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surveys-at-your-service · 3 years

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Survey #369

“so close, no matter how far / couldn’t be much more from the heart / forever trusting who we are / and nothing else matters”

What are three emotions you experience regularly? Sadness, shame, and stress. Is there someone right now whom you really wish would care for you? -___- Does your job allow visible tattoos? I don’t have a job, but quite honestly, I probably wouldn't take a job that didn't. I just love tattoos a lot and plan on having many, and ignorance and old-fashioned bullshit isn't gonna stop me. Do you know anyone that’s transgender? Yes. Do you think dress codes are unfair? In some places, like schools, yes. Are in a relationship? Tell me about it. I'm not. How is your road rage? I don't have road rage. By god does my sister, though. Favorite cosmetic brands? I don't wear makeup nearly enough to have a preference. The beach or the pool? The pool. I hate the feeling of sand, plus the salty wind and heat. Manga or anime? Anime. Favorites for manga? I've never read any. It's tempting to read Deadman Wonderland since it continues off the very short anime, but I just don't want to. Manga isn't my style. Favorites for anime? Fullmetal Alchemist (including Brotherhood), Ginga Densetsu Weed, and Deadman Wonderland. Favorite academic subject? English. A card game that you’re good at? I'm not exceptionally good at any. Do you eat breakfast? Pretty much always. A popular book you haven’t read yet? To Kill A Mockingbird, to name one I feel like everyone had to read in school. Do you like sweaters? I'm an oversized hoodie person, really. I don't like the look of zippers. Do you like sushi? Never tried it, never will. Do you wear prescription glasses? Yes. I badly need a new pair, because I can't see for shit. Generally, are you more likely to blame others or yourself for problems you experience? Myself. What is one thing about your life that you don’t ever see changing, even if you might wish it would? I have a feeling I'll always have some degree of social anxiety. I'm sure there are other things just not coming to me. At what point in your life have you been the most social or had the most friendships? And at which point have you been the least social? I had the most friends in my childhood years, probably. Or high school when I actually had a friend group. I'm sure I was most social as a kid in elementary school, not dealing with my social anxiety. I've been the least social like... now, honestly. I go essentially nowhere and have very few friends. Do you prefer to have a few close friends or a bunch of random acquaintances? Which would describe what you have now? I want close friends. I have like... two or so close friends and a handful of acquaintances. I don't know which I have "more" of when you consider the actual level of friendship/"quality" I guess. Do you journal? Generally, what do you write about? Do you find it helpful to get your thoughts out that way, or do you prefer another form of self-expression? I don't actually journal, but you could consider these surveys my "journal." I guess it's kinda why I do them so frequently? Like it lets me get stuff that's going on out, so I find it kinda therapeutic versus keeping all my thoughts jumbled up in my head. Have you ever been somewhere and REALLY didn't like a food that you were expected to eat? How did you deal with this? Are you someone who is likely to suck it up and be polite or refuse and save your taste buds? To start off, I am VERY bad at sucking it up and eating something I don't like. My gag reflex is very strong, and I'm also extremely sensitive to textures I don't like, so my reactions are just very involuntary. I can try to subdue my expression when I dislike something, buuut that's extremely difficult. But anyway, yes, I've been to places where I definitely disliked the food, especially this one occasion where we went to a local Southern cooking restaurant that literally ASSUMED you want the staple foods and sweet tea, none of which I enjoy. While everyone else was eating, I just very awkwardly sat there doing nothing and pretty much panicking over looking rude. Thank god, Ashley's father-in-law noticed and called over the waiter for me to actually order something, the way it should be. I was very thankful but still felt bad. What is one way in which you compare yourself to others? In this comparison, do you regard yourself as better or worse off than the people to whom you usually do the comparing? I am very bad and comparing successes with others, but only in ways that demeans me. Like I look at others and am just like, "Why aren't I there yet?" It always leads to anger and disgust of myself. What is something you’ve been particularly grateful for lately? I've thought a lot lately about how thankful I am to have my mom. She does so very much for me, and I don't think I could absolutely ever repay her in full. I wish I could. She's a damn superhero. What kind of change or opportunity would be the biggest help in your life right now? I was initially going to say getting a job, but thinking about it, getting to my goal weight might be an even greater help. It would help my leg pain, not having to carry as much around, I'm sure my hyperhidrosis wouldn't be as bad (I hope), and it would MASSIVELY affect my happiness. Like I cannot tell you how negatively my weight has damaged my self-esteem, confidence, and peace with myself. Is there one emotion that you experience more often than any other? Is there an emotion you rarely ever experience? I'd say I experience stress more than anything. I'm always thinking of something that's causing a ruckus in my life. A rare emotion for me is uhhhh jealousy, even though I've dealt with it more lately. What is one illness you are afraid of having? Do you know anyone who has faced this illness? The disease that I think scares me more than any is Alzheimer's/dementia. I just... cannot possibly imagine. How do you tend to behave when you’re sick? What kinds of things do you like people to do for you, if anything, to help you feel better? I'm very mopey and tired, and I can be a bit more irritable. I really, really appreciate help with things like chores when I'm not feeling well. When was the last time you did something you were proud of? Were other people proud of you as well? Does it matter to you whether or not other people care about your accomplishments, or is your own satisfaction enough? It's a very small thing, but I weaned down from having two cans of soda a day to just one. Mom is proud of me for it, which I appreciate a lot. Admittedly, it does kinda matter to me that those who know it's a big deal to me see and care about my accomplishments. I'm bad about needing external validation. What is your least favorite thing about the season you’re currently experiencing? Are you okay with most types of weather, or are you only happy under certain conditions? Ugh, the heat. Spring and summer are miserable to me because I veeery much love the chilly weather and no damn humidity. Have you made any changes to your style or “look” lately? How often do you change your appearance, hairstyle, fashion, etc? Or is it a pretty constant thing? No; my style is pretty constant. What was the last thing you felt hopeful about? Do you think there’s a good chance of whatever-it-is working out in your favor, or not so much? Getting a job at the tattoo parlor. I'm fearful that they won't be open to the position I'd like, so I'm trying to not get my hopes up too high. We'll find out in two days. Have you ever “recovered” from anything? What does “recovery” mean or look like to you? Yes, a traumatic breakup. I'd say recovery is just healing as much as possible from something, be it physical or emotional. What are some ways your childhood differed from those of others around you? Do you think this difference was harmful or advantageous in the long run? My dad was an alcoholic, if that qualifies. That definitely isn't a *normal* thing for someone's childhood. I think it was harmful, honestly, especially because I've had more than a few nightmares about my dad drunk. When was the last time you did something out in nature? Do you notice a dip in your mood when you don’t get enough of the Great Outdoors? Oh jeez... Probably not since Sara and I went catfishing with my dad. I wandered around with her some as she ventured for toads, haha. I don't really notice a dip in my mood, just because I'm so used to being indoors. I do prefer getting some time with nature, it's just hard and uncomfortable with how easy I sweat, and my knees sure do cuss me the fuck out in the form of a billion cracks if I walk much (by my standards...). What did you dream about last night? I had two dreams, but I only remember one, in which a giant green tree python was eating me backwards so I was conscious through it all. No hard feelings, I still want one as a pet, haha. They're GORGEOUS snakes and no, absolutely cannot eat you even if it tried its damnedest. What were your childhood dreams? To be a paleontologist, then a vet. What are your dreams now? If we're talking career-wise, to be a nature and wildlife photographer that gets to travel a lot. What are some Halloween costumes you would like to wear in the future? I've mentioned that #1 on my list is Ms. Oogie Boogie, then uhhhh... wow, I'm surprised I'm blanking, because I know there are lots I've thought of. Were you born with hair on your head? Yes. Would you rather have a home birth or hospital birth? I'm not having kids, but holy mother of fuck I'd have my baby at a hospital with a goddamn epidural. I do NOT know how some people can do it naturally, bigass props to them. Do you currently live in the house you grew up in? No. If not, what do you miss about it?^ It was just in general a nice house, the best one we've lived in. We had a pretty big yard too, so lots of room to play around as kids. What’s your favorite type of yogurt? I'm not a big yogurt person, really. What were your high school’s team colors? Red and white. Who were your best friends in high school? Hannia, Girt, Maria, Megan, Dennis, Dakota... What would be the best surprise you could receive right now? A tarantula. *puppy eyes emoji* Were there any subjects in school that were really easy for you? If so, what? English courses were very easy for me, and I was pretty good with science. Did you ever skip a grade or get held back a grade? Not like, a whole grade, but I surpassed Writing I in my last college endeavor and started out in Writing II instead. What’s your favorite rock band? Oh brother, you can't ask me this. Who’s your favorite country singer? I consistently like Tim McGraw a bit. How many drawers does your dresser have? My dresser is unnecessarily big. There's like five or six. Have you ever taken a picture at the perfect moment? Yes. One of my favorite pictures I've taken was at Ashley's gender reveal for Emerson; even she didn't know. When her husband pulled the fog thing and it was pink, her expression was just priceless. Was your first car used or new? I haven't had my first personal car. How did you discover your favorite band? By going through my mom's CDs when I was getting into rock music. Ozzy was the first truly metal and not rock band that I ventured into. What was the last big decision you made? BIG decision... I don't know. Probably dropping out of college. What is your favorite thing to go shopping for? I love window shopping for pets online, haha. What was the last thing you changed your mind about? A political stance. Who was the last friend you saw, and what did you do together? Oh yikes, it's been more than a while... It may have been Girt? In which case we probably watched TV or played board games together. Who tends to show up in your dreams? Do you ever wonder if you appear in anyone else’s dreams? Jason just loves to show up in my dreams more than anyone else. I don't really wonder that, no. What is something you wish you could say to someone who is no longer in your life, or something you wish they could know? I wish I could tell Bryar (Jason's friend I got in a fight with) I misunderstood something he said to me ("martyr" has two different definitions, and I somehow didn't know the modern one at the time) that made me seem like an absolute, attention-seeking bitch. It's so fucking embarrassing to look back on, because I agreed with him because I thought he meant it as I would die for my beliefs, which is true. What worries you most about your future? Whether or not I'll ever be in the physical shape I want to be in again. Or if I'll have a stable job. What is something you do to feel better when you’re scared? Find distractions, like funny YouTube videos. I also engage in deep breathing and grounding methods. What is the strangest book you have ever read? How did you find out about it? Oh my god, in elementary school, we read a book where everything a boy touched turned to chocolate. Weird book. Do you prefer to watch movies or tv alone or with other people? Is there anything you refuse to watch alone? Other people, definitely. I like having someone to talk to and comment on what we're watching. There's nothing I won't watch alone. What was the subject of the last video you watched? It was a let's play.

