#why must you make us suffer

[bishiglomper]

Smut writers who keep true to Alastor's sex-repulsed asexuality but put him through the struggle of being horny asf are the real MVPs

They're so real for that (o´ω｀)ノ+･｡*

#'cause 'ew people'. and 'ew bodies' = why must i be cursed with hormones and genitals. -5 stars fuck this bullshit #also: #if i must suffer im gonna make you suffer too. and youre gonna LIKE IT. enough for the both of us. #or else :D #alastor #alastor x reader #alastor headcanons #asexual alastor #hazbin hotel #ace alastor #smut writing

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[babyfoodslapsfr]

we may have got severe janto angst but at least they kissed for the first time 🤭

#torchwood #doctor who #jack harkness #ianto jones #janto #jack x ianto #cyberwoman #russel t davies why must you make us suffer like this #torchwood writers im coming for you

[beatx-mavie-archangelx]

Midas this Midas that tragedy this tragedy that

y'all forgot about my girl Skye

#girly pop had his poster on her wall I do not want to imagine how much she's suffered when he turned to Shadow #i bet she kept staring at it hoping to make sense out of the whole situation and find a way to explain why he had done that #because there's not way he's actually betrayed Ghost. right? #she must have felt so betrayed :( #literally all of the agents said “let's all join Shadow and not tell Skye!!” #this is more of a headcanon but. like. midas stop using kids that love you as doormats challenge level impossible #fortnite #midas fortnite #fortnite lore #fortnite midas #fortnite skye #skye fortnite #fortnite storyline #fortnite headcanons #fortnite skins

[medicinemane]

As always, if you wonder why I don't talk about certain current events but do others, a lot of it comes down to whether I think it's something that other people are talking about a lot

If it's something where I figure you're going to be well informed and need a break, I tend to keep it to a minimum on here cause you already know

If it's something I rarely see talked about, then I'm more likely to mention it

World's bad, we're all doing what we can, I know people have said to me before they appreciate me more keeping to cats and frogs and random stuff, so I mostly try to do that, but... in the end I just kinda share whatever my brain decides to share

Want to give my thought process though

#and in this case it's a matter of that Syria really does feel forgotten and I won't deny I often forget too #but with the stuff that's going on right now I really prefer to when I can be reblogging stuff that has something at least a bit actionable #stuff that says where you can donate to give aid via reputable sources... that's what I like to try and focus on #but yeah... man; only place I really ever tend to see Syria mentioned is in Ukrainian circles #so that's why I wanted to highlight that one #man I wish I could do more in the world #so many people suffering and... and... well; and I can't do shit about it and that sucks #just keep trying to slowly get things together around here; and trying to slowly be able to help more and more people #and just hope that if you help people; it'll make them want to help people like they were helped #and maybe if enough of us get stable ground under our feet and know how it was to be helped... maybe some day we can collectively help enou #...try to avoid making things feel hopeless with my posts; cause things certainly feel hopeless #so I try to... try to focus on the good and what can be done to fix things as much as possible #want to keep people in the fight to try and make things better; not drain them by posting nothing but the bleakness of the world #things will never be right; those who've died can't be saved and we've failed them forever #which is all the more reason we can't give up and have to keep trying to make things better #because if we can never make things right; then the least we can do is try and make things better in the future #to at least stop adding to the list of people we'll never be able to fix things for #...something like that #it's bleak and I'm depressive anyway; but show must go on; you know? #so that's my thoughts here #I just feel the need to explain it sometimes; because people have a way of making assumptions #that if you don't talk about something you don't care #no... that's not it; I care; I just don't want to burn people out #and you can say they shouldn't burn out but I try to deal in practicalities and descriptivism; and people can be burned out #rather keep them in the fight to make the world better #so if there's a situation... like the George Floyd protests; that was another one where I didn't post much on it #cause we all knew... we all were paying attention and... I just figured people needed space #...I'm sad... sad more police reforms and accountability couldn't get pushed though but... at least we got something #...and I'm not gonna act like I'm some front line fighter when it comes to justice #I barely can deal with my own shit; I'm not saying I'm worth a damn thing in any cause

[olde-scratch]

the money i would spend if monster high wasn't overhauled.

