dark rise is so fucking screwed. The line that’s like. “Everyone wanted to kill the Dark King.” What’s the part where he looks at Violet helplessly, haunted, almost pleading for mercy? But of course he reveals nothing of substance to anyone. Elizabeth is too young to understand but the reader knows what “Her relationship with that boy was…unnatural” can mean. Tying him to bedposts? Failing to strangle him? What else? Never not even once seeing beyond a mythological identity Will himself didn’t know he had? What did he think was the reason? That he was just intrinsically hateful? Of course he says nothing. Of course Violet can’t trust him- he’s given her nothing as painfully real as what she’s given him. So he gives her the sword hoping at least he can die at the hands of someone he loved, but even that doesn’t work out - she gives the sword to a Visander still furious at SARCEAN. The pattern continues; no one looks at Will, who vomits when he realizes what’s happened to James, Will who is much of a liar and killer and sneak as Elizabeth accuses but nonetheless wants to be different. Even when he doesn’t remember his own past. There’s no way out for him that doesn’t hurt. Hope this obsession passes soon given the one and a half years of waiting required for book 3

#dark rise series #dark heir #rarely does a cliffhanger pain me so much #bc rarely am I ever THAT invested in a plot I am sad to say #nona the ninth was so cathartic in of itself I’m content marinating before alecto #BUT PACAT ONLY EVER GIVES EMOTIONAL CRUMBS #have any of these bitches ever known peace fr #maybe this is what reading princes gambit and not immediately having the follow up might’ve been like #honestly it’s possibly damen and Lauren just generally had less problems tho #more than his relationship even with James. will/Violet is perhaps the genuine source of like. I WISH HED GIVEN HER A REASON. #the narration that describes Violet as Will’s star in the night…….. like fuck fine #will can’t reach any level of genuine intimacy with James bc the mess of fraught noncon dynamics is this massive unspoken horrible thing #wills identity is personal w James in a way it is with no one else but James is so fucking oblivious of undercurrents it comes unbalanced #and will knows it. but (as far as we know) violet isn’t reborn has no history with sarcean the dark king she’s literallt just Some Guy #and that almost makes it worse???????? that they are so loyal to each other even as he’s keeping a massive secret? #they weren’t dated or destined to entangle the way will is w characters like James and Katherine #and I think that makes his rship with Violet possibly the realest and truest experience of trust and love will has ever had #like it’s nothing bro. truly she knows nothing about him other than his lies of omission and her faith in him goodness which may or may not #beiltimately justified. but that was probably as honest and close will ever got to anyone. and him to her.

[girlgerard]

mommm white people on tumblr are misconstruing my posts again despite the post being entirely about how important wording is + how i don’t feel comfortable posting large statements when i haven’t fully processed them yet.

#if you want to put me on a blocklist for loving netanyahu you can! i don’t! and no matter how many times i get told i do #i still don’t! #i literally said i hope his balls get cut off IN THAT POST #i don’t know how that read as unclear. #perhaps there are no hidden genocidal messages behind the wording of my tumblr posts - who knows! #when i said i cared about every single civilian living in that land i meant it. if you decide that i actually don’t that’s not my problem #if you somehow took my words and decided that what i really meant is that i’m a government bootlicker who loves murder #you can do that all you want. it won’t make it true and it won’t help save any lives #i was in ramallah and jerusalem six months ago. have you gone? #if the answer is no maybe think about that for a second #moreover if you’re viewing this from a purely racial or religious framework you have no idea how to navigate this subject #i don’t view israel and palestine through which government i want to back. why the fuck would i do that #palestinians and jews and everyone else in that land is who i care about. i care about gazans #if that’s not enough of ‘a side’ for you i don’t really think there’s much of a conversation to be had. #do you think i wake up every day NOT thinking about gaza? do you think i wouldn’t feel nauseous every second of every day because of gaza? #do you think that within everything i’m saying that the most logical conclusion would be to post all of my thoughts on tumblr? #because if you think any of that we’re not going to have a productive conversation. i don’t take kindly to being told my own emotions