#survey #surveys #questions #lyrics: ''nothing else matters'' by metallica

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culturalogique · 6 years

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Motherhood III - My thoughts

Motherhood. Motherhood is a strange thing, it creeps up on you. Slowly. Even when you’ve known you wanted to be a mom for a long time, there’s no way you can see it coming. Now that I am a mom, I have had my baby and I’m on the other side. Three months now. I look at first-time pregnant women and shake my head. They just don’t know. There’s no way they can know. They can read everything, talk to everyone they know, do everything in their power to be prepared and there’s no way to know everything. It’s an infinite pool of knowledge and potentialities, the point is no one knows, even women on their fifth childbirth/rearing don’t know what’s going to happen. It’s a mystery, one of the last, true great mysteries out there. And yet every woman is completely and wholly prepared for what they are about to experience, because it’s made up exactly for them, for her, at this moment, at this time.

Back to my point. Motherhood sneaks up on you, it comes in layers.

Some of the things I’ve noticed.

Baby animals. Everything for your newborn is covered in natural elements, leaves, flowers, trees, giraffes, whales, wolves, raccoons, pooh bear, baby elephants, baby animals of all kinds. We celebrate them, we celebrate life and love and family. ‘Daddy’s little princess’ ‘I love mommy’. But out there in the real world, we are letting species die at an alarming rate. We wouldn’t dare give up our foreign vacation, our second car or strawberries in January. But when it comes to our babies, we know what’s good and wholesome. Life, the life that issues forth when babies are born. We recognize the value of the natural world, fresh air, bright colors, celebration.

That was one of the first things that hit me after my daughter was born.

Sad.

Of course hormone’s are raging you at that time.

My sister called it ‘You’re so happy you’re sad.’ That’s exactly, how I felt!

No one tells you you’re going to have feverish night sweats for the first nights to a week afterward, no one tells you about the panic.

My first re-occurring dream/nightmare was of waking and checking the baby to see if she was alright and then realizing that she wasn’t the real baby. And looking around in a panic for the real baby only to realize I was awake and the real baby was right in front of me and she was fine. Happened multiple times. My husband and I still joke about it.