#the new dolls are. okay. i guess. #mattel sells reproductions of draculara frankie lagoona and clawdeen but BRO #i would drop all of my paycheck on an og style monster high doll if they werent discontinued and expensive to find secondhand #like PLEASE i just got over my fear of spending money on myself bring them BACK so i can DO THAT #i hear some more reproductions are coming in jan next year but i wish theyd make reproductions of ones other than the main outfits #id kill for a sweet 1600 draculara (even tho ive already got so many...) or some more lagoonas abbeys or ghoulias #i could use some more of the boy dolls tho since i lost mine sob #im glad i have what i have but i wish i could drop 20-30 bucks occasionally on a mh doll that doesnt looks so. strange. #they changed the faces too much for me to like them lol idc abt the molds its the faces that do it for me #also clawds hair he looks like a tiktok eboy i hate it :skull: #if i knew how id make my own molds and prints and make the damn dolls myself #the new art style is also terrible im sorry i hate it so much #call me a capitalist bootlicker for this post all you want i just wish i could go and buy dolls from my childhood to make me happy #without looking into the 50+ range for ONE DOLL #mattel pls u already have the molds #why must you make me suffer like this

[miyoshi81194]

I think about this quote everyday and the damage it has on me. It’s like I died instead of Vex 😭

“No you don’t understand. You don’t need me, I…need…. Do not go far from me”

#critical role #tlvom #tlvom spoilers #vox machina #vexahlia #vaxildan #episode 3’ed once again #why must Crit role make us suffer like this #LET ME REPLACE BOTH VAX AND VEX YOU RAVEN BITCH #IM ON MY KNEES SOBBING

[madlichen]

i wish my autism beam was real and i could shoot people with it and also give them autism too so everyone could be autism because when everyones autism no one is

#syndromes not evil the bad guy is society and mental health is so much more than keeping the crazies off the streets #i wish i could change society and be a queer little mouseboy who likes science #but no cannot have nice things society will make you the villain for trying to change it why are the villains always smart in movies #because they recognize the pain and suffering in the world thats why they see it and they actually do something about it #but that makes them evil thats why theyre the villain because they want change and change is bad #the us government is actively stopping me from changing the world for the better one person one autism beam at a time #birds arent real theyre government drones beaming 5g mind control waves into our synapses and i sciencedude have a solution #global havannah syndrome must be stopped we must the villain murderous scum hiding out in bushes from eating our babies #just so long as we only protect the unborn babies and not the children because the dead are more important than the living #enslave the middle class to the monopolies bring about the oligarchy bleed out on our machines to raise efficiency and bring costs down #in this essay i will explain why the coming downfall of society has everything to do with how we treat others #thiS IS THE POLICE OPEN UP THERE HE IS GET HIM wait no you got the wrong guy NO THE FBI NEVER MAKES MISTAKES I AM THE LAW #breaking news a man by the name of science dude has been arrested for reasons not even the fbi is willing to share #NO PLEASE IM INNOCENT HELP ME #wow they must have done something really bad if the police are arresting them lets influence our audience to think theyre bad as well #breaking news someone got cancelled its a crying shame this cancel culture business tune in next time to the only source of truth on tv #i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i w- #liiiiiiiiiiiiivvvvvvvveeeeeeeee #its a cold place and they say it gets colder #your bundled up now wait til you get older #but the media men beg to differ #judging by the hole in the satellite picture #the ice we skate is getting pretty thin #the waters getting warm so you might as well swim #my worlds on fire how bout yours #thats the way i like it and i never get bored #well the years start comin and they dont stop comin and they dont stop comin and they dont stop comin and they dont stop comin #im crawing in my skin these wounds they will not heal #janine janine youd like to know me well but there are things inside my head that even i cant face #these and other song when you tune in and enter to win 0% apr for the first twenty months no money down offer lasts until 10 years ago

[yeslordmyking]

The Fear of the Children of Israel

Exodus 14:10-13

[10] And when Pharaoh drew nigh, the children of Israel lifted up their eyes, and, behold, the Egyptians marched after them; and they were sore afraid: and the children of Israel cried out unto the LORD.

[11]And they said unto Moses, Because there were no graves in Egypt, hast thou taken us away to die in the wilderness? wherefore hast thou dealt thus with us, to carry us forth out of Egypt?

[12]Is not this the word that we did tell thee in Egypt, saying, Let us alone, that we may serve the Egyptians? For it had been better for us to serve the Egyptians, than that we should die in the wilderness.

[13]And Moses said unto the people, Fear ye not, stand still, and see the salvation of the LORD, which he will shew to you to day: for the Egyptians whom ye have seen to day, ye shall see them again no more for ever.

