#yes i definitely know what im doing

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[dyketubbo]

i think before joining or making a minecraft roleplay server every creator needs to either have played at least ONE campagin of a ttrpg of their choice (doesnt have to be dnd) or they must have spent their entire childhood roleplaying with people on any social media/forum/chat app their tiny hands could get a hold on. i want these minecraft roleplayers to have backgrounds in doing roleplay with actions written out *like this* in their friends text messages and getting into insane drama as teenagers in discord roleplay servers

#if you really want to get into it. there needs to be more mcrps with members who got in trouble for having mary sue ocs on roleplay forums-- #for the record i did in fact do both of the things mentioned at the end here #shout out to my bestie in middle school who would do underfell bone brothers rp with me #we texted each other roleplay and also sent each other voice messages. and also did it irl . #mcyt #mcrp #qsmp #and. to be mean #dsmp #yes i know this would possibly disqualify tubbo because he hasnt played dnd before now #but. he knows what kinning means. i KNOW he knows what kinning means #and he knows the spiritual definition. and hes a creek shipper #im sure that man has SOME sort of roleplay history before joining minecraft smps ok #on the note of things ive gotten into though i have in fact gotten into insane drama because of discord roleplay servers #shoutout to the rp server that ended because one of the main writers partners cheated on them . that server was a pit of toxic waste #but boy did 15yr old me really enjoy working on the story except for all the times i got suicidal about it #but thats the magic of roleplaying as a teenager ok #if you didnt come out of it traumatized were you REALLY roleplaying.

[moonilit]

just went through the second part of the AQ and to put it mildly, im not handling these sad Victorian children well

#By not handling it well i mean im crying #LUMINE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU #You worried about fucking CHILDE but not the actual CHILDREN we got in prison????????????? #Who cares if childe is dead or not freminet the actual child nearly got dissolved like mentos in coke! #Who cares about childe here??? Lynette nearly had her ptsd triggered lyney DEFINITELY got at least a panic attack #THEY ARE AT THE FUCKING PRISON WOMAN GET IT TOGETHER #also why are we having visions about childe ew and why are they fully cinematic?? Who is filming??? #Like childe funny as a meme to observe but don’t actually get him that close don’t test me know ur place #When did we even become that close with childe??? Im sorry what??? #I can’t keep seeing them kids in life threatening situations on trial then this???? #Arlecchino you are on a THIN FUCKING ICE #Im watching you!! Im watching you you better not turn into an abuser by actual standards #*break into genshin codes* stay right were you are sweetie im coming rn im going to get you out of this game into a loving family #Im not handling this well #genshin impact #freminet #lyney #lynette #yes I know im the last human on earth to do the quest leave me alone it been a busy time #Im going to kill anyone that get between me and the safety of these kids CHILDE GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY PLOT YOU ARE MAKING THIS TAKE TIME

[littlelightfish]

The hearts don't mean he is in love with no one. The problem with English is how vague of the word love is in his meaning. It envolves different kinds of caring in one single word. But I'll try to express here what I mean.

He cares, as a person, about everyone. This is a basic level of love that he haves towards everybody. He doesn't want anyone to actually die, that's what I mean. He doesn't necesarily cares about someone, but he loves them enough to not want them to die.

He starts befriending someone and gets to know it. He starts liking things about them and disliking others. He starts loving this people in another way, we'll call it liking. This is more a get-to-know phase he doesn't always like. The less he knows, the less reasons to get attached get attached he has. I think this are the kind of love the hearts show in the image. He has to make sure to keep a balance between how much he loves and how much he let's himself be loved. He doesn't want to have misunderstandings. He is in constant fear of "what if I made them love me more and they care more?"

And then it comes the deeply care that love is in the non-romantic way. This care a (good) parent has for his babies. The love that makes people suffer emotionally in an absolute different way from what it could be a heartbreak or a misunderstanding between friends. If something happens to the loved one, the pain is unbearable. It's one of the worst things rhat can happen. And Chilchuck knows this, he is father of three daughters, and his wife left him. She left, he knows the pain it is to come home and find it empty when there should be someone. He knows the guilt it comes with failing those loved ones. The shame. He doesn't like being this vulnerable. This love makes him suffer like no other does. So he is very very carefull of how much he allows himself to care about someone so he won't get to love like this.