[waterlinkedgirl]

Musical Touken Ranbu: Gou on Stage ~ Satomi Hakkenden; New Edition english sub

At long long last I am able to present you the subtitles for the senshuuraku of Goumyu! After a very turbulent year, I'm glad to be lowkey picking up subtitling again. For this performance, though, I won't be able to do a tl notes file. If I were fair to myself, I'd allow myself to write my grievances with what Goumyu's plot does to what had been established for Kogitsunemaru and Mikazuki when those are relevant, but if I were fair to you all, I wouldn't give you a file that's 90% complaining and 10% actual notes or background.

Don't let my grievances distract from the performance though, it's still genuinely fantastic even if the theming choices may be painful to me. Especially Oodenta is fantastic. Goodness gracious.

Keep in mind that this is only the subtitle file, timed and tled to the DMM senshuuraku. The archive version will have a talk at the start, so the starting times of the subs will have to be delayed accordingly.

Download the subs for Goumyu here!

#gou on stage #goumyu #shinpen satomi hakkenden #touken ranbu #toumyu #Water's translations #I may not be able to do a tl notes file in good faith #but in perhaps slightly more neutral faith- if it is wished for- I could still write the #“how goumyu deconstructs Kogi's themes and generalises them/hands them to others” essay #I'm especially mad about the omote/ura thing #and the way mukau tsuchioto seems to be invoked #as well as the subtle nagoritsuki #ngl goumyu is THE reason why I dread the upcoming myu with Mika without Kogi #closely followed by TKO #anyway yes Tamazusa!Oodenta can step on me #and goumyu is a lovely meta-commentary on what it means to put on a stage performance #it works really well with toumyu's themescape otherwise it just. chooses to Undo Kogi (hyperbolically worded) #it also hooks into and contextualises TKO further-- which is part of the problem (Sui...) #ANYWAY. DUE TO NO KOGI I SHALL BE DOING TSUWA NEXT #WILL ALSO SERVE AS GREAT PREP FOR THE NEW MYU FOR EVERYONE INTERESTED #if I can make even a single person see what I saw in Toumyu (in general but also for KogiMika up to Kotobuki-) I'll be very happy

[sunforgrace]

he sat there on the ground and cried. for cas. cas told him he loved him was taken away and he buried his head in his hands and wept

#AND THEN THEY TRIED TO PRETEND LIKE IT WAS FINE? and after the widower arc #it wasn’t even as nearly fucked then this time all their friends got thanos snapped and we don’t even get canon confirmation that they were #brought back. even with covid not even a vo or offhand mention or reference #jack is god and in every drop of rain or whatever. #sure yeah whatever they beat the final boss and got over the protagonist angst of it all but the world was still the same it just wasn’t a #chuck story which only ramped up to being The Big Problem in the season 14 finale. #cas was stabbed by an angel blade and dean broke while wrapping his body for the funeral pyre. ALONE. and was. not doing well #and you tell me it’s whatever after he sat there in that dungeon refused to answer sam’s calls and cried during the complete and total end #of the world. that he just bounced back from that and died and drove around heaven for decades in a few minutes and smiled while americana #electric guitar played on some bridge #cas helped oh that’s nice I guess smile now I have GOT to go drive my car around. because I did not get enough of that in my time on earth. #unlike my time with cas which I am satisfied with and in no need of closure. perhaps a conversation. looking upon him to see him alive and #well. healing some of that trauma of the last time I saw him. a reunion hug maybe even which has become tradition. CUT THE CAMERAS deadass #he’s going for the face touch. no this we cannot possibly have time for we have to play carry on wayward son twice #sorry. it has been three years. sorry. it’s just so funny buddy your ass did NOT escape the hamster wheel

[screwpinecaprice]

AT with @dragonuva!