The poor Israelites were so afraid that they'd rather stay enslaved and never take a stand than for Moses to provoke the Egyptians in attempt to free them, even with God's power and all that He displayed throughout beforehand. It's so easy for us while sitting on a church pew or in the comfort of our own homes to judge the Israelites as faithless, but in moments of fear like this, we are so guilty of losing faith in God, sometimes to the point where we'd rather keep our heads down and stay in a lower state than believe He can and will deliver us. Though it is good to endure and necessary suffering, we mustn't be afraid when God leads us down a difficult path that leads to His promise!

#and I'm a total hypocrite for posting this because nobody's more afraid than me #I'm so convinced that i can only serve God by suffering through the rest of my life and smiling throughout while suffocating human emotion #it's examples like this that get us in trouble for doubting God because of said human emotion! #but that's why these notes are important. God leaves us examples of showing incredible moments of deliverance and the joy of trusting Him #i need to work on it more than most but i still encourage others to trust God and believe that hey maybe you can have good things from God #God #Jesus #christianity #faith #trust in God #do not fear anything #God is in control #almighty God #a God of miracles #you must believe #have faith #unshakable faith #unwavering faith #God will deliver you #God will make a way #bible notes #bible study #exodus

[fifteenpintsofgreengin]

FERRARI WHAT ARE YOU DOING

#formula 1 #f1 #charles leclerc #ferrari f1 #ferrari exit stage left please #this is painful #ferrari why must you make us suffer #hungarian gp 2022

[oatbugs]

my head hurts and i wanna cry . affectionate

#we say this is a blood pact and he says my word is my bond. what else is there? when lie and impercision is #some moral crime. you have my word so you have my heart. the philosopher king flies back from philadelphia on 24 hours #of wakefulness and a guaranteed admission to every ivy league he glanced at. elated like he just kissed #the love of his life. blue lenses and a long coat. we talk about philosophy four to eight. we walk out to eat and then talk about #philosophy eight to 11 and then to 12. i tell them i suffer from my own comfort in a belief that makes me #insufferable to talk to. it makes others insufferable to talk to. i do not understand why i must #necessarily accept the existence of anything at all. you tell me to read so and so and so and so. the physics student had watched us #talk about this for 8 hours. i beg them to break down my mind and convince me otherwise. they convince me of one thing otherwise. #at the bus station the philosopher king watches him leave. he lays his head on my shoulder. still with his suitcases. #he told me about the dead person in front of their train and why he was late. i need to be mr president but i can finally be me. #you have my respect for believing in your philosophy wholeheartedly. what is a blood pact against your word? #admiring the ring of fire and my nose started bleeding. amongst books admiring the structure of the eye #and my face started bleeding. all i reached was an unsound half-tautology. by the end of the 8 hours #i was in the dark on my friends couch with my head on fire and all that i certainly knew #all that i certainly know #is that there is some thing . there is some thing that experiences. there is some thing that is experienced. there is such a thing as #experience. this is much more than i initially knew. i had also learned that the philosopher likes to lay his head on my sboulder. #i had also learned that forgiveness is not to pardon and leave. i had also learned that the chemist joined us all. #i had also learned that the cult leader gave his students something to smoke. i had also learned about the infinite indeterminate. #i also learned about your eyes. i had also learned that whenever i hold your face and look past your irises i find a dark pit #which cannot perceive the light in darkness. i also learned about love through your collective #8 hours of convincing me to break down and kill my beliefs so that i can meet you on your terms. i had also learned that #i like peoples heads against my shoulders.

[lilyoffandoms]

Wanted to leave something for the what color am I to you ask game aND THEN I SAW YOUR HEADER..

Why are you dead set on making me cry today? (I love it btw)

Anyways, I’m gonna say lavender and red except we wouldn’t hang out in silence in fact I think any person around would beg us to be silent

And I ask you!! why are you dead set on creating beautiful art that makes me cry?!