He draws a line between work and private life because his private life envolves love and deep care, and he doesn't want to love nor care like this for people who's job is to constantly risk their lifes. He doesn't want to feel the anguish, he doesn't want to feel the loneliness it will come after the unenviable separation of the party.

He tries his best to not get attached to people. To not let people get attached to him. But he fails. He fails and falls downstairs with a whole drum set.

He can't help but to care about this people. He can't help but to love this people he's been living with the past few weeks in the risking of their lifes. He tells himself he's doing this for money and that he doesn't care, but he does.

Those hearts don't mean anything other than him caring about them. He cares about Senshi. He cares about Marcille. He cares about Laios. About Itsuzumi. About Namari. He cares in a way that hurts. He loves this people. He doesn't want to even imagine a world in where they are gone, or suffering, or in problems. They're his friends, they're something he, unwillingly, accepts as family.

He cares about Falin and Mickbell because he doesn't want them dead. He doesn't feel any anguish toward if they do or not get hurt after they're out of his sight. Sure, he cares, but he can live without thinking about them the rest of his days. It doesn't happen like that with Laios. He can't just simply let Laios go and follow Fallin just after he recover consciousness from a punch in the gut. Was it Mickbell, he would let him if he really didn't wanted. But Laios didn't wanted to sit and wait, and he had to care. He had to verbalize to himself that he cared. He had to let them know, so they would act accordingly. So they won't get themselves killed like idiots.

He doesn't want others to fall in romantic love with him. He doesn't feel romantic love towards anyone either. He isn't the man for this kind of love. He is, in fact, afraid of it. He doesn't want to fall in love, because he's still in love with his wife. She left him because he was negligent. But since when has this become the definitive stop for love? Chilchuck knows his wife is angry at him, and she has all the reason to be so! His husband, the one she loved and cared for, gets himself in dangerous situations, treats his body poorly and almost never is home. She loves him, and it hurts her to love like this, so she leaves. Like this she won't have to look at him get himself mistreated like he does. She would have the pull in her's stomach that tells her that he could be in great danger, that she could become a widow, but she tries to calm it with his daughter's mail to him. He could never. He can't imagine a world in wich they cease to exist. A world without his wife, even if she distanced herself, without his daughters, would be a world worthless of living. He knows this. Because he cares and he loves in such a deep level that he is scared of loving anyone else like this. To become so vulnerable to emotion. This vulnerable to something bad happening.

The fact that he is so afraid of loosing his wife, even after she left him, says a lot. He still cares about her. He is still in love with her. He wants to go back to what it was before, but he can't and he know its his fault. And he respects his wife's distance because he loves her. Now, he doesn't love her in the movie way, he isnt in love like a teenager would to his first girlfriend, he doesn't want to kiss her, or hug her, or be by her side at all moments of the day. He loves her. He cares about her deeply, deeply enough that he doesn't need to be by her side to care, to love. He also respects her. He can survive without her because he knows she's better with his daughter. For sure he wants to hug, kiss and be by the side of this person he loves, it would be ideal, but he can survive without thinking about it too much. It's just like with his daughters. They're all adults that now live far from him. And he is ok with it now. He sends mail and recieves mail, and even if he misses greatly, he can manage not to think about it. Because he knows she is allright. Because he knows he fucked up. He doesn't know where he fuked up, but for his wife to leave him, at least he knows he did. They never talked about it, because they both seem to have a problem in expressing themselves. She fell into a bad mood and then she disappeared. The amount of pain he must have felt it's... let's say it's quite big.

He keeps his guard up. He doesn't want to love deeply anyone. He doesn't want to feel the emptiness, the hurt, that comes after someone so dear leaves. He knows for a fact he'll be leaving this people. He knows that they could die. If he loves, it will hurt in a way nothing else hurts. He will miss. He doesn't like missing people he cares like this. This is why he doesn't want to love. This is why he doesn't want to be loved. This is why those hearts that are almost full are his main source of concern. This is why he makes the effort to keep this feelings at bay, to love only in the friendly way and with extreme caution.

But he can't controll his own love. And he ends up caring more and more about these people. He slowly makes him a part of the dangerous love zone that family means. He is afraid to confuse someone about his feelings towards them, so he still tries to maintain distance with his abusive remarks, but this only works so far. He loves and is loved. And because of this he will suffer.

