#yeah. ill check it out

[insert-neologism]

sometimes it's important to get a reality check. for example, i get violently interested in basically anything and ill ask my friend 'lots, is yellowjackets popular' and shell be like 'what the fuck is yellowjackets' and ill be like 'thanks great talking to you' and then. many a time later i discover it actually is popular and more ppl than my 3 beloved mutuals know abt it. but such is the life

#it's just like boygenius #anyways it might be bc none of us are american and I only have tumblr (famously without algorithm) and pirate my shit #and she's only got insta i THINK (devoid of cannibals) and none of us actually know anything that's happening ever. (at least me) #like when i mentioned the mean girls movie musical and she was like 'oh yeah' i was like 'damn ppl know abt this' #mitos incredible life #yellowjackets #ig since it's kinda abt that. sorry if u wanted to see ur blorbos :/ #idk what a reality check is btw so you'll have to just take it ig #anyways how tf do i know abt yj you ask? Idk. there was fanart i think on my dash and ig some mututal got into it and eventually i was like #yeah. ill check it out #Im just influenceable like that (fr) #TALKING ABOUT YJ back to you is SORTA coming along. rlly want to do it justice #i will rank all of the songs too. IM GONNA #g d so much art/stuff and no idea if anybody wants this (but they will as soon as they find out. about flower face) #anyways shout out to lots i hope youll never get tumblr bc u cant find me

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

Only the most important bits of the dev stream (trust me) with subtitles!

#ultrakill #alright. now go watch that 7 hour vid if you haven't done so already. #is he... you know. domtext #i made this for ME but also to get used to my new video editing software lol #subtitles are not 100% accurate since i cut out most of the filler um/uh/likes #the subtitle feature does not have a spell check.... sorry if i missed a mistake somewhere lol #yeah lets post this at 11 PM what a good idea #video #the parts with quotes around them arent. consistent. i did not notice. oh well i guess ill just die then its fine

[superbellsubways]

play TS!Underswap.. its silly

#i saw koffin k and was like Yeah ok fine ill check it out (was going to check it out anyways #ts underswap #ts!underswap #mettacrit #temmie #koffin k #mad dummy #doodle #i wanted to draw the boogiemen but i have no good refs rn oogh

[bamsara]

You got drugged!!!??

Yeah it wasn't great lol

I spent most of that day in the medical tent (I went as soon as I felt *off*) and the health workers took great care of me and were super nice so it worked out in the end. First time going to a music festival was really an experience huh

#ive already typed out what happend in some chats so idk if i want it on tumblr fully but uh yeah #ill process that trauma later or not at all im pretty chill about it #more like it just sucked #but i was given food water medicine and air conditioning and a cot so i was taken care of for those hours #they also gave me a blanket #i was alone but the workers checked up on me consistantly and were super non judgemental and sweet and one held my hair back as i threw up #so those online things talking about trusting medics at festivals are no joke they were 100% #tw drug mention #tw vomit mention

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

You ever think about what's gonna happen when the Welcome Home website updates in December? Hopefully, at least for what I think, we'll get to see the fabled Julierella! Or any visual parts of the show in general. Probably something fit for the holiday spirit.

Maybe wondering about their relatives and loved ones living outside the neighborhood, and the fact that the residents haven't left to see them in some time.

Stuff like that! Maybe even some new recipes!

i try not to think about it or i'll become so nervoucited that i'll get nauseous

#the fact that its a psychological horror brings my excitement #from 'ohhhh i cant wait!!!' #to Im Genuinely Deeply Nervous AND Deeply Excited. #welcome home stresses me the fuck out but... in a good way? somehow??? #still i dont wanna think about whats to come or my entire day will be lost to pacing & staring at a wall w/ a racing heart #it probably will be housewarming themed - if thats still the in-universe version of christmas for the neighborhood #but yeah! so stoked im anxious! yeehaw! #whatever happens im going to go absolutely fucking Feral #also theres an element of 'i cant even imagine. anything could happen. things will happen that ive never even considered' #rambles from the bog #yk actually a thought ive had #is if i start streaming. before the update #maybe... i could stream the update. #yk me and any of you who join checking it out for the first time and looking for secrets #could be fun! if! emphasis on if!! #could be nice. cause like... idk about you guys but i dont have irl friends to sit down and check it out with #the updates are fun but a little lonely for me! its just me in my room wishing i could share the First Time Excitement yk yk #just. something for me to consider aiming for! #oh my god i just realized ill probably be working #i swear to god if the update drops while im at work im just gonna quit and walk out the door #ohhhh now im nervous about that happening... heres hoping it wont... #lmao who am i kidding! given my luck's track record that absolutely Will happen

[krikidilly]

I cant be, what you need, I am stuck, in a dream, I am stuck, in a dream.