#why must i make you cry? #it is my hidden talent i guess lol #that art deserves to be front and center i don’t make the rules #we would NOT shut up that’s a given!! #can’t decide if others would eventually give up and leave us alone after yelling at us to shut up #or if they would just sigh and roll their eyes and suffer in silence hehe #ask #cashweasel ask #color ask game

[autisticlee]

what the fuck is conservatives' problem with hormone blockers. I don't get it. they whine and complain and make laws against giving kids hormones because "they're too young to decide and will regret going through the wrong puberty so young." so we said okay, we will just block puberty until they are adults so they have time to decide and aren't taking hormones as kids. AND THESE PIECES OF SHIT HAVE ISSUES WITH THAT TOO. they suddenly decide that (trans)kids must be forced to go through wrong puberty.

there's no middle ground or compromising with them. they simply want all trans people dead, illegal, and nonexistent. and I truly, genuinely do not get it. I don't understand!!!! their arguments never answer that. it's always dumb reasons like "it's bad and I don't agree" I don't agree with your beliefs so I guess that means you need to stop too 🤷

#lee rants #“you aren't allowed to change. that's how you're born” but I bet they dye their hair and get tattoos and other things like that. #and if their baby is born with any kind of problem they get it fixed instead of just letting the child die or have a fixable medical issue #for life. why are you fixing them when they were born that way huh? #put that thing down and let it suffer the way you want trans kids to suffer. #why don't you all stop going to the doctor when you're sick and just die because god gave you that illness so you must accept it 😒 #these people are pathetic and disgusting and i CANNOT UNDERSTAND AND ITS DRIVING ME INSANE #if i dint understand why they are like this then how do fight against it?! im so tired. #can i ban conservatives from my life becuase their bullshit makes me want to commit violence #stop letting them decide things for other people. LET PEOPLE MAKE THEIR OWN DECISIONS YOU BUFFOONS #for being a “we dont want the government to tell us whaf to do!” group they sure love making government tell people what to do 😒 hypocrites

[wild-at-mind]

I remember how I used to read tumblr and the more angry and disillusioned someone seemed with society and life, the more valid I thought their point of view was. This is now mostly no longer the case, but when I'm depressed I think I still go there.

#i think there was a lot of 'you personally must do something to fix this vast societal problem!!!' #and also 'your personal self and identity is personally dangerous is me as a marginilised person' #'your words are violence and your presence itself is violence'- these messages i really loved as a kind of emotional self harm #i wasn't used to having my own identity because my abuser never let me have one so the idea of me having one being somehow oppressive #and therefore the idea of me not having one must be good and was helping somehow #and that's why i was closeted for so long- well that and living in my parents' house till my mid-20s i guess #now i realise that the idea i had that my shit feelings helped marginlised people somehow came from my church growing up #suffering is good...but actually me suffering is neutral and feeling like shit is neutral to the world at large #me feeling bad doesn't help others. i liked to pretend it did because i had to justify my existence to myself #as a privileged person but now i realise i also have to live my life because that's all we get! Just the one! #and there's only one way out of doing it and the fact that i was even contemplating that showed how extreme this was all getting #i HAVE to live and i have to understand myself and keep going #and not give up and say 'everything is so shit and as a privileged person i only make things worse so what's the point of doing anything?' #i think a lot of social justice at one point had unintentionally gotten across the idea of 'if you try you will only make things worse #so don't even try'. #i think a lot of people writing back then were having really difficult times and had genuinely difficult lives and i hugely sympathise #i hope all of them are doing really well in 2024 and are living securely and have happiness and joy

[mashpotatoe]

im a white jew, i was born in israel,

ive lived there all my life and was brought up in an environment that fosters racism driven by nationalism, nationalism driven by racism.

in israel, they teach you jews and muslims (though usually, they just say arabs) have always been enemies, the same way the US deems the entire middle east as a inherent war zone, ridding them of the responsibility for perpetuating war in thst region.

they tell you "were the fair and humane side who strives for peace! its the arabs who never accept the offer!"

i remember the first time i began doubting that sentiment was in fourth grade, when we were having a discussion in class about the character of Saul from the Torah. the teacher was talking about how Saul, the first monarch of the Kingdom of Israel, used to fight the Philistines, and when she added that the Philistines were the natural enemy of the Israelites, she asked the class what group of people is their modern equivalent to which everyone very eagerly replied "Arabs!" and nevermind that there in that same class sat two arab boys, one of whom sat next to me, who i looked at and thought "but he isnt my enemy? hes just a boy in my class."

they teach you to hate arabs. sometimes they say it outright. sometimes they say it more carefully, or make a distinction between good and bad arabs, those who are with us and those who are against us.

in a state based on the idea of (white) jewish supremacy, they teach you jews are naturally superior. they use the conspiratorial narrative of "jews controlling the world" to their favor, giving their own watered down explanation for why antisemitism exists, saying that it must be driven by jealousy.