Not to mention my actual paranoid question if someone could have possibly looped footage of my baby sleeping comfortably into my baby monitor to trick me. I literally had to talk myself very carefully through this one… a) why would anyone do that, seriously you think someone is stalking you and specifically wants to steal your baby badly enough to infiltrate your house, b) how would they do it, the monitor was from my sister who had gotten it second hand from her sister in law, this thing had been through 5 kids, it wasn’t even connected to the WiFi! Pretty nearly impossible and c) those are her clothes, that is from today, you just laid her down, it’s fine, you’re just paranoid!

That’s how much you love them, it’s irrational. You cannot control how you feel and what you want to do about it.

Speaking of which I better go check on her right now. :D

Ok, I’m back.

In the beginning, my mother, her grandmother, would be worried she wasn’t breathing, truly worried and asking me to check. Mother of both myself and my sister, olympic swimmer, early child development specialist grandmother, was so connected to this new little being that she was doubting her ability to pick up on the subtleties that might mean loss of life.

They scare you so much with SIDS and all the precautionary measures that it’s a miracle babies are even born. Of course it is a miracle.

Everything is upside down and inside out. But, gradually, like a frog boiling in a pot of cold water.

You become your child. Gradually, you start peeing your pants, you need to wear pads, like diapers. Your thighs start to chafe and stick and get rashes. You need diaper rash cream. You can’t reach your feet, you can’t clip your own toenails or coif your private area, you need help to do basic things. You have to eat small amounts, because too much will give you heartburn and an upset tummy. You’re uncomfortable, you wake up several times in the night. Not just to pea, also for no reason, you’re just AWAKE. Oh, and you’re nauseous, you puke, you can’t keep food down, you have a gag reflex and are super sensitive to foods, tastes and smells.

You are becoming your baby. Pregnancy helps you feel what it feels like to be a baby. And to know definitively that your life will never be the same.

This is the new normal. You have set sail.

Of course, men and other partners/caretakers have no idea. The women who know are women who have given birth, recently being the best. Because they have not forgotten the truth of it.

No one tells you you’re going to lose your core strength and the ability to control your urine, like maybe permanently.

No one tells you about the fluids. I was expecting the pee, poop and spit up, but being imperceptibly soaked in a cold sticky fluid that is your own milk, soaking down into your shirt, your sheets, everything at any time.

Or that you’re vagina may never be the same. Only afterwards will your girlfriends who are moms admit it. Oh yeah, I call it my ‘fin’ one friend laughs. Another recall’s going in for her 1 year check up, asking ‘what’s this’ and having it explained that this is now her vagina, it is healed after 2nd degree tears.

Mine is more a valley or a divet. The tear came back together at the top but the bottom remains slightly open.

Both my midwife and my primary care physician say it’s normal and that it will ‘granulate’ back together, gradually, of course.

And what about sex? Hmmmmmm, well after the three+ weeks of bleeding profusely out your bottom, not being able to sit up and still too weak to go on long walks or to lift even moderately heavy things. Not to mention however your nipples and breasts feel depending on how nursing is going.

Penetrative sex is not the first thing on your mind. Maybe a shoulder rub?

But on the other hand, you know it’s important and for some lucky reason you do feel kind of horny. Thank goodness for that! You agree to it.

And well, it kind of hurts. Not a lot but it’s very uncomfortable, especially in certain positions.

Now I know why in certain religions they promise you 32 virgins, because a woman who’s had a child birthed out of her is going to tell you exactly what she likes and doesn’t. Out of necessity.

My husband is a saint. He is so thankful we are sexing at all and so understanding of my courage, he only wants to do right by me and so we have a sex life, once again.

Different than ever before but a sex life. This is the part where I remember our midwife telling us about sex after baby, ‘it’s like meeting again for the first time, everything is new’.

And it is like that. Closer, more open, more understanding and compassion. More true love than ever before, this mutual purpose, this mutual accomplishment, precious beyond belief and yet fragile and needing constant faith.

No one tells you you’re going to be ravenous afterwards, wanting/needing to eat and drink even during the night – just like a baby.

The truth is there’s too much to tell. And we new pregnant mom’s we don’t listen, we simply cannot take in that much information. On some level we just have to wing it and hope, pray and prepare for the best.

Right after I gave birth the advice I had for women was – ‘Do your squats. Keep up with your yoga and your stretches. Walk every day.’ ‘This is an athletic event, better get your game face on.’

Which reminds me of my daughter, when she was learning to latch on to my breast, she would sway her mouth back and forth on my nipple with her mouth open to locate the nipple and then she would get what I called her ‘game face’, which was part growl, part bite and part lunge and go for it.

Mothers and babies, we’re more alike than we look.

Now that my daughter is 3 months old. Today! Happy birthday Melissae, you’re a quarter of a year old already! I feel like I have not only set sail, I’m in open water, out of the sight of shore.

Here’s to the best. For all of us.

#motherhood #birth #midwifery #children #babies #mom #mother #life #vaginal birth #natural birth

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vollyball-illnesses-blog · 7 years

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Oikawa headcannons with bonus Iwaoi ones too?

thanks for the ask, friend!!! we haven’t typed up any iwaoi hcs at the moment, but we wanted to get this posted because this has been in our inbox for a while! we love iwaoi, though, so we’ll try and get some iwaoi hcs posted at some point in the future!!! - cas

Morgan’s HCs

–Not matter how tough he acts, he’s the kind of person who gags when those little gross stringy bits from banana peels get on his fingers.

–There’s two kinds of sick Tooru, a clingy, miserable and emotional sick or an evil, stubborn and bitchy sick. There is no in between and both are equally as unfavourable. There is, however, a way to deal with both. Warm water. Give him a cup of warm water and he settles down, drinking it slowly but contently until it’s all gone and then will fall to sleep soon after.

–Gets very motion sick unless he’s driving. He isn’t even descreet about it, he’ll whine and grumble and make sure everyone else around him is just as miserable, not even trying to keep noise down to a minimum when he does puke, this in an attempt to not seem embarrassed by it, even though the whole team knows he is. Somehow everyone knows about his motion sickness except Iwa-chan.

–Literally just an anxiety ridden insomniac with a frequent migraines from either stress or lack of sleep. He struggles with horrible anxiety attacks but has become very skilled at hiding them. Big crowds around him, such as the ones his harem creates, trigger such attacks and he tends to try and avoid them if possible. But you know Oikawa Tooru, he never passes up an opportunity to show off for public.