#sorry for relating to him guys ill walk myself out #anyways this is everso slightly inspired by kizuki eye!!! slightly since i. havent been able to read and havent seen all the goings on😭😭 #one day.. one day ill catch up i will.. but yeah i kinda associate this song heavily with lotus dreams and kizuki eye with what i HAVE seen #douma #demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #douma demon slayer #btw please check out kizuki eye i begibeg check out tobytoon i beg i beg !! they understand douma and enmu like no one else #anyways yeah.. imagery of interacting with ur own child self haunts me a little #i have dreams like this every so often and i think douma should too because despite evrything i deeply beliece #he too thinks that perhaps. if someone had cared for that child than he wouldnt exist #he too sees that child as a seperate entity #he too sometimes feels that distant yearning to comfort what no longer exists #SOOOORRRY ANYYWAAAYS haha douma a fun guy am i right guys. .

[chiquilines]

I just like putting them in silly little outfits

#just turned in a 4000 word math project worth 30% of my grade so im celebrating with them <3 #i just wanna throw them out here immediately so if theres lil mistakes ignore them #i havent double checked anything #just scribbled them out in a frenzy #i love drawing them so much #realistically it is unlikely that fuyumi would wear that #UNLESS #I LITERALLY JUST GOT AN AU IDEA #professional MotoGP racer fuyumi #pit stop engineer rumi #oooooooh the thought i just thunk #the thought of fuyumi in a motorcycle racing outfit... the helmet.... #yeah i gotta draw that #and rumi in overalls with a lil baseball cap and a wrench... dont get me started #expect Things #forget about this drawing i literally just posted everyone start thinking about motoGP AU NOW #if anyone has Ideas send an ask i literally j came up with this so ill take headcanons #anywaysies #fuyumi todoroki #usagiyama rumi #miryumi #mha #bnha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #wlw #chiquilines draws

[sharkdays]

yall aint gonna believe this. LOOK WHAT I JUST BOUGHT

#im fucking shitting my pants over here #HORIZONS MERCH #AND ITS OF MY TWO FAVES #GOODBYE. IM HAPPY FOREVER #FORVER SILLY GOING HEHEHEHEHEHEHEEEE #i checked and theres nothing for the redt of the cast as far as i can tell… #BUT STILL AMETHIO??? LIKO Makes Sense shes yhe Protag. #BUT AME??? MY OTHER FAVE #NOT COMPLAINING AT ALL #yeah he’s gonna become a good guy guys watch (coping w lack of ame content) #anyways. SORRY IM FREAKING OUT IM SO HAPPY IM GONNA HAVE MY GUYS ON A T SHIRT #full credit goes to @/the-spam-specialist btw #i would have never seen this if it werent for your post so if you see this THANK YOUUU #they have the link on a reblog of their post #but if anyone sees this and also wants one ill send it your way or put it in the comments of yhis post or something idk #anyways bye peace and live and joy happiness forever #shark speaks

[kataa-floko]

I love hearing about how people started playing Minecraft, so tell me in the tags how you did?

#minecraft #mineblr #sarah rambling #ill go first #its the start of 2021 and im very depressed. my sister starts playing minecraft and shows me mcyt. i check it out #watch a lot of mcyt. a year later i go. yeah i wanna play that. and then start

[isabelguerra]

zack released an illustrated prose version of ch1 on patreon and everyone needs to join+ read that shit Now

#PARANATURAL #not gonna talk abt it bc thatd be scummy. all im gonna say is You Can Read It If You Give Zack Money This Month #but i can USE MY (checks follower count) MY PLATFORM……. GO GIVE ZACK MONEY…………… #edit hold on. the file mightve been taken down. dont know why but i cant check now ill update more when i find out #geez i guess u really DO snooze u lose. #double edit yeah im not seeing it. bummer. sub to them anyway the work is great plus maybe itll be reposted #TRIPLE EDIT I WAS WRONG ITS REAL ITS JUST REALLY FAR BACK

[dizzybelle]

Yeah, Twitch?

Yeah?

#twitch recap #mirakurutaimu #rtvs #i just thought this was funny #like yeah okay twitch ill check it out #lmao

[renrooked]

i need to get this off my chest otherwise i'll explode but i am so unbelievably tired of the "older sibling who takes care of everyone" narrative

give me more youngest siblings who fill the oldest sibling stereotype, youngest siblings who mediate, who take care of everyone, who are reserved and more oldest siblings who are actively independent, who aren’t caretakers, who are stubborn, who are "the trouble makers"

every time i’m introduced to an eldest sibling and expected to respect them because the writer thinks it’s assumed that by making them the older sibling they were a selfless mini-adult who was forced to grow up in the family (and no one else) it takes so many years off my life

not every oldest sibling is going to be a parent figure with a sense of duty

not every oldest sibling shows they care openly/communicates well

not every oldest sibling is easy going

you can write well liked and relatable eldest siblings without making them a wise mini-adult

and their problems and struggles can extend past the side effects of being an oldest/older sibling

also, you can create a character that knows the burden of having to take care of someone without having to make them an older sibling at all!