This absolute unit, Imp Steven. 😁 I super love drawing himmmm!

Just some more rambling about the possible future of my regular commissions under the cut.

As my laptop got (fixed?) adjusted recently, I've used this opportunity to try out if it can now handle regular commission work. It started to show something's up on the mild rendering process but the lag and laptop heating didn't actually got that bad until a bit further in the full rendering process. Still has a limitation it seems. I'm planning on testing it a second time on a different piece, then I'll decide whether regular commissions will be fully back the next month or not.

#AT #Dragonuva #su #my shiz #steven quartz universe #steven universe #SU #Imperfect Steven #Dgfgggdsdfhhhh Though the technical stuff kinda messed up the drawing flow it was still def fun drawing this 😁 #Okey that bg.. though my laptop did start like it's threatening to self combust while drawing it. It's not the laptop's fault ho #w messy that is. I'm just a hit and miss with backgrounds if I don't spend like a week on it. Lol 😅😅😅 #It's definitely the amount of rendering that it can't handle. #And perhaps the amount of layers too #Which is a problem cause I normally use 350+ layers when a piece is fully rendered+has more than 2 character or/and has an environmental bg #I think I actually would have a lot to ramble about but I also think I had to actually get some sleep rn lol #I really should stop posting stuff while practically half asleep. 😅 #monster Steven

[adhdandcomics]

adding to my tags because i’ve been thinkin a lot about the post i just reblogged and have more thoughts:

i’ll be real, the more i saw ‘hey adhd influencers are so annoying’ the more i worried that i was unconsciously contributing to the spreading reputation of adhd folks as annoying and over-pathologizing every symptom they experience

and then i realized. i am not a goddam influencer or life coach or representative. obviously i have some obligation as someone who cares about myself and the people that like my comics to not spread harmful ideology or blatant misinformation but i never intended myself to be a “’increase your productivity!!’ blog OR a ‘if you have XYZ you have adhd!’ blog. and i do this for fun, and originally started this blog bc i had a lot of internalized shame and self loathing about my adhd and thought if i could make it funny i might have less of that. let’s get real! and it worked!

i’ve obviously done this kind of thing— (hey these symptoms might be adhd!) a lot before in my life & on this blog, but there’s more to it than trying to be an “influencer” or whatever. a term that didn’t even exist when i started this blog!

i felt very isolated trying to find out if i had any mental problems & what have you originally because of large advice (etc) blogs with staunchly anti self Dx views at the time

so i overcorrected when i DID get dxed and tried to validate everyone who was like me. and of course. not the best course of action always for the ol mental health. tried to be the source of positivity and jokes that i didn’t see because the online adhd presence was near non-existent.

and anyway. i make a lot of fun of myself & the way m brain works in my comics obviously but it is not my obligation to... how do you say.... not be annoying online.

because if folks interpret MY little jokes as a strict guide to diagnosis. that’s on them, really, not me. i also believe “making adhd your entire personality” is a non-issue. so what if people find out they have it and get over excited with identifying as adhd. saying this as someone who DID do it. criticism of this gives the same vibes as people being annoyed that young queers make “being queer” their whole personality. im very obviously more than a guy with adhd, and id reckon other adhd comic artists are too. (im friends with a lot of them!) it’s fine to post about it online.

anyway. i just don’t take myself too seriously and i’m a comic artist for myself first! and you know what, i’ve been considered annoying my entire life. what do i care if a few more folks think i’m annoying. neurotypical or not