I... I extended myself a bit I see...

#i dont even know what im talking about anymore #but i hope i made sense #as an aroace i feel the need of being extra cautious about how people think of my relationship with them #because I dont want them to like me romantically #i want friendship #because its so uncomfortablr #not #love #so this Chil here is basically me trying to figure out if saying certain things could be considered flirting or not by the other #i shouldnt care #it isnt my fault if they do fall in love with me #but i would be happier if they didnt #to know someone is in love wirh you #and that you dont love him back #but youre still friends #so youre friends but the other wants to be more than that #and to avoid that i gotta measure every interaction #maybe im a bit paranoid #but it has happened to me to have friends fall in love with me #and i dont want to hurt their feelongs but i definitely dont lovs rhem bacj #because i care abkut them in a friendly way #and i don't want them to suffer because of me. but I dont want to suffer because of them either #its all way to complicated? yes bit thing is that chil here represents me interacting with my friends #but in my case the hearts would be romantic #dungeon meshi #chilchuck #chilchuck tims #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi spoilers #my shit

[g-l-owstick]

father son photo shoot :-)

#donquixote rosinante #trafalgar law #one piece #one piece fanart #yes i think im funny #i definitely know what a 10 year old looks like (lie) #find me a stock image that would be funny for doffy cora & (child) law and ill do that too

[whumpshaped]

also not to be a robotfucker on main but do u ever think about how all the little sex toys we made feel soooo good and how itd be so cool to have a little robot partner. and how that could turn so fucking whumpy so quickly. do u ever think abt robot noncon. no? just me? ok

#im just saying those things r precise and Powerful #i just love robots bro #the whole idea of 'we made this thing thats literally better than us in 95% of areas and if it turned against us thatd be devastating' #not even irl but like scifi definitely lol #its sooo hot #its like basically the other side of having a monster bf #except w the monster bf ur like oh yea this is my monster bf i am taking a very clear risk here #and w the robot ur like ah yes this is my robot gf i will never assume a single bad thing and her bc she was programmed to be perfect :) #why would she ever maul me like ur monster bf thats so silly :) #yes i know shes even stronger than him whats ur point shes never gonna do it haha #anyway #whump #citrus scale #nonhuman whumper

[rainbowninjas]

I have this kakagai prompt where everyone speculates about Kakashi and Gai, but no one knows they are actually married, except for Tsunade (because she had access to all files when she became Hokage) the administration chunin that processed the marriage documentation…and Lee. 

He figured it out at 12 and it was confirmed by Gai himself when Lee asked him. Later, Kakashi also confirmed it and that was it. 

So years later, when some powerful nobleman comes to Konoha, ready to negotiate an arranged marriage with the Rokudaime to either his son or daughter, Lee is very confused when everyone goes into shock after he kindly reminds the nobleman that an arranged marriage will not be posible because Kakashi-sama ( “Please drop the ‘lord’ part, Lee”) is already married to Gai-sensei because, well...wasn't that common knowledge? 

#in lees defense #no one asked him before #Neji goes WHAT DO YOU MEAN OUR DAD IS MARRIED?!! I mean our sensei...NO ACTUALLY YES OUR DAD WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE IS MARRIED TO KAKASHI #Sasuke who was hiding behind a tree jumps out screaming NO WHAT DO *YOU* MEAN HE IS MARRIED TO GAI LIKE WAIT A SECOND HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN #MARRIED TO EACHOTHER??!! #Gai: Uh like 15 years #Kakashi: 15 years 5 months and 3 weeks #Nart: what #Sakura: called it #Gaara: HOLY SHIT YOU ARE TELLING ME I FORGOT TO INVITE YOUR OTHER *DAD* TO THAT MEETING AT MY HOUSE TO ANNOUNCE WE WERE DATING FORMALLY LEE #Tenten: im actually disappointed in myself for not realizing it sooner like it was right THERE #tenzo definitively knows too #he was their witness ahaha #kakagai #hatake Kakashi #maito gai #rock lee