and you can create younger siblings who aren’t selfish and sporadic. i promise, not every younger sibling is chaotic and causes a scene in order for their needs to be tended to

you can create a character that has the flaw of being brash and codependent without making them the youngest

not all younger siblings are wild and reckless

not all younger siblings are spoiled by their parents/put on pedestals

not all younger siblings are attention seeking

you can write flawed younger siblings without making them forever-children

personally my older sister never filled the whole “i’m meant to take care of you” role. she actively made it clear she didn’t want me around well into adulthood, and would often actively ignore any time i was hurt or upset to make a point for me not to bother her

and she near constantly got into arguments when we were younger that i had to mediate (mind you, she's 6 years older than me) and would make a habit of smacking me on the arm out of annoyance/frustration if i was doing something she didn't like

so sorry, but i just find it lazy a lot of the time when entire personalities are implied of "older sibling so obviously wise second parent and younger sibling so obviously messy selfish baby" and i don't think people realize how absolutely constant this dynamic is implied as an inherent fact in media

anyway, this is all probably doing nothing more than just revealing deep rooted familial trauma but i'm tired of being expected to just believe your oldest is the genuine kind hearted caretaker and youngest is the loose cannon, show me!

make me believe that it’s a natural progression of their personalities! why did the oldest decide to take on that role rather than reject it! what about their situation made the youngest feel the need to be so rebellious!

#literally the only media i've ever accepted this dynamic is arcane and supernatural #they're the only two i've watched and been like okay yeah this shit makes sense this checks out i believe it #everything else i'm just annoyed #it skips all the showing and any setup and starts right in the middle like well obviously we ended up here #no! no it's not obvious! what made y'all this way #what did yall go through. how did your parents raise you or not raise you. what made y'all feel like you needed each other #just one older sibling who is a piece of shit is that too much to ask in this economy god damn #anyways idk what to tag this now #rennie talks in tags #rennie rants #writing #sibling dynamics #familial relationships #if i miss any tags just lemme know and ill add them :D

[samdeancrimespree]

ik we always talk about sam having ocd (also true) but like. dean’s entire being is so preoccupied with sam that i think it rewired his brain at some point. it started on sam’s first hunt. dean couldn’t shake the fear that sam was bleeding somewhere, and too full of adrenaline to notice. he does a quick sweep of hands over sam, to convince himself that sam really wasn’t injured. and the habit stuck, sam rolling his eyes but allowing it, even when they got older. dean waking up in the middle of the night and checking that sam is breathing. dean literally almost went insane when sam left for stanford because he Cannot Breathe if he doesn’t know that sam is ok. he started dialling it back, just checking verbally and looking at sam a lot to Make Sure nothing has suddenly changed. but sometimes after a bad hunt, he still runs his hands down sam’s arms, double checking that he didn’t miss anything.

#he feels like such an idiot for doing it but he just Has to #he thinks it’s just… him looking out for sam. he just Really cares about his job #fun fact: it is impossible for gen xers to be mentally ill! #not even gonna get into the self punishment if anything Did happen to sam. but yeah #also like. him being sooo insane about everything with Lisa and Ben… #checking the traps the salt lines the locks. #my ocd besties <3 #hc #mars.txt

[munamania]

also ok maybe had a weird little freak moment yesterday :/ i was with lydia and needed to eat my godawful shitass sushi before going to the library so anyway who do i spot but the roommate with some random guy naturally and im like lydia pause i need to be a stalker but so casually for just like a sec. (this is in a downstairs like cafe/hallway/elevators area) so i stall and then we go to check for a free room to sit in and when there r ppl in it we just go back near the cafe area and theyre over in this little. alcove. of a sitting area. lounging. and im so normal and rlly naturally glanced over a couple times hoping to god the guy didnt see me cause luckily roommate was faced away. anyway. but lydias screenaging it up so im just sitting there awkwardly. and i have to walk past them at one point to get soy sauce to drown the sushi in and maybe that made me look like a weird little stalker too. well again this is if the guy even knows who i am and prob not so whatever its like fine. but like yeah and then i def saw them getting up and then on the elevator to leave so i think my skittish little creature tendencies scared off the vibe from across the room even... and i didnt just wave like a normal person bc i wasnt sure they saw me but we've spotted each other at much greater distances there's simply no way. i was treating them like what the kids call an 'opp' kinda... me when im an anxious little beast...