–Doesn’t know how to deal with failure, he beats himself up really bad inside and bottles everything up, harsh self hate repeating like a mantra in his head, over and over again like personal torture until he works himself up so much he ends up throwing up.

–Literally catches anything going around. Always the first on the team to get the flu but also gets over it the quickest, he’s down and out for a couple days ant then back to normal again. Or as normal as Oikawa gets, at least.

–He’s a ‘feel good puker’, meaning he throws up and then feels perfectly fine after. No lingering nausea or stomach pain, he’s surprisingly fine after and ready to get back to whatever he was doing.

–ADHD, had it diagnosed as a kid. It was worse back then but now it’s slightly better. He has a problem with textures, he can’t go anywhere near some food because of how it feels in his mouth and with foods like lasagne that have lots of different textures, he has to deconstruct them and eat them a texture at a time. If he eats certain textures, it’ll make him gag, sometimes he may even throw up.

–One of the most likely people to suffer from an eating disorder. I bet Kageyama never gains weight no matter what whereas Oikawa gains real easy. He’s jealous of Mr. Natural Talent and because of this, only ever eats stupidly healthy food and no doubt will make himself sick to not gain.

–He is the kind of person who finds comfort from laying his head on someones lap and having either his hair stroked of his stomach rubbed. Also, if/when he lets someone into the bathroom with him, rubbing his stomach then also helps him calm down and stops him from fighting against what has to happen.

Casper’s HCs

stomach bugs/fevers

has a low immune system naturally, but it is also made worse by his lifestyle

he always catches stomach bugs if they’re going around, no matter what precautions he takes to avoid them

he’s the kind of person who knows, the moment he wakes up, if he’s going to be sick that day. even if it’s not going to happen for hours and hours, he just knows, no matter how much he tries to convince himself that his gut (please excuse my awful pun) is wrong

has a tendency towards stomach pain - like pure and intense pain - before he feels nauseous, sometimes bad enough to bring him to tears

his insomnia has a strange effect when he’s sick

he’ll get really worked up and anxious, his typical fear of not being able to sleep gets amplified. he’ll whine about it and sometimes cry, especially if he’s already puked but still feels bad

it feels to him like forever passes without sleep, but really only about 15 minutes pass before he’s out, without even realizing

his nightmares also act up when he has a fever

they get really bad at the beginning of a fever, and he often gets delirious

at some point he gets so exhausted that everything shuts down and he’ll sleep more deeply than ever, often for 20+ hours. when he gets to that point, he’s so tired that he’s at risk of puking in his sleep and not even waking up, so his caretaker has to be really careful to make sure he doesn’t choke

once he’s had one of his marathon sleeps, he’ll wake up feeling much better and even in a good mood, though he’ll continue milking his sickness for all it’s worth and more until all systems are completely gone

insomnia

i’m pretty convinced that oikawa has insomnia

this lowers his immune system and makes it more likely for him to get sick (i can verify that this is a real thing from experience)

i also hc him as being prone to nightmares, which has to do with some other angsty but pretty irrelevant hcs that i have about his backstory

overwork

yeah, he almost definitely overworks himself

overexercise leads to a puking, sobbing mess

staying up late even when his insomnia isn’t forcing him to (because he has school work to finish and needs an extra hour - minimum! - of practicing his serves) leads to feeling nauseous throughout the day and sometimes puking

anxiety

his anxiety is bad enough to cause panic attacks that make him vomit

it stems mainly from a fear of making mistakes and being judged

migraines

he likely stresses himself out so badly that he gets migraines (insomnia does not help with this)

he tries to ignore them, pretend they don’t exist until they go away, but they often end up getting so bad that throws up, and sometimes are so painful that he can’t even move

motion sickness

gets carsickness but lies to both himself and others and claims that he doesn’t

other than that i don’t think he gets sick on other modes of transportation, or rollercoasters or anything

emetophobia vs. fear of making a mess

i could see oikawa as emetophobic, since that can come along with being a control freak, but i actually think he’s more afraid of making a mess

i actually hc him as someone who has an irrational fear of making messes

so if he pukes on himself or someone else, or anything that isn’t in the toilet, a trashcan, or a bowl, he gets super panicked

it gets especially bad if it gets on his hands because then he can’t touch anything without making more of a mess and he feels helpless

eating disorders

it makes sense to me that he would have struggled with anorexia at some point, because he’s so concerned about his appearance

alternatively, he has always been super skinny and was made fun of it as a kid, so he’s self-conscious of being too thin

it may seem contradictory, but i don’t think bulimia is out of the question for oikawa, because any emetophobia would stem from a lack of control, and bulimia puts him in control (at least that’s how he feels), plus he wouldn’t make a mess this way because, again, he’s “in control”

food sensitivities

i hc him as a picky eater

i like to think that if he eats something even remotely sketchy, it’s an pretty much a sure bet that he’ll get food poisoning. this is so consistent that it’s almost comical

he has a bad gag reflex and certain textures, especially if they catch him off guard, which don’t usually but can make him puke, especially if he has a lot in his stomach to begin with

response to caretakers

he wants to be babied, he really does

but he can also be very self-conscious about being sick

and he really wants to continue on with his daily life, because he has so many things to do, so he doesn’t like being told that he needs to rest and sometimes tries to hide how bad he feels for that reason

he hides under blankets, both because he loves blankets and because he doesn’t want to be seen while sick

he demands hand and foot massages

puking details

a quiet puker, in my mind

there isn’t much warning to outsiders before he throws up, though sometimes he’ll get hiccups, which he stifles pretty effectively

it usually comes up without much prompting, though sometimes burps will aid, though these are usually half-burps that don’t make much noise because they’re cut off in the middle by sick coming up his throat

tends towards long, very liquified streams of vomit that leave him gasping for breath and panicky because he’s genuinely scared that he’ll suffocate. if his fever’s high enough, though, he’ll be too exhausted to worry about it and whoever is taking care of him will be justifiably concerned that he’ll choke

often gets very shaky and cries quietly before and while he’s throwing up, which sucks because the crying makes him more sick, leading to him feeling even more out of control, sometimes leading to panic attacks, which only makes him want to cry more. it’s an awful cycle

possibly prone to passing out

the taste and overall sensation makes him gag more, so there’s often lots of dry heaving after his stomach is empty

random

i strongly subscribe to the hc that oikawa loves aliens. i have a lot of angsty backstory hcs about this, but they’re pretty irrelevant to sickfic, so i won’t bother you with them unless someone sends in an ask for them!