[karamazovanon]

finally got around to making the dostoevsky translation poll :D for the sake of brevity, i'm only including the major ones that have done 4+ works and that i personally have seen the most, but if your fav isn't on here (e.g. oliver ready's c&p, ignat avsey) or you have any other thoughts PUT IT IN THE TAGS!!! WOO DATA

#fyodor dostoevsky #fyodor dostoyevsky #im excited to see how this plays out........everywhere i look i get different answers and i think its really interesting #like in my search of mostly reddit p&v seemed to be THE definitive translations for a long while but nowadays they dont seem as popular? #i want to know what the tumblrinas think because i value yalls opinions INFINITELY more than crusty reddit men <3 #im very excited to do data analysis/visualizations about this and whatever yall have to say in the tags #<- yes im a loser stem student how could you tell #anonpost

[maydayissleepy]

Hello fellow tumblr users it is I, also a tumblr user

#oh god what are these #ah yes i see i definitely know what im doing here

[cherry-bomb-ships]

Ok guys I knowwwww the 2016 PPG remake is bad. I'm seeing it firsthand with my own eyes as I watch it because I'm a bit sadistic. There's a lot of shit in here that makes me gag from its sheer stupidity.

But listen. Where the fuck else do I get fanservice gold like THIS 💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖

#''ruby what the fuck do you mean fanservice“ I MEAN TO ME AND ONLY ME. NOW BEGONE #THE FF. THE FUCKING APRON?????? HEELLLLPPPPPP #HE IS SERVING IN IT TBH LIKE WHAT A KING. MY LIL MALEWIFE UUUUGH #amd the fucking. the gAY LITTLE SIT. THE KITTY TEACUP. AND IN THE EPISODE WE SEE A MATCHING KITTY TEAPOT #AND YES I DEFINITELY BOUGHT THOSE AND HE KEPT THEM 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 #also he has a line in this episode after bubbles calls him ugly wher he argues he's 'a solid *pause to think* EIGHT out of ten!!' #AND THE PAUSE TO THINK KILLS ME. THE TIME FOR CONSIDERATION. THE SLIGHT HUMBLENESS GOD #girl i can read way too far into even the most surface level dogshit of media if there is a character i want to hold dearly in there #you dont KNOW what im capable of >:] #anyways yeah. remake still bad and im reeeeaaaly starting to hate his design in it (HE'S TOO FUCKING W I D E) but hey #at least i get things like this and get to eat it the fuck UP. NOM. #ok i gotta go to bed for work but at least I'm getting a solid 8 hours yayyyy -w- gnight fam 💝💝💝💝 #ruby rambles #💜: loving you's a felony

[lazybakerart]

the only way i will NOT enjoy the live action yu yu hakusho netflix show is if they push a heterosexual agenda. it’s shounen, which means it’s gay, and i refuse to watch kurama be anything less than flaming.

#yu yu hakusho #kurahi #this post is for myself #gearing up for 2023 where i will lose my mind #let them be shirtless and gay gay gay goddamnit #i know they're doing some Different Aesthetics for hiei but if they take away #his kurama-based fanboy gushing than i just dont know if i can support that atrocity #im getting so excited about it yall dont even know yall i know it will be bad but goddamnit im here for it yes i am #(i may have had a dream about it for a few nights in a row and i cant contain the emotions i cant i cant))) #let me read this in 2023 after watching and see whats changed #i assume its bad but how bad #if they take away the humor thatll definitely knock it down #but if they keep it funny and stupid and dramatic as all hell like yes okay give me the cheese please #i need kurama to pick on hiei and i need hiei to be pissy about it #the hair can be bad the costumes can be bad the acting can be bad i dont care im so excited

[quietwingsinthesky]

most frustrating part of writing a doctor who oc is that the doctor and the master will both sometimes just fuck off and do their own thing for a hundred years and be unfazed by it because they are functionally immortal. and i can’t stick my oc with them because they’ll just. die. so what, do i just put them in a pen until those guys get back? spruce up their enclosure while they’re waiting to get picked up to go on adventures again?