#i think the article did have some good points especially on the capitalism and marketing angle but i oft think it did venture into #being mad at individual folks who post jokes about adhd. which is literally fine thats what an opinion piece is for lol #i am just very tired of people pretending that a lot of reaction to online adhders is not in itself just an extension of the ableism #we already were facing #'adhd people are so annoying everyone does this youre pathologizing everything' ok and how exactly are you helping. #i hesitate to throw my hat in with hating on adhd tiktok because i am simply not on tiktok and have no way to back up my thoughts #that they may be annoying and oversimplifying a complex disorder on the 'drains your attention span' website. #and i think perhaps the value of each adhd resource varies widely depending on who made it and what theyre even posting. #sometimes its a joke made by a person with adhd. sometimes its sourced and cited research. sometimes its someone discussing their personal #experiences in depth. sometimes its someone talking completely out of their ass. sometimes its THINLY veiled ableism. #its up to the individual to research and determine the value of the memes and resources you seek #anyway. perhaps these points are tough to clarify on sites like insta and twitter. bless. #text #adhd #im punk now #oh and yeah i also agree lots of folks do not talk about the unsavory parts of adhd but rather the funnies and the sillies. but that is #once again a larger capitalism and marketing and ableism problem #r we not talking about them because we are actively trying to infantalize this disorder or is it because we collectively experience a lot #of internalized ableism and hesitate to talk about our worst symptoms for fear of the backlash #weve always gotten about them 🤔🤔🤔 #much to consider #if youve read this far sorry for tangent number 56 about this. but also start being more unapologetic about your disorders. fuck it! #<3

[socksandbuttons]

loving the response on dadcode and bean bloodmoon comic

#it what we wanted vs how canon decided that No. No we will never get it ever #EVEN THO... ITS JUST MAKES IT MORE DEVASTATING IF IT WAS DADCODE LIKE CMON #THATS HOW U GET A MAN TO GRIEVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but nooooo noooo just tool forveevrrrr #like legit u could still have killcode admit 'you were never my child then' #and still have that 'but i wasnt a good father either' AND have some implied effect of killcode wanting to fix that #but never get to it cause bloodmoon kills him!!! THEY'D NEVER KNOW THE TRUE ANSWER. #anyway u couldve done something with that BUT SURE. DONT GET A MAN TO OWN UP FOR GIVING BLOODMOON SOME ISSUES #LIKE HE LITERALLY BARGED IN AND CALLED KC DAD AND KC WAS LIKE 'surely i didnt give him familial problems' #PERHAPS NOT INITIALLY BUT U WERE THE ONE WHO SAID ITTTT #anyway forgets canon for a moment im good its fine #just love reading peoples comments on it and going yes... i provide #in art anyway! i know theres some fics out there of dadcode #the more knwon 'kill code u are the father' #WHICH I NEED TO READ but know. its got me going 'ah yes... dadcode needs'

[ohitslen]

Knowing in my head that Vashwood would never work out if they were in a sentimental relationship adds a fundamental layer of delusional in my own personal VW experience

#it is essential for WW to die no matter what. or else V keeps standing with his own views immovable #surely. he might put them at question eventually. but WW and V question each others views in ways that the consequences #are quite literally mortal for one of them to understand. the one being Vash #I don’t know how to elaborate on this better but I just know they wouldn’t go a day without fighting over morals or shit like that #the solution would be nothing most likely. just ignoring the problem forever making it grow and grow #going unaddressed assuming the other will understand. and they do understand to an extent just not to their full potential #they take the best and the worst out of each other which can arguably be a good thing #but they have to be out of each other’s grasp in order to understand the true value of the other with no way back to them methinks #I’m not making any sense perhaps but I do make enough sense to myself so that is that #that’s why fanfiction is the best thing ever #lenssi rambles #vashwood #nicholas d wolfwood #vash the stampede #trigun

[pocketramblr]

Dash simulator

Blog 1: lol anyone else seeing a lot of strawberries in new recipes now? sometimes its fun but i really dont get the appeal of adding it to everything. why did you make strawberry garlic bread

Blog 2: u kno im not a fan of strawberries, i really like the rich sweet and sour notes from oranges, oranges and chocolate is such a good combo. i altered a recipe for a smoothie with oranges last week and it was soooo good ill give you my notes if you want Reblogged by: Blog 1: ahaha yesss i love chocolate and oranges