#chocolatecoveredturkdurken #tw vomit #tw bulemia #tw ed #sincerely: cas #Morg has the blog #ask #oikawa tooru #sick oikawa #hcs #headcannons #emeto headcannons #emeto

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selenelavellan · 7 years

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It Takes Two

Twins in Arlathan AU

Uhhh...I don’t really have an excuse for this except that one of the days I was gone, @scurvgirl was having a bad day and I know she likes pregnancy fic, so. Yeah.

Dirthamen and Ghilashim (Mentioned) belong to @feynites

Twins.

It is twins, her healer claimed with a smile. Congratulations.

As though she were not under enough pressure already.

Selenes hand drifts slowly over the slight swell of her already growing stomach as she delivers the news to Dirthamen herself. He has been busy lately, trying to catch up on everything that occurred during their month long 'personal retreat'. With the death of Andruil still fresh from a decade ago, it had been decided that perhaps the Evanuris should have a birth of their own again, to re-strengthen the family.

Selene is fairly certain Sylaise had had herself in mind when she pitched the idea. But Dirthamen had seemed excited at the prospect of more children, and as he is the oldest, and no one had actually argued (to say nothing of June's obvious apprehension to the possibility of being a father himself), he had agreed to sire a child.

And then promptly returned to their home and sprung the news on Selene.

Who had only almost fainted, to her credit.

But that had been one opening, one additional child Dirthamen had been granted permission for. Now there are two, and though logically she knows it is no fault of her own, Selene can't help but feel like perhaps she failed him somehow. Now they will have a headache of tests and paperwork and things to ensure they were not cheating somehow. That they are not using the pregnancy as a bid to usurp yet more power for themselves.

Selene suspects the results of the test will matter little in the eyes of some, though. Especially those who were skeptical of her carrying in the first place. Not that she blames them, exactly. But Dirthamen was concerned that his shifting form might be dangerous for their child, or that he would become unable to carry out his responsibilities during the duration of the pregnancy, and an unstable Ghilan'nain might use the opportunity to seize pieces of his territory and people for herself.

So she stands before him now, as he reclines in his throne and stretches out a long, silent moment with the news hanging in the space between them, and hopes that he will not be disappointed somehow.

“I need to check on something,” is all he tells her before striding out of the room.

And then she is alone, feet bare on the cold marble of the floor while soft beams of light stream through stained windows from the rising sun. Her eyebrows scrunch together, hands tightening around the dark, soft cloth draping her body, her throat rough and ragged when she swallows, trying to push down the sting of his sudden departure.

'Breakfast,' she thinks. 'I need...breakfast.'

–

She does not tell Des at breakfast, or Melanadahl at work. Only tries to pretend that everything is fine, and dismisses their questions and concerns as a normal part of the pregnancy. That her notes of distress have nothing to do with what is growing in her stomach, and is just a result of her worry over their latest project in the workshop. It is not, technically, lying. The babies are both healthy and do not show any signs of distress. She simply does not mention that there are two of them.

Dirthamen does not return to their room that evening.

Fear does.

“Are you feeling well?” They ask.

“I'm fine,” Selene mumbles.

“You are lying.”

“You sound like Deceit,” She teases.

“And yet you are the one who is lying.”

Selene only huffs, changing into her night clothes without acknowledging them again.

–

Selene does not see Dirthamen for another week. Deceit has been taking his place during their daily responsibilities, and Fear has been a constant companion. Hiding in rafters, or half in the dreaming, and occasionally perching on her shoulder. On the fourth day of Dirthamen's absence, they even shift into an elven form and sit with her while she eats.

She thinks it might be sweet, if they could stare at anything other than her stomach.

When Dirthamen finally does return, he gives her only a cursory hello before continuing his walk through the halls without so much as a pause in his stride.

Selene tries not to take it personally. Tells herself he's probably just preoccupied with something else, some problem he's trying to solve, or something.

It doesn't make her feel any less lonely, though.

–

“Selene!” Melanadahl yells, yanking her out of her reverie by her shoulders as one of their wards snaps open.

“Sorry,” she murmurs, rubbing at one of her eyes as the too-bright sparks fly out of the opening and the repair team rushes in to reseal it.

Melanadahl frowns “If you're that tired, you should be in bed.”

“M'fine,” Selene waves dismissively. “I have to make sure your designs will fit into the architects spacial constraints.”

He doesn't seem convinced, but doesn't usher her out of the workshop either. “Does Lord Dirthamen know you're still working in here while you're pregnant?”

“Probably,” she shrugs.

Melanadahls frown deepens.

Selene doesn't even bother to ask how Des knew to come pick her up after, but when he takes her straight to the dining hall, she doesn't bother to complain. She's hungrier than she has been in a long while, but everything smells awful. Even the fruits look unappetizing.

“Pretty sure you're supposed to put the food in your mouth,” Des comments while Selene rolls a blueberry through its third lap around her plate.

“Pretty sure food is supposed to be edible,” she grumbles back.

His eyebrow slants up while he tilts his head “You can't eat it?”

“I'm not hungry,” She lies while shoving her plate towards him. There's no one new in the kitchens, and no real changes in the menu lately. It's her that has a problem, and she knows it. No reason to get anyone else in trouble for it.

Des hums and takes another bite of his gravy soaked fowl. “So you're handling the pregnancy well, I take it.”

“About as well as you're taking Ghilashim's return to Mythal.”

“Ah, so that's it.”

Selene frowns “What's it?”

“Having trouble with your lover. Not enough sex for all those raging hormones? Has the foreplay gone stale? Disappointed you're actually carrying rather than just getting to lay an egg for your bird boys?”

Selene wishes she had kept her plate if only so she'd have something to throw at him before snapping back with an aggravated “Everything is fine.”

“Clearly. Your tone and aura are just screaming 'happy, satisfied, mother-to-be',” he drawls.

Selene just crosses her arms over her chest and looks away.

After a moment, Des's posture softens, his fork clinking gently against the table as he asks “Seriously. Are you ok?”

Selene hesitates before sighing and letting out an honest “No.”

Des doesn't ask anymore questions, just stands and returns their plates before walking her back to her private rooms in hurried silence. He sits her on the couch and carries her over a glass of water before finally demanding “Alright, spill.”