the zionist movement always used antisemitism to its advantage, either for reinforcing the notion of jewish supremacy or appealing to the real pain and trauma of generations, people who survived the holocaust, connecting them to stolen land where they are "guaranteed" safety ergo granting "justification" for the suffering of others.

its using peoples real pain that makes fear mongering so effective, and when the israeli population grows up being told all of their neighboring countries want to kill them, they quickly get defensive of the "only land where they can feel safe", but the only explanation ever provided for Why these neighboring countries are considered enemies is because theyre arabs.

and when it comes to palestine, it isnt even recognized as a country, nor identity. just a threat. ive talked to many people who are genuinely unaware of the occupation, and they arent willing to believe it either, because the media narrative has successfully shifted the blame on hamas. because "how could it be us? we want peace! its the terrorists who make us look bad! and their children, they grow up to be antisemites*, might as well get rid of them too!" they never stop to think what environment these children must grow up in to develop these "radical" ideas.

* what they mean by antisemite is really just antizionist, but the term anti/zionist isnt practiced in local dialect, being a zionist is treated as a given

any jew who stands against israels oppression is dubbed a self hating jew, but the biggest contributors to antisemitism is the people in charge of an ethnostate, because at any moment they could decide who is not white enough to be jewish, who is too jewish to be white, who stood against the current coalition government and who is an obedient dog.

israelis arent a monolith, but many of them have been won over, convinced its an "us v them" situation, when in reality it could never be the "us" that "loses"

the israeli government was waiting for an event like the massacre on the seventh of october to declare war, to have the so called "right to defend itself", so they could initiate the final steps of an ethnic genocide and displace, if not kill, all remaining palestinians. under the guise of bringing peace.

it isnt too late to call for a permanent ceasefire, to end the occupation.

please contact your representatives, attend protests and rallies if you are able. palestine will be free, and the flowers will rise again.

[hussyknee]

People seem to think this is fake because it's written in English. Apart from the racism in believing that Arab doctors and nurses aren't fluent in English (a second or official language for half of Asia), Palestinians have deliberately been addressing their audience in English on every social media, from journalists to children, because they know speaking English to Westerners immediately makes people more human in their eyes. Because language is one of the ways the imperial cultural hegemony conditions us (yes, everyone in the world) to see who qualifies as "people" and who are simply a mass of bodies who were always made to suffer and die. Gazans know this deeply, which is why they have been using English to beg and plead through social media, "We're not numbers! We're not numbers! We're people like you, we speak your language, we deserve to live!" all the while they're systematically slaughtered.

Israeli forces also encircled Al Shifa Hospital yesterday and bombed it for several hours while shooting dead anyone trying to flee including medical staff moving between buildings. Not sure whether it's still continuing because WHO lost all communications with its staff there a few hours after. The last new report said that thirty-nine babies had been removed from the incubators before the power went out. It's extremely unlikely they will survive.

Please understand that these atrocities depend on the war of attrition between governments and public attention. The momentum of public outcry is difficult to sustain through repeated stonewalling and bureaucratic intractability. When we're flooded with these reports and a sense of futility and despair replaces the anger, it allows compassion fatigue to set in and the violence to become normalized. Massacring hospitals, killing sick children and openly targeting humanitarian aid workers (Netanyahu just declared the UNRWA is in league with Hamas) will become simply more news articles that fade into the background, and open genocides will soon become part of the "lesser evil".

Take care of yourselves how you can, take distance where needed, but please never tune out and give up on the two million people for whom we are the only witness and hope. Never stop boosting and sharing the news and posts you find, never stop getting out there and joining every protest you can, however small. Anger burns out, which is why activism must depend on an immovable sense of justice and uncompromising value for human life. It's not just about Gaza, it's about the kind of evil our generation will be coerced into accepting as unchangeable and inevitable hereafter.

#but also like it's a lot about us and especially you in the West #every bomb dropped on Gaza brings us closer to the brink of‚ if not a world war‚ an eruption of regional conflict #with devastating economic and environmental effects across the world #I'm tired of repeating this and my followers are prob tired of seeing it #but someone has to #war of attrition like I said #free Palestine #tw child murder #tw child death #tw baby killing #tw ableism #disability justice #war crimes #gaza genocide #save gaza #gaza under attack #palestinian genocide #israel is a terrorist state #knee of huss