Blog 3: I canNOT believe the hate im seeing to strawberries right now, like, you know guys know the rule don't like don't bake right?? you know you can hit the back button right?? honestly what's wrong with yall

Open draft- wait guys you know there's a difference between leaving a comment on a recipe saying you hate strawberries and the recipe writer should never use them, and going to your own blog to say you don't really like strawberries, without naming any specific people or recipes right? you know there's a difference right?? - Save - Post - Discard

Draft discarded

Blog 4: why is everyone jumping on the strawberry hate train right now. what is wrong with you. Reblogged by: Blog 5: I knowwww like guys some people stop baking because of reading things like that, please stop it, if you don't like strawberries you can be quiet about it

Open draft- im so sorry if anyone's getting sent mean messages or comments about what they're writing and baking, but i'm literally not seeing any of that and if you are, please use the block button. but someone making a post on their own blog is not that, and if you can't see the irony in you being allowed to complain on personal blogs but not them i can't help you... - save- post- discard

Draft discarded

Blog 2: are strawberries even in season?

Blog 6: woo cherry pie!

#trying so hard to be a blog 6 rn #im discarding those drafts #but clearly it has been too much for me as this one is getting posted #like i really am sorry if any. strawberry antis are directly being rude to anyone #that isnt ok #but i have seen zero of that on my dash or in the tag #i saw a few blogs saying lol they don't like strawberries #and then i saw a ton of blogs saying how dare there be any negativity at all #and seeming to act as if those blog posts were specifically about disliked fic authors i mean recipe makers #which... if any of them were... i didn't see it because of how i blocked large swaths of the fandom like three years ago #when i realized that it was determined to blow up a discourse topic every single month #and if there are people doing that. please. do what i did. block en mass #if you open a recipe that turns out to have strawberries in it and you cant hit the back button but instead leave a nasty comment that is a #you problem #but also if you see a random blog post about someone saying they dislike strawberries- hate strawberries even- and you feel personally #attacked and start crying about how now you never want to bake a strawberry shortcake again and they're so mean #that is also. a you problem. #'what fandom is this pocket' dont worry about it #not one i have any mutuals in #which. considering the mass blocking and the annoying chronic discourse explosions. perhaps is not surprising

[askkwieon]

wip

wanted to put kerdor in a famcy fit and it... got outta hand

i do plan on doing this to All my trolls. so this will take a while

#arts #kerdor #jaespe #selnie #hieser #i was watching a music video and i was #so gay enamored #i was like perhaps if my trolls looked like the rap ladies #maybe id play with them more #but i think the real problem is i dont have a tight enough narrative for em #i might have to retcon my whole fantroll cannon back into its original form #like. the shit im currently interested in includes several AUs for characters who arent like #consequential to any cannon i have #which. i cant really figure out why #maybe cuz its easier to do random smutty shit w them without feeling like im contributing to some overarching narrative #maybe i need a looser narrative for my trolls actually #thanks for coming to my ted talk ig #this piece has me in a semi-manic state #probably because its way past my bedtime #and i work a fucking retail job and its sorta killing me #but i digress

[nshtn]

oh boy oh boy the riddler's got a scar-l!

#edward nashton #danonation #the riddler #batman 2022 #dano riddler #this one is my boy Rooftop dano rids #he's thinking about kyill dyeath myurder #I saw one (1) comment by someone saying there isn't enough art of Eddie with guns #Do not worry my child I have come to alleviate your problem immediately. #Unfortunately my gun drawing skills are near-unrecognizable. #but perhaps you can appreciate the attempt... #I'm a big fan of the scar-l #I like UMP too #and a Vector is nice #and the fictional P18C which is a glock 18 with a silencer but more russian-y / sigsauer-y and Flatnose-squareshaped is godtier #hhough i will hauve covid if i draw NSHTN with a P18C... he should not be allowed weaponry #tw gun