#yes yes the mortality of a companion against the doctor’s long life is part of the point its part of the tragedy but consider: i want them #to also be there so they can get into shenanigans. and not die of old age before im done letting them do shenanigans #look either i kick even out of the tardis every time these guys go do immortal shit or i find a was to Fix this problem and i dont really #know how to do either of these yet. ill figure it out #i *do* know that they’re not with missy while she’s setting up the cybermen plan over hundreds of years. maybe for brief moments when missy #wants an extra hand or eye candy or something else but mostly even’s stuck at the end feeling nauseous as missy goes about rewriting time to #make cyberzombies. not nauseous because of the cyberzombies. to be clear. they’ve just spent enough time fucking around with tardises and #time wars and the like that they’re a little sensitive to shit getting messed around with. tummyaches :( #id think a lot of companions get this eventually. i think the ponds definitely did. to me anyway. they should. #background tardis time vortex radiation idk how science works. but it gives even tummyaches. #i got distracted i was talking about mortality and how to prevent them dying too soon. #mostly even’s there to run the ‘business’ while missy’s away. they’re very good at being given a Job. #and this job is supposed to fix everything forever once they get the doctor onboard. it doesn’t. but even thinks it will. which is what #matters in the end. #dw oc

[shanedoesdoodles]

You ever look for a specific word/thing to describe a feeling you're having and think you've found it but as you look more into it it turns out it was a simular concept but very distinct from what you were looking for? And then when you try to be more specific everything that pulls up is still the same close but definitely not the same thing to describe it? I'm a stuck in a bit of a loop at the moment

#Been having this odd feeling of just. Nothing being real I guess. Or just me not being real or events not feeling real #I was trying to find a word for what I was experiencing and found 'Depersonalization' and 'Derealization' #(I think I spelled those correctly) #From a first glance the descriptions fit perfectly but as I read more in depth it. Didn't quite fit #It felt adjacent to the unreal feeling I've experienced but definitely not the same #It's like a different flavor #I don't feel detached to my surroundings and myself #I just. Don't feel very real. Or at least very human at least #I don't say that as in im something more than human or anything like that #More like something about me specifically just falls short of being one #And with the events thing it's more just like so much has happened and they've all been so bizarre that they just. #Don't feel real either! #Like yes I'm still experiencing them and being effected by them #But it feels more like the way dreams or over dramatic stories go if that makes since #I still haven't found the right words for these feelings. I hope I do eventually. #I feel like knowing what's causing it/what it is would help ground me more #Whatever it is those two words definitions/symptoms just don't feel right #Does this count as a vent?? I mean it not really a solely negative feeling #I do feel like it could be upsetting/unsettling to others and my come off as venty so I'll mark it as such just in case #tw vent

[lloydfrontera]

i know it's the logical conclusion and realistically it makes sense to point out that people can only like you so much. but. i really want lloyd to be proven wrong. i really want him to realize there's no limit to how much someone can love you. i want his parents and javier and julien's approval rating to keep going up even when lloyd thinks there's nothing more he can do to earn their love for him. i want him to be able to learn that sometimes love can keep growing every day for no other reason than because the other person is choosing to love you over and over again. i just want him to feel loved just for being him and not for what he does is that too much to ask for?!?

#lloyd frontera #tged #the greatest estate developer #i know it's probably not what the novel is going for but!! i can dream!! #like yeah it's realistic that at one point he won't be able to make people's approval of him keep going up #because there's only so much he can do to make them like him #but like!! love doesn't work like that!! your actions do matter when it comes to whether someone loves you or not #but at one point it also comes to the other person deciding to keep loving you! to choose to keep building upon that foundation!! #and i want lloyd to experience that!! #i want him to realize that yes there is a point where he won't be able to do more to earn more approval from them. but that it doesn't #matter because they love him and everyday they spent with him is one where they love him more #im sorry im a sucker for characters finding out how loved they are by their family and friends do you still think im hot #one thing i do have to say is that tged has always been very clear that actions do matter when it comes to people liking or loving you #like it starts with lloyd taking over the body of someone who by his own actions had made it so everyone hated him #and so he had to earn back the trust and approval of everyone around him #but that's an extreme case! it wasn't even something he had done! but it definitely influenced how he approached everyone around him #because instead of having to just start from 0 and naturally build relationships like it's normally done #he had to work twice as hard to repair what og lloyd had broken #idk i just think it's fascinating and i would love if the novel acknowledged how unfair and actually a little fucked up it was to give him #a system where he had to earn points from his relationships with others and always be aware of how much they either liked or disliked him #(something that would fuck with the self esteem of anyone) #while also putting him in the body of someone who had already done so much to burn bridges with everyone and his damn best to be disliked #but i know it's probably too much to ask for 😅 #i talk a lot <3