Selene stares down at the drink in her hand, finger trailing across the rim of the glass.

“You can't tell anyone.”

“Ok.”

“No, really. You can't tell anyone, or let anyone know.”

“Ok,” he reiterates.

Her fingers tap quietly against the side of the glass before she whispers out “It's twins.”

Des is silent for a moment. “Is...is that all?”

“I don't know.”

“You 'don't know'?”

“Well,” She sighs, eyebrows creasing together again “I told Dirthamen a few weeks ago, and he...well, he ran off. I've barely seen him since. I was worried he'd be concerned because, well, we technically only had the permission for one child, but...” She groans “I know he wouldn't abandon me over this. Or...well, I'm pretty sure he wouldn't abandon me over this. And I know that he's busy, and he's got plenty of work and things to preoccupy his time, and I'm over-reacting but it doesn't make the bed any warmer at night, you know?”

Des nods, seating himself next to her on the couch with a pensive expression. He's silent for a moment before stating “I'm going to kick his ass.”

It's so unexpected, Selene actually laughs at the absurdity of the mental image.

“Hey! I could kick his ass if I wanted to. I'm getting very good at archery you know.”

“Des, Dirthamen would shatter you before you got your arrow notched,” Selene chuckles.

“Mm...yeah, probably. But he's still acting like an idiot. He knows better than to treat you like this. Maybe you should kick his ass.”

“I couldn't hurt him, even if I actually wanted to.”

“Sap.”

“Says the man with a literal chest full of poems and songs from his lover.”

“Those are works of art, Selene. And they're all about me, which makes them exquisite pieces of art. Have I shown you the one where he compares my lovemaking skills to an underwater volcano yet? The imagery is wonderfully vivid.”

“That's gonna be a hard pass from me.”

“Speaking of hard, there's this line where-”

“I will remind you my gag reflex is particularly sensitive right now, and you are wearing one of your nicer outfits.”

Des just grins “Got you to laugh, at least.” the corners of his mouth turn down slightly as he continues “You should talk to him about your concerns.”

“I can barely talk to him about anything lately. I haven't seen anyone but Fear in a little over a week, unless we're just passing in the halls,” Selene admits.

“Then talk to Fear. It's probably telling that they're the only ones around, anyways. He's probably scared too. His own twin wasn't exactly a nice guy, you know.”

Selene hums. It makes sense, she supposes. Her usual thought when she thinks of twins is her mother and uncle. Dirthamen's is...a decidedly different experience, she assumes.

Selene resolves to talk to him in the morning, after shooing Des out of the room.

One way or another, they'll get through this. Her hand settles over top of her stomach, and lets out a breath.

They'll have to.

#Twins in Arlathan AU #Selene Lavellan #Dirthalene #Desashim #Des #Melanadahl #Fear #Pregnancy TW #Food TW #This didn't even get to the scene I started with wanting to do #Whoops #I just needed to post something #Probably...more of this coming down the line #I wanted to get the Modern AU story out first and I have like 6 pages of it done #But Selene is coming out really...abrasive? And I can't decide if I like it #So I might just scrap it #idk

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Survey #56

“no doubt about it, i got a bad, bad girlfriend.”