#and me when i type up a long paragraph abt like nothing happening! <3 #um. and i am overthinking and in my defense. ill lament one more time. HAVENT HAD MY ANXIETY MEDS IN DAYS. so plz be nice.. #and lydia joked abt how i was a little weird. which i was. but now im like fuckkkkk man we're never hanging out again... #they also went back to like one of my stories theyd seen this morning so its like wowwwwww so youre literally obsessed w me.. #anyway. still being so strong and leaving it to them to make a rain check plan if they wanna. and if not thats so hashtag chill #also ive barely seen sam this week which is like nice but i found out they last second saw the eclipse together #and again not that i think i would come up or w/e but i did have sam off my close friends for a while bc he was stressing me out. yk. #and im not sure if um... that would have become evident... doesnt actually matter who gaf #but yeah also naturally hes seeing one of the coolest most beautiful talented creative etc girls in the film major rn #on top of his little fuck buddy. and im not being a bitter little incel abt the fact that hes got bitches and i dont. #bc its like. whatever. too much going on rn to have bitches. tho ill stick to my guns in saying some good sex could fix me a little #yayyyy i love talking #abby talks

[spidergirl-fibula]

listening to any music lately?

Trans women yelling at me, mainly

#actual answer Femtanyl has been on loop since like august #a lot of Changeline & Issabrokie & Machine Girl too since their stuff is pretty easy to listen to casually and they have. so much. #ive been listening to some of the stuff i see recommended here which has creates a nice variety #i saved some in a playlist including Zand; lustsickpuppy; Goblin Daycare; My Dead Girlfriend; TWINK OBLITERATOR; and Ada Rook #but generally i default to hip-hop or anything loud or both #i finally started listening to MF Doom recently #and ill listen to anything on youtube recommended that looks interesting (usually that means uhh conventionally bad or ugly if ur boring) #oh shit and most recently ive been listening to dungeon synth cause i started a Rune game and wanted music that wasnt just dark souls #i think Poppet was one i found on a rec post here #oh and i recently decided to check the wayback machine for Isserley because i found her music in october and then she mustve wiped out all #of her social media presence in the next few months so anyway im glad i found that again #oh and also Youth The Rich and also Food House and also Newgrounds Death Rugby and also Yameii Online and als #why did i say all that. sorry. uhh yeah i dont really listen to much music #music

[satanfemme]

"no mental disorder makes you a bad person" is very very true and a good statement to promote, but "if someone does something bad, they must've chosen do it, there's never any other possible explanation, and it's especially never b/c of any mental disorders" isn't true?? besides the fact that people can make honest mistakes (even big ones) without realizing what they're doing, or the fact that life circumstances can influence what choices someone even thinks are available to them in the first place, my hot take is that mental disorder can influence you to do bad things sometimes and that should be acknowledged.

that does NOT mean a person with a disorder would be a special extra evil kind of abuser compared to a neurotypical person (ie "narcissist abuse" is still a meaningless and harmful term). it also does not mean that abusers are more likely to have a disorder than to be neurotypical. but disorders are disabling, they cause disorder, it's right in the name, they negatively affect you and your connection to others... why do you think that wouldn't that affect your behavior too sometimes? I know my disorders affect mine. often in negative ways!

besides just "mental disorders are never disabling in ways that make me feel uncomfortable" being ableist, understanding this is important if you believe in prison abolition (which you should). "someone did something bad because they randomly chose to be bad idk" is just as unhelpful as "someone did something bad because they were born bad". but "someone did something bad because of X thing they're struggling with, or their Y need is unmet" is helpful, that's something you can work with and fix. integrate this into your anarchist worldview.

and lastly, tbh it's isolating to have "scary" or "bad" symptoms, and then get told by armchair "mental health advocates" online that you're just choosing to have those symptoms and maybe you could be a better person if you simply chose to stop having mental illness in the first place. so you know, don't be fucking rude lol

#some of this wording is probably clunky from an anti-psych lens #but heres my morning soapbox #🙈 READING COMPREHENSION CHECK ✅: #Q: ''so you think all abusers are helpless babies that should be coddled?'' A: no. but behavior doesn't exist in a vacuum - #- and this post is about more than just ''abusers'' specifically #Q: '' so you think abusers should go unpunished?'' A: by our current definition at least yeah. also maybe yeah in general idk. - #- I'm a prison abolitionist; including involuntary hospital confinement. there's better options out there than torturing people. #Q: ''why are you sympathizing with abusers?!?!'' A: you have more in common with ''abusers'' than you think - #- and until you accept that; you're never going to escape the ''good person vs bad person'' false dichotomy. #Q: ''what's even the point of this post?'' A: the point is that mental illness/disorder is not always harmless or something that - #- only affects the person experiencing it and your discourse should make room for this fact instead of ignoring it - #- in favor of the easier feel-good arguments that leave more stigmatized experiences behind.