[franeridan]

nearly done with my op reread and for the longest time my theory was that the d marked the descendants of the people native of the island that eight hundred years ago fought the twenty nations, but rereading the part about lili I thought maybe it's more lax and it marks everyone who opposed the current government in general, not just those from the island - she was the queen of one of the twenty kingdoms after all, and imu didn't seem to know the nefertaris had a d in the name as well, but before the war there would have been no reason to hide it? so i think it's something they added to their names later, maybe to recognise each other as allies? or something? the kozuki were obviously allied too and don't have a d though, so I can't say this theory makes a hundred percent sense. also i find interesting how law is hiding the water part of his name too together with the d, i wonder if that has any further meaning? another interesting thing is that there seems to have been some form of prophecy or prediction about what's currently happening in the manga, since oden knew he had to wait twenty years and the sea monsters in the oden flashback on fishmen island were talking about it too... maybe a prediction about a war? since oden wanted to unleash pluton. I wonder what exactly they found out on laugh tale that made them all laugh when the events the wg is keeping secret seem to be this tragic... also, i think i never even noticed during my first readthrough of egghead but there's someone offshore with blackbeard's flag? a small boat, it seems, but I think atm we know all blackbeard pirates are either on the pirate island or fighting against the hearts (;;;) so I wonder who exactly that is? also, I didn't catch this either first time around but I feel like the germa might just be heading there as well right now lmao the thing with kuma returning to mariejois happening so soon after vp talked about the ancient robot attacking mariejois and no one knowing why is also suspicious to me, I wonder if vegpunk used data from that robot to turn kuma into a cyborg and that's tied to why he returned there for apparently no reason...?? anyway I thought rereading would help me clear up some questions but instead it left me with even more kkkk should have figured

#I'm about ten chapters away from the latest one im so sad #im also sad cause i just saw kidd and law lose once again but that's beside the point maybe #luffy is headed to elbaph next i wonder if he'll find kidd there... #i love shanks sm and i get why he protected his own but i love kidds crew i hope they're okay 😢😢😢😢 #the hearts too but i trust the hearts will be back #bc the manga used the word destroyed for kidd and defeated for the hearts #defeated sounds a bit less........ definitive #and also cause we know at least bepo and law are fine and bepo said to trust the crew to be fine too so #i don't think oda would be that big of a bastard #maybe blackbeard took them hostage hoping for law to be back since he obviously wanted the ope ope fruit? #maybe theyre with pudding now and they'll help her escape #maybe i need to stop setting myself up for disappointment lmao #but yes i trust the hearts to be back for now but im worried about the kidd pirates ;;;;;; #i hope shanks didn't kill them kidd had just become one of luffy's friends 😭😭 #also hoping garp didn't actually die but that's........like............... hoping in a delusional sort of way yk #on punk hazard kuzan told smoker to trust that his sense of justice is still intact #and i sorta like kuzan's morals tbh so i trust he knows what he's doing when he stands between blackbeard's crew #i just hope he won't regret it yk? man just maybe killed his life techer for this i hope this is worth it for him #also straight up i just don't want luffy to lose someone else like straight up my son doesn't deserve this #and dragon doesn't either!!! #i love dragon so much........i hope he'll be luffy-relevant soon..........

[lordofthesillystraws]

everyone has an angsty ososan au right?? like, a lot of my ososan aus are just them being idiots as usual but in a different context, but i have this one,,, this one au where everything is horrible. i dunno, maybe ill post about these sometime, meanwhile i still gotta finish the creator curator-matsus.

#woah ! the bunny talks ! #osomatsu san #ik im definitely not the only one with an angsty au #but sometimes its funny to give them insane powers and let them continue being stupid yknow?? #yes most of my aus are based off hesowars sets i can do what i want #its not like i know much about hesowars anyway. i missed out on it and have only seen the sprites #maybe im reinventing the wheel with these. idk i like to let them unleash the whimsy within #i realize a lot of my aus are based around osomatsu and todomatsu. uhhh i have very clear faves #NOT saying that as a ship. i just really like those two theyre my faves.