who was the last male you hung out with? we didn't really "hang out," but i was around bradley, colleen's husband. the last male i really did "hang out" with was my friend girt months ago. who is your favorite person to text? colleen when’s the last time you talked to the person you like? the last time i talked and he responded, via battle.net because we were both online. i asked him how school was going and such, despite in his responses it being obvious he didn't want to talk. last time i "talked" to him without his input in the conversation was when i wrote him a ten-page letter i've yet to mail him. who did you last take a picture with? colleen, chelsea, and mom. do you and your best friend ever fight? yes. we're in a fight now, actually. we're both very opinionated people and also very different, so. is there someone who can make you laugh no matter what? fucking jason. i would be crying and he could still make me laugh. has anyone ever mistaken you for being gay/lesbian/bi? yes. more than once. lmao at the store the other day, colleen ran into her preacher, and i was with her. it was kinda obvious he thought we were a couple. explain why you last threw up? had a baaaad stomach bug. ever kissed your best friend's significant other? definitely not! do you like the person you are becoming? no. more than anything, my happiness should NOT be so dependent on a man who doesn't even care about me. do you have anything embarrassing/sexual in your room? i do not. know anyone who has a pet gecko? my former best friend summer and my acquaintance caleb. do you like eating soup in the winter? i don't like soup period. do you like getting jewelry or do you not wear any? sure! when you were in high school did you ever have bomb threats? once because a kid my sister knew was stupid as fuck. did/do you get school cancellations because of snow? dude, we got cancellations if there was a chance of an inch of snow. who knows ALL of your secrets? jason is the only one, actually. i've literally told him everything. what does your typical outfit look like? yoga/sweatpants, graphic tee. did you have a job before you were in college? no, actually. do you think hunting is wrong? if so, why? for purely sport, kinda. just killing for fun doesn't seem right in the slightest? if you're in a survival situation or if you actually do eat what you kill, sure, hunt. have you ever thought about what it would be like to have a baby right now? not in-depth, no. it'd be... very hard. well first off, it'd be impossible for me to get pregnant, but let's just say i somehow did. i'm pretty sure i wouldn't be a "bad" mom, but an insufficient one. i'm pretty severely mentally ill and very unstable right now, and a child's malleable mind doesn't need to be exposed to that, especially when it's his/her mother. i also do not want to bring a child into this world when (s)he wouldn't have a father figure. fathers are just as important as mothers, imo, and a baby should be raised with both parents. the last thing a child needs is just a sick mother. despite the obvious issues though, holy hell would i do everything for that baby. do you have a sensitive gag reflex? VERY. i can't even put those things in my mouth at the dentist for when you get x-rays without a massive struggle. i usually have the get the kid ones. what was the last situation to upset you? colleen said something very ignorant. have you ever had an online argument? waaaaay more than one. i've been around the internet since what, 2007? i've had plenty. do any of your friends know you fill out surveys? online friends, sure, real life friends, not on tumblr, no. i occasionally/very rarely post a survey in facebook notes, so my friends obviously know, but they haven't seen even a microscopic quarter of the surveys i've done. i'm not entirely... against the idea, but like, i'd only ever maybe admit to colleen i have a survey blog. how do you typically style your hair? does it take long? no, because it's too thick for me personally to style. i would kill to have the emo/scene/whatever you call it hair, but my hair just doesn't work with me. when were you last offered something illegal? never, i think. what are you most confident about? most insecure about? uhhh. i mean, i guess my knowledge about meerkats is what i'm most confident about? most insecure about, my stomach. when are you most likely to say something you don’t mean? if you bring up jason. where’s the best place to get your favorite dish? my favorite dish ever is spicy shrimp fritas, which i get from olive garden. can you play guitar hero? yeah. i used to play almost everything on expert and sometimes get 100%, but now i play mostly on hard and a select few on expert. if you could move somewhere else, would you? yeah, closer to the mountains on the western side of the state. how many months until your birthday? less than one! do you want your tongue pierced? yes, i want the snake eyes tongue piercing. who was the last person to disappoint you? colleen are you emotionally strong? i honestly do not know? like i tell myself i wouldn't be alive otherwise, but simultaneously, i feel that if i was strong, so many things wouldn't bother me. you think ‘I love you’ are strong words? they were enough to ruin my life, so. on grand theft auto, do you just kill people or actually do the missions? i've never played it before, but i think i'd do the missions, since i play games to beat them. have you ever been to australia? no, but i'd kinda like to to meet my friend shay. i'm just scared of all the venomous shit they have, especially the spiders. do you watch adult swim? no. half the shit on there was immaculately immature the last time i saw it, anyway. do you have a favorite pair of underwear? i only have one pair because i never wear underwear unless there's an occasion i need to, and they're pink and black and lacy. what is your dad’s occupation? he's been a mailman for years and actually likes it. have you ever seen a baby snake? no, actually. i mean on television and stuff, sure, but not in real life. do you own any band tees? plenty. big part of my wardrobe. do you think they really landed on the moon, or it was fake? i've seen like all the evidence that it may have been faked, and i believe it's a possibility it was, but in general, i believe that we truly did land on the moon, despite some of the oddities. do you feel embarrassed to listen to music you love out loud around other people? no no no no no!! that's like, probably the only think about me i'm proud of revealing!! does your shower have a glass screen or a curtain? curtain when is the last time you sat around a campfire? years ago in new york. do you have a back-up career choice? what is it? not really, honestly... i mean my dream job is to be a meerkat biologist, but i'm not moving to africa, so that just won't happen. the only thing i want to do is be a photographer. are men more attractive with longer or shorter hair? i mean, it really depends on the man, but in general, i like longer hair. is there a name that you hear and cringe? rachel. what was the last computer game you played? world of warcraft, before my computer decided "hey let's keep restarting." i was about to get the long-forgotten hippogryph too, and i'm still salty about it. what would you say is your guiltiest pleasure? world of warcraft, again, and idk why. like there's nothing to be ashamed of, yet i am. like even when i get my computer fixed, i'm contemplating just not getting back into it to avoid the feeling of embarrassment. do you let your pets on your furniture? yes, because they live here??? can you usually tell when someone has feelings for you? with my history of thinking aaron liked me and believing jason would ask me out, i guess. what is your favorite thing to cook for someone else? the only thing i can really cook are some yummy scrambled eggs, with hot sauce. have you ever bought underwear simply because it made your underwear drawer look nice? no? how do you feel about kettle cooked chips? GROSS would you ever consider visiting texas? if my former best friend mini would talk to me again, sure. i'd love to visit her. who was the last person to turn you on? jason was good at that. what are your views on the death penalty? it is only for the coldest, hardest criminals where there is no doubt they committed the crime. some people just don't change and do deserve to die, imo. is the music you listen to 'weird’? i'm sure some people consider it such. have you ever played an instrument? i played flute all through middle and high schools are fingerless gloves awesome? sure, i have some from high school. do you fit any stereotypes? possibly. after all, the definition of certain stereotypes vary very slightly from person-to-person. i guess i fit both geek and emo in some ways. does your best friend have a driver’s license? yeah. what size drink do you usually get at fast food restaurants? medium. do you have underwear from victoria’s secret? i do not. do you want a relationship? i mean, yeah, i guess. i'm dangerously lonely and after dating jason, i know how good relationships feel. but i don't want to rush anything. are you uncomfortable staring into someone’s eyes who you like? no. i could stare into jason's forever. who was the first person you talked to today? via the internet, ummm i think it was shaylee. in real life, nicole, my little sister. honestly! do you think you’re better than anyone else? not at all. god told us we're equal, that's why. do you have any fish as pets? no. i'd really like a big saltwater tank, though. when was the last time you slept in your parents' bedroom? well, my parents have been divorced for years now, and mom doesn't currently have a room, she sleeps on the couch and i sleep in her old room, so i really don't know. do you like channing tatum? i think he's physically attractive, but that's it. do you have a common first name? very. who/what is one person/thing that had the biggest impact on your life? jason. what is the most pointless movie that you have ever seen? did you like it? "the purge," because the whole basis of the story was just... stupid? like, WHY to begin with would it ever be legally allowed to purge? the whole idea was just stupid. the movie itself was okay in general though. who is the most important person in your life right now? i'm trying to make it me. have you ever had a crush on someone of the same gender as you? nope. who did you last talk to about the person you love? mom, i think. who was the last person you sat next to on a bus? i haven't been on a bus since high school. but i always sat with jason. do you carry photos in your wallet? i'm pretty sure i have a picture on nicole somewhere in there. the last time you had sex, was it in their bed or yours? i've never had sex, but the last time i did something sexual, it was probably his bed. is there someone that you believe you will always be attached to? i don't "think" it, i know it. has anyone ever drunk called/texted you? nope. name two of your favorite colors. maroon, pink. do you want to get married? i do. are you afraid of roller coasters? yes, i am. what colors would you like to have at your wedding? i've actually considered many combinations. think i'll wait for my spouse's opinion 'til i really decide. tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now? he was so, so unique. strange. different. maddeningly bizarre. and, he cared. he approached me while i was pushing everyone away, and i just couldn't shove him, too. he wanted to know aaaall about me, and he seemed to like everything he heard... he backed me into a corner where i couldn't escape him, yet i wasn't afraid. now i'm damned for it. what was the last reason you cried? i missed jason. last person to tell you i love you? my mama what do you think your ex would say about you? "she's my psycho ex." think of your last kiss….was it cute? i don't remember my last kiss, because i didn't think it'd be the last. i was so blissfully ignorant. i was suspicious that something was wrong with jason, but... i never thought he'd leave. i mean don't get me wrong, every kiss we had was precious, but it was at the same time just another kiss. have you ever played golf? i've played putt-putt, but not golf. what was the last tv show you watched an episode of? probably something at colleen's, idk. do you like beer? if so, what's your favorite brand? never tried it, but i know it stinks to high heaven. how often do you update your facebook status? i never update my status unless something quite big happens. i only ever share funny pictures/posts or stuff i heavily relate to/agree with. do you feel bad when you throw food out? it's not something i think about all the time, but i do, because i know some people have much less than i. when was the last time you waxed anything on your body, if ever? months ago when i had my eyebrows done. i want to go more regularly, it's just a money thing. what is your favorite video game? "silent hill 2" would you ever consider getting plastic surgery? what would you have done? i don't think so. do you like shrimp? eh, usually. have you ever been in a car accident? i have. who is your favorite superhero? batman. what is your favorite fruit flavored soda [grape, strawberry, orange, etc]? strawberry have you ever slept in the same bed with the last person you kissed? pleeeenty of times. would you ever be a stripper? hell no. your ex is walking next to you, with their new partner, what do you do? fucking kill her. do you have a hard time letting go? i probably have a harder time letting go than anybody on the planet. is the last person you kissed a virgin? nope. he's had sex with rachel, and i'm sure he's fucked ashley by now. can't wait 'til he breaks her heart, too. have you ever cried uncontrollably on a boy’s shoulder before? more than once. how many times have you changed a diaper in your life? literally only once what do you think makes you a good girlfriend or boyfriend? i'm passionate and loyal as fuck. did you ever go to a mental hospital? four or five times, the numbers are honestly starting to blur. does your mom/dad smoke? dad does. how old are you? i'll be 21 in a few weeks. did an old person ever hit on you? yes, and it was fucking terrifying. do you believe that weed should be legalized? no, honestly. do you like apple jacks? yes! Are you afraid of the dark? nah. would you say your taste in music is in a very broad spectrum? no, honestly. i'm very limited in the type of music i enjoy. are you a moaner, a screamer, or totally silent? ... i'm going to pretend the fact this is on a survey doesn't bother me and just answer it. i tend to moan and gasp a lot. i've wanted to scream before, but haven't. what’s your middle name? marie have you ever written or received a suicide note? no, but more than once have i almost written one. ever kissed anyone with a nipple piercing? no. have you ever kissed someone who had a boyfriend/girlfriend? no, and i wouldn't unless it was jason and he was the one trying to kiss me. ever made out in a pool? no, but we might as well have that one time. do you have a pool? no, we had to sell ours for the money. are you an emotional person? too emotional anybody ever tell you that “you could do so much better” about a person? literally everyone tells me that?? how many full biological siblings do you have? full-blooded? just two. what is something you currently need to buy?  new tank tops for bed, badly. the last person you kissed asks you to marry him/her. how do you react? HA. no. apologize to me, number one, and fucking prove to me you won't leave again. do you wear hair extensions?  no, because i don't need them. how old were you when you started puberty? i have no memory of when i started. if you could have any magical power, what would you have? shape-shifting, i think. do you believe in love at first site? absolutely not. let’s say your dad came in your room one day and told you that you had to get married in the next week but you can pick the person but you have to stay with them for the rest of your life no getting out of it, who would you pick? "no getting out of it" my ass, i'd get out of it. he can disown my ass, whatever, i don't care. i take marriage way more seriously than that. if you could be the lead role in any movie, what would it be? honestly, i'd want to play a person driven crazy by events in her life. because same fam. when eating something are you more concerned with taste or nutrition? taste, honestly. what gender do you identify with? female, because i have a vagina. yes, i'm conservative about this matter. fight me m8. are you more of a science or math person? science, easily. what are your opinions on abortion? i'm viciously pro-life. if you identify as a girl, would you ever consider getting a pixie cut? no. please do not misunderstand this: i have no problem with bigger people, but generally, i find pixie cuts to look bad on bigger women like me. are you a metalhead? hell to the fuck yeah. do you even listen to metal? it's like... all i listen to. do you know anybody who is a wiccan or pagan? i'm pretty sure i know two or three wiccans do you watch supernatural? i don't anymore, 'cuz it's a ptsd trigger. it was the first show jason and i binge-watched together. stopped at the sixth season, i think. it's a really good show and i love it, i just tried to watch it one day, and i can't without him. what’s your favorite character in your favorite tv show? i'd say my overall favorite show is "fullmetal alchemist," so hmmm... shit man, i'm having a difficult time remembering all the characters. i feel like i really liked one of the seven deadly sins, i think it was greed? no... maybe envy? envy! the one i misgendered, lmao. i really like them. are you diabetic? i am not, but it runs in the family, so... where is the majority of your family from? mom's side, new york, dad's side, michigan. last person you slept in the same bed with? chelsea hate someone, who? i try so hard not to, but i'm pretty sure the feelings i have towards jason's current girlfriend is hatred. when was your first kiss? hmmmm. maybe like, may-ish four years ago? do you carry a purse? yeah. would you ever name a kid damien? it's a decent name, but no. bats are not spooky or are they? no no no, they're so precious!! especially flying foxes!! do you like listening to new music, or just sticking to your favorites? both. depends on the mood. are you one of those people who can eat anything and not gain a pound? fuck no. i'm the person who looks at cake and gains 10 pounds. do you like hot dogs? i do, i just don't think of how they're made. do you watch american horror story? again, i used to, but don't anymore due to it being a ptsd trigger. we watched the first season and most of the second together. do you have sensitive teeth? no would you date someone you had a 16 year age gap with? NO what is your sexuality? heterosexual, some asexual traits do you think suits are sexy? kill me yes fucking christ do you think earrings are attractive or unattractive on guys? ehhhh, i'm kinda neutral with guys and earrings. would you ever have a threesome with your friend and their bf/gf? fuck no. so sorry to offend, but you don't fucking love your significant other if you're comfortable fucking someone else with them. i'd lecture the heavens out of my friend if they suggested that. have you ever kissed just a friend? on the cheek, yes. what was the last graduation you attended? my little sister's have you ever pole danced before? nope. have you ever broken into someone’s house? wtf, no. would you ever kiss your best friend’s boyfriend/girlfriend? no, because i have respect for their relationship and i don't "like" her husband like that. have you ever seen a live bat? hmmm, i may have at the zoo, but otherwise, i'm not sure!

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